The Craziest Thing That Has Ever Happened To Me

[@NamedMichael]

You can tell Ethan is serious when he doesn’t start singing “DO YOU HAVE YOUR PASSPORT” while talking about losing a passport.

[@jenasparks1390]

But the real question is “DID YOU GET YOUR SHOTS?”

[@lyndy101]

Or when he mentioned the movie Get Out and didn't mention lil xan

[@walmartrotisseriechicken]

oh shit i didnt even think of that 😭😭💀

[@coralrose5754]

@@jenasparks1390 “GIRL DO YOU WANT TO COME BACK WITH ROB”

[@EmmaMendez]

@@coralrose5754 TO AMERIIIICAH ( AMERICA, AMERICA)

[@h3burrito415]

Ethan is putting that degree to use with his story telling skills

[@scubawithatuba]

Exactly what I was thinking! He is a GREAT storyteller.

[@Margarida26001]

Sometimes I forget that he graduated with a degree in English literature. And then I hear him to use a really obscure word and tell a story really well with the vocabulary that he chooses and I’m like oh yeah this man is educated

[@kiatasteslikerainbow]

HAHAHAH YES

[@veasinve]

exactly my thoughts!!!

[@Lee_playsX]

He got a degree in writing Or something like that so it kinda makes sense

[@HD-gn7xr]

I love seeing Ethan just talk, off script, free. He’s so naturally funny, chill and nice.

[@JennaEmbers]

One of my favorite videos from you across all platforms. Incredible storytelling, it was so honest and heart felt. Thank you for uploading this, I’m so glad you have this channel to use as outlet for your thoughts. Would love more stories like this from you in the future if you feel compelled to share. 😊

[@brianarodriguez8143]

Yes I feel the same way! My favorite story. I hope he does more☺️

[@RavynGood]

Ethan: “Let’s call him… Ryan...” Also Ethan 10 minutes later: “I hope Jeff is okay.”

[@sanj.guptaa]

ahahahahahahahha

[@mirandapanda5439]

I caught that too lol

[@BronzeBellaBria]

I was so caught up in the emotion of the story, I didn't even notice

[@whoisjai]

i don't even know why he censored his name when it's such a basic name??? does he think people were gonna think jeff wittek? xD

[@BronzeBellaBria]

@@whoisjai to respect the privacy of someone struggling with mental illness who may currently be deceased. Nothing more and nothing less

[@bitchassyoutubrabnoyibgasspoli]

This feels like a POV where we’re Ethans therapist just listening to him tell these stories

[@bsturc]

I'm super here for it, though! I am loving the episodes on this channel.

[@Kathi-rt7vq]

Exactly what I thought!

[@gm2349]

Everyone goes through this senior year man. Its a big life change dont worry about it. You didnt do anything wrong Ethan. My 18th birthday I had a similar experience

[@ShowMeYourTeeth]

“And how did that make you feel…?”

[@lilbebe6566]

Right I love this

[@jennaabyrdd]

i'm on the verge of tears here. ethan you're a natural storyteller, and a compassionate one at that. i know every comment here says something similar, but wow are you incredible! it is such a blessing that you got to meet hila those two days later. your story and empathy inspire all of us, thank you for reminding us to be gentle and kind with others. thinking of you guys always. kind deeds don't go unrewarded. papa bless. :)

[@livanaaaaa918]

you couldn't have worded this better. i feel so emotional after watching this video. love you ethan

[@dieauferstehung]

one of the best videos of Ethan ever fr

[@purplegirl664]

Perfectly said 😌

[@ludde12345678950]

When he quoted the guy saying "At some point I will kill myself, I just don't have the courage right now", I broke down in tears. A few years back, my very close friend at the time told me several times that he wanted to kill himself, and not going into details that period of time was just one of the worst times in my life. He didn't do it by the way, but sadly I've lost contact with him. I really hope he's doing ok now.

[@tinabelchertiddies7628]

It’s like hila was a gift from the universe for being a good person

[@vic7690]

I love this

[@milkastojakovic6483]

I thought the same thing!

[@TrueTrex]

It IS exactly this tho.

[@tinabelchertiddies7628]

@GoldenMars so?

[@Pancakeshouse85]

That's a lovely perspective on the situation.

[@tabah9028]

This dude can tell stories... He should start a podcast

[@acemyname]

i can’t believe he hasn’t already!!

[@tabah9028]

@@acemyname yeah, crazy

[@AceofSlayge]

He really should make like 4 of em

[@Penellabella]

Bring back Leftovers!!!!! ASAP!!!!

[@TheOther-Dude]

Hopefully his caretaker, Hildy, allows him.

[@Philafxs]

I really hope Ryan, or Jeff, or Ryan is doing alright.

[@AlienLeen]

Lol

[@celineecho4588]

He slipped, i guess jeff is The real name

[@emmarose1594]

Hahaha I’m thinking the same thing

[@elaine9276]

😅

[@MaybeCanNotBe]

wondered if i'm tripping but he really said two different names. i really think he slipped up and said his real name

[@kristinasmith8108]

Ethan is one of the best story tellers I’ve EVER heard.

[@Sarah-nt8nw]

My mans ain’t got that English degree for nothing lol

[@zoeyvernon83]

You are naturally gifted storyteller. As someone going through dark times in college, and suffering from Generalized Anxiety Disorder, this is a reassuring breath of fresh air that there’s light at the end of the tunnel, and things will eventually work out for me. Thank you so much for sharing, Ethan.

[@hollyhayes9640]

I also have Generalized Anxiety Disorder. It can get better!

[@zoeyvernon83]

@@hollyhayes9640 Thanks, friend! Wish you the best, and hope you are well.

[@daisynicole656]

You’re such a good guy Ethan. It’s like meeting Hila 2 days later was your reward for being there for this guy when he needed someone the most. You’re the best!

[@ksb1886]

100%

[@wellhello1603]

@@ksb1886 agree

[@AnImproversation]

No joke.

[@re_i_gn]

Yeah and I imagine having that crazy story to tell allowed him to have soo much more stuff to tell Hila and spend more time with her during their few days together.

[@iwavmiley]

No such thing as a coincidence 😊

[@lyssx8847]

everytime i think “wheres ethan?” there he is☺️

[@juliamouyal]

Ethan great moves keep it up I'm proud of you 👏 🥰

[@snowballisg]

I wish I got 100 likes in 10 mins just for being a girl

[@Jordan301]

@@snowballisg shut up it's literally a relatable comment lmao

[@lyssx8847]

@@snowballisg post better comments lol i comment all the time and never get this many likes this fast, i only did this time cause my comment was relatable not just cause i’m a girl

[@GuardDawg_dave_]

Always at the top of my feed. I love it

[@boolian89]

Thank you for this. I always blindly defend cannabis because it stops my seizures but I have to remember stuff like this. It doesn’t suit everyone. Also, you are a gorgeous person for looking out for Jeff/Ryan.

[@stacylynn8494]

Like to think it’s better from a plant but some of it drugs in general are more than a plant like the poppy plant is ok but whatever they do to it makes it deadly. Whenever you take a substance you develop tolerance and need more and more so the brain receptors adapt and close some of them so the brain won’t take in too much. But when you stop the brain needs time to turn some of the receptors back on and can take awhile with long term use so you are depleted of serotonin and dopamine and others endorphins and feel like crap and depressed. Same thing a hang over does. You can use nutrition to replace the endorphins and exercise. Medication is supposed to be short term along with therapy. Some have said jail was only thing that got them off opiates and in some case it took 5 years to feel normal but generally it can take months to two years for post acute withdrawal symbiosis but have to be patient. People who use marijuana in one study found all were deficient in essential fatty acid omega foods like raw organic nuts and seeds, salmon avocados. The layer of fat in the brain gets thin and the messages go too fast as in adhd and also ms.

[@Sarurah]

Thanks for this story, Ethan. As someone with a severely schizophrenic sibling... My heart broke during the story. This is my worst nightmare, for my sibling to have a psychotic episode and for everyone to react badly and not help... For people to ridicule or fear my sibling for an illness outside of his control.... Thanks for being empathetic, Ethan.

[@nicki_meier]

I have to say Ethan was born to be a story teller! Always so interesting the way you detail things.

[@ezzy4678]

I know right after learning he went to school for creative writing it makes a lot of sense

[@MissYukiKurosaki]

his descriptions of people remind me so much of how authors describe people in books

[@re_i_gn]

Yup. That's why his and Hila's video on how they met is one of my favorite videos of all time. I just like going back there whenever I'm feeling especially anxious and need to remind myself of the good things in life.

[@staynielherbayn657]

Ethan, you are so good at telling these stories. I don’t know what’s coming next but every second has me entertained.

[@COURTSamaziing]

I was hanging onto every word. I think he's got something good starting up here

[@shaikan1395]

Love it!

[@honeynut.2731]

Almost like he has a bachelors in English literature 👀

[@graycetate5478]

i’m in tears here. this story is such a window into your values ethan. the fact that you were willing to put it all on the line for this guy is incredible. i’m so grateful for that higher-up who had you stay, i don’t know where i’d be without you and hila’s podcast and art.

[@clairemichelekeith]

I highly relate to this. At 18 I had a horrible high from weed that caused me to have disassociation and anxiety issues for years. I eventually grew out of it, but that took 4-5 years. People need to understand how serious weed can be

[@abbsterlicious5186]

Omg me too. Scariest period of my life.!!!!!! I am only just now getting to the root cause through therapy and stuff. For me it wasn’t weed it was LSD. I have never been the same since I had that bad trip. Then sometimes when I’d smoke it’d trigger those feelings from that trip again. I couldn’t smoke for years bc every time it sent me into panic and dissociation. I am glad you have gotten through it too ♥️ nice to know we’re not alone

[@visas_marr]

You can smoke weed without taking insane bong rips and getting too high

[@Its2EZbaby]

@@visas_marr obviously. But there’s a fine line between the right amount and too high. You can get too high without ever having intended to. Especially for people who are new to smoking. Like obviously you don’t have to get too high, but do you really think people who just started smoking really know where that line is?? It’s a fair warning. And people that just dismiss it like you are kinda part of the problem.

[@visas_marr]

@@Its2EZbaby No I agree with you actually, you’re right. If you’re just starting you should take a very very small dose and then increase from there. I’m just saying people who take fat bong rips is the same as taking like multiple shots at once really fast, you’re asking for problems if you smoke like Ethan did and the sad thing is it’s probably not his fault, he was pressured into it and his friends are responsible too.

[@Its2EZbaby]

@@visas_marr you’re right. It definitely sounds like he was pressured, and that toxic shit with those shitty weed smokers who are like “lol that’s all you can take?” Make you feel like you just gotta smoke more to keep up and be “cool” so I guess the take away is… just to surround yourself with good people who understand limits. And do what you’re comfortable with. You can feel when you’re getting to that point of being too high, and being pressured to go over that is just awful. I’ve been there too. People just have to know to be cautious about this shit cause it can definitely fuck you up

[@TomKloseMusic]

The most traumatic experience of my life was a panic attack induced by weed. Felt the effect (derealisation) for weeks afterwards, didn't know what was going on at all and thought I would be psychotic for the rest of my life. I can totally relate, thank you for sharing Ethan! It's always good to know you are not alone, even decades after the incident.

[@autumnpepper1255]

Went through the same thing after an edible experience, words can not describe how scary it truly was.

[@edith6022]

Currently still dealing with this. Everything that Ethan said happened to me. Had a major panic attack on an edible, went to the er, developed severe health anxiety, panic disorder and derealization/ depersonalization with physical symptoms on top of the mental symptoms. It’s been a year and I’m still going through it, now I know what it is but sometimes my mind tells me it’s not that which leads to the health anxiety

[@silvercreekflyfishing]

Been going through it for months now. Fucking awful. Don't wish this on anybody.

[@TomKloseMusic]

@@edith6022 I'm very sorry to hear that and hope you get better very soon! Back then I also had a very hard time convincing myself that everything around me was the way it's always been, I was just not perceiving it that way. And yes that happened whenever I thought about it too much, like it only happened when I thought it happened. Thinking it's happening and being afraid of it happening was exactly what made it happen in the first place, that's what makes it so fucked up...

[@TomKloseMusic]

@@silvercreekflyfishing me neither. Get well soon!

[@ohitsclemenTIME]

Ethan this story means more to me than you know. It's so refreshing to hear you speak so empathetically about people with schizophrenia. My mom has suffered with this my whole life. I've seen and experienced unspeakable things. She has opened up to me about hallucinating that she was thrown down into hell and tortured by the devil. She has tried taking her life in front of me many times and has tried taking mine as well. Even through all of this- my mother and I still have a relationship and it has been a struggle. Mostly because I have to keep telling myself that it's the illness that makes her do this and that it's not her. I never tell people about her illness because I know what the preconceived ideas are. People aren't empathetic toward her- if they do, it's strictly performative. I heard people call people like her "crazy" and a "lunatic" and purposely stay away from them. It makes me so incredibly sad. That's why it means so much to me that you genuinely cared about "Ryan" and tried to help him. You didn't treat him like everyone else did. So thank you for that and thank you for telling this story.

[@julas3642]

I almost cried reading this… fuck, my heart goes to you and your mom. I wish you all the best and I hope you two will be safe and okay as much as it is possible! I myself often hallucinate cause of my mental health issues (not schizophrenia fortunately but it’s bad too…) and I understand it very well how scary it can be for person who’s going through this and for people around, especially if that person is your mom… sending love and be strong!

[@Maanesyke]

❤️

[@sko0ma]

[@nessanova8596]

You have a beautiful soul.

[@plutonium2]

Shout-out to your family, sir. Same story as one of my best friends. Grew up with her mother hiding and trying to hide her. Such a brutal illness

[@missyh3]

Ethan is such a great storyteller. I could picture the whole thing. What a crazy story.

[@ms.l3392]

There’s something really crazy about you being completely self less in a dire situation . Putting a strangers health and safety before your own , and then finding the love of your life a couple days later during that same experience … i don’t believe in god either but it’s times like this that make you wonder. Especially being on a religious trip. Fantastic story

[@chadcapy5403]

props to u for taking care of a stranger in such a vulnerable position, when everybody else was making fun of him

[@Wyattgonzo1]

What's funny to me is that people right now actively misrepresent everything Ethan is about online saying he is the worst and just all this hatefull nonsense but in reality our boi is just a guy. Just a dude. Who climed to the top and im here like man I've been watching this man since the beginning And I can say honestly that this man has shaped my life for the better. Keep up the good work brother. Proud of you ❤

[@tardisMC]

💯 agree with you. It seems like every time I tell someone I'm a fan of H3H3 or Ethan, they're outrageously critical. Saying shit like oh he's a sell out, he doesn't make funny content anymore, he's just a reactor. Like come on. Ethan and the H3H3 fam are such wholesome, REAL people who are also talented and hilarious. I feel sad for the people who can't see that or refuse to give them a chance 🤷‍♀️ BUT our jobs as foot soldiers 🦶 is to defend Ethan and the H3 fam from misplaced slander and hate ♥️ it's the haters' loss tbh

[@pr0l0gue]

If you like something or someone, you have to be willing to admit when they fuck up to improve

[@inferiii]

I am Ethan.

[@Sweater04369]

I agree I’ve been a longtime watcher and Ethan has influenced me for the better and helped me see things I would have never considered before watching him.

[@jamesgrant9779]

Weird his very first upload was 8 years ago and yet you’ve watched him for 10, think you need to check you maths brother 😂

[@danielleobrien6378]

This made me cry. I really hope Ryan is okay out there somewhere, and I’m sure he still thinks about you too and that you were there for him. I think after all that, even if you don’t believe in god, I think he saw that you were ready and deserving of the life in store for you just 2 days later

[@syrianette]

A sad story, but very humane. If everyone was like you Ethan, the world would be a safer place to live in. Thank you for sharing your experience with us.

[@Cheyennedp]

I’m sure Ryan thinks about you often as well, your empathy in those moments probably kept his already traumatic time from escalating more. I hope he’s doing well.

[@randell6180]

100%

[@carbonatedPigeon]

As someone who has autism, and has had a few public meltdowns, a single person showing that they actually give a f*ck makes a world of difference

[@visnau1126]

@@carbonatedPigeon There have been times where I had met people with some disorders just having a rough rough go at it. I really really regret I didnt do anything in some of those times. I remember there was a kid in my highschool gym class who had very severe autism, and he was just relentlessly bullied, it was constant. He would just get bullied in the middle of a meltdown. I was really sad about it and it was horrible to watch but also i was extremely afraid to stand up for him or do anything about it at all, I was afraid I would be bullied as well so I just did nothing. I regret not doing anything so much. Your comment among others is the reason I want to try to do better and when I see stuff like that, I want to stand up with compassion. I hope you are doing well.

[@ernie8430]

I feel like a lot of people talk about how weed is therapeutic, but no one will talk about how it affects people with high anxiety and paranoia. Some people just relax and that's how they wind down, but for others it literally feels like your perception of reality breaks and people that are talking to you aren't actually talking to you. I had the exact same experience when I first tried it and it really is traumatic because you actually think you're losing it.

[@libby8269]

I think it’s unfortunate that ppl don’t pay attention to everyone’s experience with MJ 🍃… it’s very true that it’s not for everyone. Hate that ppl still get pressured to smoke, or asked to “just try again one more time” when the known issue is the person doesn’t feel well upon consumption. Personally it’s been great for me (medically with my mental), would recommend to start with tiny doses, but it also needs to be expressed it is not a cure all and it is not for everyone.

[@mr.resistance4015]

For the people that it helps, it can be a miracle though. We've had *GENERATIONS OF REEFER- MADNESS PROPAGANDA* So you're wrong when you say "No one will talk about how it affects some people negatively"

[@ernie8430]

@@libby8269 yes, exactly a lot of the people that I'm close with will swear on it that it helps them with their medical issues and chronic pain, and I think that's great for them. I think that's why everyone around me was trying to get me to use it because it's done good things for them. Luckily when I had a bad experience and they could tell, they didn't try to pressure me into it after that.

[@klownofkether6996]

I agree, I also think it’s so wrong for people to keep weed and alcohol in the same category in their mind, because while yes you can have really intense experiences with alcohol, weed can give you intense ego death experiences randomly, make you completely derealized in under a minute. People can legitimately get ptsd from this experiences. I love smoking weed but I have had scarier experiences on it than any other drug, and I never, ever, ever try and push it on anyone inexperienced or uncomfortable.

[@Angelia359]

Right. I did a similar thing as Ethan, took a fat bong rip (with no tolerance) and had the worst panic attack of my life and went to the hospital. It was so traumatic that I ended up with PTSD and 4 years later I'm still struggling.

[@sydneystrickland9223]

Ethan ....this is such a special and deep side of you. It's so relatable. This is such precious content for us as viewers. It shows that we are all equal and that we all go through so much as humans. This is amazing. I appreciate this so much.

[@RandomBlondeChick1]

The way you handled the situation is so admirable. I wish more people had this level of compassion and patience for their fellow humans, the world would be much better for it.

[@darnielladd6131]

This is really inspiring. I got out of one of the worst depressive periods of my life recently. I wasn't leaving my room, I wasn't eating properly, I was barely showering and I felt so empty. I keep feeling the depression creeping back up but I'm trying to stay resilient. Seeing you and others that talk about tough times in the teens/20s and seeing where you are right now keeps me motivated to keep fighting.

[@oliviaherring9036]

i know i don’t know you, but please just take moments for yourself. personally my episodes happen when i don’t take enough time to process complex emotions and then my body forces it out against my will. yoga, swimming, meditation, family and friend time, animal time. just even 20-45 minutes a day to just feel. good luck and i’m so sorry you are feeling this. but you’re not alone and many strangers are even here to help.:)

[@f00kiebookie]

Sending you love and healing energy my friend ❤️

[@toggames1529]

The thing I admire is, that Ethan rather be good then popular , powerful story . And if God does exist (I think he does ) he'll be getting a first class ticket to heaven 🙌

[@kathleenmms]

I don’t know who you are but I just want you to know it gets better. 10 years ago I almost ended my life. I went two weeks without leaving my bed and got diagnosed with depression. It took so much therapy and medication and now, even on the worst days, I get out of bed, exercise, and have a normal, wonderful life. I hope you can find the help and medication that suits you best.

[@maybetomorrrow]

Idk if it’s a universal thing but I also had a rough go of it around that age of transitioning from child to adulthood. I don’t think we talk about it enough. People just tell you to take advantage of your youth and invalidate your feelings because “you’re young”. I’ll second that, as cheesy and over used a saying as it is, it’s true: it gets better. Take care of yourself. Don’t stress to much. you’re doing fine.

[@Surfnboy]

Me sitting here trying to figure out where Jeff came into the story

[@ashleybakes7361]

🤣🤣🤣

[@killerbeast5067]

I think the dude's real name is jeff just ethan fucked up and didnt call him bryan.

[@arty8437]

Ethan boomer ass just leaked the real name of ryan lol

[@beardofzeus9845]

Lmao I read this just at the first time he said Jeff

[@comfysproutco]

Came to the comments to see who else noticed the slipXD

[@AlexSousaViseu]

Ethan - "Lets call this guy Ryan" Also Ethan - "...I wanted to be with Jeff"

[@donnaklein3352]

Ethan has such a kind soul. Everything good that has happened to him has been deserved. Good karma follows you, my sweet boy.

[@lacyhall1002]

You raised a good man Donna ❤️

[@dopeman4969]

Only a great mother could raise such a kind soul. Love you, Donarch

[@semioticsfountain]

this is so sweet 😭❤️

[@RN-fx3zl]

Your son is a mean spirited racist homophobe, probably learned it from you.

[@Sdwoo379]

Started therapy at 6 years old, diagnosed with OCD, generalized anxiety disorder, and depression at seven years old. Was medicated until I was 18 and decided to stop taking meds because I thought I could do it alone, and have been for 10 years. I have been struggling so bad for the past few years. Your video has convinced me to get help again, I don’t want to be in anguish anymore. Thank you, Ethan. Edit: thank you guys so much. I thought I was just shouting into the KZbin void… all the kindness means a lot.

[@parnianmomen8197]

Wishing u all the best

[@Sdwoo379]

@@parnianmomen8197 thank you! Have a great support system. Still pushing through, this video just really made me realize I don’t have to do it on my own.

[@zuzufleur2322]

Awe proud of you 🥲

[@kristent1962]

sending love and light your way

[@lizxy._]

sending positive vibes to you❤️

[@Kelly-hk4uw]

It means a lot to me that you just dropped this video. These last couple of weeks my cousin has been going through a schizophrenic episode, and watching how people respond to her and act breaks my heart because it can be so scary for these people going through it. it’s so nice that people like you can show kindness and empathy to those who need it especially during an episode because it can be hard to comprehend how they’re feeling and what they’re thinking. Thanks king 👑

[@aaronalquiza9680]

despite all that, Dr. Drew accuses Ethan of not supporting Trisha. kind of douche-y.

[@keelyshae_97]

I hope your cousin is doing as well as they can be. What a terrifying experience for all involved, but especially the person directly affected. Prayers for your family my dude ❤️

[@thegeniusshow8453]

Not a schizophrenic but the fear of an episode is what a lot of times brings it on now I just pay attention to all my thoughts give them space and it dies a lot of good for me *does lol

[@elizabethowen8559]

@@aaronalquiza9680 Ethan does have empathy for Trisha but there’s only so much you can take.

[@nikkisthinem]

Hang in there, Kelly. My sister is schizophrenic as well, and I understand the helplessness and worry you may feel..I am so grateful the facility that my sister lives at takes such good care of her. Otherwise, I understand how people are scared of things they do not understand. Ethan sharing this video is a wonderful reminder that strangers can and do care. Not everyone. But some. And having that faith is what counts..

[@gadelmund]

This made me like you more than I ever have. The fact that you befriended him, stuck up for him, and sat next to him and got him help. You are such a kind soul. My mother is skitzophrenic, and a multitude of other things. Your compassion is note worthy.

[@thatwitchychick2717]

I think talking about being "ready" to take meds is so important. Some people truly have to hit a certain point before they're ready for that kind of help. This period of life can be very destructive. The stigma against mental health help and medication doesn't help at all. People will make fun of and say terrible things about medication. That keeps people from getting help sooner and I feel like it isn't talked about enough.

[@meerkate1801]

That never made sense to me. You can take medication without anyone, besides your doctor, knowing

[@LaunchPadMcQuack4Hire]

@@meerkate1801 I was diagnosed with GAD and started taking antidepressants and anti-anxiety meds. They made things SO much better for me. But my boyfriend at the time used to give me shit about it. He'd say stuff like, "go take your anti-psychotics" when we'd argue. He always insisted those drugs were unnecessary and that I'd be better off without them. Needless to say, we broke up. Still pisses me off to think about though.

[@meerkate1801]

@@LaunchPadMcQuack4Hire I take the same drugs for panic disorder (benzos for emergencies) and the results are incredible He was the problem, not the medication. Never believe those words

[@dudeman5303]

@@LaunchPadMcQuack4Hire wow what a dick. I am sorry you had to deal with that, I know a lot of people who say stuff like that and it drives me insane. what sucks too is, it has a huge effect on you when people are saying those things, I have depression and anxiety too and whereas I am not prescribed anything (don't have health insurance so I can't afford going in RN), everyone around me is always saying stuff like that and it makes me tell myself at times when I'm feeling down that "oh I shouldn't need that" - and it's a lie. It's not like a "cheat code" or anything, it's freaking medication and it isn't more complicated than that. Some people need meds for something like diabetes or heart issues, some for depression and/or anxiety, it's no different. It may have a different form/effect but overall it's just a question of health like any other issue.

[@becomestronger]

The motivation really hits hard when it comes from a personal story like this.

[@daxterrack]

-____-

[@edwardwalsh9324]

Man im really not a cliche corny guy, but wow that story is just poetry. Im in no way a religious guy myself but damn i really do believe someone or something gave u that blessing of hila due to you willing to sacrifice ur own happiness in that moment of time to help someone who was in dier need of support. That story genuinely touched my heart thx for sharing homie.

[@malaaktalal]

Whole heartily my exact thoughts

[@JB-es3ff]

God is so real 🙌

[@Crailtep]

I’m not religious either but I absolutely believe that there are soul mates and fate has you find them one way or another

[@L3SSTH4NL33T]

Ethan, that story was anything but depressing. It was fascinating, thought-provoking, and inspirational. Thank you for sharing it with us, and thank you for being a good person to Jeff/Ryan. You probably saved his life.

[@tortreks]

Thank you for sharing this!! I relate to your experience with weed and anxiety and I appreciate your honesty 😊

[@2lizregan]

I lived with “panic disorder” for months not knowing it was that and I swear to god I was close to unaliving myself. I don’t understand how my brain can do that. It was so so so awful. I can’t believe some people think mental health/illness is a choice. I would never ever ever choose to be that was. It was so horrific. I’m now on duloxentine and feel great.

[@jk-hy3sq]

glad you’re better!!!!

[@Spooky_Dook]

I'm on something called, "Baclofen."

[@alourajane5702]

Glad you’re doing better! Panic disorder and severe anxiety is absolutely awful.

[@Skitguy1]

Is it an Antidepressant? Like a SSRI ( Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitor) I’m on Zoloft 25mg if i ever miss a pill for two days I withdraw and get vertigo… i was wondering if whatever you have might be better

[@dinospumoni5611]

@@Skitguy1 duloxetine is an SNRI so similar but also affects reuptake of norepinephrine SSRIs need to be slowly titrated off or else can cause withdrawal (known as SSRI Discontinuation Syndrome). Talk to your doctor about it if you're trying to get off of it for whatever reason

[@riannonadams4154]

Really appreciate the thought and care given to the discussion of mental health disorders and schizophrenia. My dad suffered from schizophrenia, delusions and hallucinations telling him to hurt himself, which eventually he did. More people need to be made aware of what a mental health crisis can look like and how to help someone, even if only by having some compassion, when they are having such a horrific time internally. Wow, Ethan. Great moves. Keep it up.

[@keevawilson1240]

Such a powerful video, it had me in tears. It’s so important that creators like you with large audiences talk frankly about mental health struggles.

[@brittb645]

There's a lot of really awful things and people in the world, and it's been wearing me down for months. Hearing that someone can have so much compassion for a stranger is really comforting and it helps me a lot. Thanks for telling this story.

[@YiorgosT]

So Ethan has always been defending weirdos from bullies. That's king shit.

[@debashishkaushik6933]

Maybe not call them weirdos 😂, but true shizz

[@kaileerooker6311]

I think weirdos might be a poor choice of wording…

[@sap9255]

@@kaileerooker6311 it is. He can’t help having that mental issue

[@kaileerooker6311]

@@sap9255 right.. exactly

[@YiorgosT]

Sorry y'all, I say "weirdos" lovingly to succinctly make a point! Def should've gone with "social outcasts" or something more polite.

[@Myahyou]

I absolutely love Ethan talking about whatever the fuck he wants. Please keep the videos coming Ethan.

[@DancingSweater]

:)

[@ryandirkyoung6270]

I was having a major depressive episode before I started watching this, and by listening to you tell this story, seeing your good character and compassion, I saw it in myself and it eased me out of it. Thank you for this story, and thank you for always trying to be a good person. It means a lot to many of us I'm sure.

[@tessmarkus8819]

Psychiatric nurse here! First off, it actually sounds like you may have had substance induced psychosis, which is very very common in people who have generalized anxiety who use narcotics (including pot). Second, what you did for that young man is admirable. Working with people who have schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder can be super challenging, but some of them are the most amazing people I’ve ever met. People don’t understand schizophrenia and psychosis. I met my now fiancé when he was undergoing psychosis and after 3 years of diagnosis and understanding what happened those three years ago, we are now healthy, happy, and successful. If your friend got the proper treatment, he will most likely be striving right now. Take solace in knowing you probably changed his life for the better.

[@LaunchPadMcQuack4Hire]

Wow--thanks for posting that--it's really informative! I wasn't familiar with the first part, about substance induced psychosis. I might do a little googling on that. I used to know a guy who went through a similar experience, except that his break went on for years. He was hazed horribly in college, and his frat was eventually shut down for hazing. But this guy was always painfully shy and awkward, and apparently, the frat guys used to fuck with him a lot. It culminated with them loading him up with drugs and alcohol, then taking him out to the woods, beating the crap out of him, and leaving him to find his way back. After that, he was crazy. Always talking about seeing demons, etc. And he couldn't handle seeing men and women act affectionately towards each other (holding hands, kissing, sitting on laps, etc.). He'd freak out and tear the place apart. One time, he picked up a coffee table and threw it into the wall. Another time he tore a heavy glass sliding door off the track! All kinds of violent outbursts. He was 6 foot 7, and more than 300 lbs, so he was really scary when he was mad. He actually kinda looked like the bad guy bounty hunter in Raising Arizona, except with normal teeth. 😆 Oh, and guess how I knew him? I dated his brother, so I saw all this stuff up close and personal! I met him a few years after the hazing incident, but I know about it because his brother told me (obviously). At that point he was in his mid-20s. He and his brother lived with their parents at that point, and their dad was a real asshole towards him (the "crazy" brother). But after he moved out and got some space, he seemed to calm down a lot. I don't remember him having violent outbursts after he moved out of his parents, but he still hallucinated regularly. And for the whole time I knew the family, he never got treatment for anything. The kicker is that he ended up getting his master's (he had always somehow gotten good grades) and he became a counselor for troubled teens! So ironic! I sometimes wonder how he's doing these days. Those we're some strange times, for sure...

[@rkat]

Thanks for sharing this! I'm pretty sure my boyfriend has some sort of undiagnosed form of anxiety and one time he tried a bit of weed after a long period of not smoking it for many years... I am 100% convinced he experienced what you are describing (substance-induced psychosis). It was quite alarming to witness from the outside and I didn't know what was going on. It only lasted like... 30-40 minutes maybe, but those were the longest minutes of both of our lives

[@tessmarkus8819]

@@rkat the psychosis will appear over a period of time. A minimum of at least a few days and can last months if not treated. I wish you the best!!!!

[@zookadook1902]

This is a great comment! Thanks for posting it!

[@sstt_zz]

Did your fiancé ever get diagnosed with anything?

[@oliverthecat486]

Everything happens for a reason Ethan. You are such a kind hearted person.. you deserved Hila

[@100gecsrbetterthangod5]

You assign meaning to the things that have happened. It's all random.

[@Amrylin1337]

I mean. It doesn't but it's nice to think of it that way.

[@LexiUnicorn]

On a spiritual level, it seems your empathy and kindness for that dude was rewarded with good karma - a beautiful life and your soulmate ❤️💕 I love the stories, please keep them coming. I hope Ryan is out there thriving and happy ❤️❤️

[@tweakr]

i came here to say this, definitely the best example of karma i've heard

[@crappylittlehands8348]

It's very clear that you've always had so much compassion for the underdog. I can't help but wonder if it's something your parents instilled in you or if it's just something that occurred in you naturally. I love seeing tenderness in people, thank you for sharing with us. ♡

[@SarahChapstick]

Thank you for sharing this, you have no idea how much watching this helped me yesterday after a 2 day manic episode.

[@JordanHunterX]

You can tell Ethan is such an incredible writer. The details, everything, was so vivid.

[@GarretRB]

The way he described him holding a cigarette sounded out of a book

[@pineapplejello3664]

This may be my favourite video from Ethan ever, not only on this channel. As someone who struggles with my mental health and works with individuals who also have mental health issues, you are a blessing. It's easier for people to feel compassionate about depression and anxiety than psychosis and schizophrenia. These people often times hide what they are experiencing from everyone, but he felt safe enough to share it with you. You're kindess and empathy were repayed to you ten fold and I'm sure Jeff/Ryan still thinks about you too. You have made me so proud with how openly you talk about mental health issues and how no one should be ashamed to seek out help.

[@mrmaidlemonade]

Absolutely mesmerizing story. Thank you so much for sharing. I hope that guy is living a much better life. I wouldn't be surprised if he still thinks of you too. You were a blessing to him.

[@afterglow2935]

Just wanted to say I relate to weed being the worst drug experience for me too. I’ve done plenty of harder drugs but one edible experience with weed left me messed up for days and while I was high I felt like I was dying and I was so scared. It was so awful and terrifying. And the fact that it lasted days (really like a week before I felt normal again) was just so shitty. People who say weed has no side effects or that it’s totally safe don’t know what they’re talking about. Loved this video thank you for sharing. You’re such a good guy at heart Ethan. Appreciate you. ✌🏻

[@popotade4621]

I rarely smoke weed now because of a similar episode. It didn't last days but I too felt like I was dying. What did you experience? In my case I fell to the ground and felt consumed by a thunderous void, like a black eletric orb engulfing me, accompanied by an agonizing sense of desperation. I wonder if this is a common thing.

[@afterglow2935]

@@popotade4621 yes similar to that! Lots of blackness, I was on the floor and couldn’t really walk for the first 24 hours. My heart was beating so fast and I was so scared I had my boyfriend call the friend who made the edibles to ask if they’d put anything else in it because I couldn’t understand why my heart was beating so fast. (They hadn’t, it was just weed). Just a lot of panic and confusion and blackness. Feeling like I fell waaaay down a well and couldn’t come back up to the surface. So awful.

[@alex-kk5so]

It's really nice seeing Ethans vulnerable side and talking about mental health. I really like these more personal storytime type videos. Keep it up Ethan, much love to you and your family

[@krasexpreeess]

The way you talk about Hila, man, it almost always brings tears to my eyes how real your love is. Also, thank you for talking about this, your videos are so therapeutic for me and I'm sure a lot of people. I have anxiety too and hearing you talk about your raw emotions helps so much.

[@saachamaa]

This is one of the most interesting stories I've ever heard, thank you for sharing it. I learned a lot, and I can't believe how easily you can talk without a script.

[@Bingus_Bangus]

Ethan, long time viewer here, probably since 2012. You're an amazing storyteller. Do more of these! ps, I went through the EXACT same experience senior year of high school. Literally everything you said resonated.

[@eliza5059]

I just want to add (as someone who's been diagnosed with a psychotic disorder for 5+ years) that people can and do live fulfilling, meaningful lives! What we think and feel at some points might seem scary from an outside perspective but people with psychosis & disorders like schizophrenia aren't inherently dangerous -- more likely during an episode, we feel terrified ourselves. Similar to how people usually don't act on intrusive thoughts, many people don't act on "command voices" either. Really anyone can experience psychosis (3/100 people will have one episode in their lives), it's not as weird or uncommon as people think. It's horrible how often people with psychotic disorders are dehumanized by others. It can also be really terrifying to be confronted with police when you're going through that. I'm glad Ethan could be there for him. I hope "Ryan" is doing better now. ♥️

[@mikolajczaklol]

❤️❤️❤️ thank you for sharing.

[@skyward360]

There was a film that came out "Words on Bathroom Walls" with a teenage boy with schizophrenia and it showcased really intense moments clearly as it showed how SCARED the character was and some of it was a misunderstanding but from the outside perspective it made him seem so unhinged but inside he was just reacting to terrifying things happening around him.

[@xdef1ne]

Thanks for sharing, I hope you’re doing well with everything going on in the world! Peace & Love

[@_editwithme]

Yes! My husband works in psych as a nurse and has even seen senior admin come in for mental breaks. It can happen to anyone and sharing these stories just helps more people understand. The more understanding people have the more often we can identify when someone needs help vs. when they are dangerous. Thank you for sharing!

[@christinawalker6356]

I must be really unlucky then bc my schizophrenic brother stabbed my mom and I and is definitely not living a normal life 💔 I'm always so jealous of people that are able to live normally or not have bad episodes with their schizophrenia because I wish my brother was like that.

[@mistciara]

you being so selfless and willing to take care of “Ryan” led you to Hila 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 papa bless

[@DancingSweater]

FAMILY

[@emilyanderson624]

FAMILY

[@pazamour]

Wow. That is definitely a crazy story. I'm so glad you were there for "Ryan or Jeff," and you still got to meet Hila. This is truly a crazy story.

[@beepurple90]

Loved this story Ethan. I almost teared up a few times. Life is crazy but I'm grateful you met Hila in the end of it all! This story was helpful in many ways and im so glad you opened up!

[@NickiDiaz]

I appreciate you talking about weed like this. This happened to me often in high school where I’d feel high as fuck for days to weeks after smoking, and no one ever knew what I was talking about.

[@early20rager63]

Same but i loved it tho. I would be high for days/week

[@ratatouille5521]

I used too get these crazy weed shakes an it was part of the panic attack. You ever get that before?

[@yoitstim5168]

@@ratatouille5521 I would get the cold chills. Learned to not overindulge. Smoking pot is like eating- you shouldn't eat until full because it takes around twenty minutes. Same with weed.

[@judithmach159]

ethan on a real note im at college rn and it's really lonely. really hard to make friends because of how covid affected everything and most days i don't get to talk to anyone at all. these story times are keeping me sane. i know we're not on facetime, but these videos give the illusion of it so it's helping me not feel so lonely. i wake up every day to get ready for class, make my tea, and check for a new ethan video. it's been a great way to start my day and help me feel like im not completely a hermit. hope the FAMILY FAMILY FAMILY is doing well. thanks again

[@monolyza_]

Heyy, same here... work on home office, no personal contact, just me in an empty apartment. Hope your situation gets better over time and wish you the best

[@bonniep9026]

Same here. Just moved to a new city and working from home. Hang in there, it will get better for us 💕

[@MI-gu8lq]

Many people feel that way during college (I know I did) - eventually you learn to have fun and enjoy being alone, and your happiness is less dependent on others. Part of growing up (but it does feel shitty in the moment)

[@user-wy5nw9jo4b]

We are your friends Judith! The people in the comment section are here to comfort you angel baby

[@nathanielclay7134]

Same it's been hard adjusting to college! My social anxiety seems to be getting worse. Keep putting yourself out there I finally started meeting people in mY second semester.

[@emclovin6962]

“I don’t know why everyone kept coming to me” I mean I guess it says a lot about your character and how people saw you, since everyone did look to you for help. Great moves, keep it up.

[@aarmendariz191]

Wow! Thank you for sharing this story and ironically I was feeling very anxious today and when you said “just keep looking forward…it gets better” it made me feel so much better instantly, thank you! 🙏🏼

[@conordoeseverything]

I'm only a few minutes in but thank you for talking about this Ethan. I'm struggling a lot with over-smoking and as often as people say you cant be addicted I sadly am, and it really helps to hear your perspective.

[@Cinnamarollin]

You totally can be, at the very least dependent. But there are even side effects/withdrawal from stopping when you smoke a lot like mainly issues sleeping. I wish u the best on your journey! I feel like weed dependencies sneak up on ya cause everyone tells you it’s not addictive.

[@casualthurs3243]

Get a vape. It’s better for you and it makes it way easier to just stop if you want to.

[@TH0KH]

People act like psychological addictions aren't a thing. It's different than a chemical dependency addiction, but it's still extremely hard to quit when it's your coping mechanism.

[@DontDefuse]

You're only addicted because you're using it to fill some sort of void and when that's the case anything can be "addictive." But it's not physically addicting in the same sense that alcohol or other drugs are. Just stop reaching for the bong just because you're bored or using it to disconnect from your stresses.

[@MsEminemAddicted]

Same here. I had a horrible childhood and smoking weed helps me numb the pain, anxiety and stress that I deal with every day. Is that similar to why you smoke?

[@cocoknows]

This story really touched my heart. You are a good guy, Ethan.

[@reaxlei]

@@daxterrack this video isnt political, or having anything to do with whatever it is that makes you dislike ethan. Take your negativity elsewhere

[@christinac1496]

Thank you for sharing these stories and your insight Ethan. When you talk about mental health stuff with such openness, vulnerability, and empathy I cannot tell you how comforting it is to make others feel not alone.

[@maddyryl]

Really appreciated this story, I’ve definitely been a ‘Ryan’ before and there’s not many people that have compassion in those times

[@aprilshaye]

We asked, Ethan delivered. LOVE these storytimes during dad time. 🙏🏼

[@Veganggg]

Psychosis is no joke. Thanks for always letting people know smoking weed isn't harmless. Do what you want but let's not pretend it's symptom free

[@Sunstar441]

My ex is addicted to weed. Can't go a day without it.

[@ThatKidGaming]

@@Sunstar441 best drug to be addicted to 😊

[@giblets4510]

@@ThatKidGaming no drug is good to be addicted to

[@itstianafosho]

I would call it a dependency. If they stop they're not gonna go through withdrawals.. lol

[@ThatKidGaming]

@@giblets4510 this one flew over your head. its the best one to be addicted to when you compare it to all the other drugs out there

[@tshphrd_]

This channel is so great, I love Ethan when he's not talking about other people wrapped up in controversy or debate, there's something really personal and rewarding about just chilling out and telling stories, feels like I'm in Ethan's house just talking shit and having a good time.

[@miranda13c]

Please never stop making these videos, I love to hear you just telling stories. Hila was a literal angel who saved you and she didn’t even realize it. Such a beautiful family!

[@PurgPurg]

Man that’s so messed up. I hope that Ryan dude is doing okay. Schizophrenia is just horrible, it takes everything from you. Totally unsurprising that no one had any sensitivity to it

[@dieauferstehung]

one of the best videos of Ethan ever fr

[@fragariavesca1635]

Ethan is a kind of friend we all need in our lives

[@DancingSweater]

We all need an Ethan in our lives haha

[@kath2546]

thank you for sharing this!!!! sometimes feels like people either think weed should be illegal or there is absolutely nothing wrong with it. it’s important to talk openly about the negatives that can come from it

[@hunterivey813]

This was a great story to add to your history on KZbin. Thank you for sharing this traumatic experience. You’re a good soul. Would love a playlist of stories from your birthright, and details of you meeting Hila.

[@robynjoyce2026]

Ethan, you're such a good story teller. Your boys are going to have so much fun listening to you

[@BronzeBellaBria]

I was thinking about the boys watching these videos as well!

[@plutonium2]

Aw that made me tear up I'm a sap for Ethan as a papa

[@greatnate07]

I’m not a religious person- but man, this whole story really makes me wonder. You did all this reading about something and were then able to diagnosis him and be an empath for him. Then the trip lead to Hila.

[@victoriamccoy2262]

It’s good stuff dude

[@blatantlocal]

@@Green-rp6br you sound like a 15 year old that just realized you can have your own opinions

[@SillyFoool]

@@Green-rp6br Relax. Your opinion is valid but don't be mean to people. They literally said they're not religious. Chill out.

[@emmyjulianne6850]

@@Green-rp6br as if god is only responsible for world tragedy and nothing good for humanity or anybody ever

[@profit7970]

@@Green-rp6br i’d rather believe in something that might not exist, than get a grip and start acting like u.

[@Guest-wr4bj]

I love your stories. Teddy and Bruce are so lucky, you have dad mode on lock with the stories and the guitar lullabies

[@mypalewrists]

This really adds a new level to every time Trisha told Ethan she thought she had schizophrenia and he’d be like ummm no

[@tluvsbeauty1]

Omg this is such a good point

[@5ex.]

This is why I've always been a fan of Ethan.. there is just something inherently positive and good about him.. I don't know if it requires alot of intuition to pick people like Ethan out from the crowd, but he is just such a good dude it's almost impossible to hate him. I don't know how many other people can strongly relate to this intuitive sense of depicting a person's character.. but Ethan is 100% one of the good ones.

[@pro-choicemom]

I agree. No one is perfect, Ethan can be petty, bratty, entitled & spoiled but he's inherently a good person. I found his channel after the Sam Seder Crowder fiasco. I respect how he gave up a lot of subscribers, meaning money, to distance himself from toxic anti SJW content that was radicalizing people. This is why I am an Ethan defender. We need good people on this platform.

[@recoveringintrovert717]

Yeah, Ethan makes pretty big mistakes constantly, but he learns from them and he tries to do better. I think he's inherently good

[@heenah4016]

It’s so crazy hearing Ethan talk about this because I went through the exact same thing. Haven’t heard a lot of people talk about weed doing this so it’s surreal that Ethan is.

[@frankiet2051]

same!

[@Evievaluv]

Same, however I still smoke, and I’ve had a few times where it went great and was really nice and those self negative thoughts weren’t there. I’m not sure if it’s the people you’re with, or the dose or the type.., but generally, it makes me anxious socially.

[@benstoyer14]

Literally one of the best KZbin videos I have seem in a while. You’re the greatest reacting that way to this situation. Amazing story and beautifully told.

[@JB-es3ff]

Panic attacks are so fucking insane. I felt every moment of this and your descriptions were so on spot. Ethan is a great storyteller. This video really showcases his talent. Anyways this hit deep. And I feel less alone.

[@charlottefizzy]

Ethan you’re making my days with these story times it’s so comforting to hear you tell stories

[@domjoseph2007]

Agreed 😀

[@babybunnie5200]

right?

[@acemyname]

who dare break 69 likes

[@acemyname]

oh wait that was me sorry 🤭

[@DancingSweater]

Love story time with Ethan haha

[@CezaMVO]

"I just forgot myself", that part hit me hard. I've never drank or smoked, but I've had really bad back problems for half of my life and it changed who I was. This year it finally hit me that I need to change, I don't like the direction I've allowed my life to go in. Now I'm feeling better and excited to keep progressing. Thank you Ethan for sharing your story with us.

[@coffeecatskimchi5962]

In the same boat. Good luck!

[@angiedixon8017]

Great testimony thank you for sharing🥰

[@emilydickinson5422]

Wishing you all the best on your journey💞

[@CezaMVO]

@@coffeecatskimchi5962 thank you, to you as well!

[@CezaMVO]

@@angiedixon8017 thank you, I hope you're doing well

[@JR-tq1tr]

I know it's been a year since you've made this and you probably wont see this comment, but I can't express enough that you saved my life. Word for word you described my experience and all I could do was cry. Thank you. I'm quitting today. No more fighting it

[@MaryKing13]

You are an incredible storyteller! I can not tell you how immersed I was in this story and really felt for you and Jeff/Ryan. You were such a compassionate person to someone in need and I feel like I would have done the exact same thing in your position. I always look for people who are left out and try to include them. The trauma for you must have been unbelievable. I hope you hire a private investigator to look up Jeff/Ryan to see how he's doing to put your mind at ease. I had an uncle with schitzophrenia and my family and his friends had to hire PI's every few years to track him down. Thanks for sharing this, you are my fave person to listen to right now.

[@poppyseed5270]

Stories like this restore my faith in humanity a little bit. When you struggle with mental health issues, it's really hard dealing with the way people look at you. They have empathy for depression and anxiety, but not if you're having psychotic episodes. I'm glad at least one person looked out for him on this trip... I wish I had someone like you when I went through that, Ethan

[@beabunny.]

Don’t ever let anyone make u feel like the care and love you have for other people is a weakness Ethan. This story proves you’re stronger than anyone else on that trip could be for another person. That’s true strength, true knowledge and love. Your kind hearted intentions are what make you powerful and it empowers others. Don’t ever forget that.

[@biohead66]

I would have bailed out of this situation so fast. Ethan is an unsung hero.

[@brigette7245]

This was honestly super moving. I feel like I currently relate to what you were going through. Not to get all corny, but I needed to hear this story. Thank you.