why happiness is fleeting (vol. 25)

[@BeigeShell]

Happiness is fleeting, but so is sadness. It's a balance. You can't have one without the other. Lighting a candle in the dark would still invite shadow

[@ms.pirate]

Yeah, feeling happy all the time isn't all what's cracked up to be. Feeling only happiness, and numbed to every other emotion, just makes you a robot instead of a living being

[@randomdud35]

That's one beautiful way of making a point

[@martyxxl6751]

@@BeigeShell we all have to make up our own minds if we feel content or not

[@CapybaraLord75]

Couldn't have said it better myself

[@crayonwow]

I have depression and I must say that moments of happiness for me are very rare.

[@superkye0461]

Through your honesty, and through your bravery to put yourself out there, you earned one hundred thousand subscribers. That is a feat few can achieve, let alone the fact you did it on authenticity. Be proud not for the number on your screen. Be proud for the power your relatability holds. We don't just support you, I think in a way, you support us as well. Thank you for your strength.

[@fallenangelcrimson]

“to feel is to live” are some of the truest words ever.

[@xs-liyah]

i can never scroll far in her comments suddenly everyone is either trying to date her or they have a phd in psychology 😭

[@mistyume]

ur so real for this, i made a comment like this a few vids back and got ATTACKED for it oml

[@MrMixfits]

Men ☕

[@SLIMEZ_223]

​@@MrMixfitsnot just dudes , i think a lot of people try to be helpful but just come off as having a "i know better than you" attitude . annoying tbh

[@gastonalvarodorrego6559]

ong, the unsolicited advice and patronizing attitude is too much

[@Sectrix2pp]

She pisses me tf off

[@ronaelf]

Personal hygiene is a struggle for those who are mentally ill which non-ill people have a hard time understanding. There is an invisible wall that seems to inhibit action. If you can concentrate on just one hygiene point to work on and stay consistent with it, then once it becomes habit move to focusing on the next one it will be easier than feeling overwhelmed by all of them at once. Love yourself enough to take care of yourself. Daily report the good and admirable points about yourself and your actions.Claim your victories no matter how small. And remember that you have 100,000 subscribers because they care and support you along your path. That is not insignificant.

[@JOSEJOSESITO]

Just based on the title, yeah it's true in my experience, but I know lofe is worth it for those moments, I hope the best for you Ito, you deserve it and more.

[@philharmonix564]

I feel so bad for you. That loud stomping next door would drive me crazy! Sometimes living alone is better. And going outside is good for you. You'll find your comfort zone eventually. Be safe.

[@dronix6624]

advice from a random guy on the internet that struggles with a lot of the same issues (so take this with a grain of salt). Just make an effort to change one thing at a time and make sure to keep reminding yourself that any effort no matter how small is still an effort. Always be happy that you're at least trying because that's a lot more than a lot of people can say for themselves. Also, I don't know how much this will relate to you but something that helps me a lot are the ideas that being uncomfortable is sometimes a good thing and being selfish isn't always a bad thing, do what you want and prioritize the things that make you happy while forcing yourself to do things that may seem uncomfortable but you know are good for you. And congrats on 100K!

[@josemariaszanto3284]

Es verdad... pero a veces, ocuparse de los demas tambien ayuda a ser empatico y comprender que los problemas no son solo de uno mismo, todos padecemos un poco la soledad y la incomprension :)

[@chan_martin]

Congrats on 100K! I think you represent a growing trend on KZbin of people wanting to return back to being real and honest. It makes a lot of us feel less alone and we’re all tired of the brainrot. Wishing you the best 🫂

[@Kapplerartbloomingdale]

You are a gift to this world. Smile. I think your a kind and beautiful young lady. We both share similar thoughts and mood. Never give up.

[@imragaa]

@@Kapplerartbloomingdale no need to lie, let’s embrace our absurdity

[@greatsdren]

Thank you for sharing, I feel exactly the same and I don't know why, but hearing your words brought me a bit of relief. What you're feeling is the space between happiness. You'll feel happiness again. Thats my hope for you, and myself as well.

[@srdbranding]

Thank you for your videos, they are comforting to many folks also going through mental health issues. I still recommend exercising like "running" to build up your strength and preventing negative thoughts. You don't have to change yourself but simply take it day by day. Good luck! 🙏

[@dyspo6949]

"hundred thousand grains of sand? that sounds like a lot of sand" -ito 2024

[@ariaika3078]

Everyone seems to chase the feeling of "I will be happy when..."

[@S7EVE_P]

Life can feel like a burden. Like instead of living life, life is living you, sucking the energy making everyday tasks impossible. I admire those who manage to glide through life with mostly positive thoughts. For me its been a mix. High highs and very low lows with some substance issues thrown in for good measure. The best thing for me was exercise, just going for a 1 hour walk every morning helped a lot and I had to cut out all processed food. I wish you well. Take care x

[@DrManHe]

It's 100k subs, it's gonna be a small step in being happy. Being happy is too vague and like a umbrella term. Some don't matter some matter highly. Best to take what you can, and focus on the little, but don't downplay other things. Also happy 100k!!!

[@piersenbarber812]

You’re my comfort KZbinr. You’ve helped me a lot to understand my own depression, I just wanted to thank you for making videos!

[@1KinCronaGorgon]

Truly, it’s hard. You’ve made it this far and you’ve pushed so hard. You can do this. I know it’s scary and hard especially with a lot Of people and it’s okay to take side breaks. You should never have to force yourself to be happy it just fills you in the moments. I believe in you and thousands of other people do too.

[@josemariaszanto3284]

Dijiste toda la verdad => Factos

[@krasavanebula]

I have been suffering from depression and anxiety for the last 5 years. And only now I feel like it's getting better. At times it was very difficult, this all-consuming feeling of helplessness and pain, this deep abyss... this endless stream of thoughts, self-flagellation... too much for a person like me... in moments of great despair, when it seemed that there was no more strength to endure, I began to pray through tears... true God, please hear me, ease my suffering! and at that very moment I felt relief and the pain went away. I understand that it is hard to believe, but for me this is reliable proof of the existence of God. He is not indifferent to those who suffer, it hurts him too to see his children suffer. The Bible made me happier. Without it, I probably would not exist. Psalms 34:18:"Jehovah is close to the brokenhearted; He saves those who are crushed in spirit."

[@JustinDeane222]

God will never allow you to face challenges beyond what you can endure. You must be a strong person. Turning to God for help is precisely the answer and getting the brain chemistry right can take time but you gotta eat right and get away from toxic people.

[@gethinization]

You obviously resonate with a lot of people. You're not alone, ito.

[@AnIdeamostIndegenous]

Your words reminded me of this quote "Pls Rember That wen u feel scare or frigten, never forget times wen u feeled happy Wen day is dark Always rember happy day" Anyways happy 100k subs Ito!! 🎂, And as always let's all keep doing our best.

[@laff__8821]

as Dante once wrote: "...Nessun maggior dolore che ricordarsi del tempo felice ne la miseria..." "... There's no greater pain than remembering of happy times while in misery ..."

[@Zeddead3654]

Your right that happiness is fleeting however, it is because happiness is temporary that it is special. The transient nature of happiness makes it something that you remember and seek, hopefully you savour the cheesecake when you eat it. I look forward to the next video, congratulations on the 100k!

[@dronix6624]

Congrats on 100k! Its still something amazing even if it doesn't feel real right away :)

[@TheRealOfficialShadow]

You've got this Ito, I'm rooting for you! In fact, you've got 100,000 people rooting for you! I will not lie, finding happiness is not easy when you're stuck in such a negative mental space. It's hard to get out of the hole, but I know you can do it !! You're a very captivating person from what I see, and I know things will get better for you. You deserve all the joy and friends and love in the world. And remember to always give yourself grace.

[@John-h8j1b]

happiness for me is measured by the smiles i have given to others

[@MaiyaB-vs3il]

Ito, you are literally so comforting. I feel this way too sometimes. I know we can both get out of it eventually, I'm wishing the best for you!

[@thebigvega4415]

Hearing you talk has slowly became my favorite bedtime routine, i can tell you're really trying your best and i'm happy to notice, also, you're so relatable to me it's kinda crazy 😂 that being said... Experience has taught me that happiness it's not a goal nor a consequence of other things, it's an attitude, a choice even, to some.. How can we expect to feel always happy in the middle of the chaos of life and all the changes on it? We can achieve happiness in some short moments by fixing and correcting some of our thoughts and how we perceive things, being grateful in our daily life, helping and being useful to others, small things like that

[@josemariaszanto3284]

Otro sabio consejo!

[@faenene]

It’s great that making these videos helps you. Thanks for providing a place where ppl can feel seen and be open abt this stuff

[@nochannelname7394]

Thank you for sharing your struggles. Its very courageous of you.

[@Pupperonipuppy]

Oh my god! I remember when you had only a couple thousand followers Ito! I'm so happy to have been able to watch you grow and slowly get better (it seems to me). You have NOOO idea how glad I am to know someone else is struggling being around other people. Not because you're suffering, but because you and I aren't alone. You're absolutely right about things being harder for people with mental health issues. I also struggle with things like cleaning my room, brushing my teeth, and even just being around other humans (I LOVE ANIMALS SO THATS EASY). What I do is I force myself to do things. Maybe its cuz I was raised by a russian mom, but what works best for me is to just make myself do what I have to do. Just throw yourself outta your sadness, even for 2 minutes, and do the basic stuff. WAKING UP EARLY IS ALSO IMPORTANT. Falling asleep at an earlier time is amazing as well, but waking up early would make you feel more productive. Sticking to a schedule is also CRUCIAL in the lives of people with mental illness because it gives us something to follow, and its easy (hopefully it is for others). GOOD LUCK ITO. YOU'RE HUMAN AFTER ALL. YOU CANT BE PERFECT AND YOU CANT BE AMAZING, BUT YOU CAN IMPROVE AND HOPEFULLY FEEL BETTER ABOUT YOURSELF AND YOUR LIFE. LOTS OF LOVE, Misha.

[@meowarts44]

congratulations, ito! i pray that you will feel better again, and wish that you will receive more by the days to come! ^-^

[@pixelpuppy]

Happiness comes from within, not from without. 100,000 means nothing when all you want is 1.

[@drenyart]

Wow. You've given me a lot to think about, with this video. As you were talking, I started to realize how many things we have in common, even though we were born in different eras, different areas, from different family backgrounds, and are of different genders. (Briefly, I'm an old guy from the Midwest who is the eldest of 7 children.) It sounds like we are kind of on the same page, when it comes to showers, taking out the trash, house-cleaning, sleeping-eating-drinking on a regular basis (especially the water thing), staying indoors, and not leaving “home base” to go somewhere else and/or do things that are out of our regular routine. In my case, I'd been dreaming of being able to stay home and only do things I wanted to do since... well, since I'd started working (at age 14, with a work permit). I've never been a “people person,” though not because I disliked other people. In fact, I felt like I was missing out on life when I shied away from engaging with them, so much so that I started doing research, reading “self-help” books, searching for ways to “fix” whatever was wrong with me. I used to wish I could be like other people, going out with friends, maybe to parties, having “normal” fun, but then I tried it. I found out that, if I spent time listening to more than 3 people talking in a group, I became dazed by trying to think of what to say in response and then holding it in memory while looking for a break in the conversation that wouldn't interrupt anyone. On the rare occasions when I was able to match timing with the group, the brain fog was even worse, and I'd “crash” when I got home, crawling onto the couch and dozing for an hour or two. That kind of “fun” exhausted me. Once I discovered the MBTI (Myers-Briggs Type Indicator), I had terminology to describe (at least to myself) why I felt the way I did, and began to call myself an Introvert... then, eventually, an “Ultra-Introvert”. The end result of all my years of research was that I realized I LIKED who I was and didn't see enough in other people that I'd want to imitate. I could see that I had traits that were necessary to society... and that those people I'd watched “having fun” did NOT have those traits. I think that was when I became comfortable with being just who I was, an individual, and not wishing I could be someone else. Okay, I'm going to see if I can consolidate my reasoning, instead of boring you with detailed explanations point-by-point. (I'm fond of bullet points and if you had to read some of the project lists I've had to write for myself to stay on track, you'd think they were not only boring, but bordered on torture.) This will be my best attempt at “cutting-to-the-chase,” in other words. Showers, Taking out the trash, House-cleaning: Since my wife passed away, I've been living alone and don't have “drop-in” friends or relatives who knock on my door without warning, so the condition of each of these depends on me... my mood, my ability to find distractions, how nose-blind I am at the time, etc. If I'M comfortable with things as they are (and nobody else is going to be aware of the sad state of affairs), I don't feel the need to change anything. Only panic can drive me to instantly start improving any of them, and panic only results when someone calls to ask if they can stop by. (Generally, these are my insurance agents, my in-home healthcare nurse, my son when he wants to deliver something I've ordered through him, etc, so they are very infrequent disruptions to my routine.) Sleeping, Eating, and Drinking on a regular basis: Since I retired, my days have been pretty much my own and I've been setting my own schedule. Wait... that's not accurate. I suck at schedules, mainly because I have no time-sense. I had to create an “Appointment Planning” spreadsheet, with place names and their associated distances from my home, including Google Maps calculations of the time required to travel those distances... and a 15-minute buffer... in order to arrive on-time. When I have no appointments, the only times that exist are the time I feel tired enough to sleep and 8 hours later, the time I set for my alarm to wake me up. (I sleep with a CPAP machine that lets the doctor know if I don't use it correctly.) Water is especially important, though, because dehydration can lead to lack of energy and/or initiative, depression, mental confusion (including reduced mental agility in decision-making), hallucinations, etc. Those are the ones I've had experience with, anyway. Staying indoors, Not leaving “home base” to go somewhere else and/or do things: There are things outdoors that are waiting to be done, like the grass that needs mowed before the police knock on my door again, the Pussy Willow “tree” that finally died and rotted enough that it fell over and scraped against my house, the garage that's so full of tools, equipment, recycling, etc that there is only a walking path along the walls, and so on. (Well, actually the garage either needs stabilized or replaced before it completely keels over into the driveway and crushes my car.) All of this is meant to say, “Going outdoors means work,” so there is no inherent appeal in stepping out the door unless I plan to travel away from home. However, traveling away from home without a planned destination and a purpose, or at least an itinerary, always ends in feelings of guilt. That's one reason I created an itinerary section in my “Appointment Planning” spreadsheet, for family reunions, etc. Right now, it has instructions for everything from getting out of bed in the morning, through baking the lasagna I took to the last reunion, to the time I had to leave home in order to arrive before the prayers were offered. Life can be so complicated. There are a few other things that sprang to mind, as I was listening: I have a very effective homemade ant-bait recipe that I can send, if you're having trouble getting rid of the little pests. They've been visiting in Spring for the past several years, but the numbers taper off and go to zero within a couple of weeks, once I set a table for them. You said, “To feel is to live”. I'm having a little trouble wrapping my mind around that concept, but I'm sure I'll never forget it. It's like a mental puzzle to me, similar to those sliding tile things with one tile missing. (They frustrate me tremendously, lol.) I'll sleep on it and hope that my subconscious will have an answer. You also said that you're always chasing happiness. Ohhhhh, how familiar that sounds! To my mind, happiness is elusive because it doesn't exist outside ourselves. We can't find it by replicating what others do, because it's individual... it's different for each person, at each place and time. Happiness is also stubborn... unpredictable... constantly-changing. It kind of reminds me of Lady Luck; never there when you need her, but slips up behind you when you're not prepared. I think the surprise is part of what makes happiness such a treasure. Cheesecake. Ahhhh, cheesecake. My wife asked what kind of cake I wanted for my birthday, one year, and I half-jokingly said “cheesecake”. Every year after that, she made a cheesecake for me, with a candle on top. (Not as many as my age, because we didn't want the neighbors to see the smoke and call the fire department, but at least one.) So, in my memory, cheesecake has become a symbol of special occasions! By my logic, any day with cheesecake in it IS a special occasion, because... cheesecake is its own reward! Thank you for continuing to share your journey. It means a lot to know that I'm not the only person who doesn't fit the “norm”. One thing I'll say: Mental illness depends on who is setting the parameters. Creativity is sometimes mistaken for instability by people who aren't creative. I've inadvertently become an unofficial problem-solver for some people, because my mind doesn't work like theirs does. In conversation, they will complain about something that is causing them irritation and I'll blurt out (what are sometimes) the most outrageously-impossible solutions. We both laugh... but then they begin to think... about what makes the solution impossible... and more people join the conversation. Soon, the voices get louder as the ideas fly... and I can walk away, leaving them to design a viable cure for their complaint. They may or may not use my original proposal, but they wouldn't have started the journey toward a solution without a catalyst. Life isn't a sprint, it's a marathon, so it makes sense to ease up on ourselves and let it travel at pace, at least for awhile and as often as possible. Some of my happiest moments have been the result of mistakes I've made along the way that happened because I gave myself permission to make them. Enjoy learning what makes YOU happy.

[@lysori7600]

thank you so much ito for speaking realistically on mental illness, i felt so seen when you talked about the ant infestation cause i had the same thing happen to me after moving in recently :_) it was pretty terrifying cause i have a huge fear of bugs, i felt like the universe was against me but all we can do is keep going.. try not to blame yourself too much it can really happen to anyone and if youre still dealing with the infestation, i highly reccommend getting some ant traps, theyre an effective + more indirect way to deal with it! also pretty inexpensive happy 100k subs, i hope the cheesecake made you happy if anything

[@strawpiglet]

You couldn’t have done things differently, you acted on what you knew. Now you know more and can make more choices. Life is hard, Ito. It’s not just you. It will challenge you. I hope you can learn to go easier on yourself and appreciate your unique and special self. It took me a long time to realize this. By the way, staying clean is important but it’s good to let your hair rest and not over-wash it.

[@obscurerev]

Been here since 20k subs! This is a good milestone and im so proud!

[@ms.pirate]

Kinda like how I'm struggling to feel my emotions again. For some reason, I can't feel sadness, anger, etc. I feel numb, and I feel like a robot. I want to feel like a human again, I want to feel negative emotions again. Let me tell you, being only happy isnt all whats cracked up to be. I'm struggling to cry to movies and games. I'm struggling to feel anger. I'm struggling to be me again like what I used to be when I was 13. Being happy and numb, and no other emotions makes you a robot, instead of an human.

[@ProbablyMei]

your videos always help me think, thank you

[@JohnTitor2036]

Most very big stadiums don't even have places for 100k people. So imagine, a super mega big stadium, filled with people that care for you and wish you the best in life. That's what represented this milestone. We are all here because we relate and want to help you. I know it's hard to take care of yourself when you're depressed... Showers, eating, cleaning... It's hard sometimes... But it gets better. We love you, you can do this

[@tenshi8383]

You are doing great keep it up and keep me updated with these videos, you encourage many people and are changing into a really great person like a metamorphosis, it's dark inside the cocoon trying to decide who you want to be coming out of it.

[@Overqualification]

Just walking outside once a day helps clear thoughts I’ve learned

[@plantae5437]

I feel for you; I know where you coming from because I’ve experienced those feelings too. Best advice I can give is go chase whatever makes you happy. F*** school, jobs, goals etc. If you’ve ever done anything that excites you; and you lost track of time doing it, and you felt some kind of joy, do that. Chase it, don’t ever look back and it doesn’t matter if you win or lose.

[@RaenRyong]

Not to discount the mental, but bear in mind that if your body feels bad physically (which I know illness doesn't help with), you will almost always feel bad completely independent of any mental afflictions. If you lack sleep, food, exercise, or cleanliness, you will always feel much worse. It's very hard but if you stubbornly ensure the above are fulfilled, you can better fight the external factors. A clean living space helps a lot too! Some people hate(d) high school and some people loved it - it's just the start of a long journey so don't feel like it's over just because yours wasn't what you hoped. I understand that it takes a toll on you though - everyone told me that college/uni was going to be the best time ever but for me it was a slog. Also, while happiness may be fleeting - the same is true for unhappiness.

[@DJFreemyer-e8r]

I completely understand about the mental illnesses and struggles, I just got discharged from a mental hospital so I understand. Keep moving forward, look towards the future and keep hoping. Don't lose hope.

[@Shoeclock]

High School was a mixed bag for me. Did I have some fun times? Sure. Would I want to go back and experience it again? Definitely not. I'm glad I'm outta that hell hole. College was way more fun. lol

[@josegalindo5948]

I'm so happy that you hit 100k I watch your videos all the time and they helped me because I can relate to your problems and I'm so glad that you that your channel is getting bigger but just know that you're helping people you're making people feel like they're not alone anymore I used to feel like I was alone and no one was like me but even if things seem hard there are still people out there who will listen and who will relate to your problems and we're here to help you do the long run you've gotten so much better over the years make sure to keep trying to better yourself there's always tomorrow you can get better

[@Lemur6474]

Hey Ito, I think it's important to differentiate your own happiness and what makes other people happy. I used to feel left out and envious too when I saw everyone going out on friday nights... it's like everyone was excited and busy with a place to go... but whenever I got a chance to do it myself, I found it just wasn't for me... that stuff doesn't bring me happiness... I always felt nervous, anxious, uncomfortable, it was loud, crowded, just too much... I think it's important to recognize we can't make other people's happiness our own. We might think it'll make us happy, but once we have it, we find out it doesn't and we fall into a perpetual disappointment cycle... but if we find what makes us truly happy, it'll last and be less fleeting... for me it was spending time with just the couple close friends I have in a more quiet cozy environment... I think that's what you might be wanting... just have to hang in there for a couple more months right?

[@SoftOceanBreeze]

I remember first finding you when you had 1 or 2 thousand subscribers, ito's small corner of the internet, your channel grew so fast and you've reached a lot of people who deal with similar things to what you deal with, congrats on 100K :) you should be proud, you've made 100K people feel less alone, thats how i see it

[@allewis4008]

You're getting a lot done! The filming process is giving you some goals that you're accomplishing, so keep at it 👍

[@kingofthesquibs5326]

I get it it`s okay. Sometimes all you can do is just deal with the stuff you`re feeling. Give the plushies a Big Hug from me!

[@egersamkynhneigur8902]

it often happen for people with depression to just let them go and be unclean all the time, going outside was a good idea you should do that and do some tasks, it used to sheer me up when i felt like trash. get well take care xoxo

[@ChronicallyUnlucky]

I’m sorry you feel that way. I can relate about never feeling fulfilled despite reaching objectively significant milestones. I thought I’d be happy when I got into a good college and graduated with a bachelor’s degree that I’d be jumping for joy, but when everything was said and done, I felt more relief than happiness per se. Anyways, keep on keeping on! 100,000 people believe in you!

[@MaliciousWeiner]

I live alone and don't see anyone for as long as a month sometimes longer sometimes Shorter. I understand. You are very brave. I can even right things down. Don't want to be a bother to people.

[@Kapplerartbloomingdale]

I have suffered from ptsdc, adhd, asd, tourette's and anxiety for years. What you are experiencing is normal and comes with mental illnesses. You are strong for admitting your struggles. I feel your pain. You are not alone and I support you.

[@f.austin]

congratulations on 100k-that's the population of a huge (the biggest) stadiums of people-like the university of texas stadium; or the city of Yuma Arizona in 2023… haha. "i'm always chasing happiness" you are not alone, as your title points out: it is always fleeting. because, without knowing the lack of happiness it would be difficult to know the arrival of happiness. and since happiness comes in big and little events you can enjoy them all. that cycle is how people grow/mature in ideologies, spirituality, philosophies, etc.; so it sounds like you are on the right track. hope your tomorrows are better as well.

[@josemariaszanto3284]

potente discurso motivacional! 👌

[@fernandoemh]

Regarding why happiness is fleeting, well, sadly, we can't be happy forever, it's a state of mind that you can reach at some point, so it's naturally fleeting much like sadness, disgust, fear or love. It's a temporary feeling. But it's also an attitude and a choice. For example, in the morning you can choose to stay in bed a few hours staring at the ceiling and feeling miserable or melancholic, or you can chose to get up, open the window, go back to bed and listen to the birds. Bird sounds naturally bring peace/comfort/happiness usually. Just a small example of little things you can do to insert happiness in a normal day. Did you do something good? pat yourself in the back right away, like in anime. "Wow i did great there, let's gooo!" hyping yourself up goes a long way. Keeping your brain busy doing things you love is the best way to fill the darker parts of our day with some light, specially if they are things that improve/develop our skills/talents, like art, music, karaoke, learning a language, crafting things with our hands. Now, one of the many sad things about mental health is that you can't really control the chemical mix in your brain with pure willpower. Sometimes it will just feel like shit and there's absolutely nothing you can do, specially with no meds. But things do get better with time, and science is advancing a lot to understand the brain better. So remain hopeful always. Also, yes, taking the first step to communicate and get to know people is really hard, but it's something that has to be done in the environment you are in right now. There are little things we do as introverts that are pretty off putting to extroverts and regular people that makes us a bit unapproachable, that makes us seem dismissive, as if we had a natural force field. There are very few people like your friend the other day who went out of his way to go to your room and take you out. Value these people like a gem, because very few people in your life will ever do this. If you are ever feeling alone, and feel like life at the moment would be better shared with someone else, if you need company, if you want to go out and enjoy the day, reach out around you, ask, sometimes just a talk, a walk and some vitamin D can help us feel a lot better. 11:34 people around you will tend to not talk about those things because they are not going through them usually, it's very rare for people who go through what you are going through to be open about those things without anonymity, which is why particular communities in facebook, 4chan, reddit and twitter do share a lot of similar stories, struggling with mental health and life in general. Popular streamers like Asmongold have shared lots of similar stories too, like he had a dead rat next to his bed on the floor, when the sun hit the rat it would make the whole room smell like putrid flesh and he would wake up. So he called it the alarm rat. Through the many ant infestations on his room, he would always vacuum them up and cover gaps and holes with whatever he could find. And so many other stories. Finally, congrats on the 100k. Hope you can maximize ad revenue and get more plushies, maybe even a cool company can sponsor your content. Stay strong itonians 🫂

[@Calvansbagoftricks]

it really is. Happiness is just a dopamine hit.

[@moss_piglet]

I have no one to talk to in my real life so watching your videos feels cathartic, thank you for making them

[@Pyrithe]

You are doing great Ito. It may not seem like it to you, but I think you are a brave and strong woman. You don't talk to anyone nearby, but I can tell you that making a KZbin video, knowing hundreds or thousands of people will see it takes a great deal of courage. I tried doing KZbin videos once and I couldn't publish anything. Instead of focusing on where you are failing, look to where you are succeeding. Your followers might not be the same as nearby friends, but you are surrounded by people who love you regardless. I understand your struggles though. I am also not the cleanest person and I don't dare say how bad my own issues are right now, but I can assure you that you are doing far better than me. You are doing great, just keep it up and celebrate your victories, even if you don't feel like it. Go eat that cake tomorrow and celebrate your milestone. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you. I look forward to seeing your next video. If you ever need to talk, I am sure I'm not alone in saying you have an entire family right here to reach out to. Take care, Ito, and I hope you sleep well tonight.

[@ohiobwb]

Praying for you. Hang in there.

[@Eharmonicz]

Either way. Let time. Its beautiful. Ull see . Look how powerful u are. Embrace .have grace.

[@IgnatiusReilly401]

Great video. Congrats on 100K subs.

[@willphully]

I love this girl, she is so sweet.

[@Bimbow-13]

whenever you post it encourages me to look after my self. truth. look after yourself too get better okay? xx -the angry daughter who always on her phone (im shy pls dont hate me if i worded this wrong

[@Ilanavaryai]

thank you for being so vulnerable here . As a teen whos disabled and mostly homebound because of my chronic illness and constantly missing out on "life stuff" my peers do, it all feels so overwhelming and meaningless, and isolating because , no one can relate, but then i found your channel, and your words, just resonated so much.. i hope we can all keep fighting and keep strong through our struggles and i am really greatful for you making this community

[@RanDom-if2ee]

Congrats on 100k💙

[@Varrig]

You are not alone. You did not give up, because that would have fixed nothing. It does get easier in time. Adversity brings strength. There is no quick fix. You have already chosen the right direction. To find yourself.

[@al_alemania]

Some of y'all in the comments need to relax

[@CantRead1]

Seriously, these comments on her videos are always awful.

[@malaysiaball4084]

There probably from ito discord server or rondoms

[@malaysiaball4084]

​@@CantRead1 and to be honest she's not good at maintaining her discord server

[@zenacu11]

Congrats on 100 K I hope you feel better in the next video. 💫

[@vicious-pi3rd]

happiness is complicated by fears surrounding change, societal pressures regarding self-esteem, reliance on external validation, future-oriented thinking that detracts from present enjoyment, negative thought patterns, feelings of incompleteness, challenges associated with adjusting to life changes, and resistance against necessary transformations in life. I think it depends on the individual everyone has their own interpretation what it is..

[@victoryT_T]

Even your sad videos might help a lot of people, I wish you the best :(

[@YDK__B]

Enjoy life for what its worth ♥

[@ReallySimpleRich]

Sometimes "what if" is the most dangerous question that we could ask, but it's just human nature to think about it, so I guess that's part of life and something that we'll struggle with. Let's just hope it'll slowly get better

[@Jay-t2k2x]

Hey Ito. I get how you feel, my motivation is super low right now too and it makes it hard to just do simple things. I know you're trying your best and not giving up even though you're not feeling well, that's really good! I'm proud of you, and I think using these videos as a motivator is a good idea. Please do keep doing these videos if you can, it helps to know I'm not alone in feeling this way, I hope our comments do so for you too. I think it's good you can express yourself in these ways, it isn't helpful to keep it all inside, you know? I'm guilty of that, however... The cold makes all my symptoms worse, I get more lonely and depressed, more reclusive, too. My family is all I have to help me through these feelings, but it feels like I'm a burden. It's okay to have bad days and bad weeks, better times will come. You're so sweet and you seem like a good person, I wish we could be friends. I wish I had friends. Sorry for the long message, a lot on my mind. I hope things get better for us soon, see you next time. Bye bye.

[@young3682]

Congrats on 100k! Hope you continue to achieve happiness!

[@nnyquil]

I just finished reading this book called "Midnight Library". I recommend it as a fellow past expiration date human. It follows a woman who is full of regrets and chooses to no longer exist, but winds up in a limbo that materializes to her as a library full of lives that might have been so she can try them out and choose the "perfect" reality. It fucked me up at first, but I appreciated the ending. Eat that cheese cake, you earned it. Maybe throw on a show you like while you eat... even if you don't want to. I know action paralysis can feel like simple things are impossible to do, but once you start, they tend to just get done, until the next time. Sometimes you just have to force yourself to do a thing you will enjoy.

[@Hiko-q7j]

Thank you ito, you are my confort channel, u saved my life, ik is hard, i suffer from bpd, and i got confort on u

[@planetmarshmellow]

Practice makes perfect, the more you physically do activities, the easier the activities will become. Love ✌️💓❤️🙌👏👏🍀🍀 love hearing what you have to say

[@ballificgiant4470]

Hi Ito, I know many might say this and it’ll bore you but it really does pain me to see you going through this…you put in so much work and you’re so strong-and I don’t even know you personally but the fact that you hold on to hope is like holding on to a rope towards the top of a mountain with boulders hitting you, yet still holding on while taking each stone face on…I believe in you and believe that you’re more than enough, even with flaws because that’s what makes you you and your story unique…we don’t know each other but I’m cheering you on and I’ll do my best to be here for you even if it’s in the comments ❤️‍🔥🙏🏽 much love

[@br0kenbunni]

Happy 100k subs Ito, hoping you can achieve more happiness in the future!! :D

[@mswzzr]

Staying in a lot and doing things you love seems like a great thing to do on a Saturday night! I feel like everyone has different perspectives on "fun", but as long as you feel comfort and joy in something, I think that's all that matters :)

[@josemariaszanto3284]

por lo menos hasta que empiezas a sentir la soledad, sí....

[@mswzzr]

@@josemariaszanto3284 Oh, true..

[@TheVinor14]

I am not qualified to give therapeutic advice i can only speak to what has worked for me. I have had to fight intrusive thoughts all my life. Things get better as you age because you learn to deal with them. Also as i aged i feel like some emotions numb over time like anxiety. You seem young still. Im 28 now. The thing is, it's hard to keep up good habits. But it does get better with age the more you practice keeping it up. And i used to get lost in my head about what ifs What if i did this, What if i was another way, What if i looked at things differently. As i aged, i learned that the what ifs are themselves intrusive thoughts , and learning to block those out and focus more about what im doing now has helped me. Everyone is different, so I dont know if this is good advice, but it definitely has helped me. Practice shutting out the what-ifs thoughts. I could spiral for hours wondering what if i did this or that, the past is the past, and what we felt or feel is a part of who we are. Whether high school was a bad experience because of your outlook on it or whether it was genuinely just "luck of the draw," a bad experience for many other factors doesn't matter in the long run. You are who you are. All we can do is move forward. Tgat first step in socializing is always hard, but it is necessary to learn it. Developing hobbies for things you could enjoy is also very necessary I struggle with energy too, and it gets so much worse coming into the holidays. But im at the point now where funny enough some negative thoughts can be used as a tool to get things done. Like taking out the garbage or feeling clean, for example. In my head, i feel exhausted and just think, well, im going to feel crappy either way, but I'd rather feel crappy having done something then later asking what if about it.

[@jimmyju76]

congratulations on 100,000. don't think too much on it, we relate alot to what you're going though.

[@sneakretster]

I don't know how exactly to best be encouraging or what the "right" words to say to you would be given that, despite the similarities, your situation and mine are vastly different, but even still I really hope you understand that you've got the capacity to get through this and make it to better times It's not gonna be tough and empty forever and you just have to maintain a schedule for yourself while you pick yourself up off your feet and look for the things and people who can help drive you onto a path towards happier times. I know it's difficult to keep up routines and manage hygiene when you feel like this, but its best to make yourself a routine to follow each week so that you don't feel so lost and hopeless and thats how I've managed to keep myself consistent and contented with my own situation, despite my own issues with loneliness and things. Even still, I understand how this kind of introspection and chastising can affect oneself and the ways I try to deal with it is genuinely by using escapism and exploring the incredible worlds of people's imagination and creativity. I don't exactly have hopes for humanity or people in general because that's only proven to continue to disappoint me time and time again, but what I DO have faith in is the beautiful creativity of the human mind and that's one of the main things I live to see and it brings genuine joy to my life through video games and art. And on the topic of happiness, I feel like modern life has convinced people that happiness is something that people have to chase after and it's always closely associated with achievements and goals, but happiness is literally whatever you make out of life and you don't have to achieve the kinds of grand aspirations of do the same things other people do to have a pleasant day; it all comes down to personal experience. Happiness will also never always be around, and all the people around you are only showing the side of their lives that they WANT you to see just like you make yourself presentable for the sake of recording videos. Life is inherently a series of ups and downs that always goes back and forth and it never truly stays on one side forever unless you actively want things to never change, and it's not hugely different for anyone else so I hope you don't feel too alone or hopeless in the struggle. Like you said, we can all try our best together.

[@IAreClotpole]

"We all wanna disappear sometimes but we wake up every morning just in case that sun shines." - Witness. The world feels like a dark place all too often. But it doesn't stop spinning. When it seems there's nothing you can do, you do what you can.

[@CallMeLoaf]

Congrats on 100k bro🎉

[@josiahsuarez]

congrats on 100k ♥

[@derpydelame3226]

You should really take a walk outside. Even just 15-30 minutes a day. You will feels a lot better mentally, like a load off your mind. Hopefully your life get a lot brighter, take care.

[@furoo-o3h]

Your eyes, they show me something true, A reflection of me I never knew. In their light, I feel at peace, Like every worry has been released. They draw me in, without a word, And in that gaze, my heart is stirred. It's a glow that never fades, A light that guides me through the haze.

[@Yoi-p8]

You made my day better even though it's nighttime hahaha

[@scripturalcontexts]

The one thing that keeps me going in life is the promise that no matter how terrible things get, they never last forever. Plus the belief that there is a God who never changes despite everything else changing around me who is there to support me when I need help.

[@moji_mojyo]

“well..maybe it makes sense. 100,000 grains of sand….that sounds like a lot of sand” i love the way you explain things like that it’s so silly and congrats on 100k!! but more importantly, i have felt the same way in the very very recent past, and i honestly can’t tell you a way to feel different, i couldn’t find a way for a while, but what i can say is, you know that thing where people who think in a depressing way think of everything as worthless? the way i see it, it is “worthless”… but that’s a reason to do what makes you happy.. because you don’t have to do anything with your life. no one’s making you not run away and be homeless, or live in the sewers…. or get a pet rat… or try your best to be popular and fail….. and no one’s going to care. most people live, do what they like to do, make some people happy, maybe change things quite a bit, maybe have a family and some friends, and then they die with those people around them, it sounds depressing at first…. but there’s a lot to do in a long time like that. why be sad and hate your life the whole time? it’s a waste right? you could make so many people happy…………….. erm………anyway, i really feel bad thinking about how ur just sitting there sd while evryones happy because iknow about that lol, but im sorry that ur sad, and struggling, and i will support you for as long as i can, because i really understand the feeling of not wanting to take care of yourself lol

[@shadowking773]

Just woke up and this is the first video on my feed

[@-r.3-433]

Haven’t watched the full video yet but your makeup looks very pretty today Ito ❤ Hope your day’s been okay

[@facetious5013]

rooting for you, I hope someday you'll find yourself a happier time.

[@TheMarsChannel]

Happiness feels fleeting because it’s a state, not a permanent destination. Life constantly changes, and so do our emotions-they rise and fall like waves. Happiness, in many ways, is like sunlight peeking through the clouds. You can’t force it to stay forever, but you can notice and appreciate it when it’s there. One reason it feels fleeting is because our brains adapt to good things quickly. This is called the hedonic treadmill-when we achieve something or get what we want, it feels amazing at first, but then we adjust, and that feeling fades. This doesn’t mean happiness isn’t real; it just means we’re wired to keep moving forward, to look for new experiences. But there’s a hidden beauty in this. If happiness were constant, it might lose its meaning. Its fleeting nature makes it precious. Think about your favorite song-it wouldn’t feel special if it played all the time. What you can do is focus on moments rather than chasing happiness as an end goal. Notice the small joys: laughter with a friend, a kind word, the way light filters through the trees. These moments add up, even if they feel brief. Happiness is fleeting, but so is sadness, fear, or pain. Emotions are temporary, like weather. You can’t hold on to the sunshine, but you can learn to enjoy it while it lasts-and remember that it will return, even on cloudy days. p.s. I hope you ended up eating that cheesecake=)

[@michaelm7901]

Words are not reality, They are an attempt to describe it. Before language was invented emotions were just senses that worked perfectly. Because we speak we can distort reality. When you describe reality well and are realistic you feel better. To see reality better add AND to the end of sentences. Like, today is not so good AND tomorrow might be better. Or I feel sad AND sometimes i feel good. Or I feel badly AND at least I have a nice room, when we delete all the good we feel bad. Like a camera that only focuses on the darkness. Its a habit.

[@trevorhabermehl9565]

Hi ito! Keep chasing happiness, your videos feel like you have a passion for them. Talking about problems, what makes them bad, what makes them good, ways to fix them, is a healthy way of trying to find a solution. This might not work for you as it does me, I have no like "best friend" or what some people might qualify as friends. My brothers, wife, parents, and 2nd cousin are my friends. The issue I have is I would like a few closer friends that are not family, but they cannot be just anyone for some reason. I want them to be in a category of "similar pursuit of passion" as me. I seem to value this "similar pursuit" thing as fulfilment. I tried a few different things so far and I know I'm not there yet. But I am heading in the right direction. I still have intrusive thoughts telling me "This isn't worth it.", "You might not make it.", and "Are you sure this is even what you want?". It is not the easiest thing to do, but I made a commitment to tell myself otherwise. I would write more but a page just went out a boat is sinking, I'll look forward to seeing your next video.

[@Helvig-pn7bf]

Keep your head up Ito. I know how you feel, I had a crappy time at school too and have bad days as well.. but you gotta stay strong, take some small steps and improvements exercise is a good thing for your mind especially. ❤

[@TH22051]

i see so many people like you went i see them i trust want to give them a hug if i can