TRYING NEW MAKEUP & reading your CONFESSIONS | NEW MUFE, Milk Makeup, KVD & HUDA Mercury Retrograde

[@dw7896]

Kackie, I just want you to know that so many things you've talked about today are things I'm struggling with: finishing undergrad while burnt out, the world going to ruin, so much anxiety and self hatred, and when you said "look at yourself the way Jonathan Van Ness would on Queer Eye" I actually burst into tears. Right now, at this point of not knowing what my passion is, not knowing what my next moves are, not even liking myself right now, absolutely terrified of being a failure, your wise words are everything I needed to hear and more. Thank you for being you xxxx

[@SaplingTarot]

There's a whole bunch of strangers on the internet here cheering you on, we think you are beautiful and you've got this. Life comes at you in ebbs and flows and while you may not know your passions and direction right now if you keep getting up and putting one foot in front of the other, I promise you'll get to the good stuff.

[@andreapoulieva6717]

Hey Kackie. Thank you so much for this. I truly needed it. These chatty, deep, emotional GRWMs are giving me life. I'm struggling so bad, like so so many of us, between being a good mom to two wonderful little girls, being a present spouse, being an efficient and thrusworthy social worker, a citizen, a daughter, a sister, a friend...i don't fucking know who I am anymore, i am so...fragmented. Watching you discuss these vital, albeit heavy topics, is like yoga for the minds, it makes me see things clearer, feel better, take in more air, easier. That is so precious to me. Invaluable. Thank you ❤

[@kackie]

wow thank you!

[@Dporvida]

These past few videos you’ve done have legit made me love your content so much more. I don’t feel so alone with my feelings and how out of mind I feel like. Things are nuts, and it’s okay not to feel okay. Protecting your peace is so huge. 💜

[@hannahlapham4638]

I am still taking one step at a time to put my own happiness above others expectations of me, or even my own expectations. In even the small ways like growing my makeup collection and being content with that being a new little hobby for me. (I grew up as the typical "not like other girls" girl because everyone in my circle criticized makeup, and I felt like I had to also) Now, I feel like I have learned a whole knew way to express myself and I LOVE IT and I feel so me. Art is an undervalued connection with ourselves and a healthy release of whatever energy is bottled up inside you. I love that when I am having a gloomy January I wear nothing but dark clothes and grungy smokey eyes. Then when I am having a joyful March, I can also rock a bright pink lip gloss and a cute feminine sweater. Art as seen from someone not creating may see it as something that artists just do. But as an artist when you are creating you realize it is something you MUST do. No one else is going to express YOUR emotions.

[@AKbaby89]

To be totally honest, I was about to dip out because of the miscarriage warning (I had to have a hysterectomy at 25, and the only pregnancy I had, ended in miscarriage) but then you said "eating a whole lemon, rind and all" and I can't go now, I need to hear about this

[@Gorditavont33se]

This absolutely fed my soul. I love how your videos can go down an unexpected path and really get me thinking about important things-and things I’ve been avoiding. Your presence on this platform is a gift.

[@TheJordandean]

I switched careers and went back for a BSN in nursing at 29. I was an insurance adjuster before that and after a few years I just knew it wasn’t something I’d be happy doing forever. It was 18 months of intense retraining for this former English major, but I found my calling as a hospice nurse and am a much happier human being.

[@kackie]

awww hospice nurses are actual angels among us. you are so special.

[@TheClairelikescats]

Thank you for being a hospice nurse. My grandmother was in hospice care before she passed, and now my grandfather is too. He has the sweetest hospice nurse, and it truly makes a world of a difference. I'm sure you're making a difference for so many patients and families too. ❤

[@TheJordandean]

@@TheClairelikescats thank you, that’s very sweet of you.

[@Vtrains]

I feel the same way about war. You articulated EXACTLY my sentiments around learning about war, its history, and how it’s correlated with the fragile male ego. Thank you for saying this out loud 💙💛

[@kackie]

it has never computed for me. i watched gone with the wind as a kid and i couldn't get past the young mens' eagerness to go to war. I COULDN'T PROCESS IT.

[@elizabethrose00]

Yesss same here! Such a great explanation. I’ve never been able to articulate it either, but money, power, and fragile male egos- yep.

[@raye3630]

i love listening to you talk. when you started talking about the miscarriage topic, it relieved me knowing someone else had the experience of your body literally screaming “get pregnant” in the midst of feeling like it was my fault that pregnancy did not come to term even though i was doing everything “right” even though there is no right besides the most obvious line of not using drugs or drinking while pregnant. thank you for sharing on such an extremely heavy topic

[@kaitlynstewart7672]

Weird take: I love when glittery eyeshadow falls onto your undereye mole and turns it into an eye gem thing

[@melaniemerkosky]

“I’m in the mood to be cute but I feel like *all of this* needs to come together” is the most relatable thing I’ve heard this year so far. 💕

[@brittanycook836]

can't wait to see your Hindash review!

[@Alicia.Marie.13]

We need these more often. I'm so glad I'm not alone... I call it the big sad but like... it's just everything. Also, I had 10 miscarriages before I finally put my foot down and said IM DONE trying. Do I want kids? Yes. Do I ever want to experience another MC again? NO... They are so traumatic and for 6 years I couldn't even hear a baby cry without a panic attack. We ended up adopting our son from fostercare and if we decide we want another child it will be adoption. Things are heavy for so many of us...

[@kackie]

wow that's SO MUCH. thank you for sharing that, and i cannot even imagine. congrats on your adoption, too

[@Alicia.Marie.13]

@@kackie Thank you! He is amazing 👏 😍 ❤️ and I don't think I could possibly love him more! I'm so glad to be done trying though. It was such a relief!

[@gracem16]

Thank you for this long video! Your GRWMs are my fave 😊

[@lisagiannoumis3816]

I'm so glad to see this video, the world is a heavy and depressing place right now, these kind of videos always help my mood...plus I'm excited for new makeup!

[@meghanm2904]

Thanks for this discussion. I read a quote recently that really helped me process the big heavy helpless feelings: “It can be overwhelming to witness/experience/take in all the injustices of the moment; the good news is that *they’re all connected.* So if your little corner of work involves pulling at one of the threads, you’re helping to unravel the whole damn cloth.“ -Ursula Wolfe-Rocca.

[@Cwagify]

I needed to hear this today. So many words of wisdom packed in this nifty little video. Thank you. 💗

[@justilou1]

I can verify the über fertility after miscarriage theory. Sending much empathy to this woman. I have had five miscarriages in total. Two before my eldest, who is almost 18, then three more - including twins. Directly after the last loss, I said that I was willing to give it one more try only. My twins are nearly 16. It’s an overwhelming and frightening choice to make but also brave no matter which decision you go with. I absolutely applaud you for knowing your feelings on this subject, and want to assure you that they’re normal and logical.

[@anaaguilar7951]

This was a perfect way to get ready in the morning before I head to work. Thank you Kackie 💕 sending everyone so much love and motivation on this day.

[@liz54321]

Do not feel bad giving your kiddo medicine for pain, when they say they need it. Mine takes Tylenol often because they need it. I remember needing it for the same reason mine does, ( at around the same age) and just being told I was fine. You're little one being able to rely on you, to help with their pain, is one of the greatest things you can give them.

[@susanshapiro2044]

That blue eyeshadow look was an absolute disaster, but boy did I love watching you struggle through it. Is that evil, I’m not sure? Also, I think you are the most articulate, emotionally intelligent and interesting person I watch on a regular basis.

[@SJ-dl6uc]

I think we all need some "bum'n out" distraction rn. the least we can do is to bear witness and acknowledge the reality of it. we've enabled this situation, and we've also done it in middle east. I have faith that people would want to acknowledge these atrocities and that they, also, would want to do better and be better.

[@serraapple]

Always love and appreciate your advice!!! 💓💓💓

[@mery_vc]

Soooo excited to follow this project😍✨

[@lemonrose1254]

I really might want to get the face glaze 🥺 ughhh it just looks amazing! Also I love that you try to make blue work on your eyes, I appreciate the experimentation and constant working to see what you can do! I’m super excited to see you try the monochromance palette because I just know that blue is gonna be interesting, Also the purple in that pallet turns more warm red violet from what I’ve seen.

[@biogirl1381]

thank you so much for making this video. i was honestly afraid to submit my confession on your ig, so i didn’t. i wish i would’ve because maybe i’d feel better after getting your insight. my heart aches for everything going on in the world. i’m sending love to everyone and just know that i even if i don’t know you, i love you as a human being. awesome video and i hope these happen more often. ps… i love kelly gooch and would love to meet the both of you and hlp someday, when i’m no longer in a wheelchair.

[@janelleespinosa6247]

You are doing the right thing by at least helping him with motrin or Tylenol bc they have such inflammation from teething, don't worry about what other people say, I will never just sit and watch my son have pain and do nothing. I think you are exactly right!

[@rachaelhmack]

We are “one and fun.” No regrets. He is the coolest kid ever and I absolutely adore our family.

[@joni6178]

Could totally tell you curled your eyelashes 🤩

[@briannagandersen]

Wow! You really saved it at the end there with that eye look! Looks beautiful! Thanks for being you!!! 🥳

[@lizschott799]

I vote yes for the curled lashes!

[@melliedavis2193]

I’ve been looking forward to Kackie: the Movie! Good talk ❤️

[@nataliec.9524]

Thanks for helping me get through my work day!

[@karolynanderson2033]

Ooof, I’m ready for blue eyeshadow, but maybe fully unprepared for the heavy hitter conversation topics… 😬

[@kackie]

and that is OKAY! protect your energy.

[@Beautyonthebrain_]

Your discussion about politics and being able to filter is the reason that I changed majors in college. I was a political science major intending to go to law school and fight for women’s equality in the workplace as well as access to reproductive healthcare. And I got so angry at the results of the 2004 election that I decided I didn’t want that to be my life. I switched to an art major, which made me much happier going forward, but I am still very in tune to what’s going on politically because I have to be. As nasty and dirty as it is, politics affects everybody. We don’t get a choice in that. Now here I am 20 years later, permanently disabled, feeling stuck at home and unable to escape a lot of the stuff that drains me mentally. I think I’m in a really dark place right now.

[@fibromiteready2fight809]

As a teen with a chronic illness, I feel similar. My whole life is being put on pause because the government, the cdc, and everyday people don’t seem to think it’s worthy of existing. Can’t see my friend, or even go outside that much, because I live in highly populated New York City. My little brother is going to be homeschooled soon because my mother is already high risk, I’m trying to figure out if I have autoimmune diseases, and even still, Long Covid is a risk to everyone, including kids, and non of us want that. I don’t know if this was your situation, but I was very isolated before covid as well, due to my chronic pain and dizziness, so it’s a double gut punch. My sincerest sympathies.

[@Beautyonthebrain_]

@@fibromiteready2fight809 I live in a suburb of Columbus Ohio, so I have a yard. My mom is higher risk than I am for Covid, so I had to take on running errands to make sure we had everything we needed. I’m celiac, so I usually hit up 4-5 grocery stores.. if I had the mental & physical energy to do so. For me it’s not so much the isolation, as it is feeling like a slug & a parasite. I can’t function without the financial help of my mom & the emotional support of my boyfriend. I hate relying on others for everything. I’m working through the process of applying for disability, but it’s a major pain in the ass to prove that I’m disabled enough to receive the monetary help that I need to relieve some of the financial burden from my mom. As if that wasn’t enough, I have a younger brother who just bought a house with his girlfriend & is thriving. While I’m happy for him, I’m jealous & frustrated in that will never be something I’m able to do. I can’t even think about marrying my boyfriend because I’ll lose my healthcare as well as any disability benefits I may qualify for.

[@fibromiteready2fight809]

@@Beautyonthebrain_ yeah, the situation rn just sucks. So completely done with it all. You have my sympathies.

[@kathygoertz1065]

Thanks Dr. Kackie, I needed this.

[@hijennwu]

haha that turquoise shade is why i’m not about that palette 😂. but i’m excited about rose quartz!

[@AKbaby89]

I'm 32 now, and my miscarriage happened when I was 23, and had to have a hysterectomy at 25, and ovary removal at 27. I still haven't fully processed my miscarriage, or even my hysterectomy yet. I'm still completely broken hearted over both. At this point, I don't think I'll ever not be broken hearted about it.

[@AKbaby89]

Omg THANK YOU!! You saying "I have my sunscreen on" reminded me that I don't have my sunscreen on and I need to go do that😂😂

[@lisadgingersnaps9843]

I'll say it. Retail therapy CAN be a healthy response to global pandemics and massive atrocities on our planet. Especially if it includes glitter eyeshadow. 💋

[@kellywatts6227]

Some brilliant advice from a very intelligent young woman, thank you Kackie you help more than you know, encouraging the best life for others and great steps to start the journey.👌btw I love Donnie Darko one of my faves of all time. As far as Ukraine the world is throwing out an abundance of pain and it's only natural to want to avoid it after so much exposure. I don't feel like I can really help tbh I feel a bit useless if that makes sense. Xo

[@brittbillok]

I just got the KVD concealer and LOVE it!

[@kackie]

it's so good! and different. it doesn't just feel like a dupe for something else in my collection.

[@raye3630]

side note- did not think you’d be able to save the eye look until you added the danessa Milky Way😂 i soooo wish i could even do a no buy but i can’t even sad shop bc i’m broke. if you have makeup you don’t want SEND IT MY WAY 😅🤣😫

[@TracyD2]

You can walk away from parents and adult children if they are toxic but leave room for them to come back if they truly change their ways.

[@elizabethrose00]

Loved your aside about having no tolerance for war, because SAME. Ugh. Thank you for sharing your thoughts

[@jerrijones09]

Do another one of these videos. So maybe I can submit mine. I chickened out. It turned out really well

[@breckpeabody1473]

Your manifestation comment makes me think of my momś favorite golf advice - ïf you dońt aim the ball, the ball will go where it wants to go with or without yoü

[@jojobeth]

While I think you look gorgeous, I’m also grateful to you for validating my inability to make that palette work (as someone who also got sucked in by the markdown!)

[@shearsparkle]

On babies teething, I had one who just was smooth sailing& one like Simon. I recently have been having a wisdom tooth coming in that got left in. At the time of my wisdom tooth extractions this one was all of my jaw but like a few millimeters. I understand the teething. How all tiny humans aren’t screaming always…I’ll never know. This hurts! 😫

[@kackie]

tooth pain is THE WORST

[@sugaCat363]

Your Jonathan Van Ness comment was so on point! He would say that everyone is beautiful and I would believe him dammit!!!

[@ashleytune1598]

Do you have any recs for bright blue or turquoise eyeshadows you WOULD recommend since it seems like you probably wouldn't recommend that palette? I love how that looks, and it's been sooo long since I've experimented with makeup. 💜

[@kackie]

The UD eyeshadow sticks are SO underrated, and they have amazing blues. The shade "betty" from thrive is a shimmery blue that is so easy to use. I combined them in a video awhile back. Look for "trying new makeup: bite beauty, Patrick ta, thrive BEBs" and you can see the combo in action!

[@ashleytune1598]

@@kackie thank you so much!

[@sunshineliz5297]

My ideal day is not working at all, lol. I just want to be a mom and take naps.

[@thingsbytheberk]

I appreciate you ❤️

[@thingsbytheberk]

Ok I’m dying 😂😂 I met Kelly back in 2019 and the first words out of my mouth were, you hair looks just as good in person 😅😅

[@0107wj]

I love youuuuuu kackieeeeeee

[@AKbaby89]

Wait whaaat?! I ordered the Item Beauty blush in oopsies, the concealer, and another lip gloss, and they just shipped out this morning. I cant believe its not a cream blush?! Honestly I might just not even open it and return it, ive really only worn cream blush for the last year or two, so I really don't want any powder blushes 😔 I'm so bummed

[@rachaelr7567]

For me the best affirmation was starting a tiktok. I had no idea other people saw that version of me and it makes me sad that I hated myself instead of seeing who I was.

[@javius2000]

Great talk!

[@addictedtoelf]

I felt the same way after my miscarriage! I had this weird intuition that it wouldn't last and I felt like it was my body being so confused like, "wait, you sure girl??" Lol and same thing as you, got pregnant immediately after and now I'm 7months. I've never heard someone else describe it that way but I so agree

[@kackie]

Right?? I mean it makes sense it would be uncommon since there are SO MANY WAYS these things can go, but I'm glad it resonated with you and that your current pregnancy is going well!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@StateofKait]

hahahaha I have the same trigger warning going up in a video (that I may or may not post because it's SO heavy.) I was just like...."trigger warning for ALL of the things"

[@augustmoonrae5407]

I was sent the Make up Forever foundation and it was SO heavily perfumed that I had to wash it off right away.

[@kackie]

wow I didn't even notice it, but smelled it when you just said that and YEAH. how did i miss that??

[@amandapopandkiss122]

I don’t always agree with you and that’s OK. But what I appreciate is that you have a way of addressing issues from a birds eye view - philosophically not ideologically. I think that’s why I don’t feel unwelcome on your channel just because I may ultimately have a different opinion on certain topics. I say that because I do sometimes feel unwelcome on other channels.

[@kackie]

that means a lot to me, thank you!

[@whostolethepenguins9549]

I still can’t believe evolution let us develop teeth after being born. the teething stage is crazy to see

[@jerrijones09]

Teenagers are worse than toddlers. Toddlers even listen better. Imagine that. I miss toddlers. A toddler may physically wear u down down or even injury u. A teenage will break your heart beyond repair daily. ☠️ they are ruthless

[@cindicleee]

💗💗💗💗

[@jennmyershowell7938]

What's the name of your mom's yarn store? I'd love to add it to my list to check out!

[@martinaslivova6339]

Hm, That palette 🎨 is not that exciting as I expected . The blue not your think, pssst 🤫 p.s: did you wash 🧼 it off after turning off the camera 🎥 ?

[@nkurdy288]

Um, please do another look with the Mercury Palette but please don’t use that turquoise 😂. On a serious note, I loved what u said about affirmations and how without them we fill up the space with downers and negativity.

[@andiehaddad6509]

IT'S ME I'M LEMON GIRL I LOVE YOU TOO!! lol I'm in to lemons

[@kackie]

ME TOO 🥲🥲🥲😂

[@andiehaddad6509]

@@kackie your content makes me so happy, just the right touch of chaos. I found you because I was learning to do my makeup for my wedding, but even now that it's happened (yay married!!), I just love your vibes

[@AKbaby89]

My ex husband signs me up for all the spam emails, calls, and texts. He's so dumb though, he always uses his name and my number/email, so they always say Mr Cadiente🤣

[@erinbee1427]

I assumed the new version of the ultra HD would be just as bad as the first. I have dry skin and I bought the original when it was popular because everyone said it was so good. NOT GOOD AT ALL! Hated every second of it.

[@SaucerJess]

💙💛🥰💛💙

[@becm963]

I had a miscarriage right out of the gate. I got pregnant again right away. We took a break because we just wanted to enjoy being parents. Then, we decided to try for a second. I got pregnant again right away. My husband has super sperm.

[@cindicleee]

❤️❤️❤️