Suicide Survivor with Chronic Illness Reacts Hi Ren by Ren

[@andyh6849]

This song genuinely probably saved me... I lost my daughter in 2021 and have just stopped living.. i have been doing nothing, unable to work, unable to talk to anyone, unable to look after myself or my fiance, been distant from my other daughter who is mostly grown up now and just really on a way trip to oblivion... I've known it, and i knew i had to do something about it, but this song, and others from Ren genuinely and most sincerely gave me a push in the right direction and helped me stop the descent.... it just got me at the right time i think.. I'm going to do better, If Ren can do everything he has done while living through the hell he's been through, i owe it to myself and my family to try and be better.

[@TachyTanya]

I am so sorry for your loss. I couldn't even imagine that kind of pain. I'm glad you found Ren. Sending you much love, hugs, and healing ❤

[@christinefuss9585]

Sorry for your loss. Glad you found hope in Ren's words. I did too. I hope the way forward is easier for you.♥

[@patrickquinlan3056]

That is tough, Andy. I am no stranger to grief so I get what you are saying. Bless you and bless Ren for touching your heart.

[@Charlie_Ses]

Keep fighting dude, fight for the daughter you still have

[@carmenohio8735]

Jesus, Brother. As a dad of a little girl, this hurt. But I know there’s nothing anyone can say to you to make that easier so I won’t insult your intelligence by trying to say something profound. All I can say is maybe check out support groups because you’re definitely not alone and I’m praying for you.

[@kielia727]

Ren had signed a record deal when he became ill. He lost the deal because of that illness. They misdiagnosed Ren , and told him he was mentally ill. They filled him with drugs that came with severe side effects while his original disease ravaged his body for year after painful year. The correct diagnosis was lyme disease and Ren has permanent damage, in his brain and in his body. They can fix some things but many they can not. He said that he wished to die but did not because he could not bear hurting his mother and friends. You see Rens best friend jumped off a bridge and killed himself. Ren was told his friend was on the bridge so at 3 in the morning he started running to the bridge while he kept trying to dial his friends phone number. He estimates he made it to the bridge about 2 minutes to late to save his friends life. His music is in the process of blowing up and going viral. Last I heard he was in Canada undergoing some new treatment that may help him. I only hope that something does not happen to hold him back from this second chance with his music. CNN aired an attack on TicToc. They said that artists were damaging teenagers with their music and used Rens song Hi Ren as an example of artists harming "children". I don't know about any of you l but I think we need to stand up for Ren. This song helps. It doesn't hurt and they need to understand this.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you for sharing all of this ❤ I agree we need to protect Ren. CNN took the song out of context and they are the ones causing more harm by spreading fear and misinformation.

[@karmen181]

Where did you learn all this ? I’m in a rabbit hole with him right now and would love to learn even more .

[@briannaproctor1938]

“Mental hellness” is actually an extremely accurate way to describe it.

[@genstonewall]

I’m 56, a combat Veteran, diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis 20years ago, suffer with a variety of alphabets.. and the first time I heard this song I cried like a lost child. Call me sadistic but I put it on repeat for the rest of the day. Since then, I’ve watched at least 70 reactions to this video. Why? I guess it’s therapeutic. Thank you for your reaction and thoughts. I feel very similarly. Blessings to you and yours.

[@djboswell4325]

stay strong! my dads also a vet and suffered for his time spent protecting us. your time fighting for us and the next generation to have a future isnt unoticed, at least to some, keep fighting my friend, your more appreciated then you know.

[@M4tti87]

Thanks for your service Sir. Iam 36 only and from Germany, but yall helicopters saved my ass and of several other members of the german army in 2010 in Kundus, Afghanistan.

[@denverbasshead]

I was diagnosed with MS at 18, it's been 10 years since. Thank you for your service good sir

[@jamesalgeo6251]

Hey brother, I'm 56 too and a combat veteran, Marines. I just found this last week. I too have watched countless reactions.

[@nickgerman]

It's not sadistic. You're using the song to help you process and release emotion.

[@philsilverthorn]

There is nothing like depression for making you feel alone and nothing like a Hi Ren reaction video and its comments section for making you realise you're not.

[@TachyTanya]

You're definitely not ❤🤗Sending you love and hugs!!

[@SandraP3796]

Absolutely not ❤

[@valkyrie1066]

🙋‍♀ 🫂

[@theoblomqvist4766]

Thank you for being so honest about what you've been through. You reaction to Hi Ren has definitely made an impact on me ❤

[@brettAnichols]

"Some days it's louder than others, some days it's meaner than others. Some days we are stronger than it other days it is stronger than us." Beautifully spoken💓

[@Bunny-bi8dj]

The eternal dance inside of us 💙

[@K0zil1a]

This was my favorite part of the reaction.

[@andrewellington9503]

I hate react videos but have been binging reactions for this song. The fact that every single one sits there silent for at least 5 seconds after it ends speaks volumes about just how powerful this song is. The amount of courage it takes to completely lay yourself open like this is inspiring and contagious.

[@TachyTanya]

You really need a few to process. It blows your mind! If you don't mind me asking, is there something specific about reaction videos you don't like or just a general you don't tend to enjoy them? I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! ❤🤗

[@thomasgwyn1589]

Same. Seeing him touch other people is so rewarding.

[@andrewellington9503]

@@TachyTanya Hate is probably a a bit strong. I just have never been much of a fan of reaction videos but never watched that many either, if I'm being honest. The few I have watched before bingeing on the ren reactions usually added nothing really to the content of the clip itself or would be over to the top to the point of being obnoxious.

[@SCharlesDennicon]

I agree... but I wish most of them didn't pause every five seconds...

[@brianmullaley3547]

Same here, I was never a fan of reaction videos. I had to find out if I was the only one so affected. I get this.

[@alejandrobarboza2004]

This isn't a song....this is a blessing

[@DJQUAZER]

It’s a masterpiece..

[@heffatheanimal2200]

@@DJQUAZER Agreed. While all music is some form of art, this is art first and foremost

[@Amya_Blue66]

Perfectly said!

[@thejonbmc]

The importance of this song cannot be overstated. I've never heard anyone articulate this struggle in such a universally relatable and powerful way. The fact that it went viral and reached millions of people makes me so happy.

[@BigHomieSteveTheMetalHead]

I've lived with an autoimmune illness called Systemic Scleroderma since I was 17yo, and I've struggled with depression and anxiety as well because of it and other life circumstances. That's why I connect with this song soo much, it's very relatable to just about everybody who has struggled in life. This isn't just a song, this song is one of the best pieces of art I've ever seen and it cuts right down to the soul!!

[@ranneff7119]

🙏💕🙏

[@nigeldepledge3790]

Hear, hear!

[@shellyann8818]

💯💯☝ 🙏❤🙏❤

[@TachyTanya]

Sending you love and hugs! Definitely an amazing piece of art for sure! So happy it’s connecting so many wonderful people ❤️

[@generous_x]

❤️

[@petlanduk2709]

I lost my baby sister (15) and my wife to suicide and I struggled with mental illness PTSD from the military REN saved my life. Love your video also. Beautiful light.

[@DewayneWerdehausen]

Mental hellness is the most accurate description I've ever heard

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you all so much for the views, likes, subs, and comments. I apologize for the audio. This was my first reaction video ever and I am very new to KZbin. I appreciate you all giving feedback and giving me grace as I learn. Audio is the hardest one for me out of video, lighting, recording, editing, audio, etc. Much love to you all! I will also be getting to ALL of your comments - it might take me a little while! If I haven't gotten to yours yet, it's not deliberate! I promise I will get to it ❤

[@michellemiles9966]

You'll get there, step by step. I thought it was a great reaction. I liked that you let it play without stopping and also that you placed yourself down in the corner and played the video full screen. ✌💖

[@MrAgentFox]

Thank you for your genuine reaction. It doesn't matter if it's not perfect, your message comes from the heart. Please continue making video's and while you're doing you will improve.

[@valkyrie1066]

Having interesting content and being an audio whiz are kinds two different things! Please, keep sharing! 🫂🫂

[@nataliehalveston5706]

You did incredibly well Tanya.

[@tomcarson8854]

I absolutely love the fact that you don't make the artist a tiny thumbnail down in the corner!

[@mckenziepaigemusic]

It's a year since this dropped, but thank you for this reaction and thank you for spreading more love for Ren. His music found me at a time when I really needed it and it inspired me to start writing, and hopefully recording, music again. But thank you for those words of inspiration, "Keep casting those shadows behind you. They get bigger, but keep doing it anyway, 'cause it's worth it." Those are powerful words. Also, you call it you inner demon, I call it my shitty roommate, but even if it saddens me to hear others have that voice, it is also powerful to know I'm not the only one. Even if you are a stranger, I love you too! Thank you!

[@valkyrie1066]

It used to be a powerful demon. NOW it's a shitty room mate that occasionally gives me a reality check, or the spine to step up for myself.

[@j3611]

I've been watching A LOT of reaction vids to this song today, and as much as I appreciate the lyric/guitar breakdowns, it was so nice to just have the song play without being interrupted and watch your face as you watched it too. Hello from Australia 🌹

[@randytucker7085]

After I first saw Ren's video, I was so moved and found myself watching others reacting to this beautiful work of art. I can stop now, I understand why Hi Ren is so powerful and why it affected me so. You did that for me. Your pure and honest reaction helped me to understand why some people do not have the strength to fight any longer and now maybe I can forgive him. Thank you for sharing your story, thank you for helping others and thank you for helping me.

[@st1ckyfng3rz]

His performance is raw, real and deep. I have struggled with bipolar and anxiety disorder for most of my life. He is spot on about the pendulum. The brighter the light shines the darker the shadow it casts hits home for me. I know that no matter how good I might feel today, I have to prepare myself because darker days are coming. I found his masterpiece extremely therapeutic.

[@TachyTanya]

Agreed. And there’s always that chain attached trying to pull you back the other direction. Sending you love and hugs!

[@GneasYTC]

I hope you can remember on those dark days that the pendulum *will* swing back. "This too shall pass" is my mantra on those days when health problems knock me on my ass. I wish you well, st1cky. As Tanya said in her reaction "It *is* worth it."

[@mikemedrano8579]

"I wish I could meet this man and give him a great big hug." My thoughts when I heard this. Our paths are different but the same in many ways. We're all human, regardless of our situation. If we met I would have to give you a big hug.

[@TachyTanya]

🤗 🤗 🤗 our paths have crossed now! And I’m so glad they did ❤️ I hope you have an amazing day!

[@tedlitschauer9061]

I was thinking the exact same thing.

[@jaeljade3609]

I've been through it all too, sister, and I've cried my eyes out watching him. I've never heard an artist I could relate to like him. I've spent years sick. I think the mental illness has been worse than the physical. I'm glad you're still here, you seem really sweet.

[@TachyTanya]

I feel like the mental compounds the physical a lot of the time. Sending lots of love and hugs to you ❤️🫂

[@jaeljade3609]

@@TachyTanya Us people who get it need to stick together. Thanks for your love and support. I'm wishing you wellness and much love back ❤❤

[@JensRandolff]

Thank you for genuine, heartfelt reaction. I appreciate your honesty and can sympathize with your health struggles. “Hi Ren" is the song that put Ren on everyone's radar since December; it went viral and has garnered more than 6 million views since its debut, but he has been creating great music for more than ten years. Ren’s music videos are generally recorded live, often in a single take, although not necessarily the first take, and from various camera angles. His release, "Sick Boi," is almost another chapter to "Hi Ren." Many of Ren’s songs resonate with people because he addresses struggles that many others face every day. Ren plays multiple instruments (acoustic, electric, and bass guitar, piano, drums), has impressive vocals, is an excellent storyteller, and is quite the philosopher and poet. He is considered by many a modern bard; he calls his music “bardcore.” Ren’s earliest recordings on KZbin are from his time in a band called “Trick The Fox,” consisting of Ren and his buddies Charlie and Tommy. Unfortunately, the band performed only briefly due to Ren’s onset of health issues. They are very talented. A fun clip to watch is “The Mash Up.” Ren’s trilogy "The Tale of Jenny/Screech/Violet" has been likened to a Shakespearean tragedy and is a prime example of his genius; it is a master’s class in storytelling and also showcases his guitar skills. The three acts are haunting, and the conclusion will catch you off guard. The trilogy needs to be watched in the order given, as this is the flow of the storyline and is best watched as a whole rather than piecemeal. Ren’s collaborations with Chinchilla (“Chalk Outlines,” “How to Be Me,” “Sexual Healing,” “One Dance/Drunk in Love”) are beautiful and showcase his singing voice. His live music videos are especially impressive. Ren's personal reflections are threaded through many of his songs; "Insomnia," "Depression," “Diazepam," “Penitence,” “Dear God,” “Heretic,” “Dominos,” his "Freckled Angels" album, just to name a few, all deserve a listen. His song "Money Game" (Part I & II) is another recommendation, although it is less of a personal song than it is an indictment of greed and the resulting injustices in this world. Ren’s Hip Hop/Rap style songs are all worth checking out if you enjoy this genre; they are pretty amazing. Check out “The Hunger,” “Genesis,” “What You Want,” “Losing it (FISHER rap retake),” “Right here, right now (Fatboy Slim one shot retake),” "Life is Funny," “Love Music (Parts 1, 2, and 3),” “Crucify Your Culture,” “Power,” and his latest release, “Bittersweet symphony (The Verve retake).” As I recently discovered, Ren also recorded a cover of “Can't Help Falling In Love (Elvis Cover),” that is simply beautiful. Then there are his performances with Sam Tompkins (“Blind Eyed,” “Earned it /Mans World / Falling,” “Walking on the moon/No Diggity”), Eden Nash (“Humble,” “Ocean”), Bibi (“Crutch,” “Ahiahiaoha”), Molly McKinna (“Penitence”), his former bandmate, Romain Axisa (“French Song”), which are all great. "The Big Push" busking sessions, concerts, and live recordings all are awesome and well worth checking out. Their covers of "I Shot the Sheriff/Road to Zion/Hip Hop," "Wade in the Water/Nina Simone/Trouble so Hard," "An Englishman in New York," “Bongo Bong,” “War Pigs,” the songs "Oh My Woman," “Swan Song,” “Sweet Little Lady," "It's Alright," "Watch Out," “Dignity,” and so many others are equally impressive. In anticipation of his stay in Canada for more treatments, Ren prepared some music ahead of time to be released over the next six months that he expects to be gone. He released “Sick Boi” and “Bittersweet Symphony (The Verve retake),” which is another masterful work. Ren has hinted that he might release his newest song on March 29, which is his birthday.

[@TachyTanya]

Wow! Thank you so much for taking the time to provide me with that wealth of information! I have so much to catch up on and I am so excited to go check out all the amazing things he's been up to!! He really is an inspiration ❤I appreciate you!

[@JensRandolff]

@@TachyTanya I am looking forward to following you down the Ren rabbit hole. Have a blessed weekend.

[@omnomshibob]

@Jens Randolff you ain't following anyone down the rabbit hole! You're already at the bottom waiting for everyone to catch up!! I've seen you on near as dammit every reaction I've watched, which is several dozen!

[@analisasmith7927]

@@omnomshibob :)

[@TheRottenICE]

It’s an achievement, if I find a hi Ren video, that Jens has not gotten to yet. I’ve no idea how you find them so fast but commend the effort.

[@katanapop]

Ren made me cry. Tanya made me cry. Both are beautiful.

[@TachyTanya]

Lol! Thank you so much! Sending you love and hugs ❤️

[@templarnight680]

Wow... That song was amazing. and thank you for sharing your reaction with us. I'm sure it was difficult to open up like that. But it matters. Thank you.

[@TachyTanya]

It is an incredible song! Very talented musician! And thank you! I don't mind sharing if it helps others 🥰

[@hedge68]

tag Ren in your title he is very good at responding to people. Very brave and heartfelt reaction ❤❤❤

[@TachyTanya]

Oh, I tagged him in the description. Is that the same as tagging in the title or are they different things? I'm still learning KZbin a bit.

[@hedge68]

@@TachyTanya I'm not sure

[@beldavius]

Thank you for sharing your heart-felt reaction to this amazing song. May you have many more blessings as you continue your journey!

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much! It really means a lot to me!

[@simplysimon9868]

Loved your reaction. Seen so many reactors from Rap to Rock to more. Ren certainly brought so many together with this masterpiece. Certainly more reactions from Ren's rabbit hole needed. His band The Big Push great too. All play, write and sing. We are human and anyone that doesn't shed a tear isn't. Being 55 have to admit I have hearing it over 50 times now.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you! I can’t wait to check out more of his work. I hope you have an amazing day!

[@BigHomieSteveTheMetalHead]

This song has really had an impact on me and it's amazing to see soo many people connecting with it. I really hope you do "Jenny/Screech/Violet's Tale", I heard that song for the first time a few weeks ago and I was even more blown away. This kid is the most creative artist I've ever heard, he needs to be promoted EVERYWHERE!! 🤘🤘🤙🤙

[@TachyTanya]

Even more blown away?! Oh boy. He really should be promoted everywhere. I’ll definitely check that one out!

[@gisobo]

It's really good and brings tears too my eyes. But be warned, it's not quite as uplifting as this one... And of course "How to be me (live)", just beautifully sad and touching.

[@NilZed1]

@@TachyTanya when you react, look for the 13 minute or so video called The ballad of Jenny and Screech (full) which includes all 3 stories together.

[@gcarap]

Just an FYI, Ren is actually 32!

[@BigHomieSteveTheMetalHead]

@@gcarap really??? Wow, I just turned 31 on Feb 9th. I can't believe he's a year older than me lol, he looks no older than 25 to me lol. I've come to realize that us late bloomers are actually the lucky ones, the people who peak in high school typically have a steep decline in their 30s and 40s.

[@justinroach9344]

I've listened to this song a hundred times, and yes it made me cry gave me goose bumps. hearing your reaction.....Niagara Falls. You most definitely get it. Thank you so much for this.😀😉

[@TachyTanya]

I definitely do. And I hope to be at least a fraction of the beacon of light and hope as Ren is. One smile and act of kindness at a time ❤ Sending love and hugs to you!

[@SophiaofTao]

This song is like the greatest therapy session you could ever have because it immediately and vividly reveals two things we believe about ourselves that are simply not true; 1. that we're alone in our suffering, and 2. that we're abnormal because of this inner dialog, we believe no one else has it because so many repress it and don't talk about. Well, Ren just shined a light so bright on those lies that they can never be hidden again....and what is it that dispels darkness......light! Ren even gives the antidote to the inner dialogue...relax, don't fight it, don't accept the words as true either, but just allow them to come and go as clouds pass through the sky.

[@TheFlagnard2]

This is a masterpiece of modern art. I have struggled with mental health my entire life. Although it has mostly manifested itself in depression, I have the genetic pre-disposition for schizophrenia, bi-polar, and multiple personality disorder. These things loom over me constantly, a constant reminder that even if my depression gets better, there's something much worse that could await me in the future. As an ex-vangelical...someone who grew up in the church, and as someone who has struggled with mental health, I deeply relate to the dichotomy of self represented in this video. "The pendulum between good and evil" (paraphrase). I have broken away from the religion of my parents and now as an adult, I am realizing that mental health and religion are intertwined. I will always be fighting a battle within my mind and it's art like this that makes me not feel alone.

[@TachyTanya]

I have a few friends that struggle with bipolar. It’s a tough one to manage. After I was stabilized and transferred to the psych ward, they diagnosed me with it, but I don’t actually have it. It’s common to get misdiagnosed with ADHD patients (or vice versa). Thank you for sharing your experience and story ❤️ you will always have a place here and are definitely not alone.

[@wyvernwood5675]

Thank you for your open and raw reaction. That's the thing about Hi Ren, for those that it hits, it hits hard. The most amazing thing about watching reactions like yours is to see people sharing their deepest experiences, and in that sharing, it helps others as much as Ren's music does. Ren is a catalyst, but these reactions are such a pool of shared experience, seeing how others have faced their 'demons' and struggles and yet carry on with life's dance helps so many people too. Thank you.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you! I couldn’t agree more ❤️ I hope you have an amazing day!

[@zeetheblasphemer5533]

Thank you for the love hope and encouragement. It really did a lot for me. Thank you for bearing your heart and soul and for making yourself vulnerable for the sake of thoes that yiu haven't ever met. ❤

[@stevengeller829]

Tanya, thank you for sharing. It isn’t that a person has or hasn’t done something before you, or that you are or aren’t stealing an idea. It is that you have the strength and courage to do something positive at all. It is easy to stay silent and let others do the work. It is easy to roll over and say others who can do it better are out there. Be you. The person who shared an unedited video that shared with people emotionally of yourself. That is strength. That is power. Keep being you and I hope you never stop being you. If someone does recommend Ren X Chinchilla How to Be Me. Please know ahead that it is a song about Ren dealing w a friend’s suicide before watching. I’m not sure how you’d feel about that, but, it’s probably fair warning ahead of time. I’ll guess someone will recommend it because it is an amazing song. That’s enough from me. Great reaction, keep being real and yourself.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much! I know it’s hard to be truly original. Most everything on the internet is a copy of something with a personal twist - what makes it unique and special is the person behind the content. I appreciate your words ❤️ Thank you for the suggestion and the warning. I might need to hold off on that one as we’ve been affected recently by this. Sending love and hugs ❤️

[@stevengeller829]

@@TachyTanya You're welcome! As much as I love this song I fear sharing it with my wife for that reason. About originality. The older I get the more I think that labels F**** things up in life. Original, taking inspiration from something..etc. Labels are for those who are consuming and not creating. Label me what you will, I'm me. Me is a collection of memories and experiences had over time that stick with me making me into whatever I am moment to moment.

[@RichardQuadling]

If anyone who was watched this reaction, or the original, then you may like to know that Ren is performing in the UK at The Secret Garden Party. For a person who has gone through, and is going through, so much, and his work has helped so many, the appreciation of his work is going to be VERY VERY clear to him. Like Tachy said, those making art/support/video/KZbin channels, are not necessarily face-to-face, not getting the feedback (well, hopefully my words help in that regard). I'm going to SGP. I'm going to see Ren perform. I know for a fact the tears will flow. I've been tested and twisted, broken and beat. And it is because of Hi Ren, that I'm starting to stand on my own two feet. And I'll be singing from the top of my lungs, and ... I know ... from the hundreds of people in the SGP groups that I am talking with ... I know I will not be alone.

[@dablondebomber]

Just wow! I am so glad I watched the video today. I needed that. Thank you for sharing ❤️

[@TachyTanya]

Right? SO GOOD.

[@UnderTheMillkyWay]

I live with 6 autoimmune diseases and I faught two primary cancers squamous cell carcinoma that spread to my bones (terminal) and endometrial cancer from 2017 to 2020 and went into remission with less than 1% chance of remission. My endometrial cancer is back and I have blockages in my kidneys and large intestines so now I have 3 bags I have to wear all the time to use the bathroom. I've had a partial hip replacement and at least 25 other surgeries dealing with my cancers. The cancers are even harder than my autoimmune diseases but my PCOS is the reason for my endometrial cancer and I have a full hysterectomy prior to 2020. This song hit me right in the chest. I felt every second of this song and I can't stop playing it since he released it and it does help me. Many of us needed a song like this to help with our issues. He should win award after award for this song.

[@TachyTanya]

I wish I could give you a huge hug. I am so sorry you are living with all of that. I took care of my dad for six months before he passed from cancer last year and it was by far probably the toughest thing I ever had to do. Please reach out here anytime you need for love and support. Sending you love and hugs ❤

[@easyeste_True_Salfordian]

Well done I'm a survivor of csa bpd parasomia. I cried my heart out to this... It's ok to not be ok... We're still here.. Always a little further

[@TachyTanya]

Sending you big love and hugs 🤗❤ It's definitely ok to not be ok. Lean on others to help you through ❤

[@rodb9275]

Ren comments on LOTS of reactions to this. Don't be surprised if he does! Great reaction.

[@billdevany3303]

I have listened to these voices all my life. nice to know I am not alone. never decided to make the leap, but came came close a few times. sharing our experiences is so important.

[@pjeball]

You’re not alone for sure. We are many. Stay strong and well.

[@TachyTanya]

I’m so glad you are still here with us. You are not alone and you have a place here in this community if you choose ❤️ Sending love and hugs

[@jackflack5563]

What a totally heartfelt reaction … you totally get Ren… so you totally get me

[@TrianglesAndCircles]

The primary takeaway from this bit is that we are not alone - we are all in this together. Thanks Ren! @RenMakesMusic

[@TachyTanya]

Absolutely! ❤

[@irishdruidess7391]

So good to see your genuine and heart felt reaction! Subscribed! You should check out his live duets with Chinchilla, Chalk Outlines and How to be me.

[@TachyTanya]

I will definitely be checking more of his stuff! Thank you so much for your subscription! Much appreciated! Looking forward to getting to know you!!

[@jhensleytm]

For 10 years my brain has been so inflamed, i’m a soldier and it ripped me apart bent me broke me into a psychosis. I didn’t think I’d ever come back from. Well I’m on my way to recovery and I can go ahead and tell you I’m carved out of wood and unbreakable. Nothing will ever be hard again, the worst thing that can happen to a person already happened. I accepted the fact that I was gonna die from whatever was going on. They thought I had Parkinson’s… Not many people get to sit on their deathbed and contemplate there your life what they would do if I had a second chance. Then get that second chance‼️With great suffering comes great and empathy, understanding of the human condition, and I’m going to help a lot of people! Get in my way and I’ll be the rock you break against….

[@TachyTanya]

Not that nothing won't be hard again - it's that you'll be better prepared to deal with the hard things that come your way, and come they will. And you'll get through them, one step and one day at a time ❤ Using that to help others is a tremendous thing 🤗 I'm glad you were given that second chance!!

[@johnnyeproductions]

As someone who also suffers from illness... and my case is terminal. There are chances things could go a different route, but at this point in time I'm not even sure I want to go through that. I can empathize with your situation and what you have been through also. Same with Ren, that song hit me sooooo hard, it's not even a song. That doesn't even do it justice. That was pure art, amazing beautiful art. I commend you for staying in the fight, and I hope you continue to persevere! I wish you the very best. You should react to the Tale Of Jenny & Screech(Full) from Ren, you will appreciate his real artistry. Also his song sick boi is really good too! ***Sends you a big hug***

[@ElphabaRaine]

A big hug to you.

[@TachyTanya]

Sending you big, big hugs right back friend. You always have a place here if you ever need to talk ❤️

[@NanaPsychoville]

Healing Love sent to you 🪬🫶🏻💜🪬

[@johnnyeproductions]

@@TachyTanya thank you, I appreciate that! ❤

[@KevinAndrew]

just found you because of this song! You are awesome, You are great. It doesn't matter if someone else did this before. You did this and it was powerful, courageous, and real! Life is real and it's full of shadows, but we can learn how to dance around them. Keep dancing your dance and keep sharing your story for anyone who needs too hear it. You are loved. You are real. You are important. We all are! Love you!

[@chrisrisher6045]

Keep it up. Helping even one person can start that ripple effect which can spread to many.

[@TachyTanya]

Just takes one smile. One act of kindness. Right? That’s what I keep telling myself. ❤️thank you for the kind words. I hope you have an amazing day!

[@kkal1183]

Thank you for sharing that part of you with me. it means more than you will ever know. I love you too Tanya.

[@TachyTanya]

You are so welcome. 🤗❤ Sending you love and hugs!!

[@ryanjackson645]

FRIENDS OF CUZ MOST LIKELY A FRIEND OF MINE NICE TO MEET YOU

[@ljslupylife]

Hey. I have a variety of mental health problems and several chronic illnesses and I only just found Ren too. I managed not to cry too much during this but I was dissociating so that's why. His music is incredible, thank you for sharing your reaction. I have listened to a few of his pieces now and they are all incredible 💜

[@TachyTanya]

Disassociating can be rough. Sending love and hugs your way! You are always welcome here in this community if you ever need love and support ❤️

[@ljslupylife]

@@TachyTanya thank you. Same to you

[@Entropy72]

Thank you for that message at the end. I needed to hear that today.

[@TachyTanya]

You are so very welcome 🤗 you are always welcome here anytime you need love and support ❤️ I appreciate you and I hope you have an amazing day!

[@calle444]

Thank you for putting yourself out there. Ren is an amazing artist showing others that they are not alone. The first time I watched I didn’t hear most of what he was saying. I found myself with tears streaming down my face thinking this is pure art. The second time, it hit me harder with the lyrics. I am grateful to Ren as well as the reactors for sending this message out.

[@TachyTanya]

His body language is just as memorizing as the lyrics themselves. He doesn't just sing it, but he full blown acts it out. It's amazing.🤗❤ I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day!

[@bernadettefoster6038]

Bless you ❤️🙏 much love from 🇬🇧

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you! Sending love and hugs ❤

[@elliottmcneese5769]

I have watched "Hi Ren" on so many reactors channels, and it is beautiful that his music is reaching so many different people. I saw someone refer to his style as "Bardcore", and after watching his other videos (The Tale of Jenny and Screech (full)) it just fits so well. Thank you for sharing this!

[@TachyTanya]

Bardcore! Love that! Thanks for sharing! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day ❤

[@seralynda]

I identify strongly with the self-description you gave at the beginning, and I cannot recommend Chalk Outlines by Ren x Chinchilla more highly. It's a must-see. ❤Thank you for this reaction.

[@TachyTanya]

Sending you love and hugs! You are always welcome here if you ever need support ❤️ you are not alone!

[@Moctipotili1]

Putting yourself out there to try and help more people is hard, and is the most selfless thing a person can do. You have reached me, and so has this song. You are enough, and I love you.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you! Sending love and hugs your way!

[@TeresaGrimes-fm5is]

He has given me hope, tried suicide to many times. Diagnosed with 5 mental illnesses. I was always ashamed. His music lifts me up. I wish happiness,love and strength

[@karlbecker8775]

Thank you for a fantastic reaction. Many of us feel it. You are an angel.

[@BurningTarot]

"Mental hellness" - great Freudian slip! Another suicide survivor, mental health, chronic physical health here. (Just wait 'til you hit perimenopause, too. Yep. It gets even better.) Ren is amazing, I'm so glad you got to experience "Hi Ren." Hugs from T of Burning Tarot, the podcast.

[@TachyTanya]

Oh boy. I can’t regulate my body temperature as it is 😅 thank you so much for your comment! I do love the “Mental Hellness.” Need to make it a tshirt. Sending love and hugs ❤️

[@Shadowjct]

Even though I never had any deep problems with my mental health I can deeply sympathize with everyone who had and want to say a few words to everyone who could be struggling at the moment: "...what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that even though I do not know you, and even though I may not meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you: I love you. With all my heart. I love you." (Quote from the movie V for Vendetta)

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you. That means so much to us to know that we have someone in our corner. (Also, great movie and movie reference!) I hope you have an amazing day! ❤️

[@instigatorartworks]

I just got to the part of your reaction when you said you had health issues of your own, as do I. I paused you for just 1 moment so I could look up how many views Hi Ren has gotten at this exact moment. 11:44 pm 03 11 2023 it is 7,299,031 views. I wanted you to know that because it may give you pause as you struggle with your own health/worth. This man is a true artist. One of which I have not seen in a long while. Look how many people he may be helping. Look how many people YOU MAY BE HELPING . When I wonder what the point is to being in this world, I can be sure that my existence may help someone else, and isn't that a marvelous thing~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I just saw your Hi Ren reaction, and put this journal entry of Ren's as my comment to that reaction. jAN 01, 2023 rEN~ Up until I was 9 years old, I would intermittently hear a voice in my head that was not my own. The voice was distinctly different to mine, and always negative. It would self criticise or urge me to do things I knew to be morally wrong. The most peculiar thing about the voice was that it took no effort on my behalf to produce. My own thoughts always felt like there was a process that required effort to bring them to the forefront of my mind, this voice appeared as though it was spoken by another. The sentences felt predetermined like they had already been constructed. I remember very vividly at 9 years old, becoming very frustrated with the voice. I stood in my back yard, internally screaming at the voice to be silent again and again, and it did. In a flash there was silence, to the point where my head felt like an empty room. I wasn't used to the quiet and that voice never returned. It almost felt lonely in my head. When I got older I had intermittent bouts with auditory hallucinations where I would hear perfect symphonies, usually at night when drifting off to sleep. They were so clear that they sounded like they were emanating from a radio in the corner of my room. I knew they weren't there, but for some reason they never came with the feeling of fear. I also recall sitting on a bus at the age of 15, and hearing the sound of a crowded room, with about 100 voices chattering away, I was the only person apart from the driver on the bus. These experiences were always very brief, and few and far between. My last hallucination was during an intense bout of psychosis in 2015, and was my first visual hallucination. I was walking down a pavement after jumping out my mums car in a crossroads in a moment of frustration and distress with my condition. I was trying to run from myself. What appeared to be a homeless man with a dark complexion approached me, and asked me what was wrong. I explained that I had been sick most my life, and I wasn't sure I had the strength to continue. He looked at me, and smiled and told me 'everything is going to be okay in the end Ren.' I had not told him my name. There was something so overpoweringly sincere about this very simple message, which brought with it an overwhelming feeling of inner peace, and in a flash, he vanished. My rational brain always linked these experiences to what the doctors have told me, that there are parts of my brain compromised by the autoimmunity in my body. That the myelin sheaths surrounding the complex electrical system that conduct my thoughts were damaged and compromised, causing these lucid experiences that I knew did not exist inside the physical world. The part of me that edges away from logical and rational thought always attributed these thoughts to some kind of otherworldly intervention, that made my thoughts the battleground of some spiritual tug of war. For a long time I never really acknowledged this part of myself, for with it brought the danger and stigma of sounding like a crazy person. I decided with my latest release, to the best of my ability, to capture and express this chess match of thought. Hi Ren comes out in just over 24 hours. I can't wait for you all to hear it.

[@TachyTanya]

Wow. That was very powerful. Thank you so much for sharing this. ❤My heart aches for him. I had a very tumultuous childhood for different reasons. No child should ever have to go through these things.

[@williamkeith8740]

❤❤ From one survivor to another - thanks for your honest, heartfelt reaction. Subscribed

[@TachyTanya]

Sending hope and light your way! Thank you for being here!! Can't wait to get to know you more!!

[@PeteFindsObscureStuff]

Heartfelt and incisive reaction. Thank you.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much! I hope you have an amazing day ❤️

[@macwest1001]

I have been binge-watching reaction videos on Hi Ren for the last two weeks and I can't seem to stop. Watching people's reactions to this Message which I can not explain other than the Truth. I find myself in tears every time I see when someone 'gets' the Message. It is the entire Gospel of Christ in one song. First, we just sing along, then the inner battle, then Satan reveals himself and then Christ comes and Stands up in authority over us and claims us to be redeemed. Our Saviour and Eternal Hope and the only One who truly stood in the Eternal Flame having His brain cremated while it burned away Our sins. And finally, it is ok. Because we have been made to be trailed and tested, we are human. Revelation 3:20 "Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me." Jer 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."

[@TachyTanya]

There is beauty in it ❤ Thank you for sharing! I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! 🤗

[@Spugedelia77]

I have lived a very rough life and I just want to give you a hug! *hugs* Thank you for this great reaction and you for being a genuine human being! Greetings from Helsinki!

[@karenferreira1760]

You are Amazing...you made me tear up again!!!!! Your words is also helping lots of people including me and thank you for an amazing reaction❤!!!!!!!

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much! I’m glad I was able to help you ❤️ I hope you have an amazing day!

[@LeopoldNZ]

Thank you for that end commentary. I've been struggling. That was the most honest and factfull and heartful thing I've seen on the internet in a while. Thank you.

[@TachyTanya]

I'm sorry to hear you've been struggling. Sending you love and hugs. Lean on this community ❤ They have been so amazing and wonderful 🤗

[@multieyedmyr]

As an INFP my internal dialog is a real mean bastard. I have to sleep with something to occupy my mind or it reminds me of every dumb thing I ever did and I would never sleep.

[@TachyTanya]

Aw man! Sounds like me last night trying to sleep after posting this video 😅

[@AgarthanNephilim]

Kudos on not interrupting the video itself! I do think though that having the subtitles on would have been more of a distraction than a help, at least for this piece of work. Thank you for reviewing and sharing your thoughts with us all.

[@TachyTanya]

I prefer to save my comments to the end! For the subtitles, I did notice they were wrong a bit. I have ADHD that I can't medicate due to one of my conditions and pretty bad brain fog as well. So I had them only to help reinforce what I was hearing as needed. Thank you for your comment and feedback! Much appreciated! Have an awesome day!

[@darthnhile]

Your message and this song are so important for others to hear. I couldn't give it enough likes, as one is too few. What you do matters to others who feel that they can relate. I read so many comments that confirm, to me, that your reaction videos matter. Thank you and god speed.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you ❤️❤️

[@DSG-br5lk]

Loved your heartfelt reaction. Your words are mine.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much! I hope you have an amazing day ❤️

[@guitaroffthecuff-davids5528]

Great response. Very sincere and touching. I appreciate you sharing your reaction. I can relate to your perspective and response. Stay awesome! Subscribed!

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much! Looking forward to getting to know you more!

[@silencer3kmg]

I thumbed up as soon as you started the music video, You are the only reaction video where you made your cam small and the video big showing respect to the artist and not trying to make someone elses art a way to get people to just look at you

[@adamlamay5846]

I watch every reaction video to this song that I find, and I'm sure I've seen 50, and liked less than 10. Yours was wonderful. :). And I agree wholeheartedly, this gentleman has given us something raw, and honest, and beautiful, and much needed. Thank you for your kind emotion, and your insight. And thank you for not stopping it 2 dozen times thru your listen! Haha (so many people who make reaction vids do!)

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much for your kind words! They really mean a lot to me ❤ I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day! 🤗

[@angelaphillips7970]

You are going to love a lot of Ren’s pieces. He makes some of the most beautiful music I have ever heard.

[@TachyTanya]

He seems like such an amazing human being. ❤️

[@angelaphillips7970]

@@TachyTanya He absolutely does! I’m 47 yrs old and I don’t think that I have ever felt an emotional connection with someone that I have never even met before the way I do with him. I know I can’t be the only one who feels that way. Looking forward to seeing your channel grow! Have a very lovely day!

[@dianesorensen2549]

His song is blowing up and blowing minds exactly because so many of us can exactly relate. I include myself. Love you and love your reaction. Stay safe ❤

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much! He is a wonderful artist and I'm so sad I'm just finding him now! But I suppose better late than never. Sending love and safe vibes back your way! ❤

[@trekkietrek1774]

Hi, firstly I am so glad you survived, never feel alone, because you are not. We hold our trauma but we also hold each other. I to am fighting my demons, I am lucky to have an amazing therapist who in session one told me that every time I put myself down I am being faithful to my father, that hit hard. I have come a long way, still further to go. I have subscribed and I will watch you grow. Tips: volume up, captions off. Love you sister, it is the broken who can mend this world x.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you - I am thankful I survived as well. I'm also glad I am not alone. I had a really great therapist after I was released from the hospital. I've been struggling to find one I jive with since moving to Illinois. I'm glad you have found one that you like - it really makes a world of a difference to find a good therapist that works well with you! Thank you so much for the subscription and for the feedback (I think the recent reaction video has been corrected!). I am looking forward to getting to know you more! Sending love and hugs ❤🤗

[@claymore609]

"Mentalhellness" I'm going to remember that.

[@TachyTanya]

It's so accurate 🤣Going to turn it into a t-shirt ROFL

[@claymore609]

@@TachyTanya nice

[@justtush]

I watch this video at least multiple times a week and i cry every time - I wanted to reach thru and hug you as each emotion and realization passed on your face. These reaction videos help me - hearing people speak my truth - ren does it so well - thank you for your raw and unedited reaction. a year after you posted i hope you are light more than dark... sending you love on a day you may need it.

[@glennhansen6794]

Beautiful reaction 💕.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much! Sending love and hugs ❤️

[@kitkat8265]

Dear Tachy Tanya I to recently discovered Ren as this song in particular as a suicide survivor with chronic Illness I of course was so so sympatico with the lyrics and even the visual and tonal impact of this masterpiece. I have since listened to his other musical be it rap or song. Ren truly is the most innovative musical virtuoso at this time. In my humble opinion of course! Lol. I hope you treat yourself to the rest of his amazing works. I to would love to give this man a huge hug. A big hug from me too you as well so brave for you not only of you to listen to music so close to home and to do so in front of the masses on your KZbin channel. Kudos to you, you are helping as you say Ren does. I occasionally watch peoples reactions to this so as to reassure myself I am not alone and we are not! He often busks in the streets of Brighton on the south coast of England 100 miles from my town on the coast. You can view his busking on you tube he can perform every genre of music but oh that Spanish guitar intro...Wow. Also his various singing voices and I don't just mean style but range. Anyways I will finish this reply with some other recommendations of Ren's music just in case you have come across them yet and my lovely I offer you my of best wishes, keep up the great work with your channel. xx Here are two beautifully written duets with Ren and the amazing female singer Chinchilla kzbin.info?search_query=ren+x+chinchilla+-+chalk+outlines kzbin.info/www/bejne/iXW1aKarpZh3qbc

[@MissMeKate]

So many of our illnesses are invisible, because our worst days take us away from the gaze of others. Ren shines a light into that darkness and reminds us we aren't alone. Ren lost two friends to their own darkness, and two of his songs are a very powerful love letter to those people missing from his life. The first is called How to be Me, and the second is Freckled Angels. They may be too 'much' to react to, but I think you'd get a lot out of listening to them. The video for his song Crutch is hard to watch as someone with chronic illnesses, as he wrote and filmed it after having a nervous breakdown. Sick Boi covers the problems he had in getting his physical symptoms taken seriously, as for years he was misdiagnosed as having only psychiatric disorders. There's a video he re-released as promo for Hi Ren which was originally a vlog he posted about his struggle with M.E. It's a powerful part of the journey that I think would interest you too.

[@TachyTanya]

Aw man. A lot of that already is tugging on the heart strings without even watching them. Thank you for all the suggestions. I have them written down. ❤️ sending love and hugs!

[@MissMeKate]

@@TachyTanya This is the vlog I mentioned. Anyone with experience of chronic mental and physical health concerns can relate, I think. It's so sad that he was misdiagnosed for so long, but he is helping to give our community a voice. As are you. Hope today is being kind to you. kzbin.info/www/bejne/oJLPpZiefcSWhNE

[@lannyseals2084]

Thanks for this! Ren through songs has a special way of reaching out and touching us and bringing us in because we relate to it!! We need more artist like this because of how important it can be and what it means to us!

[@TachyTanya]

I totally agree! 🤗❤ I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day!

[@lannyseals2084]

@@TachyTanya thanks 👍 hope you have an awesome day as well!

[@Capthowdy098]

I have chronic pain and BPD. Medically retired after 17yr of military service. This song rips me up every time. Then I see typical reactors just smiling and laughing, and I sit here like wait, why dont I do that 😆

[@TachyTanya]

I smiled (and cried) seeing him overcoming the demon inside. But otherwise, complete tearjerker for me. Sending you love and hugs ❤️ if you ever need a place for support, you are always welcome here.

[@arturama8581]

Ren hits home doesn't he? I'm dysthymic from early childhood. Never knew. Nobody did. Battled my inner voices as usual. School drop out at 17. Joined the Airforce at 18. Picked up some more education there. Changed functions in the military a few times. At 50 my physical health took some serious blows which meant I wasn't fit for my line of work anymore. The voices became stronger and I lost the battle. Ended up in crisis shelter for close to a year. Years of therapy made no difference. Sometimes I think it made it worse even. Some things are better left where they are, hidden behind your own memories. All the psych-digging brought things in the spotlights I thought I had forgotten. Verdict: dysthymia with severe comorbidity. Honorable discharge and early retirement followed. Been home eversince. The battle continues. Some days are bad, some are worse. Hanging on by my fingernails sometimes. In hindsight, I must have lost happiness at 3 yrs of age. Don't really remember what it was like. But I've been trained to survive and that's what I've been doing for the last 10 years. Survive. Days feel like years and years pass like days.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you for your service. Also, that must be very difficult. I really wish I could give you a hug. I'm not sure if it would help, but it would definitely be worth it ❤ You are always welcome here if you ever need love and support 🤗

[@arturama8581]

@@TachyTanya Thank you for thanking me for my service, but I forgot to say I'm Dutch and served in The Dutch military. Same job, different country.

[@TachyTanya]

@@arturama8581 You're still risked your life to protect others. ❤My dad was in the military so I understand the sacrifice.

[@rat4spd]

Thanks for another reaction to this masterpiece. The volume of Ren's video was almost inaudible though.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you for the feedback! I appreciate it greatly!! I was worried about blowing ears out and am still very new to KZbin. This was my first ever reaction video. I was thinking to err on the side of a touch too quiet than unbearably loud. Audio is probably my weakest area 😅

[@francesdoll4039]

It was pretty inaudible!

[@hellovanite]

​@@TachyTanya You did awesome 👌🏼 just a tad up on the volume for the next one

[@PeteAxeShields]

That speech of yours at the beginning was so open and honest ... and very brave Tanya. Thank you. Your reaction was wonderful too, especially considering what you have been through yourself. I hope the video left a positive message with you. Ren is a master craftsman and a genius of a songwriter. He touches people with his art and that is what true art is all about. I loved this reaction video Tanya. You are a beautiful soul. 100% real ... nobody could fake a smile as beautiful as that ❤God Bless 🙏

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much for the kind words. The song has been playing on repeat in my head since Saturday LOL 🤗❤ I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day!

[@KernowFishy]

As someone who's had my own battles I really appreciate seeing your reaction to this. It is just astonishing and so hard to know how to react at first. I just sat in silence for a while. I feel like Ren has done something genius here, not only is the song and performance absolute genius, it has also opened a huge conversation about mental health, physical health , auto immune illnesses, the interaction of all of them etc. Feels like a landmark moment and a truly genre changing moment.

[@GneasYTC]

💯

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you. And I completely agree. It took me a hot second to really process. He really captured so beautifully that internal mental battle we have with ourselves. Sending you love and hugs ❤️

[@KernowFishy]

@@TachyTanya thank you! Very much appreciate the vid and pleased to discover your channel .

[@LloydGrace]

I've watched over a dozen "reaction videos" for this song. YOU are the only one that watched it in it's entirety to understand what it's really about. All others have to stop. every. single. minute. and pontificate before they even know what he's saying. Theirs are frustrating beyond words. Yours is beautiful THANK YOU!

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you! I know everyone has their own style. I far prefer to save my comments until the end and not interrupt the art ❤️ I hope you have an amazing day!

[@music2seeconcertphotograph457]

Suffering myself from double depression, depersonalization, anxiety disorder and a chronical pain disorder (e.g. 20+ days with headaches / month) for decades by now I feel so connected to Ren and this masterful piece of art he created and gave us. I wish I could hear the hope side stronger or at all. But he gives hope to hear hope some day. My best wishes or you!

[@TachyTanya]

Oh my goodness. Sending love, hope, and healing your way. Always here if you need someone. We're always stronger together and you're never alone!

[@davidjardine4968]

what is double depression?

[@music2seeconcertphotograph457]

@@davidjardine4968 Double depression means to the co-existence of a reoccurring major depressive disorder (MDD) and persistent depressive disorder (PDD), (also called dysthymia). In my own words: I am nearly always in a not so deep valley and sometimes it goes down into a deep gorge. As a result I am nearly never ever on „ground level“. Thanx for asking!

[@TachyTanya]

@@music2seeconcertphotograph457 sounds horrible. So you live in the Death Valley of depressions. You must be one tough cookie.

[@music2seeconcertphotograph457]

@@TachyTanya I‘ve learned to make the best out of it and to accept it the best possible way. Like Ren said: „And so I got older and I learned to relax, And I learned to soften, and that dance got easier“ Being quite old by now (nearly 52) I learned that lessons for quite some time.

[@williamalexander7481]

I appreciate your reaction and honesty about chronic illness and mental health. I'm chronically ill and have a few mental disorders... I really connect with this song and other ones he has put out. It's nice to have a way to describe things that you can't put into words. I hope you succeed in your channel.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much! It definitely hasn’t been easy. I only recently created this channel to help give me purpose after receiving another diagnosis. I fell into a depression and decided to do something about it - helping others who might be feeling how I feel was where I felt myself being pulled. ❤️ I’m happy you’re here. We are all stronger together ❤️

[@Mr.Ekshin]

WHO is still recommending this song, and NOT telling reactors to turn off these useless captions?!?

[@Mr.Ekshin]

Don't get me wrong, great reaction and all... it just bothers me that reactors are trying to read along, and getting the wrong words. Especially when these words are a masterpiece.

[@TachyTanya]

Oh, I know the captions were wrong on some parts. Like “friend” when he clearly said “Ren.” For me, reading helps reinforce what I’m hearing - it’s a common technique some people with ADHD use so we don’t forget what we just heard.

[@mikenicholas9017]

​@@Mr.Ekshin artificial intelligence is doing its best😂 humans the world over can understand him but Google Pty Ltd, algorithms .. not so much

[@relaxgaming8872]

Lol I know right. Those caption are just garbage well not garbage I take that back. It’s just bad lol 😂

[@Mr.Ekshin]

@@relaxgaming8872 - You can call them garbage... they're generated by a computer, so I'm pretty sure it won't be offended.

[@societaljokester8823]

There is almost 8 billion people on this planet, but we are all different and unique and special in our own ways. We ALL bring something to this game of life that we all have to play. We ALL struggle! From the richest to the poorest, everyone has their demons, and we are a very fragile species. I'm a US Army retired combat veteran and I've seen things that no one should see. I struggle with depression, PTSD, survivors guilt every day. We ALL just got to remember that just take it one step at a time and no matter how dark the times there will always be light. Everyone please take care of yourselves and even if no one tells you that you are special or needed, just remember that you are.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you for your service. I'm sorry you struggle with mental health issues as well. And very well said! Don't let the darkness get so dark that you can't see the light - that's what I tell everyone. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤

[@duchesserickson]

Thank you for your honest and heartfelt reaction. This performance by Ren is probably one of the most powerful songs I have ever heard next to Imagine by John Lennon. I pray that Ren can get through his health issues, so that he can bring more amazing music to the world. He is truly one of a kind.

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you. And I hope he does as well. I will definitely be following his journey closely. Imagine is one of my favorites as well. When I’m really having a bad day, my husband puts in Here Comes the Sun. Music is life. ❤️ I hope you have an amazing day!

[@tattoodude8946]

Thank you for writing back to me on my last comment - I wrote it early in the video and I was going to edit the comment, but I saw you replied already, and I wanted to make sure you saw this. You have a new subscriber because of your message after the music was over. Your words were beautiful and meaningful and honest. It wasn't the old, "be positive - live your best life" ending a lot of KZbinrs tack on the end - it was real and from the heart. That means something. To those of us that struggle with meaning. To those of us who struggle with doubts. To let people know it is ok to have that and to continue on. Thank you and I'll be here for the rest of your journey!

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much! ❤I really created this channel out of needing a purpose and feeling a need to help others. I was not expecting THIS to happy and am slightly worried (and feeling that voice tell me I'm not ready and fill me with that doubt - especially with all the audio comments 🤣). I'm glad you are here! Just remember I'm pretty new and learning still so my content might not be like someone who's been on KZbin for years (I haven't even been here a month yet 😅) But no matter what, you'll always have a place here for love and support if and when you need it ❤

[@Hey_Jamie]

I hope the person who recommended this to you warned you to do so with caution and told you it would probably have a huge emotional impact on you. It seems you’ve faced a lot of the same struggles Ren has. So I’m sure this hit home pretty hard. I hope you’re thriving now and know you are important and your future is endless 💜

[@TachyTanya]

They didn’t give me too many details. They thought it would make a great first reaction video knowing my backstory and my current struggles with my chronic illnesses and how they have been affecting my mental health. Man, they weren’t wrong 🤣 I would be lying if I said I was thriving, but I’m trying. This channel is helping by giving me purpose - knowing I’m hopefully helping others. Each day is a new day and as long as it’s brighter than that darkest day, all is well ❤️ sending love and hugs your way!

[@gt3rs825]

You are a blessing, you seem like such a bright light and beautiful person... I am glad your light is still shining. This was a very heart felt reaction.

[@kennethmichael5404]

The song structure itself is incredible. It starts off as a battle between his positive (Angel) and negative (Demon) aspects, the negative makes an overpowering last ditch effort to reign supreme, but ultimately fails as the final act, being the "God" aspect, emerges Triumphant, though still acknowledging and accepting that it will always be a battle because we are all "a coin with 2 different sides". It's a powerful piece of performance art that gives "broken" people HOPE. It's a beautifully raw musical masterpiece. Ren is special. Welcome to the Ren rabbit-hole, it's a trip worth taking.

[@TachyTanya]

It is truly incredible. I can't wait to start checking out more of his art🤗❤ I appreciate you and hope you have an amazing day!

[@erryvanh9114]

Love your approach to help other people

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much 😊 that really means a lot to me. Sending love and hugs!

[@thatpandaz6094]

When my ME/CFS started reaching it's peek and I started being home-bound I spent several months working super hard on my mental illness, cause I know I couldn't deal with both these issues at the same time. If I didn't I don't know how I would survive!

[@TachyTanya]

Yes! I got my most recent diagnosis in January. It put me into a little depression - hence the birth of this channel! I needed a positive outlet to bring hope and light so I wouldn't drown in the dark. I hope you are doing better now. You are always welcome here for love and support. I appreciate you and I hope you are having an amazing day ❤

[@africadreamin]

You have the most beautiful smile that lifts me, yes we all have our demons, but acknowledging them in public is something else, thank you.

[@ryanjackson645]

WELCOME .....

[@leeannies-tears369]

Such a beautiful, amazing reaction. THANK YOU DEAREST ❣️

[@TachyTanya]

Thank you so much! I hope you have an amazing day ❤️