traveling to Shanghai, new hair and deciding to drop out of college | Glow up Diaries Episode 12

[@aliviadandrea]

THIS VIDEO WAS FILMED IN DECEMBER 2018. To those commenting hate about wealth - I earned my money myself and saved up for this. I have been wanting to go to Shanghai since I was a child. I work and I don’t get anything from my parents. When I was editing this video I had so much fun being creative with the storytelling and editing. I was excited to share it with you guys in hopes of inspiring others because I loved watching videos of people’s crazy travel experiences growing up. It inspired me to set goals and make it happen for myself one day when I was older. It’s all about perspective. You can choose to hate and be unhappy about a highlight in someone’s life or you can become inspired by it and say hey..maybe not now but I know that if I’m committed, I can make it happen for myself one day. That’s exactly what I told myself years ago. I have nothing but gratitude for everything that has happened in my life, the good and the bad. Also my issue wasn’t university. My issue was the university I WAS AT. It didn’t specialize in what I wanted to learn and the location was terrible for where I want to go with my career. I’m not going to stay in a place that doesn’t help me grow. Check out Episode 15 of the Glow up Diaries for a more in depth response to my decision to dropping out of college.

[@janelledaphnyeunicamarco469]

I'm so happy you're back. I've miss you so so much!! I love ü

[@happyvalleyroses8145]

Love your videos. I find them very inspirational and I always watch them when I am feeling low. Love you and stay strong.🤗

[@larab2323]

Dear Alivia, thank you so much! You inspire me and help me and so many others!!❤️❤️❤️ I wish I could meet you one day. Also props to you for uploading so early in the morning! Sending my love from Germany! 💓💓💓 #glowgang

[@killerhawk4892]

love you....aliviiii ..from india

[@dianamariakang1944]

You look happy in shanghai you should study there

[@PeoniesRoses]

"Your homeland isn't the only reality."

[@LOLLolaLps]

So many more people need to realize this

[@mycheeksarered634]

what does that mean

[@urfairygodmother222]

mycheeksarered what you see isn’t everything that is there to see, that there is more to life than what you already know... at least that’s how i took it

[@carolcajaty]

Where is it?

[@idontlikeyoulol16]

Carol Carvalho 1:12

[@StroJhan]

its crazy to remember that the glow up diaries were filmed like two years ago, like damn, the world is so different. This whole series would be different if filmed now...its like a time travelling machines or a time capsule. I find the idea so interesting. Its mind blowing, don’t know how else to describe it. 2018....

[@hwefy]

2020...🍓❤️

[@imusedtoit]

2020 🦠

[@vaishalikhot3396]

2024

[@joselyn8604]

im not understanding the hate. this is HER glow up not yours so yeah not every aspect is gonna be relatable.

[@imintheghettoratatata4850]

Agree and people are harsh with her too. Like sis doesn't deserve all the unconstructive criticism, it's almost hate... Let her in peace and keep your negativity for yourself

[@zuheir546]

I didn’t see one hate comment tho

[@goodnight-moon564]

zuheir 5 I don’t see that many, but keep in mind this was posted months ago. People could’ve deleted them, they could’ve been taken down, anything could’ve happened to them.

[@joselyn8604]

Goodnight- Moon yeah when the video was first uploaded there were some hate comments she even addressed them

[@---xv5jp]

@@zuheir546 Just keep scrolling down... You'll find tons eventually

[@aleeza621]

I don’t get why know one is acknowledging how adorable she looks with those bangs

[@Ineke-hj9ok]

No*

[@shreenidhiravishankar1881]

Ikr she's adorable 😍

[@mileymedina7921]

ikr she looks so pretty !! i love them

[@fundamonium]

Too busy being jealous aparently

[@Hannah-dx6hm]

I just want to say something real quick. Everyone who says: „It’s always the same/it’s getting booooring/u repeat urself“ that’s what a glow-up is all about. U NEED to FAIL. U need to fail 100 times to success once. I love this series, it helped me be that healthy person I’m today and I’m unbelievable grateful for it. Alivia helped me get through my hard years, she gave me hope when I almost gave up. So please, do not hate someone who’s trying to help other people. She’s doing amazing and I’m proud of her, proud of myself and proud of everyone else who had to go through this or is going through this at the moment. Long story short, thank u :) for everything, u saved me from myself.

[@ayoma3512]

Hannah do you wanna help me to save me from myself too🥺👉🏾👈🏾

[@ayoma3512]

Gabrielle Lynn yea its rough out here

[@Hannah-dx6hm]

Ayo Ma babes, I’m always here 🥺 I don’t know if I can help but if u really need me, I’ll be there :)

[@Hannah-dx6hm]

Gabrielle Lynn same for u, I’m here for u 🥺 I’ll help if u r in a deep hole :)

[@shanruhui1391]

I’m really doubting if continuing to fail will lead to success. Glowing up is so hard. I feel like I got worse since I wanted to improve myself... If 100 failures is really what I need for the one success then I guess I’ll keep going.

[@hannahjohari8970]

this is so random but i love how there's shinee playing in the background when her sister was bargaining

[@leanott]

HONESTLY THAT'S THE FIRST THING I NOTICED

[@rhiannondaniel4426]

WAS GONNA COMMENT THIS

[@faith3650]

VIEW IS THAT SONG

[@jing-han7453]

i jumped out of bed i was like WAIT HOLLUP

[@sampwassa428]

@Mya Heart nice song I really like your voice a lot

[@evaa4646]

she make’s me feel as if im good enough even though im not perfect. and that ladies and gents, is what we need.

[@Abysstle]

She makes me feel as if i'm good enough even though i'm not perfect, and that ladies and gents, is what we need*

[@Abysstle]

Im so sorry

[@Abysstle]

@@grayce8524 thanks :)

[@evaa4646]

sorry i'm dizzy oupsie sorry im german

[@Abysstle]

@@evaa4646 pew pew, im so sorry... Didnt mean to offend or make you insecure or smthn 🥺👉👈

[@erin_the_extra2329]

The problem isn’t about her having money. If she has the resources to take a trip for her mental health, she should absolutely do so. The problem is that a lot of her videos are framed as advice. So, although it’s not what she meant, it can very much come across like “struggling with school and mental health? Just take a luxury trip to find yourself!” When that’s not something most people can afford. *The problem is that Alivia’s videos often blur the lines between what is advice, and what is for herself.*

[@aliviadandrea]

That is very true. I appreciate you pointing this out.

[@ayushimishra7044]

Exactly thats why I can't relate to them

[@bottleofwater8745]

Still there are stuff within the “unaffordable experiences” that you still can do. You can change the way you look from home, to eat something new look up recipes, doing something new is also doable from home. The important thing is the intention and keeping yourself busy with nurturing stuff that are available to you.

[@starrycactusx5978]

Well, it is HER glow up. She never said that what works for her would work for everyone.

[@nizOnYT]

@@starrycactusx5978 the point of op's comment meant : by the way she initially and consistently portray stuff through her video, she doesn't only show people what she went through. she wanted people to learn and take from it. it sends a message of advice, which meant to be taken by everyone watching. where in this scenario, taking a luxury mental health trip and deciding to drop out of college is a privilege that only alivia and a very small group of people, can take. and alivia herself seems to be agreeing with op

[@katyachai1634]

Ok, since I live in Shanghai I'd like to make it clear for some people: 1. Food in China is cheap. Even if the restaraunt looks fancy, even if the food looks fancy - I've never spent more than 40 dollars (not alone, with at least 1 friend) on our "luxury" days. And since I love sea food, it usually includes lobsters, shrimps, crabs and so on. 2. Hotels in China are much cheaper than in Europe/US - for the most beautiful hotels with several rooms, a bathtub, I've never paid more than 80 usd per night. For the cheapest one, when I needed to save money I paid no more than 20 usd per night but that hotel was also in the city centre and still pretty nice. If I wanted, I could find a cheaper option in the suburbs. 3. Other things like bars, markets, different activities are also pretty cheap. The only thing that was quite expensive is the flight but it's not impossible for someone to save enough money for their comfort! Stop blaming Alivia for having money for this trip. She worked hard and deserved being happy, and there's nothing bad about sharing it. You, people, were enjoying this channel, watching this "netflix show", you liked seeing her struggling and fighting with obstacles, "supported" her when she had problems, because we all have problems, BUT as soon as Alivia felt happy and free you started judging her! Truly, some people just cannot bear seeing somebody having a good life. Stop calling these series "fake" or " pretentious", admit that you are simply jealous. Think about your feelings when you watch it - do you really hate what you see or you actually want your life to look like this? (Once in a while, because if you remember well, she only went on a short trip). If you chose the second answer, work hard. Your hard work will pay off. P.S. I'm sorry for any mistakes. English is not my first language.

[@aah-nanana7341]

Ikrrr!!! Thank God someone pointed it out

[@darkhearttantibus2766]

Your english is pretty good! Thank you for clarifying and spreading positivity!

[@janhaviramakrishnan8539]

So true!

[@suholll7498]

Oh thank u for that , i guss i'll go there after the whole lockdown end here💔

[@dburrezo_03]

I would like to move to Tokyo when I get older. I live in the US but I want to travel the world and experience new things.

[@majakrysinska6463]

This really opened my eyes. When the video progressed i suddenly started crying without knowing why. I thought about it a bit and it’s because there is nothing for me where i live now. There is nothing i want here and just being here demotivates me from everything. I don’t even have friends here, i isolate myself, I am constantly stressed and I even developed an eating disorder. The only thing that keeps me here is school. School that i have to finish because it’s obligated and i have no choice. I just know that the second i have the chance i`ll go far away, to somewhere i can be happy. And just watching this made me remember that i am going to get that and i just have to wait a little bit more. Thank you Alivia, for reminding me that i can go somewhere i feel better aswell

[@catherinedonohue7284]

I hope you achieve that goal and move out :)

[@sonja5642]

My last year of school was really drowning as well - I felt stressed, lonely, tired and demotivated. But after I finished school, I just took a year off and went abroad as an Aupair in Rome, stoped thinking about my future and purely enjoying the moment! It was the best! I can only recommend taking a bit of time to clear your head - even if it is only throughout summer break! Now I’ve started college which is also great since you get to reinvent yourself and get to meet a bunch of new people sitting in the same boat. Hang in there! Whatever you do, I’m sure your time after school will be great! Just be open to new experiences, be confident in yourself (because you’re awesome!) and don’t be shy to be the first to start up a conversation!

[@majakrysinska6463]

Sonja thank you! Reading this really helps with motivation. Rome sounds wonderful by the way! Thanks for the encouragement❤️

[@choicethetaurus]

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[@zccomphiri6784]

I can relate to your story I went to school and honestly I felt like school was the only thing that I could focus on.There were days I would come home crying because of people that brought me down.i always think I'm alone but my mindset has changed alot where by I believe I can go far .Life is like a test we need to path and trust me by you not giving up and putting Jesus in your life you can accomplish anything stay strong coz I believe you will go far

[@reim1733]

I almost gave up on everything this day, I felt hopeless and my diet is unhealthy then I saw this 🥺❤ "Clear your mind" I will.

[@ketrintopic8689]

sis if you need someone to talk you can dm me on instagram @catherinexoxo I'm here for u 🥺

[@mehrmuneer3652]

same here

[@Capturia]

You've got this♡

[@XricheeX]

You can get through it :) down times are a part of life and life is fun so don’t be too hard on yourself, enjoy the ride ☀️🍀

[@choicethetaurus]

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[@CamilleLouisa]

i actually think the timing of this vide couldn't be perfect.. lets remember china as the beautiful and rich culture it is and not just based on events over the past few months

[@teehee5700]

camille louisa agreed. A lot of people are being racist to the Chinese and Japanese, Korean people where I live (Canada) and I hope people see this and realize that China isn’t an evil country

[@samsunggalaxya1323]

@@teehee5700 yes, that's more annoying than the virus itself

[@virqgo1430]

@@teehee5700 This video was made in 2018

[@maymel3601]

@@samsunggalaxya1323 umm y'all know that many viruses first came our in Europe and the USA such as the Spanish Flu (it didn't come out in Spain) so lets not be racist

[@bellagarzia9653]

mayramelikoglu I’m not supporting prejudice but, see, the coronavirus actually came from China...🥴

[@urnotfe]

the best thing about those diaries is how it shows that glowing isnt a linear path, its a cycle of ups and downs and it might get very repetetive but the point is to keep trying, and each time we start again we have yet way more experience and conclusions about things. being here since ep one and all i have to say alivia, thank you for being such an inspiration.

[@soda8624]

Instead of being jealous because I'm broke I feel inspired to do this and work to be able to do this Happiness doesn't come from what you have or not, but from how you see life. It's your choice to be jealous or motivated. It's not a hard decision.

[@swaggmaster2159]

I saw “drop out of college” and “death” and I clicked so quickly

[@blackbantan9255]

Army?

[@shivani323]

Dead inside yes😭agree user name

[@kenneseyl2819]

i’m confused, so this video was in 2018, so does that mean she went back to college 2019 or 2020?

[@blackbantan9255]

@Little Leah you stfu..I was supposed to ask her a question if she said yes..like wtf !!!!!

[@catalinaandino537]

that’s how clickbait works

[@dianamc.1274]

In the past, I couldn't imagine that you could drop out of college. Last year, I dropped out too, I was depressed and suffering from anxiety episodes so I started with therapies. It took so much time to me to take the decision but I found in my healing process that it was the bravest thing I have ever done. I'm so thankful for this video Alivia.

[@lockheart619]

How did your parents react? Im thinking about dropping out, but don't know how to tell my parents.

[@dianamc.1274]

@@lockheart619 Hi. My parents saw that I was depressed, my atittude was different because I felt that I had taken bad decisions. I received more support from my mom but they both knew I needed time to grow up, organize my ideas and goals and rest. If you need time to think and heal, go ahead, it's better to make mistakes now than in 20 years later, nobody wants to feel lost. I hope you can take a pleased decision not for others but for yourself ♡

[@kenneseyl2819]

i’m confused, so this video was in 2018, so does that mean she went back to college 2019 or 2020?

[@dianamc.1274]

@@kenneseyl2819 I think she is gonna explain us in the next episodes bc she pinned a comment when she said that she had moved into China..

[@ayoma3512]

Diana C. What was you healing process like?

[@jesvinjohn7425]

I loved the video Alivia! It was beautifully shot and gave some great advice. It's so sad to see the video's message be overshadowed by negative comments mocking your trip. I think a lot of people are forgetting that this whole series is supposed to talk about Alivia's personal glow up story. She isn't telling us that we need to hop on an international flight to glow up, she's simply sharing her own experience and what she learned from it. She even give us little steps like changing your hairstyle or trying new foods as ways to mimic some of experiences she had.

[@tiffany9895]

Y’all know she’s a KZbinr right? She’s going to have her own money she’s able to spend for herself

[@whispercat56235]

But not THAT much money, selling the illusion of "I worked for all of that myself, my parents didnt pay it" is LAME.

[@ihatenfts501]

@@whispercat56235She has a million views on multiple videos. If she turns on ads for her channel and get sponsors she could very well be earning hundreds of thousands a dollars

[@audrastump8438]

Bruh if I told my mom I wanted to drop out of college, she'd drive me to a convent, not an airport

[@hannah7000]

I think it was her sidter

[@aah-nanana7341]

I mean she's making money and financially independent anyway with education or without.

[@shakeelmemon2816]

@@aah-nanana7341 money from yt?

[@carolaquiero]

Lmaooo same😂

[@inessa5923]

@@shakeelmemon2816 What else?

[@melissahunt936]

Alivia: "I want to drop out of college" Her mom: "why don't you take a trip to Shanghai? Clear your mind a bit" Me: "I don't think I want to do college if I can't afford it and don't know exactly what I want to do" My mom: "you like McDonald's? Good."

[@Alexa-cr1vy]

that's her sister lol

[@Aline1992]

I think the phone conversation is with her sister tho.

[@astrida111]

That wasn't her mom. DUMMY

[@wonderland.5]

@@choicethetaurus nice song Choice The Taurus I really like it

[@letiziachiodini2019]

I know people are coming at you for your comment but sis you're right ahaha my parents would kick my ass and tell me to go back to study

[@eithnecarson6897]

Honestly you've inspired me so much, my country is quarantined because of coronavirus and because of your videos I'm trying to be more productive and become flexible, thank you so much and don't listen to the haters ❤️❤️

[@michellexx1214]

yeah she inspired me in so many ways.

[@carolcajaty]

Me too, I'm from Brazil and my country is quarantined too and I'm trying to be more productive too

[@rain-jw4xz]

honestly, you uploading this just motivated me to get out of bed and actually get things done. since my school closed last week i lost motivation to do anything but be in bed and watch stuff. so thank you so so much 💞💞

[@emmadinnie2216]

rain same !

[@ayoma3512]

rain same

[@rachelcape4056]

The bangs are probably the best style choice u’ve ever made. They look amazing on uuu

[@jaesuar]

i love that the one thing that stayed consistent throughout ur journey was drinking water. even though you were having a tough time with other aspects of ur journey, you were always drinking water. proud of you :)

[@aino3230]

WHEN I TELL YOU I SCREAMED AS SOON AS I SAW THIS, I AINT LYING IVE BEEN WAITING FOR SOOOO LONG OMG YESSS QUEEN IS BACK ILY SO MUCH!!!!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@franciswhatchumean7805]

same omg

[@rababsalim1037]

SJSKJSJ SAME AAAA

[@sampwassa428]

@Mya Heart good song I really like it a lot

[@sofiatkachenko7757]

I love how you film yourself growing older and developing your personality with us

[@Leikobeans]

This was kinda bittersweet to watch for me because I wish I could’ve done this when I was in college. I also felt lost and in need of change and inspiration, but my family forced me to continue studying at college. They were NOT supportive of me taking time off and I didn’t have any money to do anything otherwise. So now I have a degree and work at an unfulfilling full-time job, but it’s paying my bills so I have to appreciate it. I can’t deny that I get jealous of people like you though, people that ditched college to travel to nice countries and stay in pretty hotels and eat cute pastries to “find themselves”. And there’s people like me who had to accept reality and just muddle through all of the mundane in order to survive. Still feeling lost by the way, but now I can’t help but feel bitter too 🥀

[@Belihoney]

I get this but I did it to myself. I wasn't sure if I was going to get any support when moving out so did the sensible thing rather than what I wanted. Honestly you have to steal moments of happiness. DO take some time off to travel if you can and try out different things that can make you happy where you are now. You literally have to do small gestures that make you happy so you can stay sane!

[@alexiahernandezarce342]

I'm 18 years old and I don't feel happy with my career, neither with my school. I've talked with my parents about this many times, but they aren't helping. They think I must finish this career. Neverthless, I can't help but feel completely lost and helpless. Any tip?

[@user-hg2kd1nz4l]

Where do you think she got the money for that trip? They are called savings. She also had to work to earn that money, what happens is that she does not spend money on material nonsense things. So you start saving and a couple of years from now you can give yourself the pleasure of traveling 😘

[@user-hg2kd1nz4l]

Alex Peters If you are about to finish do not give up. You can do it. 💪🏻

[@milla9009]

@@user-hg2kd1nz4l Honestly I am pretty sure those are not savings. You just have to take a look at some of her videos to understand that she comes from a rich family

[@IM5maniac]

Hey alivia just a suggestion: it would help if you put dates or approximate dates in your videos of when these things happened

[@444fawn]

Glowing up and succcess aren’t linear. Sometimes you fall down, you fail but you learn to stand up. You keep trying and trying and eventually you get it. Love the series !!

[@민지야-l3p]

okay but your reasons behind dropping out that you stated made me realize that I was about to make a huge mistake by not telling my mum I don't want to do psychology anymore. I like it a lot but I'm not motivated and I've realized it would be really damaging on my mental health and am putting myself at risk of triggering trauma flashbacks by hearing other peoples traumas as I wanted to work in the trauma unit... What I wanna do since forever but pushed aside bc my mum doesn't want me to do it as she did it and didn't like it... It's to be a nursery and kindergarten teacher! For the lil babies uwu I'm not going to make the mistake of stressing out to go to Uni for 8 years for something I DON'T WANT because I'm afraid of my parents reaction and just do.what I want!

[@lockheart619]

I'm passionate about the field I'm in, but not enough to pursue a career in it. My parents will flip at my decision...but it's not their choice to decide, it's mine. First I actually have to tell them...😣

[@kenneseyl2819]

i’m confused, so this video was in 2018, so does that mean she went back to college 2019 or 2020?

[@kaylamorgan7308]

민지야~ I've always wanted to perform in ice shows- like Disney on ice. I'm in college now with a sport management major and I like it but it really feels like a back up to me. My first love is skating and I want to be the one performing. My coach was in icecapades when she was a skater and a couple months ago she said I could just leave college and audition now if I wanted to- and that made me really think. My parents' logic is that it's important for me to have a back up career and I think it's wise to aswell. But I don't know what I think about the idea of locking myself into a back up plan. I've thought about a gap semester just to learn more about myself but I don't know. This is coming from someone who is going to the same college her parents AND her grandmother went to.

[@savannahkrupa4424]

That is my exact situation!!!! My passion is music :) I’m good at psychology and I have a passion for it but I’m not motivated and it also brings up trauma for me as well. But I don’t know what to do in the mean time :/ apply for college and go into psychology or something else...

[@spoog314]

Same. I’m really afraid that pursuing psychology will be triggering but thankfully I have four whole years before actually doing it and I’m taking AP psych next year so I can try it out before devoting my entire career to it. Hopefully the therapy I’m doing in the meantime will help

[@fatimahalmousa1373]

The jealousy in the comments lmao. Be happy for others your time will come

[@amandaroy9331]

lol ikr. she never once said 'oh so u feel depressed and want to be mentally stable again? take a rich ass trip like me. problem solved.' she did it for herself. it's *her* glow up diary, her journey to blossoming her mind and soul. idk why is everyone so butthurt.

[@arinamor2911]

or it won’t

[@kee7374]

@@nuyataylor4885 control yourself.

[@tianfeifei5976]

Your sister is so supportive! You definitely should take a break from college, the 1st year is overwhelming and usually makes us feel lost (I'm not even in college, but my first year of high school was like this, so I can only assume it feels the same) and we need a fresh perspective on life to find what we truly want to do.

[@riverogue13]

Miku Hatsune that’s her sister

[@tianfeifei5976]

I mean at the beginning in the phone call, wasn't that her mother?

[@riverogue13]

Miku Hatsune no that’s her sister

[@lshba]

She has actually glowed up so much from the first videos and that's more motivating than the glow ups from a makeup makeover and a new hairstyle ugh oml😭❤️ she is SO inspiring

[@aelyndorren6770]

I think the message of this video is not like, "Go take a luxury trip". It's more like, "Go try something you never did, try something completely new". You can take a walk in a park you've never been to, you can start learning how to play ukulele or how to skate. Just choose something and dive in, no matter what it is. That's what I'm doing right now, and I tell you it works and it's worth trying!

[@claudia4605]

For people struggling w/ acne, you could try and use these products before considering starting accutane: 1. salicylic acid + benzoyl peroxide (do *not* mix them together. use them on alternate days) 2. differin 3. tretinoin 4. isotretinoin (accutane) I got this info from a video by Sarah Cheung.

[@Marinameyers05]

I’ve been watching this girl for years it’s been months since I watched her videos and honestly now I’m thinking I LOVE HER LIV YOU ARE AMAZING

[@angelinathomas8723]

Alivia, I don't know if you'll see this but on the chance that you might I wanted to tell you how much I appreciate this series and you in general. I've been a subscriber ever since the beginning of 2018, and you've inspired me so much. I've always wanted to lose weight and become the best me that I can be, however, I've failed too many times to count. But something changed this morning, I went and worked out for the first time in months, and I can say that I actually did push myself (I've never pushed myself this hard before). And I ate a great breakfast and then I saw your video. And I knew it was a sign that this time was different. So, thank you Alivia. Stay safe, Love you!

[@eviesampson6418]

My Grandma is from Shanghai and my dad was brought up in Hong Kong and I didn't realise how emotional i felt about someone talking about these two places (my dad's family is now in New Zealand and I haven't seen them for 8 years) until the end when you said about starting a new chapter of life there. So happy for your December 2018 self, as well as current. Thank you for all your videos as a whole as well. I started getting severe acne on my cheeks about a year ago now, and it's cleared up immensely for many reasons but my complexion is red and i have scars. Your videos inspire me and show what really matters, and also that situations and problems change or dissipate with time (and the making of good, healthy choices). Love from London

[@patriciamoradamacabulos8506]

The reason I’m proud of Alivia for taking a trip to Shanghai is because she constantly emphasises how she’s committed to leaving her comfort zone. Instead of feeling envious, know that this girl has demonstrated that she’s committed to HER journey, and this is part of it.

[@mythsologyy444]

"San Diego?" "No that's lame," Me, who lives in San Diego: :O

[@lunagutierrez169]

Ikr I'm from there too I was like okay damn

[@lizmanjarini1864]

Ouch 😢

[@sxl3698]

I think they just meant it’s too near, they wanna go somewhere further

[@mttm5043]

ALEXA M damn living in San Diego... a dream of mine.

[@sarah-khd]

They may have been there or they want to take a more...wild trip?

[@stephpowell7648]

When you are always chasing 'happiness' you will always be unhappy. Happiness is fleeting. Chase Joy instead.

[@subuleepyoo1462]

Steph Powell thank you so much for this! 💗

[@jasminevdh6375]

💗💗💗

[@hannahh.7770]

I LOVE this! You are so right. Sometimes we aren't happy doing something but it's still something we have to do. Immediate happiness isn't always the best

[@gabriellameattray9778]

Joy and happiness are the same thing. I don't understand

[@stephpowell7648]

@@gabriellameattray9778 no. Joy is the assurance that God is in control of everything. It isn't a feeling and therefore isn't fleeting. Its steadfast. Happiness is a feeling, feelings are fleeting, ever changing and not to be trusted. The sun could be shining, you have money in the bank, people who love you and everything could be right in the world yet you still don't feel happy. Or you could be happy and one small thing happens and it disappears. Happiness is fleeting, like trying to hold onto dry sand. But joy is long lasting.

[@Capturia]

Alivia brings so much light & positivity to youtube, she'd make such a great therapist as a job ♡

[@erin_the_extra2329]

she does bring light and positivity, but she has a lot of unhealthy mindsets and a long, long way to go before she’s ready to help others professionally. Even some of her videos can be harmful. Don’t get me wrong- she’s a wonderful girl. But she’s not there yet

[@Capturia]

@@erin_the_extra2329 i agree with what you said but this series hasn't ended yet so maybe the alivia in this video isn't ready to give advice, but present/future alivia might be :)

[@charlotteschneider7852]

You're such a source of motivation. I dropped out of college two years ago to study something completely different but I feel like completely myself and I learnt about what I really want to do with my life, my projects, my futur and what matters the most. Nothing is easy and you're doing great ! You deserve the best 💪

[@choleywholey2001]

I haven’t commented on anything but please don’t stop making your videos. They make me feel so differently about my attitude towards my body image and have helped me change how I go through life. Thank you for the work you put into showing your perspective, noting important things you’ve learned on the way, and making sure to keep the videos unique each time. ❤️

[@sarah8.184]

Okay I just finished watching and girl, yes it took long until this episode was uploaded, but it was worth the wait. The amout of effort put into this is crazy, and this video is so aesthetically pleasing, holy shit. You're a huge, HUGE inspiration to me, because of you I started losing weight and trying to glow up myself, so THANK YOU SO MUCH AND NEVER STOP DOING WHAT YOU'RE DOING!! 🤸‍♀️❤️😊

[@kelechionuobia3932]

I can even describe how long I've been waiting for this, thank you Alivia! :) I'm so glad this video also shows that the glow up diaries are about becoming your better self, and not just about weight loss, your diet, being healthy, etc.

[@caro7406]

There is something so special about your videos that I can‘t find anywhere else on KZbin and that makes me so addicted to your videos🙏🏼

[@Emma-nc9sn]

I rewatch this this video over and over because I relate to it so much. Like, I don't want to sound silly, but for years it's like my heart is aching, I don't feel like I am where I'm supposed to be. I've always had this desire to go to Asia, I work quite a lot and I've been doing nothing but saving up, but it's still expensive tho. But the worst part is not having anyone willing to take a trip like that with me. And I don't want to do something like that on my own. You inspire me a lot and I love your videos and mentality!

[@tc-yo6tn]

alivia... thank you. i’ve been struggling with depression as well as binge eating disorder since jan. after some major life events left me alone, to my own broken devices. i’ve had no motivation for work, school, not even my well-being. this series has given me a new perspective on life... it’s- no- you’ve inspired me to change. i remember watching you years back for inspiration (for flexibility haha) and i’m so glad i returned to your channel to find myself once again inspired by you. thank you:)!

[@sunflowersongs9403]

Me: seriously paying attention Me: Hears Shinee in the background My inner Shawol: *has entered the chat*

[@rumaisahakhlaque3028]

Wait when? timestamp?

[@sunflowersongs9403]

@@rumaisahakhlaque3028 4:23 sis

[@stopit7289]

I was literally looking for this comment. I was like “WAIT DO I HEAR SHINEE”😔😂😂

[@sunflowersongs9403]

@@stopit7289 Shawols unite 😂😂💙💙

[@kikitinsmith8119]

MEEE!

[@comelyshe4772]

I'm 27 and wtf , these videos are so dang good. Thank you for inspiring me ! I feel stuck , and maybe being stuck isn't so bad. Its the little things that move you forward.

[@lockheart619]

I like seeing other ppl comment their stories. It makes me realize that I'm not the only one going through what I'm dealing with right now. College isn't for me, but I'm still figuring out what I'm going to do if I drop out or *how* to tell my parents. I need advice, but I don't know who to turn to. Seeing other people's stories make me realize I'm not alone.

[@renuk5689]

Experienced Advice here : You should first figure out what you really like/want to do. Dont urge to drop or you will regret. And if you are clear with your thoughts on what you really want to do then you can tell your parents abt it. PS:- I also droped from BSc to persue Medicine 😇

[@sadboihrs1229]

Hope you didn't waste scholarship money just because you aren't academically qualified to succeed.

[@gemaashirley8190]

She’s literally describing my actual situation, I want to drop out of college because I’m feeling terribly lost, unmotivated, depressed... I need new perspectives, a new lifestyle, I hope I can follow her example because this identifies me so much

[@elsafernandez9851]

I always loved this series, and you Alivia in general. And it's true, most of us can't relate to wealth, and even when we save up, most of us won't be able to do what you do. But if people comment on that, then that's because they don't understand the meaning of the video. They see the money only. I think (correct me if I'm wrong) what you want to show is that sometimes, you have to leave where you are to get a better view of your situation, to think back, to find yourself again. Sometimes you're not in the right place, and you have to leave if you want to grow.

[@rebeccafadel6218]

" all it takes is just a little effort " i felt it...

[@jennyg5277]

YASSSSS I WAS LITERALLY REWATCHING THE OLDER EPISODES

[@evenpreenvoss5586]

Alivia, I absolutely love your glow up diaries! I just wish they were a bit longer. We want to see more of what you have to offer, and that doesn't necessarily mean more videos, but longer videos! Sending love to everyone at this time!!💛❤❤❤

[@tahotao4960]

When I turned 20 I decided to move to Shanghai and that is still the best decision I've took in my life. A few months later, due to coronavirus, I headed back home to France. Now, I'm just waiting for borders to reopen, and then I'll move to China again. Living there has definitely changed the way I see life

[@jaybeanzx]

How so? Tell me more!

[@okkaitlin]

I don't think the people commenting on your privilege are necessarily hating on you,, they're just pointing out how you're not very relatable. I did enjoy the video, however.

[@devikas7707]

True.. And ppl are unnecessary bashing them

[@Boba.juice04]

@kaitok omgsh are you serious? She is literally one of the most relatable people on KZbin

[@okkaitlin]

socially awkward black girl no

[@Boba.juice04]

kaitok um yeah you can't tell me this series is not relatable

[@okkaitlin]

socially awkward black girl it’s not

[@gd2425]

Imagine having the money to even consider taking an overseas trip on a whim

[@catireland13]

umuthi I was waiting for someone to comment on that, we can only work with what we got

[@lilaraulston-lappart7489]

Look at her Instagram story on "theglowupdiaries". She saves up and makes her money by herself.

[@juliaradomska2261]

@@n0ctem845 please tell me you are joking

[@Ringdingdong206]

Right!!! 🥺

[@MNeathway]

First class too

[@claudiacorona3165]

I’m literally crying my heart out 😭 I started watching this series while I was doing a semester abroad in Korea at one of the Korean Ivy League Universities (Korea University) and I just got back a few weeks ago and I realized that I miss that excitement that moves you to be more creative and in general motivated ❤️

[@jhoannahope662]

the positivity you're giving off motivates me to work on my glow up too

[@beccacast614]

Although you're younger than me I've already learned so much from this series. Every time I watch one of these videos I feel motivated to start my own glow up, but that motivation never lasts for me. I heard someone say once that motivation isn't something that comes before you start a thing, it comes after you start and the more you do the thing the more motivated you'll feel to do it (I honestly don't remember where I heard that, but if it was from this series that'd be ironic that I don't remember haha). I've also made the decision to leave my college a few months ago, but in that transition I've forgotten what it is that I want to pursue in the future. So, hopefully while I'm stuck at home during my quarantine, with nothing to do but better myself, I'll find myself along the way and finally continue my own glow up. Thank you Alivia for inspiring not only me, but many other people to start their own glow ups

[@sushitalks6045]

That convo was so heartwarming, it’s so good that your family is supportive of your personal growth and not just educational

[@leja9998]

I thought she wrote 'i lost my virginity at the night club' at first lmao

[@jksartstudy1001]

😂😂

[@JingYou922]

Isnt that the same meaning as what she wrote? im so confused did she just o.o

[@shilohcara9479]

I thought the same thing, my heart dropped a bit and I had to go back and replay it Lol

[@MsLivinglegend19]

jingyou she said “lost my nightclub virginity” because she visited a nightclub for the first time, assuming that’s bc the legal age there is 18, not 21 like it is in America

[@JingYou922]

@@MsLivinglegend19 owhhh i see thanks

[@randomdude4212]

Ugh Im lowkey frustrated that everything is from 2018 like i wanna know what she is going thru noww

[@imintheghettoratatata4850]

You will see it in the season 2 of the Glow Up Diary

[@fwthien]

Well after she moved out of college, she went on to move into an apartment of her own as an independent young adult. She was very happy, healthy and free from stress. Making her own money and living. Trying to seek something or maybe already found a passion for learning new things. But then corona came and she had to move back into her parents house.

[@angelnumbers7718]

She still uploads videos tho, all these are past videos that she edited later. The next season will come out in October 2020

[@josephjoseph9944]

I know these jokes r getting a bit over done but... "I needed to move, leave home, shuffle my surroundings and wake up in a new place" - the virus

[@randomperson-py5ze]

This video was made two years ago?

[@esh4-]

i'm so happy for her :') the last one minute of the video made my heart so happy.

[@tobygrunwald4852]

The efforts spent on each video are clear, seriously Alicia has the best content on here

[@tobygrunwald4852]

Alivia

[@jasnapamulova2787]

Just for a moment imagine being able to have enough money to travel like this. Wow. Makes me happy. Beautiful video Alivia!

[@rashelchahine9948]

Me when I need to clear my mind: goes on a walk around the block Alivia: books a first class ticket to Shanghai lol

[@stina6780]

Same haha😂

[@D.monatethesugar]

I just eat food to clear my mind

[@Boba.juice04]

You can do anything to clear your mind, she's told us that many times throughout this series

[@AHC1801]

Alivia, you’re such an inspiration, I love you so much 🖤🖤

[@nedavarbanova1999]

I cant tell you how thankful i am that you started these episodes, they really changed me for the better, they showed me how to live healthier, happier and to appreciate all the little moments in life. You showed me how to live my live fully. Love you❤❤❤

[@zzzbhdshjer]

bruh you have no idea how many peoples' way of thinking and thus lives overall you are changing with these videos

[@lavenderblossom4774]

“Life is limited. Take chances. Show your love.” - Alivia 2018 This is my new favorite quote!

[@pinkcake9242]

This is my favorite episode, because it looks like she is already glowed up

[@tinazheng9241]

This is the type of video where I would rewatch over and over again. Thank you for the upload!!

[@maverickblaze2777]

This girl is pushing me to live my life and be a better person!!! God bless you🤍

[@grievingnsurviving]

U are my #1 idol here on KZbin and coming across one of your videos one day when I was on the brink of giving up gave me hope and the will to change my life. It was probably one of the most life changing moments, having met someone like u so THANK U SO MUCH FOR THAT. Though I have to be honest I admit watching u with this video and some other videos before that at times when I can see that u have the resources and the capacity to do and get what u need, to be better, there was this constant feeling of being SMALL AND BEING HOPELESS. When u badly want to change too but its so hard when u barely have anything. I'm raised differently and I don't have the same privileges like you. I know you are living independently right now and I'm happy and proud of u for that. But not everybody has supportive parents, the financial capability, people around u to fully support u, to even have money in the first place to save up. We don't have that choice. We don't have certain capabilities no matter how much we want to. Some of us don't even have money to AIDE OR TO ASK FOR HELP for our depression, insomnia and other things. I for one don't even have the basic necessity to have a phone to record my progress and and help me earn to get certain things to aide me to be better, having a platform like this to inspire other people. A few months ago in the beginning of college my phone was stolen and I don't have the money to buy one. Just imagine not having that while I'm studying and we're at the time where technology is almost a necessity for living and education. My father won't provide one because we're already too busy to pay bills and support the education and living of me and my siblings. I already don't have a mom so its just us. I'm the eldest in the family and in our culture, taking care of yourself more than others is considered selfish and just being self absorbed. Wanting to do something for myself and welfare is very hard because I have a lot of other things to take care about and it's just impossible at times with everything that is going on. I don't have the luxury and capacity to somehow change my situation on how I want to live my life or pursue my dreams because first and foremost I don't have that choice. I have to earn for my family and I have a lot of obligations me being the eldest it's expected that I have to take care of my family now that I am of legal age. In my case I really have to earn to get things that I want. I'm in college right now and I keep trying to be better but there are just some things that no matter how hard I try a lot of things get in the way a lot are that of things I have no control of. Different situations and circumstances that really impact our lives. It's all different for a lot of us. I'm not saying all of this to gain sympathy or for other people to pity me or my situation, what I'm saying is that I'm not the only going through a lot of things some may even have it worse. It's gonna be ok and don't lose hope. Don't feel negative and put down when ur seeing things u might not have the luxury to have now. Let's make it our motivation to strive harder and not give up in our lives. You can do it! Brush up the hopelssness and being nonmotivated it'll get better. This isn't me hating or bashing but just wanna thank u and asking just a bit of consideration because really its not your fault that u had and still have those privelages. I just think u should be more sensitive about your content to be more inclusive because us all here we're supporting u and your craft. We look u for motivation and to feel we're not alone in this. We love u so much Alivia, I think I can speak for a lot of people here that we owe a lot to u just by seeing u be u :) I'm here trying to start my own journey yet again haha for the many times I tried and failed. I WILL NOT GIVE UP AND HOPEFULLY SOMEDAY I CAN SHARE MY EXPERIENCES AS WELL. For those of u trying to find someone to share to and just someone u could be with in this journey I'm here let's help each other out! YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT! :)

[@juztinegazmen9717]

I love you Alivia, you are such an inspiration in my life. You are the best youtuber for me. You made me realize my mistakes and how to live life. Keep doing what you do, because what you do always inspire people

[@zoejaquith5128]

You looked extremely happy over the course of this trip. I'm glad that you took this time to enjoy the city of Shanghai (I've never been there but it looks like a beautiful and interesting place) and enjoy yourself. It seemed that you took this time for self-healing and you let yourself eat the food, explore the places, buy the things you liked, etc.. I wish the best for you in the future years to come!

[@michellexx1214]

hey alivia, i just wanted to say that your videos are so inspiring and helpful. It made me realize a couple things and ireally appreciate it :). your progress shows that a glow up isnt a facemask and taking a bath. Its more than that. Its a long progress with mistakes and pain. Thank you for showing the reality, Shelly

[@charlotteh2907]

Honestly I've been watching your videos since like December, I'm not in a good place in my life right now, due to a combination of things that are and that are not in my control. When I watch your videos you inspire me to find that motivation I need to get out of bed and do something even if it is just a small task . I hope you know how much you inspire me and other people. ❤️

[@magdamadejska1521]

This series is just getting better and better. It's amazing to see such an honest and genuine glow up of someone so close to your age. You should definitely be proud of yourself. Cannot wait for the next episode.

[@Ashley-pt7hh]

I know how we are watch her grow along with this series but I can’t help but notice how much her editing has changed and in my opinion improved

[@dailahofma6101]

Omg i waited soo long for this episode

[@annabell648]

Same!

[@lilly29]

Same

[@ahmedshahid5272]

Me tooo

[@custercutie307]

Same!!

[@azucena_teran]

Shanghai is such a dream 🤍 I studied abroad there and I miss my time in the city everyday ✨

[@junenewton598]

i feel like its okay to indulge in life like this sometimes.... the noise can be to overpowering its nice to wind down and i feel like these kinds of trips are the ones you remember, They center and re-ground you when you feel so lost.... alivia be kind to yourself and take your time enjoy life

[@garoti8241]

You are one of the few KZbinrs that still keep shit real. Thanks God that KZbin helps me find you....keep up with the good work girl! ❤️

[@fernandabritto5526]

When I saw you at the Hyatt I almost cried. I went to China in such a weird moment of my life and fell in love with it. Shanghai is beautiful. Made me feel so good. Glad you enjoyed it.

[@mangospapayas6688]

This video really reminded me of some current life goals. I’m just about to start my freshman year of college, and I realize that I need to go for myself. I want to pursue animation. And I know it will be really hard, but seeing Alivia take action towards her own dreams makes me want to work towards mine. I also really want to travel and see the world. So this kinda ignited a flare of determination to land a good job so I can save up money and travel the world when I’m older. I would love to experience so many new cultures, foods, music, and living styles.

[@fatemanusrat8939]

All I can think is: She looked amazing here! Seeing how graceful and advanced her moves are, and how she persisted in working out everyday, it scares me. If she still struggled with weight loss at this point, I don't know how far I can go with my beginner level moves and workout routine and still without doing any portion control. I don't eat a ton of unhealthy junk food but I do eat a lot. I don't feel satisfied until I have consumed a decent amount of complex carbs. I eat large portions of breads and rice everyday because otherwise I don't feel full and get hungry quicker. On the other hand, I only walk for an hour, do a 10 min cardio, 10 min stretching and 15 min strength training. That's all. If Alivia struggled even after eating so less on 'normal' days, how the hell am I gonna lose weight with no restrictions on food and so little workout?? 😰

[@chefalisha]

It s a brave decision but it is so important to do what you feel is right for you. I did it a few years ago. I left my university to become a pastry chef. And now i own my own luxury pastry shop making high end cakes for amazing clients and earning money with what i love most and what makes me happy. Keep going and listen to your heart, no one knows what is the right or wrong decision beforehand, you just have to figure it out. And if it turns out to have been a mistake just try to make the best of the situation and do some damage control. Thats just life❤️

[@prettychidi]

I can't express my gratitude enough to you. I want to say thank you for starting the Glow Up series. You inspired me to start my own channel and I hope to reach and help as many people as you do through your videos. Thank you for showing your hardships in life as many people have related to them and have solace through them.

[@martyna______6]

Ahhh I'd love to have the option to just fly to another continent when I feel like I need it...

[@hiiii2873]

WWWhow does she have the money?

[@varelabelsoffical]

Work for it. Get the money. And go.

[@martyna______6]

@@varelabelsoffical Who said I don't work for it? It's just not that simple if your family is not wealthy to begin with ;) Come on, I like Alivia's channel and I've been a subscriber for a long time, but some things are just obvious and the fact that she had it easier from the start doesn't take away the fact that she works hard and deserves what she'd earned.

[@varelabelsoffical]

@@martyna______6 Yes but as Alivia stated, she did not have any financial support from her parents, she worked for her money, meaning your parents don't have to be wealthy to begin with. :)

[@martyna______6]

@@varelabelsoffical If your family is wealthy, it gives you way more that just money. It gives you the feeling of stability, mental calmness and is basically a safety net. Of course at this point in her career Alivia has some financial stability of her own so she doesn't need it, but I bet it was comforting at the beginning. Money always helps.

[@avaelizabeth140]

I absolutely adore this journey you’re sharing with us. It’s so human and down to earth, it actually is helping me find my way through my own struggles. Thank you so so much!!!

[@viparmy7238]

If I tell my parents that I want to drop out college and go for somewhere abroad, they won't allow me and absolutely roast me. You're lucky about that Alivia. I'm happy for u.

[@randomperson-py5ze]

Thank you for saying that. Some people try to make her feel guilty for being wealthy. But she worked hard for it and earned it from KZbin?

[@Zionga]

this made me remember last summer and how I left a prestigious high school I was at for 4 years (3 years of junior high and one year of senior high) to pursue my dreams. I ended up going to the art school I wanted to go to for three years but didn’t go after graduating middle school/junior high. I stayed there for people that in the end stopped talking to me and turned their backs against me. I wasn’t the best artist so I practiced so much and ended up getting in the top 10 at the entrance exams for my degree and got in! I’m now a very happy 1st year animation student and I’ve made friends that won’t let me down. I’m proud of you Livy! And myself too 🖤

[@laughing_allthewayhome5922]

Alivia, or anyone on accutaine be hyper vigilant about any and all the symptoms you are feeling, got diagnosed with major depression, had unwanted thoughts of suicide all while having in my opinion a perfect life. Doctors ignored my cry that I knew it was the medication but they kept me on. Luckily I got help but no joke within weeks of completing accutaine I couldn’t stop crying because I realized the way I felt was not me at all. Be careful please don’t ignore your body while on that crazy medication. Sending this with nothing but love❤️