Thoughts on my failed 2018 JMT Thru Hike

[@kinglonestar2760]

Chad, I’ve watched dozens of your videos but have never commented on a single one. I think this could be one of the most thoughtful and meaningful videos I’ve seen you do. Although I was looking forward to seeing your JMT Trip video, I’m glad to be seeing this one instead. First of all you aren’t a failure to me and I know sooner rather than later you will remember that you aren’t a failure. Your candor on this video is refreshing and it showed and even more personal side of you that I haven’t seen before. I can tell you are down and out and having some struggles. We all go thru them and I wish you the best as you work thru things. It takes a helluva man to admit that he was homesick. I would have been too. Family is more important than any trail and the JMT isn’t going anywhere. Get things patched up with your boy. The rest can wait. God Bless, and Godspeed. Jeremiah 29:11.

[@SticksBlog]

Thanks for the kind words... I appreciate all the support over the years, and for your comment. There has been so many times I thought about doing this video, but it didn't work out, and then I got another question today and I felt it was time... I wasn't real sure what I would say, but this is the result... Life is tough... there are ups and down's, and we each have our own path to walk. I see so many others hiking all of these trails and I want to do them so bad... One day I hope I get to get back out there... but I gotta get things right first. Thanks again.

[@BlueBoyBackpacking]

Hi Chad. Life is a curly journey my friend. You don't owe anyone anything. You share some of your journey for free with others and that is wonderful. Whatever painful times you are going through with your fam and teenagers, its ok. I am sure you are doing the best you can, and just have to keep juggling things for the time being. Hiking will always be there when you need it but people are more important than hiking

[@DanHaug]

If your not failing, you're not challenging yourself. Thanks so much for sharing this. It's very kind of you to allow us to experience these things with you.

[@carolinek5864]

Dear Sticks Blog, THANK YOU. You are teaching us all about the heart of what we can and cannot do. I am a beginner and I too had a "fail" this year for similar reasons. We are learning how to meld our family and our dreams. This is more valuable a lesson than any gear review you could ever do! When hiking I do my deepest most emotional thinking and know that the biggest part, beyond time and distance, is the careful reflection of who we are, where we are going, and with whom in our lives. You continue to teach perhaps well beyond what you set out to do. With sincerest thanks. Fellow hiker, thinker, and family person.

[@drdv1974]

Chad you are a good dude. Putting your family first is such a noble thing. Sorry that the JMT thru hike didn’t work out, but let it get you down. Don’t let Facebook or social media get you down. You don’t owe anything to any people out there. Hang on to your hiking dreams. Maybe you will have a chance to hike later on in life.

[@ChuckGC59]

Chad, thanks for making this video, wish more people would be as real and honest as you've been in this and ALL your videos. I've learned a lot from watching your vids over the years! Be well, be proud of what you've contributed to the Backpacking Community. Take care of yourself and the family. Happy Trails!

[@TrailAndMountain]

You were not defeated buddy...I know how you feel though as I didn’t finish either. This kind of feeling makes you humble though and reminds us that we are human and can lose. Your still here to hike another day...keep your chin up and I’d be honored to hike with you some day!

[@mjidaho3178]

No apologies required. Best wishes along the journey, no matter where it takes you.

[@tommclean9890]

You give/gave people inspiration and take/took the time to put it out there for others like me. You did what you had to do to on the JMT. never apologize for family or health. Thank you

[@mikejordan9220]

Your trip isn't a failure. You still got out and experienced a beautiful part of the country in a way that most aren't able to enjoy. I've watched a lot of your previous trips and they always get me motivated to start planning another hike. I sort of do the same thing you are doing now. My wife isn't a hiker so we bought a travel trailer so the whole family could spend time together outdoors. I mix in some section hikes and this seems to cure my itch to hike . I would also like to do some longer hikes but just don't have the time right now.

[@dbyrge]

Chad, I've been following you for a long time now and understand that you have to do what feels right for you and your family. Feeling homesick from the ones you love is nothing to be ashamed of and speaks volumes. Hiking can always provide the answers no matter what the questions....whether a 1 mile trail or 200+ like the JMT, it's taught you something and you're a better person for it. Take care man!

[@SticksBlog]

Thanks David. I have struggled with being homesick for a while now. It's not surprising not that I think about it though... looking at all my hikes when I first started backpacking, my wife or my kids were usually with me... but as time went on they stopped going so much, and I started trying to do farther and longer hikes... And it's those hikes I remember most...

[@weepywalks5956]

Good video and good job completing the mileage you did on the jmt. did a section on the jmt as well this year and it started out going to be a thru hike. I’m not bummed about it tho I’ve sectioned parts of the AT and really enjoy sectioning the trails. I will eventually go back and section the rest of the jmt. It seems like maybe sectioning trails could be better for you if you want family to go with you. There seem to be a lot of videos by thru hikers and doing thru hikes is a popular thing now but hiking is hiking. I wish there were more videos on sectioning trails as it is a difficult process getting on and off trails at specific points without doing repeated mileage. I hope you continue on hiking. Don’t be bummed about doing a section on the JMT mileage is mileage man, whether it’s a section or a thru.

[@BillCooperOK]

I can't count the times I've gotten to my camping, hiking, hunting, whatever spot and wanted to turn around and come back home. And many times I have. This was a good video, you are not alone!

[@richhunt2740]

I agree with so much of what you said. It's a tough hike, but just being out there is what it's all about. One step a time, see where it takes you. Wait until it's the right time to hike 5 miles or 500. Nothings more important than your family - work it into what you can, RVing, day hikes whatever live brings. Good luck and thanks for having the courage to open up.

[@martinbrown4940]

your're on the right track by putting your family first! I agree that if you have your mind on troubling unresolved issues, its not the correct time to be on a long distance hike! it's just not enjoyable until you have the freedom in your heart to relax and feel the joy of the trail! I trust that day will come again!

[@SticksBlog]

This is so true... When I decided not to go I should have stuck with it, but with all the time and effort I put into it, I felt it was necessary to at least go for it and hope for the best... and while it didn't go as planed, I do have some good memories from it. I know that some go hiking to remove the weight, but for me, leaving with that weight is not the way to go. I do want to get back out there, but I will make sure that next time is the right time...

[@byronwaller9939]

Hi Stick! Your awesome man! Your videos have helped me tons. It's called a change in plans, not a failure. Hikers not familiar with plan changes haven't hiked much. I was hiking the Sierra this summer too. My first big hike as well. Right off the bat I decided to skip the first 90 miles! Why, b/c it was desert and I didn't feel like doing it (and was nervous about the water/food carry). At the end of my hike, I stopped about 100 miles before my planned/permit stopping place. Why...b/c I was tired of walking! That's exactly what I told everyone, and I think about everyone's response was "hmm, yea, that makes sense". You did Kearsarge! Whitney! Forester! Dude, yea, I'm with you on not being certain of your backpacking future! After seeing those places, I'm back home in VA wondering how I'll ever come close to that ever again. Nepal maybe? Yesterday I actually put away my gear for the first time in 2 years! Anyway, there's tons of people who love what you do, and aren't judging you one bit. Any hike where you return is a success. You are the man Stick! Don't go forgetting that!

[@ridebks]

Hey Chad...ridebks Dave here. Same thing happened to me. Was into backpacking before I had kids and it had to take a back seat while they were young. The good news is that they are both in college and now and I have the time to go and do what I want. You're young enough to wait for that and put the pack back on when the time comes. In the meantime...your camper is a great way to get outdoors and make everyone happy. I did the same thing but with a van. Now I love the van and will use it to get to whatever trail I chose. Keep your head up man...the pack will be on your back in no time! Dave

[@thomasclark6268]

Chad, just watching this video again after several months, but watched your Duplex review today. I've really enjoyed your thoughtful videos and reviews. FYI...I didn't hike the JMT until I was 50, but have gone back out for a few 100+ mile trips since then.

[@CameronHall88]

Chad, been following along for a LOOOOONG time now. It was fun watching your evolution through ultralight and SUL backpacking over the years. Thanks for all the insight and opinions. To me, you were THE best blog and channel for UL backpacking for years.

[@gregr501]

I’ve been looking forward to you JMT trip video for a while, I didn’t expect this at all. I really hate this trip went so bad for you, I was hoping to gain some great knowledge as a friend and I are planning to hike it in 2020. I told him about your method of getting the permit and hiking it in reverse of the normal method. I always enjoy your trip video, please don’t feel like you failed. You’ve done more then most the ppl that watch your videos, anyone can have a bad trip. Hopefully with a break and some good family time you’ll feel like doing some new videos. Thanks for taking me along on all your trips, take care...

[@djsomers100]

No worries mate! We watch because we want to, not because we are forced to. We wish you well and if things don't work out, so be it. Don't tear yourself apart, just get up and go on to the next challenge. We enjoy your videos and look forward to the next ones...

[@ChrisS5416]

Chad, I have watched your videos over the years. I have experienced very similar situations and feelings on some of my own trips and understand how difficult and overwhelming it can be. Please focus not on this one trip, but on what you have given to this community and people like me. Your ability to communicate and your contributions have been substantial, including this video, and you may never fully understand how substantial they have been or how many people you have reached and inspired. I wish you and your family the very best and thank you for sharing this and all of your journeys.

[@jonbriafield]

It’s all voluntary Stick, you shouldn’t feel like a slave to KZbin, Facebook or backpacking. If it’s not enjoyable or you’re feeling you have to contribute more than you’re comfortable then you’re right to take a step back. Happy to continue to follow you whether you add more content next week, next month, next year or never. Say something when you’ve got something you want to say or do something you want to do and share. You’re not public property. I like to sometimes look at your back catalogue of content here and on your blog, you’ve helped me make some good gear decisions over the years. Glad you’re enjoying the camper with the family, family time is so important and they grow so quickly. I too have been unable to spend so much time backpacking as my little boy grows. I’m looking forward to being able to take him out with me or being more independent for me to not feel bad about spending time away. Either way you have to follow your heart. At the moment my heart tells me to make the most of family time and hike more later. It’s a shame but I don’t regret my choices. The trails will still be there in 10 years, the kids may not be so interested in playing with dad in 10 years time.

[@backkat9475]

You have to do what is best for you. For what it's worth, I do enjoy your gear reviews and hope to see more. Best of luck, whatever you decide! Be healthy, be happy.

[@bryanrensel]

Don’t be down, we all go through different stages in life, important thing is you’re figuring out what can make you and your family happy now and that’s what you should be doing. Reality is kids grow up and there will be a future stage that if you still have a passion for backpacking, you can do it again. Please leave your channel up, it’s a quality resource I like to reference. Thank you for sharing this update.

[@jscarpetta1]

Besides the noble art of getting things done, there is the noble art of leaving things undone. The wisdom of life consists in the elimination of non-essentials. Give yourself a brake bud, prioritizing your family above a thru-hike is not defeat in my book. Thank you for the informative videos you have provided and good luck with whatever you decide to do from here.

[@SticksBlog]

Thanks... and yes, there is an art to leaving things undone... I wish I had acknowledged this before leaving... but I chose to learn the hard way again...

[@2690Aschill]

Thank you for being real and putting yourself out there, it’s not always puppies and kittens. Keep your head up.

[@jpharrold]

Hey Stick, don't be so down on yourself! It's just not your time right now. I've had the thru hiking bug for about 7 years now but can't go because of family right now. I just accept it for what it is. Take care of your family. Your day will come again.

[@matthewweimer42]

Just wanna say I have found your videos pretty helpful through the years. I def used your some of your insight on gear I was looking at. No shame in bailing on a trail dude....think we have all had those trips that just didnt work out for all kinds of reasons. Do what feels right .

[@SticksBlog]

That is good to hear... I have always looked at my videos in 2 ways, one for me to remember my hikes and experiences and the other to interact and help others. I have really enjoyed interacting with others because of my content, and I have met a lot of great people through this content. Even though I may not be out there all the time, I still enjoy talking with others about it.

[@blueridgeexplorer]

Sorry to hear the trip didn't go as planned. You are not alone brother! As a father, I've experienced and felt the same types of things on quite a few of my trips. It's good (and rare) to hear someone else echo some of the same sentiments about backpacking and being away from the wife/kids, so thanks for that. Maybe one day we'll cross paths! Take care.

[@beactivelife]

Was looking forward to your JMT vids, but equally happy to listen to your thoughts on the trip and aftermath. No worries bro,Take care

[@jimwarnock1250]

Always enjoy hearing what you have to say about gear! Understand your disappointment with the JMT, but we learn a lot from challenges like that. I love backpacking AND our 20-foot RV. Lots of folks will enjoy what you have to say about RV trips as well as backpacking, so take a break, but don't go away:)

[@ericgaffin5697]

You are awesome Chad! I cant tell you how you should feel but in my opinion it was not a failed attempt. You did more than most people did in their lifetime out there. You helped and motivated me and a ton of other people with their JMT hike and backpacking in general, that is something to be proud of. I have learned so much from your knowledge of backpacking experiences. I learned how to hike and backpack from KZbin.. I hope too see more from you in the future whether it be hiking, gear, camping or biking.. be well and be safe! heads up brother. My JMT thru-hike turned into a section hike also..

[@MH-wo3sd]

Chad, been watching your blog for years. Enjoyed it for the way you do it, not because of the hikes you’ve accomplished, you did not let anyone down. Do a funny post hike gear review someday on all the stuff on your pack that you did not need, did not use, or did not eat.

[@stevep7785]

As a dad and husband who loves being in the backcountry for long periods of time I understand those emotions/feelings/demons that play in your head when you're away. Especially when you have mentally prepared yourself for a challenge and things change before you step off at the trailhead. It's thrown me for a loop many times. Your reasons are valid. Being homesick is valid. I think you will find strength in your honesty about now not being the best time in your life to head into the woods without your fam. You might not have pulled off a JMT thu (this year) but you did learn something big and that isn't a failure in my book. To me failure would be stubbornly ignoring what you learned in the name of pride (something that I trip up on all the time). It's all about seasons. Now is a time to enjoy being with your family. RV life is amazing for this. 20 years ago I would have never been caught dead car camping (that pride thing). But I love it. We have a pop-up camper that gets us into all kinds of cool stuff. We spent 2 weeks in Maine this summer and loved every single day. Yes there are tacky lights in the campground ( you should see mine). Yes there are generators running. Yes there are screaming kids. BUT... there is also your family. Which is what this life is really all about. It's a gift that's best shared with the ones we love. Give your self the freedom to be ok with this. Embrace it.

[@northtexashiker]

you did better than me, i started my Sobo JMT hike july 6th and only made it 8 miles. had to go back . Retreated back to Mammoth and stayed in a hotel for a week like a tourist. the climb out of Yosemite was too hard and i got sick. i was able to do some day hikes out of Mammoth and i did hike the Devils postpile area and got to see Toulumne meadows too. Duck Pass Trail was fun. Im mad at myself for not pushing thru but glad i did get to see this beautiful area.

[@trilbyarnold3341]

Your life isn't over and family life is important. Those mountains and trails aren't going anywhere and will be there at another point in your life. I also had to abort my JMT trip last August. I never even got onto the JMT as I was going in from Horseshoe Meadows. I made my decision at Rock Creek to not continue. I was vomiting everyday until I figured out I was very lactose intolerant and my food was enriched with Nido and whey protein. I made a leisurely return trip,(fortunately I had enough trail snacks and lunches that together with some food given me to make the exit fine) was in the high country 2 weeks then van camped for 4 more weeks. Had a great time and learned much. At Rock Creek 10 men and another woman also aborted their trip. One man had a similar story to yours. He just couldn't stand being away from his family with 2 little kids. He seemed so devastated and all I could think was how sweet that he so loved his family and he could later make the hike, maybe even with his kids when they are older. I am 77 years old, female and I am training to try again this season with proper food and I'm optimistic I'll hike my miles from HS meadows to Tuolumne Meadows. Give yourself time to get life sorted and to enjoy your family. Stay in shape and the right moment will come for you.

[@phillipedwards6484]

Hey man thanks for sharing. Remember it’s the journey and you did go! I’m glad you went. It takes a lot to just plan and get out there- it was lots of effort for me. Wow Whitney and Forester. I went in 2017 from Yosemite to Reds. I would have liked to do all of it but I was not ready with family , age and work, but I’m planning to go back. I just want it see it. What I saw was breathtaking. I love backpacking but only started back again in 2014. I wish the JMT was closer like the AT and the GSMNP. It’s still difficult to get up there too but much less difficult than going out west.Your videos from your trips on the AT and Mt Leconte come to mind as well as as your equipment reviews all were great. Sound like the RV is gonna be a fun opportunity. Maybe you can hike the JMT and let your family RV camp out there too as you hike. Thank you so much. Phillip

[@McNuggetEh]

Thanks for continuing to making vids. Put up what you want to share. Please don't let any social media obligations make less of you & fam enjoying your own vacations. If need be, leave the camera behind, we will understand. I hope getting outside on your own terms and in your own way (be it by camper van and beyond) should be the priority. Take the journey to your interests and not vica verca. Blogs don't tend to stay static. Remember you can always fit pieces of backpacking into your home life: I have found this helps keep my backpacking spirit alive: (People might think your a bit crazy but it is quite fun...challenge people to join you) New tent? Sleep in it in the back yard in the rain. New clothes? Wear them all week.. shower in them, clean them with only the items you would have while backpacking. Sort out how much toilet paper/soap/ your really need for 3, 5, 7, 10 days. Use your phone using the least amount of battery to do all your online tasks. New shoes.. test the wear out point by pounding the pavement. Try to walk to work. Try different ways to document your travels... writing, drawing.. not taking any pictures..creating just a tracklog, write an after trip report only, post scribbles... only recording rants... report on mileage or elevation only. Try to log a 20 mile day in the neighborhood. Reading outdoor books, trying new skills... If you got offered to take an overnight trip tomorrow, how long would it take to get ready. Find new favorite backpacking meals and make them for the whole family and give them score cards to find the best one. Try re-supplyig from your closest gas station/market. Record how long and how much it costs. Find new hiking snacks by eating them at work. Mail yourself a resupply to another address and use a continuous footpath to pick it up. Use a map and compass to navigate your own neighborhood. Go geocaching. -IMHO it takes the arm chair backpacking to a whole new level... In many ways you have already done this of course... GoRuck. :)

[@davidson_oldbull_sectionhiker]

Great heartfelt video you are wise to keep your family first. I always enjoy your presentations. God Bless

[@johanlundh3847]

Stick! Had been looking forward to your trip report But! As a lot of other people already said in the comments Prioritize your family and the things that you love to do with them. If you don't post anything else I would like to give you a huge thanks for all your previous posts/ videos. Always great, interesting and has helped me alot whit my backpacking and helping me to hike lighter!! /Johan "in the woods", Sweden

[@adlhikes3159]

Seeing the good, the bad, & the ugly is always worthwhile to me as a viewer. Thanks. Hope I can do the same on my upcoming treks.

[@jakuchuito5107]

It should be fun. Maybe it’s good to forget about the social media for a while. You don’t owe anybody anything. If you don’t get back to backpacking because you’re not feeling it anymore or you’d rather spend your free time with your family that is of course great too. I’m sure everybody will only respect you for it. If you do want to go hiking why not use the family camper thing as a base camp and do some day hikes? Go high mileage alone one day. Low mileage / a simple walk to the lake to go swimming or fishing with the family on another day. Whatever you end up doing take it easy, enjoy the moment, have fun. Cheers

[@latitude918]

Not completing the thru hike isn’t failure. The trail will always be there, and you can finish it another time. Also I know how you feel. When I’m out on the trail, I start getting anxious after a couple days that I’m missing out on something back home. You’ll get the hiking bug again. Cheers.

[@mtnyoda3257]

You are a wise and thoughtful man. You let no one down. I just learned from your experience and it sounds like you learned a ton as well. That itself is valuable. Share what you do have. Thos mtn range is a vacation. Home for me.

[@lanetaglio]

The JMT ain't going anywhere,... you'll have another opportunity and you'll love it...be kind to yourself brother,.. Family First!

[@bobshuff6156]

Hi Stick. I found your videos when just getting back into backpacking and like many here I feel like I know you as a friend. You don’t know me, but I have some similar pressures and issues (and goals). Your post from Whitney was inspiring, and this video meaningful. It would be good to see you excited about some new gear, but more important to know you and the family are happy and well. Best wishes and hope to meet you one day

[@bearanoia673]

Thanks for posting this video. I was wondering about you guys. Thru hiking is completely different animal ~ it may not be right for you at this time in your life but that doesn't mean that you can't do it later. Your videos were a part of what I was watching when I decided to bump up to overnight trips from just day trips. I really had a paralyzing fear of bears, due to seeing them in Sequioa, and was fearful to overnight it. Watching videos like yours & others helped give me the confidence to do my first overnight trip this past July. My son & I hiked out of Kennedy Meadows and enjoyed a few days out there. No bears but, we did get kept up half the night by a cow, in a nearby meadow, that mooed for a long time 🐄🤣 Anyhow, thanks for your videos and don't be so tough on yourself. The family unit is way more important than a thru hike. JMT will always be there 🌲

[@OutmersiveFilms]

You’ve been inspiring me for years dude. I totally understand the need to take it easy for a while. One day we’ll do a trip together! PS: I was just on a hike with a well known triple crowner who had to bail out due to altitude issues likely induced by a chest cold. That in itself can take anyone down, let alone missing family. Hearing my kids voices on the Sat phone is the only thing that got me to the end of the JMT.

[@michaeldicarlo7055]

I’ve loved watching all of your videos. Cant blame you for hiking your own hike

[@elced01]

No reason to dwell on things like this in life, complications and setbacks always happen to everyone. Keep doing the things you love! I imagine that there will be a few more hikes under your belt in the future, with or without a camera :)

[@bradw.5727]

I get it. You're not alone ...I'm in a very similar mixed up place too. Just not enough time in life to do everything... I just happy about the things I can do and the time spent with my family. I'd be thrilled to get out there and do even half your mileage on that trail. From what I've seen online, that has to be among the most beautiful areas of the world.

[@gregroland5776]

Chad, defeat is never attempting the JMT, I have watched your video's and read your blog and thru you I have learned a lot about backpacking and hiking. Family comes first and one day you will be back on the trail and I look forward to seeing a blog post. Enjoy your new RV, sounds like it is already providing more family time..... "Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts" Winston Churchill - Take care .... Greg

[@Teri728]

I only have trusted you and one other backpacker (girl from Ala.) for reliable information. So thanks!!! It’s a REAL man that puts his family first. Good on you!!! Boondocking sounds fun. Let us hear from you!!

[@AmyRoutt]

Found this video while searching around for JMT videos. Dude, great job on turning around when you aren't feeling it. I am sorry that you felt bad about having to make this video. The JMT is a big one to have to turn down, which probably made it an extremely difficult decision. I've personally had to turn around on trips that would have been easy for me to continue along if I had just done it on a different day or different week. We do this for fun! (Well, most of the time haha). I know this video has been posted for a while now. But I just wanted to say that I actually think you should be proud of yourself for doing what feels right for you, rather than saying you faced defeat. (NOT trying to invalidate the way you feel! But maybe you know what I'm saying haha)

[@michaeldennis1021]

Your a good family man. Lots of men are torn between family and hobbies. I admire you for your honest and family comes first 😁

[@ChrisfromFL]

Everyone needs to realize that a family is made up of individuals and not every member of the family likes doing the same things. As kids get older they develop their own likes and dislikes. As they hit their teenage years, we start realizing it won't be long until our teenagers will be leaving us and heading out on their own. That may be where your at now, so its great you have found an activity that all the family enjoys. It won't be long and it will only be you and your wife! Good Luck and enjoy your time together!!

[@thomash7573]

I understand where you are at. My wife and I are looking into RVing now too. It will be nice to set up at trailheads and do some overnight backpacking. I know this video was hard for you to make but life changes. I look forward to your RV videos!

[@SticksBlog]

We have really been enjoying our camper. The biggest thing holding us back from taking trips to good places to backpack though is that we need a more substantial tow vehicle. Hoping to get something next year, but until then we just stay in the flat lands. I have thought about doing some RV videos but this video has kind of kept me from really considering doing any other videos... maybe I should do one sometime though... Good luck with getting into RVing... if you have any questions, feel free to message me. We got ours in April and I have learned a good bit about it so far... lol!

[@johneason6540]

Well stated story, you are not defeated. An illness and family matters can take you off trail. But, I'll hike with you if you want to go again!

[@TomsBackwoods]

I know what you mean Chad! I haven't been able to do any backpacking vids in a long time. Family time is very important! You could do some camp spot reviews. Allstays is a great app to find camp spots. Lots of info their. I converted my old RV to L.E.D. lights and it helped alot with power consumption for boondocking.

[@billmcginnis5939]

Sounding like a normal good-hearted family man. With kids your age, it's always more important to be there for them, and it's more fun. Before you know it, you'll be back out there without regrets. Time flies.

[@donnybryan6762]

Thank so much for the honest video. I am glad to know that I am not the only one that has, missing family, issues. I am a section hiker but normally cut my hike short because I do not want to be in the mountains alone anymore. I would love to have someone to hike with on short sections to keep me company. If that is something that you might interest you in the future, please let me know. Thanks again for the video.

[@MovinOnBob]

I walked out over Bishop pass early myself this year. I was homesick too and was behind due to weather and wrong decisions. It's not easy going solo. Much easier with friends or family. When I was walking out I thought my Jmt obsession would end. It did, for a few weeks. Lol I'll be back next year better prepared physically and emotionally. At least we WENT, that's what matters.

[@SteveParks]

I have a few hobbies and struggle with how to incorporate my family since they do not enjoy it as much as I do. Don’t be discouraged! Family first! The trail will be there when everyone is ready!

[@mbikesrulee]

I've enjoyed your videos. Don't feel obligated to us. Live your life. If you decide to share it with us great if not it's your life. I'm sorry things didn't work out like you planned. 2 questions. 1) are you planning the jmt again? 2) did you film your section of the jmt and will you release it? Thank you!

[@korling99]

Don’t let one perceived failure bring you down, you’ll get your mojo back, we all know that

[@SticksBlog]

Thanks for the kind words! I appreciate the support.

[@MatanuskaHIGH]

Failure = success. Without failure you can’t have success. You get back up and keep going. Don’t let it get you down. Don’t let it fester in your head. Plan the next trip and learn from your failures and move forward.

[@scotbush283]

My JMT thru hike also ended up a section hike. Myself and those hiking in my bubble all had respiratory issues, that we attributed to the heavy smoke from the Ferguson fire. I also suffered from extreme "homesickness", which I have never dealt with to this degree. I have been dealing with the same emotions you descibed, and I understand and sympathize with what you are dealing with. Thank you for your transparency. Keep your head up, I and others (I am sure) appreciate you

[@scotbush283]

When I came off the JMT, after only 120 miles I convinced myself that hiking the Sierra's was not for me, I enjoyed hiking "within the trees" too much. I am torn now...as I have looked at my pictures closer...I feel I am being called back! You are very right...you have helped so many people. You have a great knowledge base and experience. Thank you

[@SticksBlog]

Sorry to hear that your hike got cut short too. As for the homesickness, it has been one of my biggest struggles... Over the last couple of years when leaving out for a hike I can feel it, but kept thinking that once I got out there things would be different... but they haven't been. This was the biggest wake up call on it though in a few different ways... Like you though, I still see pictures or video and long to be back out there, but I am just going to have to wait for a while and let it come more naturally next time... Anyway, good luck on you getting back out there, and maybe we will meet on the trail sometime.

[@scotthannon8818]

Chad, I watched this video several days ago. I had to come back because I think I have experienced the same feelings of "Homesickness" myself. Backpacking and life in general, at least in my humble opinion, changes once the family dynamic is involved. I'm married and I have two boys. I used to feel uneasy, and couldnt quite get comfortable for the first bit of my hike. Actually during any Trip away from home, I felt like I needed to be doing those routine chores, checking on the kids, following the routine. I think I was even thinking....what if something happens out here. What about my family. Now don't get me wrong... Family should always come first. But not as an irrational fear such as what I just described. I could just as easily get hit by a car crossing the street in front of my house. Does that mean I shouldn't cross the street... No it doesn't. I was uncomfortable in that moment. I realized that I was living outside my comfort zone. Im a beleiver in living outside your comfort zone. Once I identified this fear and discomfort for what it was I learned to do what I like to call "Settling In". When I am away traveling, backpacking, etc. I actually stop, take a deep breath, clear my mind, and just settle in. I focus on letting my mind and body relax and just be in the moment. I know it sounds crazy but Damn if it doesnt work. Maybe its a similar feeling for you. Maybe not. It's easy to watch other guys and gals thru hiking, doing long section hikes, or even just a lot of shorter trips. It's hard not to compare yourself to everyone else and wonder why you can't get out there and do the same thing. I'm guilty of that myself. Life happens......JMT didnt work out. Definately a bump in the road but not the end of the road. Maybe take a step back and think about what it is you loved about backpacking in the beginning and then do some smaller local trips. For me backpacking is not an escape from my family life but an experience that makes me a better person which in turn has a positive impact on my family life. I've seen your videos. It's obvious you have a strong love for backpacking and gear. Thats what gets us fired up right??? The bottom line is...Do what makes YOU happy, but dont quit something you love because you're uncomfortable. One more thing. This is a long shot but judging from your accent I'm thinking there's a real good chance your from the Bristol area. If so I'm out that way quite a bit. If you change your mind and feel like sleeping in the dirt I'd be happy 2 go test out some Gear with you. Hope some of this rambling helps. Happy Trails

[@montemasterson9588]

Don't worry about what anybody thinks Stick. My dad was a good man, but he was so obsessed with his career and his ego that he never spent much time with his family. He ended up divorced and he died miserable. My and my sisters never felt very close to him. There's your family and then there's everything else.The high Western mountains can really mess with your psyche and your lungs. I've done long solo hikes where I felt like I was tripping on drugs, when in fact I was totally straight. I often ran on adrenalin and fear, however, I learned to like it and thrive on it.I'm still healing up from a knee surgery I had 5 months ago, but I should be in good shape by Spring. We should do the Ozark Highlands trail together. It's a tad over 100 miles long it's and not too far from Northern Mississippi. Hang in there. The aborted JMT trip is nothing. The health of you and your family that is EVERYTHING.

[@MatanuskaHIGH]

You didn’t let anyone down but yourself. That trip was you. Don’t do it for us. Don’t worry about the viewers. We will be here. You’re a wealth of backpacking knowledge and that’s what brought us here.

[@jenniferstephenson]

Stick...our son will be 20 in a couple of months. Let me tell you. It may not seem like it when you are in the middle of it....but that time with your kids as a family is SOOOOO SHORT! It flies by so fast, you will blink and they will be gone. You will never regret the time or money you spend together with your family. I have big dreams of doing things on my own too. But my husband always reminds me of how little it means, how diminished the returns are, if we don't have our "others" there to share it with. And he is right. Second, life IS CHANGE. That's what makes it an adventure. Embrace it and don't have regrets or feel that you owe your followers anything else. You're a good guy...a normal guy...that's why people have hung with you. Heck, I've been watching you since you started and I'm a 43 year old woman who has never even done an overnight hike. LOL! Now put a smile on that face and take the next step.

[@charless.7503]

The only constant is change. Your blog if you continue it should reflect that change. I was a camper as a young man then we had a small trailer and then when my son was in Boy Scouts we camped and hiked and backpacked all over. What ever your decision just know that people watch you because you are able to tell your story and give some good honest advise based on your experiences. The gear and settings may change but after taking care of your family share if you like.

[@KuntryRD]

Chad, I suspect that if all of us are honest, we have had trips that we simply could not find it in ourselves to finish. Mine was supposed to be a 450 mile AT section hike. I left the trail just after the GA/NC state line. I was not physically/mentally/emotionally prepared to be away from my family and my dogs. I reflect on that trip a lot. Getting out more, especially with family, is a good thing.

[@wandawilloughby6052]

Hope all goes well with your son and enjoy your camping as a family. I am saving money for a Roadtrek so I can day hike and come back to a camper.

[@TubaSolotheHiker]

Bro!..You've fail no one..not even yourself. Mad respect for this post.

[@dabaird12]

Keep your head up, you will get the fever again👍👍👍👍

[@BobPreis]

Hey you got out there and tried. That’s more than most can say. And just because you didn’t make your first attempt doesn’t mean you can’t try again later. I’m sure you could accomplish the JMT goal if you tried again when circumstances are better.

[@Mountian-Zen]

Stick ...... 10 deep breaths. The JMT I a challenge. I was out there during the same time frame and was thinking we may cross paths on the JMT. Appreciate the post and your humble honesty.... it Is no easy feat. ill do the Eagle Rock Loop in ARKANSAS a couple more weeks. I can offer advice if you are interested in another attempt on the JMT in the future.

[@sinfonianbarelytone9191]

Everyone knows how much you wanted to go on that trip. Any one of those reasons would work to get someone off trail. Those hikes are for you. We are a distant second. Take care of yourself. Thanks for sharing.

[@scottytalley9592]

Like all of your videos and have been to savage gulf several times myself and I also work a lot sometimes a trip is just a overnight at the rangers station to just recharge and family always comes first

[@SticksBlog]

Savage Gulf is a nice area, and small enough to make a nice overnight hike, which I am usually good with. The camper has been providing us with our outdoor experiences this year though and that has been working out pretty well so far. As I said though, I would love to do some longer trips with it and incorporate some hikes (even if it's just day hikes) into it all... one day.

[@mksdad]

Just got a camper also! Whats your favorite places to stay? Life happens! Psalms 18:30

[@geraldhenrickson7472]

Dont beat yourself...water under the bridge. The futures so bright, you gotta wear shades!

[@santiagohills3321]

Chin up: everyone has had a trip go sideways. Pulling out because you miss your family is totally legit. The truth is, for us family men with day jobs, a 3 week expedition is a lot to ask. IMO The JMT will reward section hikers as much or more than thru hikers. Go pick off the Rae Lakes Loop, or How about Reds Meadow to Yosemite? The family can hang out in Mammoth while you walk, and meet you in Tuolomne with the trailer for a shower, and pick you up in the Valley a couple days later.

[@RobFahndrich1]

Dude, I feel ya on this one. Great video!

[@SticksBlog]

Thanks Rob!

[@bretthikez6567]

Hey man u made it out there and enjoyed every minute of it almost..i hope you make it back out..

[@SticksBlog]

Thanks! And yes, one day I want to be back, but I understand that it needs to come in it's own time....

[@joshjambard4634]

Good luck bud!

[@TonyHobbs]

The mind is a strange thing. I can understand much of it. Good luck and take care. Chat away :)

[@jeeping32810]

You are on the right track. Follow your emotions, and the right choice for you will be made. I have not been on FB for more than 5 years... and if there is anything I can tell you... JUST QUIT FB BUDDY! Until you give it up for a while... it is hard to "look back on it" and see how you feel down the road. I only want the best for you, and I see you are trying to decide. But FB... has to go. I don't miss it for 1 second. Unless you are a business, FB is monetizing you and distracting you from ever becoming the "best you possible." Just IMHO!

[@SticksBlog]

Wallace, great to hear from you man. I think about you often times... I think the last I saw on your stuff was the container home. How has that been going for you? It looked interesting when I saw it... Anyway, as for the FB stuff... yeah, I do need to get off of there, completely.

[@jeeping32810]

@@SticksBlog Man, I have been in this place since Aug 2015. It is so amazing to have paid for the house in the first year and now I don't worry much anymore. I bought 2 more and have 3 total. 1 is the house, 1 is the office, and 1 is garage. It up my ecodalefarmDOTcom site and check out some of the stuff I posted over there. I bet your sweeeeet trailer is as big as my house!! LOL Remember, be the best you that you can on the daily, and make decisions based on that. You cannot go wrong. Sometimes things change. I am dying to get out and hike/camp it has been so long. But I also race bicycles now and cannot draw myself away from hopping on the bike and training hard. So like I say... things change. My camping equipment is probably lonely these days.

[@bobbycobbler1598]

Any chance your on R/ultralight? Wanted to ask you a few questions about your Olympic National park hike

[@SticksBlog]

Bobby Cobbler I have an account there but not really active there. You can feel free to send me a message on my blogs FB page, or my blog. I would also suggest checking out Barefoot Jakes blog. He lives in the area and knows that place like the back of his hand. If it’s about the park, he can probably answer any of your questions much better than I can.

[@bobbycobbler1598]

@@SticksBlog what's your Facebook blog

[@SticksBlog]

Bobby Cobbler It goes by the same name, Sticks Blog.

[@mikebonnell3160]

First of your KZbins I watch. Don't know you at all. I may go back and take a look at your other stuff. You do seem down and I thought I'd share the following: 1) Failure (your words): Find a different word. 'Cause not accomplishing your goals can be the best thing that happens to people, at certain times. I'm a long distance runner. The most I've ever learned from an Ultra, was on the one that I didn't complete/finish as planned. As soon as you can get a grip of your self-pity, you'll be able to look back on your effort, its result, and learn some important things about yourself for the future. 2) Failure: The only 'failures' in life is NOT DOING. Doing something, anything, even if it doesn't end up the way one thinks, can never be a 'failure'. 3) You seem down on yourself, but you shouldn't be. You've shown lots of grit just be baring your soul there for the world to see. My message, btw, is not of the 'everyone's a special snowflake' variety. It's just that our current society has a messed up idea of "failure", "winning", "losing" etc. Like I said, the only 'losers' are those that do nothing. Like Einstein reputedly said, "he that makes no mistakes, has never tried anything new." Cheers

[@MoldAdvice1]

Chad... Were cut from the same cloth..Im older than you but my kids are 6 and 11..With that said, I like to hike and camp, but my family member better be with me or its over Quick..I think we try to put our brains in the category of the, trying to figure out life, tired of work, just divorce, our the kids are gone and i want a challenge...This is not me our you..We get caught up with the best and lightest we can or cannot afford(me) equipment, and the videos are not helping us as we could teach those videos and have..Facebook..Shut it down, KZbin can take up 8 hrs of our day already not to mention the lets check out tweeter and instagram..Shut Down That Crap..That wife and kids deserve it but mostly you..Camping in the camper will save your life (Other than God and his Son) and mind..Best thing I ever did, because you can still do small hikes, ride the bikes, and be with what God gave you that really means the most Family.A lot of these thru hikers are single and family is not around or they dont have that bond,(Not all, just some) with family member..You will enjoy the relaxation of setting up the camper, watching the wife tell you how to back up and hit a picnic table, and cooking and just setting by the fire..Let evreyone else get the triple crown tatoo, just be Chad and love on that family ,and the stress of the "making the trail your life" will be gone, but family is here and now..This is helping me more than you, Thanks for listening to me type my mouth off..God bless and take Care...From the South Jerry

[@troykool6275]

If the wife is not into backpacking then the husband won't be able to do it much without being guilt tripped.

[@SticksBlog]

I have to admit, she doesn’t guilt trip me at all... she encourages me to go, and more than once in the past she has gone out with me. She has been on a few 5 days trips, as well as some other shorter trips too. She doesn’t mind it, but her aspirations aren’t quite what mine were. That’s ok though... we have been doing a lot of RV camping since last year. Been out about 45 nights so I’m not complaining!

[@troykool6275]

@@SticksBlog .... you're a fortunate man.

[@jonny_mazerati9410]

He’s hot

[@ericmartinez5126]

Stop setting an expectation. Stop the videos and just enjoy the outdoors....with the family.