The Battle In My Head-Jason

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Soft White Underbelly

Soft White Underbelly

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@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 9 күн бұрын
Wow Mark. Thank you for this opportunity. Crying like a baby first thing in the morning. I really can’t thank you enough and appreciate how comfortable you made the interview, to discuss really uncomfortable stuff. God Bless you Mark.
@Cbow3977
@Cbow3977 9 күн бұрын
Thank you for your interview. I could feel the pain you were feeling as a child through your words and how I could tell you were experiencing it all over again. Keep working on yourself.
@EmEm872
@EmEm872 9 күн бұрын
I've already commented but just saw this. Thank you for sharing so vulnerably with us, Jason x
@soultra1189
@soultra1189 9 күн бұрын
I watched the whole interview sobbed throughout you really should be proud takes alot of courage to tell your story...and you're right it not only touched us but you've changed some hearts and minds Merry Christmas ❤
@josephlegocki6750
@josephlegocki6750 9 күн бұрын
Jason! You need to write! incredible story my friend!
@therightnumber2003
@therightnumber2003 9 күн бұрын
Sending you virtual hugs!
@James-kq6gr
@James-kq6gr 9 күн бұрын
I saw the child come out over and over again, almost saying, "I'm still here. I need to be heard." Totally raw and human.
@novelpettis4444
@novelpettis4444 8 күн бұрын
Omg I seen him too 😩🙏🏾
@wew5499
@wew5499 8 күн бұрын
💯
@mollycote1021
@mollycote1021 8 күн бұрын
Ditto!❤
@GodSlayerIblis
@GodSlayerIblis 7 күн бұрын
Yah, What a Loser, LOL!
@jayconstancio711
@jayconstancio711 7 күн бұрын
Exactly what I see
@brandencavinder4452
@brandencavinder4452 9 күн бұрын
This took a colossal amount strength to tell his story. I wish you the best. You deserve it.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 9 күн бұрын
Thank you. I’m working on believing I deserve the good things in life. It’s a process 🙏🙏🙏.
@heatherasmussen1421
@heatherasmussen1421 9 күн бұрын
Well said
@heatherasmussen1421
@heatherasmussen1421 9 күн бұрын
Great big hugs 🫂
@benedettasavitri9644
@benedettasavitri9644 9 күн бұрын
​You are a lion ❤❤❤ I admire you so much. And you are not dirty, you are pure as a crystal but I perfectly understand why you felt 'disgusting') ​@@jason.brewer
@autumn5852
@autumn5852 8 күн бұрын
After changing your gender I think anything is possible
@ChristopherLuke-o3l
@ChristopherLuke-o3l 9 күн бұрын
This guys got some guts to tell his story to the world. Respect to him. He has children, there is no greater gift.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Thank you!
@JackAmato
@JackAmato 7 күн бұрын
@@jason.brewer Man, Jason, thank you for sharing your story!! Your story is a sad and still amazing and very relatable! Thank you for sharing!
@JackAmato
@JackAmato 7 күн бұрын
@@jason.breweryou know, I also had a lot of problems with learning how to “handle” emotions. First few years of my recovery, emotions and not knowing how to handle them were always part of my relapse. Some emotions are still very difficult, but I try to remind myself that emotions will not kill me. They can suck really bad but they can also be wonderful! Thank you for
@GodSlayerIblis
@GodSlayerIblis 7 күн бұрын
A gift for Epstein maybe.
@hgraham1836
@hgraham1836 6 күн бұрын
🙏
@RockySends1121
@RockySends1121 9 күн бұрын
Mark, Jason speaks about events he has never spoken publicly about, because you radiate non-judgement. This experience has been cathartic, exhausting and beautiful for Jason and for that, I thank you. I'm so proud of my honey. I'm so proud he wants to help others despite his trauma. I'm so proud he wants to better himself. Gut-wrenching and beautiful episode. -Adrienne
@liber7773
@liber7773 8 күн бұрын
He really had a certain way of storytelling, for me, it was gripping. I hope he’s proud of himself. Darkness will eat one alive until brought into the light. Abuse doesn’t define an individuals character, nor should it stain one’s future. Abusers don’t deserve that power. This was a touching interview. Have a very merry Christmas.
@veronagrey6313
@veronagrey6313 8 күн бұрын
MUCH Love and MANY Blessings to You , Jason and Your Family…🙏🏼🩶🙏🏼🩶🙏🏼🩶🙏🏼
@mkdegrat
@mkdegrat 7 күн бұрын
Much blessings ❤
@danimarie9002
@danimarie9002 2 күн бұрын
Jason SO proud of your courage to speak on things you never asked for, none of it is on you.
@AlmaPacheco5
@AlmaPacheco5 9 күн бұрын
“ I have this great life when I can see it “ very powerful
@hushingsilence
@hushingsilence 9 күн бұрын
This man went through hell, and yet he is a survivor.
@GodSlayerIblis
@GodSlayerIblis 7 күн бұрын
A sissy, but a survivor
@Tracy-ks1vk
@Tracy-ks1vk 9 күн бұрын
Little Jason comes out several times through the video, we are here for you too. Very brave of you to share. Merry Christmas to you and everyone here ❤️‍🩹❤️
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Thank you for your support and Merry Christmas!
@silviar405
@silviar405 8 күн бұрын
@@jason.breweryou did so well, hats off, keep on keeping on - one day at a time! God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, courage to change the things we can and the wisdom to know the difference. Ask and you shall receive, I did and got so much miraculous assistance till now and wish you continue to heal - forward is the way! Much love and marry Christmas to you and your family ❤
@kellieannpicasoconine3161
@kellieannpicasoconine3161 9 күн бұрын
This is the most real interview. His honesty is so physical. I'm praying that he makes it through all of the dark days.
@oliveriosandovaljr2141
@oliveriosandovaljr2141 9 күн бұрын
Out of the ruins of a broken, traumatic youth comes a stronger, more resilient, and even more admirable man. Admire those who make it out of "that life" because very few of us do. We have so many people to rescue with love and compassion. You wouldn't turn your back on a human like Jason or ANY other. Thank you, Jason Brewer. You're a hero to a complete stranger who knows and loves you as a brother. Stay strong. Take care of yourself and your people. So proud of you, sir.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Thank you for the love and support. Appreciate it more than you know.
@LittlewoodSD
@LittlewoodSD 9 күн бұрын
Jason. I was locked in this entire interview. I usually don’t watch long interviews, but your story really touched my heart and I wish you the best. Stay strong, Brother.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Thanks brother. Wishing you all the best as well!
@rebekahjoy7921
@rebekahjoy7921 2 күн бұрын
Let me assure you that some of the longest videos out there are by far the most inspiring/captivating! I’d recommend watching - Clark Frederick’s. Excellent story teller and so inspiring.
@LittlewoodSD
@LittlewoodSD Күн бұрын
@@rebekahjoy7921 thank you baby. I appreciate it.
@MarilynQuisenberry
@MarilynQuisenberry 20 сағат бұрын
Jason. That baby boy is not at fault.
@andtruthisnotforeveryone3021
@andtruthisnotforeveryone3021 9 күн бұрын
The Truth will set you free. But the truth takes courage and not everyone has that. Bless this man for his courage. Thank you.
@BonnieHansen-w6l
@BonnieHansen-w6l 9 күн бұрын
'The truth will set you free' is a very trite saying. Doesn't apply to everything, not nearly.
@fifilamoore1718
@fifilamoore1718 9 күн бұрын
@@BonnieHansen-w6l Does writing your negative comment make you feel good 👍 I feel bad for you how sad
@RabbitAndTheLabBestFriends
@RabbitAndTheLabBestFriends 9 күн бұрын
@@BonnieHansen-w6lthat is because you must not have faced or gone through the healing you have gone through I’m sorry
@RabbitAndTheLabBestFriends
@RabbitAndTheLabBestFriends 9 күн бұрын
@@fifilamoore1718I don’t think they meant to be negative I think they might still be struggling and maybe speaking for them was not what they expected or could have cause more harm then good and you should have more sympathy for this person because obviously they are still struggling through something but it’s not helpful from you to come at them saying they are sad and that they are negative. How is that helpful? Your response is just as bad if not way worse then his/her comment
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Thank you. It's been a freeing experience.
@nellymoo635
@nellymoo635 9 күн бұрын
Tragically captivating. Forgive that little boy mate. It wasn't your fault. You were just a kid. All the best mate!
@Not-thatKaren
@Not-thatKaren 9 күн бұрын
Jason said at 55:20, that at 6 years old he ‘made his life shit.’ Jason, at 6 you did NOT make your own life shit! It’s what kids do, they push boundaries. Kids are going to screw up and make bad choices. You just hope and pray that those choices, bad decisions don’t lead to people taking advantage of freaking 6 year olds!
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
I'm working on it mate!
@Not-thatKaren
@Not-thatKaren 8 күн бұрын
@ you’re doing a fantastic job!!
@420Gandalf
@420Gandalf 8 күн бұрын
​​​​​​​@@Not-thatKaren I'm sorry but your comment is still putting the blame on the kids that go through this. No he did not "screw up" at 6 years old. He believed something a monster of an adult told him and followed him. You don't have a lot of discernment at 6 years old and it's a normal thing to do. And even if you do have discernment and get assaulted it's still, only, the other persons fault. They carry the blame. That's it. It's not your common sense or your screwing up that is to blame, it's someone deciding to be a horrible human. That's why, even if this happens to an intelligent adult, it is still bad. What's crazy to me is that we keep referring to this as "screwing up" and "bad decisions" when this happened because a monster decided to SA a kid. That is it, that's the whole story. If someone does a bad thing to you, you didn't make the bad decision, the other person did. That's it. No more. I know you meant well but this is unintentionally taking the blame off someone who committing a horrible act. Your words are taking the blame off of the perpetrator, whether you want it or not, tbh
@Not-thatKaren
@Not-thatKaren 8 күн бұрын
@ I meant it as the opposite. People can’t blame themselves for anything they do as a 6 year old.
@fearless.fitness.united
@fearless.fitness.united 9 күн бұрын
Proud of you for telling your story, it will inspire other men that it's not weak to speak.
@joshuaread1563
@joshuaread1563 8 күн бұрын
Hearing this broke my heart but I’m so proud of this man for being able to tell his story. He overcame this awful series of events and had the courage to share his vulnerability with complete strangers. It is such a selfless act to decide to do this, he is helping so many people who are struggling. You’re a hero and a real man, Jason. I don’t know you but I’m really glad you are here. Thank you.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Thank you thank you. Being vulnerable is not something that comes easy however it's been freeing.
@Cbow3977
@Cbow3977 9 күн бұрын
Bless this man heart 😢he is reliving it while trying to talk about it. I felt it this morning. Thank you for your brave interview
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 9 күн бұрын
Thank you for watching. My only hope is that my experience helps another, to talk about it and relinquish its power.
@liber7773
@liber7773 8 күн бұрын
He was so well spoken, he had me zoned in and listening. This was one of the best interviews, Mark.
@jennyloohoo
@jennyloohoo 9 күн бұрын
Jason- I am also in Recovery of 6 years. Drugs and violence of all types. Trauma that was done to me and then unintentionally/intentionally causing trauma to others was/is the hardest part of Recovery. Actively telling your story and being transparent will help someone put an end to pain in their own line. Grab ahold of your higher power or higher self. Look into meditation. Meditation is what helped me to take off the masks. (Still not all the time but better) it also helped me to realize that I was selfish in ways I didn’t realize still and how to truly LOVE. Love is what this is all about! You are incredible, articulate and you are actively saving lives. I ask God to bless your life.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Congratulations on your six years. Appreciate your support!
@jennyloohoo
@jennyloohoo 8 күн бұрын
@ no problem… proud of old junkies like us standing tall!
@mollycote1021
@mollycote1021 8 күн бұрын
Great share! ❤🎉Jason is great!
@agape843
@agape843 3 күн бұрын
All I can see is a man with an incredible amount of kindness and love. Cling on to your conscience,brother.
@DunaFornVideo
@DunaFornVideo 9 күн бұрын
Just wanna give this man a big hug. Love the way his eyes lit up when talking about his childhood love, wishing you only the happiest of futures big man.
@polishmania123
@polishmania123 8 күн бұрын
Jason, it's not your story that moved my soul, but your telling of it.
@celticwarrior777
@celticwarrior777 8 күн бұрын
That makes no sense
@Nina-qm1sc
@Nina-qm1sc 7 күн бұрын
​@celticwarrior777 makes no sense *to you* and maybe to the people who liked your comment. I get it, though! It just means this person felt moved by the way he told his story. Also in a way letting him know that it wasn't the events that happened to him that touches the soul, because it is not a heart warming story by ANY means. But it was the way that he bravely and eloquently told his story, and the way he's moved forward with his life and presents himself today. That might help or it might not 😅
@alp3697
@alp3697 6 күн бұрын
@@celticwarrior777what the person is saying is that it’s not the STORY that shows who Jason is, it’s how he tells his story. he tells it with bravery, passion and raw emotion. that’s who Jason is and that’s what moved that persons soul
@caveritt82489
@caveritt82489 9 күн бұрын
Jason. Your gift to the world was unfairly and tragically earned. I am so sorry that you had to experience such a betrayal from the human race so early. I don’t know you. But I’m proud of you.
@TanyaDavis954
@TanyaDavis954 8 күн бұрын
The fact he's crying so much I could relate. Because if you really were a bad person, you wouldn't be crying. You are still reliving trauma. It's c p t s d. And p t s d. We got this.We can get stronger because we're telling our stories, we have empathy. ❤
@susanphend2189
@susanphend2189 9 күн бұрын
Jason, you’re a phenomenal human being. I know this because you’re an incredibly brave, intelligent and introspective person. You’re in touch with your feelings and you know how you affect others. So many appear to go through life without concern for others or themselves. Little six-year-old Jason was NOT responsible for the behavior of others. You did nothing to cause what happened to you. I admire your gentle soul and your determination to fight for a better you and a better life. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Thank you for the words of encouragement.
@jesuspalacios5139
@jesuspalacios5139 9 күн бұрын
Thank you, Jason! 👏👏 You are living proof that there is a light at the end of the tunnel
@jilllinder9975
@jilllinder9975 8 күн бұрын
Protect this beautiful soul at all costs
@johnnyhughes5534
@johnnyhughes5534 6 күн бұрын
GOD IS THE ONE THAT PURPOSE TO PROTECT HIM
@boubaswhy
@boubaswhy 9 күн бұрын
The Consistency in work being put out is second to none. Thank you Mark and Happy Holidays
@sarahwalls4829
@sarahwalls4829 9 күн бұрын
Wow. Moved me to tears. How I admire your strength, bravery and courage. ❤
@JAYSONGS
@JAYSONGS 9 күн бұрын
Me too. My life changed in receiving his sharing of his journey.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Thank you!
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
@@JAYSONGS that's my hope. Prayers to you!
@kwristal00
@kwristal00 9 күн бұрын
I'm grateful that he shared his story and I'm hopeful he will continue his path forward. He deserves soo much healing and joy in his life.
@irenemac1545
@irenemac1545 7 күн бұрын
This dude is a hero, the bravery in his vulnerability, his realness....I know that feeling of being "dirty" or " gross". Wounded warriors, God stay w this man. I know from experience getting sober is so hard...and the fear of life. ..seeking the beauty in life keeps us alive..
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 7 күн бұрын
I pray for your healing and I love that work "seeking". I'm seeking Him and the beauty in life!
@cathyreid1374
@cathyreid1374 7 күн бұрын
God bless you sir. You could not die because you have so much to give to people and help people in crisis. You are a survivor.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 7 күн бұрын
Thank you. I'm grateful the Big Man saw fit, for me to live on!
@Mikodemuz11
@Mikodemuz11 9 күн бұрын
Early bird here! Merry Christmas and happy holidays to Mark, viewers and these souls who speak in these videos! Greetings from Finland!
@Alexela03
@Alexela03 9 күн бұрын
Merry Christmas from Massachusetts ❤
@Mikodemuz11
@Mikodemuz11 8 күн бұрын
@@Alexela03 ❤
@ambergreen6714
@ambergreen6714 9 күн бұрын
Thank you soooo much for telling your helping so many ppl be able to tell their story. Your so strong. I really wish u the best.
@jamimandl
@jamimandl 6 күн бұрын
This gave me chills - his honesty and self awareness and BRAVERY are heart wrenching. Wishing you all the best of luck and health and healing ❤
@kristinadilman4753
@kristinadilman4753 8 күн бұрын
Jason what happened to you as a child is absolutely not your fault. so sorry you went through such horrific times in your life. Thank you for having the strength to share your story. Bless you
@rebeccawalline4705
@rebeccawalline4705 7 күн бұрын
The amount of courage it must have taken to tell this story I can’t even imagine. I hope only continued healing in your life and relationships moving forward. Your honesty is very honorable
@annalisacochran5699
@annalisacochran5699 8 күн бұрын
What a beautiful man! I wish I could give him a big hug and tell him the little boy is loved and safe now. He’s so articulate and vulnerable. I pray that he continues to move forward and have wonderful relationships with his loved ones. It’s so good to hear that he is helping others; that will really progress his healing. I pray that this video helps more people than he can imagine. 🙌
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 7 күн бұрын
Thank you! Your prayers mean a lot and I have the same prayers - to help someone, anyone!
@navamoreg
@navamoreg 9 күн бұрын
man you are a survivor, what great showing of resilience,braveneness, admirable. you faced a lot, it is not fair for you, society owes you, for sure.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 9 күн бұрын
Thank you. Those aren’t words I’d use to describe myself but I’m learning to accept compliments and positive feedback. Appreciate the love.
@angiemurphy6054
@angiemurphy6054 3 күн бұрын
This was one of the most moving stories I’ve heard on here. I want to hug this man. I hope you find true peace and joy in life. You deserve it
@belindapurser760
@belindapurser760 7 күн бұрын
The interviews/Testimonies that are changing people for the better (Knowledge) is a PHENOMENAL Humanitarian effort that is MUCH APPRECIATED. Thank you again. We need to become more humane than just thinking this sh*t is ok and it happens. It shouldn't EVER happen. I can't express my empathy for all of these testimonies that have me in tears.
@priscillajames3930
@priscillajames3930 7 күн бұрын
This shattered me and captivated me at the same time. The pain in his soul, I can hear it in the quiver and control of his voice, in the look in his beautifully expressive eyes, in the constant fidget and movement of his body. It’s crazy how simple our needs are as children but yet how complex things can get when those simple needs are violated or unmet. As I watched I really wanted nothing more than to hug him tight, not let go and tell him he is loved. God sent his son to this earth to pay for our wrongs and in so doing made a bridge for us to have a relationship with God. This life is short and this world is broken, there will always be pain. I pray he finds the true lover of his soul. 🙏🏻
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 7 күн бұрын
Thank you for watching and the comment. Sending you a big hug back!
@a.e.e.6335
@a.e.e.6335 9 күн бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story Jason
@colleenwarlin1480
@colleenwarlin1480 8 күн бұрын
Someone hug this man for me. Tell him he has an awesome smile. He blames himself starting at six years old? No, no, no. A child is not responsible for an adult’s actions. I wish him the best.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Virtual hugs back!
@jacquinowakable
@jacquinowakable 9 күн бұрын
Wow. I've been working my way thru the SWU library, and this is one of the most powerful stories I've heard. Cheers to your recovery, Jason.
@JosephFallon
@JosephFallon 9 күн бұрын
Jason that was such a powerful telling and very inspiring. Your boss is right - you're very articulate and you show a lot of self-knowledge that many many men never even start to think about. The way you are now is a credit to yourself and your loved ones. Fair play to you ! 🇮🇪
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Thank you. The credit is all due to the Big Man and the gift of trying to help someone else.
@janetmcbee
@janetmcbee 9 күн бұрын
Jason,,, You can do this. Look how brave you were in this video to share such painful stuff that happened (not happening now, right). My gosh, you are going up and up. I applaud you. I applaud you for you and who you are. 👍💜 👏
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Appreciate the support and kind words!
@acmp5676
@acmp5676 6 күн бұрын
I truly hope and pray that Jason is alright after talking about all his trauma and past. Watching this is like watching someone take out stitches from a wound that hasn’t healed yet.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 4 күн бұрын
Talking about it is cathartic and I appreciate the prayers! Hug back!
@TrenVoge
@TrenVoge 8 күн бұрын
That is one of the most powerfully raw testimonies of what it truly means to be human. I believe that behind all maladaptive behavior lies fear, shame, and some sort of dysfunctional childhood. I can see the good in everyone. I see beyond the exterior. I have been down many a dark road and found sobriety and sometimes it gets worse before it gets better but it always gets better. I’m proud of this guy and I pray he stays clean and rebuilds his relationship with his kids. There’s nothing like a father’s love. Thank you for sharing! (Made me cry)
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Immediately following this interview, I got to spend the day with my son and his pregnant girlfriend. We walked the pier at Santa Monica and had lunch. Rebuilding one day at a time!
@taylorbj8827
@taylorbj8827 8 күн бұрын
Your story is my sons story. He told me so many of the same things you've said. Drugs, jail, violence, failed relationships. He didn't make it. I know the mental gymnastics, too. It tires me out physically to where I, too, want to drink and I might or might not. Keep sharing. It for sure it will help anyone. Helped me to understand me better and definitely my son in heaven. Edit: being this vunerable with your story heals a little more. Vunerability is hard that way. Love u man.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. That’s a loss no one is ‘supposed’ to endure. Sending love and prayers from my Virginia 🙏♥️
@micheleturkula7797
@micheleturkula7797 6 күн бұрын
@@taylorbj8827 I'm sorry for your loss.please take care of yourself in honor of him. Life is so darn hard. I send loving prayers
@MadelynDarby
@MadelynDarby 7 күн бұрын
This channel is changing the world Mark. It’s truly shows what humans can survive, and that we’re all wounded beings from the things we’ve been through. Most importantly, it demonstrates that YOU ARE NOT ALONE in pain and healing. There is always light at the end of the darkness, you just have to fight to find it. (much easier said than done)
@bobbi-c
@bobbi-c 8 күн бұрын
Jason, I pray you find peace every single day. You clearly have a good heart underneath all the layers. Keep on helping people, it will help you heal.
@cheryllynn2891
@cheryllynn2891 8 күн бұрын
Your ability to be honest and vulnerable brought me to tears, I see myself in each of these videos and I know healing is real and it is for you too! Thank you for sharing the very real internal struggle of so many of us
@shirleythoms4976
@shirleythoms4976 7 күн бұрын
Thank you. Today I saw a little boy running down the sidewalk alone. I stopped my car and pulled around to see if he was with family. He was. This story made me wish there had been someone in that place who would have stopped that guy from walking out the door with the kid. The tramua of that act ruined his mind and perceptions of normal existence. Long journey. I hope his relationship with his kids go well. "My Momma loves me." "My boss loves me."
@Robin-i3u
@Robin-i3u 6 күн бұрын
Jason, you may never get this message but, I am writing anyway. Thank you. Thank you for having the courage to share your story, thank you for remaining human in a world where you could have so easily turned to the darkness, thank you for the strength you give everyday to just be you. I too have been a victim of S.A. and am also a former battered wife. My heart has been moved by your battle. You my friend are never alone. I wish you peace and happiness.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 6 күн бұрын
Message received and truly appreciated. You are very welcome and THANK YOU for watching it and commenting. I hope you've found avenues of help and support with your trauma and I'll add you to my prayers for healing. You are correct - we are not alone.
@theresekirkpatrick3337
@theresekirkpatrick3337 9 күн бұрын
Though difficult to hear all you experienced this was one of the best videos I’ve watched on this channel. Profound and will help others. ❤
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Wow, thank you for the kind words!
@craigkinney853
@craigkinney853 9 күн бұрын
It's the fact that from his body language, you can't tell the pain and mental anguish he is in. I hope everything works out for him. This is the unseen horror of child abuse.
@ashleyclayton997
@ashleyclayton997 Күн бұрын
This was one of the most raw interviews you’ve done! What a story. I feel like watching this helped me to understand so many people. Thank you for the strength to share.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer Күн бұрын
I appreciate this comment so much. I hoped to help people with battles in their own mind and it didn't occur to me that it would help people understand others. That is very cool so thank you again.
@JAYSONGS
@JAYSONGS 9 күн бұрын
Thank you. This ‘interview’ hit home more than ANYTHING in my journey to recover, reconcile with my own experience. We must trust that what we don’t fully understand to heal. You are so very loved. ❤
@Zincchromeshema
@Zincchromeshema 8 күн бұрын
No words can express the admiration and compassion I have for you Jason. The journey off self love and service to others after what you've been through is only one taken by advanced souls. So much love coming to you and your.
@sarahG3013
@sarahG3013 9 күн бұрын
Truly heartbreaking. These sick fucks ruin children's lives forever. Ugh. I am so sorry that happened to you Jason. You are such a strong man to tell your story .
@virgofeles
@virgofeles 8 күн бұрын
Dear Jason, don't feel bad that you spent so much time in prison, and please don't feel like it was a waste of time. I know so many men who are of your age and they have Zero self-awareness, they are empty and have no hope or kindness in their hearts. Focus on the future, find love, create purpose and meaning. You are a handsome strong man who is not afraid of vulnerability, you will be fine now!
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 7 күн бұрын
Thank you. Vulnerability is not easy but I'm trying to view it as an asset, rather than weakness, and use it for good. Thank you again!
@edc493
@edc493 6 күн бұрын
Your strength is incredible. My stomach dropped around the five-minute mark…. Your narration is so honest and clear, we can feel what you’re describing. God bless you, man. Thank you.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 4 күн бұрын
God bless you!
@gtfdiekdn
@gtfdiekdn 9 күн бұрын
Thank you for sharing… such a tough story to share 🙏🏽❤️
@PoliticsFashion
@PoliticsFashion 7 күн бұрын
I know you said you were afraid of everything, but this testimony is a show of complete strength. Thank you for speaking through the fear and pain.
@mexiazteca00
@mexiazteca00 8 күн бұрын
He is a warrior in this plane who gets tested time and time again looses but always wins. ❤ you are an inspiration to many. To me.
@joenessoperator
@joenessoperator 8 күн бұрын
You sir are a warrior. Your personal strength is an inspiration. I wish you peace.
@noraoros9974
@noraoros9974 7 күн бұрын
You don’t have to be afraid anymore. You now have an army of people behind you!
@JohnPaparella
@JohnPaparella 5 күн бұрын
This is a man of character and strength.
@jenniferarmas1054
@jenniferarmas1054 9 күн бұрын
Jason, I am so proud of you! Many times while you told your story and emotions got tough, you self regulated and continued. That takes an incredible amount of work (usually through therapy), to sit with the emotions and not give up or run. Your story will inspire others. It will make a difference. I’m so proud of you!
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Thank you so much.
@kyliejones8910
@kyliejones8910 9 күн бұрын
I'm only 9 minutes in.... But I need to say, Sir, I'm so desperately sorry this happened to you 😢 xxx Kylie Perth Australia
@jenifermayben9144
@jenifermayben9144 9 күн бұрын
When i saw this bald, muscular man I thought his story was going to be abt working out and using steroids. A few mins in and I'm tearing up as he recounts heartbreaking events as a very young little boy. This man still carries that trauma. My hope is that Jason finds peace.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Thank you - I'm working on it every day!
@jenifermayben9144
@jenifermayben9144 8 күн бұрын
@jason.brewer ❤️
@McPhersonxxyyzz
@McPhersonxxyyzz 6 күн бұрын
As a grown man this broke my heart brother. I had a similar childhood. I was only 5 when it happened to me. And it messed me up so bad for 25 years. I’m still navigating forgiveness to be at peace. I just found out 4 weeks ago my 15 year old Boy had the same thing happen to him when he was 6. I have been broken that the evil cycle will not stop. I hope you find peace. I will pray for you. And everyone who shares similar struggles. I’d give a hug brother if I could. It’s going to be alright. Better today than we were yesterday. Sometimes it’s 1 day at a time. Others, it’s 1 moment at a time. Love you man. Stay strong.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 4 күн бұрын
I'm really sorry that you and your son had similar experiences. I can't even the imagine the feelings I would have as a father in those circumstances. You and your son will be in my prayers for sure and thankfully, your son has a loving and supportive papa bear. I'd give you a hug back brother! One moment, one day - whatever it takes to get through.
@hannatadesse2117
@hannatadesse2117 9 күн бұрын
I’ve never wanted to hug someone I’ve never met so badly.
@MarilynQuisenberry
@MarilynQuisenberry 21 сағат бұрын
This is THE best story you’ve posted. Especially since you didn’t ask him questions, and he’s very intelligent. I haven’t cried so much in years & years. I’m a psychologist & this man is still that baby boy who was destroyed by a predator. I hope he can read these comments Jason? I love you very much, especially the little boy you were.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 6 сағат бұрын
Thank you so much and I love you back. I never considered myself intelligent but then again, I made many 'agreements' with myself that have proven to beat me down - self-love does not come easy. Thank you for watching my story!!!
@the3milestitcher
@the3milestitcher 8 күн бұрын
This was deeply moving and incredibly touching. Jason, this interview was hard to do, I realize that, but you did SO well. You're a lovely person. Keep going the way you are and you'll find that inner peace. The traumatized child within will find a beautiful peace. Thank you Mark for giving Jason this little bit of space to clear his head and thank you also for your lovely contribution at the end of the interview.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Thank you for the encouragement and support. It means a lot!
@princessbuttercup3474
@princessbuttercup3474 8 күн бұрын
You have an incredible testimony to share! Your transparency is so raw and vulnerable, it’ll touch the lives of soooooo many!! I’m proud of you ❤
@southernsoulfarm
@southernsoulfarm 9 күн бұрын
So proud of you man ❤ You deserve peace ❤❤
@cocobean1463
@cocobean1463 8 күн бұрын
Wow, what a powerful story. This is hands down one of my favorites. Jason, it took so much strength to do this. I'm so happy you are surviving!
@miriamalvidrez1409
@miriamalvidrez1409 9 күн бұрын
Poor sweetheart 😞💔 right before he got emotional, his mind went back to being a small child.
@Evasmusicroom
@Evasmusicroom 3 күн бұрын
This man's spirit is so beautiful! Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your life story. I feel inspired and uplifted by your resilience to live and the light of your spirit.
@upontheventura
@upontheventura 9 күн бұрын
When I start crying at the 6:00 minute mark I know this is going to be rough. I had to stop. I will return and watch this later.today Jason- I have no words-
@PontiacSunfires
@PontiacSunfires 9 күн бұрын
Theres only been one video on this channel that i had to take breaks for. “Trauma, revenge, and redemption.” If any of you have not seen this one, i highly recommend it. I had to take breaks it was just so intense and depressing and raw. Its over an hour long but its actually insane how the story unwinds and finally ends. Powerful shit. Its the best video on this channel by far in my opinion.
@lester2588
@lester2588 2 күн бұрын
This man right here deserves ALL the blessings, health & happiness that God wants to grant him. He is loved ❤ I wish I could squeeze him with lots of hugs 🤗
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer Күн бұрын
Thank you. Sending hugs back my friend.
@tinabugg6976
@tinabugg6976 8 күн бұрын
This was a beautiful story of strength and resilience. Sending you hugs Jason and keep living the life you do deserve. Thank you for sharing and Mark- thank you. 🩵🩵🩵
@assimakipotter2365
@assimakipotter2365 8 күн бұрын
He was never able to speak out as a child, a very heavy burden to bear. He was also trying to be brave and to protect his loved ones by not telling anyone..he was being very brave and heroic. It's very sad how victims blame themselves and can no longer trust anyone. Prayers and the light of god is the only way out of such a hell. Wonderful person indeed.
@kelleennordquist5697
@kelleennordquist5697 9 күн бұрын
What an inspiration of bravery to tell your story, Jason. Thank you for sharing. Opening up is hard but you did it....appreciate it.
@elizabethkrueger8100
@elizabethkrueger8100 8 күн бұрын
This video made me finally decide to look into treatment centers even if it interferes with my career, you are helping people Jason. Thank you for telling your story & making me not feel so alone as a fellow CSA survivor 🫡 Your story matters, you matter🩷
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
THIS fills my heart and you WILL be in my prayers. Hesitation to go is only fear and its sole purpose is to dim your light. 🙏🙏🙏
@countdankula420_
@countdankula420_ 9 күн бұрын
Jason!… YOURE AN AWESOME HUMAN🏆
@klestrange1015
@klestrange1015 6 күн бұрын
When he gets to the points in his story where he’s smiling and laughing you can see the confidence and healing come through with much clearer his speech becomes. I hope he keeps finding his healing.
@XBludclahtX
@XBludclahtX 9 күн бұрын
Subconscious development is stifled the moment it has to operate from a purely defensive position. This happens to often in children who experience trauma early on. The first line of defense becomes the only line and therefore subconscious reactions subvert conscious objectivity.
@franbeller5897
@franbeller5897 8 күн бұрын
Oh, my heart! You are amazing, Jason. Simply telling your story with such emotion brings you close to your viewers. Never give up. You have so much to offer the world
@trucrimeluver
@trucrimeluver 9 күн бұрын
Mark, thank you for interesting, thought provoking interviews! Jason, thank you for sharing your story. Happy holidays to you both!
@DirlingSwervish
@DirlingSwervish 8 күн бұрын
This man hasn’t done everything right, but this is the most honest and courageous interview I’ve ever seen on your channel. I wish you all the very best, Jason. ❤
@agev8016
@agev8016 7 күн бұрын
Amazing and brave. Thank you for sharing. Thank you Mark for bringing these stories to light.
@janitucker2009
@janitucker2009 3 күн бұрын
I watched and listened and felt it all. Jason, please don't give up. The world is a better place with you in it.
@ashleycampbelllane4758
@ashleycampbelllane4758 9 күн бұрын
Awww baby, I am sending you the most insanely huge hug! I absolutely know trauma and its been strange to me that talking about it and warning others...was helpful. God love you and your family. Bless you, love from Alabama ❤
@angeliquecuellar1274
@angeliquecuellar1274 9 күн бұрын
You are so strong. I hope you heal through everything. This took so much courage, and I hope you inspire other men to feel comfortable enough to share their own story’s and heal through trauma.
@BonnieHansen-w6l
@BonnieHansen-w6l 9 күн бұрын
There are a lot of females affected too!
@angeliquecuellar1274
@angeliquecuellar1274 9 күн бұрын
@ of course, I just feel like it’s harder for men to speak about it though. Just numbers wise that’s why I said men. Of course I hope everyone can heal from their pain.
@fifilamoore1718
@fifilamoore1718 9 күн бұрын
@@BonnieHansen-w6l You join 5 sept , Is 👿 Trolling, dropping negative comments make you feel good ? I hope so SAD way to live , sending you hugs 🥰
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
That is my hope - to help someone else, share their trauma. Not sharing it, creates a mental prison and it almost killed me.
@angeliquecuellar1274
@angeliquecuellar1274 8 күн бұрын
@@jason.brewer do you have advice for being with a man who has this type of trauma, but won’t talk about it? I just want to be there the best I can. He never lets it show but I know it’s done some damage.
@cherieleeishere
@cherieleeishere 9 күн бұрын
Aw Jason I'm so sorry that these people did this to you 🙏🏽 please know you are not alone and I am sending you love and healing 🙏🏽
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
Appreciate that!
@chamblen4
@chamblen4 8 күн бұрын
This was one of the few that i have watched all the way through. Thank you for sharing your story, i wish you the best!
@samanthabrown814
@samanthabrown814 7 күн бұрын
GREAT interview!!! I feel like I know him personally now. His 65' 275 story and Black man voice are the best!
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 7 күн бұрын
I tell more of these stories on my channel/other interviews. Just saying ;)
@ghosttily
@ghosttily 9 күн бұрын
9:09 the thought of being in your own skin disgusting you after you realise what really happened. he's more than strong for talking about these aspects, i feel i never really hear anyone describe these feelings you have after such things, the disgust, the effect on you as a person, how you see yourself, how the rest of your life is affected and such.
@jason.brewer
@jason.brewer 8 күн бұрын
The voice that says I'm disgusting isn't as loud, the more I talk about it and work on myself I appreciate you thinking I'm strong - in the moment, it doesn't feel that way.
@gryffinberner
@gryffinberner 8 күн бұрын
@@jason.brewerwhat you are doing now and the healing takes a great deal of strength. I know you don’t feel like you are strong but soon I suspect you will recognize how strong you are
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