What It Feels Like To Have Depression | Body Language

A young man navigates his education under the shadow of his depression, undergoing extraordinary personal growth as he learns to open up about his mental health battle.
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Featuring Prasanna Sellathurai
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Producer Paulette Caletti
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[@LyansLife]

it's like you don't want to see tomorrow but you want to see your future

[@shesuckonmyglock6664]

Lyan's Life ...right your on point

[@mariannehaugvaldstad2763]

Oh my god. This is it. This is what I've been thinking in my head, but couldn't describe. Thank you.

[@bubblegumbetchhh]

Yes, that is *exactly* what it feels like!

[@usedtobemyself]

Damn, that's it.

[@reynhacoezy5510]

Lyan's Life You are the new Einstein. Thank you to have described so perfectly.

[@a.359]

"its all in your head" yeah thats kind of the entire problem innit

[@annalangston6567]

Exactly! If you broke your leg you wouldn't say "it's all in your leg" 😂

[@a.359]

@@annalangston6567 yeah well uwu you have 2 legs so whats the big deal?? stop complaining you have a healthy leg no one did anything to break the other one stop overreacting???

[@annalangston6567]

@@a.359 exactly! Oh sorry I have 2 legs why am I even upset???

[@a.359]

@@annalangston6567 you cant just get treatment for a broken leg!!! act normal or youll scare everyone away with that thing of yours, its not even that bad, get over it. you dont need a cast.

[@wellhelltherefellwhuman4637]

@@a.359 don't forget the 2 perfectly fine arms!

[@cascadel2199]

When you’re depressed, even when doing the most entertaining things ever, it simply feels like a distraction from how you’re really feeling. Makes me feel worse

[@Greg12839]

Cascade L i know that feeling all too well

[@celsoilao7435]

Yep. When I feel like im about to explode, my remedy was books and games but sometimes when i feel very very bad, i always overthink that these are all just a waste of time, a DISTRACTION. So I ended up not doing it and of course i didnt get any better. And after all of those annoying and unreasonable chaos, ill just panic for no reason and ends up doing it anyway

[@moka_dotz2857]

You can only be happy for so long until you break

[@lionessofyah8725]

Why are you depressed?

[@kaironjohnson8695]

I generally don't usually post comments or reply, but this comment, for some unknown reason, really struck a chord with me. I have been suffering from depression for about 3 years now, but only have just started getting help. It had all stemmed from this emotional buildup kind of? Like, everyone I knew and the people around me were there, but there were behind a foggy glass window. I had reached out to friends and they tried to help saying "oh, it's okay if you ever needed to talk we are there for you" but whenever I did talk it was just like a repeati ngf record of them not understanding and that made me feel very alone which prompted me to use KZbin, video games, and schoolwork as a distraction, though I didnt read because even though it did distract, I was still alone with my thoughts. Eventually it got so bad that I tried to kill myself about a month ago, and was saved by some friends who called my mother. It just felt like a kick in the teeth, though because I had been suffering and so sad for more then a week and they only cared when i was prepared to end it all. Anyways what I'm trying to say is that I have felt this in my life, that everything is useless, nobody cares, and whatever I do is just a distraction from my sadness.

[@shinku4639]

depression is living in a body that fights to survive, with a mind that tries to die.

[@jonghyun2001]

That's true

[@iamgonnagocryagain1401]

True...

[@user-ph2wc1rz2n]

You stole that lol

[@gaqsu113]

damn thats DEEP man

[@pb_x]

r/im14andthisisdeep Also not original

[@legolastheelf708]

Depression feels like existence is absurd but you’re the only one who can see it.

[@Keev12661]

Legolas The Elf nah dude a lot of people see existence as absurd, if you are sad because you feel alienated by knowing that, you could try talking about it to other people, like me

[@legolastheelf708]

Kieren Ney I think we all experience depression differently. And seeing absurdity everywhere is part of mine. I’m not saying that when you have these thoughts, you should automatically see depression there, but it is definitely an effect because nothing seems to have meaning anymore. But anyway thank for your concern :)

[@Keev12661]

Legolas The Elf well my guy you either get lost in nihilistic tendencies or you struggle and find meaning in this world, I hope you don’t choose the former, good luck out there

[@legolastheelf708]

Kieren Ney Yeah but fortunately depression in some cases doesn’t last and finding meaning becomes easier. I’m a fervent believer that you can find meaning in anything

[@brandonkeisler86]

Legolas The Elf The Stranger by Albert Camus

[@Tokioah]

It feels like everything is meaningless to you... the worst part is when people don't understand it and they think you are just being a "rebellious teenager"

[@talkingtoawall5123]

Im a stranger but trust me when I say it will get better, it wont last forever ok? If u dont have anyone to talk to, try writing them in a diary. Amd when u finally come out of it, you'll be stronger. Altho dark humor stays still with us ig.

[@jamescollinsisbetterthanme7005]

Ageism

[@chevychasey1681]

Don’t you love it when people say. Oh you’re faking it, you’re just doing it for attention

[@n1ghhtmare]

That's ignorant asf tbh

[@James-ck4bg]

"I'll be fine" It's a bad sign when you say it out of exhausted despair rather than positive optimism.

[@ahrred3127]

True

[@ahrred3127]

@@Xxggxx-r3i Also True

[@francescorovere4081]

Alexander Ranin that's why it's bad, darkness fills almost all of the cup, there's some light but it's so far that you just give up

[@tarar8539]

unknown I know. I keep telling myself I’m okay but I know that I’m not

[@606aichan7O7]

I feel like when I say it, it's kinda like an exhausted optimism because I sometimes like or need to create balance between things so although I'm pessimistic, I try to counter it with optimism (which may be countered by pessimism again)

[@katecooper3410]

Whether mental or physical, unwell is unwell.

[@Dollypops43]

Yes excactly... depression is the most horrendous thing...I wish they had a miracle cure for!! Heavy ❤ for every suferer...

[@OUATDW]

This is actually so important. I once got to uni and my depression just get way too much. I sent an email to my supervisor that I felt unwell and went home. People need to accept that they are one and the same

[@thesadhotdogm478]

IKR

[@abdlhmdx]

Unwell is unwell... no shit!

[@cpengwin]

Yes, and whether mental or physical, unwell requires treatment but not necessarily chemical treatment

[@deathmukh]

Depression is like wanting to go home but already being there

[@nikhilverma5477]

Or maybe not wanting to go anywhere even though one is still lost.

[@ashd7557]

I literally used to say this 'I wanna go back home' and make everyone confused..

[@yourmom6080]

Ash D i once had a breakdown and cried “please let me. Go home” i was at home

[@deathmukh]

Agreed

[@mrsmpty1750]

It's like the upside down in stranger stings you are in a familiar place but it's completely different and everything you are and have been is gone

[@DefrankedChannel]

Depression isn't just "being sad". It's not even really sadness. More like an unbelievable amount of stress and dread

[@lukefirst407]

Frantic omg thanks for saying this.

[@wolfiethehusky5062]

I’ve always felt like it was more like a lack of genuine positive emotion

[@filippians413]

For me depression is an absence of enthusiasm and hope.

[@that_cat21]

my friend once described it as feeling like she was drowning in the ocean, with no air (air being emotions). feeling completely numb, empty and trapped.

[@Vincent-pz3bc]

its denying the fact that u re lazy losers

[@panickingchemicalpiltsatth3752]

Depression is not wanting to die. It's so desperately wanting a reason to live.

[@kingofblacks1680]

Friend please don't take your life Away from me yes!!!

[@kris_py]

mix of both tbh

[@thedarkcloud1053]

Friend please don't take your life Away from me so wanting to die..

[@福白汪]

No that’s not what it is

[@panickingchemicalpiltsatth3752]

福白汪 then what is it to you if you don't mind me asking.

[@youtubevleisureaccount545]

Depression is sometimes going to sleep late because you dont want to wake up tomorrow

[@suivreve3759]

People asking my why I sleep so much. i like sleeping cause you can’t feel anything, you can’t feel this emptiness and sadness while sleeping.

[@shiran4204]

I do that every day.On school days too. I go to sleep at 3am every night because I don't wanna go to sleep because then , the next time I'll open my eyes I'll need to wake up and go to school. And in school I feel so tired and like I'm dying. Then I sleep too much on the afternoon and can't get myself out the bed. That's my routine

[@blixter9431]

Knightwalker The Second relatable. I went to bed at 1am something and was going back to physical school after 5 months and when I closed my eyes I said, “what if I just go to sleep and die in my sleep?” Then chuckled (I sort of have a dark mind) bc that’s way too easy and I told myself that there are other ways to deal with it even if I don’t want to have to anymore. God let me live another day

[@joshmarvel5327]

Yeah but it sucks cuz ur mum gonna wake u

[@fbiagentmiyakohoshino8223]

Knightwalker The Second thats so me my sleep cycle changes a lot

[@AuthenticMentalHealth]

Depression is the most exhausting feeling in the world, it’s the most hopeless feeling in the world, depression makes you feel lost and you think you’re going to be lost forever💔

[@fatguylungs333]

Cancer

[@benjamindonaldson7867]

A N T A R E S elaborate

[@jackson.denzler.]

Anxiety is worse in my opinion especially health anxiety

[@antxv713]

I can relate

[@UnVictor]

Authentic Mental Health thanks for reaffirming that.

[@autummleaf1049]

I've been depressed from a very young age and it really screws you up. People should get help when they are depressed because you don't deserve less. When you need help get it because people need to care for themselves because they don't deserve to suffer.

[@IndelibleHD]

@@DP_DR Dude, why the hate?

[@danielam2386]

Me too

[@Chopper8472]

​@@DP_DR Telling someone that typed to shut up, where's the logic there?

[@lifecreator6545]

❤❤

[@franciscvmpbell]

Mine kicked in at 16, changed the entire trajectory of my life

[@istealwaifus8526]

The worst kind of depression is when you don't know what's making you depressed.

[@su0gamer815]

or when it hurts so bad you stop feeling anything at all which somehow makes you feel worse

[@Killer_Turnip]

Took me many years to discover that I even had depression, let alone the causes for it. Eventually I figured out things that affected me as a kid to where I didn't know how to emotionally process them, they just festered. Plus social anxiety and self esteem issues. I'm okay-ish now, a lot happier...opening up to people about your feelings really helps. Also forgiving yourself.

[@istealwaifus8526]

KillerTurnip that's great that you're better now! Generally it's the opposite with depression.... Fighting !!💪💪

[@m4tta]

also when it’s to the point of losing yourself, not knowing who you are anymore

[@istealwaifus8526]

B G damn........that's so rough. I can't speak cause I can't relate completely but I feel you . I'm bad at giving advice but maybe change your diet and eat lots of fruits to fill your tummy? It'll cleanse your body and you'll feel full. Also I think it's important you try to find someone at work who you can hang around. The best feeling in the world is when there's someone to listen to your struggles and grief. Just letting it all out is like removing some of the negativity. I know it's easy for me to say cuz I have no clue about the kind of ppl there but one try ain't gonna hurt 👍 I hope you get what you needed even though you don't know what's it that you want.😊

[@elliembh1726]

"why can't a penguin fly? They have two wings like every other bird" Just summed up how my family see mental illness

[@anowak4551]

And social anxiety... It's the kind of poetry they should teach at school XD

[@ms2k7Gaming]

They are not light weight or made from feathers so they cant make enough force to lift off lol

[@monalisaphan563]

Yeah, it's like people always tell me that they passing same life as me, but why cant i pass trough it but they can?

[@Catarinense-og8gu]

Jesus loves you, Jesus cares about you, God loves you, have a good day.

[@aaliyahetc.6687]

@@Catarinense-og8gu wow thanks were all cured lmao

[@AceBambam]

it's like you're always tired and don't enjoy anything anymore

[@CBRN-115]

Me for the last few months. Possibly years, I don't know. I never went to a clinic.

[@zootgirls3510]

*@Bobby Brown* Here's a great website that will help you cure your depression: www.ZootSad. xyz

[@shadytea6564]

Yes me it’s painful...

[@jitmanyukohli2887]

True

[@SM-fy2im]

Yup

[@thereach4321]

Depression is like knowing you're a living human with so much potential for difference but being clouded in a dark truth that you'll never truly live

[@Jst4fun817]

Yes.

[@DiboraBinebeb]

This is, this just hit me so hard. It's the most I've ever related.

[@kamij2869]

Wow related so much

[@rosewood8302]

I wanna cry. This is so relatable. I'm just want to get out so fricking much! I just wanna get out of this trap and live my life. And I hope that I'll soon get out, and hope again, and again. I feel like all that I'm doing is hoping. But it's the only way to stay alive. I'm saying myself that after all, maybe just surviving these times is accomplishment on itself for me. It makes me feel a little bit better about myself.

[@calebcjg3536]

Not many tv channels would cover such a serious topic I think it’s great that bbc are doing that

[@ConstantThrowing]

What? Which channels wouldn't or havent covered depression or poor mental health?

[@calebcjg3536]

Constant Throwing itv for example

[@MimixLight]

Mr Saucer yes but bbc is still retarded

[@ConstantThrowing]

@@calebcjg3536 Dude, you can just google 'ITV depression' and like seven programs that ITV have made on depression show up on the first page of results.

[@Muzzy33]

Not many tv channels have caused the amount of depression that the bbc has

[@Khaoula2613]

Depression is experiencing life being lifeless. It is not the opposite of happiness, it's the opposite of life and a side effect of death.

[@Khaoula2613]

@@JakobatHeart Well, usually trying to make sense of something that doesn't make sense is hard. Also, I didn't say death was the side effect.

[@Khaoula2613]

@@JakobatHeart Hahah it's okay

[@Value9796]

Yea it’s like having no reason to live and nothing to look forward to and you just feel alone

[@F1ll1nTh3Blanks]

For me depression is just a state of being dead but alive. I didn't care about myself. I saw no hope so I just considered myself a lost cause. There was little joy or anything to look forward to. I just got down on my luck and I was tired. Eventually I rode the train into the ground. I pretty much lost everything. I was happy to play away my mortality, nothing mattered anymore, not even sure how I am still alive when I think about it. 😂

[@Sophie-go7fd]

injured soul this is beautiful in the most sad way

[@stone_coldrasta6474]

The worst thing about having depression is that it's as if it's not real for everyone else and only people who have been through it understand

[@antonribkin5319]

Thats just not true

[@stone_coldrasta6474]

Anton Ribkin most of the time it is

[@girlnextdoor2723]

Not even all people who experienced depression. For example if I watch videos from people with depression homes/rooms, there are always people in the comments saying "that they had depression but could never live in a mess no matter how much they were depressed", so clearly most people are still judgemental and compare themselves to the rest of the world, cause if they could do it the rest of the world also should or else they should feel ashamed of themselves.

[@deeprest1621]

I haven't met a single person in my life who has depression in my country. I guess I am the only one who has it.

[@martinlim5510]

The worst is having anxiety on top on depression And also not being able to explain it when someone asks you why you are this and that.

[@kristin3964]

Yeah that's basically me

[@martinlim5510]

@dangboof I have thoughts about suicide. And it is painful. It's hard and I wish I weren't here on this earth. But. We should hang on buddy. We aren't here alone

[@juicebox.319]

yep

[@jennifersantillana9738]

OmG I feel like this all the time

[@MintPro47]

Nah I have them both plus I was born with aspergers

[@mlk3327]

Depression is like you know that you feel something but at the same time, you don't know what you feel you just can't describe it.

[@adie9314]

Melly Ya i can totally relate to that. a lot of people say that its some hunger that can't satisfied, or a void thats is slowly devouring you, but honestly (from my personal experience) its like a big fat man who lives in your brain and takes up all the space, and squishes you against the hard,cold hard wall of you head and makes you feel soo uncomfortable. And you try to make choices at first, you try to push back, but the fat man doesn't care he just wants his way, and eventually it gets harder and harder to push back you just, give up. You let the fat man eat whatever he wants, you let him sleep for as long as he wants, you let him take make choices for you and slowly but surly you decay away. But the thing is you are the fat man. You, are wasting your own time, you are the one making choices, you should be perfectly comfortable. I mean you got perfectly good head to stay in, the walls aren't even that cold and hard, but you still feel incredible uncomfortable, for no comprehensional reason.

[@anyone359]

Melly i know that feeling

[@mannyperez9586]

Do I have depression or am I more mature

[@orf2072]

The best therapist is someone who had depression and knows what it's like. Doesn't matter how much you study this, you won't get it until you feel it.

[@TT35109]

hamster four I had severe depression and tried to help someone in the same boat but got screwed over by them. Even if a person understands, it doesn’t mean they’ll be respected. I try to sympathize with others but then I realize that there are two types of mental health people. The ones that actually want to get better, and the ones that don’t but just say they do. Be careful who you help. They might be the latter.

[@taunokekkonen5733]

I'd still trust a brain surgeon who hasn't had brain surgery done on themself..

[@orf2072]

@@taunokekkonen5733 it's not the same, I'm talking about feelings

[@orf2072]

@@TT35109 I ment a therapist that had depression before he was a therapist

[@taunokekkonen5733]

@@orf2072 there is also a risk of bias. Whateverbworked for him might not work now for you.

[@Gyrbae]

Me: I'm depressed. Friend: You got nothing to be depressed about. Get over yourself. Me: Thanks for listening.

[@janpieterszooncoen2550]

what friends

[@Gyrbae]

@@janpieterszooncoen2550 Good question.

[@timallen4717]

Gyrbae Literally my family

[@antxv713]

those aren’t real friends

[@jacobhache1159]

@@antxv713 the depression is probably fake too.

[@Bloodybear06]

My depression is like it *doesn't matter if you are happy at the moment, it will come back again eventually.* I can't get rid of it no matter how happy I can get.

[@yadiyyussof95]

Depression sucks, it play your mind.. It doesn't let you to be happy.

[@DiamondWhite91]

If you have tried everything and failed, then you won’t loose anything if you try this. Try finding guidance, like real guidance. Search for God. If you don’t believe he exists, then open your mind and search for him or any sign that he does exist. If you already believe in God. Then search for the right path, open your mind and heart to other religions different than yours, just ask God directly to show you true guidance. God promises that if you search for him with an open mind and not being stubborn about your own religion then he will gift you with true guidance. Now what does this have to do with depression? If you are truly guided you will never be depressed. Because you will be at an inner peace no matter what your situation is. Just try it.

[@nastaranmoarefi9438]

베어블러디 tell that negative nagging voice to shut the hell up

[@KaifamGaming]

:((

[@KaifamGaming]

Its tiring af

[@lesliejuarez6116]

It’s like watching everyone be happy and move on with their lives and you’re stuck in the same place not being able to do anything

[@mandofloxks1629]

LMFOAOAOA

[@lesliejuarez6116]

@@mandofloxks1629 whats funny?

[@mandofloxks1629]

Peaches I knew u would’ve said that I basically made u said what I wanted u to say, so I controlled u and made u react to wat I said so I basically wasted a space in your brain cause u had to read my comment and think about it.

[@thesaddestdude3575]

@@lesliejuarez6116 Dont listen to him his a troll. He lacks direction and control in his life so he tries to gain it by harassing people and shit like that.

[@joshhutchinson6053]

@@mandofloxks1629 lmao bro u gotta be the most miserable person here - and that’s saying something considering this comment section full of depressed peeps

[@aileneaugustine8671]

My dad was the greatest thing that ever existed he would always laugh and always make everyone happy . He was such a joy and he was someone everybody loved my dad killed himself 1 year ago and it just killed me cause he left behind a note where he talked about his depression . It hurts me to know that I couldn't help him. It made me realize that depressed ppl don't always need to show that they are sad it's not something you can bloody show so if a person is giving signs wherter they are silent please for help or loud sobs or being alone or sad please reach out to them they need u

[@verneata1788]

Ailene Augustine I’m sorry for your loss. 💞

[@xaviergotti9324]

I feel this way now always happy for others always putting on a smile but inside i feel like im dying. Im so sad and honestley ready to give up the fight.......its a struggle everyday.

[@aileneaugustine8671]

@@xaviergotti9324 hey if u ever wanna talk we are there mate ♥️

[@Ben14102]

Xavier Gotti trust me things do get better❤️

[@QueenBeeBeautyXO]

So sorry for your loss😕😢😩

[@lomando2117]

“it felt like someone had taken an thousand ruber bands and just tighten them on my skull” relate af

[@yacoale8153]

No you don't, shut up

[@lomando2117]

Yaco Ale do you know everything?

[@yacoale8153]

@@lomando2117 I know enough

[@yungmentalproblems]

Mythbusters should do that to the narrator.

[@fauzirahimpohan3130]

@@yacoale8153 it's headache dumbass

[@shiran4204]

Depression is feeling like you're existing in an endless loop of numbness .

[@DaniClipz]

Yup...

[@izzylandyt]

I definitely got that numbness

[@anothersoldier3420]

True Story, therefore „Numb“ from Linkin Park is one of my favourite songs

[@hunterwheeler675]

What sucks is when you think things are finally going good again it gets torn away from you

[@jokesonyou222]

Literally

[@Lredfloss1]

That's one person's experience of depression. I believe people experience it differently, some apects will be similar and some different but all are unique. There shouldn't be a blanket statement saying "this is what depression feels like" if I had seen this video with that title before I was diagnosed I may have put off that important trip to the gp even longer. It is a good video, I just think the title could be better

[@Jonestime1]

Lredfloss1 I learned something during my worst times with the illness. The cue is different, but a lot of experiences are similar. I always thought I would really have depressions and others not, because I REALLY had to experienced shit and others sat in therapy because their rich parents pushed them to work harder. But I had to learn, those “small” cues (in my eyes) triggered the same illness, with the same consequences. Some of them didn’t make it and those “small” cues were enough. Never judge. Breaking your leg during rugby or during a Cocaine Trip in Dubai is also the same.

[@Wodenson]

My experience is much, much darker, but thats me, im glad that this was made though, it opens the some to what we Really need to be talking about, the people who have it long term with multiple disorders, self harming etc

[@ashcatchum]

Eruan Cook same. Mine has been much darker. I feel like he’s describing that sort of “normal” depression teenagers and young people in their 20s go through. I’m not down playing what he went through at all but that’s just how I describe it because a lot of people at uni get mental health disorders for the first time in their lives because it’s their first time away from home among other factors

[@altheawarren729]

Absolutely TRUE!!

[@northofthestar388]

Well there’s a lot of types of depression. Major depression, dysthymia, bipolar depression and SAD are the ones I can think of.

[@nocturnallight2827]

I dont want to end up homeless im not lazy i just lost interest in life....

[@AmokCanuck]

We all go through this mate. We really just need to find our own way to work through it or else it will define you. You can't let our problems define us, define our problems. Stay strong brother.

[@scrantonstrangler1552]

You can either pimp the situation you’re in or fall victim to it

[@agent5758]

Same man I'm at my last breathe of life here, tried self medicating with cannabis but every time I take a T break it magnifies my PTSD, anxiety and depression all at once a d it's unbearable so I'm over cannabis altogether. I'm trying to get professional help now but therapy doesn't feel like it's really going anywhere and I'm still on a waiting list for a psychiatrists. I want to work, I want to save money, I really do, but I'm so off put by every thing in the world right now. I don't even enjoy producing music anymore. I honestly just want to buy a van to live in and go away.

[@nocturnallight2827]

We should build a community for us by us ? Does it make sense ? I hope other people like me can join and build but how can we start? And who would join? 😔

[@fabulousimcatbulous690]

@@nocturnallight2827 its make sense for me. I see your point, maybe if we make such community we can help each other..... but there's problems too. I tried to do so by renting a house with housemates that "feel" similar. We have our own case of depression (maybe), we have good families but fucked up as a child. One of us like to hammering/killing random animal, the other doing juvenile delinquency things in his early 20, and one other somehow don't get the concept of responsibility. We starting off with many problems, with me, the oldest, as the main caretaker who pay bills, clean house etc. One get better by the time, get a job, paid the money back (i keep notes on how much they owe me), and able to get along with his family. The other one however, still dgaf about his responsibility despite I explaining it, take a bath only once every week, and don't even try to take care of his pet. Meanings, even if we create such community there still need those who take care of things and always those who don't or can't try to be a better person.

[@shanenelson3863]

Depression is like feeling everything and nothing at the same time.

[@imaneb1629]

Exactly

[@elijahjones7002]

Just nothing for me

[@shanenelson3863]

@@elijahjones7002 that nothing is something bro. You might feel like its nothing but its a nothing that feels negative. Am I right? That negative feeling can deepen and go so deep that you will wake up one day and realize it's stolen your time that you can never get back. That is a horrible feeling and I'm telling you this because I don't want anyone to know what that overwhelming regret is like. If you aren't seeking some kind of help like counseling or a prescribed medication please do. It's worth the try because untreated depression can get dark and dangerous. People are dying From it everyday and it's a real tragedy because life is precious and probably rare and to be real with you it's probably the only one any of us will ever experience in the existence of the universe. Compare the average life expectancy to the billions of years the universe has existed and the many more billions it will more than likely exist and that will help you understand you how precious this incredibly tiny experience really is. I hope that helps you want to try to make the most out of life cause that is extremely hard with depression.

[@shanenelson3863]

@@imaneb1629 depression is like my ex. Everyone has had it atleast once and nobody wants to experience that agony again.🤦‍♀️😂🤷‍♀️

[@elijahjones7002]

@@shanenelson3863 the emptiness is heavy and does get painful from time to time I've been trying to get in touch with a doctor

[@sarahlewis7859]

"The worst part about having a mental illness is people expect you to behave as if you don't" - Joker 2019 It's funny because it's true

[@tonyn9858]

hi i can only pretend for a short while tony

[@arjii2070]

Me: Mum, i have got depression 😔 Mum: Its that damn phone

[@biancaioana2717]

Matoo well, she s kinda right 😭

[@arjii2070]

@@biancaioana2717 i havent acc got it, but, depression isnt all bout the phone, it can just be there in ur head

[@still.kinda.sad.405]

See I feel like having access to the internet was what let me recognize that I could have depression. It showed me that other people feel this, I’m not crazy, it’s something a lot of people experience.

[@dooneyt.v.2615]

This course about mental health really helped me personally I hope it helps you too!! human-happens.teachable.com/?affcode=327618_ytqi_guo

[@homuraki]

Thanks, you made my laugh. Xd

[@larrystylinson1359]

Depression is being on your phone the whole night because it keeps you distracted from bad thoughts.

[@idonotknoww9808]

X x_LarryQueen_x X wow . That hit me hard

[@astroqueen9939]

God yes

[@MoniquesChannel]

I've been doing this for the past 2 weeks. At least 3 days out of each week I haven't slept at all.

[@dumbleking5172]

Our phones are really the things to avoid the problems in life

[@larrystylinson1359]

Monique Nonye I’ve been doing this since I was 11 and can’t stop anymore. But you can still try to stop with it. Its really not healthy and one of the most worst habits ever. Since my mother takes away my phone at night I now try different things like drawing or reading before bed. It’s maybe not as effective to distract, but it helps too.

[@chasun8186]

Depression in my case didn't feel like rainbowish patterns flying all over my vision.

[@meekly545]

Chasun • i laughed a little harder than i should've yep i'm going to hell

[@dissmabae]

@@meekly545 I'll meet you in hell🤷🏻‍♀️

[@t.s.5094]

Dumb Stick hey, wait, don’t forget about me!

[@adamcoburn2646]

Chasun • it’s just the visuals did you not listen to a single word

[@minecraftasmrskertskert269]

edamamely me 4!

[@valueinyou9931]

Having anxiety and depression is like being terrified and exhausted at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, coupled with no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends but hating socializing. It’s wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely. It’s feeling everything at once, yet being paralyzingly numb.

[@Cloud777-7]

You put into words what I’ve haven’t been able too for a long time. Thank you.

[@valueinyou9931]

@@Diana-yn2ho It's horrendous, isn't it? I hope for two things: 1) that if you are feeling this way you can manage it and heal enough to find your way back, and 2) we one day live in a world where people realize this affliction is horrid and not a 'feeling' or a 'phase'. Prayers to you all ❤

[@valueinyou9931]

@@Diana-yn2ho You're very welcome. We need to stick together in a world that largely just doesn't understand or even more sadly, doesn't care.

[@BellaVevo08]

Omg this is what I feel it's been a whole year and half and i can't escape it. It's so exhausting

[@behindmyblueeyes99]

Yeah, that is me now, I guess.

[@masonfreeman3468]

Depression is like being a background character in your own story

[@bxtchesmia_3842]

I felt that shit

[@bxtchesmia_3842]

No boys like me, I only have like 1 person who I actually think is my true friend and I just feel like I’m always quietly in the background of my own life.

[@sidewayskiwikick2899]

That’s probably the most heavy hitting way to discribe depression. You hit the nail on the head. Hope all is well, let me know buddy

[@aimeegardner9736]

YEP. like your invisible to everyone even yourself

[@ranirupeiris]

that's hit me boy

[@angrycactus158]

Depression is feeling like your drowning, while everyone is swimming. Your starving, everyone is full when you can’t be. Your stuck in your head and you’ll do anything to escape for a minute.

[@lovelydolltime8006]

If you also have anxiety, you're in another dimension.

[@thedarkcloud1053]

Vivi Underhay you’re

[@OA2605]

It's like you're drowning and you don't have energy to swim

[@elizabethporter2127]

I just feel numb and paralyzed like I’m frozen while the world is going on.

[@cam-bj9jj]

Elizabeth Porter this made me cry and idk why

[@bonurse7969]

@Pulling the Strings Oh, so you're also from planet Ehkyfirutopy?

[@moonyur5244]

Pulling the Strings im sorry but this made me laugh a bit. 😤🤭🤣

[@shannon504]

EverythingGoes right? Today we will survive........same sis

[@limitlesszay4847]

Same...

[@m4tta]

for me, depression is a constant state of apathy and self doubt, having the feeling to just lay down and do absolutely nothing until you’re covered with a thick layer of dust

[@ssaltyy8457]

That’s just being insecure

[@m4tta]

ssaltyy no? that doesn’t even fit the description also depression comes with insecurity so what

[@thesaddestdude3575]

@@m4tta Thats true, people with depression often feel low self esteem and such. Its a symptom but not the whole picture.

[@allisonduncan4913]

For anyone suffering from mental illness, scrolling through the comments, feeling alone and depressed, I want to say I love you. Someone out there cares. Xoxo ❤❤

[@chkbrki8992]

That's me everytime I'm watching KZbin vid. Thank u

[@allisonduncan4913]

@@chkbrki8992 you're very welcome! Xoxo 💗💕

[@shellbug3100]

Thank u hun!!😍

[@prernag]

Thank you

[@onetrick2912]

you don't actually but thanks for the motivation

[@mxrishak5569]

thank you for covering such a heavy topic that many people suffer in silence with ❤️ so many students are taking their lives 😔

[@Otakuhannah121]

@CoDKillerCam Reported him.

[@dimitrisgikas8039]

Very true.

[@vuktrajkovski1969]

I love you

[@cassie1753]

exactly.. i've already had 5 people take their lives in my school and i feel like there's nothing i can do about it, it's awful.

[@yacoale8153]

Its bad actually It's inaccurate

[@JohnGeorge-pw2xo]

Psilocybin containing mushrooms treatment saved my life honestly from depression. Never had a bad trip

[@MuratBasar-jm9lc]

I'm so very happy for you, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.

[@ErnestoHorner88]

Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏

[@Caroljoyce-mp8sk]

Hey! Yes Predroavaro

[@NetaZjdb]

Mushrooms are very medicinal. This is why anybody familiar with psilocybin and any other kind of fungi will tell you, "They are alive." They have a very ancient wisdom. To my experience, all mushrooms have always said, "Pay attention to your life. How you think, how you feel, and what will you do with the information that you always knew, but now are seeing in this point of view." This is why mushrooms are so respected in tribal cultures. This mental health treatment works for me too. Half micro doses do the trick for me. At least a few days at a time with lengthy time in between. Never addictive. Thank you for sharing this point!

[@zaxooohgc]

How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

[@plathrop7737]

I hope that all who suffer from depression see this video. Well done.

[@d0wnf4ll57]

"well done, you are depressed" ?????????????

[@watzz_1294]

PLathrop well I’m here :;)

[@fudgecake4633]

Well done. You've survived for this long. It might not feel like it should be something to celebrate but, by god, it is.

[@Vincent-pz3bc]

everyone who suffers from "depression" can now blame their problems with other emo teens on some crap made up bullshit thanks to this video

[@nenidetic]

@@Vincent-pz3bc stop saying these things

[@omarscoolfool]

the hardest part of depression is trying to get help but have no idea where to start or who to tell

[@bxtchesmia_3842]

Omar Manasrah I haven’t told anyone. Not my parents. Not my friends. Nobody. Idk why but I feel like people won’t understand and I’m scared of idek

[@claireisol]

my parents think people with mental illnesses are seeking attention so i know that if i told them how bad it’s getting they wouldn’t do much

[@heba3674]

@@bxtchesmia_3842 I feel the same really. Sending you love and strength my friend❤

[@bxtchesmia_3842]

He ba thank you, same to you ❤️ ily

[@InfiresTaekook]

Depression is sometimes like your body refuses you.

[@rarebreednoel]

Well described

[@reynhacoezy5510]

It’s basically a fight . Your body want to live while your mind want to die . And this fight just put you into a state of mental and physical emotion... And no sleep can cure this .

[@fivenotewonder]

Last summer I had a bout of depression. There was a day where I was resting on my bed. I wanted to try to get up but couldn't physically move. I sobbed until my girlfriend popped her head in the room and I said all I wanted was to get up but COULDN'T. It was that point she realised this was more than feeling sad.

[@marinewauquier8630]

@@fivenotewonder I cannot begin to tell you how much I relate to this. Thank you for making me see my experiences are valid

[@EliasSchnetzer]

It's not that ypur body refuses you, your body refuses your thougths/brain. And if you have a depression you connected the image of yourself with your thoughts. But your brain is just a tool you can use, like your arms, eyes, legs. Meditation can help to seperate yourself from your brain.

[@kennethazor]

Feels like a blackness.. a void. An emptiness. A deep hunger food can't curb

[@-nightraider-1169]

Kenneth Azor don’t worry man, work hard enough to get out of that depression, then one day you will see that light at the end of the tunnel.

[@aaronguenther3577]

😪

[@JoshB_17]

Shopping helps for a bit

[@flameera1093]

That...that description...couldn’t have described it better

[@fabiolagonzalez5926]

What the what

[@amina9044]

i forgot when was the last time i was actually happy and not pretending to be im so sick of putting a fake smile in front of my parents and friends..Well still fighting depression

[@htsung1418]

Stay strong and positive. Take care. From someone who is going through it.

[@bxtchesmia_3842]

Same. I wish I was back to like 6 years old when I was truly happy and living my best life. Idk

[@sangitatandekar6938]

I don't know what to do

[@jamilaorea3720]

It feels like you're living in third person and nothing seems real and you just float around lifeless

[@thethingy8814]

What you just described sounds more like derealization/depersonalization to me. Could be due to depression or other comorbid disorders.

[@Zghost276]

Sometimes life feels like a dream or a simulation, so fake. Like there’s nothing real to it and no reason for anything. It’s weird

[@thethingy8814]

@@Zghost276 Look up maladaptive daydreaming. Sounds a bit like what you are describing.

[@Zghost276]

The Thingy well I don’t know because I don’t necessarily spent a lot of time daydreaming. It’s more of like I don’t know how to discern the difference between real life and my dreams sometimes. Like sometimes I forget where I even come from, or forget my identity. Like I was just placed here out of nowhere and it feels like I’m looking at reality through my mind not through my eyes

[@blackbat121]

It feels like you can’t face anything anymore and everything is getting worse

[@songbirdj482]

There’s a huge issue with the title of this video. Depression never ever feels the same for every case. It is a particular beast that shapes its form to each individual personality.

[@thesaddestdude3575]

True, but it does have alor of common traits.

[@josielovett9721]

This should be a further shout to the government that clearly too much stress is put onto people at such a young age to be under pressure to do and learn things that will lost likely never be used in actual work. The way that they do not take into account that no one is the same especially at the ages 14+ to try and fit into a certain system just to earn an adequate living, not even considering the factor that many children take their own life because of this factor alone.

[@kmineww5801]

Michael Stone Actually thé governments pride is putting some children at risk

[@VanHalensApprentice]

Yea. Well if you study personality for a bit (not a total professional, but psychology has always peaked my interest), you realize that society is made for the “normal” person, that is, people who are within one or two standard deviations of the mean or average. This implies that the way society is made isn’t necessarily the best for everyone. People who are outside of the bell curve (look it up on google) tend to struggle with adjusting to how everything is set up. So yea, I definitely agree with how it’s not one size fits all. There’s definitely variation in humans, which is why we’ve survived for so long. But, I disagree about the too much stress and pressure statement. From what I’ve read, at least, we’ve been extremely overprotective of children and so whenever there is a real problem that arises, children don’t know how to react to it. A good analogy that I like to compare it too is allergies. You don’t expose your child to things, so their immune system doesn’t build up, which is why allergies are such an epidemic in 3rd world countries. I think if we steadily expose children to the outside world at a younger age, they would be better able to cope with the daily stressors of life. I might be wrong, but I think it’s a viable solution

[@rarebreednoel]

Very true. In my country, people even have this mindset where anyone who suffer from mental illness is potrayed as being "crazy". Thats why people'd rather choose to keep everything for themselves instead of seeking for help.

[@MrGamingBobo]

Sorry but disagree everything is important In politics mental illness is the same as every other illness and yeah should be discussed and helped but not by the government if there was that much they could do about it they do it. School is the way to find people's education in different subjects some people lack some and some excel in others it's the most effective way of finding people's strong points unless you can suggest anything else and even that would cost so much money. Yeah school pressure makes it worse but isn't that what parents are for to support them if they are not able to reach those grades. Grades are a bus ticket you can always walk the rest . The issue is parents put pressure on children to reach those grades rather than give them alternatives if they screw up without it being negative. Mental illness is a massive issue but I just don't think the government can do anything about it I suppose is what I'm trying to say.

[@fauzirahimpohan3130]

You're just lazy probably stupid as well

[@gabbertrap8248]

The worst thing is loving someone with depression. You feel so useless in that situation.

[@jooshie3873]

That’s not worse than depression lol

[@nooneinparticular5525]

@@jooshie3873 same 🤕

[@rob_3417]

That's not worse than having depression.

[@parasoft9388]

@@jooshie3873 it is worse actually. Someone with depression knows he has depression. The one you love can't understand, he doesn't have depression he just know you feel bad he tries to do everything to make you feel good and it's not enough. That makes them feel worse since they don't know why you can't be happy with them.

[@gabbertrap8248]

@@parasoft9388 pain.

[@ihavesomethingtosay9270]

Everything becomes nothing. Nothing has no meaning. And nothing is just nothing anymore.

[@misudenshi264]

Fauzi Rahim Pohan that doesn’t help even one bit, just try to explore your surroundings.

[@ihavesomethingtosay9270]

@@misudenshi264 I appreciate your concern, but not all of us deal with things the same way.

[@ihavesomethingtosay9270]

@dangboof yes! A twisted and dark way of life, yet its all we know now.

[@dooneyt.v.2615]

This course about mental health really helped me personally I hope it helps you too!! human-happens.teachable.com/?affcode=327618_ytqi_guo

[@youngniggaz1049]

Exactly

[@robertacmarques]

I feel I’m just a walking dead person. I don’t want to “exist “ anymore.

[@racheliacob4425]

Robbie Marques sameeee

[@alexknight8174]

Sameeee I feel empty inside

[@happity]

Ask God for the living Holy Spirit to dwell inside of you in the name of Jesus. 🙏👍

[@htsung1418]

R u here? Pls do stay. Not for anyone but for you n you only. Pls talk to someone you trust and share ur feelings, it will not solve the problem but u will feel tiny bit burdenless.Be strong. Stay safe. Tc

[@amedori18]

This hurt me to read. I hope you're still here and found some sort of light that has eradicated those awful feelings. Stay alive

[@livvyxmae]

I’m fortunate to not have depression or any other mental illnesses, but I just want to hug every depressed person. It’s a thing nobody should have to deal with

[@limitlesszay4847]

Livvy Mae i hope you never encounter this it honestly slowly destroys you..

[@dnaroseandthewolves]

arms open

[@Unknown-tl5ts]

Depression: You’ll be so close to the top of the water. You can see the rays of light, and you’re just inches from the surface. Then it drags you down to the black pit. You kick and swim back to the top with all of your strength, and it just drags you down. It’s one the most painful things I’ve ever experienced.

[@anonymouswombat2354]

It's weird, I've seen people with drowning analogies, but my analogy was always the opposite. To me, depression is like that feeling you get when you're trying to swim to the bottom of the pool, but your bouyancy drags you back up. When you sit on the bottom, everything is calm and you're in control. At the surface, the water is choppy and it's noisy. When you're depressed, you're not in control. It's overwhelming and it feels like it's impossible to reach a state of contentment because you have to work so hard. It's like trying to work against gravity, to swim to the bottom. And yeah, definitely the worst thing I've ever felt. At its worst, it was just crushing, all-consuming sadness, with no way to feel better.

[@Tamara-ju3lh]

This is so accurate to how I feel. I was just trying to explain to someone and I used the constantly drowning line. And suffocating while everyone else is breathing normally.

[@samm9752]

I’m not diagnosed with depression, but I relate to the things he’s saying so much

[@JyotiSingh007]

It's like I have to force myself to live, to feel, to smile, to breathe evenly and then to fight the exhaustion after forcing myself to do all things "normal". It's like a prison. I even had therapy and medications for a year and a half but whenever I tried to got off them I came to realize that it was just numbing my senses. So I stopped taking them for good. But my old roommate depression is still very much with me and I've stopped trying to tell anyone about it because the kind of things they say, makes you feel more lonely and kind of a bad lazy person. I'm just trying to love myself through all this.

[@imaneb1629]

I understand you . Thank you for opening up. I wish you freedom and i wish you to feel natural and pur joy like kids feels. I wish you can feel no obligation to anything and more of ease and calm relax and fresh and energetic to everything and to whatever you love and like or used to love deep inside.

[@sophiee3623]

Whenever I hear someone talk about their depression (which sadly is only ever on the internet and never in a situation in which i could open up to someone about mine) I just start crying because it hurts but also feels so so good to be reminded that I'm not alone and not the only one in this dark place. Thank you for this. I'm still hoping that one day I'll just wake up without this heaviness in my heart

[@Liezkuhh]

You’ll get there ❤️

[@tazb1110]

I have been depressed for sooo long, i hav noticed ppl r very selfish they dont wanna know u when ur sad and depressed, but they come running when ur smiling. But surely true family and friends should be there through the good and the bad. No one cares, not even my own mother or husband, i just want someone to console me and tell me it will be ok 😢 i dont ask for much, just a hug to make me feel ok.

[@gracecatacutan4754]

Hugs for you my friend 💜 We'll get through this.

[@tracyndlovu9717]

This is how i feel right now. Haven't left my house in 2 days. Haven't spoken to anyone in 2 days. Not even 1 person (including my family) has called to see if I'm okay. Makes me realize that i could easily kill myself and no one would know or care. Feel like switching off my phone for a week and just be alone with my thoughts. All I need is a hug, someone to be around me but not say anything. Don't know if that even makes sense.

[@tazb1110]

@@tracyndlovu9717 u make complete sense, i have thought all those things myself too. I think we need to come to terms with the fact that we need to love ourselves and be strong for ourselves. Because no one is gonna rescue us from this we hav to find the inner strength, and its hard when we feel broken inside. Hang in there my love ur not alone, thats what keeps me going..there are plenty of others out there suffering just like u dont feel alone sending hugz ur way sweety xxxxx

[@tazb1110]

@@gracecatacutan4754 aww much appreciated xx

[@fabiancalderon1743]

I can relate, I've been there, feeling like nobody understands, like nobody really cares but is false idea I had, it is hard but when you make the decision to reach out to your mother and family and explain your feelings and they way you feel, they start to realize it is something serious, they try to help. It gets better, believe me.

[@auh4806]

"To live, is to suffer. To survive, is to find some meaning in the suffering." ~Friedrich nietzsche

[@kirylkrasouski]

I've had depression and anxiety disorders since 17yo. Now I'm 20. Counseling and meds help a lot, but even despite them I still feel like...like I am in chains. To do anything I have to struggle, fight to break those chains. Before it all came up I had been very active person: played sports, hung out a lot etc. I could never thought would become who I am now. Miss my old self so much 😭

[@naritruwireve1381]

To me, counselling and meds are like neatly done icing on a cake that has gone bad. The icing makes the cake look prettier, but it doesn't make the cake magically taste good. I'm always thinking "what's the point if I'm still going to be depressed at my core."

[@emmettolson3499]

This is someone’s personal story. Not everyone experiences this. They really should change the title

[@nataleedenlinger635]

Emmett Olson well i think people know it’s just an example

[@yacoale8153]

Who even is this guy? How did he cope with his depression? People usually drink, get high or hurt themselves. Attempting suicide is more often than not a cry for help. You usually fantasize about it or have awful thoughts before you try to commit suicide and if you are set on doing it you usually succeed, it's not that hard. This video is 100% made up

[@Vincent-pz3bc]

hes just a loser that blames his problems on bullshit

[@nenidetic]

@@Vincent-pz3bc you're kinda ignorant

UselessTrash #23 I think Vincent is going through some stuff and that's his way to cope

[@kellymaple4513]

That is exactly it. My parents are mental health deniers, and always discouraged me from being open about my conditions. They wanted me to be as ashamed of myself as they were of me. When I got to the bottom of a low and basically decided 'screw them', I reached out for help. I refused to continue to be ashamed. The outpouring of love, validation, and 'me too' that I got in response was so overwhelming. It was the most beautiful, precious thing. It saved my life. It opened my eyes to just how massive our community is, how many survivors are out there right now, and just how strong and brave we all are. I'm so proud of every single one of them. They showed me the fighter I have inside myself. They save me every day of my life. I've never once regretted coming out of the mental health closet.

[@wishyouthebest9222]

Depression is like you drowning yourself while forced looking at it happen through a impenetratable glasswall, even if you don't want it to happen...but kinda don't care at the same time.

[@Raven-wh2pl]

My thoughts were destroying me.But i tried not to think but the silence was a killer too.

[@julianf.5227]

You are feeling if everyone around you is your enemy. And you just can't recognize good moments in life

[@christique]

“i’m gonna die.” i felt that on a spiritual level

[@douaamebarki2831]

I'm depressed, attemted suicide twice. I cut I always thought I was alone but now I realise so many people can relate..... I like that ❤

[@maaajdaba8010]

I don't know you Douaa, but I just wanted to let you know that it's hard, it's not easy specially in a community where mental health is such a taboo, but you will get through it. For some people it lasts months, years, but for some others it can last a lifetime. But the most important thing is to never give up.

[@douaamebarki2831]

@@maaajdaba8010 Thank you I hope we all can get throught it.🙂💕

[@Ben14102]

I promise you life gets better. Stick in there❤️

[@douaamebarki2831]

@@Ben14102 Thank you I'll try 💕💕.

[@lifecreator6545]

❤❤❤❤

[@jazzyjaz9798]

I've been depressed again this year. I've failed all of my exams. Twice. I'm about to do 3 years of college in 5 because I won't be passing my semesters for the second time. This adds to my depression.. I feel very unwell too. This video made me feel less alone though and for that i'm grateful.

[@OMG-nv2ir]

Hang in there...theres always hope...it will get better :)

[@helmanosrati9718]

Where are you standing up

[@allisonduncan4913]

Don't give up. There's hope. Thinking of you. Xoxo

[@lizzie2trappy54]

Come off social media and revise. Mate of mine did that. Best thing that happened to him. Obviously come back after exams

[@lifecreator6545]

You will smile again. I promise you ❤

[@shiran4204]

My depression keeps me away from "friends"and family. It makes me tired of doing homework, or anything. It makes me be tired all the time. Tired that sleep can't fix. It makes me wanna die even on a good day. And the worst part is that it will never really go away.

[@sravanyeruva993]

What is your age

[@shiran4204]

@@sravanyeruva993 16and a half

[@sravanyeruva993]

@@shiran4204 i have been in depression few months ago I got you I don't know you are a boy or a girl But i know i thought i couldn't get out of it But i am so free and cool now If you're feeling alone or need some help we can chat on some social media....... Anything of your comfort will do And... Bye bye

[@shiran4204]

@@sravanyeruva993 I'm a girl and it started like 3 years ago. It always comes and goes. I know it will get better but I'm still hopeless

[@sravanyeruva993]

@@shiran4204 can we be friends i would love to be your friend

[@clareprv8878]

Depression experiences are personal and subjective, however the depressive feelings are equal to everyone but the strenght of the illness and the way people respond is different.

[@pineapplehead2730]

Nothing helps for depression. I tried everything, going outside, having social activities etc. I feel so empty inside. What should i do?

[@clareprv8878]

@@pineapplehead2730 maybe a psychoterapist could help, also taking medications

[@pineapplehead2730]

@@clareprv8878 i tried going to a psychoterapist bit it didt work for me. But i never tried taking medications

[@clareprv8878]

@@pineapplehead2730maybe, but medications don t make you stronger. However I want to say that whatever things you are going to do for getting better do not expect a miracle. And when you feel better that will be the worst part because you ll face the problems that made you depressed. I can say that if your aim is little you ll see improvements , if you are waiting to become who you were before, you are not going anywhere. Do not expect to be happy, try to do whatever makes you laugh and be ironic, and try to take life less seriously( I mean we give things too much importance when we shouldn t).

[@clareprv8878]

@@pineapplehead2730 I took medications and went to psychoterapist and I m not " cured" at all, I am a working in progress. I have suffered from this condition for ages. Now I can tell you that it is a little better if you just live: give you purposes and try to reach them.

[@horrorfan288]

When I told my brother I had depression he said: “Depression is on of the most overly diagnosed mental illness... What reason do you have to be sad? People who have depression is like you pity yourself. ‘Like oh woah is me, life is so hard.’ When there are others in this world who also struggle if not more. What you are feeling right now is hopelessness that you can’t do anything. Me and our other brother were also in your situation too. Feeling helpless. But we got through it, so you can too.” When he said that it felt like he shoved a knife in stomach. I felt guilty for even feeling this way. Guilty for feeling that I was making a scene. Guilty for even telling him I had depression. Guilty for even having depression. Guilty for making seem like my life was hard. I felt so disgusted with myself. I cried when I finished talking to him. I wasn’t crying because of the hopelessness he thought I had. I cried because I felt guilty. I was in pain. After this I texted my friend (she is also diagnosed with depression) and she said, “Look, your brother is a fucking idiot. Don’t listen to what that pendejo (idiot) is saying. If you feel sad, you have the right to feel sad. Don’t bottle that shit in and don’t feel guilty for feeling this way. Talk to me. You know my ass will always be here for you.” I love my friend, she my homie. She gave me a lot of love and support. If she ever needs something, I’ll be there for her.

[@JyotiSingh007]

I know that feeling. But I haven't found anyone to say something supportive of me.

[@yippehanako]

Peopel who say shit like that have zero idea what you're feeling. They're talking because they have a jaw and they like to hear their own voice and feel smart. They are incapable of seeing anything outside of their own experience so they make that the rule.

[@tmanmatt213]

Coming from someone who’s struggled with this shit my whole life, he’s right. Life is for living, not for moping. Hope all is well with you

[@Ana-gq7ce]

Well as someone who has had depressive episodes in the past, yes most of us do have a victim mentality and that is very dangerous because you feel like other people or life owe you something. And life doesn't work that way, shitty things happen and we must learn how to deal with it. Unless you are a kid and you have no tools or a person in a very difficult situation (like a homeless), you do have tools and access to the oportunity to get mentally healthy. The question is are you willing to do the work day in and day out?

[@alizamunir4747]

Depression is like standing in room filled with people,screaming your lungs out yet nobody can hear you.

[@oppa1319]

I believe it was a TED talk that summed it up perfectly IMO that depression is the loss of vitality. Always how I describe it to others who misinterpret it as sad.

[@DamienCloud]

Could you link me the video please?

[@oppa1319]

@@DamienCloud kzbin.info/www/bejne/mnO8hqFje6qmmcU

[@insop6432]

Mom: Can you (chores) Me: I feel tired Mom: How are you tired? All you did was staying home. Me: *Sigh*

[@naritruwireve1381]

IAmLazy That's exactly how my family is like. They'd be like "how are you tired?? You did nothing. I had work and even *_I'm_* not that tired"

[@TheOnlyTalia]

"how could you be depressed?! if anything, i should be depressed with all the stress of taking care of you!"

[@reynhacoezy5510]

« You cannot being depressed you’re too young to even understand the meaning of it. »

[@CreepyNinja99]

I feel tired but I still help around because I don't have to be even more burdensome with my state. People can feel tired because of depression, but our parents get tired too and they do most of the work anyways. I don't find my depression as an excuse to not help others. Besides, if we never push ourselves, we won't move forward.

[@Zzz-ghostyyy]

SlayMango you kind of have to or else it won’t get better. Hate to be that guy, but being “tired” isn’t and excuse to not do anything. I know it feels like it’s worthless to do it, but it will help either way.

[@juleye6248]

My parents always thought I was just being lazy and unmotivated. And i thought so too, but there’s this one time I felt so stressed out I didn’t know what to do to make myself feel better.. So I cut my hands with a broken mirror just to feel the pain on my hands instead of hurting in my head. I think my parents noticed it even if I tried to cover the scars, but they kept quiet. A few weeks after that, I felt better but it didn’t last long. The stress and other unexplainable thoughts and feelings came back. I didn’t want to cut myself anymore but I still felt like I needed to do something to myself, so I cut my hair. I thought that cutting my hair would lessen the burden on my mind.. I don’t know why. These made my parents realise that I actually am in a lot of pain, mentally. From that day onwards, they were always very considerate and did everything they could to make me feel better.

[@ushjaba1067]

Depression is tough and all but please don’t cut yourself or injure yourself in general. Resulting to physical pain is not the way to go about things.

[@kevantgrossrichardson2072]

“rubber bands around my skull” someone finally put it in words

[@GWbodycount]

As I read comments it just becomes relatable as ever. There was this moment when I 'snapped'. Couldn't take the ongoing day to day drag that had been haunting me since my childhood, I wanted 'out', change up my life, stop living in fear, having year long fights with my stepparent. That's when I slowed down, took a step back, took a breather and started over. Panic attacks and suicidal fantasies have been a daily routine for a few years now, sadly. It's the feeling of hopelessly 'pushing on'. There will be better days.. But even worse days aswell. I have this thing in my mind where my expectations & hopes & dreams are thrown way too high. On a level that's unreal, to the point where living inside this 'fantasy what-if-world' becomes a way to escape reality. When reality smacks me out of this 'dreamworld' I just become so hungover/sad/hopeless again. ..Yet I keep doing this, maybe 10 times a day.. Perhaps a bad habit on which i got addicted to because my 'fantasy dreamworld themepark' feels way more comfy than the reality i'm living in. Sometimes I feel 'out of place'. Don't know what to say.. My mind just becomes too full and it just 'blanks' out.. I'm not familiar with this feeling. Pretty scary stuff.. Kind of a #Minddump :: Thanks for reading :: Stay strong out there :: :)

[@Isthatalliyah]

If any one wants to talk I’m here 🙏🏽

[@fri3nds652]

It's Kinda the mood of when you have a serious headache but its only without the pain

[@abhishekshah5961]

Fri3nd's and your brain feels so heavy, any amount of external motivation fails to move you

[@UlfricReiddr]

I experience constant headache and dizziness too

[@abhishekshah5961]

@@UlfricReiddr i would recommend this book "Heal your drained brain" by Dr. mike dow. explains everything in a lucid manner and with scientific facts.

[@pndgetsmewetter]

Woah

[@xejune]

I've been depressed for about 7 years now. Got my diagnosis a couple of months ago and have been in therapy since. It does help. You don't have to deal with it alone.

[@roshanpalsingh8089]

7 years bro too much time wasted I'm happy you've gotten help

[@p.a.t.t.y]

“It felt like someone took a 1,000 rubber bands and just tightened them round my skull.” wow. I never could put what it feels like when I’m stressed and very anxious into words, but that is exactly what my head feels like!

[@moo4416]

When I went through my depression relapse I really just broke. Every day, I couldn't stop feeling so numb and worthless. I had to keep telling myself that maybe tomorrow would be a little better, just keep holding on. But one day I just had enough, I took a bottle of pills and consumed more than I should've consumed. I was with my friend when I did that, he was so torn. But he stayed to talk to me, he convinced me to stop taking so much pills. I'm still suffering from high functioning depression. But to all who's suffering right now, maybe try to hold on a bit longer, try to make the best out of your day. Having bad days doesn't mean you can't have good ones.

[@lianecajipe5138]

It feels nothing, and nothing ain’t even a feeling.

[@Avenger4343]

you said it feels nothing,so basically it is a feeling, its like saying i feel sad,and sad aint even a feeling,just because it is nothing its still a feeling even if its empty where you should feel something.

[@denny3387]

i’m not depressed, i’m naturally a happy, funny and joyful person. iv never been sad for a long period of time, but i feel for anyone who has or is, if anyone needs to talk or wants to talk, i’m always here, just because i don’t understand it, doesn’t mean i’m not open to it. anyone suffering from depression, i’m here with open arms ❤️

[@elenaspano5067]

Denny * that’s really kind and sweet of you. In which of the many countries do you live, though? I’m willing to come!😂 (not kidding lol)

[@denny3387]

Elena Spano england, and you?

[@elenaspano5067]

Denny * Italy! (I know what you may think: no, I don’t have coronavirus). I’ve never been to England before. How’s life there?

[@denny3387]

Elena Spano boring, cold and wet, how’s life in italy? (with all the panic of the corona virus 🤣)

[@elenaspano5067]

@@denny3387 usually is great! there's sun every day and going out it's beautiful (especially now that I can't go out for three weeks). But the situation is horrible, I don't even know what to think about it. The numbers grow and there's almost nothing we can do about it. But after all Italy is a beautiful place. There's this stereotype that in england it's gloomy and it rains every single day and you guys NEVER see the sun. Is it true?

[@M3L77]

Man imagine waking up everyday and hating ur self everyday with such a low self esteem and being locked up in ur room after school all day 😬

[@M3L77]

I’m pathetic

[@user-er7hf6zt4x]

I have the same problem...It's like you are stuck while others are living.

[@Flooredspecter]

Mel Bihhh hah I don’t have to imagine No but seriously my self esteem is so low, it actually hurts to look in the mirror.

[@user-er7hf6zt4x]

@Sundra Salinas I want night 100%...Not 50% day...pfff

[@shuhduvugup8425]

💆🏽‍♂️

[@lunaluna6474]

as soon as you give yourself the power to talk about what you're going thru, it can be so liberating and empowering

[@qamzy90]

Depression feels like you’re just carrying around a flesh vessel and just going nowhere

[@1ayosim]

Queen of Westeros It gets better 🙏🏽 continue to fight and find the light because I did. let me be your motivation 🔥🔥🔥

[@hvmblesoul8990]

This video is so sad and beautiful at the same time. Rewatched it so many times.

[@BlueShadesX]

Our planet is unwell. People are depressed. Every one is wearing masks.

[@shamikamoses6326]

Fair point.

[@DiorskiePrepossessing]

Im wearing a mask

[@flopper6947]

This entire generation is a mess.

[@Soulmadness]

Yeessss lets all go down in hell! Seriously, this society and generation is so fucked up and I dont see it getting better any soon.

[@coryindahus7319]

Im14amdthisisdeep

[@posillicoty2608]

Depression is crazy different for a lot of people there’s so many different kinds and types of depression, saying you’re depressed could be completely different from someone else’s depression. It’s a weird thing I hope one day everyone can understand

[@sadginger4924]

Posillico Ty I feel miserable and hopeless, other times I feel hopeful and somewhat happy, could that be depression? Or just sadness?

[@BlackChanal]

I started wondering as a young child why i always feel like im the only one seeing the colourless void we float through, since ppl always seemed to see all these colours and the fun, but i couldnt even in my moment of pleasure i knew its worthless and theres nothing to remove that itch in my heart that never stops and reminds me of a livelong "clear view"

[@shellbug3100]

U explained it very well. I've suffered for 30 years & never asked for helped until a month ago. It has only made it worse when I found out a few years ago tht im terminal & now bedridden. I just want some peace while I'm here...its a miserable existence

[@LalainMashood]

Shellbug hope you recover

[@aliasanew3398]

YES. WOW.

[@dogodivaamorfati7190]

I love how you told your story. You ha e such a great sense of humor about your depression. This made me smile and I needed to so badly.

[@moonlightunicorn9181]

So much for reiterating the message of hope in this video and everyone in the comments it’s just fuelling it. Bad times don’t last forever, don’t let videos like this or comments make you think it won’t ever get easier💓 love and healing towards anyone who is actually suffering and I say actually because there is a huge misconception about depression being suffered by everyone and anyone - and is actually an issue I feel very strongly about

[@megm2866]

I recently run into a tv series where was the quote "There is no escaping.It's like wherever you go, there you are." And it pretty much sum up how I felt. But looking at it now I understand that our own mind can run into conclusions way too fast and you are so overwhelmed you literally can't process your thoughts. You just feel and feel,you can't even seperate your feelings and you discuss less about them and it becomes this huge thing that chokes you daily. What helped me was stargazing. It may sound stupid but it feels amazing to zoom out for a bit and have a moment of awe.

[@lemonzest_]

Yeah that happened to me for the first few years of my depression. I think that I became so overwhelmed with emotions, that my brain decided to protect me. I couldn't experience real emotions for 2 years. I couldn't shed a tear, not even when a close relative was dying. I couldn't genuinely smile, and I felt like a walking corpse. All I wanted was to feel again, and I had to take in all of my past traumas, all the pain and overwhelming emotions in at once. I don't know how it happened, but it was so overwhelming. Crying felt blissful, but i'm back to where I started now and I can't tell what's worse anymore. Not feeling anything or feeling too much

[@Trilink-a]

Depression: I want to die. Anxiety: But what if you do tho. Paranoia: That plane sounds awfully close. Hotel: Trivago

[@dilara2278]

Trilink2 this is so ignorant and stupid and not even funny so pls shut ur disrespectful ass honestly this comment disgusts me

[@beatsbysin5599]

@@dilara2278 nO nEeD tO gEt OfFeNdEd

[@antxv713]

not the place ..

[@Demi.d3mi]

This is me on a daily basis, not even trying to be edgy. Its unpleasant

[@Trilink-a]

@@dilara2278 The fact your comment got 4 likes for flaming a coping mechanism disgusts me