FENTANYL KILLS: Marcus Rodriguez's Story - episode 132

[@tpatricianorris]

I am deeply touched by the outpouring of love and support in the comments about my son's passing. Your kind words, heartfelt condolences are very encouraging. Losing my son has been the most challenging experience of my life, and knowing that so many of you are standing with me in solidarity means more than words can express. Your compassion and understanding remind me that I am not alone in this journey of grief. Thank you for your encouragement, for sharing your own experiences, and for offering your prayers and thoughts. Each comment is a beacon of light, helping to guide me through the darkness.

[@nickm9336]

God bless you. I'm so sorry for your loss. Praying for you 🙏

[@cUser691]

@user-tb9yd9um4p So sorry for your loss. The manner in which you talked[ his pilot ambitions, your own late teen becoming a mom, socioeconomic status, hopes in parenting] was touching. Again, I am sorry for this loss of your son Marcus. 🪴From this “Internet Stranger” in Chicago. RIP, Marcus.

[@emrsdca]

I have one son. I cannot begin to think I could live a day without him. He's 33 and gave me my 2 grandchildren. I am so sorry for your loss from one mother to another. Please know you are in my thoughts.

[@tleemf6923]

🤲

[@amandajungkuntz]

@@tpatricianorris I love you lady… I’m very touched by being able to hear this story, your story, Marcus story…

[@jasmine0354]

What a sweet, loving, mother ! ❤ She did everything she could to raise Marcus with love

[@ashandemi]

She’s probably the most self aware mom I’ve seen on this channel. Not discrediting the other moms but she’s just so aware. She also accepts it was her son’s fault, this is a great video

[@amandajungkuntz]

She’s truly amazing! ❤

[@ntandosekay]

@@ashandemiI cannot agree with you more.

[@olliekyles2159]

No one wants to become consumed with drugs. "Self-aware" would be her seeing she couldn't provide for her child and seek supports or adoption.

[@jillmiller1705]

Revelation 18:23 By pharmakia all nations are deceived

[@tracyd693]

This is a special woman. I could listen to her for hours. Im so sorry for her painful loss.

[@yvonnebannon7623]

I actually thought the same…such a beautiful voice and manner of speaking!

[@GrammyGray638]

I bought the book, but I could also listen to her tell her and Marcus' story

[@DayvidDavis]

I agree! I could tell by her cadences that she was an educator. Her voice is soothing but her messaging was effective.

[@aledomer6805]

Same

[@donnaturpin5995]

My son is following in marcus steps im in agony, i bought a life ins policy on him cause he has a child he is raising! I pray constantly! Prayers for this sweet lady!❤

[@maurastine6128]

This woman is absolutely amazing in the way she thinks and knowing her surroundings and upbringing and how that plays into the person her son was. I give her so much credit for that...

[@stephaniec5215]

Remember to like the video so more folks can know of this channel and feel the support they desperately need.

[@TexasPictures]

thank you

[@sabreecarpenter4285]

I sure will. This is helping so many. Also, the love and encouragement is amazing for mothers, sisters, cousins, also, for fathers and brothers. This channel is where to come for strength, healing and prayer.

[@GrammyGray638]

That was so incredibly moving. To have pulled yourself out of poverty, out of addiction and to be able to channel it all into something beautiful for your son and his daughter. Wow!

[@doreenwalden4918]

Without intentionally being inappropriate, I found you captivating. You have story telling skills. Your son sounded like a character. I’m from the uk, I know we have drugs here but not on the same scale. My heart goes out to you. Thank you for sharing. 😢

[@3mexhuas]

I could feel Tracy's pain as she spoke. Such a wonderful mother.

[@porcupine783]

I wish I had such a self aware parent!

[@pattykake7195]

What an honest and vulnerable momma…you did the best you could for your much loved son. I hope you find comfort, and that your son is resting in eternal peace…🕊

[@MrPriceJones]

What a loving mother she is. RIP Marcus

[@marie-ed6hl]

The strength this lady shows😢i like how she takes accountability for her role as well. Her ending of this is not how her son pictured how his ending would be hit home. Im glad she is giving herself grace and another chance thru his daughter.❤ i wish them well. 😊

[@away2964]

What an intelligent and good-hearted woman this is. I'm so sorry for her loss.

[@youngryl0116]

I always watch these videos every day. My heart goes out to these families. I love hearing the stories about the people who were loss to Fentanyl poisoning. Their lives were important. Their lives and memories matter. I love hearing how much they were and are loved. Love is a beautiful thing. 🤍🤍 sending love and light to all the families in this series as well as the ones in all the comment sections and those who’ve yet to find this channel. I hope they find it to know they aren’t alone & they’re able to seek community & support ❤❤❤❤

[@theresamiles2443]

I thought I was the only person who watched 1 or 2 of these stories every day 😔….. These children were and are our future and we have to do better as a society to educate about the negatives of drug use. Praying for all the souls lost to this horrible drug fentanyl and all other drugs 🙏

[@Chingona916]

I could not have said it better. 🙌🏼

[@nicoleholmes4657]

Thank you..I also lost my brother to this poisoning in 2021 :(

[@youngryl0116]

@@nicoleholmes4657 I’m sorry for your loss. Truly, I am. My heart and mind can not fathom losing any of my brothers, and I am so sorry you know that pain. I will be wishing you strength for each and every day as you carry all the love you have for him everyday. I hope you find support and community to also help you through the hard times. Your brothers life was important & meaningful. Your life is the same. Cherish it and use it to its fullest potential 🤍🤍

[@yvonnebannon7623]

Me too - it’s so difficult to listen about all the losses but I feel that somehow that we should hear the stories so as to support the channel and family. My heart breaks though every time…😞

[@amyshull8263]

Thank you for your raw honesty in sharing your story. I'm so sorry for your loss. ❤

[@n_baileyname2698]

I try to watch as many of these stories as I can and each one is so like the one before, yet so different than the one before. You've spoken so elegantly about your son and your own interpretation of the events as they played out, that this story has hit me on a whole other level that I didn't expect. We can literally feel your pain. Or, I know I can anyway. I'm so happy that you've found an outlet for your grief with others who are experiencing the same things you are. I will be keeping your family in my prayers!!! Godspeed!!

[@Candoit09]

Oh Mama I am so sorry. You did everything you could. Thank you for sharing your story. Praying for you and your family.

[@ntandosekay]

You're a PHENOMENAL person 🌹❤️ The world is a better place because you are in it. My sincere condolences for your loss. I wish you the best for the future.

[@deanawells4395]

9 shots of Narcan …wow. All these stories are so sad

[@principecaprincipeca2243]

What a lovely and wise lady. I'll listen to you. 🌹

[@ThePlantLadyMN]

I just want to jump through the screen and hug these parents. How heartbreaking. So brave to share their painful stories❤

[@sabreecarpenter4285]

Yes, what a supportive and encouraging channel. Wonderful to see so many encouraging comments, and people ready to pray for one. another. Blessings to all of you reading this.

[@amandakurtz7732]

Marcus had the best Mom ! I sent her Blessings of Peace and comfort. She is helping many others with her words!!!!! IAM1 Sis Mandy

[@GlorytoFatherYah]

Praying for your family mama. Sorry this tragedy happened. You are very honest. ❤

[@AylaMilan-r8u]

What an intelligent and inspiring mum, so much love to her and her family

[@foxykatie1]

What a common thread ADHD is in these episodes... I find this so sad.

[@BoujeeBritt103]

She’s sooo amazing and my heart pours out for her 😢💔. No mother deserves this pain. Lord please comfort and hold on to this sweet lady as she grieves her child . Give her unconditional love and strength to continue going Amen 🙏🏽

[@CaroleLeamer735]

So sad for this momma. I cant imagine her pain😢

[@Globelle]

I lived in Wheatland and Oroville. I am from Charleston SC. I just moved there out of high school for 7 years and my daughter was born in Yuba City. She is 28 now. No problems with her whatsoever. However I lost my stepson 7/22/19. Sully was 19. Forever 19. Now my biological son Geno is 23 and started with weed and now for past year has been struggling with fentanyl. He has been to rehab twice. He went 4 months 1st time. Few weeks 2nd time. He was clean for 2 months and had a significant injury in which he was transported by EMS to hospital where they gave him Fentanyl (not knowing his history) and 2 weeks later he relapsed but now is trying to stay sober again. It is absolute torture and I am so sorry for your profound loss. I am praying for you, your family and Atlas.

[@thenativenraven]

I am from Gridley/Oroville and now live in Chico ❤small world

[@Globelle]

@@thenativenraven it sure is!!!

[@sabreecarpenter4285]

Shasta County here. Such a great channel here. A promise to you Globelle, I will be praying for your son daily. God bless you dear.

[@Kittyfrog2468]

Thank you for sharing your son's story. His sounds a lot like my son. I lost him in December 2022 to fentanyl. Keep sharing. You have a very powerful way of telling a complex and heartbreaking narrative. Hugs mama

[@littlemikeism]

There's no such thing as a perfect parent. Ones that think they are perfect are the worst.

[@susanedrington4878]

Great comment! No perfect parent or person! I raised a little girl on my own in New Orleans. My sister thinks she was a perfect parent. Yawn.

[@carolynpate285]

So sorry for your loss, I'm a recovering addict but I came so close to dieing so many times, addiction is a crazy misunderstood disease, my friends and family members was dieing all around me but it still didn't slow me down, getting sober was The hardest thing I ever did These days is Alot more difficult for kids and young people because There getting poisoned, it's sad that people can't even afford to make a mistake without it costing them there lies. Thanks for sharing your son's story.

[@TexasPictures]

We also have a series of addiction recovery stories that you might find interesting. Here's a link to the playlist: From Addiction to Recovery - kzbin.info/aero/PLdCPA32W_p39Z8hi7xSIX3Fkqmhd7mRzj

[@tpatricianorris]

Many blessings in your recovery journey. Sending prayers and love your way.

[@sabreecarpenter4285]

Yes, lots of prayers going out to you sweet Carolyn. Stay strong knowing that there are alot of people concerned about you.

[@alyssamary7132]

I’m so sorry for your loss. His daughter is lucky to have you ❤❤ . Please don’t beat yourself up about how you had your son at a young age. You did the best you could with the skills you had & that’s all anyone can ask for. You seem like an amazing mother.

[@tpatricianorris]

Thank you so much! God Bless.

[@furrrylivesmattter7823]

Im so sorry mom......😢

[@annettestrother1808]

This is the first mother I’ve seen who actually said it’s nobody’s fault but my son. 😢

[@gets187]

When you chose to blame other people rather than accepting youre guilty , that's just egotistical . But then again grief is not easy .

[@otsdrselse1163]

I noticed! It's rare, but always refreshing.

[@littlemikeism]

There have been several loved ones that have placed the blame directly on their child.

[@dagmaryork4940]

Annettestrother I do see the other side too, especially with the young kids who are naive, easily influenced by others and do not know any better💔

[@Aliesha.Medley]

I wanted to say the same thing. I don’t want to judge other stories, but I would like to applaud this mother’s raw, emotional, and honest story. So sorry for the huge loss 😢

[@JustRaine97]

Continue to give yourself grace and thank you for sharing your story. There is so much love in the way you spoke about Marcus. ❤😢🙏🏾

[@sandylee1934]

You did the best you could and don’t forget that. All parents make mistakes. I’ve made my share of them. You are a wonderful mom. Addiction is a terrible disease. I too hate when the phone rings. Watching someone in addiction is so painful. Watching a mom like you in pain breaks my heart. So sorry for your loss. God bless❤

[@kellyford5903]

Ok…I HAVE to tell ya…your productions and Postings here are ALWAYS informative and so deeply appreciated… butttt…this - THIS ONE - was beyond educational; beyond contemplative!! This woman’s WILLINGNESS to get down in the mud and muck of “it all” is BEYOND any words I can come up with to describe it…PHENOMENAL. Thank you!! Sounds soooo small and tiny but, with all that I am…THANK YOU! Keep talking, please, because in addition to the drug perspectives and FACTS…being A PARENT and standing a chance is front and center here on this one!! God Bless you all 🙏💕🙏

[@TexasPictures]

Thank you for your comments.

[@chanel58style70]

All the stories that I have listened to have brought tears to my eyes. But for some reason, and I don’t know why, your son’s story literally made me cry. I wish you all the best going forward and praying that you find peace. 🦋

[@chewonthis...]

You definitely prove that EXPERIENCE IS the best teacher! You are exceptionally insightful!

[@MyIrishHomestead]

What a terribly painful time this must be. I'm so sorry for what you, your son, and your family have been through. Your love and kindness springs forth in this video and it's incredibly humbling. Wishing you healing and happiness.

[@SethAKPI]

My favorite book thus far is Shadows of Grief. I highly recommend reading. What a great video too!

[@laciethweatt1198]

Thanks you Texas pictures for another informative important message!

[@TexasPictures]

thank you

[@tpatricianorris]

Yes, huge thanks to Texas Pictures.

[@QueenHomegirl]

Such a special woman.

[@tuesday586]

Beautiful testament of a loving relationship between mother and son now Granddaughter 🙏

[@rebeccadubarry8523]

Rest with Jesus Marcus❤

[@pudgymutt7644]

My condolences to you and your family.

[@christiangirlforhumanity3853]

I am so sorry for your loss.🤍🙏

[@Kimber-san]

I’m so sorry there really are no right words. Your story left me with an overwhelming feeling that your son must be so proud of you and what you are doing. My heart broke a little hearing your pain. May you find peace and comfort.

[@eerye70]

I am so sorry for your loss. I pray for you and your family.

[@eeeeeek2514]

RIP to Marcus. Thank you to his Mother for sharing his journey and also showing real accountability for some of his early experiences in childhood

[@katiedunson5400]

Thank you for sharing Marcus, your heart & your soul, with us. May God continue to flood your soul with comforting memories and strength for what's ahead. We will never forget Marcus and he is now living a whole new adventure! Please don't be so hard on yourself - you did the best you could at the time with the information you had. God bless you and your family. Thank you again. Marcus means a lot to us. Keep fighting!

[@mellowtopia5376]

You did good, Tracy.

[@gingerbread1212]

So many people make choices that leave their parents and loved ones in the shambles of grief.

[@leticiaday8384]

I’m here from Yuba city ca I lost my 18 year old son to this in 2021

[@katherinetreiman9480]

Thank you for taking your pain to help others.

[@alyssamary7132]

I’m so sorry for your loss. His daughter is lucky to have you ❤❤

[@tpatricianorris]

Thank you!

[@ddale4974]

Praying for this family and all the others 🙏

[@gwag8410]

I’m so sorry for your loss ma’am… 💙♥️

[@rickboer7715]

It took courage to share your story and I commend you for it.

[@bridgethockney2303]

I'm so sorry for your loss of your beautiful boy. Please know your work is needed. You are needed. Thank you for all that you're doing. ❤🎉

[@Garydanielw]

Rip cousin! Love ya

[@pdarby4417]

Love ya

[@nannersguyaners2745]

It’s so difficult when a child is born to children - this mother is now an adult and understands things she could in no way have known @ when she was became a mom at 17. If he could only have made it to be a little older and wiser … ❤

[@maryjanemcaskile-zq8bh]

What a sweet mom. Have you noticed most of these young people begin their addiction by smoking marijuana.

[@rebeccahylant7695]

How did addicts start before the widespread use of marijuana?

[@MelissaSutton-h6s]

It's the gateway

[@Jay_nicola]

@@rebeccahylant7695they weren’t addicts before that obviously

[@fatbottombiker3038]

I didn’t become addicted until I was 33 years old. Pain pills took me down a long road.

[@jrambo7495]

No, it usually starts with a diagnosis of ADHD.

[@sunshinencoastlines]

God bless this sweet mother. Her heart will forever mourn the loss of her son.

[@harryburkett7754]

God's grace provides solace knowing that you did all you could to help your son. I imagine that this testimony will save lives and that is a fitting tribute in his memory. Stay strong.

[@jenniferthompson6280]

so sorry ..you lady , you are captivating , i'm sure you could do a lot of good , you have a way of drawing someone in, i could literally picture everything you said.

[@Terese66616]

Heartbreaking story💔.. thank you for sharing.

[@jeremylamovsky9868]

I remember making my friend promise me he would tell my family it was not anyones fault but my own when I died. for some miracle i got clean in 6/21/22. Never thought i would. I remember telling my grandfather a junky was all id ever be and having gone through it himself and he always disagreed.

[@TexasPictures]

We also have a series of addiction recovery stories that you might find interesting. Here’s a link to that playlist. Journey from Addiction to Recovery Series kzbin.info/aero/PLdCPA32W_p39Z8hi7xSIX3Fkqmhd7mRzj

[@KimfromMichigan-x2u]

RIH young man. 🙏,My heart goes out to your mom, daughter, and everyone else who loves you.. The love and missing you will last forever. I am so sorry.

[@stephs3597]

I am so deeply sorry for your loss 💔

[@katrinadevine1768]

This stuff is lethal....rip

[@crystalgalvan6805]

He sounds like my son who has aspergers .its really difficult because they live in their own workd and have strong emotions theres no handbook on how to be a perfect mom.no one is perfect. We learn as we go.each child is different. We dont know how to help what we dont understand. From people in my sons groups i have learned marijuana is the usually the gateway. They look for something anything that will help.they just want to feel better. I cant help but to think this was Marcus too.im so sorry for the loss of your child .my heart breaks for you. Thank u for not blaming anyone. Something i try to instill in my son is accountability.

[@FEVERDREAM889]

God bless you, momma. I will be praying for you, Alice, and your family.

[@zenfan1098]

They always say " I don't want anyone else to go through this" and then .... 🙏

[@deanawells4395]

My son’s friend got suspended for making a gun shape from a pop tart. I thought suspended was overboard….a conversation would be in order.

[@TexasPictures]

whoa

[@tpatricianorris]

Just ridiculous

[@jani775]

I can't process the police being called for a 5 year old boy with a toy gun in the school.... what could a kindergarten child do to anyone with a plastic toy gun??

[@amandajungkuntz]

You are such an amazing woman… ❤

[@ohjelmistokehittaja4446]

Sad, hell is here…. on the Earth 🌏

[@chloehudgens3650]

i wish her peace she’s so kind and her son was a great boy from the story we know ❤️

[@garyh5541]

Another death we wake to another young man’s life gone! RIP Marcus🙏🙏🙏 Prayers for all who love you 🙏 Thank you Mum for your honesty! “ It was his fault “. Brave and honest Mum💐

[@SisterSunshineTV]

After watching so many of these videos I am starting to think a lot of these people have oppositional defiance disorder. Sadly this issue doesn’t respond to interventions. This mom is realistic and truly did the best she could.

[@lauriep6831]

It's interesting that you mention that. I don't recall any other videos I've watched where the child seemed to have this issue. But you have got me thinking.

[@tessap5280]

Thank you for sharing your story I'm sorry that this is his and your story I know how you feel I lost my son too it wasn't fentanyl but heroin and I am definitely struggling my son lost his dad when he was 8 years old and there were alot of changes following that of course this wasn't their dream my son also was just over 130 days clean when he died in a sober living house it's the worst feeling in the world and I wish we weren't doing this 😢 it will be 4 months on the 23rd I'm not sure how to move forward I took a leave from work and I just sit and think about it all day long I went to 1 session of therapy and 1 compassionate friends group I couldn't bring myself to share with them but the stories were difficult to hear my son was so special to me so I know exactly how much this hurts he had gotten back with an ex and was triggered again too it sucks they were so much more than their addiction kind loving the biggest blessing now just gone it's almost impossible to comprehend how tragic this really it's impossible to accept it I'm here with you in this grief so sorry for your pain 😢

[@vivianegoodman5933]

So sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. I, too, had a member of my family who lost her life to Fentynl❤❤

[@tpatricianorris]

I am so very sorry. The grief is heavy. God Bless.

[@mightymarsha]

No one wants to be an addict and fighting that battle to get off your addiction and feel good again is very draining and depressing. You get to a point when you’d just rather be dead than fight that battle again…

[@mollyslips182]

Having economic issues limits the access to those activities that a curious active child needs

[@endtimeawakening5557]

Powerful prayers to this wonderful woman and mother! Father, fill her heart with peace and joy knowing that Marcus only left his physical body, which is the only part of us that can die. Our eternal spirit returns to the Father that gave us life when it departs this body. It's so comforting when you come to the understanding that you're an eternal spirit dwelling in a temporal tabernacle [body]. ❤

[@teresaburckhardt3441]

She’s honest about his early childhood and her’s at the same time 😢

[@Bluebluepoodle]

Taking drugs is like playing Russian roulette however innocent they might seem. They are all mind altering and consequently potentially life altering for families. It’s sad. I feel for the loss of Marcus - so much life ‘unlived’, so much family heartache.

[@Mphscat]

Oh WOW... her husband is military law enforcement. I do understand she/they are in California where drugs viewed differently. This is not a new story that Fentanyl users go through the worst/most painful withdrawals of all the drugs. It never occurred to me that the stimulus was a bad thing for many people with substance abuse problems. I learn something new with every video. Not that the things I learn are good. That's so sad Marcus died trying to "save" his love of his life (and baby Mama) and what a burden it must be for that girl to know he died trying to save her from addiction in his car but I'm confused about detoxing but they both took the "pill that kills" so I don't know. I'm no one to judge. I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you Texas Pictures for this and Every.Single.Episode. you deliver.

[@millenniumtowerskelton5143]

Hey Mama, I am so sorry for the loss of your son, Marcus. May you find peace. RIP Marcus.

[@MatrixKT]

Rest in peace bud!! Sorry for ur loss mom, protect her from above

[@andreazamensky5760]

I'm sorry for your pain. I am the mother of an adult addict and I too wait for the call. I understand everything that you say. I just don't know how to help him. I would give the beating heart out of my chest to save him. Nothing is enough. 🙏💙🙏

[@sdeee3842]

She’s a lovely lady

[@ShawnHernandez-r7q]

So So Sorry for your Loss🙏🌹🙏

[@krystalarmstrong3181]

❤❤❤

[@msfranklin2650]

SO SAD {9} CANS GEEEESH. I'M SOOOOO BLESSED TO HAVE NOT GONE THRU ANY TYPE OF DRUG SITUATIONS FROM MY GRANDMOTHER ~ MY GRANDBABIES THUS FAR. I COULDN'T IMAGINE THE HARD WK THAT GOES INTO WATCHING & TRYING TO BE THERE EVERY SECOND JUST TO ASSURE THEY LIVE.

[@moniqueharewood5476]

She tried ...

[@denisesalles7248]

Why in the world are you silencing where she says "He was going to kill himself." We need to hear this to understand this disease.

[@TexasPictures]

Clearly you understood what she was saying. The problem is that KZbin's algorythm responds severly to any content that mentions "suicide".

[@Texas_Made_]

​@@TexasPictures👍🏾🤠

[@Texas_Made_]

I knew from the beginning when she was being HONEST about everyone being poor and etc,not putting out the brady bunch image to please everyone really made me feel good because its refreshing..it makes it easier for her im sure to aid in her healing process..when you can speak out loud about stuff for what it is,no sugar coating😢❤. Lol i call my son young sheldon because he speaks so grown and questions everything 😅

[@teresaburckhardt3441]

And she is being honest for a teen mom