When the depression sets in...

[@maryhamilton7718]

Its ok to let out sometimes ,it heals us by releasing the stress our bodies hold on to.❤ We love you girl

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you Mary. Yeah I think it helped I'm definitely having a better day today. Thank you for the support ❤️❤️❤️

[@lisagaikowski2533]

10 years lessons learned Tanya! Don't subject yourself to anymore abuse! Move forward and UP!! Love and support find your happy space/place and don't look back! You've won you survived it! xx 💟🙌

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

I'm hoping my new apartment is my happy place ❤️❤️❤️

[@BonnieMartin-s7s]

I so sorry your hurting so much. Wishing could give you a hug. I'm always here to listen. Bonnie

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thanks Bonnie. I woke up this morning feeling quite a bit better 🙂

[@romeysiamese6662]

Tanya. ❤ You are baring your soul and pain to the world. I’m with you in spirit. These are setbacks that we will overcome. To better days to come. ❤

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you so very much ❤️

[@lauraschmahl7162]

It's ok to be sad...I'm 58 going through divorce.. Your up your down that's how it goes 27 years for me..we're going to get through it prayers

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Oh my heavens I'm sorry to hear you are going through a divorce as well. We will survive but yes definitely a bumpy road ❤️❤️❤️

[@BlueJeansandJellyBeans]

Tanya, it's okay to be sad and hurting. Things will get better try to stay strong! You will get through this it is just a rough patch on your journey. We care.❤️‍🩹

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you for the kind words. I'm feeling much better today ❤️❤️❤️

[@BevThorogood]

I hope the sadness has lifted and you're feeling better today ❤

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

@@BevThorogood thank you so much Bev ❤️❤️❤️

[@donnadunn8041]

I am a widow retired. I know things can get tough. I have had my share of my mental depression. You are right, no one really wants to hear us. That’s why we need a circle of people who have had similar experiences. I too have my crying days. Lots of fun. Where things will end up , we don’t know. It can’t be over, we are still here. Keep the faith girl❤

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thanks Donna. I appreciate the support. I'm sorry to hear you can relate with the depression. It can be heart-wrenching. We will get through it ❤️❤️❤️

[@NaomiSims-w5g]

It's true...people who aren't facing hard times like you really don't want to hear about your struggles with depression...& that's OK. Many are "on the verge", trying not to think about their own difficulties, & they feel your talking about it "brings them down". They become angry because you can't "pull yourself up by the bootstraps". It's better to find a group that is willing to listen/face looming problems that are part of all our lives at times, or those experiencing what you are at the moment. A 12 step group is a great place to talk/vent your feelings without being judged.

[@sueprice4082]

So hard to find “ our tribe” but so brave of you to be on here, many really do understand❤

[@restingwitchface1]

You're allowed to feel however you feel. Depression sucks. I wish I had some wonderful wise words that could lift you up but all I or anyone else here can do is to let you know we care. You do whatever you need to do to get through this. There is a season for all things, you are going through a huge life change, grieving is part of the process. I wish I was closer and could be more help, but just know YOU are helping others more than you know by sharing this. This is real. I can only hope it doesn't last very long and soon you can feel joy and happiness when you think about your future. Take care of yourself dear lady!

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you so so much for the kind words. I feel very supported ❤️

[@MrsGHome]

Tanya,I’m so glad you reached out to us today!I watched my son go thru this 3 years ago,he lost his job at that time had 3 kids that their mom didn’t want anymore but today they are all 4 doing wonderful!it is the best thing that could of happened to all 4 of them.Hang in there Tanya you will get thru this,you will be a better person for getting away from the abuse.Take care of you right now❤❤

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

I'm happy to hear your son is doing great now ❤️ it's hard to imagine what life will be like. Everything I dreamed about has just been pulled out from under me. As time goes on I will develop new dreams for my future. I wonder what they will be!!!

[@MrsGHome]

Luv that❤

[@Highvibes777]

Hugs...I won't say I know what you are going through so you won't be sad.😢😢😢😢😢. THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you very much ❤️❤️❤️

[@QueenJones17]

Good morning Tanya ❤. I was there when my dear mother died. I layed in bed for days, weeks, and didn't realize months. Crying and crying. Couldn't see how life was just supposed to go on. I asked Jesus how? One day, I sat up. Felt like I had help. Still crying. You can sit up Tanya. Just sit up and cry. When you're ready, throw one leg over the bed. Then the other leg. Maybe still crying, stand up. Stay there until you can take one step and another. Next thing you know, you'll be back to making crafts and doing things you enjoy. I'm praying for you sweetheart ❤. You can do this. Hugs.

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Well I can certainly relate to this. So many times I have had to get back up on my feet when I didn't think I could. Thank you so much for the support ❤️

[@QueenJones17]

You're very welcome Tanya. Glad I can help. You're not alone. I'm with you. We can do this! ❤

[@currentconditions962]

You are our Girlfriend and we enjoy your company. I am 62, been divorced for 11 years, married for 30. I never married again, and I live alone. I try to keep my mind and body busy with things I love to do. We hear you, and I send you a big hug.

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you, I'm thinking that might be my future exactly. I don't know if I ever want to be in a relationship again honestly. And I need to keep myself busy with things I love to do. I really appreciate your support ❤️

[@currentconditions962]

@@tanyatalkstoomuch After my divorce, I realized all the things I didn’t have to do or be anymore to constantly try to make some body comfortable/happy and no more drama and consent hurt in my life. It is a big relief and freedom for me. Once in a blue I get mad, lonely and sad, so I give it an identity and I sarcastically say, “oh it’s you guys,come on in, let’s chat for a while.” And hopefully, Sad, Lonely and Angry won’t stay around too long, which they usually don’t, because once you acknowledge them and accept them, they eventually get bored with you and leave, or eventually you get bored with them and throw them out. I know they will be coming back, just hopefully not too soon. 🤫😁

[@ceeceel.3098]

One day at a time. Write down how you r feeling. Do something every day for your wellness. Can be a small thing like taking a bath, or a 10 walk. You are going through a grieving process. I went through it as well. I have PTSD from trauma. I have my good days and my bad days. I know exactly what you r going through! Live for yourself and your grand babies.

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you for all the good advice. As you know I did go for a walk this morning 🙂 I do feel a lot better today. And yes, definitely my focus is on my daughter and her little family and myself ❤️ there's so many other things that I also have to attend to which I would rather not. It's hard to get it all out of my head when I'm reminded by texts and appointments and phone calls all day long and even knocks at the door here. They check on me in person and by phone everyday. And there's like five other agencies at least I'm in regular contact with. And doctors and a lawyer. My life is actually terribly hectic when I should be concentrating on rest and self-care. No wonder I feel like my head is spinning. 😳

[@miriammancini2441]

I wish I was there to give you a hug. Sometimes we have to have the sadness and meltdown to feel better on the other side of it. It's part of the process. Stay strong. One day at a time. I can relate to so much of what you're going through. You can share and talk to us all you need. I'm here for you. 🙏❣️

[@LouiseHolden-yk3oh]

I know what your going through it will get better right now it doesn’t seem like that but it will .talk to me Im hear for you

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you Miriam. I definitely woke up less depressed this morning. It is so heart-wrenching when I'm actually going through all those emotions. I just get so confused with the purpose of life and all the heartache in the world... ❤️❤️❤️

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

​@@LouiseHolden-yk3ohthank you Louise 🙂

[@profoundintrovert]

Leaving an abusive relationship for the final time and realising there’s no turning back and no more relationship we tend to crash once we’re in our safe place. It’s also the loss of the constant adrenaline we lived under being in fight or flight mode and without that drug we experience very real withdrawal symptoms, and grief for our losses, and ask ourselves why why why? The truth is cruel …. you were no longer needed. He moved on. It bloody hurts. It WILL get better but it takes time. ❤

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

So very true. I don't think I could ever open myself up to anybody like that ever again. That is the saddest part of all...

[@MuseMeMuseYou]

I'm one of those who understands how it feels to have depression like you're feeling today -- when I got divorced when I was 40 (I'm 66 now), oh, I can't even describe the depths of depression and self-hatred I felt then. But -- Tanya -- don't feel sad about it, because time passed, and day-by-day I got through it. I LOVED my 50s, and you will too, if not immediately, then at some point not too far away from today. I'm so glad you chose to reach out to your KZbin community. We care about you. Why? Because you've shown us your true self, and we relate, and you are sincere. Hey -- how about if you post a short video tomorrow morning and tell us how you're feeling. Just check in with us. Okay?

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you for the kind words Lisa. Good idea I might post an update. I am definitely feeling a little better this morning ❤️❤️❤️

[@thelindaschuknecht]

Tanya remember this, no one can be happy every second of everyday. Your are moving in the right direction, what you are being hit with is grief. Grief is hard. Even though things didn’t work out that doesn’t mean there wasn’t love at one point. You are grieving of what you thought your life would be like, the problem is none of us know our future. There is no medication for grief it is something you have to do through, your tears are a form of healing your heart, so crying is not bad, it’s moving forward. We are here for you.❤.

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you Linda for always being so supportive ❤️

[@thelindaschuknecht]

@@tanyatalkstoomuch ❤️

[@kellyvh1209]

Dearest Tanya. I wish I were there to hug you and talk with you and be a listener for you. This is a very hard time for you and it's OK to feel how you are feeling. Everyone who divorces or separates from a loved one goes through this. I know.....I was married for 25 years and it all just got thrown away. I promise you with all of being ,that you will find happiness on the other side. Keep working on you and enjoy your daughter and Grands. Many days I feel I have no one to talk too either. I think there are many out here that are lonely and suffering. I'm asking for the Universe/god to shine down a light full of warmth and love to you and all here. Love you, dearest sister. I say sister, because it is a soul bond between those who have been hurt, who are hurting and those that have hurt others. We all need to give ourselves GRACE. Hugs.

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you so much for always being so supportive Kelly ❤️ it's kind of heartbreaking to think how many people are going through such very similar circumstances. It's very hard for me to understand 😕

[@tammyinman1699]

Hi sweet lady! I definitely understand depression!!!! Been there a bit myself this week. The main person I talk to openly is my therapist! I even have one friend I may begin talking about how I feel but within five minutes everything becomes about her. I love her so I just stopped trying and stick with my therapist. I visit with my sister and my daddy but anything I really feel I just don’t feel comfortable confiding in them. I can talk to my brother on the phone bc he lives 5-6 hrs away. I hope these hard days will get fewer and far in between for you!!!🙏🏻💕🙏🏻💕🙏🏻💕🙏🏻💕💐 We all need days to go through our pain and sadness! My heart goes out to you!!!!♥️ I’ve never liked staying even one night alone!!! Living alone next door to my parents was nice but at night it was always so hard!!!! I love you lady!!! You’re very right about those who have no clue!!!!! Thank you for sharing so openly 💕

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

@@tammyinman1699 I missed you in my comments!!! So happy to have you back ❤️ I have a lot going on in my head right now regarding my mental health. How I have trusted the medical system with my mental health for 25 years and now it's time to try something different. I'm not even 100% sure what that means but I do know that I need to take ownership and take care of myself. Because no one else truly can and no one else actually will...

[@tammyinman1699]

@@tanyatalkstoomuch I missed you too! If you can go to a chiropractor that helps me. Also a Naturopath can probably help💕

[@Evermore64]

I just want to give you a big hug. I know you’re probably sick of hearing it but I promise you everything is going to be ok . It’s ok to cry. Never apologise for that. It’s normal. It’s ok to take a day when you need it to blanket fort as I call it. It will get easier. We are here for you sweet lady .

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

"Blanket fort" 🤣🤣🤣 I love it!!! And thank you yes I really did need a day to just feel my feelings and not just do the do things... Thank you so much ❤️

[@okallie]

Feel it completely. It’s important. Please try not to stay in those feelings too long though. Only you know what you need. It’s all so much and you are doing a great job with a crappy situation. ❤

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you ❤️ I really did just need that day to get a lot of emotions out I think. Today has been much better 🙂

[@sarina_2315]

One day at a time, even one breathe at a time. Sending love from Australia ❤

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you Sarina ❤️❤️❤️

[@yayaserenity2397]

Tanya just take it one day at a time. We all have those days. It's ok to cry. For some of us, it's can be a healing process. Just remember God loves you & so does your youtube family. Most of all, remember THIS TOO SHALL PASS. IT'S ONLY TEMPORARY. SENDING A BIG VITURAL HUG YOUR WAY 🩷

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you so much. It was a good cry. I'm feeling much better today 🙂

[@yayaserenity2397]

@@tanyatalkstoomuch you're welcome

[@andreaduprey4116]

😢my heart hurt for you .. I’m so sorry to have seen you so very sad !! You are so loved Tanya , please don’t forget that . Cry get it out .. Crying is like taking the garbage out to the curb .. You are so valuable and validated 🫶🏻🙏🏻✨✌️😎

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

@@andreaduprey4116 thank you so much Andrea ❤️❤️❤️

[@BonnieMartin-s7s]

I also trying to get an apartment living at my friend's house I s getting near impossible. My kids are all grown got their families now. Feel like I'm just a throw away person. It sucks. Hang in there as I'm trying to too. Bonnie

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

That's all we can do is hang in there. What a way to spend our golden years 😳

[@dedelovesbling2313]

Tanya, I'm sorry you are feeling so down. I'm very glad you decided to talk with us about your feelings. It really sucks to feel depressed. I deal with depression quite a bit and I take antidepresents, so go figure. It appears you are grieving a loss, so it is totally understandable you are dealing with mixed emotions. Give yourself some time to grieve the loss of your relationship and try not to be to hard on yourself. These things take time, but you seem to be moving in the right direction so don't give up on yourself. Try to focus on what you want and those beautiful grandchildren you are building a relationship with. It will be amazing. I care about you. ❤

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thanks Dede 🙂 I get flashes of joy and excitement when I imagine myself in my new apartment. I know it's going to be a long road. I just need to stay focused on the future and not the past ❤️

[@dedelovesbling2313]

​@@tanyatalkstoomuchI heart what you are saying. I'm glad you are in therapy. It will help you a lot if you do the work. I'm routing for you. ❤

[@malindaallinson5749]

You Matter. Find the smallest things to be grateful for. And this too shall pass. ♥️

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thanks Malinda. I actually took the day off today from moving stuff. I didn't have any other appointments on my calendar. So I actually got to stay in all day. I did wrap up a bunch of vines that I gathered last week. I left them out in A rat's nest on the step drying in the sun for days. So I wrapped them up in a wreath shape so I can store them for future art projects. I posted a picture on the community tab 🙂 that's what I did while this morning's video was uploading ⬆️

[@malindaallinson5749]

@@tanyatalkstoomuch ❤️

[@jipsiemune]

It is good to cry and let out all the pain and suffering ... it is not healthy to hold it in ... air hug coming your way girlfriend 💫 and never forget , YOU are Beautiful AND Deserving 🙏🏼 God bless you 🙏🏼

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you so much Jipsie 💛

[@christie5371]

I love your willingness to be vulnerable here. I feel like we'd be great friends. You're not alone lady! Reach out to me, we can visit and chat any time! Again, you're not alone. Love you, hang in there, you’ll make it, you're doing everything right for yourself!🙂

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you so much Christie ❤️❤️❤️

[@sparkytoday8455]

Unfortunately, in the end we usually end up alone. Everyone moves on - parents, kids, grandkids, friends. I am in a situation like yours. I’m so exhausted from trying to please, and help family members, trying to stay relevant in their lives, to no avail. I’ve now accepted that this is my life at 67. God Bless. ❤

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

It's a pretty strange world we live in. These are the types of things I just can't figure out. What is the purpose in all of this? I suppose I will have to just learn how to love myself and keep myself occupied. Take care and thanks for the support ❤️❤️❤️

[@HappyMe-o4w]

❤ you can always talk to me ❤ Life is a journey.... Walk walk with your head held high , Dont let the narcissist break you .

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you so much. I appreciate the support ❤️ and I love your profile picture!!! That's going to be me in a few years 🤣

[@HappyMe-o4w]

@@tanyatalkstoomuch 💖💖💖💖💖💖

[@Brenda-u1]

Oh sweetie, you aren’t bothering others especially people who know about loss and depression. I care and am willing to listen. I used to get calls from my best friend who went thru 2 divorces. One we both knew since childhood. I helped her through her rough times. If it helps to vent online feel free. ❤️ Brenda

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you so much Brenda I really appreciate your continued support ❤️

[@cathienelson5978]

Tanya, we all °do care°. we really, really do. you can count on us to 'back you up' strength-wise, emotionally & just to know °°you matter°°!!! ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you so much Cathie ❤️❤️❤️

[@Tiffabean]

'I feel like people don't want to hear about it. People are so busy with their lives' Boy of boy, I felt that very same way, when my late husband passed... Soooo often. In a way, I'm sure going through the divorce is sincerely grieving the death of something you once had, something you thought would last, and was what you chose for a lifetime. Life is so tricky, when it comes with such beauty and pain all wrapped up in once. However, it comes with being alive, and having such huge complex, and often misunderstood, feelings. It's a beautiful and tragic that every person has to go through the bad with the good, and people often can't have happiness or calm without the chaos. It's a shame that loss often comes with loneliness and isolation. Although I may be far, and you and I may not know each other at all, I hope it comforts you (even a little bit) to know you're understood, you're heard, and you're heartache does not go unnoticed. My heart truly goes out to you during such a huge change in your life. I hope with the change, that there comes peace and reassurance that everything will be alright... because, with time (and it will take time), it will. Maybe not today, tomorrow, or next week, but there will be a new normal, with happiness and calm surrounding you. Your beautiful smile will shine through the darkness again, I promise you that! ❤

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you so so much for the kind words ❤️ it really does help. Feeling understood ❤️❤️❤️

[@margaritag.9483]

Tomorrow will be a better day. One step at a time. You are not alone Tanya. So many women can relate to your story. There is a lot of strength in the comments. Read them all. Call on the strength of your ancestors too. You will get there. 🌻🌞🌻

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you for the words of wisdom Margarita ❤️

[@VC_Home4Now]

Truths I know: 1) Depression is a liar. 2) It gets better. 3) People are going to do whatever they are going to do and it has nothing to do with anyone else. 😢 You are taking great care of yourself. We are here for the real stuff 😢

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Well you just made me remember I used to tell my daughter all the time and my husband in the beginning that their Depression was lying to them. Now I have to remind myself. Thank you ❤️

[@repurposedart9897]

First time on your own free to live your life on your terms...Don't waste those tears on someone who doesn't care about you... You need let go an enjoy yourself.

[@April-z9u]

Hi Tanya 👋 take it easy and try and be positive thoughts 😊🎉😅😅❤❤❤❤😊😊

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you, I will 😊

[@ckh7719]

Tanya, I've been where you are. Allow yourself this pity party... it's ok to visit, but don't unpack your bags! I'm 20 years beyond it now, and I assure you... there is wonderful, healing sunlight at the end of this tunnel! Just be kind to yourself, and keep moving forward. Baby steps, if needed. I'm pulling for you!

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you so so much!!! I can't wait to be out the other side of this ❤️❤️❤️

[@DebraDockler-os2sb]

I feel you if I lived closer to you I would visit you and give you a hug I have been through the same things you have been dealing with seriously makes me 😂l also live alone I come from a big family my parents had 8 children and I have 4 children there all adults now with children was married 27 years the last 5 was horrible I am divorced and l was homeless at one point and I lost my oldest son 6 years ago my other 2 sons live far away thank god. My daughter lives in the same town so yeah it can feel lonely just know god and Jesus are with you and your family take care okay 😅

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you Debra. It's unfortunate you can relate so much to my situation. It's not the best situation to be able to relate to LOL. One day at a time we just do the best we can I guess. ❤️

[@allisonsmith2305]

My 37-year-old niece is living with a stroke. She has aphasia! What you mean she can only speak a random words. She can't put full sentences together. She lost the full right side of her body at 34! She is now 37! Has struggled to get her life back to the best she will ever be able to have.

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

I'm sorry to hear about your niece. I have a friend suffer a stroke with very similar symptoms. It is very frustrating for her to want to say something and not have the words available to express how she is feeling or what she is thinking. I can't imagine how difficult that would be ❤️

[@lolaloren1773]

Hello... new to your channel... once you get settled maybe get a little kitten, so you don’t feel lonely.. you can train your kitty to go on walks with you or buy a little stroller.. I understand dealing with depression, my cats help me smile when sometimes I’m feeling blue... Good luck to you!!!!:-)))

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Hello and welcome!!! Sorry this was the first video you ran into 🤣 I'm not always so miserable. Guess what??? I have two guinea pigs that I haven't been able to see in 3 months. When I move into my apartment next week I'm going to have them come live with me!!! ❤️

[@Mercalons]

Keep the faith

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

❤❤❤

[@jipsiemune]

💛

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

💛💛💛

[@Jessie-j2u]

Hey tayna move forward you got this you don't need the abuse get out of their stop crying and calm down

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

I'm feeling much better today. Some days are just worse than others 😕

[@Jessie-j2u]

@@tanyatalkstoomuch you know I'm always here for you no matter what you're going through I love you sooooo much

[@celesteautokier]

❤️❤️🙏🙏

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

❤❤❤

[@Mercalons]

You can talk to US,a lot of people are suffering Dont be discouraged

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

I find it hard to believe and accept how many people are suffering in a similar way as myself. It's hard not to be discouraged but I'm doing the best I can every day ❤️

[@2legit2quit4u]

Get up. Out of that bed. I struggle with this too. Get up. Go for a walk. Go get something to eat. Buy a meal for a homeless person. Most people don’t want to hear your problems because they have enough of their own. The more you wallow the worse you are going to feel. Do this for yourself.

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

@@2legit2quit4u you want a homeless person to buy a meal for a homeless person? I think I do a pretty good job of not wallowing most days. Sometimes it's good to feel your feelings and work through them. It's called grieving. I feel like if people don't want to know how I'm doing they shouldn't ask me how I'm doing. The expectation in society to say I'm fine thanks how are you seems ridiculous to me.

[@ceeceel.3098]

@@tanyatalkstoomuchI agree. Ppl should not say anything if they cannot show empathy.

[@laughinlori6893]

​@tanyatalkstoomuch Those are the words of someone who has no f*cking idea how depression works. Disregard them. Sixty-two here, never married, and have lived by myself for years. Had a great job and good friends, and then I was assaulted. Now I have PTSD and treatment resistant depression. Got fired from my job (deservedly)in the middle of COVID and my circle of friends got smaller and smaller until POOF it's gone. I am grieving the person I used to be and am very slowly accepting that she is gone and working to get her back is pointless. I have to learn to cope as the person I am now. All that to say, although everyone's journey is different, I do understand having days where I almost pee my pants cause I just can't move from my recliner. I will watch sad dog videos on YT and cry my eyes out. Tanya, you do what you need to do for your wellness. We are out here to listen, empathize, encourage or cry with you. Whatever you need, let us know. We love you and we care! 🇨🇦 Fellow Canuck from BC.

[@tracybutler3858]

Im sorry your in pain right now. Its a needed part of the process tho. If you can imagine yourself on a train platform. Your getting ready to board a train to a new life. Your last minutes will be of reflection before you leave it behind. you dont have to understand what happened or how it happened. Its your past. You didnt make that decision. Your not made of the same stuff that person is made of. A narcissist will try to destroy the most beautiful parts of you. Mostly because they cant be beautiful. They leave because they cant destroy it. And they cant gain from it anymore. You feel confused and broken right now. But you were disscarded because you cant be broken. Scarred but not broken. Your still your beautiful self. Stuff that in your go bag Then get on the train. You dont need to ruminate on his crazy much longer. Its not yours. Its almost over honey. Your just peuking up the last bit of poison. Im calling from the other side. There are a lot of us over here. Listen to our voices, not the tapes in your head of someone unworthy to put a label on you.

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Oh my God this made me cry 😭 I can't wait to join you on the other side ❤️

[@rt3156]

First and foremost, learn to love yourself! and be your own best friend. Loving someone else or being loved should be an added attraction in your life, not the soul purpose of your destination here on earth. It's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. We are what we think, so start erasing your old negative thoughts and start making new ones. I am the source of my own happiness. Others can only add to it. You can do this, but only if you CHOOSE to do so. Life is a series of choices. The best choice I've ever made was to ask Jesus into my life. His yoke is easy, and his burden is light. I will keep you in my prayers.

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you, my psychotherapy is actually focusing on finding my negative thoughts and challenging them. I've been going for a couple months now but Monday we just started getting into the nitty gritty. It was a very emotional session. I really need to work on my own issues so I don't end up in that situation again.

[@AnnaGibson-d5u]

Hi 🎉Tanya it’s Anna 🎉u can talk to me ok

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Thank you Anna ❤️❤️❤️

[@AnnaGibson-d5u]

@@tanyatalkstoomuch hi Tanya it’s Anna banana hehe just to make u smile hope ur doing great today I can’t wait to see ur next video !!!!im very happy for u and ur new place!!!!whoo hooo !!

[@lilibr7466]

😔🤍

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

❤❤❤

[@Rosesnflowers7]

Get up and watch Mel Robbins podcast on pity party cause what I see is a smart beautiful Blessed woman doing the work you need to do like lifting weights it does get heavy get a pillow yell then remember it's for you first grandkids second then daughter you can go down then dust off and get up I promise you will get up you are still young honey the Bible says lay aside what besets you we can't control everything you should tell him thank you cause you hurt cause we're all human now get up and Bless yourself with putting your thoughts on GOD lean on him he's there for you I can't wait to see you get up......🎉🎉 Here are some flowers 🌺🌹 cause I see you got your own place your gonna hustle again and no one can stop you ... Wohoo

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

@@Rosesnflowers7 I think grieving and clinical depression are a little different than a pity party... Sometimes we need to feel our feelings to work through them.

[@lindametcalf9169]

It's ok dear Tanya, melt downs are part of the process. I think it's important to feel it as you move thru this. Keep talking, keep sharing. Remember, its that little girl wanting, needing to be heard. I'm glad that you are sharing even the tough parts, that you are laying in bed, that you are holding your stuffed animal, that you are weeping. You are a huge blessing to me. And what you are going thru is huge. Take all the time you need. ❤❤❤

[@Rosesnflowers7]

Just recognize thank GOD our brains change every 3yesrs and you aren't who you were you are who is present and it's a Beautiful strong woman like I said yes feel it then like the Bible says put it aside talk to GOD about it like your talking to us the truth is the truth and it does set you free I see you got through it fix your mental awareness the walk in it though I do understand I had depression after an avoidable miscarriage my DR. was wrong though I finally learned to cry out to GOD your a champ but just still vulnerable that's what makes you a beauty but don't stay there long ....

[@Rosesnflowers7]

This therapist is telling you truth your in a new place in your head and your heart life is about to get real maybe you avoid but now you have to face it ...feel it ... Rise above it girl like I tell myself lick your wounds and move to another spot..wisdom to you mem are men ..... another day in the books and sorry that the hurt is painful but thank goodness you don't stay there...phew

[@allisonsmith2305]

Honestly we don't want to hear about it! Because everybody has problems like you have! What you need to do is get with a doctor get on medication! And move on with your life and get over your divorce like everybody else does! This self-pity you you have is ridiculous! And you are not homeless

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

I am so sorry. I can only imagine what sort of an upbringing leaves a person with such little empathy. It is heartbreaking 💔