swoop & josh: my opinion

[@AdamMcIntyre]

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[@JenniferKelly6669]

Awe Adam that was so beautiful that you did that for ur momma dukes! She’s so lucky to have you for a son kitten head!

[@laurensparanormalreviewsan860]

I love your irish accent

[@siennamorales4614]

😊😊

[@sarahfox3312]

The moment Swoop said to Josh… “We’ve got a crisis councilor here” His eyes said wow someone actually cares about me.

[@willdemi4094]

And THE GALILEA REPORT shows pope Francis covered up abuse of minors

[@ninimeggie4771]

My heart hurt at that one. The fact that a complete stranger cared that much for his (and others) mental wellbeing while the person he loved and dedicated his life to treated him like sh*t

[@elizabethsahu7822]

That was gutting

[@cros_nest]

I saw she tweeted they also had a little dog on standby ❤

[@LeeannG]

Hearing that made me cry. It was just so… Swoop.

[@Ali-qz7mn]

the fact that Josh, who was painted out to be a shitty person by Colleen, took accountability in the most sincere way ive ever seen, WAY better than COLLEEN, speaks volumes

[@coolstoryjenn]

❤❤❤ YES

[@willdemi4094]

And like how those who called out those in power were silenced. When it came out Pope Francis wrote a letter defending Cardinal Wuerl who used hush money to silence abuse victims

[@lauriechan1426]

Yesss!!! This is how you take accountability, not with a shitty ukelele song

[@taylormist2812]

WE have reserachers who tracked when popeXFRANCIS covered up abuse or defended Cardinal Wuerl who had used hush money to silence abuse victims - of source he sided with awful abusive priests instead of the kids. Francis is making victims afraid to speak up @@lauriechan1426

[@sourpatchkiiddoo1582]

I mean, this is a prime example of the difference between a narcissist and a flawed human with humility who wants to be better

[@satansmuffintop2884]

It broke my heart to see Josh still feeling like it's his responsibility to pad Colleen's emotional blows. I love that Swoop stopped him and told him it is his story.

[@hypatiakovalevskayasklodow9195]

It says a lot that he is reluctant to in a way hurt her with the truth (even though all of those are her choices and she hurt herself) but she was (allegedly) willing to make stuff up to hurt him It really makes me wonder if she put up John to accuse him and poison the well against Josh further

[@aznmochibunny]

For me, it spoke volumes about how different their personalities are. In some way, it feels like a part of Josh still respects her and remembered all the love he had felt for her in the past. Meanwhile, Colleen never treated Josh with any humanity.

[@isaiahwilson9055]

Yes! I loved that Swoop said that to especially because he was sharing examples of how Colleen would constantly cross his boundaries even if it made him uncomfortable. I am glad he was given a space to share his story after years of not being able to.

[@teacherof20]

I loved how humanely she treated him during the interview. I think it helped validate him and helped he know his feelings matter too and he had a story to tell

[@SEBULIS]

Josh apologized and took in his actions better than 99% of youtubers today.

[@jilllime3824]

Him removing himself from the internet and taking accountability for what he’s done with no excuses is very Jenna Marbles coded. Stepping back and not making excuses, taking time off and working on yourself, is the BEST possible response to problematic behavior. I hope he finds peace.

[@Calmontheoutside]

I’d say 99% of people. 😊

[@xNenaT25x]

​@jilllime3824 he left before Jenna tho right? I believe when he says he just wants to live his life and has no desire to return to youtube. When he mentioned having dinner with Johnny's family and to know he agreed because he missed having a family and to have that vulnerability weaponized is so fucked up. It breaks my heart.

[@normalizenatalie]

it's crazy cause a lot of it is bare minimum like "this was racist" "yes" but the fact THAT is more than 99% of youtubers give is crazyyyyy so props to him lmao he sat there n took it

[@Brittfoxx]

Seriously, I was screaming!

[@shybie2798]

Ngl it hurt a bit where Josh said the lines "I dont want to add more onto her plate." And Swoop had to remind him that its not his responsibility if Colleen hurt him, she hurt him. You can tell how much pain Colleen inflicted onto Josh that it even affected him years later.

[@-c3202]

And when swoop told him that it's sexual harassment for Colleen to touch him where he did not want to be touched.....I saw so much of my own grappling with emotional abuse in how his body language changed. I do the same thing with my therapist

[@ladyeowyn42]

The one word he used to describe his experience was “fear”. Says it all. Other victims have echoed this.

[@sierrarobinson4447]

He had every right to bash her and he still was so concerned for her. It was heartbreaking to see how conditioned he was/is from the relationship and the aftermath

[@lees_box]

@@sierrarobinson4447 I see it a little differently. I think he really loved her so much and so deeply and was just so abused, but once you love someone sometimes it's hard to ever completely lose that care-factor, even if they're as abusive and evil to you as she was. Some part of him will maybe never be able to completely let go of that original love he had for her which he holds in a deep place within himself or even out of reach in his subconcious. That's what sometimes happens when it's your first true love. It lasts a lifetime even if you mentally comprehend it didn't work out and you never see them in your life again. I say first true love because he saved himself physically for marriage so he must have been deeply in love with her to commit and take the plunge.

[@KatieLouise]

​@@ladyeowyn42fear of retaliation

[@AnnaVictrix]

I think many of us know what it’s like to be replaceable to an ex, but I cannot imagine what it must’ve been like for Josh to be treated that way by millions of people as well.

[@m0L3ify]

Yeah, been there, and it was already hard enough with everyone loving and believing my ex over me, but I can't imagine how awful that would have been in front of millions of people. Everyone thought he was just the bees knees and no one believed what went on behind closed doors. I'm glad Swoop is giving the victims a voice.

[@vidaudio7329]

And the victims who stood up and said a priest silenced them and then saw the most popular man in the WORLD - POPE FRANCIS - give those vile priests promotions like n.galilea wrote about

[@emilybunney6163]

@@vidaudio7329 wait huh ?

[@errrkt]

i don't have a clue either lmao@@emilybunney6163

[@nicanonymus2491]

Not only that, he lost his hole existence! He lost everything! 😢

[@make.upexperiments7269]

Hearing him talk about their relationship was chilling. And damn, it sounds like textbook narcissistic abuse.

[@willdemi4094]

The way society has always given those abusers power is so common. N.galilea wrote about how Pope Francis defended priests who silenced abused children . . . The fear that victims of abuse feel from people society adores and who are popular is common

[@9cloudrachel207]

she was cheating on him from the beginning... i was literally sick at the story of that random guy. so fucking disgusting

[@OpalLeigh]

@@9cloudrachel207his story definitely speaks to how actively malicious she is 🤢 he CAUGHT HER CHEATING, and she told him to his face that it was fine, then turned around and told the “other man” that they could keep talking now. The story about her telling everyone that he destroyed their hotel room when they hadn’t had any disagreements was devious 😬 she was really planning ahead to destroy a man who had loved her for almost a decade. The stuff Josh said struck me as true. She had to stop him from speaking because it would have made too much sense and she knew it.

[@mesquitegirl2013]

You could tell he was so uncomfortable in the videos. He was forced kind of it seems like into being on camera, even if he didn’t want to.

[@make.upexperiments7269]

@@willdemi4094 agreed. Especially when it’s a female perpetrator and male victim, there’s SO much more invalidation 😔

[@dddottir5935]

Josh is a victim in this story, he’s as important as everyone else. Let’s help him remember that.

[@OpalLeigh]

💯 there is no such thing as a perfect victim. People don’t behave at their best when they’re being mistreated. But that doesn’t make the abusive things Colleen did to him ok 😤 there is no excuse for her behaviour. Josh deserved so much better.

[@storey818]

Thank you for saying this. I don’t feel like Josh was ever claiming to be perfect. It’s so sad that he’s the only one stepping up and he seems to be one of the ones that has gotten and continues to get the worst of it.

[@burymewithabook]

❤

[@xNenaT25x]

I think he has been through some rough shit it's easy to say "I don't want someone to feel how bad I've felt" he knows how low he got. And he knows how bad the internet can be. I mean think about why people who've been through poverty are more willing to give to the homeless. It's empathy. She has none.

[@alistairrae9807]

Exactly he is a victim he did plenty of bad things and apologised for it but he was used as the fall guy

[@lauriequick49]

Colleen is FINALLY done, there is no way she can come back from this. NO ONE will ever believe anything she says again.

[@nicanonymus2491]

Are you sure? Her fans are little kids… 😂 they believe a lot.

[@nicolelorenzo9090]

hopefully... hollywood is full of sick people that continue to thrive but every dog has his/her day.

[@MCLOVESTEA]

Her fans are blind and continue to be.. it's so strange it's like they are desperate to have her back.

[@toxiczombiewolf5692]

​@@nicanonymus2491someone quick warn their parents 😂

[@carrotap3001]

If she posts she will get views. Nature of the beast.

[@viciousbagel]

Josh was so brave for doing this interview, talking about his trauma and outing Colleen’s psychological abuse towards him. Despite his (admitted) wrongdoings, I have nothing but respect for him and wish him so much happiness and success in his future endeavors.

[@mesquitegirl2013]

Hell, her KZbin channel name was psycho soprano

[@jojoindigo]

If colleen really did lie to people in their life, making josh out to be abusive when he wasn’t, is absolutely psychological abuse

[@alexandrarenee4323]

@@jojoindigoshe literally tried to get children to dig dirt on him and bully him on the internet. Honestly, all the “wrongs” ppl say he did, I don’t see as all that wrong. Some things yes. But if he ever pushed back, he was emotionally abused.

[@Baudolino123]

And sadly, not only psychological. He also talked about the lack of boundaries from her part, inappropriate slaps, and pranks all on camera

[@jordynthequeenx]

@@Baudolino123don’t forget colleen would physical abuse him and would play it off as playful

[@sarahlxxxiv]

I cannot say enough about Swoop having a crisis counselor on set to support Josh through the telling of his story. It demonstrates the empathy the situation deserves and really drives home the gravity of the repercussions of Colleen’s behavior.

[@princecharmling14]

Yes. I loved that so much. She is so freaken good. Like so professional and prepares with crisis support

[@JuriAmari]

Swoop’s setting the standard to how interviews like these should be done. Helping a person feel safe to share their experiences is so important because a lot of the press wouldn’t give this much grace for the sake of sensationalism. I keep thinking about a good chunk of the Diane Sawyer and Martin Bashir interviews back in the day for comparison. They feel so wrong looking back at how they were obtained. It was obvious they just wanted to hit a lot of those people while they were down and get notoriety for it. Swoop brought back Josh’s humanity and showed his truth. I hope more reporters adopt this practice.

[@ClaireBidart64]

She is truly amazing

[@emmathomson2584]

But did she really need to announce that to everyone in the video? Seems pretty unnecessary as Josh could’ve been told this before filming. Seems like swoop is trying really hard to make sure we know they’re a good person, but it just put a gross feeling in my mouth right away

[@SeanStrife]

Swoop is going to be that new "extremely underrated content creator that should have more subs than she does".

[@hagridcat]

Dont mind me, just imagining colleen and eric sitting there watching this when adam says eric was her second choice because she wanted the director 😂😂

[@starfiresreign]

😭 I'm wondering what Erik's thoughts are even now because you KNOW colleen was lying to him too.

[@cynthiaisako]

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

[@sonjamiljkovic6475]

🤯

[@viceb7]

​@@starfiresreignI'm already expecting a impending divorce, there's no way she's not treating him like trash too

[@Master_malific]

I just finished watching this interview and it's honestly such a relief that we finally have a breath of fresh air and honesty. I'm sure everyone can agree that hearing josh actually take REAL accountability is honestly the bravest and the best thing anyone can do. ❤ we love you josh

[@jecayladeskin6786]

Honestly his ability to take accountability and have full transparency just shows that he truly never had any malicious intent and tbh it is refreshing because there hasn’t been a single person that was an adult when it was all going down that hasn’t either tried to play like a victim for monetary gain like Miss new computer . Or in Johnny’s case him being made that when he came out josh didn’t profess his secret love for him like the head canon event he was planing. Josh truly was both brave and selfless. Brave for telling his side of the story. Selfless for knowing he was gonna be grilled by swoop and having fear of retaliation again but doing it anyways because honestly his side matching every other person who came forward should crush any shred of doubt anyone has about what Adam has been shouting into the void that is KZbin for the last three years. I honestly just hope Josh heals as much from doing the doc. As I hope the doc has been for anyone else who was affected by Colleen’s hateful actions.

[@familyheirloomtomato]

Adam keeps mentioning that Josh talked about JoJo… does anyone know where this was? I’ve listened to it and skimmed through it after and don’t see what he’s referring to

[@hehehaha744]

​@@familyheirloomtomatoJosh talked about her in an earlier post of his the other day, Adam posted a video about it a few days ago.

[@jecayladeskin6786]

@@familyheirloomtomato he briefly touched on how uncomfortable he was having to collaborate with her and after the divorce he flat out told people he was not gonna film with her anymore because it was the first decision career wise he could make. He wasn’t ever wanting to make content for children he wanted to have early 20’s aged audience. Essentially he was fully willing to be less popular then continue to exploit her for views and money.

[@apll9146]

@@jecayladeskin6786 That wasn't the only point Josh made, he also mentioned that a lot of people around him were telling him that the Ballinger family were trying to manipulate her, in a way, to side with them and paint Josh as the bad guy. Josh didn't want to get involved in that mindset nor "compete" for a child and if it was easier, he didn't mind being seen as the " bad guy"

[@Dark_Aeon]

Josh dedicated his life to her. When he revealed that he was saving himself for marriage, it struck me how much he cared about her vs how little she cared about him. That divorce ruined his entire life at the time. Not only did he lose (colleen's) family, he also lost a livelyhood and reputation. All in a public eye. The hundreds of hours he'd spent in therapy after the divorce was really palpable in Swoop's interview. The wisdom he has now came at a very high price.

[@Beatmyguest001]

Yeah, it really hit home when he emphasised how to him it was a real marriage. He loved her family, he was saving himself for marriage and for her, he really chose and commit to her to be his wife and she honestly barely cared about him at all. It’s honestly so unbelievably cruel.

[@BeKind2AllKinds]

He liked the money. Don’t get it twisted.

[@Dark_Aeon]

@@BeKind2AllKinds he was with her before she had any money and left her without taking the 50% he was legally entitled to...

[@squirtdemon]

@@BeKind2AllKindswhere did anybody say he didn’t

[@jordynthequeenx]

@@BeKind2AllKindshe didn’t even take any money in the divorce?

[@Magickmelon]

I’m glad you called Johnny out as a stalker. After hearing both of their stories together it was clear he was simply a fan chasing down and idol and is vindictive because he didn’t get what he wanted out of it

[@beccatorres]

Completely agree! And Johnny used the manipulative tactics he learned from Colleen to go after Josh.

[@lynnmartin5804]

100% on point!

[@scoiattolo9715]

i genuinely believe johnny was attracted to josh

[@DranaTheRana]

Wait so Johnny lied completely about Colleen? Like about how he was underpaid and overworked and stuff.

[@jordynthequeenx]

@@DranaTheRanahe never lied about Colleen, he lied about being groomed by Josh, there was no evidence of an inappropriate relationship between them.

[@bobococo89]

Josh did a damn good job being transparent and honest. It’s about time we give this man grace

[@bbplizzybee]

An adult content creator asking her teenage fans how to cheat on her husband. Wow. She is not going to harm herself Adam, she's too narcissistic for that.

[@Frida.cardenasf]

I can’t believe what is in her mind that she thought she could ask for that. AND TO KIDS???? She’s CRAZY

[@janine2957]

@@Frida.cardenasf like apart of being absolutely disturbing and gross, what advice did she expect to get from children like??? they rarely would had relationshis themselves and even if they did there's nothing you would (or should) relate to in your adult relationships?? i feel like she got some type of satisfaction in sharing her dirty bussiness to impresionable minds or smth, very weird person

[@KalyEadlyn]

She was divorced when she asked Adam how to flirt with Erik in Hawaii. Just wanted to remind you this, I'm still against Colleen btw 😅😂

[@whims6278]

"She's not going to harm herself, she's too narcissistic" 🎯 exactly what I thought when he said that.

[@hypatiakovalevskayasklodow9195]

@@janine2957you’re on the spot there, it’s not about actually getting advice, it’s about the power trip of trying to ruin their innocence. Narcs also believe their victims will never speak out against them and there’s likely a certain enjoyment for them when they can be themselves, as mean and twisted as they can be. Because it must be hard to have a mask of niceness all the time. We all enjoy being our most sincere selves without keeping up the pretenses for someone. Sometimes those pretenses are that we’re not depressed or not autistic. For some those pretenses are that they’re an abusive narc

[@rebeccazeman9309]

My heart broke for him. I truly cannot imagine saving myself for marriage, waiting 9 years to marry this person, thinking I'll be with them forever, and then having them cheat on me and divorce me within a year. And the fact that he stood by his word and didn't take her money tells me everything i needed to know about him. There were 2 points where i felt like he still seemed to feel like no one cares about him. The point where swoop says there's a crisis counselor on stand by and he looks just so shocked that she would care enough about him for that, and then at the end when he thanks her for caring about him in such a way. I hope he knows he clearly is a good person and I'm sure is a great father.

[@mesquitegirl2013]

I’m glad he’s finding happiness with his wife

[@NatalieMichelle12]

Wait they didn't have sex until they were married, even though they were together 7 years?

[@rebeccazeman9309]

@starburst0012 nope. Josh said he saved himself for marriage. I'm assuming he wouldn't say that if it weren't true bc that's something she would def come out and say was a lie if that were the case. Who knows, maybe she was cheating on him the entire time. To be fair, we don't know if they did other things. They could've done oral that entire time and she could've been fine with that. But either way, he said he saved himself for marriage and thought he gave her that gift and then she destroyed him. Absolutely devastating

[@NatalieMichelle12]

@@rebeccazeman9309 holy crap how devastating for sure 😢 💔 😞

[@klara3450]

he’s a dad?

[@GraceWhip]

I'm a tech director for a traveling performance company, and I'm so annoyed she spoke badly about tech crews at theatres. I've worked tiny and huge venues, and tech people are so chill and helpful. Sometimes a bit reserved or shy, but never rude or demeaning. They tend to be the kindest people in the business.

[@mocktrialbabe]

Also a crew person,was coming here to say that ! stagehands/production people really don't give a shit who you are as long as you are professional (or you tip well lmao). It's our job to make a show run smoothly that's the priority so if the crew is pissed or talking shit to you...that's a huge red flag for the way you were treating them.. also if a venue doesn't have a projector, that's on her for it not being in a production advance.

[@spenshaa]

And what are the chances that the crews from multiple theatres are all terrible and rude? The common factor is you, Colleen…

[@dixiech1ck]

It's her narcissistic behavior. She looks down her nose at everyone BUT herself.

[@BebbaDubbs]

... and the most humble!

[@mocktrialbabe]

@@BebbaDubbs unless you are in sound/audio. Lmfal

[@megs3019]

My heart broke for josh. I couldn’t imagine going through what he went through…. I’m so happy he’s sober and happy and found his amazing wife and he should be so proud of himself. He’s extremely strong and I’m very proud and happy for him.

[@willdemi4094]

We need good guys ! We need people to care when people are hurt ! We are thankful for ADAM and SWOOP and now we see that n.GALILEA wrote about how Pope Francis made victims fear speaking out - Francis sided with priests who covered up abuse of minors

[@CWazBroadwayBandGeek]

As much as Swoop deserves a Streamy, because SHE ABSOLUTELY DOES…I’ve noticed The Streamys only nominate problematic and over hyped people. So it might be a while before she gets one. And after this interview with Josh…Colleen is done. Her career is OVER.

[@DaraJill]

Swoop got the "Creator Choice" from Bailey Sarian which is honestly better than "winning" one anyway.

[@personincognito3989]

I sure hope this monster's career is over and she never ever comes back to the internet or any type of social media whatsoever. She needs to see a psychologist. Go live a quiet life and take masses of sensitivity training. Because she's effed up in the head. When I was her age or any age under that. I would never even THINK of the stuff she did. Her mind is just wrong. At 36 years old I had teenagers! I wasn't prancing around the stage like a buffoon on cheap sets, getting children to stick their hands down my pants. Getting children to talk about my ex-husband concerning sex and about my adulterous lover and sex, and and assaulting little girls on stage and sending people after my ex or after a teenager ( Adam) or making disgusting videos Geared toward children but having super crude overtly obvious sexual content. This woman's brain is not right, she's a sexual predator.

[@sidoniegabrielle269]

streamys? awarding unpleasant people? NEVERRRR

[@spicesandstories1]

Lol who needs a streamy

[@junoxmusic]

allegedly you need to pay 1000$ to be nominated for a streamy 😅 (i remember some youtuber saying that, but i can't remember who it was)

[@OpalLeigh]

The one who hurt people the least is the one who has taken the most accountability ❤🙌🏻

[@Shadow1Yaz]

Yeah! I think it’s important to remember that even though he did some sketchy stuff, it pales in comparison to what pretty much everyone else did and he straight up admitted “I was selfish” and his current life heavily implies that he no longer feels this self serving. Kudos to him. Poor lad.

[@Tracylyn42]

And who in life hasn’t done anything we are ashamed of or other people think it’s sketchy.

[@brandi5448]

​@@Tracylyn42exactly. Thankfully our fuck ups weren't blasted on the internet! Really feel bad for him.

[@musicmary1331]

Yes

[@burymewithabook]

Seriously

[@pankreas2195]

The fact tho that Shane's follow up action to learning his friend was being subjected to violence was to screenshot it and send it to multiple colleagues really tells you the kind of person he is Edit: I'm treating it as a real incident because I suppose Shane must've thought it was true. OR he knew it was a lie and he helped spread defamatory misinformation! Either way, horrible person.

[@cynthiaisako]

Agreed!!!

[@how_about_naw]

I'm willing to bet she picked Shane to tell because she knew he wouldn't keep his mouth shut. Josh indicated in the interview that he didn't know why she would do that, but I do. She was cutting him off from what might be a support system for him when she eventually had used him up and found something "better". If he ever disclosed what it was like to be married to her, she could point to the message and say he was the abuser in a timestamped text message. That was her way to isolate him from support for continued abuse, but also insurance. The level of premeditation just demonstrates the absolute depth of malice in her being. She is disgusting.

[@brib9720]

I think it’s either one of two scenarios: 1) Shane knew she was lying so he sent the screenshots to Steve so they could gossip about her behind her back. 2) Shane believed her and sent them to Steve to show him that Josh was actually the bad one. The way that Josh tells the story about Nikki showing him the screenshots and Steve being hesitant makes me believe that the screenshots were actually sent to Steve. Which makes sense, because Steve and Shane were very good friends. Steve was also friends with Josh and has spoken about how Colleen was always talking shit about Josh to him. He claims he didn’t tell Josh at the time because he didn’t want go get involved in their relationship. Considering that Steve actually knew Josh and Shane had previously called Colleen a hateful person, I’m inclined to believe they were gossiping.

[@valolafson6035]

Oh surprise. Shane Dawson is crappy.

[@ania5038]

@@how_about_naw And she was triangulating so that everyone would be on her side when they broke up.

[@TheTinFoilTiara]

I love how instrumental swoop has been in helping colleen's victims feel safe in their truth. She is so sincere and compassionate. And it makes me so happy to see you thriving, Adam ❤

[@mekaylarobles]

She has been seriously underrated for too long. She deserves all the awards and recognition.

[@TheTinFoilTiara]

@@mekaylarobles yaaas, lawd, ALL the awards!!!

[@SentientHoodie]

My husband and I got swoop merch. Her content is crazy impressive. She was so kind with all the victims and she did amazing with Josh

[@amykru]

You're a doll! I got the feeling that this series may have won Swoop some new fans, which is great!

[@familyheirloomtomato]

I’m jealous you have a partner to watch this stuff with 😂 mine thinks I’m wasting my time and I strongly disagree.

[@HulaHula667]

I ordered one of her Valid hoodies - hope I chose the right size! - and weirdly got the notification it was dispatched when I was watching Swoop’s doc! 😊

[@musicmary1331]

She seemed a bit accusatory and harsh to josh I didn't like that

[@musicmary1331]

Since Josh was there to take accountability and she's supposedly on the side of victims

[@EvaCryptic]

I know Josh doesn't want her money but he should definitely sue for defamation of character. He has a lot of evidence, witnesses, and mental pain to back it.

[@yannikarina8096]

I don't think his current mental state could stand the trials, lengthy procedures, and of course facing Colleen. He seems to still wary of Colleen and "don't want to add to her plate". And I'm sure Colleen has more money. It would be super tiring and draining

[@EvaCryptic]

@@yannikarina8096 so true. I forgot that trials take a horrible mental toll.

[@MiniKitty27]

my biggest hope for Josh is that he can wake up one day and not feel afraid of Colleen anymore

[@BeKind2AllKinds]

He’s not afraid. 🙄

[@MiniKitty27]

@@BeKind2AllKinds did we not watch the same documentary video???

[@Stoshnut]

​@@BeKind2AllKindsas someone that had a best friend for 6 years in school who was EXACTLY like Colleen that fear is so so so hard to conquer. It's been over 10 years since I saw my ex-best friend, I live in a different state with a job she couldn't touch and friends she doesn't know and I'm still scared of her. 2 years ago I told a mutual friend of ours that I'm still friends with everything. I cried through the whole conversation, I remember saying "I'm not trying to say things to be mean" and "I'm not trying to hurt her" and "I don't want to hurt her" because I was afraid of everything getting back to her and her spinning a whole new story about how I was only saying stuff to make her look bad and hurt her. Stories of her throwing racist and homophobic slurs at the friends I had left, stories of her bullying and harassing people that our mutual friend was aware of because she had been one of my ex-best friends first victims in 4th grade. She bullied and belittled everyone and got everyone else in on it with the threat of them being next if they didn't. Think Allie from pretty little liars and I was Emily and our mutual friend was Spencer. It's a fear that becomes ingrained in you to a point where it blurs and buries you under what she wants. It takes a long long time and a lot of work and reflection to find all those hidden threads still tied around your heart and mind. I JUST started listening to my favorite band again because my ex-best friend introduced me to them and I couldn't listen to them without panic and fear pulling me down. You can hear in what he says he's still afraid.

[@michaelavanduesen]

@@BeKind2AllKindswell during the interview, he even vocalized the urges to "protect" her. And while it's admirable that he doesn't want to dog on someone that he used to be with, the things he had to say were her shitty actions...and the fact he had to fight the urges to not speak them at times shows there is still some hesitancy- rightfully so though. If I was in his shoes rn, I would feel and do the same. Any time he tried to speak, there was always something silencing him in some form. And the interview was once again, a time he voiced what he had to say, and bc every time he'd be silenced...it's not hard to understand or believe that he would have some fear of backlash, attacks, and silencing after he does the interview. Now, he has been strong and brave to speak up and take accountability. He's not fully scared but he's vocalized some tendencies and it's common sense that there's still fear of past things happening that will be brought up.

[@JordanDragonAs]

​@@BeKind2AllKindsyour a Colleen bot leave 😊😂

[@konekotakashi414]

Not the fact that "The Toxic Gossip Up Train" quote was stolen from Josh and his grandfather and was used as a slap in the face to her victims. She`s a horrible human being.

[@ChiZillaaa]

Swoop: *in regards to the "rap" video* It was racist. Josh: Yes... It was. THIS IS WHAT ACCOUNTABILITY LOOKS LIKE. THIS IS HOW YOU GROW. THIS IS HOW YOU SHOW SINCERITY AND SHOW THAT YOU ARE HERE TO HEAL AND TELL THE TRUTH. 👏👏👏 I'm so happy he is able to get everything off his chest and come forward about his experiences and also hold himself accountable for his role in everything. He really seems like he's healed so much and this stranger is very proud of him. So happy he is now in a relationship with a loving, supportive partner. He truly deserves it.

[@iamjheani]

And the irony is it wasn’t even offensive, let alone racist.

[@mayaherz7419]

i mean you’re kinda praising him for doing the bare minimum. As an adult you should be able to recognize your past mistakes. all he did was agree that he did stuff wrong. ofc course it was good for him to speak out on it but i don’t like the fact that he’s being praised for doing the bare minimum… it’s just sad

[@BeKind2AllKinds]

You’re praising him for doing what any decent human would do when caught. Not that I think he’s particularly “decent.”

[@indiashante1560]

I'm glad Josh said he didn't forgive Colleen. She's never apologized and she won't take accountability for what she's done so she does not deserve forgiveness. On top of all that we don't always have to forgive people in order to move on. Edit: Colleen sounds like a psychotic narcissist. SMH

[@willdemi4094]

And we now know Pope Francis defended priests who covered up abuse of kids..giving those priests promotions. He is not Sorry he just has a good PR team. 🤒 N.Galilea wrote all about it

[@indiashante1560]

​@@willdemi4094 Sure Jan 🙄

[@clo_beanery]

@@willdemi4094how does this relate whatsoever lol

[@indiashante1560]

​@@clo_beanery That's what I was thinking lol

[@willdemi4094]

How Society has allowed those in power to silence victims and cast them as the evil ones and how now we need to stand up for those silenced @@clo_beanery

[@lb2645]

The swoop docs have been so insightful. She's truly a professional and cares, and it shows thru all the hard work of her team and her. And the cameo for your mom was so cute! You seem like an amazing son and young man!

[@GaleForceW1nds]

I think we’ve all been waiting for this one…

[@vanoilla1346]

Literally me

[@dunn8378]

All day!

[@bethfarnsworth1727]

Been checking nonstop

[@greenmatrix30seven]

Ya gd right we have!!! Yep!!!

[@jasminewilder5329]

Literally all day. Tik tok b

[@Spinelsofficalwife]

Josh being one of the only grown adults in this situation to actually take accountability, also the the fact that victims have literally apologized to each other is upsetting like even Trisha apologized to Adam??? This truly shows what kind of monsters colleen and her family and John are

[@rhiannajd4412]

When Josh revealed that Colleen told Shane Dawson, who is a renowned predator and gossiper, that Joshua was abusive and destructive during their honeymoon, made my fucking heart bleed.

[@humanoide7076]

It was all calculated, she is evil

[@meowy2k]

i nearly cried during Josh's interview a couple times, I'm so glad we finally could hear his side. also made me reflect more on similar trauma I've had. so glad SWOOP was able to have so much transparency and empathy all at once for this moment.

[@crysnelson8165]

Josh took accountability. He admitted not looking too deeply because he benefited. He admitted what he did and said was wrong and he never should of done it. He DID the work to realize it was all wrong and be able to say he is not that same person.

[@samanthajordan1817]

I have to say, Josh turned out to be one of the most genuine people I’ve ever seen. That takes a lot of work and he’s done it. It’s mind blowing how truly evil she is. She’s not an “influencer “ she’s a life ruiner

[@deanwinchesterinthedarktower]

As a personal anecdote, for the "I hope she's safe, but I don't care how she feels comment". My abuser got cancer roughly 15 years after I was able to leave the abuse. I wasn't happy, because cancer sucks. But I wasn't upset either. I think as survivors we are entitled to want "revenge" but we also are usually good people, and having been through the pain, don't want anyone else to go through it. We want them to know the pain they caused us, but we don't want them to have it worse. (Inigo Montoya only inured the 6 fingered man in all the places he was injured. That was revenge for himself. Killing Count Rugen was revenge for his father. Doing no more than was done to him.) Sorry, I'm a massive nerd.

[@hypatiakovalevskayasklodow9195]

It’s a feeling of some sense of justice/ carma/personal hell or however you want to call it

[@ashamedashley389]

Omg, saying that you want them to feel the pain you felt but that doesn't mean you want them to feel more than that is so profound and so accurate.

[@table_pepper]

Don't apologize. I didn't realize that but now I gotta rewatch the princess bride

[@Listening_Books12345]

"Offer me power!" "Yes!" "Offer me money!" "Of course!" "Offer me everything I ask for." "Anything you want and more, please!" "I want my father back, you son of a bitch."

[@XStormieX]

I’ve tried to explain to people that I feel a similar way. The person who spent decades abusing me and destroying my life had a heart attack recently and because it’s my uncle I do still have some connections through family. I don’t sit here every day wishing bad things happen to him, but I also don’t feel any pity or sympathy for him when they do. To sit here thinking about it and wishing Ill would basically still give him control over me, but feeling sympathy for him would also give him something that he never gave a single person that he terrorized and abused.

[@Angryoyster]

I think the thing that hit me hardest was when Josh said something along the lines of “I felt compelled to apologize and I can’t believe no other adults have”. Like this man made some MISTAKES but no where near as bad as anyone else, and yet he feels as though he needs to be the adult to say sorry and take accountability for what happened. Like this man was pushed to the end of the road and yet he still wants to protect the fans and Colleen

[@renyoung1955]

Another thing that makes me so sad for Josh is that he saved himself for marriage, and gave colleen something so special and she turned around and ruined him.

[@BeKind2AllKinds]

Purity culture is toxic.

[@eleanorhenderson9896]

Ikr! In like a year too

[@miriamhavard7621]

💗

[@starrymak]

It really makes you wonder what Erik knows or deals with… or if he’s just completely complicit and backs her 100%..

[@jaylacrone9377]

This is a good take! It’s not like Colleen changed so I’m sure she does the same to him and maybe he’s in denial or maybe he would want a divorce now??!!

[@Alison1973]

I so want to know what Erik thinks about all of this too!!

[@rluciano287]

My thoughts exactly!

[@hypatiakovalevskayasklodow9195]

I’m sorry but does he give creep vibes to anyone else? IKD there’s just something in his eyes that gives me the chills I didn’t know he was the Eric until Swoop’s video, I’d watched him in a fee things before and *heavy* creep vibes I might be wrong but I usually am not

[@cindyr.5521]

Ya I thought that as well

[@elizabethsahu7822]

That interview was gut wrenching. Swoop is an incredibly talented interviewer and such a compassionate person. The revelations in this series have been so powerful

[@paranrmlgrl]

Speaking from personal experience (with a medical diagnosis to prove it) this - 20:44 - is called being passively suicidal. It is a terrible place to be, mentally. I wasn’t actively creating a “plan”, but I was doing nothing to stop it and was actively putting myself in dangerous situations and if something happened, it happened. It is a horrific mental state and my heart goes out to anyone who is experiencing this. Please know that you are valid and worthy of life. ❤️❤️❤️😢😢😢 And to Adam (and anyone else who feels this way), 21:43 👈 this, how you feel here, is completely understandable and you are well within your right to feel this way. 💕

[@hypatiakovalevskayasklodow9195]

I learned about the same at therapy, as a symptom of depression or depressive tendencies When he said that I somehow knew he did live through, i don’t believe he was faking it in any way, with such a description

[@sarahtries7617]

I’m there now. I’m just like please someone take me out. Like, I wouldn’t mind. I won’t do it, but if someone else does it in like a car accident or something, cool with it. It’s whatever.

[@blooms454]

Reading this hurt…reminds me of how I felt a few years ago. I’m glad I got out of it

[@blooms454]

@@sarahtries7617Just please hold on. You’ll make it and you are precious ❤

[@yannikarina8096]

First thing hearing about it. I thought suicidal tendencies must be active. I thought my mental state was at least better because I'd never do it. Thanks for the information, I would look into it

[@joshjames25]

Aside from what you mentioned, can we talk about how much of a queen Pamela is? 👑

[@burymewithabook]

❤

[@kaylap.3746]

Hi Adam, I too am a survivor of narcissistic abuse and as you know, one thing these people do is give you NO closure. It has been so satisfying watching you finally get the answers, truth and closure you deserve. It gives me hope that one day, I’ll get my answers too.

[@knottyneedle]

To see him sitting there admitting how scared he was of Colleen and you could see it in his eyes, was heart-breaking.

[@BeKind2AllKinds]

Scared of her how??? 😂 He’s twice her size, has his own money and support system, and they share no kids. Leave, dude! Walk away! No one cares!

[@marcelusdarcy]

Doesn't matter how larger he is to her, it's about emotional abuse and mind control. People who have abusive parents and tough upbringings will attract abusive people in adulthood and subconciously carry on the abuse cycle. She's ruined his life once, he's worried she will do it again because the mind looks for patterns and wants to protect itself.@@BeKind2AllKinds

[@fadalerabrasool3563]

​Hes afraid of her psychological and mental abuse towards him as she worked to destroy his life. she even used her own fans against him.

[@danielleelizaharpz]

Josh was incredibly brave and you can see how authentic and real and raw he was . I can’t imagine honestly what he went through . When swoop said there’s a crisis councillor here he felt seen and heard ! Josh is so brave for finally speaking up ! He’s a victim too and one who’s been so hurt . I’m so glad he’s living a life with his wife and away from all this and I hope he continues to be happy ❤

[@personincognito3989]

I noticed he's still talking in a way that he feels like people won't believe him. Even the fact that he still cared about cm C@//$$Ns feelings you can tell how much of a hold she had over him when she did the long list of things and people after him online and his life was in danger.

[@BeKind2AllKinds]

I felt the opposite vibes. I found him insincere, pathetic, and whiny.

[@themaskedwolfmatsuda1052]

Josh did something no one else in story who did wrong ever did, came clean on the actions he did...took REAL accountability and owned up to his mistakes he had done and was HONEST about about it. Real man activity and he is also a victim in this story too who was in a emotionally abusive relationship and let's not bash him but uplift him. Way to go Josh, way to go. 🙏🏽

[@briannamitchell2969]

I am so glad that you openly stated “I don’t care what her feelings are.” I feel that your opinions of her as a person are as healthy as can be. Especially considering the trauma she inflicted upon you. You see her as she is and you’ve moved forward.

[@Princessv777]

The fact she MADE UP the fact her and josh got into this crazy fight during their honeymoon and told shane dawson was absolutely insane to me. All of this is F’ed up but that sounded like absolute psychotic behavior

[@Warewolfgirl1]

We all know she told Shane because he's shady and would pass that around to everyone who'd listen. Why do the dirty work when you can get someone else to do it for you?

[@shanel4294]

@@Warewolfgirl1she really used the people around her like pawns

[@kristinmartin2899]

I feel like she has a really dark (and horrible) sense of humour and can actually see her writing a sarcastic message like that.but how you know it was done purposely and maliciously is that she didn’t correct it. It’s just so weird? It’s like she was anticipating her divorce from her honeymoon?

[@animec-dramaskpop6362]

​@@kristinmartin2899 She was cheating on him from the jump so of course.

[@yannikarina8096]

​@@animec-dramaskpop6362I never understood why she married him in the first place

[@BCFBreakfastClubFan]

I know this is weird, but I could listen to you say "Swoop" a hundred times. Something about the way it sounds with your Irish lilt. I love it! I watched every second of each of her documentaries, and I feel second-hand pride at the fact that her vids have become a go-to reference for other creators. She belongs in TV/movie production. Such a talented lady!

[@shayrae4779]

Honestly Josh seems like such a genuine and honest person

[@AnnaVictrix]

That’s actually a really good Cameo from Lisa Vanderpump. I hope it made your mom’s year. Happy Birthday Mama McIntyre!

[@arianamitchell7050]

no like actually. a lot of cameos are soulless and not worth the $ at all

[@nickstreet8673]

She plugged her new restaurants right in the middle of it...she should be paying him for that one.

[@jnoelleart]

@@nickstreet8673why cant you just let a happy moment happen 😭 if adam and his mom didn’t have a problem with that then why do you

[@nickstreet8673]

@jnoelleart Just my opinion. If I paid money for a celeb greeting and they used it for advertising purposes, I would be disappointed. If Adam and his mum love it, that's all that matters. Sometimes we post opinions on here, and they don't always have to agree.

[@dreadwolfrising]

​@nickstreet8673 Adam mentioned that he and his mom met her at her restaurant right before he played the cameo. She says "you and I met at pump" which is why she says that she hopes she sees her there again - it was totally relevant to the video. Idk, considering how the cameo was just for his mom and vanderpump already has a big platform she can advertise on, I don't think it's fair to say that the cameo was free advertisement

[@aislynncarpenter701]

The way he kept saying things like "these are the words I'm using" and "I don't want to affect how this is edited" could come off as manipulative, but I honestly think it's the opposite. This man is TERRIFIED of being seen that way. He's been called manipulative and controlling so many times that he feels like he has to preface anything, especially honesty, with "I promise I'm not manipulating you but..." He might even be scared of influencing things by accident. It's heartbreaking.

[@shybie2798]

You're right tho. As someone whos paranoid Yeah a lot of things can be taken as you manipulated but in reality its just you wanting to make sure the rest of the audience is getting the whole picture. Especially when hes use to being taken out of context and bits of information exaggerated just to make him look bad.

[@MissCaraMint]

Wow I didn’t catch that. Very good point

[@christina74829]

That’s how I read it as too. I just think he’s still so afraid of Colleen which is sad. I still feel bad for him.

[@TonksTheFool]

Yeah, I clocked that. At first I was squinting but the more he revealed about the public scrutiny and especially about the dark place it took him, I immediately understood he's speaking like this out of fear it'll be twisted. He fully believes every word he says will be twisted and taken out of context so he has to psychologically defend himself by stating it over and over. It's even at the point you can see his hurt, you can see him catching himself when he's like "I'm still protecting her." and the moments where he needs to express "I don't want to be seen as bashing her." It's this mental war in him that I relate to and I think a lot of us do. When you're hurt, you're hurt and you want to express that, but you get so scared that saying what hurt - and even getting triggered by that hurt - is just seen as you shitting on someone. EVEN if that person shat on you. It's exhausting to have to do the work when the other person won't. His hurt hit home for me. And he's absolutely terrified and tired.

[@shybie2798]

@@TonksTheFool especially given the body language, if you look at John' interview it feels completely different, cause John looked really cocky and relaxed and laughing, while Josh tends to tense up and give more nervous chuckles.

[@MusiciansRule07]

Colleen put so much time and effort into keeping Josh silent not just because of her narcissistic and abusive ways but also because she knew that if he ever got the chance to speak up after breaking free from her, there would be no place for her to hide anymore. Josh spoke from the heart and he took full accountability for what he did and what he allowed to be done. He did the right thing. Josh is a good person with a heart of gold, even after everything he's been through and that's true strength right there. Colleen didn't deserve him and I'm glad that he's found true love with Pamela. I'm glad that he's still with us. SWOOP is just fucking amazing. Her actions match her words and she is a Gem. She was the perfect person for Josh to speak the truth to. I'm glad that he was able to help you in your healing journey, Adam. You guys are cut from the same cloth and that's a great thing. Colleen is just the personification of Pure Evil and I'm glad that karma has gotten to her at last.

[@mesquitegirl2013]

I agree

[@clo_beanery]

The doc was amazing but it really makes me question one main player who hasn’t been talked about a lot… Erick. He’s either as evil as Colleen or Colleen really put her spell on him and completely has him under control.

[@starfiresreign]

It's hard to tell. She's clearly really Manipulative and lies so she's bound to have lied to him or still lies to him. But doubt he's innocent either. I wonder what he thinks of all this.

[@SetASpark]

Maybe he sticks around because being with her benefits him and he's more or a push over and let's things slide for whatever reason. It seems like Josh tried to stand up for himself and she didn't like that.

[@thatdizzygirlmia1710]

He’s another victim guaranteed. One under her spell just like Josh. Trauma bonds are real and so hard to break.

[@alyssarodriguez4041]

I think he’s probably didn’t realize what he was getting into, but now that they have kids it doesn’t matter. I don’t think he’s a good person, I honestly don’t. I don’t think he’s anywhere near as bad as she is though. That said bad people can still be hurt or tricked by bad people. He probably feels like he can’t speak out and he’s not willing to risk the affects it would have on their children.

[@Cwoiisant]

“She didn’t care that 17 year old Adam wanted to literally d!e and she did not care that josh wanted to die and openly spoke about….” Sending you soooooo much love Adam 🫂 20:20

[@themaddiecommittee]

my heart goes out to everyone who saw their own abuse reflected by Josh's story. hard watch but i think Swoop and her team did an amazing job.

[@CorgiFrizz]

Colleen is finally meeting the consequences of her actions in person. I have no doubt that since she believes she's done nothing wrong, she also believes she's the victim. I feel for her children because none of this is their fault. I'm proud of Josh for speaking out and of Swoop for being so professional and thorough. I'm also so proud of you for shining through all of the darkness Colleen had sent your way.

[@deanwinchesterinthedarktower]

It is really validating when you hear someone else parallel your own abuse. I don't think you're making it about yourself. But this whole thing started with you, and your voice gave him the avenue for him to be able to speak on his story. I'm glad that all of you have gotten to speak out and hear that you're not alone, and that you are each validated in your feelings and what happened to you.

[@hugsandspoons]

I commented something similar as well.

[@MissCaraMint]

I think that Adam finding parallells with his own story actually helps validate Josh’s in a way. It helps show that there is a pattern in how Colleen treats people.

[@unerevuese]

I was so angry when Joshua spoke how Colleen poisoned these youtubers against him EVEN when they were their honeymoon. She truly is an evil human.

[@melissaeastridge7402]

So ready to hear this. I hope you are all doing well❤️

[@dantevalehuntik28]

So glad I wasn't the only one seeing stalkery behaviour in Johnny and his family showing up at Josh's work

[@aspen4786]

Josh seems genuinely like such an amazing person, and while I was watching his interview I couldn’t help but cry. The amount of pain that he’s been through, and the fact that he’s still here, is simply incredible and a testament to his goodness and strength. Hearing him speak about how Coleen treated him, I couldn’t help but remember my own ex as well and how their behavior is almost exactly like Coleen’s to a tee. They both see themselves as victims who can do no wrong, while maliciously hurting those around them, who care about them the most, to protect themselves. The fact that he took so much accountability as well, even taking accountability for stuff that wasn’t directly his fault, is simply incredible and something you don’t see much of. He’s truly an amazing person, and I hope his life doesn’t get even more upturned from this. Closing off, both you, Josh, and all the other victims have been through so much. Please know that you are all so incredible, and that you all deserve peace and healing from these awful things. I hope that someday you all get to move forward from this and leave all that pain behind.

[@MoonAndStars25]

Been waiting for this video for so long. So Glad you are covering it. That gift to your mum is so sweet

[@uninvincibleete]

She's lucky Josh isn't more vindictive, because he could totally sue her for defamation. She knowingly and intentionally disseminated lies about him with the intention of making him look bad to others in the industry and his own potential fans, and as a result he was run off the internet and has been struggling with mental health for years. That's a really solid defamation case.

[@MegJuniper]

Literally perfect timing. Just popped the bubs to get the weekend started while I get ready ❤️❤️❤️ getting all dolled up to sit in my apartment with my cats and I couldn’t be HAPPIER

[@CypressGoode]

I watched the whole thing and I greatly appreciated he always said, "Yeah, I did that thing, it was wrong but it still did it, and needed to be better then." You don't get that often when someone has been a victim AND a part of the problem at the same time.

[@diamondearring9112]

Perfect fucking statement. "I hope she is safe. But I do not care about how she feels." 👏👏

[@KylaSibbett]

I absolutely love swoop! I literally gasped out loud when she said that there was two professional crisis counselors onset. Normally people on KZbin would not care about things like that, they would just care about the story and getting it out to people so that way they can rake in the views. Swoop actually cares about the people around her.

[@jilllime3824]

Swoop is amazing, truly. She is what journalism should be.

[@marinaalexis3618]

I REALLY hope from this, it gives a fresh and clearer insight on what abusive relationships looks like when the man is the victim. It’s grossly overlooked by many, even opening my eyes and broke my heart. I hope for healing and peace for Josh in the long run, proud of him for taking true accountability and not a cookie cutter PR “apology”

[@ANonBinoDino]

Josh talking about him carrying around a will in his wallet absolutely broke me, I did the same thing when in a DV marriage, except it was on my tablet. She is just a vicious person through and through.

[@shykino8015]

you say was, so i really hope you're out of that situation. im proud of you for surviving, and i wish you nothing but happiness, safety, and security forever 💗

[@BeKind2AllKinds]

He was not in a DV marriage! 😂 Come on now. He was a full grown man with his own money and no kids. He was enjoying her fame and money and only walked away when the gravy train stopped.

[@ANonBinoDino]

@shykino8015 yep I got out and thriving!

[@ANonBinoDino]

@user-zq4su4kg9y the fact that you think "being a full grown man" means he can not be in a DV situation is disgusting and just plain wrong. He was emotionally abused and manipulated. This is why men don't come forward in situations like this because you're sitting here spouting your nonsense. Do better.

[@ria_x_rose]

​​@@BeKind2AllKinds people like you are the reason that victims dont ever speak out. By his words yes, it was not domestic violence. But he said it was an abusive relationship. Just because they had no kids and he made some money for himself doesn't mean "he had nothing stopping him from leaving". The whole point about abusive partners is that they manipulate your love for them and control aspects of your life in order to keep you around like a puppet. He was extremely devoted to her emotionally and he was a huge part of her content whether she wants to admit that or not. She was never gonna let him leave her without setting herself up first (which is what she did with getting the netflix show and a new man). Alot of people forget that josh had his own successful youtube career before theirs joined up. So his presence absolutely helped her grow bigger. Their vlog channels and collabs was most of her content. He supported her in every way and she used him. Yes he gained from the relationship in terms of fame and money, but she had all the power and he didnt do anything without her approval. Money and fame means nothing if he cant use it without "betraying" his wife, the one person he didnt want to lose. He said it himself that her family became his, so yes he had other people to lose too. You think he could've just left?? Look what happened to him when SHE LEFT HIM. I dont think your neanderthal brain could even comprehend how much more escalated the situation could have been if he did, and he already had no will to live. You have absolutely no right to comment on whether someoneis a victim or not, far less to deny their very real trauma.

[@MeganSin]

I think you can tell that prior to all the stuff that happened to Josh, he had a level of naivety that I think colleen exploited which is what she does. The part that broke my heart was him saying that he doesn’t go out and he has a hard time with trusting people because you can see the trauma on his facial expressions, his voice, his body language. He went insular at one point. Also I love when swoop brought up Pamela because no one talks about how all of this is effecting her. She knew Josh before and after and was his rock. I hope Josh and Pamela and their little pup have some peace now that the interview is out.

[@lillieheykin6015]

Josh deserved better. You deserve better. everyone hurt by this monster deserved better and still deserves better. my heart breaks

[@spoiledartist9471]

I am a tech person at a theater 🎭 she has done shows at We did call her the KZbinr. Look I didn’t know anything about her, one would think someone who tours as much as she has would know and understand things.

[@meltedsnowcaps]

Ooooo I was waiting for your take on that Swoop interview. It’s so cute you got a Cameo for your mom. Your relationship is so cute ❤

[@jilllime3824]

Josh was so visibly nervous and swoop had the bravery to grill him regardless. The net result was a completely genuine interview. That’s rare nowadays and I wish so much love to the both of them. You could see Josh’s regret and I feel like he’s really done his part to take accountability and remove himself from the internet as a result, and work on himself, which is big of him and the best thing a creator in that situation can do. Something that other, money-hungry creators, have not been able to do.

[@auroragoth5078]

I won’t lie, I teared up many times in that video, but the last part of him talking about Johnny, where he says all he wants is to live, to have his little house and his wife and his dog, and how Johnny was just hounding him to destroy the little amount of joy he found after everything else had imploded, it killed me. Also, the Christian mentorship thing is no joke. As someone who also grew up in a church, you were kind of expected to just divulge your whole life story and experience to someone in the church, who was also completely unprepared to help if you said things were going bad in your life. Mentor relationships are so heavily encouraged, and in my personal experience, if someone wanted to get more recognition, maybe if they wanted to become paid staff at the church or become a preacher, they will hunt out young kids in the youth groups and kind of strong-arm kids into being in these mentorships.

[@marisaJ1]

I'm always impressed with Swoop. Her documentaries are always so well done. I felt a lot of empathy for Josh and i really pitied the amount of manipulation and maltreatment he went through at the hands of Colleen. I knew she was a bit of a monster but wow. Josh, after all that, still tried to be fair and much nicer than she deserved. I'm so glad that Swoop did this series because none of the victims would never have put it all together and make sense of it because it was complex and there were so many lies. I really hope that everyone harmed by Colleen can heal from all of this and I hope that Colleen gets her just desserts.

[@katiemarsh4970]

Adam, please don’t feel bad about feeling validated by Josh’s story…this is very natural ❤️🙏🏼❤️

[@calamityjane4331]

You're right Adam, there's a black hole where her soul should be. She lies for fun. She gets off on hurting others. The damage that this narcissistic sociopath left in her wake is breathtaking.

[@jenniferroy6288]

Sadistic narcissist

[@KatieLouise]

And she got away with it because she's a pretty white girl

[@sophiejade9293]

honestly this is the most sincere accountability i’ve seen on youtube and i’m so glad josh is doing better, you can tell he’s a truly good person and every victim including him deserve to be happy

[@lyrathornton4605]

Josh saying he participated in troubling content because he was selfish, because he wanted the money and attention, was so brave and first and foremost refreshing. I'm so tired of ppl blaming their mental health or pushing the narrative in a way that makes them the story seem like they are the victim after all

[@chelybee]

I remember back then when I did watch Josh and Colleen, I always had a good feeling about Josh and was so sad when she said she was getting divorced. A blessing in disguise! I’m happy he found someone better!

[@cros_nest]

I'm glad Josh said he doesn't forgive her. It was so heartbreaking to hear him say he used to keep a will in his pocket for his wife... Yet, he still also said he hoped she had people taking care of her and didn't bad-mouth her at all in the entire 3+ hour long video. Hope he's doing good after this & can finally put this behind him.

[@hannahw90hw]

That was a heavy interview. I watched earlier. Seems like everyone is trying to really listen and take things seriously now. Finally, after such a long time for all of you guys

[@willdemi4094]

We can also see how n. g a l i l e a has uncovered that pope francis silenced abused minors in her book

[@KateKosmo]

Swoop should literally be an investigative reporter or a detective.

[@annoyed_bimbo8104]

This entire situation is so wild and crazy that im so GLAD josh NEVER had a kid with a colleen. It woyldve been SOOOO WORSE

[@Em60913]

If Josh really trashed their hotel room, wouldn’t that be documented by police?

[@VAL420]

It would at least show up on the bill. When I worked at a hotel, there was a price for each item - a lamp being $50 when it did not cost $50 to replace for example.

[@trashteriyucky]

There would definitely be an invoice if no one went to report it to the police. Hotels will charge you for everything.

[@jordynthequeenx]

Very true. colleen just lied to shane

[@RandomSubjects]

People like Colleen do not feel hurt the way we do, so I imagine she is fine. Panicked about her career and very, very angry at everyone who has spoken out, but fine aside from that.

[@jilllime3824]

Agreed. Probably stressed about her career and image. But based on her apology, she has no regrets or guilt about what she’s done.

[@kristinreynolds577]

Adam, I want you to know how much I appreciate and respect you. You could have just got off the internet and never look back. You are inspiring people to speak up about the bullies in their lives, and helping people to heal! You’re an amazing human Adam! Much love from America! 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@Askalott]

I’m so glad you found some healing in Josh’s interview. Sending love to you, Adam! Always so impressed by your strength. Wishing you the best.

[@gracievallee2551]

love seeing you with the glass of wine, you deserve it! but seriously I can’t agree with everything you’re saying enough. I watched the interview last night and when he described coming home to her in the deserted house and she was playing the ukulele it was chilling, just because of how much of a monster she’s turned out to be and the image of her doing the ukulele video, it was just too much for me. I have been so fascinated with this story because I can’t believe that I was watching her vlogs for a short time less than a year ago. I just want everyone to get the justice they deserve in the wake of such horrible trauma and knowing that might not be possible, the healing and safety and happiness that they deserve. i’m so glad josh came out and talked about this and that it’s giving you some kind of closure. edit: it hurt to watch josh in this pain and honestly everyone else in this pain because you just know she didn’t care about any of you if you didn’t benefit her in some way. it’s all fucked up and I hope she knows she ruined everything for herself. i hate knowing that I wish ill on someone but my heart says she deserves to feel an enormous amount of guilt and pain

[@dandelion_official4812]

I thought this might be a wild, emotional and hopefully also cathartic watch for you Adam. I really hope you take some time to appreciate yourself and the grace and integrity you have shown throughout all of this 💜

[@erinerinbobearin]

I’m so upset with myself for ever believing colleen over Josh. My eyes have definitely opened after that interview. I’m sad I’m blocked from him so I can apologize to him.

[@lynnkayee1015]

Hey, at least you acknowledge it and have learned from it. We all make mistakes, big and small. It can be especially true when it comes to defending someone we believe is being hurt. Just remember that and I hope you're well otherwise. 💕

[@kristinmartin2899]

Sometimes you’ve just got to chalk it up to a lesson learned. There’s always two sides to every story and never assume. You were t the only one surprised though. It surprised me, I only started watching her blogs in 2020, watched some of Josh’s and it was pretty obvious she had cheated but I was like”she’s happy with Eric and he’s happy with Pamela now. Whatever” But the messaging Shane Dawson was weird. It was strategically him too. Any other. Person would have called the police for a safety check.

[@4themotherload]

Swoop is Amazing ! when people talk of real journalism being dead, she and her team is bringing it. Adam I truly wish you noting but the best🥂

[@cynthiadavid4496]

Josh looked like a wounded puppy. It is very obvious he was emotionally abused and mentally abused. She needs to herself into therapy and stay there. Hopefully court ordered.

[@BeKind2AllKinds]

Yeah, it was a pathetic act to elicit sympathy.

[@j9andphoenix]

I have so much respect for Swoop. I watched the video last night and felt Josh was very forthcoming and sincere and Swoop conducted such a compelling interview.

[@amykru]

Thank you for sharing your reaction, Adam! It must feel cathartic to hear this. You, Becky, Oliver, Ella, Trish, Josh, et al have all demonstrated a great deal of courage in speaking about this person who can only be characterized as extremely unwell. Sending love your way! What a charming message for your mom.

[@DirgeHole-2866]

And what you mentioned also makes it more charming too.