Whatz It Feel Like: Losing your child to stillbirth

[@sanyuhope]

This pain is something you can never be able to explain to any one, Because it hurts so deep... You can't heal from it... You just learn to live with it.. I know what it feels like to loose a baby... I know what it feels like to go to hospital and come back empty handed.. cyber hugs to all mums going through that...

[@robbbyleerusby]

one month ago, i couldn't feel the baby like i usually did so i went in and i said the "i'm dramatic" and the "im so sorry this is probably so silly." the first nurse couldn't find the heartbeat, and i just knew. they brought in the ultrasound tech and within seconds they knew my sweet boy was gone. it felt like a fever dream, it felt like life wasn't real. the physical pain was awful but to leave the labour and maternity ward empty handed while babies were being born all night around me was making me so sick. there was so much wrong with my baby at 5 months, i couldn't even bare to see him. i covered his face in a blanket to hold him, i just couldn't see him, i knew he would be black and blue. i didn't even find out the gender for 3 weeks because we we were weeks away from finding it out and now he's gone. now my boyfriend and i have to go through so much genetic testing because so many genetic things were wrong. i wish i held him longer, i wish i loved him harder. i said im so sorry i could bring him into this world, i was his only person and i couldn't save him. we and i am so not okay. we're not 100% sure i can even have kids. life is so fucking cruel.

[@motelkitty]

this ripped my heart out of my chest....praying for her :((

[@mimosamark1718]

This was so painful to watch as I lost my daughter Dorothy Zendaya (37weeks, 6days) two weeks ago on the 23 October. The experience of having a stillbirth is devastating as you will never know what their cry sounds like or see them open their eyes or hear their breathing or heartbeat as you hold them close 😥💔😭 May all our angel babies be at peace and happy in heaven ❤

[@gt8349]

May God bless you! I had a stillborn baby at 15. No one understood the hurt and trauma it caused. I started drinking heavy and for years blamed myself for failing him! I am now 37. I never got pregnant again but opened my heart to it only to be told fibroids have taken over my uterus and I will be having a hysterectomy in December. This is not a sob story. I trust God and I am thankful for every kick and movement I was blessed to feel. My mom was an addict. Never around. I noticed that the baby wasn't moving but, didn't know what that meant. The day I finally went to the hospital I delivered a deceased baby. No one even knew I was pregnant ,out of fear I had kept it to myself.

[@teesense5502]

I’m so sorry for your loss 💕

[@astheticlemon5312]

I’m so sorry you went through this, God bless🤍

[@michele21auntiem]

I am so sorry.

[@rush182link3]

Yesterday my sister and her husband lost their baby at 36 weeks we are in shock and sick to our stomachs. We ask you all here to please send your prayers 😢😢😢 his name was Maverick

[@kellysmith3986]

I had my baby girl stillborn at 43 weeks on the 6th of August this year (2024) and it was my first baby and it was so excruciatingly painful. I had no idea i could go through so much pain and still live. I didn't know she would be stillborn. I have heard other women say stillbirths were more painful because baby isn't helping to come out.

[@TazhalivinLIFE]

All I can do is cry. I miss my Son..

[@JaleeweSanudi]

Same here

[@FoolishMasquerade98]

I lost my son Oliver in June, he was stillborn as well. This is the worst pain anyone could ever feel, my heart goes out to this mother.

[@astheticlemon5312]

Aw I’m so sorry for you loss, God bless🤍

[@gypsybellydancer]

This was so hard to watch . Nobody deserves this kind of pain. God be with them

[@julial.5945]

Thanks for sharing your story 💖. I lost my twins in week 23 and know how you feel when you watch this video

[@sharonsiekay4966]

Me too.... I lost my babies 1 day ago 😢😭😭😭. My twin boys were 23 weeks. Very devastating experience

[@simphiwephiri5255]

It takes courage to share your story and I admire everyone who has done so. I lost my baby girl at 35 weeks in December 2023 and having to live with the love I have for her and the pain that comes with losing her has truly not been easy but everyday I choose to let love win and although her life was short, she changed my life and I’m forever grateful to my Skai. She and all other angel babies are forever loved and remembered ❤

[@jimkennedy5644]

While my stillborn son (our oldest of four) died in 1990…..32 1/2 years ago. He has never been far from my heart since the horrendous, life altering event, but I was recently super triggered by meeting a 32 year old nice young guy. He could been Andrew, my son. Everything you describe is EXACTLY what we experienced, except my wife delivered vaginally. The pain fades, but he has NEVER been forgotten. Holding and loving our boy is a memory I have cherished through life, as are the pictures. He is no less my child in this life experience than my 3 gifts, who have seen me to the ripe old age of 62. I am sorry for your loss. Only those of us who have experienced this particularly cruel and hard to comprehend loss can understand.

[@VioletEmerald]

Sending hugs as a 33 year old woman born in 1990 myself with a Father who's 60 years old himself. It is surreal to process what could've been.

[@kaitlynsites3928]

I could not imagine this type of pain. I’m 35 weeks, and my sons movements have slowed down because he’s running out of room but he still kicks regularly. I worry so much about this. I see people all the time saying losing your child in the beginning is the same as a stillbirth and while both of these things are life altering and soul crushing I could not imagine having to deliver a near full term baby who has already passed on. After feeling his kicks and listening to his heart beat, seeing him month after month growing like a weed. The two should never be compared but I would have to say stillbirth is absolutely worse. My heart is shattered for all the women who have ever experienced this type of pain and suffering. I could not imagine.

[@VioletEmerald]

"losing your child in the beginning" meaning miscarriage being compared to stillbirth?

[@JessicaaBrooke]

Hugs 😭😭😭 I lost my daughter Elena after an emergency c section back in October. I wish that this didn't happen to any parent. 💔

[@WhatzItFeelLike]

I am so very sorry.

[@gogina9186]

My heart is extremely broken. I lost my baby boy at 26 weeks and 2 days. I know this pain oh so well and it’s awful. I have no words, but I am so sorry for all the mothers that have been through this.

[@queenc8280]

Extremely sad. I'm a mom of 3 & I was always obsessed with movement. I'm sorry 😢 to her & all the women who experienced this.

[@ksidkloulechad2905]

I had a stillbirth to a really cute chubby, baby boy on New Year's Eve. It was incredibly devastating but I can see you are strong! It's one of the worst things to go through but it can be overcomed. I am happy to have an angel that I get to celebrate his birthday every New Year. New Year means new hope.

[@WhatzItFeelLike]

I am so very sorry for you loss.

[@daughterofthemosthighgod1889]

❤❤

[@tracy-ux8bm]

My heart aches for you🙏🏼 I've had 2 stillbirths, one in 2008 at 26wks and recently October 9, 2019 at 28wks 4days.. it's hard but, I have faith and hope that one day I'll have my second rainbow baby and so will you🙏🏼

[@WhatzItFeelLike]

I am so sorry to hear that. Prayers for you!

[@arieswife8926]

Alicia what was the reason did they tell you why it happened?...they still havent told me ..im desperate i lost my son at 29 weeks pregnant about a month ago I just want to die..

[@tracy-ux8bm]

@@arieswife8926 the autopsies didn'tgive me any answers, Dr said it just happens sometimes, it still hurts

[@bunnykinssmile]

@@arieswife8926I’m going through this now. Lost my son on 3rd Sept 2024 at just 18 weeks. He was so tiny. Did you ever get answers as I no for so many they never do and are told it just happens sometimes and can determine why

[@fathimalukman2980]

I lost my baby at 31 weeks I can understand this may god bless all the pregnant women ❤

[@briannal7808]

Omg tearing up.. lost my baby girl 4 month ago at 31 weeks I was sick with covid for two months and she just couldn’t fight anymore 💔 I miss my precious Lovella Lawrence.. forever 🕊

[@daughterofthemosthighgod1889]

❤❤

[@tlew_]

What a beautiful name

[@bworthy861]

Almost the same story but I was 37-38 weeks... so sad to hear still. My doctor didnt hug me, but the nurse did. I had seen the pair since the age of 14 and I was 34 I thought they would feel or react. Them not wanting to tell me and me knowing she wasnt hiding was traumatizing. I regret the time not spent... I only held her once and feel guilty. I didnt look her over enough, I should have spent more time, I didn't think to make 3d prints or take a locket of hair, two pictures.... I was in shock... I needed to hear this because I could never find the words. Doctors and nurses are not properly trained for this. I was blessed with one human soul that was empathetic. Her hug is what made it all real but also allowed me to express and deal. It is more than an outer body experience. For me it has been a silent death if you will. No one wants to talk about her. Im thankful most don't understand and pray for all who will or have. ❤

[@nasimakay9429]

I lost my daughter at 21 weeks and I know this pain all too well.

[@taylori4195]

Oh boy this was hard to watch. Sending her so much love.

[@TheLauraGabrielle]

Im so sorry mumma. I lost my baby Teddy at 41 weeks. Nobody should ever have to go through this.

[@leannetalbot8588]

We lost our son at 38 weeks, I feel the pain every day, now suffer with ptsd ❤️

[@freedomcraft9]

I lost my son at 38 weeks, 6 days. The pain is immense! We were 8 days, 8 DAYS!!! from his due date. And no explanation of what happened. He was just gone! 😭

[@queenc8280]

​@@freedomcraft9😢😢😮omggggg 💔💔💔💔💔

[@madisoneady405]

This is so painful to watch...I feel so sorry for her. 💔

[@samgarciaa9175]

I lost my son Alexis on nov 23 2020 , rest in heaven son

[@ramonab9004]

I’m so sorry for your loss 😢 If you don’t mind me asking what was the reason?

[@carkrueger]

You are so brave. God bless you.

[@mmathapelo5490]

I just lost my baby girl at 30 Weeks on the 7th, unfortunately I couldn't hold her because she was badly wounded 😢😢, my heart is broken 💔😭

[@Hollywood-yv3qy]

I am SO VERY SORRY!!!

[@trinalenay3525]

my heart breaks for her

[@mrsdutchess15]

This is my life and I remember telling them I’m sorry I know I’m bothering you guys ... then when they look and don’t hear anything it’s like wait what’s going on why isn’t she moving .. where is her heartbeat ? My daughter was so excited to meet her little sister ... I was literally scared to tell my daughter having to call him while he’s with the kids and his confusion... my doctor crying bc we all knew I loved my daughter so much . I was so prepared for her . I’m so hurt I’m numb numb numb and angry and heart broken ... to give birth to your baby knowing there won’t be a cry .. the quiet of the delivery room after feeling every moment ... I gave birth to my beautiful daughter November 4th,2020 and she was my third as well I understand exact what u mean . I had her blessed prayed over her sung her the song I would have when born like her sister . I was hurt by my fiancé not wanting to hold her but it hurt in the inside ... but I havent faulted him or told him how to grieve all J do is look at her pics and cry I would have a one month old almost and it hurts ... I hope u were able to push thru bc at this point I don’t feel like I ever will

[@karungirainbows7714]

This is how I feel right now but I hope in 2 years time I'll feel better

[@astheticlemon5312]

I’m sorry for your loss 💔God bless your heart🤍

[@Xrrr548]

We found out one of our twins passed away two weeks ago when we visited our doctor for a routine visit. She was doing well for 32 weeks and suddenly she was gone .

[@roan1678]

Just found out one of my twins, Baby B heart stopped beating. Baby A is okay but I'm devastated 😞 He was my first boy

[@adrose006]

My heart hurts 💔

[@preciouskangwa5224]

This was so painful 😢it happened to me just last years on 13th March 2023 when i last my son the pregnancy was 7 months I don't even know what happened I felt very strange in the morning I woke up my breasts were big as if I was placed feeding so I decided to go to the hospital where I was told that the baby was not breathing😢😢 after doing a scan I really felt so bad as if the whole world scrambled over me so, I really feel your pain I'm sorry about that😢😢

[@elainebird58]

Its not your fault...honey trust he is alive in Christ ❤❤❤

[@brothertn708]

Elaine Bird huh? The baby died lady, show some respect! 😢

[@arieswife8926]

God is so unjust...

[@daysyarvizu5807]

I’m here trying to find consolation, I just lost mine 3 weeks ago at 31 weeks😢 I already have 3 daughters and she was my 4th. We have been waiting for her for years trying to conceive and I never thought this can happen. I lost her to Nucal Chord 😞😔

[@agnessngambi4664]

I just lost my baby Nachi kasanda a week ago 😢

[@MsTenna91]

My heart is bleeding

[@teniyahthomas6587]

Not even gonna lie my face is wet

[@604Beanz]

I just lost my Daughter Ava Anne Marie on April 29th 2020. It sucks, my son is 7 and I have no idea how I will even explain his baby sister is gone :'(.

[@604Beanz]

I have 4 older children. 7, 5.5, 4.5, and 2. My youngest baby recently passed. I dont know if they will really understand. I've heard "Dont tell them they wont notice" and "They will notice you should say something because they will know your sad."

[@arieswife8926]

I lost mine 30 March 2020...Im devastaded..

[@ramonab9004]

@@604Beanz I’m so sorry for your loss 😢 If you don’t mind sharing what was the reason?

[@ramonab9004]

@@arieswife8926 I’m so sorry 😞 I can’t imagine how hard is must be If you don’t mind me asking what was the reason