After my ex wife cheating and l divorce i had PTSD (stated by psychologist). I am over 50ty. Now I fear of Intimacy. I knew about actions of my ex too much. I do not think I can manage to be really good at kex. Not that age. Especially that women remember all lovers. I found it wasting of time. My self esteem is very low in this subject. Especially that I was faithful for 25y without other partners. So it is not always childhood. Regards