One Year Later ¦ How it Feels to Lose Your Wife

On the one year anniversary I wanted to focus on where I have come from as a husband and daddy losing his wife, in hopes that perhaps it may be of use to other men in the same situation.

[@amandaoroberts]

My mom was so close to Andrea and had survivors guilt when she had passed. Mom was diagnosed with Cancer last June and she had really grieved when Andrea passed. Now it’s been a year. Mom passed away this June. She’s rejoicing in heaven with Andrea. Part of me feels so empty. You’re a great dad. And you could never be Andrea as a parent but you can be you and that’s all that she’d ever want.

[@amy.thomson1989]

Sorry for your loss Amanda ❤

[@lanashewmaker3114]

Tom, for me, this was the most enjoyable and authentic post since you’ve lost Andrea. I had begun watching this channel when I stumbled across it and found Andrea to be so real. I really had nothing in common with her, as she was a younger woman with a house full of children and I am an older widowed woman. Her gentle, precious personality had drawn me in. Then, suddenly she was gone. In my own way, I grieved her loss. She had filled a void for the loss of my husband and mother. In this vlog today, I see the authenticity that drew me to this channel in the first place. I love your writing and how you read it with such tenderness and transparency. Have you considered writing a book? I believe it would also do well for Audible, as your voice is very conducive for that format, as well. As a fellow griever, I did as you by keeping busy to avoid feeling, until the floodgates would no longer hold the emotions and I was forced to deal with them. This vlog sounds as if you are making positive forward movements, though, in your grief journey. Wishing you many blessings.

[@TheMillsFamilyVlog]

Thanks for sticking with us, I know it's been a strange journey. I am glad to know people like you are out there :)

[@arieknight1370]

This is so beautiful Tom!!! Your family is loved and cherished

[@margaretwhitehead4802]

How did your mom adjust when your father died?

[@elleamo92]

his speech made me cry..

[@mareek.]

My heart goes out to you! I still miss Andrea and always wish you and your family well.

[@candacehorton-simons8450]

Honestly, I struggled with getting remarried after the loss I experienced. Losing the person you felt one with.😥 I now have another soul to feel at one with, but not the same. It should not be the same.😊 Do not let anyone tell you to have a time frame to move forward. Andrea will always be by your side. You have your family/children together. You have 9 pieces of Andrea that you see everyday. She will be with you every single day when you look at your childrens faces. Their personalities. I so wish I had a vlog during my experience. I have found happiness, and blessed with a child we share. You have found happiness again, and let it be different. You will be with Andrea and your baby boy again. I am so happy you have such wonderful support. Keep posting and sharing!❤ Bless you all!!! This was a beautiful tribute to Andrea.😇

[@kathyfloydflashy1]

Wow, just wow! A man who can describe so eloquently his feelings. I felt every word. I really like the April that I see on the channel, but if I’m completely honest, I have been watching intently to see if there would be a crack that might reveal if she wasn’t genuine. To my delight, she has been steady and it’s obvious the children love her. And children cannot be fooled. I’ve watched your heart break this past year and feared for you. But after this video, I fear no more. You are not a gullible man and I sense that you have turned a corner. What I’m trying to say is, I’m not worried about you anymore. I look forward to enjoying watching your families future, whatever you decide. Please continue to allow us to follow along. ❤️🙏🏻✝️

[@TheMillsFamilyVlog]

Thank you so much for this, I can’t tell you how much I appreciate it.

[@lyndseydaum3209]

I’ve been so down today. I miss her. I’m still praying for your family.

[@DaniellaR-xp4cp]

I'm happy to have met her on fb, I will always remember her and her laugh when she was videoing others and her insights on the vine talks. I will honor her by remembering she was a life giver (children) and a teacher of life in so many areas...she treasured every moment and we should too as we carry on. May God give you that peace which surpasses all understanding....butterfly =hope, purple= royalty, fatness=rich...she really is in a good place.

[@Plantedbythestream]

Ironically this video mirrors the one Andrea made titled When Someone You Love Dies. Played back to back it’s almost a conversation between the two of you, as if she was speaking the answer to a question you hadn’t asked yet. She talked about emotional resilience so eloquently. When you mentioned Andrea's legacy it reminded me of when I lost my mother when I was just a little girl. She wasn’t brought up in conversation again, It was as if she never existed and I know now that was just how my father coped. The things you do with the kids like simply talking about Andrea and the cards and letters you had them write to her, all say she was here, and her love was real and she will always be part of who they are. Maybe that’s what brought me to your channel after Andrea's passing, as well as other people. I think in some way we all have some healing yet to do. God bless all of you.

[@samobrien3015]

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[@janine5575]

Absolutely beautiful. Andrea is never far. Look into any of your babies eyes and she's their.

[@kristylynn9142]

My heartfelt prayers and love yalls way. Im 8 yrs into being a widow myself. Your feelings and thoughts many of us relate to and we are here supporting y'all .

[@Partikelfysik]

I love how you made this video. You made it so loving, respectfull and peacefull. It reminds me of her video: When Someone You Love Dies”.

[@candicegolden8859]

I lost my husband in 2008. I was just 33 when I became a widow. I had 2 year old at the time. I had no family support what so ever. Tom I'm glad you had the love and support of your family and also your KZbin friends. Tom I love you and all your children. April and Rachel and Josh I also love you. Thank you for coming into the Mills families lives and also the KZbin families lives.

[@grateful1929]

I'm so sorry. She was so precious! I know it hurts. I know Andrea would say "it's okay." "I want you happy Tom." That was her heart. That was Andrea. I wish I could be more like her.❤️

[@taratrudeau2029]

This was beautiful Tom. You opened up sooo much and shared alot of personal feelings. You had me in tears. This video is gonna help alot of people dealing with loss. I love the way you filmed and edited it. It was so peaceful and calming. Thank you for sharing.

[@kellyambrose2878]

Agree! The filming was fantastic

[@endeavouringit]

ditto

[@grandmasewhappyhomestead187]

I so agree! It couldn't have been done any better it was beautiful I sat and watched with my youngest my 23 year old. The part where he talked about putting dirt and grass seed and watering it in a place where he could sit. Is very much with the Lord does he wants us to sit and spend time with him and how is creating a new space a different surrounding to Captivate Tom's heart to speak to him and give him refreshment to his soul and mind just like the seeds are put in the soil and is Tom Waters those seeds to have the grass grow. Is very much how the Lord Waters us and helps us grow and continue. The beauty of this video through such a tough time in their lives is going to minister to so many. The video is so well done like a professional movie. Lord we stand and covered Tom and all the children the Mills Family and now April and her family. Lord may you continue to write the story of your amazing love and what that looks like

[@KD_RN]

this had me in tears... I hope do hope she can see you from heaven so she knows what a wonderful job you’re doing with the kids. So happy you found April 🤍 God bless you and your family.

[@tinafromohio]

Tom, thank you for sharing your journal entries with us. This video is very well done and well executed. You have a way with words and storytelling. I’m glad you’ve found some tools in your first year of grieving: writing your feelings and riding your bike. I’m so glad that you kept up the channel and that it’s helped you because in turn, it’s helped those of us that loved and miss Andrea.

[@rachelball1174]

Dear Tom, I'd give anything to take away your pain. But then it wouldn't be your personal journey. Every thing you are experiencing is normal. The process of grieving is different for each of us. It's wonderful that you have been able to visit with Andrea. What a gift from God. There are days that we have to just put one foot in front of the other and keep moving. As you go along, the pain will lessen. The timing is different for each of us. Just remember that God is holding you in the palm of his hand. Thank you for sharing this with us.

[@connielahman5725]

Oh Tom this was absolutely beautiful and ur helping so many that are going through the grieving process .I am just in the beginning stages of grieving as I lost my sweet husband unexpectedly in June due to an accident and just feel so very lost without him here.I believe I’ve always been a strong person but when you lose ur life partner quite frankly it puts you in a place where not only do feel loss but desperate for answers and hope. It truly brings you to ur knees.Like you when I stay really busy I do better but when my body is tired from working so hard I crash with sad emotions in the painful quiet and still night.Every single feeling you mention I am going through myself so I think your progress and ur sharing of ur dream with Andrea gives me some peace of heart.I pray my husband will also come to me in a dream.Thank you for being so candid and sharing ur personal dream of Andrea .i pray God showers you with happiness and peace of heart.I believe God is trying to help many of us lost in grief with ur honesty and witness.Take Good care.

[@lizstewart8526]

Praying for you Connie, in the loss of your beloved husband. I pray that God gives you His grace & peace during this difficult time & that you feel His presence fully. 🙏❤️

[@grandmasewhappyhomestead187]

Connie may the precious Lord Jesus wrap his arms around you and carry you through all that you're going through.

[@peterpan05]

This is absolutely stunning. Your words on grief are so honest and raw. The imagery, especially your bike ride, have touched my soul. Thank you for sharing with us. We loved Andrea and we love you. 🤍🤍

[@pj89-96]

God bless you and your precious children Tom❤

[@nvc9060]

I have never in my life been impacted by the death of someone I have never met more than Andrea. I have shed countless tears for you and your children as you grieve the loss of your wife. I sought out others to pray for her while she was in the hospital wanting the opposite outcome for you all so very much. I will be honest to say that at first I had some feelings of reservation that you had found someone else so "quickly" and I am truely sorry for that. April seems to be such a good fit for your family. I pray that this next year will find you with health, joy and peace.

[@viveannelucas3344]

Absolutely beautiful! You honored her so perfectly on this one year mark with this remembrance video. She would be so proud of you and now of April. It is so amazing how April and her family fit perfect with your family. I truly feel that Andrea and Scott had something to do with bringing all of your hearts here on earth together. I will keep you in prayer as you continue to heal and bond your two families together. You deserve only the best. ❤️🙏

[@momto5.]

I had a dream about my dad (he died in 1995 unexpectedly when I was only 16) the dream happened in 2006 and in the dream we were in a beautiful grassy field , sitting at a picnic table , he said to me that I was pregnant and it was a little girl he kept smiling and laughing saying he was so excited for me . I said but I’m not pregnant! And he just kept saying you are! That’s all I can remember of the dream. Well About a week later I found out I was pregnant! A healthy baby GIRL!! I love and miss my dad so much. ❤️ Andrea did talk to you. Because I know my Dad talked to me. ❤️

[@kimr4610]

I don’t have words to express how beautiful this is❤️

[@lindawillis1102]

God will carry you through Tom! Having lost my husband 6 years ago I know where you're coming from and my heart aches for you and the children! But, in time it will get better....No you will never forget Andrea and she will live forever in your heart! Prayers and Love

[@CalvinGomes]

I just want to thank you for this. After 25 years of marriage, I lost my 44 year old wife to cancer 10 months ago (we have 6 kids). I'm still going through grief and I stumbled across your video in my search...everything you said in your main reflection and your dream is pretry much how I felt and it brought me to tears. And when Andrea responded in your dream, this is exactly how my wife, Nadia, would respond. I was so impacted. I have asked God for a dream like this for many months and so far it hasn’t happened. Your words seem to answer what I was looking for, so maybe he helped me find this video. Thank you.

[@TheMillsFamilyVlog]

Thanks man, means a lot. It is such a terrible burden to carry, it sucks...somehow it feels a little better knowing someone else is carrying it too.

[@mallorymuse4515]

Tom, this is so well done. Have you ever considered writing a book about your journey? Blessings to you and the kids.

[@2plus2by2]

That was beautiful, honest and raw. Thank you so much for sharing this.

[@saraellen8433]

This video is such a strong testimony of how much God cares for us and carries us through our very deep valleys. You have shown the love of God to many thru your grief. God continue to hold and bless the Mills. 🙏

[@saras7722]

Thank you for this Tom. I miss her so much. She is the reason my 4th baby is here and was born at home. She was my mentor. I pray for you all and think of you all often.

[@TheMillsFamilyVlog]

Things like these affect me profoundly and make me glad we do the channel.

[@saras7722]

@@TheMillsFamilyVlog She impacted me greatly and she lives on inside all of our hearts. I strive everyday to be half the Godly woman she was. I reference back to her videos all the time. You and the kids are so very loved.

[@judykelly5358]

Oh Tom, thank you for sharing - your honesty is incredibly moving, and I believe, healing. xx

[@ditasfelicia1506]

I’m a widow and so this spoke to me. I heard every word you said. ❤️

[@sheilas1283]

Me too. My husband died unexpectedly in November last year and this has been a very hard 9 months.

[@ditasfelicia1506]

@@sheilas1283 I'm so sorry for your loss.❤ I know how difficult it is in the early months/years. Mine has been several years but watching Tom's video brought me back to that first year. I felt like drowning all over again ... but only for awhile. I know healing comes somehow and with it, hope. It will be alright.

[@brendaz3644]

My husband died unexpectedly Dec 13 2016. It sure is a painful grieving...

[@sandramullen7804]

Tom, you described the journey to a T. 💔

[@ddoz11]

Thank you so much Tom for allowing us to be apart of your journey since your loss of beautiful Andrea! One year later I wish you all the best for you April and the kids future. You have such a gift to write. Have you ever thought of writing a book. I have always loved the scenery of Wyoming it looks so heavenly. God bless you Tom.

[@psychedelichippie9759]

This is beautiful Tom. Something I needed to hear today. Going into deep thoughts about my own grief from losing a spouse.

[@valerieg6800]

This was such a beautiful video Tom!! Prayers and hugs to you and your family !

[@Amenhomeschoolers]

I’m so glad you did this for you (and us)! Beautiful!

[@nancylaura4040]

What an absolute beautiful tribute to your late wife and your journey through grief Tom! I really enjoyed this video and I pray for your continued healing!!

[@pennybrown7292]

This was so beautiful Tom. You have come a long way. It might not feel like, it but you have. I lost my husband 11 yrs. ago. Grieving is different for everybody, but we could probably say it like a wave. It eases up and then something will remind us of that person, then it comes back. I'm praying for you and April and all the kids. I wish all of you the best.

[@foreverblessed879]

I really haven’t been back since the loss of Andrea, I’m happy to hear that you are doing better. It’s just not the same without Andrea, I miss her beautiful smile and spirit. Thanks for sharing this with us. I’ll be back in a few months to check in and see how you and the kids are. Much love ❤️

[@KatieKatherine415]

This is beautiful, Tom. Thank you for continuing to share your life with us. 💙

[@llhughes1803]

This was so honest, raw and beautiful. Grief is at times brutal and takes your breath away. Amazing growth and insight comes from loss. I’m sure April has been such a help in helping you deal with this grief. Make sure you check in with her as well and especially with the kids. Thank you for sharing.

[@nancyj9892]

I've always thought you were a beautiful speaker. You could be a writer for sure. Yes, you're a leader, yes, you're descriptive, yes, you're strong in your vocabulary, spirit and soul. Thankyou for bearing your thoughts about your grief. This will help someone I know. Let God continue to use you. You are all so precious in His sight, Tom. God Bless!

[@deesim3991]

Thank you for sharing. I don't understand how anyone could thumbs down this. The second year was the hardest for me when I lost my mom. The realization that she was really and truly gone. You and your family are in my prayers.

[@rueivy]

Thank you for sharing this glimpse at that past year Tom. Your words were so impractical and beautiful. Andrea is very missed by many.

[@Ashley-Miller]

Beautiful Tom. My prayers are with you, your children , and extended family.

[@ggandbb1702]

This was the perfect way to mark the one year point x this was beautiful x

[@ThisWomansBrain]

This was so beautiful Tom. Thanks for doing what you do and sharing as you are comfortable. So glad you have April to talk to. Praying for all of you in the days and weeks to come.

[@sarahsiskin6780]

You’ve done an amazing job this whole past year and we love you very much. You’ve taught your children coping skills which is a gift they can never not use in life.

[@mkf628]

Thank you for sharing this it takes a big man to voice all this out loud so genuinely and honestly. It soothes my own grief. God bless.

[@SuperBamamama]

This was perfectly from your heart. We love you, Tom.

[@AliKrys]

Thank you Tom. I felt so much emotion every minute of this video. Your openness is very comforting and refreshing. As a Muslim from Canada, I began watching Andrea’s channel and she infectiously drew me in. I have cried many tears for her and all of you this year and I pray that you all will be ok. Stay strong!

[@namemeniks]

This is an absolutely beautiful tribute to the love you shared and simultaneously the ability for life to continue. Loss so profound is very heavy and it seems as though over the course of a year, the weight is ever so slowly being lifted as your tone changes, your expressions change. You are strong, your faith is powerful and your family continues to be beloved. May you continue to make progress in your grief and find new light and hope.

[@samanthagrimshaw857]

While I am Christian, I am not practicing. The strength and honesty you have shown so poignantly and expressed with such heart over the last year has been awesome and thought provoking and while I am not sure whether I will practice again, your strength has given me light. Blessings to Andrea’s memory, to you and April and your families.

[@michellehardy812]

This is beautiful!!! Loss is so difficult and we all grieve in our own ways. God bless you and your family.

[@nancyletteer3170]

Your thoughts are so beautiful combined with the pictures. God Bless you Tom.💖

[@mrskay2630]

I love love love love the way your presented this!!!! I have never lost a spouse but when I lost my grandfather who I had had an incredible bond with growing up and into adulthood. I grieved him like I had never grieved anyone else! I can very much relate and understand exactly you are coming from and the questions you have! I have those same exact questions about death and the afterlife! Id love for you do touch more on these theories you have. Andrea you are so missed by us all!

[@TheMillsFamilyVlog]

I always figure nobody wants to really hear my ramblings, but I get surprised when people ask in the bible studies...

[@teresametts1097]

I had a dream like yours many years ago when my Mom passed. I was missing her so much and i deramt that we were driving in the car talking having such a good time. Suddenly I looked at her and said, how can you be here here? You died. She turned her head and looked at me and said....you needed to talk to me didnt you? Then I woke up and i was sitting straight up in bed like I was in the car. I really feel like it was more than a dream. She has been gone almost 22 years now. I know it is different, but the grief does get easier. I promise you will remember things and not be sad. Be kind to yourself. The grief will come in waves. I am glad you have people to support you. But I hope you believe it will get easier.

[@floresromero6]

I believe your mom wanted you to remember the fan you two shared and that’s why she came to you, like that something you two probably did all the time riding in a car laughing and enjoying the ride. 💞 I was/ am a daddy’s girl and when my dad passed he came to me the night he passed and walked into my hous grabbed a chair and sat down in the middle of my kitchen. He looked younger like when I was little, I knew he had passed and I said dad your here! He pulled me to him and gave me the biggest greatest hug ever he felt like a new born baby warm and wet! He hugged me and said I’m okay tell the family not to cry that I’m good! I woke up hugging my pillow my dad knew I would have been so lost and so he came to me so I knew that he was okay. Sure I still cry but not like I think I would have it wasn’t for the dream. You shared your story so I just wanted to tell you mine. 🙂 God bless

[@shanmcdonough2933]

Wow!! Wonderful!!

[@allisonsfollys7713]

This is so beautiful. I love how you Express your feelings and grief I can so relate. I am so glad you did this video it was a help for me in my own walk. I lost my husband of 35 years 15 years ago. I took up with my husband's best friend very soon after. Some people did not understand but ultimately it was the best thing for me. Even though I didn't wait long I walked through all of the stages of grief. Jay was a great help since we both just lost our best friend we helped each other. Thank you for doing this. God bless you in your continued walk on this earth.

[@katrinahimes505]

So beautiful. April is a blessing. Andrea is missed by all.

[@NikkiB10]

This video was so well made, thought out & beautiful. I recently watched Andrea’s video of grieving her mother’s death & this reminded me of it. I appreciate the pictures you added to help us relate to your dream. Wishing you and your family the best on your journey ahead!

[@cynthiarivera8021]

I know how you feel Tom, I lost my husband three years ago, and still sit and grieve over it. It takes awhile. After my husband passed on unexpectedly, I wanted to rearrange my house, because he always had a certain spot he sat in, in his chair, so figuring if I moved the furniture around, and moved his chair, it would help with the grieving process . So I just kept busy, trying to make the grieving process go faster because I didn’t want to think about him not being here. But here I am three years later and still grieving, because I didn’t take the time to grieve.What I have learned is, you can’t rush the grieving process. God bless you Tom, and your family.

[@honeysnowhomestead7223]

I miss Andrea. I'm so glad you made this video and I'm so thankful the Lord has brought April and her family to all of you. She has a special light in her. It makes me so happy to see you all together, laughing! Praying for yall still! We all need prayer and the Lord.

[@jowilliams1010]

I feel your pain and I am sorry that you experienced such a loss. Anniversaries are especially tough. This date diminishes all others. You will forever recall the events of the day and will relive it annually. The pain it brings will lessen with time and this single event above all others will test your faith to the breaking point. You are a pillar of strength. Finish the course, Tom. You've got this!

[@DisneyPoppinsDisney]

Thank you for including us this year!

[@laurawilkins4250]

This could literally be a book, a book on your perspective of grief from losing your wife, I think you would be an amazing author Tom!

[@hastycontemplation]

Thank you for sharing and for sharing your dreams. I think some dreams are so powerful that they leave us changed forever after having them; it is not so much the dream itself but the changes that take place within us as we are having and experiencing the dream and even when we remember the dream. I have had several such dreams and I think of them almost everyday but not just think of them but feel them, they have become integrated into my conscious world and are yet still tethered to the unseen world from which they came.

[@just__celia]

This was beautiful, Tom. Thank you for sharing. I'm glad those bike rides have helped you think. Nature is healing! Sending lots of love to your family!

[@kathyabel5338]

This was so beautiful Tom. I love that you have April in your life. We all miss Andrea too. Your soothing tone of voice while you read your notes and shared your past year, was so loving and thoughtful. You should think more about narrating stories on line.

[@robyncherry9663]

Heartbreaking but also beautiful! I know this grief walk well. I pray God gives you peace as you continue this heartbreaking journey. 🙏🏾💔😔

[@MariCassada]

Thank you for sharing. This video touched my heart. I'm a believer in everything happens for a reason. I'm glad I got to see this. He always tends to know exactly what we need. I looked at the clock after starting this video and it was 2:22.

[@patrioticat]

What a beautiful video. With tears in my eyes I write this. I have had so many family members pass and a lot at young ages and hearing you express your feelings made me think of how I feel about all the loses in my life. One thing I often think about is how blessed I was to have had such wonderful people in my life and sad that know one now will ever get to know them. Also that at times it still feels like a dream did I really have all these family members in my life because I can’t see them or hear them but I do believe they are around me and watching over me. I have to say if I have a dream about one of them and wake up and remember every detail I do believe they came for a visit. When my Father passed I had a dream that morning about my Mom calling me and telling me that he passed and we can go see him at the hospital. A few minutes after the dream the phone rang and it was my Mom telling me my Father passed and we can go see him at the hospital. I truly believe it was my Dad that came to me in the dream to let me know. So when my Mom called to tell me I told her I knew and I told her about the dream. He passed at the exact time I had the dream. They all live forever in my heart as I know Andrea lives in yours. God’s Blessings Always to you and your wonderful family.

[@melodytallmage6274]

I'm praying for y'all 🙏 Andi understand what your going threw my hear hurts for yal butnew journeys ahead trust in faith my friend trust inte Lord he will allways with you

[@julialee143]

Crying, God bless you Tom. Your videos have been an immense blessing for me. I will pray for you and the kids.

[@fifisflowers]

Tom ~ This is one of The Most Heartfelt and Meaningful Videos I have ever seen ~ So Beautifully put together and will help many People asThey find Themselves trying to come to terms with Loss in similar circumstances X

[@nicoleford3122]

I never comment but today I will....I also lost my husband ...November 19 makes 3 years and I grieve daily.....stay strong and keep trusting in God for he’s our only answer....powerful dream....God always give us warnings and signs.....be blessed bro. Tom.....love you and you family plus your new extended family

[@janejones1797]

Oh, Tom. How absolutely beautiful, and what a wonderful tribute.

[@salliedesilvav1559]

Dearest Tom, I have commented a few times. I would probably still say I am a lurker 😂... I so admire you... you have done such an amazing job keeping everything going, honoring the traditions you and Andrea put in place. You are a wonderful person who deserves the greatest life. Tom, I pray for peace for you. I have to tell you that if I were to die, I would want my husband to move on. He needs a companion, I know this... I would want him to have someone loving and kind, someone to care for him. Someone who would accept my children and grandchildren as their own. I say that to say this..... Andrea loves you so much, she would want you to be happy, she would want you to love and be loved in return... pray for wisdom and move forward... Andrea wants you and the children to live a full blessed life... I just know this in my heart....I truly love your family, watching you all on you tube is a joy for me... I do not know how you do it with 9 kids... possibly 11 in the home at some point... my best to you and lively April ... peace to you all 💙

[@purplecheetahprinful]

Beautiful Tom! Thank you for sharing this. I pray for your family.

[@jeannebuckingham17]

Tom that was such a heartfelt synopsis you shared with all of us. I wish nothing but health and happiness for you and your family for the future and I'm so glad that you and April found each other.

[@starlabentley1962]

Beautifully done. Ty for sharing your thoughts and the beautiful views. Amazing sunset. I wish u lots of peace.

[@cherrylm2]

What a beautiful video. You are doing such a good job Tom and you deserve new happiness with April x

[@justinesiemer201]

I shed so many tears watching this vlog Tom. Thank you for sharing such raw emotions with us. You talk about your KZbin family being a comfort to you but i hope you know that your beautiful family are such a comfort to so many of us. So many days I wake up and wonder how I can possibly get out of bed to do all of the things that need to be done. Watching your live chats and videos helps me so much. What a beautiful soul you have found in April. You were brought together just when you both needed each other. It has been beautiful to watch your love grow, as well as her love for the children and theirs for her. You have done such an amazing job this past year and you deserve nothing but happiness 😊

[@orchardgirl4785]

Tom, you love in a passionate and beautiful way. Your willingness to live in a real and transparent way before your You Tube family is quite the blessing to us. I am generally one of the quiet ones on your channel. I share your wisdom with my family and friends. Your precious family makes me smile. April is in your life by the love and grace of God. She is a beautiful lady, inside and out from what I've glimpsed in you live videos. May the two of you be best friends as you walk hand and hand down the path of life on the earth. May God continue to heal your brokenness as you walk out this next year after the one year anniversary of Andrea's departure to heaven. I pray God's blessings upon you, your lovely family and our dear sister, April.

[@tracywilliams8264]

Tom, I must thank you , I lost my mom 1 year ago from Aug 22, in reflecting her passing, I’m caring now for my father who is a alcoholic (78) , in Feb I was diagnosed with cancer, having 2 major surgeries, some days you just want to give up , but you’ve brought light to life going on. To complete this life God has given me. To be greatful even through the grief. God is good all the time🙏🙏❤️❤️🙏🙏

[@TheMillsFamilyVlog]

I know it's hard, and we don't want to do it, but God is smiling on our resolve...hang in there!

[@lizstewart8526]

So sorry about the loss of your mother & God bless you for caring for your father, even as you deal with your own major health issues. Praying that God will provide healing (both physical & emotional) for you & your father. 🙏❤️

[@jenniferknight1511]

I like that she told you that you didn't have to hurry to meet up with her...that you can enjoy life until you see her again. Tom, this was a beautiful video. I know that Andrea must be so proud of how you are handling all this. It isn't fair that she is gone...you may never understand why...

[@adrienne5836]

God is good. He has been faithful to you and your family in this past year. God has given you the ability to articulate so well how He has walked with you and carried you. What a beautiful gift to have this story told for your children to read and give glory to God for. As you and April continue to work through your relationship, know that we are praying for you both. I only know Andrea through her videos, but she loved you so much. You guys made a beautiful thing of your marriage, you were two imperfect people who refused to give up. She would not have wanted you to be alone. April is great for your family and I love hearing how she is coming alongside and blessing you and helping you through your grief. I hope it works out for you guys as the Lord plans and ordains.

[@jennsadventures84]

Tom, I lost both my mom and dad very close together. The feeling loss never goes away. But for me at least the sadness seems to be less and less. As the time goes by the wonderful times and moments of my life shared with my parents are what take precedent. Like my folks. I believe Andrea would want for you to live your life to it's fullest. And for each of us it is different. God will keep you going. You will never forget Andrea. And your new direction sounds like it will honor Andrea. Grief is different for each of us as well. Grieve in your way. Reach out when needed. And give yourself grace too. Sending prayers to all of you.

[@yvonnewisse9237]

Speechless 💔

[@grandmasewhappyhomestead187]

Very beautifully put and I'm sorry for your loss.

[@katepowell1051]

What a truly wonderful way to remember your Andrea, you open up so much and share so much with us. You are a devoted, loving Daddy and your children are simply amazing!! I wish you and your children peace and happiness, I think April is lovely and a great lady for the whole family X

[@loribell8767]

Well done and so heartfelt. That sky and sunset. Stunning!!

[@donnadivis8654]

Tom! This was wonderful! God bless you!

[@mariemoorepgh432]

Beautiful, compelling, emotional, touched my heart and spoke to my soul. You sure have a way with words. Love you, Mills family

[@taraschmidheini4674]

This was absolutely beautiful Tom It comforted me to know we were all with you through alot of those hard times because you allowed us to be and we were able to pray for you through this Sept, Oct., Dec.....This was again absolutely beautiful. We love you. Stay near to God Sweet Tom He'll make your path straight and take you day by day with new mercies. 💙

[@diamondcutter1983]

I cried, smiled, cried some more. Im truly grateful for April. She was sent to you without a doubt. You have a way with speaking, its so raw, honest & yet eloquent at the same time. Your family is blessed to have you for their dad. Keep doing what you are. I can't wait to see what the future holds for you, April & the children. Much love from Mississippi

[@eileen8433]

Beautiful, Tom. Thank you for sharing this with us.

[@meganyounger4842]

This is Amazing Tom 🥰😇 Such a journey your family has been on this past year.

[@jacquimanuel6915]

Loved this Tom, thankyou for sharing your thoughts and love with us all x You are so good at expressing how you are feeling, with the words you use, the way you speak and how you put together beautiful thoughtful videos like this. I send you all a big hug xx

[@Emmabyohana]

Wow... this was beautiful, and so incredibly profound. Thank you for sharing. Hope you are all well!

[@jacquelinehammons7988]

Tom thank you so much, so many people do not understand. It is so hard to continue on our journey here. People do not give the time to listen or try to understand someone's pain of heartbreak. I appreciate all you share

[@julietannOsfan1972]

This was really touching. Thank you for being so honest in this video. Thinking of you & the children at this time. x

[@HipstyHeavener]

Beautiful video, Tom. Thinking of you all today. RIP Andrea ♥️