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[@no.5810]

I followed your channel because I recognised myself in what you were describing. Even that was healing...and started me on my healing journey.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Wonderful! Thank you for being a part of our community here and good luck on your healing journey! Nika@TeamFairy

[@janetharrison5742]

I've been trying to heal for years. They say when you're ready the teacher appears. The foundations have been laid and now is the time that the healing starts. Thank God i found this channel at a time when I felt ok. I journaled because i had to have a written record because my husband would gaslight me. I realised through you that it was this that was keeping me stuck. Your way worked. During the meditation i smiled for the first time in a long time because i knew I'd found a solution to my problem. Then I got triggered while I was in company. That was the first hurdle but I didnt fall, i stumbled abd the next day, one of your videos mentioned the thing i needed to hear. How to handle triggers when you dont have a pen and paper handy😂. It's not easy. But I am learning so much. The hard bit is seeing all the trauma in the family and not allowing theirs to sabotage my healing.

[@turnthepage867]

After years of isolation, I finally reached out to an old friend. I was welcomed with open arms.

[@Metaphysics-for-life]

"I'm not a doctor or therapist, I'm 'just' someone who recovered from my own CPTSD".... that, IMO, make you more qualified to help others than any of those so-called "professionals". Thanks for having the courage and strength to step out and help others 💖 Merry Christmas 🎄

[@crow_feather]

Speaking as one healing from trauma myself, I've personally been helped by some truly wonderful, deeply devoted licensed therapists of all kinds, many of which have dedicated their lives to helping others after going through terrible trauma themselves, and who have then gone on to become therapists because they want to help others heal from the same hell that they know all tol well. Don't be so quick to judge. By doing so, you wind up condemning some truly wonderful people, many of which are the same people The Crappy Childhood Fairy is here to help, herself.

[@larabraver]

I’m glad you complimented her. However, It’s more gracious to give a person a lovely compliment without putting somebody else down.

[@crow_feather]

@@larabraver Especially those who have dedicated their lives to helping others! Many of them have gone through childhood trauma themselves, and now are using their experiences to help others! They've been some of the best help I've had! We're supposed to stick together as survivors, not putting each other down, or those who are there for us!

[@larabraver]

@@crow_feather 💯true

[@farfaraway97]

​@crow_feather i think she "liked" the comment so I think she agrees with that line hehe, imho its not okay to profile people and no wonder doctors themselves are afraid of seeking help with so many ready to demonise, "humble" and profile them willy-nilly, so many come from trauma and domestic pressure like gabor mate informs and i have seen. I lost a friend to that kind of isolation and resentful mocking until we realised how alone and under-pressure it felt. Call out what's not right by all means as loudly and forcefully because that's how change comes, please don't project your resentment and sometimes envy onto people because they're not perfect for you or some other subconscious not-so-selfless reason, you yourself must give others who depended on you plenty reason to be disappointed, hurt and dissatisfied by your lack of understanding and your own flaws-like everyone else, it's normal-how would it feel if someone's "so-called" insights were dismissed, mocked and casually clubbed along with all the self-serious self-help b*llsh*tters and swindlers on youtube. Doesn't sound good or sane, does it? Grace and love, hope we all heal and do more good. Bless.

[@PostTraumaticVictory]

“You can’t be exiled from your own experience. Alone is always where we start but our healing from all the false ideas that trauma taught us can bring us forward…” 💜🙏

[@commonman711]

I'm continually amazed at how incredible life is after healing from childhood trauma. I was convinced I was just 'damaged goods'. No hyperbole here; Healing has taken me from the very bottom and placed me in a position in life that I had only ever dreamed of before. Didn't discover your videos until after I became well, but I sure love the truth and accuracy here. Thank you.

[@taghazoutmoon5031]

What did you do to succeed?

[@johnrobertd748]

How did you do it?

[@souldancersbyjennifer]

Would love to hear your story too

[@commonman711]

@taghazoutmoon5031 @johnrobertd748 @souldancersbyjennifer This answer could be multi-faceted, because it absolutely is a captivating story, but I will keep it simple. The most important thing would be to 'seek it'. Life will take you through the ringer, but if you truly believe, against all odds, that one day it will all be restored; and you never let your hope be snuffed out, you will reap the rewards of having endured the hellish nightmare. You will come through the fire as pure, refined gold with the strength of a diamond. The place of reckoning is such a small passage that one must 'small themselves up' in order to fit through. Have faith. Trust God despite your doubts. Seek and you shall find it.

[@commonman711]

And as I read my comment, I'm reminded of how I gave up hope that life would ever change for me, because I thought I would/could never change. When the pain of life outweighed the pain of making personal changes, I changed.

[@douglasmcgregor5511]

Stop telling myself the terrible story of my life. Just the advice I need. Thanks.

[@thecommonsensecapricorn]

I had a friend last year who constantly talked about how she was “healing” but all that meant was she isolated all the time. She was really unreliable because she would cancel plans last minute all the time saying “my body is telling me I need to just stay home”. She was very New Age spiritual and would repost quotes from those accounts all the time about how you should “listen to your body” and if that means cancelling plans then that’s okay. She was very defensive and never fathomed that she was too traumatized to “listen to her body” and she should actually be pushing herself to go and connect with others, because that was her trigger. I’m off and on with my healing, definitely still make choices that I know are not long term good for me, but I have seen huge leaps and bounds in my true healing, specifically since I joined ACA 7 months ago. I have more self respect, I trust myself more, and for the first time I’m actually considering having a birthday dinner with FRIENDS!! I’ve always been too intimidated by that idea, the stress of having to “entertain”… but I finally have a solid group of gals in my life and I think I’m gonna do it!

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Ha!!! I know the type. Congratulations on your healing! Have a great birthday!

[@joannk5259]

Thanks for sharing that , so inspirational! ❤

[@linseyorman6113]

I work as a channel for spirit and unfortunately people can find any excuse to indulge in what they believe is both popular and immediate results. This absolutely is not healing and you get that. I do get annoyed with this type too. Spirit is the last thing you need to use as an excuse to not take personal accountability for yourself in all ways. Unfortunately this type of mindset I find often thinks the person who "stabbed" them causing the trauma is responsible for healing the wound but as I always tell my clients the person who shoots you will Never be the person who saves you. This is ultimately her expectation. Spirit will heal her as long as she stays home, neglects the people in her life and avoids living because it's spirit that let it happen. Nope, spirit literally can only help those who help themselves. And yes you absolutely need to listen to your body. But I mean come on. This type of person works against anyone having any good relationship with the spiritual communities and people. It saddens me. Sorry for the rant your old friends habits are triggering when it gives your work and spirit a bad name. May you be truly blessed on your honest healing journey. As spirit will always bless those that love themselves enough to be a blessing to themselves 🙏💛

[@zerbirae4224]

The joy of hosting a small group of people who are important to you is so incredibly fulfilling, and makes for The Best memories! You deserve to celebrate yourself; hope you have a wonderful birthday party!

[@bizarrebroz3424]

She IS healing but in her own way. She needs to go through that to get to the real breakthrough. It's part of her journey.

[@judithwilliams5185]

I really don’t know what to do. I’m sitting here alone on the day before Christmas. My son died the other day. He was my firstborn and favorite. He just fell asleep and didn’t wake up. I keep forgetting that he’s dead. Keep wanting to send him a message or call him up, and then it hits me again. My youngest daughter is in a specialty hospital 70 miles away fighting a bad infection. She won’t get out until Jan 4. The rest of the family, my ex husband and another daughter and son are 60 miles away with all vehicles not running. My youngest brother invited me to Christmas dinner and I was so happy about that. He and my daughter had a falling out many years ago over something that wasn’t really huge. I explained to him that she is hurting terribly now over losing her brother. They were only a year apart in age and were very close. His response was harsh telling me she is not welcome at his house. That hurt me so badly. I am not an emotional person at all but I’ve been crying for days. Then just now my other brother called and went on and on about how my kids were such losers and they got themselves into whatever situations they’re in and my son probably caused his own death by doing something stupid. So I’m sitting here finishing some knitted gifts feeling completely miserable and this came on. So that’s where I am sad and hopeless and lonely.

[@_MetaL]

so sorry to hear that Judith! the best thing about Christmas it is a season of perpetual hope!, just as Jesus was born on Christmas eve to bring light and hope for humanity! he was born to take away the sins of the world, and by doing so we have a friend in him. Merry Christmas, keep up the good fight!, Jesus sees and knows your pain.

[@gunvorgla]

I'm sorry to hear that. If it's okay, I'll send you a virtual hug. People are mean sometimes - often, they have fears they won't admit, and instead, they lash out at others. Take care.

[@stacyjaye6350]

Wow, that's one hell of a lot coming at you!! You're so allowed to cry till you can't cry anymore. The people who should be supporting you are kicking you when you're experiencing the hardest life has to offer. All of us are here for you. I'm sending you strength, courage, and hugs, from Tulsa.💪⚔️🫂. ☮️🌲✝️. 💖😘😘😘

[@stacyjaye6350]

PS, don't ever listen to anyone knocking your kids. Might be time for no contact. You can do it!!

[@dagmarpilotti3884]

I'm so sorry 😢

[@varnishyourboard]

Crying myself to sleep again from a break-up over two years ago. Through therapy, I've learned that my older brother's chemical use diverted my parents attention away from me, a scared and very sensitive little boy. I admit this newfound knowledge does very little to stop the consttant thought cycle of negativity and unworthiness but I'm still trying! Thanks for your encouragement in this video and giving people the belief that change is possible (but only in the present and with gratitude turned outward).

[@no.5810]

I totally get you. I broke up with my ex because I hadn't processed my trauma, and just wish I knew then what I know now. It's sad, but I'm now in a better place to welcome whatever and whoever enters my life. You will be too.

[@MirellaReiche]

❤I was mopping the floor listening to you when this beautiful exercise came up. I immediately dropped what I was doing, sat down, visualized everything good that people did for me and sobbed my eyes clean so now I can see better. Thank you 🙏🏻 ❤

[@perhapsshellliveafterall]

Something ive started to notice as i move along in my healing journey, when im talking to people i feel at ease and can make eye contact. There was a time (and i wasnt even aware of it until it was pointed out in my rehab group) when id do anything but look at the face of the person i was talking to. Recently, i went to my daughters parents evening at school, i noticed how i was sitting chatting with her teacher, calmly and with appropriate eye contact, when i left i reflected on the previous year, i was anxious, looking around the room and fidgeting, goodness knows what the teacher must have thought of me 😅 but that doesnt matter now.. its so good just be able to talk to people and not come away replaying the conversation in my head and feeling shame about how i acted.. Sorry im going on abit here but i just wanted to share this 😊 thank you so much anna and team, i watch all of your videos and have done from the beginning of your channel, you have helped me immensely and im so grateful ❤ Hope you all have a lovely Christmas and heres to 2024!! 🎉

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

I am in awe of anyone who can go to those parents' evenings and come out without remorseful rumination! Big hugs to you. Great work and I very much appreciate that you took the time to share here. So many of us need to hear what healing is is like!!!

[@sixtoomanycats9769]

My body is processing trapped trauma, just as I started watching and listening to you today, on Christmas Eve 2023. Still working on healing...thank you for being here when I feel like I need a therapy session, in between my trauma therapy sessions.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Glad you are here. Nika@TeamFairy

[@enki2958]

For decades I blamed myself for the maltreatment in my childhood done by my teacher in elementary school. But then I realized that I got benefits from it too. I am less willing to fall for propaganda and fake news. I am more of a critical thinker and less naive than my family and friends. And that, I think is positive especially in these challenging times that we live in.

[@JoySpotters]

I was bullied at school and emotionally unsupported in childhood, adopted by my grandparents and bounced between caregivers during weekends. Now 49, single, never married, no kids, and still wanting SO MUCH MORE, I finally took the step and did Day 1 of the daily practice today. I can only do it once a day, but something is better than nothing, right, Anna? Already, it helped untangle the Huge Dump of anxious thoughts today! Helped me decide between doing KZbin and blogging for financial freedom after WEEKS of being paralyzed, confused and overwhelmed. Thank you, Anna. 😭 God-willing, I hope to meet and hug you in person one day and personally appreciate you. Pray for me that my Daily Practice will continue and be consistent until that sense of healing clicks. Much love and blessed Christmas to you and your family! ❤🎄✝️

[@godzillamanstreb524]

Thank you Anna♥️🎄🤍🤍…..I’m so darn tired of ‘not feeling good enough’🤶🏻🎅🏻

[@Michelle-06]

You are more than enough. God did not get you this far for no reason you were created for God the Father purpose. You are not your past. Your future is bright and. God created you because he knew the world needed a great person like you. Glad you are here.

[@ShintogaDeathAngel]

It's hard to remember that you are good enough, but you are. For some reason we remember the lies other people instill in us, more often than the truths we should remember.

[@clairelist1060]

Fell back into an old pattern this holiday weekend. It's been a tough year. I went into survival mode and didn't see a way out. So I got high instead of letting myself be in the feelings. And it wasn't fair, to the people who do love and care about me or to myself. To the future I want. To that great love I know I want. I know, because I've been clean before, that I will be again. And a setback doesnt mean I'm not healing. I know now I still need to take responsibility. And be honest with people I was not honest with before. I learned so much this year. Some of it was very painful, but needed to happen. I needed to face my loneliness and my pain, but I ran away from it instead. Growing up, I learned that lying kept me safe. But this year I learned how important it is to me to be honest. That honesty is the cure for shame. Even for the really hard stuff. A new year is coming. And I know I will make mistakes in it. But I also know that I will make progress too. And I will find that great love, that connection that I have always wanted. And I want the same for you reading this comment too. I really, I really do.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Thank you so much for sharing your insights with us. It's great to hear you are ready and motivated enough to start your healing journey! May the New Year bring you peace, thanks to which you will be able to build the beautiful relationship you have always wanted. Nika@TeamFairy

[@lindamoss4305]

Anna, I love how you read letters from real people who are experiencing CPTSD symptoms in their everyday lives. Where do they send these letters? I think your responses to them help tremendously just in the acknowledgment that someone understands! You are providing a very important service to the world because it is a global phenomenon. Strange what human beings do to each other. It's what is at the core of all suffering and what drives wars! You're doing your share to save the world! Those of us who heal, can participate in the movement!

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Thank you fro this kind note. Yes -- we heal for ourselves and our healed selves bring more good into the world! You can send a letter here: bit.ly/3VVxqjm

[@vv9452]

Being single has its challenges, being in a relationship has its challenges. Being free from societal pressure to be “coupled” is ok… it feels a lot better to not have to worry about dating and just enjoy being…

[@notme7770]

Merry Christmas, hope we all heal a bit more un these darkest of days.

[@prihollis]

Anna, I’ve been listening to you since December 2021. You changed my life. 2022 was like walking through fire and I took myself to my lowest place to only find myself 2 years later in full purpose, healthier and happier. It has been difficult breaking my patterns but I have killed my magical thinking, limerence and attraction to situations and people who are unhealthy for me. I let it go with forgiveness, humour and what will be will be. I have said goodbye to many people and now have really good friends in my life. People who give me as much as I give them and who rushed in as soon as I knew in my heart what was good for me. My next journey is trying to date again. The fact that I’m not rushing with this or don’t feel lonely now without a partner, is my biggest success.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Wow, that is amazing! Thank you so much for sharing :) -Calista@TeamFairy

[@prihollis]

@@CrappyChildhoodFairy thanks Anna! I’ve also sent your videos to so many friends as well. We are all growing together and in awe of your wisdom and warmth.

[@misse2013]

Ana, thank you for this gift 🎁 I've been in a terrible state mentally/emotionally. This video compilation is helping to pull me back out of this storm. Merry Christmas

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Glad it was helpful! Merry Christmas to you too! Nika@TeamFairy

[@jaybirddee3790]

I needed this today as I’m rushing around, cooking, and cleaning-trying to be enough.

[@ChickFenwick]

You are enough ❤

[@Michelle-06]

​@@BlissfulObserver-su5up Just start somewhere You will start to feel a lot better it is not going to happen overnight but you are able to do it. You are going to feel so much better once you start and stay consistent. You are worthy of life and of love. God the Father did not get you this far for no reason. You are here for a reason and you are created for greatness!

[@jaybirddee3790]

@@BlissfulObserver-su5up Been there, done that. Trust. Take care of yourself. And don’t be shy about asking for help-or paying for it (if you’re able)-that was a big stumbling block for me. Shame got in the way.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

@jaybirddee3790 bless the people who make the holiday special for others! Even if it involves a little trauma-driven overfunctioning, your efforts bring people together and help even the cranky ones feel love and belonging. Not sure if this is you, but after my mother died 30 years ago, I had a few stressful Christmases where I was driven by the idea I had to make it feel like it used to feel. I was scared of it feeling empty and small. I finally let it be smaller, and what it lacked in tradition, it gave back in my conscious capacity to enjoy the day -- the food, the poeple. I've had so many people pass away amongst my loved ones, that I sometimes imagine I could time travel back to 1987 or 1969 and just see everyone -- be a ghost or a fly on the wall, and walk around those homes of the past, loving them while they played Monopoly or got drunk or stressed or bickered. I can get very teary thinking what a joy this would be. I think it's helped me look at present day family gatherings with same level of love and preciousness. This is the point, I think. Which is not to say the clean and decorated home and the traditional foods aren't important. They all go together. You are enough because you are part of all of it! And your cleaning and cooking are very loving things to give everyone.

[@jaybirddee3790]

@@CrappyChildhoodFairy Thank you for this very beautiful and thoughtful response and for your sincere encouragement. I truly appreciate it.

[@gertrudewest4535]

Yup…I have often thought if I could just get a little breathing room. But the last 8 years have been one catastrophe after the next. I am bitter. I had a good life until 2015. I don’t like talking to people… they can’t self regulate. People can’t communicate in healthy ways.

[@jasonfitzpatrick414]

😊good luck Gertrude. You will learn something from the last few years and move forward. I think if you talk longer with the negative folks you might find they care about things and are just as frustrated as you are. I have a co worker who was just standing around watching everyone work the other day, what a tool he is. Focus on yourself and your future.

[@johnbyerlein6682]

I rarely heard or learned any of these wonderful healing ideas from therapists or clergy. You give me hope!!

[@julieburkhardt61]

I'm ready!! it does feel a little discouraging but I'm determined to find purpose.

[@knobuhdy]

I genuinely don't think I did want to connect with people but I think I am finally reaching the other side of this grief of course I've said that before over this past year and then backsliding happens but maybe for real this time

[@ShintogaDeathAngel]

I've very recently noticed after about 3 years of counselling - and making new friends (kind of) after moving out of my parents house - I've started feeling lonely when I come home from family/friend's/work (I live alone, by choice), where before I felt content to be on my own. The feeling does pass, but it's a very new thing for me.

[@knobuhdy]

@ShintogaDeathAngel yeah I mean I thought I was in a better mode I am moving out in a month after moving back into my mom aunt and grandmothers when going to treatment and only just realizing the fucked up codependency that permeates in my family But yeah I thought I was getting better then I went and watched another video and now I'm feeling defensive and attacked again so I guess not lol

[@NaturallyTi]

It’s very expensive to heal. So as much as people want to, groceries and rent takes precedence. EDMR is useful but $200+ per session.

[@caoillainn]

I paid $100 per session, one and a half hours. Money well spent.

[@waggawaggaful]

This is one of your best videos yet and I've downloaded it so I can listen to it whenever I'm really down 🙏 thank you Anna

[@meropale]

It's crazy how deep-seated this belief is in me that I am *other* from other people. It's not even something I think to question as I've accepted it as fact. I did not realize this is just a side effect of past traumas.

[@susannluckmann7705]

Merry Christmas to the crappy childhood fairy team 🙏❤️😇🌲⭐️🕊 Thank you for the wonderful job you do. May God bless you all.xo

[@Hibernia63]

Just found your channel this week - I have healed a lot over the past few years - but at Christmas time my ptsd gets triggered a lot and I find it hard to keep in control of my emotions more at this time than the rest of the year! Thank you for these wonderful videos - they are helping a lot! Happy Christmas and best wishes for 2024!

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

One good tool to help with getting regulated is the Daily Practice. You can try it in the free course: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Thank you, and all the best to you too! Nika@TeamFairy

[@yiquanawalkb4run26]

Peace be with you Anna, I have listened to a number of your videos just at a time when I needed to ‘ it is you who presently is there for me as best friend and mentor on this life’s very interesting life’s journey, May Allah reward you for being that extra special person what arrived on the first moments and steps for change, I’m sure I’m speaking on behalf of all of us who truly appreciate and love you, THANK YOU

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Aw, thank you so much for this loving message. Happy New Year!

[@spacegirl226]

This video hurt really bad! But in a good way. I've had a lifetime of abuse and trauma I am attempting to work through. I've been in counseling for years and I'm learning how to fix myself, but it is so slow going sometimes I worry that I will never get to be the groovy stable badass in this video. I have such a long way to go. Four decades of garbage is going to take a while to heal. But I make attempts and try, and that is my hope that I will get there. I'm ready for love, ready for a good life. Thank you, Anna.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

For people with PTSD, slower is faster, so be patient. And hey, being ready to heal is a huge step you just took! Good luck on your healing journey! Nika@TeamFairy

[@HannahMitchell-Art]

I’ve only been doing the Daily Practise properly for a week and I can’t believe the amount of space it’s already given me in my life. My mind is clearer and I can be present with other people with much less rumination going on in my brain. Just in time for Christmas when this is sorely needed. Amazing. Thank you Anna!

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

I'm so glad your found the Daily Practice helpful! Thank you for sharing this with others! Nika@TeamFairy

[@Krzy-hoo]

Best of The Fairy Compilation Four of the most popular videos on "Healing Strategies": 0:00 CPTSD The number one reason your past is making you miserable 12:55 The emptiness you feel is trying to tell you something 25:10 Guided relaxation: How to bring more good into the world 36:10 What it feels like when you heal and change your self-defeating behaviors

[@dionnedunsmore9996]

My God shes good!❤ What a super Christmas gift

[@hbarlowe]

I bet so many folks needed this at the holidays. Thank you for your work

[@carlotta6470]

Dear Anna I’m a new subscriber of your channel I want to thank you because your video are very helpful and enlightening ❤ Two days ago I also started your daily practice and I hope to be able to continue it because I find meditation very hard 😅 I wish you a merry Christmas 🎄 Carlotta 🇮🇹

[@ButAVapor]

Beautiful video. Thank you ❤

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Thank you too!

[@percubit10]

I was told that I am not good enough and I am nit worthy of having a good life. So I became a hermit.

[@jazz4asahel]

Yes, bitterness. The pain has become all there is.

[@1HorseOpenSlay]

Merry Christmas Anna 🎄🎀🎄the world is a brighter place because of you ❤

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Thank you. Merry Christmas to you too.

[@msevolution2317]

What a beautiful message so grounded in truth. Happy holidays and 🙏

[@kathyingram3061]

~I was really sad through the whole thing on appreciating others that helped me, cuz it made me realized how little help & support ive had, but then at the end, the part about doing those things for others, was so inspiring, it lifted me up!!!~♡~

[@kathymiller2551]

I was reading a biography and thought I should write about my entire life. So for several weeks I have been working on it. I’m 73 so it’s a lot to write about. I am about half way and I am adding pictures. Putting it into words got it out of my head. It also helped me see things more clearly. Admit things. I had been in a slump mourning my mother for five and a half years. I am now over that. I can see the blessings too. It’s been so therapeutic. I had to walk away at times after writing painful parts. But now I don’t need to keep remembering and reliving them.

[@Miles_Hoffman]

Moving forward is quite freeing I’ve discovered. Your videos always have a jewel for me, thank you and I know one day I’ll be as healed as you are. Thank you!

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Thank you for watching. It's great to hear Anna's videos are motivating. Good luck on your healing journey! Nika@TeamFairy

[@DelSunflower33]

You know Anna when I first came across your channel I got triggered I thought your deliverance was blunt however after continuing my curiosity I started “waking up” to my own CPTSD… and now I pass on this wisdom. And now I’m being told I’m to blunt lol 😅

[@SR-mv2mf]

I love all the questions you are asking. Helps to honor the people who are little tiny angels in human form 😊

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Yes, we are that...

[@Justsayin2000]

I’ve been to therapy and I’ve been on meds for my issues around my childhood and I have gotten more out of your videos than I ever did with either of those. Thank you for making them and know that I am healing one small step at a time because of what you’ve done. I hope I can make such a great impact for others one day. Thank you

[@johnrobertd748]

Where, and how, do I start healing??? I'm laying in bed crying, wanting to die. I am so very very tired of this. You make breaking the wheel sound so easy. Where do I find that stick???

[@dagmarpilotti3884]

Hold on to hope. I'm trying to do that even though it's exhausting.

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Find my free daily practice course in the description. That’s what saved my life.

[@johnrobertd748]

@@CrappyChildhoodFairy thank you Crappy Childhood Fairy. I do mean it. Thank you!!!

[@jackflash58]

Happy Christmas John. I know how that can feel. Take care John.

[@Miracle7Seven]

Hope you’re doing better, from one internet stranger to another. Take care!

[@cherylgarretson3441]

Ive only recently discovered your channel and i am "interested" and want to explore and learn more but i am in the "stuck" group and i am very afraid

[@gunvorgla]

It makes sense to be afraid. Of course you are. You're brave enough to say it, though - you're aware that you're interested but afraid. Awareness is the first step, and when you're ready, You'll take the next. Keep watching Anna's videos - maybe you'll get ready sooner than you imagine today. Good luck!

[@dagmarpilotti3884]

I'm in the stuck group as well.This is why I'm soaking up this wonderful video. .

[@cathy_clarinet]

This was excellent, as are all your talks. Thanks 😊

[@RoadRunnergarage8570]

Recovering from CPTSD is a lifelong project....

[@morgantomlinson821]

Thank you Anna + team, wonderful!!!! Always love your message ❤❤❤❤❤ Happy holidays!

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Same to you!

[@mariedegrace4900]

Thank You so much for sharing your wisdom and giving us hope. I think I might 've started on my path to healing without realising it. Thank you for helping me reflect and be aware of it . Happy and safe holidays to you and your loved ones 🌲🌲🌲

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

We're all rooting for you! Happy Holidays :) -Calista@TeamFairy

[@Monka83]

Thank you so much for your videos!! ❤❤❤

[@davelewis8270]

I dunno man. I've tried so hard but i'm surrounded by people who get rewarded for doing infinitely less than me while I get nothing and I can't see that ever changing so I'm losing motivation entirely.

[@gunvorgla]

I get you. I was there some years ago, too. The thing is that the healing journey I'm on now (which started with Anna's teaching) suddenly opened options I didn't know were there. I hear you, though - it's tough. Being around ignorant and entitled people is tough - and confusing. By surprise, I've discovered that "all people" aren't like that, though, and through healing, I now better know what to look for and where to search for it. With lots of damaging experiences, the threshold is high, though - I get it. I wish for you that you can experience that the "always" and "never" aren't always as black and white as our bodies and minds tell us. They just want to protect us from getting hurt again - there's nothing wrong with you when you feel you've lost faith it will ever change. However, there IS more in-between (and if someone had told me what I just told you 3-4 years ago, I wouldn't have believed them - I'd probably get angry and feel like not taken seriously because, in my ears, it would be nothing but "blah-blah-blah"). I hear you, though - I get where you come from and it makes sense that you feel the way you do. Stay in there! Take care.

[@joannk5259]

Believe it or not, things will change, we just can’t force it, everything in due time. You will be fine. 🙏❤️🙏

[@RC-tg8mt]

I felt like I was healing but then had a significant traumatic event recently and I feel right back to the beginning again. I worked hard to get where I was. But now I don't know anything again.

[@Chris-cf2kp]

33:00 what if you haven't had barely any of these people, and have had to teach yourself these things, or still even struggle to manage these things?

[@Miracle7Seven]

I have been trying to dig deeper into my mind recently. I’ve had an insane 7 years of emotional roller coasters, narcissistic abuse, stuck at home isolation, and I’ve had my self esteem and personality broken down (it feels like it most times), but I am aware that I CAN get better, but damn is it hard 😅

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

It is hard, but you deserve to heal and it absolutely is possible :) -Calista@TeamFairy

[@Leoo117]

You know, I have an ex wife who was constantly spinning that wheel you mentioned in the first video. She pushed me away and left me. That was three years ago. She recently contacted me wanting to try again. She was surprisingly self-aware and mentioned how she was pushing away people that are good for her because she was struggling because of how she was treated as a kid. She finally stopped the wheel. She understands this now and regrets her decision and takes so much responsibility where she didn't before. It was amazing. She healed a lot. I for sure would have given her another chance, but I've had a girlfriend for 5 months now. Now I'm in this situation where I feel like I'll regret my decision no matter what I do. Sometimes I just want to walk away from everything and everyone. I never imagined myself being in such a messed up situation. This world really causes so many unnecessary problems, even without having cptsd. But I guess its really my own fault for opening myself up to dating too soon.

[@indigon7002]

@Leoo117, please don’t blame yourself for opening up to dating too soon, it sounds like it was well over two years after your ex wife had pushed you away. Good for you for considering your girlfriend of 5 months. How is your relationship dynamic with your girlfriend? Is it healthier than with your ex wife? Yes, people change and self work is excellent and admirable. Even if you decide to end your relationship with your girlfriend please don’t jump back into a relationship with your ex-wife as it may not be the best thing for you. Take it slow and honour yourself in the process. Sometimes people don’t realise what they had until it has gone. And sometimes it is better to move forwards rather than look back and honour the relationship for what it was rather than try to repeat it in repaired circumstances. With best wishes, Indigo

[@taras3702]

I agree with Indigon...... don't rush to get back with your ex.....but be a good friend to her if it would not do harm. And if you know someone with whom she could form a healthy relationship with, romantic or not, why not not introduce her to him?

[@fluxcapacitor2023]

For a long time, I wanted someone to acknowledge the specifics of the continual abuse that I endure. For decades, even now, that hasn't happened. Some years ago, I decided that if no one else will acknowledge it, then I will. I would tell myself (while doing my everyday things) things like, I see your pain and your love; what you feel is real; never give up, never acquiesce or settle, never quit; be your best, be diligent, be better than yesterday, be better tomorrow. I began talking out loud to myself. I began acknowledging my pain, my perspective, my experiences. I began asking questions out loud, giving myself time and patience for a response, and then speaking out loud what concepts/ideas come from my questions. And, I continually work at consuming accurate information to help with my cultivation, productivity, and my present and future potential. Info in = info out. So, I try to optimize that process as best I can. All of this has done more to improve my life than any therapist, any friend or family member, and any [other] coping mechanism. I'm not saying this method is the one, true cure-all for everyone, but it worked for me.

[@janemarlo4978]

Is this meditation about people who have brought good in the world on its own separate video? Id like to send this to a couple of my friends, telling them how in many ways they brought good things into my life... a neatbway to show appreciation for them!

[@greenleaf1635]

The presence of so many self-help gurus on yt and videos about mental health and people struggling with it is proof to me that there is something seriously wrong with our societies.

[@garycooper9207]

You are one clever Lady

[@24-7flounderproblem]

Merry Christmas 🎁⛄❤thank you 🙌

[@khemaloving4031]

Love the new frames 🤓 tres chic!

[@LiborTinka]

I had just enough experience to understand what you mean by "connection" - before that this was really an empty word for me, it sounded like plugging-in an electric appliance, nothing more. But having the experience (though for a brief period of time) at least now I know people are generally good and kind and the state is really timeless (despite the fact people come and go) - as one gets it, there is no more remorse about age and all the hiccups and struggles in the past suddenly make sense as if it was your unique path - it all "clicks" together. Of course, the understanding is sometimes painful - when I realized my 'loving' parents were actually a narcissist and an enabler, I stopped talking for two weeks form the shock and the stream of realizations why much s***t from the past now start making perfect sense. It goes both ways though, and the deeper one goes, the higher he/she can rise. Unfortunately, the blissful experiences were always short lived and it took another ton of self discovery and integration to develop that state again. But the good news is once you get the glimpse of it - even for a short period of time - you know what's behind the curtain and that gives you some motivation to work towards it (like when I felt so good so I realized: "Ah-ha, THIS is how normal people feel!"). It's one of the things in self-development, that cannot be unseen and the quick fix provided by the "sucking wheel" Mrs. Runkle talked about can never feel as fullfilling. That's just my humble observation.

[@patrickpoulsen1]

It is literally mindboggling to think that some people have felt great most of their lives. When I felt relaxed for the first time in decades I literally felt like I was on drugs. It is completely bizarre and alien to me how that is "normal life". Unfathomable.

[@jasonfitzpatrick414]

Accepting whatever is the norm. Earning love or betterment is a trap, we shouldn't have to earn it, it should be free. Social media and TV seem to focus on negativity and it is wise to spend quality time doing whatever not medicating with media.

[@Soitgoes-nu9vj]

Sometimes the trauma/PTSD/Moral Injury is just too severe and all encompassing to heal from.

[@linseyorman6113]

Ok question. I have healed a great amount. But my repressed memories since August won't stop. I couldn't recall my childhood before except a couple minute memories. It was a running joke in my family. Now I understand why I couldn't remember and sad but I also know that several family members counted on me not remembering. Unfortunately I have endured sexual trauma since as young as 2. I'm having memories of things from when I was in diapers things I shouldn't have experienced but obviously had no idea what I was experiencing how could I. Then the memories come hard fast sounds smells textures colors even smells. Will I ever be able to heal enough to be physical with a partner? I want with all of me a divine counterpart. I started my healing journey for my inner child and now I find myself dreaming of an epic love. I know I can have this but can I handle this. I have stayed single for it's an embarrassing amount of years honestly. But I was not interested in having the half love getting what I have been given always. So if I can fully heal then I can be a healthy companion and mate. I don't want to not be ready. But I'm not and I fear I won't ever be. Is there anything I can do to understand that it can be safe to be intimate with another? I have spent most my life from a young child to about 21 dealing with sexual trauma. Family, friends, and strangers. I guess its what I came here to learn how to heal that's literally the only way I can look at this. But I clearly can't trust. I can't be touched. How do I get past this? Is there anything I can do to get my body to not be triggered by even my hand being held? Please if you or anyone has any suggestions. I can't keep doing life alone and I do deserve love we all deserve Epic Love! Thank you for everything you do Earth Angel

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

Thank you for sharing your experience with us. If you'd like to share your story and ask Anna a question, feel free to write an "Ask the Fairy" letter. You can do it from here: bit.ly/CCF_Letters Nika@TeamFairy

[@lauriehefner183]

You’re a genius ❤

[@aciddiver1978]

Im stuck, but i see many heal

[@MaryBethPetra]

Merry Christmas Anna!

[@CrappyChildhoodFairy]

We thank you! Merry Christmas to you too! Nika@TeamFairy

[@SweetUniverse]

Grade school teachers came to mind

[@somethingyousaid5059]

I wish all of you could begin again, in the way that I've been forced to. That way _all_ of us would understand.

[@catherinecherniak8197]

Goddess bless you, Anna! 🥰

[@user-ou8ub7sc8v]

What if you have CPTSD..and you have known every kind of abuse there is,but also experienced near death from severe illness? Due 2 the extent of the damage done 2 my body,it no longer functions like b4 making it extremely difficult 2 have a job,attend events,2 do daily tasks..and yet i have 2 figure out how 2 survive and provide 4 myself. There's no light,no hope,only despair..this world is not 4 people like me i look well since all my health problems are internal,no one understands. Everyday feels like a battle 2 survive,I'm exhausted,broken,shattered,bleeding in a thousand pieces,living in physical,pain as well.

[@user-yk6qy4nw5x]

Autist here. I am told autism and cptsd have similar signs and are probably not mutually exclusive. Only recently I was able to forgive myself for a stupid thing I did as a kid. But I found a new problem. Feeling like too much of my life has been wasted to get back on track and how to forgive myself for that? Of course autism isn't strictly something that goes away so maybe I'm barking up the wrong tree here, but I welcome any suggestions.

[@mshannahloganshow]

You know how I know healing this stuff and doing what you are called to do works? You look and "feel"10 - 15 younger than you did 4 years ago. I moved back near family because of crappy life "stuff," had NO intention of staying.. That was two years ago. I had healed SO much... And the energy of family, their denial, watching their trauma play out (and how it is co-signed in this area, culturally) brought on symptoms worst than I have ever had... Shit I had released entirely. Two years been trying to come back having lost everything again. The ONLY difference is KNOWING all I have manifested.. Or not been able to shift trauma. ... And using tools, but I look and feel like I have aged ten years in two. I do think lack of the RIGHT KIND of support kills more CPTSD survivors, ultimately, than anything else. I was swinging hard and fast at symptoms and problems for years... Often when life was getting BETTER... Still tempted to just swing the bat at the flies. Instead of recognizing there are many ways to avoid flies being attracted to you or not landing on you... Swinging with a bat is not one of them. First, check to see if you are covered in honey... Or shit. Flies love both. If so, wash it off. Or move your ass somewhere else. (Metaphorically speaking, because moving is not cure) The right effort makes all the difference.

[@David0Izzy]

Love your content but don't have the attention span for long videos. Is there a chance you can release some shorter content as well? Thank you

[@Krzy-hoo]

those are normal length videos put together thematically

[@aldy22]

Put speed 2x - half time 😊

[@vanshikathakur]

❤

[@hae-jungaliciakoh18]

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[@ciao2paris]

💚💚💚

[@user-h6mm4dc]

😂😂😂😂😂🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

[@davidstair9657]

Injury to the ability to connect. Noooooo shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit….