Why letting go?

I had to go to Moscow for a one-day trip and it gave me some very important insights that I’m sharing in this Sunday chat. Memories of the past can give us warmth and comfort but can also cause some very heavy experiences. Inviting you to think along with me 🌿
Thank you for watching and being here, dear friends. I’m forever thankful and never take your attention and time for granted.
Sending love to you all ❤️
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Yours,
Ana(stasia)

[@grady4757]

This is Ana’s husband. I just want to say how much all of your thoughtful conversations mean to us. When Ana started the channel, neither of us knew what would come of it. It makes me incredibly joyful to know so many of you see the same light in her that I see. And although we hope to very soon have more time to talk with you more fully (we have some ideas), it’s important to me to acknowledge what a fascinating group of humans that have collected in this little space from afar. 🍀

[@e.karolina5572]

🧡

[@RoseCottageColleen]

I hope you are able to find your way to each other soon. 🧡

[@Seeking_Myself]

So lovely to read your words. She is special indeed. A rare light of hope and resilience in the dark. I hope that you will be reunited very soon 💜

[@waffles2527]

We all love her and worry about her. I hope you can be together soon

[@skincaremakeup40]

Ana is a gentle humble delicious Elf.It's impossibile not to love her.In a world of aggressive replicants in expensive clothes and complicated lives she is a delicate creature.With a very high QI

[@stefanschmid2145]

I lived 20 years in Thailand 🇹🇭 before I went back to my home country Switzerland 🇨🇭. I didn't miss Switzerland. Why was that the case. Because I lived where I was . That was Thailand 🇹🇭. I didn't mix with Swiss people to celebrate Switzerland and my past. What do I want to say. Embrace the place where you are now and try to make the best out of it. Peace and happiness 😊

[@rhosymedra6628]

Best wishes for safety and your journey! Your insights are always so gentle and at the same time cut right to the heart of things.

[@Seeking_Myself]

Hi Ana. I read a quote from Confucius today and I just had to share it with you after hearing you tell of your dream of us having a second life, but shorter. Confucius said "We have two lives, and the second begins when we realise we only have one". This really hit home to me as I hurtle towards my 60th birthday 💜

It is always a pleasure to hear your thoughts. It feels like an intimate, vulnerable conversation with a friend :)

[@galebecker3487]

Hi, I an so grateful to you for loving Ana, she is a very special human being. I cantwait for you to be reunited, so that you can live life together. Thank you for sharing your post with us. Take care Gale x

[@thefilipinojoe]

One of my best friends asked me as I was about to leave the Philippines, “Will you miss me?” I didn’t want to answer, as I knew the answer wasn’t what she wanted to hear. My whole life, in a nutshell, has been a series of reincarnations, moving and living in lots of different places, meeting new people, and doing new things. The only consistent thing in my life is me. I have very special friends who I’ve known throughout all of these past reincarnations, as well as special moments I cherish, and some that have been forgotten, or all but forgotten. Things change, people change, and when we do have the experience of reconnecting years later we realize nothing is as it was; not us, not them. Our memories are like stories of our past. Gone forever, except in our memories. When we are fortunate enough to retain beautiful friendships over the years and miles, it’s a true blessing, and nothing to really miss, as they still exist.

[@annekramer6740]

PS- I had my hair cut super short like yours and it gave me a liberated feeling because it’s so easy and exposes me in a good way.

[@anagoldberg]

Aww, I'm so glad to hear this, Anne! Welcome to the short-hair club;)

[@susangraff259]

I too am a member of the short hair club. I love very short hair!

[@SamOHea]

There was once a group of women studying the book of Malachi in the Old Testament. As they were studying chapter three, they came across verse three, which says: “He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver.” This verse puzzled the women, and they wondered what this statement meant about the character and nature of God. One of the women offered to find out about the process of refining silver and get back to the group at their next Bible study. That week this woman called up a silversmith and made an appointment to watch him at work. She didn’t mention anything about the reason for her interest beyond her curiosity about the process of refining silver. As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the fire and let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one needed to hold the silver in the middle of the fire where the flames were hottest as to burn away all the impurities. The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot - then she thought again about the verse, that he sits as a refiner and purifier of silver. She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front of the fire the whole time the silver was being refined. The man answered “Yes”, and explained that he not only had to sit there holding the silver, but he had to keep his eyes on the silver the entire time it was in the fire. If the silver was left even a moment too long in the flames, it would be damaged. The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, “How do you know when the silver is fully refined?” He smiled at her and answered, “Oh, that’s easy. When I see my image in it.” If today you are feeling the heat of this world’s fire, just remember that God, our Father has His eyes on you.

[@chebstar]

Every time you say "Hey my friends!" I always think how cool it would be if we were friends in real life!! You're such a cool human! Peace xx

[@maryanne5994]

Lovely video like beautiful poetry! ❤️

[@BettyHorn]

My fears kept me from growing for over 40 years until I realized I was afraid of a ghost. Letting go can be so freeing, so uplifting. Love your sweet messages of hope, momentum, and renewal!

[@ClandestineGirl16X]

The way you described the sentimental items being like a magical item was absolutely beautiful! I resonate with that!

[@annelarsson6152]

I pray that you and your dear husband Will be United soon 🙏🙏 Happy Easter 🐣🐰

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you and happy Easter, dear Anne 💚

[@rosebaglieri6691]

It's incredible how I can relate to what you've said. I lived my 20's in the States. With relationships, friends and just another way of living. I then moved to Italy, always grasping those memories and never letting go. I then visited the US and realized how life had moved on for everyone but me. I was stuck in the past. That was my moment of letting go. You can learn from the past but never can you make it become present. Thank you for your words today.

[@cmst6408]

Ana thank you your curosity, insights,, research and wisdom, In addition, just being you and putting out excellent videos. This reminds me of parts of lecture I heard a monk with a philosophy course: he said you are your own witness, best friend and enemy. Witness to hold self accountable, friend for compassion and enemy that we can get in our own way. And key thing to try best balance them- with mindfulness and i think holding past can play a part. Much love ❤ and space for better soon present and future for You and ALL

[@chrisburgess6893]

Ana, you are a natural philosopher! Thank you for sharing your thoughts and shining a light on what many of of us choose to keep in the dark.

[@otterwench]

this winter a dear friend and neighbor fell on the ice and struck her head. she lost the most recent seven years of memories. her son will turn eight years old this summer. her last memories of him was when he was six months old. my relationship with her was only a few years old. I was devastated. thankfully her husband had been a friend of hers since they were teenagers, so she had a very deep connection to him. since then, she and I have begun to rebuild our friendship and the joy of that brings tears to my eye. Life is still incredibly difficult for her as she encounters people she no longer recognizes and adjusts herself to the changes that have happened in the world over the past 7 years. she also treasures new memories, making short videos with her son studying in the background and their puppy sparking joy. memories are incredibly powerful, for good or I'll. I am grateful every day that our friendship is growing again, but my heart hurts for her pain.

[@anagoldberg]

This is a heartbreaking and incredible story at once... Thank you for sharing it. I feel so much for your friend. I can only imagine what she might feel... Again, an important reminder to cherish what we have now.

[@mariaruiz3848]

As always very profound and enlightening. The reality is that you live a live of attachment to everything and as the masters said "suffering" is the inevitable consequence. Learning detachment from everything and loving everything is liberation.. We dyed and rebirth so many times in our lives as part of the evolution of the soul. Love 💗 you Ana. You have so much light and love in your heart and that it is what matter the most. Take care and know that YOU ARE LOVE AND YOU ARE LOVED

[@marynorquist6033]

I often come watch your videos because I feel the world is so cold and disingenuous (especially lately) and it hurts me to know this fact. You remind me so clearly that authentic, genuine and sincere people still exist in the world. Your words are so full of wisdom and comfort for me. The analogy you shared about the ice cream and memories morphing really hit home. It is so true. Thank you for taking time to make your videos in what is such a challenging personal time for you. I wish you the best and I hope that you will have your reunion with your dear husband very soon.

[@ellizaogrady]

"the new reality never asks, it just arrives" wow.

[@grady4757]

Another Grady! 😊

[@ellizaogrady]

@@grady4757 yes !!

[@marilynhaverly570]

"The new reality never asks, it just arrives." True. From childhood I remember the story of Paul from the Bible saying he had learned to be content in "whatsover state I am in." As I've lived through many changes and experiences in my 69 years the image of a man sitting in prison saying those words come to mind often and provide encouragement. I think our memories can inform our present and can also serve to help us see how well we've learned to take reality as it comes. Thank you for your beautiful video and your deep thoughts.

[@denisewehling649]

So glad to hear from you, Sweet Ana. I pray things are moving for you and your husband. I have an elderly friend who has his PhD in psychology. I asked him what advice he would give me. He answered, "Don't live remorsefully. Keep your smile." I had regrets from the past and was constantly thinking of the shoulda, coulda, wouldas in my life if I could only live it over. There's no Do-Over button in life so I try my best to continue smiling and live a happier positive life.

[@angelamaddalena8170]

I clicked Superfast, just really wanted to know how you're doing

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you, dear friend! 🌟sending warm hugs to you

[@catherinerhyno9581]

It is so obvious that you are on a better path...sounding more like the original video posts too. I am glad that you are able to think so deeply and share those thoughts with me and everyone here! Thank you!!

[@callie1603]

Thank you Ana. The past is powerful and can destroy the present and the future or in my case it niggles like a little woodpecker. Sometimes I listen, sometimes I don’t. Mostly I try to just be present in my life and make my own choices. I hope you and Grady are both well. 💫

[@classifiedinformation6353]

My 92 year old Father often says things are not as as they used to be. He is right. He navigates through his days lamenting how he can't do many of the things he used to be able to do. He is right. I wish he would remember his good life fondly and not with grief that he can't go back.

[@sustainablyyours61]

I had a childhood of painful memories, abandonment and neglect, abuse and other traumas. Most of my relationships were painful in some way or another. Having blocked certain memories out, I eventually had to face them. Acknowledging the pain from the past is a healing process, but as you say, they can often be distorted and changed. Sometimes we hang on to the past because it somehow defines us. I fhave found many lessons in the past, and to this day my experiences have shaped me as a human being and continue to affect my life. Letting go of the past in a life long journey. Much to love to you Ana.

[@johnatkinson3350]

Dear Ana, it is such a beautiful thing to hear someone talk from their heart with so much sincerity about both insecurities and dreams. You are a small beacon of the best in humanity. Deep love and respect for you. Wishing and praying for you and your husband and your future together 🙏

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you so much for your kindness, dear friend 🌸

[@tmdavidson1478]

Sometimes survival requires us to walk away from the past. Sometimes healing requires our revisiting it. That has been my experience. No matter what we think about it, the past has threads in it that shaped us and can continue to remind us how to live and how not to. The past is a tool, nothing more. Wisdom teaches us when to pick it up and when to lay it down. Peace of mind or its absence will be the measure of when we have chosen well. It's always good to hear from you, Ana.

[@anagoldberg]

I can't agree more, my friend... Indeed, the past is a tool. Thank you 💚

[@SimoneWhipp]

Dear Ana. This made me cry a little today. I do revisit the past from time to time and then wish time could stand still. But I know that life moves on and we must be prepared to adapt and grow and not be afraid of change. Nothing lasts forever and it is better to go with the flow rather than stay stuck in a rut. Thank you so much for the thought provoking post Ana. Keep well. I hope that you and Grady are together or soon will be. x

[@lisamchugh1647]

You have a great way of putting a way of thinking into words - great video

[@michellemontgomery-jones2579]

I'm very happy to see you, Ana. Your message today was beautiful. I've learned that the past is good to remember, yet not to live in. Each phase of our lives has it's own place and time. From the phases we draw experiences that help make us who we are. I pray you are well and staying strong.

[@anagoldberg]

So well said, dear Michelle 💛

[@rhiannonwinter]

I only realised about five years ago that I am very much a nostalgic. I am very prone to dwell on the past with bittersweet feelings, wanting to both go back and leave it all behind at the same time. I enjoyed hearing the metaphor of memories being like ice cream left out in the sun, I think that has given me some things to think about. I also appreciate you very candidly speaking of your fear of death which I also share with you, and I struggle with it very much sometimes, so much that I hate to talk about it at all even after having small panic attacks about it. Anyway, thank you as always for sharing your thoughts. I appreciate hearing them deeply ❤️

[@julsknapp7192]

Trauma will imprison you in a loop with the past. I feel I have no future. Just current me, surviving, and what has happened before. I think of myself in past tense and feel I'm somewhat "expired". I say things like "When I was an artist. When I used to cook." The past doesn't change and people can find comfort there. Future is unknown and scary.

[@anagoldberg]

I feel your pain, my friend... I wish there was a way to relieve it. And for now, sending my support your way 💚

[@clarabelmont9817]

Memories are my most cherished treasures. I want them to be stored somehow, to be shared somehow. Some memories are too much for my mind to process, those ones are like angry creatures that make a mess in my head, but even they are mine. It feels like memories are the only thing I have, and what you said about objects feels true to me. Its like they themselves have souls and store memories, like magic. Stay safe Ana, love from Canada

[@MIOLAZARUS]

Your videos find me at the right time 💕 Beautiful video!!!!

[@anagoldberg]

I'm so glad the video resonated with you, my dear Mio 💚

[@elizabethc6517]

Hello Ana, I am so glad to hear from you and to know that you managed to get out. I like and I am very encouraged by your videos full of reflection. I think the same, it is not easy to leave the past but it is part of life if we want to move forward. In my case, I have been trapped for two years since the pandemic began in a country where I did not feel well from day one, but I am already preparing to return to my country, Venezuela. Sometimes leaving the past is a blessing, in my case I crave it so much! I want to leave this reality behind to be better mentally. Thank you for this video, for everyone really and I sincerely hope that your new stage is full of happiness. A big hug for you! ✨🌷🌼🤗

[@majhea_]

Hello, As always, love your thoughts ! your video makes me think about my relationship with the past. I must be strange, this times, it's the bad memories that come back, I force myself to focus on the present moments. I think it's due to the current stress, because usually I'm more positive person. Hope, very soon, you'll be together with your husband. Kiss from south of France

[@iefkevanschaick1548]

Its very hard to move on,sometimes things remind you of the past .Living in the now is way more important, you are alive with the moment.

[@mirjanamoffat7609]

Privet Ana, it is admirable to see you so motivated and full of inspiration to all of us, given what you are going through at the moment. I enjoy your art very much, and hope to be able to read most of the books that you recommend. Warm greetings from New Zealand 🇳🇿 ❤️

[@darbyh.8255]

Thank you so much for another beautiful and thoughtful video. I struggle with this too. Sometimes my past feels like a bad accident. I was there, I was hurt, it was painful… I remember some things and forgotten others. But sometimes the memories or visions come out of nowhere… usually at the worst times. Although I’ve healed from the “ accident” of a painful past. The damage remains. My outlook will never be as positive or optimistic as it once was. The future seems blurry at best. Turning inward, staying quiet and resisting change seems almost to be an automatic response, a default setting. I find myself stuck somewhere… and nowhere. Not wanting anything to do with the past but never relying on the future. I hope that makes sense. Stay safe! Sending love as always.

[@anagoldberg]

Oh, dear friend, I know so well what you're talking about. For sensitive people, all the events in life are more traumatizing, and healing is hard. Sending you love and support. 💚

[@darbyh.8255]

Thank you so much! HSPs have a more difficult. Time processing life than others. That is the truth! I’m so glad you’ve created a community where we can come together and discuss. It means so much to me.💛💚

[@sunflower-oo1ff]

Hello "Ana's husband".....Can't wait to see you both grow old together. ;)

[@Maggies87]

I will replay this video, Ana, as I clear neglected spaces of unused things. During your own upheaval, you continue to make this world a better place. Thank you. 💐

[@anagoldberg]

Oh, thank you for saying this and watching, dear friend 🌸

[@verderaven]

I hope you and Ana are reunited very soon. Sending you love from Canada 🇨🇦.

[@melissamorris-hillman5777]

Thank you and please take good care

[@genevievemorin3299]

Dear Ana, this video is so meaningful and helping. Thank you again for your wisdom and generosity to open your heart to us. I wish you to reunite soon with your wonderful husband. May life bring you new opportunities of creativity and ways of bringing your own personal light to the world.

[@mkmk8150]

I have been thinking about this lately in relation to my son, almost 9 years old. He is quickly growing away from the little child I have loved. He is growing into a new little man for me to love, but the pain of letting go is always there. The tension between holding the lovely memories close, but allowing him to grow and change as necessary--this is difficult. I feel it in the relationship with my own parents, too: I want them to be the same as they were when I was a child, but they are growing old. Their personalities are similar, but not exactly identical to what they were when I was young. They, too, continue to grow, change, adapt, and move on. Part of me wants to fight it, but, as you say, it is a natural part of life. More, it is necessary for life. There are some small sub-cultures which attempt to hang on to an ideal period in their own history--they preserve the fashions, language, and lifestyles of a specific era--but even this concerted effort by a group of like-minded individuals cannot prevent change from making itself known. Either the group must continue to evaluate, revise, and adapt, however slightly, or they risk becoming a hollow shell and a caricature. I am no longer what I was before, and I am not yet all that I will be.

[@anagoldberg]

Oh, dear friend, I can so relate to your thoughts about your parents. I know what you're talking about. It's a very sad feeling, a sense of time slipping away... And although I don't have kids, I can at least try to understand your emotions watching your sweet son grow... Time, the pace of time, is aimed to teach us humbleness. But it's so hard to achieve. I know it from my own experience. Thank you so much for sharing. Sending you love 💛

[@daniwastaken]

Lots of love and gratitude Ana 💖💖💖💖

[@jeanniebenfaida9370]

Learn from the past but don’t dwell there … the now and future offer much to sooth the soul. God is great. ❤

[@avossonges]

Dear Ana, your beauty is shining through these difficult times! Thank you so much for these insights about how to relate to the past and let go. It makes me think of Hermann Hesse's wonderful poem "Stufen", "Stages" in the english translation. This poem helped me many times when I had to say goodbye to a place or a person I loved. I send you love, support and gratefulness. You are like a sister to me ❤

[@TA-vs2sw]

Thank you. The imagery of the paper boat is very powerful. Love and light on your journey. ♥️🌈

[@annainbudapest1261]

I have accepted and forgiven my past. I think that comes with my age I am 56 now, and my faith. Hugs from Budapest

[@anagoldberg]

I agree, Anna. Time makes it easier to accept and, most importantly, understand everything. Sending love to Budapest🌼

[@annainbudapest1261]

@@anagoldberg I hope all goes well with you

[@veejo9535]

What a thought provoking video on such a huge topic. You always stretch us with your intelligent insights. My husband often tells me that I carry memories too long from the past. But what are we if we are not made up of memories and which have helped shape who we are and helped us to learn and to grow. To be fair I guess he was talking of negative memories, but while it is unhealthy actually to dwell upon bad things that have happened, an occasional remembrance from a different place in time can help us to gain a different perspective. My mother got dementia in her last years and forgot most of her memories. This has made me think deeply on consciousnesses, identity and our place and meaning in life as humankind. I have no answers but I lost some of my earlier beliefs in the process and keep open minded. Your dream was interesting Ana and, as you say, if only it were true. Maybe it is? Stay safe my friend and I send you my love and best wishes.

[@shess1640]

Oh Ana….what a helpful and meaningful message this is. My brain lit up when you mentioned “beacon” and “magical thinking”…. I will read that article you’ve referenced. On another note I am a longtime “fan” and admirer of yours and have been following what you’ve chosen to share about your next steps. I am a fan of the writer Masha Gessen and my mother’s family was from Russia though I’ve never been….and now (I’m 61) I suspect I may never be able to go or will choose not to …I guess that will be determined as time goes on. I’ve supported, financially, a number of organizations in support of Ukraine and its refugees. Please message me if you need additional support to make your dream come true.

[@anagoldberg]

Oh, my friend, I hope every day that things will get better... I love Masha Gessen too! Thank you for your care and kindness so much 💚🌸

[@annelarsson6152]

Thank you so much for sharing your lovely message and for you being Lovely you Ana 🙏❤️❤️😍 I am so Happy and thankful to see you again and that you are safe 🙏❤️❤️

[@debbiefaulkner7889]

I love your heart and your sentiments ♥️

[@maureengallant5066]

Hello Beautiful, your thinking reminded me a little of Kierkegaard's Diapsalmata, where he talks about the poet and the critic who he sees as if they are 2 peas in a pod, the difference though is that the critic has no anguish in his heart and no music on his lips. The past resonates, I wouldn't try to separate myself from it, or it's concerns, but then of course, you don't. You use your memories and your dreams to help others. Thank you Ana. Oh, before I run, since I hate to sound highbrow and dash...when I hear you say your lovely name, I hear something along the lines of Hi, I'm Ana, it's nice to see you. (uh, nice to see ya) I'm such a weirdo! While this isn't at all what you are saying, your name sounds musical to my ears....or it sounds like a loving hello. Take care.

[@starrybatfish5105]

This was so helpful, thank you for sharing your clarity of thought with us. Wishing you smooth sailing and sending you love.

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you, my friend 🌸

[@skincaremakeup40]

My dear Anna....my beloved complicated (Polish) husband committed suicide 6 years ago on Easter day....and today you are posting a vlog on the topic of letting go the past...very very hard for someone still in love.Thanx for your wise words my sweet far far friend.A hug from Sicily

[@kristiarth2759]

Thinking of you today

[@anagoldberg]

Oh, dear Marialuisa, I'm so sorry for your loss and your pain... I hope you'll find solace but understand how hard it might be. Sending you my love and hugs. Your love to your husband is an amazing evidence of beauty to me 💚

[@evaholland8534]

Thank you again for sharing all those thoughts with us! Deeply touched! Take care! Looking forward to the next time! Eva in Stockholm

[@deatraparks4739]

hello dearest ana--happy to see your lovely face, that is alight with hope---i agree with you--i believe in the present moment, but i haven't seen my children in 3 years and my 4 grandchildren--so at times to sit in the present moment can be hard---the plan will be to see them in a couple of months...little ones tho grow fast----you are a lovely person--my prayers--thoughts are with you each day---love to you deatra

[@violaineaudrey8841]

Merci beaucoup chère Ana ! This is such a great food for thoughts... your sharing, the quotes, the pictures, everything is so delicate and it deeply touches my heart and my soul. I try by any means to detach myself from the weight of the past, for so long, to soften my sensibility and for freeing myself, it's hard to put it into words ! So thank you so very much Ana, sending Love and light for you 🌿🌸🦋

[@anagoldberg]

Aww, your words in French made me smile so huge! I miss this language, so it's a great reminder to re-learn it. I know exactly what you mean per freedom from the past. We all deserve it 🌼 Sending love to you too, sweet friend.

[@madelineduffin1352]

I have loved Mary Oliver's poetry for a very long time. Her poem " Wild Geese" speaks to me so much, the melancholy of time passing, the nature of being alive. I have a small black board in my entry way, I stopped your video on the poem to copy it on there so i could read it as i am getting ready to leave. Thank you.

[@grady4757]

I agree, Madeline. Mary Oliver’s poetry has always stuck with me. Her observations are deep and true.

[@ritafgueira6785]

Beautifully said. I needed it! Thank you!

[@madamemaigret1508]

❤️

[@annekramer6740]

Fascinating as always. Thought provoking and calming. Thank you, Ana

[@kaygodfrey9263]

Love your channel the turtle says yestery was history today is a mystery tomorrow is a gift

[@dannysmith2794]

Your videos are so well prepared & so interesting, so profound. Personally, I'm working hard to forget the past, I feel so much better where I am in my life now, after years of working on myself, it payed... Wishing the best for you Ana, Love from Canada

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for watching, Danny. There's no perfect cure that suits everyone in terms of the past. And thus I agree, sometimes it's just no other way out than to forget and start anew. Wishing you the best of luck and sending love, dear friend ☘

[@susannahpeters778]

Thank you, your videos are very inspiring

[@karoana8759]

thank you again for your beautiful words, too short videos everytime ❤good luck

[@katrussell6819]

Stay safe. Keep us posted.

[@nyella]

Next week, I will be divorced. This will mark the official end to a very painful journey, and in light of that your video resonated deeply with me. Although it is little in comparison to what so many people are going through right now, it is much in my own life. So thank you

[@anagoldberg]

As someone who went through a painful divorce before, I feel you, my friend. It's hard but it will get better. I bet you know it in your heart. Something new and beautiful awaits you. Sending love and support 💚

[@Felidae-ts9wp]

Thank you Ana for another inspiring video. I hope that everything will be well with you and your loved ones. Take care 💕

[@scherbakovaanna]

It’s a whole new level of this video essays genre you have started on your channel, I would say. Thank you and all of my support for you and your husband ❤️

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you so much for your kind words, dear Anna 💚 I'm glad you like the essay format:)

[@kathsarazin]

Hi Ana- the past breaks my heart (both good and bad memories- for different reasons), so I find that leaves me no choice but to let those memories go in order to be able to move forward in life.

[@Cat-oj4oz]

I once saw a tiny purple flower that had pushed its way through a crumbling sidewalk...you remind me of that...

[@bogusiasymonowicz7649]

My past is my wound. I managed to stop the bleeding, put the plaster over it, and can carry on living, but if I am not cautious it can get infected again. The good thing is, that with time I am getting wiser with care to minimise the risk of those infections. It's easy to get bitter with bad past, so as you say keeping heart open is the key to make future heal the past ❤️

[@anagoldberg]

I hope your wounds will be healed soon, dear Bogusia 💚 Sending love to you.

[@jcsrst]

Tread lightly Anna, these are dangerous times. Change will happen wether you like it or not. Best to get on with acceptance. Much love from the other side of the world 😘

[@nicnaknoc]

Love the purple collar - so pretty I live a magical life as I identify as a shamanic witch and caretaker of spirited items - so hearing you talk about sentimental items as memory holders and magical it resonated with me 😄 I'm not a minimalist and will most likely never be as I enjoy my stuff and find so many stories in them

[@christinep152]

Thank you for sharing your beautiful and poignant thoughts, dear Ana. Always good to hear from you!

[@verenamartini8695]

"No man is rich enough to buy his past" the sentence is so adequate and meaningfull, Ana !

[@sundancita]

As always, you are sharing deep and heartfelt thoughts. Thank you. I love your dream - how potent it would be if we could come back knowing what we already know. I agree about the risks of stagnation and resistance to change. I also know the comfort of the familiar and the anxiety of facing something new. Continuing to challenge ourselves to try something new and open our hearts and minds to learn and grow - this is the quest for us all. Take care, Ana.

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for watching, dear friend. Yes, I completely agree, our life is a quest and it needs us moving:) Sending love to you.

[@michelecraig9658]

Your talk today reminds me so much of the novel, The Buried Giant.

[@lindacasalgrandi292]

Another beautiful and insightful video. Thank you for bringing calmness to this mad world. You are a blessing.

[@gingermcintosh6545]

Ana! I love this. I am a big fan of Mary Oliver. So happy to know we share her. Yes I am struggling with letting go of things right now. Change is scary but also invigorating. What will my life look like in a month when I have no home? Where will you be Ana? I think about you so often. I hope you are working your way toward a brilliant future. That both of us are.

[@JoanneSzabo1844]

Good day Ana. My name is Joanne. I come from a Slovak background. I am a grandmother to 4 and soon to be 5 little souls. Hence I named myself Babajo to keep tradition alive. I have lived for 66 years. As I age memories make themselves known to me more often. Reflection becomes a natural part of life. Pride and guilt show themselves like watercolours. Questions of accuracy and embellishment appears. Memory is reduced to feelings not fact and I have come to accept that those feelings can no longer ring true or have validation if I am to go forward. I still believe that all I have done in this world has brought me to this moment and I am grateful for that but I refuse now to dwell on it. ❤

[@anagoldberg]

Oh wow, your message is so profound and beautiful, dear Joanne! Thank you for sharing. I agree with every word of yours. Sending love to you and your wonderful family 🌟

[@thissunchild]

Don't be afraid of death, Ana. Maybe you should watch some Near Death Experiences. They are very reassuring💜

[@ariel-mindfuladventures4709]

Thank you for sharing and update on how you’re doing ❤️ ; it’s a beautiful insight on the distinction between remembering and clinging! I’ve seen that this helps in discerning the way (to move forward).

[@cynthiareimer2020]

Dear Ana, you are so brave. And well-read! I am decades older than you and so, with many more memories to treasure and contemplate, good and bad. I have been thinking on this subject of memories this week coming up to Easter and appreciate your thoughts and quotes. I enjoyed “meeting” Grady today in his comments and look forward to hearing more from and about him. He must be a truly amazing and wonderful person to be chosen as a husband by you! Be well, be safe, dear Ana.

[@dassodia]

Ana, thank you for the opportunity to think about experiencing the past. While I was working as a Personal Historian, my colleagues and I often relied upon a study that concluded that reviewing one's past experiences contributes to quality of life because it allows one to view life's difficulties, disappointments and challenges in a wider perspective and to realize that we have overcome difficulties and have grown. I think I still believe that is true, but I personally still have some painful things from my past that I feel that I almost physically push down to avoid reflecting on. And I know that sometimes something happens or someone makes a comment that is a very small thing and has no real impact on my life now, but it causes that pushed-down memory to try to rush to the surface, prompting me to overreact to the small something. Do you ever feel that way? So glad to hear you are taking care of things and moving forward. Be well and stay strong! Safe home.

[@mimishimaineko1173]

It is so difficult to let go--people, objects that evoke them, good/bad memories, the past in general! Sometimes I cling to the painful past more than I should, because misery/pain can be an old friend. Sadly, happiness can be fleeting, not as reliable.

[@anagoldberg]

Oh, I know what you mean by pain being an old friend... Wishing all of us strength to overcome it 💚

[@gracesimplified3860]

Ana, you always touch my heart with your beautiful thoughts and shared quotes. Thank you🙏 I find the past both a comfort and a trap if I dwell too long in memory. To have beautiful memories is both a blessing and a curse when present times are difficult and the future seems unreliable. However, with a eep breath I always choose to move forward toward the future rather than be swept off my feet into it. Even then we may have no choice and be caught off guard. I hope you will step into a bright future filled with a hopeful heart 🙏💙🕊🌏🌸

[@carolcollins3108]

Thank you for a powerful video Ana. I hold onto my memories. They seem to be all that I have left. I'm at peace with all that is , and I accept my loss. It still hurts when I remember how it was once. But when I pull myself up to face the moment, I'm surprised when I actually feel love. Then I'm glad that my heart is still open. I often experience a distinct tenderness when I love even in hurt and pain. I feel vulnerable and yet I just stay peacefully in the moment and let it happen. I let go of wanting to control and manipulate and try to just let it be and be present to how it is. I'm open for surprises. Thank you for a great video. Peace !

[@anagoldberg]

An open heart is a true blessing, dear Carol 💚 Your perspective is worth admiration...

[@ShaunMeaney99]

Thank you for providing insight, the propaganda machine has broken my heart as someone who wanted to break into journalism/politics for the last 5 years and I am struggling to reason with my own negativity at this point. :c

[@allthebest744]

This was a beautiful and sentimental video. I loved the quotes, memories, and graphics. I think of you every day and hope you are safe and well. I am in my late 60’s and have many happy memories. Sadly, most of the people who were a part of those memories have passed away. It is a very sad and lonely feeling. I cannot wait for the day when you and your husband are reunited. Please know that you are loved. You are a very bright and inspiring woman and you bring peace to all who follow you. All the best to you and Bryan. Stay strong and believe. Sending love, Ruth

[@anagoldberg]

Dear Ruth, thank you for your kindest words that warmed my heart so much 💛 In one of the earlier videos, a friend left a comment about their life turning into a caravan of goodbyes... It's so sad and one of the reasons I never wanted to grow up, honestly. But we all have to face it... Sending you love and thinking of you, my friend. You're not alone 🌼

[@danandlesliebulger2775]

Hi Ana! Thanks for another inspiring video. Wishing you and your family well. Take care and stay safe. ❤

[@smallhouseinthemeadow6131]

Your beautiful Ana is so caring and empathic and sweet and brilliant Grady. She fills up the room with her light and her love.I am looking forward to seeing you both connect and be together to continue your beautiful love story. It reminds me of war time love stories from the 40's, where the couple couldn't be together, but then had a beautiful life and family for 60 years after they reunited.

[@lynnegordon6749]

😘From one of your Canadian friends!🙏

[@Anita-rq9ev]

Dear Ana. Thank you for your wise and deep view on life 👍. I guess we all have good and bad memories of the past and everybody copes differently. Sometimes they are lessons to be learned. I wish you strength and a happy Easter 🐇🐣

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you dear Anita❤ Happy Easter to you too🌞

[@judyconstantino7035]

Ana, what a wonderful topic you covered today. You also did an amazing job with editing your video! I hope that putting the time spent working on making your videos, and getting them ready to post, puts you in a peaceful place, even if just for a little while. I also hope that, with every video you put out that helps so many of us, you are one step closer to being with your husband again. I have asked that my Guardian Angel sends a host of angels to protect you until that time comes! And, not whimpy angels! Ones, that if any one or anything attempts to harm you, the mere sight of them will cause them to say, “Never mind!” Oh, by the way, I love the collar you made and the very beautiful and unique button closure. Your creativity shines through in all situations. Judy from Arizona

[@anagoldberg]

Thank you for your sweetest words, dear Judy! Yes, I find so much happiness and comfort in making videos, it's like talking to all of the friends here in person (this is what I think of when talking to the camera). Sending much love to you, my friend 🌸