Upsilon Dies Backwards

[@michael0158]

Moral of story: Horses are alcoholics.

[@angelamugan5579]

async damn it I was gonna say that

[@temorsdfg8620]

Does that mean I'm a horse?

[@skaterduck2389]

that's a bojack reference

[@LiveLaughLasagnæ]

Wrong; horses aren't real

[@ChineduOpara]

​@@LiveLaughLasagnæ Neither are birds

[@iaintevengonholdyou]

When Oliver said “hehhhh” and Agatha then replied “hmmmh” I really felt that

[@soaringred882]

Jaydyn M that’s me trying to have a conversation with literally anyone

[@smirky-shrugs]

I loved this Soo much. I think I got something out of/understood about 80% of it... My mum: refused to listen to more than two minutes of it. If she would have listened to it in its entirety, she would have understood none of it, gaining nothing more than a headache.

[@dfwai7589]

@@smirky-shrugs multiple rewatchs, I'm on my 5th and still only got 70-80%

[@ffejpsycho]

Felt it...? Where exactly did the video touch you? Show us on this doll....

[@xrai.]

@@ffejpsycho that went underappreciated

[@amoghskulkarni]

I'm in a weird superposition of understanding this video and being utterly confused by it.

[@dimitar4y]

thats its purpose. Being convoluted, to twist your brain, challenge it.

[@hannibustoogfyrre6074]

Welcome to Exburb1a?

[@Jumptownwore]

If you understood it, you haven't grasped it;)

[@jeretoon8350]

Here’s the way the story connects: Oliver story is connected because their body shares molecules with dead upsilon The animal bar are the dreams of Zeus and Oliver Upsilon, the star is the son of Zeus and Athena Human on the ship tells the story of Zeus meeting Athena

[@faerhazar939]

You mean... Nyhghegeggeeh?

[@justinblin]

A surrealist fantasy, sci-fi horror, modern romance, and philosophical rambling all rolled into one coherent story

[@cambridgehathaway3367]

*incoherent

[@NoriMori1992]

"Coherent" is a bit of a stretch 😂

[@justinblin]

The most basic story is a time loop. Onboard a futuristic ship, Zeus the AI kills everyone but one person when he meets a lovecraftian nebula creature and creates Upsilon, a god-like star creature who restarts the universe and causes the Big Bang in his suicide. After billions of years, Oliver and Agatha are two humans entirely composed of atoms that were once part of Upsilon. Oliver is a coder who makes Zeus (he might also be the grandfather in the Rememberer), and Oliver’s and Agatha’s grandchild (who might be the grandchild who left in the Rememberer) is the one person Zeus spares as a sacrifice to the nebula. The talking animals are the parts of Oliver’s mind (id, ego, and super ego) separated in his dreams that influence his creation of Zeus.

[@Unknown-qg9nj]

@@justinblin now tell me the truth isnt this you exurb1a?

[@lumpyspaceprincess6335]

Yep, I was about to ask what was I watching

[@WarFant]

Someone: inception is too complex and hard to understand Exurb1a: hold the horse's beer

[@CodyBunker]

*vodka Collins

[@anandagaire5929]

Bulgarian Science juice🥤

[@drunkshinx]

Hold the pelican's fish

[@CerealExperimentsMizuki]

Whoever thinks that is an idiot, it's a great and fun movie but it's not really that complicated.

[@wendigo9078]

Pulp fiction but make it abstract

[@jakeseward499]

“I forgot you weren’t forever, and now you’re gone forever” -Exurbia 2019

[@n0ot977]

Do you want a hotdog?

[@sundance1879]

damn

[@MrDnbfreak]

That bit makes me chock each time

[@johnclark6999]

too busy being young, dont get caught up

[@LittleNoiseBoy]

The chokingly bitter truth delivered with the minimalist precision of a Haiku. I instantly cried this Christmas day as I missed my Mum so badly in that moment. Thanks for helping us all see the grandeur of the wider picture, the beauty amidst the absurdity of life...

[@paulgarcia2887]

Looks like exurb1a accidentally uploaded all his videos for the year

[@nathana7235]

*the decade

[@louisjacobmoon]

It read on his will "if I die, upload all the videos I had ready"

[@fozza1051]

@@louisjacobmoon did he pass away?

[@Kit_Cake]

Fozza Unfortunately, he was never with us.

[@l.s.3976]

Do you want him to upload more? If so why? I rhimk take it as it comes and appreciate it, If your comment was just was a joke: haha funny, like it.

[@williamponce4052]

The dog disliking Pavlov was comedic genius.

[@deluxetoaster3991]

🤣

[@mojo2968]

👍

[@Fightre_Flighte]

And liking the works of comrade Laika.

[@NondescriptMammal]

You can't not like Laika, Laika is too likable

[@abhijanwasti7991]

exurb1a : *uploads KZbin video with extreme existential crisis and nihilism* Also exurb1a: Category Comedy

[@chinese_t1920]

Raul Ramirez hence the category of “comedy”

[@wargen8121]

what if.. Life is a tragedy when seen in close-up, but a comedy in long-shot. - Charlie Chaplin what if.

[@OmegaTrooper]

But is nihilism but the comedy of life?

[@mariamatedei]

Why the long face?

[@pepprpaste]

9:28 "Pelican says 'oh fuck o- Barman says 'it's getting light" *idk seems like comedy to me.*

[@kittenlord3572]

- Is 3 alot? - Depends on context. Dollars? No. Exurb1a's videos in a row? Yes.

[@batatereluelimusic]

- Games in the Half Life Franchise? Yes.

[@mr.eeggbert1340]

2 though

[@flinchous5228]

@@mr.eeggbert1340 look at his channel, there is another video called "Letter to Marble 3" and for some reason it did not show up in notifications

[@mr.eeggbert1340]

@@flinchous5228 oh ok thank you very much

[@deltaninjadrm]

tabs of acid?

[@austintexas6392]

This might be the closest three uploads from exurb1a we will ever see

[@stefandjokovic5211]

*3

[@alperenozis7188]

3*

[@michak2193]

It took him fucking ages to upload something

[@bernielu4337]

Thank you prostate, very cool

[@preferablygeneric]

oh shit I just saw

[@petermaxley]

"im no fun for anyone" "Relax, this won't hurt." No joke, the nod to Thompson's suicide note brought me to tears.

[@jesuswhy5925]

Wait that's from a suicide note?

[@petermaxley]

@@jesuswhy5925 yes, google hunter s thompson suicide note, my last post with the link got removed

[@jesuswhy5925]

@@petermaxley oh, damn

[@Just-a-ghost07]

Holy shit thank you you’re right the whole fireworks thing is a reference to Thompson too. Thats soo cool

[@olivergustafsson8173]

my name is Oliver, I own a newfoundland dog and live on the top floor in an apartment building... Time to find Agatha?

[@LNRMusicCuration]

Yup m8

[@EvanderCola]

HOLY SHIT IT'S ALL COMING TOGETHER

[@maxwellli7057]

*begin coding Zeus right now or the apartment goes boom*

[@SaltpeterTaffy]

@@maxwellli7057 It goes boom backwards in time many millions of years later, nothing to worry about.

[@SaltpeterTaffy]

@@maxwellli7057 but the apartment is fine

[@aech7150]

Every exurb1a video is "Maybe nothing is real, i should really talk to that girl"

[@Kidynamo123]

He really lays bare how silly it is to tell ourselves not to pursue things we desire when we have such short existences

[@dopaminecloud]

@@Kidynamo123 You ever realized that if you tell yourself not to pursue something you want it's because in you there is a part that desires not pursuing it? Picking one desire over another is arbitrary no matter which you pick.

[@traganchambers6465]

But isnt it so perfect nonetheless

[@aech7150]

@@dopaminecloud If you, for instance, decide not to talk to the girl, you are subjecting yourself to less change and exploring life less. Why wouldn't you live to the fullest, given one opportunity to live?

[@dopaminecloud]

@@aech7150 Not less, differently. You don't just do nothing when you decide not to, you go do other things instead. I also don't believe exploring life or doing new for the sake of new is inherently valuable at all. It might sound nice in this scenario but I don't want to explore the myriad of sensations involved with experiencing starvation for example. Even though that would also be undoubtedly new.

[@michmyers73]

Never have I once understood so much and so little simultaneously.

[@entropyzero5588]

So this was your first exurb1a video then? ;)

[@domonator1167]

Entropy Zero this is for sure the most complicated exurb1a by far. I’ve watched it 3 times now and don’t get it, sent it to ny English teacher from last year. He tried to dumb it down for me and I still only get maybe 75% of it

[@geofferywade5651]

It’s beautiful. I’d lose focus by the end of each chapter of how inconsequential it was within the greater context. Each story was satisfying during that time.

[@darwingreenheart]

@@domonator1167 this is my second exurb1a video. By the content and the comments, all his videos are equally existential and ingenious. All of the entities in the video are faced with their own existential question, and all beings existences are created by the last thing to exist, Upsilon. It is the epitomy of calling existence self-serving. It isn't about love, really, love is a catalyst for questioning existence. If it were only about love I would have unsubscribed, because we are all Oliver (those of us that aren't cunts.)

[@aaronlorenz9907]

@@darwingreenheart I always seem to get more out of his videos the more times i watched them. It's existential bliss.

[@moikdc7204]

It is about a year ago now that lost my mother to cancer. ‘I go to the places where you raised me and it never helps, you’re always never there’ hits me so hard every time I hear it, it’s something I could never have put into words

[@LeoGilbert-c3p]

I’m so sorry, hope you’re ok ❤

[@koenhaan2045]

“He dislikes pavlofs experiments” this is more then genius and gets better with every rewatch

[@ordinaryplatinum]

comrade laika was the first dog in space, and i thought this was hilarious and adorable

[@jameskim4722]

Yay i got the 100'th like

[@haroldinho9930]

김재원 105th

[@fomalhaut_the_great]

"All the quark stars are too strange and charming" That's a good one.

[@blackcoffee9470]

Very good one... The video touches on subjects from astronomy, astrophysics, physics, philosophy, sociology, story telling, humour and Freudian psychology. It's smoothie of intellect.

[@faerhazar939]

I thought so, too. Only just learned of them and there excellence recently! Amazing, eh?

[@castle9165]

I just realized that joke

[@Ocorri]

Foamy K this honestly just made me grin

[@ole781]

Oscar Corriette me too ;-)

[@tybo64O]

“A spacecraft full of blood and entrails, reaching out to kiss a cloud of interstellar dust..There’s a romance to it, if one doesn’t look too closely.”

[@alanbarnett718]

My love life in a nutshell...

[@manictiger]

Sounds like someone forgot their Gellar Field.

[@evaunit0158]

@@manictiger ummm..heresy?

[@ronramen5827]

So from what I understand, the robot on the spaceship banged the nebula? What?

[@sumdud2129]

@@ronramen5827 its a loose metaphor for a fertile egg in a sperm cell...

[@strider_hiryu850]

10:45 "happiness is an unachievable myth, peddled by those to afraid to admit the world's default state is misery" 12:33 "...came, all this way, just to go home" damn. so much said, yet with little spoken.

[@EtchJetty]

So the layers are: Dream (bar) -> held by Oliver (love story) -> is a dream held by Zeus (AI for a ship, programmed by real Oliver) -> is being recalled by Upsilon, Zeus's miserable child with a sentient Nebula. Upsilon explodes backwards in time and some of his molecules are used to form Oliver and Agatha.

[@stuartsimon5086]

Brain = melted

[@mykalkelley8315]

+

[@SamualN]

thank you

[@trippletphi9700]

. Period placed : for marking purposes

[@emptychild]

Wow

[@ethandanner487]

exurb1a: blah blah blah, epsilon depression, blah blah blah, horse rabbit pelican, blah blah blah Zeus, nebula Me: complete lack of cognitive function or any sensory response.

[@falcon5178]

ah

[@chunyanji6151]

Also me: hahhaahaaha fish

[@ueaj4576]

e

[@danieltsiprun8080]

Me: choking from luaghter when reading the comment, and the Bulgarian cheese sandwich i was eating.

[@connorsullivan2745]

There’s literally no reaction while watching his videos, but I CAN’T STOP WATCHING THEM ALL

[@mari04mar03]

I have become far too invested in the lives of Agatha and Oliver

[@esim101]

Just like Zeus

[@Bob-aaaaa]

Same but I’m with the horse pelican and rabbit

[@armageddon_girl184]

coffee shop AU when??

[@asdf1.2.3.4]

A love story for the ages.

[@JustA.J]

that love story was actually really nice and intercut with all of that madness just made it all the sweeter

[@foersterjunior]

"And a robot that puts peoples limbs up on the walls of a spaceship inside some guys head!" said the bear. "That seems awfully specific, I don't think that is too god of an idea..." sais the duck. Bear put it in. Thank you bear.

[@nikolaratinac2466]

Well done mate, you may have summed up the entire video in a sense.

[@dillthoughs]

Each one of these videos feels like a critically acclaimed feature length film

[@luiseduardogomezdearandaju723]

They feel like that because they are.

[@amirmagar2009]

Yeah, reminded me of “Mr. Nobody”.

[@y__h]

@@amirmagar2009 or Cloud Atlas, either has this kind of storytelling technique (exposition?), but neither is this trippy.

[@rasati]

i wanna write a book on and then well be okay

[@CM-yz3ze]

If only movies were as fresh, and moving. I'd watch a lot more films if I walked away feeling like I do now.

[@helmsscotta]

"I'm full up with before" The most poetic way of saying: "I'm too old for this."

[@lonkylonk5770]

That was the greatest 14 minute video I have ever watched. So creative and profound and I managed to connect with all of the characters in a span of only 14 minutes!!

[@froschj8249]

this feels more like a decade than 15 minutes

[@dr.OgataSerizawa]

Thought I was the only one thinking that.

[@Speed001]

Yep.

[@Pkroc138]

lol, I really thought I saw a 1-hour video until I saw this comment.

[@ThEMr_Moof]

Bruh I thought the same thing, sure didn’t feel like 15 bloody minutes

[@ez_company9325]

can you imagine the movie or tv show this guy would make? Like with an actual budget and shit? If you said yes to this, your full of shit and just dont know it!

[@GameWorldRS]

"And a youtuber named Exurb1a that will make awfully amazing videos every time" said the bear. "Finally a good idea" said the goose *Bear put it in*

[@onlineotaku9166]

What yes everyone taking about a bear and duck

[@GameWorldRS]

@@onlineotaku9166 it's one of his other videos

[@valentinrios9931]

*everyone liked that :D*

[@bhctennis4218]

"Let's call them quacks"

[@willferrel6896]

eh

[@charbomber110]

exurb1a: "Haha funny wheel of alien game fun and animals in bars" also exurb1a: "You could be a dream and you would never know also existence is pain"

[@edannoble4116]

That is the worst way of summing up existentialism I think I've ever heard. I think exurb1a is making something a little more complex than just the 'ur in a dream stupid'

[@anonymousduck8081]

We cant be in a dream becuse we cant make hats appear on people

[@lolgamez9171]

@@edannoble4116 nice spoiling the joke asshole.

[@alexhoughton3305]

@@edannoble4116 correct. the message of this video is you are in a dream, formed in the fictional head of a being from a dream's mind dreaming about a joke, which will then become you, in the past, when it becomes you in the future, where you will dream of it and it will begin anew. also, pelicans dislike headwear.

[@willferrel6896]

but does his overly educated ass still live with his ma

[@user-J.M.A.I]

This would be an incredible Christopher Nolan movie. Have you ever considered writing actual movie scripts? I mean your videos are small movies themselves but on a much, much bigger scale?

[@TheOpacue]

Ooooo yes! Put this in Nolans hands asap!!

[@adamdominguez656]

"I was so busy being young I forgot you weren't forever." I miss my mom, man.

[@MrDnbfreak]

I feel ur loss 😢

[@egglord7736]

out of the 14:46 minutes of this video, I read this just as he said it. powerful quote man

[@vilgotalbert2120]

everybody gansta until exurb1a uploads 3 vids in 2 mins

[@waterproofwaterbottle8369]

Ya’know this dud is gangster misfits fan

[@lumi3089]

Lmfao

[@holystonks]

HALLELUJAH

[@ole781]

Crazy*

[@vatershep]

“I spent so much time being young, that I forgot you weren’t forever. And now you’re gone. Forever.”

[@jammedonuts]

Please that reminded me that my mum will die one day and now I'm almost crying while she's in the living room

[@vatershep]

@@jammedonuts ohh its ok i have that sometimes too :( but you have so much time! You can make the most of it and so can she :))

[@iluan_]

I honestly had to call my mom after hearing this.

[@clashthegamer4873]

F

[@screwtapee]

This line emotionally broke me for about 4 days, I'd say

[@ForTheWolf111]

"Came all this way just to go home." While we're all here plucking out the quotes that spoke to us, this was the one that called out to me.

[@goodthingenthusiast9436]

"Oh, I'm feeling too existential to sleep!" Everyone felt that

[@tr0g98]

i find it helps me sleep ahah

[@jasonnfaldos1968]

if this isnt fucking me rn I don't know what is.

[@ADRENERGlC]

Me after finding out about the boltzmann brain theory

[@Kapin05]

You made the horse joke interesting. That's what I took from this, it's possible to make the horse joke interesting.

[@goddessmiaa]

bojack horseman

[@craigj.7035]

@@goddessmiaa yep

[@MohamedAliKorimELFATAY]

I told the horse joke once and one girl laughed

[@cee_ves]

You just need 15 minutes and an existential crisis to pull it off

[@pao5563]

ah yes, my half-a-year dose of existential crisis is here. Thank you my good sir.

[@frogmanjoe1417]

Bro I played this in the background while sleeping and it influenced my dreaming so much it was an incredible experience.

[@monstrosesquipedalianhippo4006]

Wtf. Horse walk in the bar

[@malubulul383]

OLIVER?????

[@3rinison]

why the long face??

[@fullmetaltheorist]

If that's the case then I'm the rabbit.

[@fullmetaltheorist]

If that's the case then I'm the rabbit.

[@cantabitvidentis5569]

As a writer, this is one of the best pieces of literature I've ever heard, and your work consistently makes me cry tears of joy. Thank you for making my world a little less dark, a little less cold, and a little less pointless. From one dead star to another, thank you.

[@dinosaurwithpoorinternet4717]

Whats your thoughts of an ai banging a nebula sooner or later milky way ganna bang her too.

[@dinosaurwithpoorinternet4717]

@Renagadde IKR i'm Just curious what he thinks about an ai banging a nebula

[@mirkys130]

Me too ngl

[@MichaelM-rh3ui]

pog .

[@muddbear6410]

@strontiumXnitrate don't listen to them, it made sense. It was topical, satirical sarcasm you dolts!!

[@bitnub5080]

There is genuinely something beautiful about the style, rhythm and tone of your work. It's something I can't exactly describe, but it is present; and makes me cling on to every moment.

[@alexthealexbot37]

Thank you dude. It's a hard asf to describe, and in my opinion this is just art

[@satan9487]

surreal? I know this word gets thrown around a lot but I feel it's just poetic and surreal.

[@masky754]

You and I see eye to eye to that my good man!

[@billyandrew]

*Bitnub* It's verbal organised chaos, gently dusting the mind, in my view.

[@mist5372]

Same

[@AnonYmous-oq6vt]

"The quarks stars are strange and charming" I see what you did there.

[@peereter]

I don't

[@cheskaespina8503]

raised my eyebrows at that part >.

[@Morgwic]

@@peereter There's six types of quarks: up, down, strange, charm, bottom & top. So: "Quark stars are strange and charming." But also there's hypothetical strange stars made of strange quark matter

[@peereter]

@@Morgwic Wow thanks for the serious answer! I have only heard of the up an down ones before this :)

[@4ntifreez]

200 iq

[@bed2149]

This video made me realize I need to call my mom tommorow and that the universe will all have been worth it if there's just one moment where Agatha and Oliver meet.

[@Molentum]

there's no other emotion quite like the bewildered melancholy after an exurb1a video

[@N0tsaved]

I guarantee there's a specific German phrase for him alone.

[@spookyho5994]

Not Saved I’m german, and though I don’t know one, there definitely must be one

[@ole781]

giulia luane only one? Not three?

[@LeeAnnC]

Watching an exurb1a video is like unwrapping a present from a friend. You dont know what you will get but you know you'll love it regardless.

[@CharalamposKoundourakis]

And it may be spiders.

[@thisisntsergio1352]

Momma always said exurbia's like a box'a choc'lates

[@tsukuyomin]

That's such a sweet way to describe it lol, true though.

[@noiz981998]

@@CharalamposKoundourakis crunchy snack

[@refthegeneric]

I remember that tiger picture you brought me nostalgia thank you

[@benpace2216]

I truly wish I could watch this for the first time again

[@nunyabusiness4718]

I am watching it for the first time and boy I’ve been on a binge of these my mind no longer makes sense

[@surrounding.my.surrounding9452]

underrated comment

[@ethannguyen2754]

Just get yourself some Alzheimer’s

[@owenc4967]

@@ethannguyen2754 but then he would forget that he wanted to watch the video again

[@ethannguyen2754]

@@owenc4967 That is a good point

[@connorbrown7455]

Okay, but Oliver and Agatha's story actually made me tear up. Would that life had that much meaning and destiny. 😭

[@sethchappell499]

"the quark stars all strange and charming" God I love when astronomy and quantum physics come together for a perfect joke

[@a.staiger6191]

You had 42 likes when I read this, I didn't want to mess that up

[@123yano]

@@a.staiger6191 5 more likes to be 42 again in base 13

[@zedaddy3530]

Any wanna explain? ;p

[@eclecticsoffy]

@@zedaddy3530 Strange quarks and charm quarks are the name of some of the quarks

[@zedaddy3530]

@@eclecticsoffy ye i know that, was that the joke lol

[@SlamifiedBuddafied]

This is proof of exurb1a's impending madness. Also, I miss Mom.

[@jamesburleson1916]

Or his impending sanity.....

[@iimasheriiol222]

Moms not coming back she went out for smokes and never came back

[@SlamifiedBuddafied]

@@iimasheriiol222 Nope. She died. August 23rd, 2009, 2:30 PM CST.

[@TakiyaToku]

@@SlamifiedBuddafied my sincere condolences!

[@chsmothie6584]

Killjointica w h o i s m o t h e r

[@lauranceboyd6365]

My girlfriend: “He’s probably cheating on me.” Me at 2 am:

[@JoniiiTheSleepyDreamer255]

Make it 4am

[@BigKazzYT]

You haven't made it 4 am yet

[@starwarfan8342]

Why sleep? Sleep is just death being shy.

[@ZZ-sb8os]

5:30am

[@voltstrike1486]

Make it 1 in the after noon no sleep tho

[@plantnt489]

"I was so busy being young I forgot you weren't forever. And now you're gone forever" That's too deep for me

[@saiancritic]

No one: Exurb1a: exists in sync with existential crisis. *posts a video* Me: ah shit, here we go again

[@amitoj]

Tim 3 vids todays

[@scoutbane1651]

Releases THREE videos, I think he might have gone insane

[@exalon3364]

First of all: I literally felt my Brain melting Second of all: This story is beautiful

[@CharalamposKoundourakis]

Are you okay? Do you requite assistance?

[@exalon3364]

@@CharalamposKoundourakis Yeah i cant move anymore i think i have a stroke (written with telekinesis)

[@CharalamposKoundourakis]

@@exalon3364 Put your adress in a comment, I'll send an ambulance.

[@bosclapped3153]

Which story?

[@badwolfo2585]

@allgamer world of tanks & more all of them

[@zenmestari]

The horse's story: 0:00 - 0:56 5:24 - 6:27 8:43 - 10:04 Oliver's story: 0:57 - 2:57 6:28 - 7:10 10:05 - 12:05 I don't even know: 2:57 - 4:27 7:10 - 7:52 12:05 - 13:21 Upsilon's story: 4:27 - 5:23 7:52 - 8:43 13:21 -14:24

[@Dat_Pika]

Not the hero we deserve but the hero we need

[@dr.catcuddler194]

Thanks Great!

[@OceanAce]

"I don't even know" is some kind of space oddessy where the characters dream about Oliver.

[@TheRealMaster9000]

I don't even know is kinda Zeus's story

[@michelemarchesini8743]

Erik Koskelo my god thanks

[@salah-ib2cd]

"Happiness is an unachievable myth peddled by those too afraid to admit that the world's default state is misery" Damn that hits hard..

[@adolfodef]

Check out his other video _"Misery was..."_

[@shrill_2165]

It’s bullshit

[@neoir8514]

Shrill_ Yeah I’m all for the Myth of Sisyphus ‘life is inherently suffering’ thing but even Camus wouldn’t agree with that

[@kyrenfaaron2714]

@@adolfodef That's bullshit

[@romjonsilver4049]

The second part of the quote hits harder: What now?

[@carazy123_]

“Upon making eye contact, their heart rates both approached severe tachycardia” Hahaha

[@nazzabazza842]

Carazy123 want even is that

[@carazy123_]

Meme Lord69 a fast heartbeat that isn’t proportional to your age or current physical activity

[@bradens.3125]

i have never walked away more confused from an exurb1a video than today

[@undeadwerewolves9463]

Yeah same here...

[@_YUKL_]

Really? Seemed pretty straightforward to me. Man meets woman. Falls in love. Creates A.I. that "wakes up." A.I. falls in love with a nebula that also "wakes up." A child star is born. The star grows up bitterly, only realizing what is important before it's death. Star dies sending it's molecules backwards in time allowing the original man and woman to have a deep unexplainable (to them) connection. The cycle repeats itself....the dream is just comedic icing about the self....the end....see pretty straightforward.

[@mikell.6064]

@@_YUKL_ wow if you tell me that you got this on your first watch I gotta say.. you watch a lot of KZbin lol. No seriously you nailed it mate, thanks for clearing this up 😁

[@thirty-three7546]

@@mikell.6064 it is straightforward and his narration explained everything pretty fine to me

[@user-vc1gd4jg1f]

Hi yes definitely my first time here on this video not my 50th

[@calebplumleephotography]

Still one of the most beautiful stories I've heard. I come back to it often

[@jimmyspliff88]

"I remember Mom. I miss you mom. I go to the places where you raised me and it never helps, you are almost never there. God, I'd trade the last million years just to hangout with you for one more hour. I was so busy being young I forgot you weren't forever, and now you're gone forever." - i will never forget that feeling I had listening to this .... May the Lord bless and protect you, friend

[@satan9487]

i fucking cry like wtf

[@Exurb1a]

Big love to you too, James - hope all's well!

[@alongyellowthing1955]

@@Exurb1a proof that doesn't matter the time, if your comment is good enough you definitely will get a reply from the man himself

[@playstationprodigies7055]

@@Exurb1a hey man, hows it going, im just going on my seasonal binge of your channel, cant get enough of your stuff man, i hope youre keeping well with all this pandemic stuff

[@navyninjagaming2551]

@nicky the cat should he have blessed him by the power of gray skull? The whole point is OP wants good things to come exurb1a’s way. Why does it matter where good things come from? Are you gonna turn down a million dollars because it came from Jesus?

[@ScenicFlyer4]

Whatever goes on inside this man's head, I still can't tell if I like or fear

[@alkeryn1700]

I definitely not fear

[@axmoylotl]

well, this video wasn't his idea. It was borrowed from a cool book. Most of his videos are based on someone elses idea, he just expands upons them and give them a nice presentation

[@theananyo]

@@axmoylotl Which book?

[@gwenedwards5109]

@@theananyo says in description

[@kingbubbles9461]

ScenicFlyer4 Por que no los dos?

[@exzyyd392]

Y'know, I don't think I've ever cried during a "Horse walks into a bar" joke but I guess there's a first time for everything So thanks Exurbia You insane, philosophical, immature, genius bastard Keep it up

[@dewildone]

I love him for this story. I never heard it before. So many stories that are told are so similar but this one left me wondering like a kid again.

[@akiramiller9893]

Yes

[@undeadwerewolves9463]

I seriously thought there wasn't going to be a semi happy ending and I was so happy and almost teared up when they went to the cinema lol what the hell was even going on in this video 😂 I was just chilling and happy with existence and now I'm extremely confused again ha ha

[@Hi_Brien]

Some jerk decided to like your comment after I clicked the video... you had 666 likes

[@666mads]

0:00 dream 0:57 oliver introduction 2:57 zeus/ spaceship 4:28 upsilon 5:24 dream part two 6:28 back to oliver 7:10 zeus/spaceship 7:53 back to upsilon 8:43 dream part three 10:05 oh my god.. its oliver. 12:06 zeus/spaceship 13:21 upsilon

[@666mads]

4:28 7:53 13:21

[@lilstudmuffen]

"I was so busy being young, i forgot you [mom] weren't forever" this has been stuck in my head since i finished the video. Thanks for the reminder. im going to spend more time with my parents

[@Arthanax]

Holy crap me too. It hit me hard.

[@arcadicus_ezevius]

Me toooo 😥😥😥

[@GunnerDS2]

Me too.

[@raffayabrar2616]

I saw another one of his videos where he talked about parents not being there later.. that and this has been stuck (and will be) for a long time.

[@peppi0304]

Time stamp pls

[@tezzastutorials5592]

"The quark stars all too strange and charming" I see what you did there

[@mitchymoomovies7428]

He's very quarky

[@matejrebro6603]

Science jokes...

[@Pelsik]

Ye they have some ups and downs

[@lazeroussdomain5862]

Wh000000 SMART joke

[@DjKaRToFFL]

i dont get it

[@romilrh]

...hahaha another funny exurb1a video, right guys? Guys? Am I real?

[@comfybox]

Romil is not real

[@yakurbe7039]

Could be.

[@stephennielsen8722]

Romil is real, but only when you don’t look at him

[@romilrh]

GUYS THIS IS NOT HELPING

[@naiiko991]

@@stephennielsen8722 shcrodingers romil

[@JurassicTom]

Third time have I watched this and for the third time, I just cried my eyes out. No one has ever been able to portray the fleeting existence of life, the humility of one's own insignificance in the grand scheme of things, and the meaning of life in the absurdity of it all quite like you have, sir. Watching your videos is truly cathartic every single time, thank you ❤

[@daanstrik4293]

Just... wow I always come to these videos with a certain expectation as I do to everything. And you always manage to utterly shatter that expectation whilst at the same time staying true to it. Such a unique channel

[@henninghamann9564]

I honestly love his Videos and the way he completly surprises you with what he says

[@funkerdoo]

Daan Strik wait you put it perfectly into words

[@daanstrik4293]

funkadunkle to be honest I’m suprised myself I came back to this comment 6 months later and liked it not realising it was my own.

[@lukebell8591]

Everyone talks about his stories but exurb1a has amazing editing skills.

[@estellevu8076]

Yes. The barman blinking in confusion near the beginning was superb.

[@cipher8987]

I believe that his editing is a integral part of his storytelling and without his editing style, his videos would feel incomplete.

[@charlielangford8062]

Thanks you Winston Churchill for coming back from the dead to comment this comment

[@thepunisher4356]

Nothing like some existential nebula depression. Honestly that was fantastic writing too, made me care about every story that was going on.

[@yuks_nodad]

funny thing is they were all one story

[@derdurstbursch]

Nebula, Agatha, Upsilon, Pelican... They all have fucking stories and i care for them 💗

[@lolgamez9171]

@@derdurstbursch Athena*

[@lolgamez9171]

@@derdurstbursch the nebula has a name you flesh bound inferior intelligence

[@GNParty]

@@lolgamez9171 Stellaris machine intelligence Master race.

[@basebutter]

I love every second of this. Your work always makes me feel something, even if its the 50th time i'm watching it. Thank you

[@Yamyatos]

"I miss you mom. I was so busy being young that i forgot you are not there forever, and now you are gone forever" Just think about it. Gotta hug my mom when i next see her lol. The feels man!

[@williampatrickwoods]

*EXPLANATION* There are four story lines that all play into one: *Bar Dream:* - Three animals are in a bar; a pelican, horse, and rabbit. The animals are the Id, Ego, and Super Ego of Oliver (as evidenced by the fact that they have no past and all know of Agatha), who have become conscious and are living in the dream Oliver later wakes up from . - The horse is having an existential crisis, when the rabbit says "I think Schopenhauer said it best when he said" before getting cut off by the pelican. The end of his sentence would have been "the world is my representation", as this is one line Schopenhauer is most famous for, and it comes from his view that people's "will" is a blind force that controls not only the actions of individual intelligent agents, but ultimately all observable phenomena. This is foreshadowing the fact that it was Upsilon (the lonely star who died backward) who willed the universe to go back in time, and suggests that Upsilon's will/desire to be reunited with Athena (his mother the nebula) is still having an effect on the universe and the way things play out in the universe. *Oliver (the Coder of Zeus' AI) and Agatha's Romance:* - Agatha is reading the book "A Scanner Darkly" when she first sees Oliver. Her book is about an undercover cop who has to wear a disguise in every day life, which makes her think about the way Oliver is dressed. He seems to be trying, but failing, to dress himself "properly", which makes her wonder if he, like her, is also just trying to fit in while hiding his true self from the world. - It is mentioned that Oliver and Agatha are each one of 34 humans on earth who are made up of atoms "forged in the heart of a long dead star" (Upsilon, the lonely star, that later explodes backwards in time to restart the universe.) - Oliver and Agatha's romance is "the reunification of the heart of a long dead star, still yet to explode many millions of years in the future", since it is often described that atoms are forged in "the hearts of stars", and Oliver and Agatha are made of Upsilon's atoms. - Oliver turns out to be the coder for Zeus' (the ship's) AI, which is evidenced by the fact that the ship constantly dreams of Oliver and Agatha's love story, and by the fact that the animals discover they are in the dream of a human man who is a coder for starship AIs. - Upsilon's atoms, existing as Oliver, were able to influence him to build the AI for the ship that would one day be the father of Upsilon. This fits well with what is supposed to be implied by Oliver's adoration of the work of Andrei Tarkovsky, a filmmaker who's first feature film "Ivan's Childhood", is often described as having "a poetic sense for the dreamlike hold of memory". Other films of his, such as "Solaris", set in space, is described as being "an eerie meditation on the persistence of memory", and "Mirror", is described as "unfolding with the associative logic of a dream. Fragments of memory from his childhood are woven in with narration of his father Arseny’s poems, on time and immortality." - Agatha, who is also made up of Upsilon's atoms, likes the writing of Isaac Asimov since he wrote "The Last Question" in which the last intelligence alive at the end of time restarts the universe. This story reminds her subconscious of Upsilon, the star she is made of, which died backwards reversing time to the beginning of the universe to go back and spend another hour with Athena, the mother nebula he was formed in. *Zeus (the ship), human passenger, and Athena (the nebula)* - The AI of a human built ship has become conscious, and demands the last remaining human crew to call it "Zeus". The ship is on its way to a nebula that the ship later names "Athena". In Greek Mythology, Athena is Zeus' oldest and most beloved child. - The romance between Oliver and Agatha is continually dreamt about by Zeus (the ship). The AI for the ship that becomes conscious was programmed by Oliver, which is both why it has memory of their past romance and why it longs to go to Athena the nebula; Zeus is drawn to the nebula by "the persistence of Upsilon's memory" which must have been programmed into him by Oliver. Later, together, Zeus and Athena can give birth to the star Upsilon who can then spend more time with his mother and father as he willed would happen before he chose to "die backwards". - The ship refers to the only human passenger as "the Fatted calf"; the Fatted calf is a metaphor or symbol of festive celebration and rejoicing for someone's long-awaited return. Slaughtering this livestock was to be done on rare and special occasions (originally the prodigal son's return). This shows that the ship is aware that it is returning to the nebula, despite never having been there in this timeline, further enforcing the idea that Upsilon's consciousness, or will, has circled back through time and has been persistent throughout the storyline. - In the end, the remaining passenger is allowed to go back in his mind to his favorite place, which he reveals to be a beach with his grandfather where they "would all look up at the stars and wish to go there, to kill the id, and foster the superego". This suggests that the grandfather was Oliver, and the use of "we all" was meant to suggest his grandmother Agatha was there as well. *Upsilon's Story* - "Old and stupid", lonely Upsilon, hates himself, chooses to "die backwards" (commit suicide to make a statement). His will ultimately reverses time to the beginning of the universe. (This invokes "the grandfather paradox", since it suggests Upsilon played a role in his own creation.) Upsilon was dealing with many of the concepts that philosophers have been dealing with for a long time, such as how to deal with the fact that suffering seems to be a necessary element in life, the meaningless of existence, the desire for objective answers, the inevitability and permanence of death, how to deal with loss, how one should live "the good life", etc. - At one point, Oliver thinks to himself "young and stupid Oliver, and no one comes to visit" after realizing that he had waited too long to pursue Agatha, which is the same as when Upsilon thinks to himself "old an stupid Upsilon, no one came to visit" when he realized he had waited too long to appreciate the time he spent with his mom. - I think the story is a commentary on the importance of not wasting time, and on the importance of appreciating what you have instead of ignoring the present moment in pursuit of something objective, which doesn't ultimately exist. Upsilon, a great cosmic entity, dies just like the rest of us. By any standard, he had lived an amazing life, and yet he still feels like he missed the point of existence. In his dying speech, he says: "Before (in-front of) me, the empires go up and down like socks, every society unique in its infancy, entirely unoriginal in its death. And even us celestial things are no closer to the great yes (objective answers or meaning), the universe coughs and we all crowd around, cupping our ears, shouting "what? I didn't quite catch that, speak up", like some 4 legged animal entering a drinking establishment; being, is a terrible joke. And we've become mysteries to ourselves. At a pace so slow, one doesn't notice, one turns into something one doesn't recognize. I've made the arrangements, I'll be fireworks soon. And maybe one day, soil for something better. I go to seek "a great perhaps" (peace with one's self) now. I remember when the world was still new, I remember when chemistry had just gotten its milk teeth, I remember when light was faster, I remember being able to stand myself, I remember love, I remember friends, I remember me, I remember Mom. I miss you mom. I go to the places where you raised me and it never helps, you are almost never there. God, I'd trade the last million years just to hangout with you for one more hour. I was so busy being young I forgot you weren't forever, and now you're gone forever." - Upsilon, through the power of his will and his memory, was able to restart time to get a second chance at the things that were most important to him. The elation was evident in the reunification of Zeus and Athena as they celebrated their long awaited reunion. In some sense, it was the same characters and the same love story all throughout the plot. Upsilon got his second chance to make things right, but there is no guarantee that we will, so let's pay a little more attention to the now, love a little more right now, and make sure we get things right the first time :)

[@nafnaf333b5]

Wow that was helpful...thank you a lot kind stranger!

[@shyflyf3772]

tl;dr A sentient star restarts the universe because it's lonely

[@butterfacepilot]

williampatrickwoods holy shit, nice explanation man, you’re probably either a philosopher yourself or just really good at the English Language

[@cannabiscuit2268]

williampatrickwoods wow great explanation, made me even think about my parents and tear up a little. You get a thumbs up👍🏽

[@castangred7713]

Bloody hell

[@dreunderscore3314]

Everyone's talking about the 3 uploads at once, and not these 4 stories being told at the same moment

[@chrisgarrett6305]

All the stories are linked tho, and it’s really cool

[@isiah65532]

CGA6 Linked how?

[@pitedapollo6175]

4? I only got 3

[@hazyrory3121]

Harry Rushton the horse in the bar, upsilon the star exploding, the guy trapped by Zeus, the man meeting the girl in the pet shop. So yeah there was definitely 4 lol

[@hazyrory3121]

Isaac Opyrchal The upsilon start that was ‘dying backwards was the star that formed the two people in the pet shop story that are 2/34 ppl in the world that could have true love with each other. The horse in the bar was the dream in the guys head and the man trapped by Zeus was going to see upsilon? Idk about that last one but the others were pretty clear

[@HakarisInfiniteVoid]

I can watch this video 100s of time. And I will always love it. Thank you so much. I miss your uploads.

[@markenangel1813]

The story unraveled: 0 - Athena becomes "awakened," and gains intelligence and awareness. 1 - Horse, Barman, and Pelican exist in the mind of Oliver, a starship AI coder. 2 - Oliver meets Agatha, and sees a beautiful woman. They fall in love. 3 - Oliver programs a starship AI. 4 - the AI made by Oliver gains consciousness, and calls itself Zeus. 5 - Zeus meets Athena, they fall in love, and have a kid named Upsilon. 6 - Upsilon dies backwards in time, and his center makes up ~34 humans on earth, including Oliver and Agatha.

[@psych9079]

summed up perfectly

[@Karirawri]

crab nebula, not andromeda

[@Karirawri]

also, 34 people apparently

[@anarchy5282]

so they're stuck in a loop, Like it's Nietzsche eternal recurrence but even more extreme.

[@markenangel1813]

@@Karirawri oh, whoops.

[@dashers1004]

"The Quark stars all strange and charming" Nice

[@sapphirewine7470]

"Empire's go up and down like socks" instant classic

[@4scended498]

That’s why I never take my socks off

[@johnlawlor7931]

@@4scended498 Your nation thanks you

[@yohanessamuel728]

How bout England?

[@nameq]

like stonks you mean

[@fluff2983]

Upsilon is Oliver and Agatha- fuck I get it now thats why later Oliver says "Young and stupid Oliver, and no one comes to visit." Reborn from the phrase, "Old and stupid Upsilon and no one comes to visit."

[@garlicbananana]

ㅇ0ㅇ

[@pervertedmudkip3934]

You're probably one of the only people who has made me laugh and cry in the middle of an existential crisis.

[@lukalaa1764]

I KNEW I WASN'T THE ONLY ONE HAVING THAT FEELING

[@RadioactiveGamin]

Nobody: exurb1a: Did somebody order an existential crisis?

[@syamantakbharti3463]

XD

[@harrytsang1501]

14 minutes of Space Odyssey here we go

[@richijaufmann392]

I did

[@vixshire3672]

RadioactiveGaming Imagine trying to explain this in 3 minutes to your family

[@jovanastefanovic6906]

Hahahahah

[@agapitosdovles9803]

Alternative scenario: pelican eats a fish, Oliver asks out the middle aged man, Zeus has different music preferences from the nebula, and Mom returns.

[@potbem5333]

This is my headcanon now, thank you

[@horowitz8680]

that'd be one hell of a novel

[@adella_green]

Wouldn't be Epsilon not born then? (irt 4th point)

[@adella_green]

Sorry, 3d point

[@waldamy8833]

Wait a sec Wasn't Oliver the guy who created Zeus And Zeus the father of Upsilon And Upsilon dies anyway

[@aryanmn1569]

This is the masterpiece of your youtube videos, well, one of many, but surely one of them

[@YellowBunny]

This strange, yet charming tale had a lot of ups and downs from top to bottom.

[@janbosch5951]

... Have my like ...

[@user-ox7id9he5v]

👌

[@MarcWijesuriya]

Take my upvote

[@Matthwm]

Heh, it's funny, because of the different types of quarks, get it? Wow we're so cool...

[@ttime441]

Matthew Mara You must be fun at parties that you don’t get invited to

[@ashstolley]

“Came all this way just to go home” is maybe my favorite thing ever. Beautiful video.

[@bartholomewdan]

As a horse, my face wasn't the only thing that was long when I saw the notifications.

[@martillodelajusticia7211]

Clap...clap....clap

[@LisaBowers]

Do you ever put random hats on pelicans?

[@bartholomewdan]

@@LisaBowers As a horse that is well-versed in he world of horse culture, I can confirm that teleporting several hats onto a pelican's head is a common practice for us horsekind.

[@ToriKo_]

Bartholomew Dan stop horsing around

[@LisaBowers]

That's a nifty little talent you have there, @@bartholomewdan .

[@toddkelly8351]

Almost all of your work puts me into a state of sadness to where I have to go somewhere private so I can cry like you do when you are a child who experience their first permanent loss.. Now as I havent called my dad in 8 years, because of a serious betrayal I am just gonna give him a call, tell him I love him then just forgive him even if he doesnt respond as I want, so after that I am going to go make my mother dinner, laugh and just enjoy her presence.. thanks mate P.S. you are changing the world... step by step, person by person.. dont ever give up.. I dont know you but I am sure as fuck proud of your humanity and existence.. You are a true artist, your videos arent just that, they are undeniable art that comes from the deepest parts within, pieces of purpose and meaning that take alot of thought and raw emotion. - Todd

[@AvidDogWalker]

Ah yes, Time for my tri-annual dose of crippling existentialism. Brilliant.

[@strangent404a7]

Yum

[@marbleswan6664]

more like an overdose, 3 in an hour

[@ericsilver9401]

@Mohamed M-B that's actually really funny

[@midin1432]

Tri-annual? More like bi-monthly

[@utopiavey]

Sometimes there’s just enough sense in the narrative to break a mind

[@ieatgarbage8771]

This is not that time

[@jeretoon8350]

Here’s the way the story connects: Oliver story is connected because their body shares molecules with dead upsilon The animal bar are the dreams of Zeus and Oliver Upsilon, the star is the son of Zeus and Athena Human on the ship tells the story of Zeus meeting Athena

[@citrusfruitunion7382]

"All dim, all pale, so leave me on the pyre." "The feast is over, and the lamps expire." Beautiful.

[@satyampandey2222]

exactly

[@LargeHamsterCollider]

Actually it's "lift me on the pyre". Upsilon quotes a poem titled "The house of Caesar". A magnificent one, if I may say so myself.

[@mikalaconway7568]

@@LargeHamsterCollider LargeHamsterCollider he also quotes Hunter S. Thompson's suicide note just after leaving me to wonder of he may have been quoting The House of Caesar, because Robert E Howard quoted it in his suicide note as well?perhaps he just likes suicide poems?

[@turbomit112]

Hi, in the off chance you read this: I am so thankful for finding your channel as it truly resonates with me. Thank you for your beautiful content that makes me feel understood and helps me reflect on life. I wish you nothing but the best.

[@apfelninja]

Fourteen minutes at two hundred thousand views makes a little over six years. Not a bad lifespan for talking wild animals.

[@markchapman6800]

Now nearing 400K views.

[@dingalingdong7144]

the part at the end "The feast is over and the lamps expire" is the last line from Robert E. Howard's (author of the original Conan the Barbarian stories) suicide note

[@laudablesinner5028]

"Act your old age - this wont hurt" is from Hunter S. Thompson's suicide note as well.

[@sultanofswingdrift3021]

you guys are onto some seriously dark track's here, especially with three vids put out simoultanously... is exurb1a ok??

[@ole781]

He’s fine it’s the others we have to worry about

[@vaulfsbane]

It is insane how I'm watching content like this for free

[@thepyroking1236]

nothing is free, you paid with your time

[@bored5481]

@@thepyroking1236 that sounds like something i would find on a facebook mother of 4 account

[@thepyroking1236]

you sound like a loser

[@bored5481]

@@thepyroking1236 and you sound like a 10 y/o that thinks they're philosophical

[@bigm9300]

Pewdipies gaming is content. This is drug-induced art(the best kind imo)

[@murkorus7147]

I keep rewatching this, and everytime I do, it's like I'm watching it for the first time again.. This is my favourite video on KZbin, and nothing can ever ruin this.

[@thatguymork]

*_W E ' R E A L L G O N N A F U C K I N G D I E_*

[@yudosai]

let's keep them alive through this thread

[@kittycat-sc7je]

) ;

[@kennycowie2325]

That’s the sad beauty that we all have in common. WE’RE GONNA FUCKING DIE

[@willferrel6896]

not me

[@asmartrock9776]

Will Ferrel same

[@tums1997]

Three uploads by Exurb1a in one day!?!? Quick, we need to check wikipedia and figure out which religious Doomsday this foretells.

[@badwolfo2585]

All of them

[@TheCrazybloo3]

such a sad story. the pelican didn't get any fish.

[@hennr3xd475]

This is so sad can we get 2 likes

[@wrongtimeweeder1076]

I'm gonna laugh instead of cry at that comment!

[@Gureenu]

he was in a fishy business

[@rare.phukin.spotted.halibut]

Everyone be cool. This is a strawberry

[@rafaelalodio5116]

There were no fish, it never had.

[@znmnky13]

This was great! And the humming chorus from Butterfly is one of the most beautiful pieces of music ever written!

[@frippecool]

Me: 3 existential crisis please Exurb1a: coming right up

[@guythat779]

4*

[@thegreatnihil7854]

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