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I'm a Nanny and I literally can't cope with it looking like I existed in the parents space to a point that I put mess back where I found it if I move it out the way through the day. It's definitely a personal flaw for me.

Judt realized i do this all the time, i thought i did it because im a shy person

Oh this is another adhd dysphoria thing? Yea, great. 😮‍💨

YESSS I ALWAYS THOUGHT THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME BECAUSE IM FREAKING OUT FOR "NO REASON" WHEN SOMEONE IS NEXT TO ME AND COMMENTS ANYTHING IM DOING

I didn't know this was a thing that other people feel and relate too I thought I was just really weird I feel very accepted knowing this is athing alot of people go through as well

I thought I was the only one. Shout out to all my non perceivers

One of my friends is autistic and after watching your vids I feel so bad for the things she has to go through that I don’t even notice

I do that, ALL OF THAT

Omg why is this so relatable I hate it 😭😭😭😭😭😭

that's why its called a rainforest

It’s like being autistic is just being annoying and normal

Girl, I don’t think this is just you

I was the fricken weirdest little girl 😣🖐🍯😳🤮 sahh vry cringey

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The opening presents together is so real. I can only show excitement for a gift if it was something I REALLY wanted, and even then, I can't always express how excited i actually am for the gifts in the moment. I feel bad when people think I don't like their gift, when I just can't show that level of excitement in the moment 😭

The opening presents together is so real. I can only show excitement for a gift if it was something I REALLY wanted, and even then, I can't always express how excited i actually am for the gifts in the moment. I feel bad when people think I don't like their gift, when I just can't show that level of excitement in the moment 😭

Yep. It me 🫠

Definitely this. The exception is that if I'm hanging out with somebody and don't want them perceiving me in the sense of, like, sitting across from them and talking because that feels too vulnerable, i can and will often compulsively start doing chores. It's like i don't mind if they see the process from the beginning while I'm intentionally initiating it in front of them, but if they catch me in the middle of it, that is problematic.

Wait, I'm just watching you and finding out things i do everyday are not just call overthinking?

Okay who else saw the first one and was like HARRY POTTER!!!! I know, I’m too much of a potter head for my own good.

All your videos are soooo relatable to me! I'm not alone. You are awesome!

When I know the subject well I come across as pretty articulate and I think this confuses people. People tell me that my communication is good. During my nonverbal times I'm often ignored because people expect me to be able to communicate well. So they think I'm indifferent when it's actually an inability to speak during high stress times. It's been difficult getting people to see that I have communication struggles. Facial expressions confuse me. Vocal tone also confuses me. I think for neurotypical people facial expression and vocal tone contribute to their understanding of the situation. For me it just feels like too much information. I can often tell what the facial expression is but processing it and reacting appropriately puts my brain into overload.

That’s my stepdad

I totally get this... Especially when I was in school.

I am smack dab in the middle of alltistics and autistics: I get that I am being invited, but my neuro🌶 spicy family would clap back if you presumed on someone's hospitality. Express invitations were rare, and parties were cringe. When I was a kid and just asked, I had fun, but I realized that we fit out instead of fitting in. To all the alltistics who are patient and specific, bless you! The quiet kids will tell you to go to the bathroom because you were kind and returned our ✏️ so you dodge a school shooting. Love that Man and his show, and if you know, you know. 😉😉

I felt that 😭😭😭😭😭

The grabbing the last few things and leaving is exactly what I do. We’ve got one bathroom so if my brother has to take a shower I’ll just brush my teeth in the kitchen cause there’s a sink and if my mom starts doing her makeup in the bathroom I’ll do mine in the dimly lit entry room mirror.

This has made me feel like an asshole or selfish soooo many times To the point I don't even know what I'm feeling is really what I'm feeling or what I'm supposed to be feeling

The way I get anxious thinking about people saying Im absent in class when Im not there is CRAAAAAAZY

yeah not saying thank you or smiling isn’t something you are allowed to blame on autism it’s just rude and proof of bad parenting

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I would not struggle with the water but with the heat I couldn't cope.

Oh hey it's me

My mom always offers to help me clean my room but the way she does it isn’t the way I do it and it feels stressful instead of just casually cleaning. When my parents ask my brother and I to do the dishes we have a system where I unload the dish washer, he reloads the dishwasher, and I scrub the stuff that can’t go in the dishwasher. We do those things at separate times.

Omg 😭 once again it’s me too with my autistic brain

I FEEL TERIFED when people are in the house, I can't do anything, and just end up laying in bed all day starving just trying to be quiet.

You don't change your run route six times until you run out of routes?

Sounds like me getting my first donut order. But I was just weird I think… Homeschoolers in bushnell in the 80s buying donuts unsupervised at 4 years old can’t be anything but weird & artistic

I have autism too and you are really helping me, us people with autism we have to stick together yk?

I can't eat with anyone in the room unless it is a meal with everyone at the table. I never knew why, but I just can't. The worst is when they walk in right in the middle of a bite and you can't just leave so you have to eat with people in the room:( gross

you hate being perceived but you make a vid being see by thousands, if not more people? right sure ahuh!

Thank you for narrating my internal thoughts, even though i do it myself in real time, too 😂

What is that called

That is me to the T! Only afraid to say any of the words out loud

This IS ACTUALLY how I’ve felt my whole life when trying to find a place to fit. But then as soon as I would find another spot my mother & her church would just beat it out of me. She is in “evil clothes” by the way according to the Christian nationalist

Damn my autism test seemed normal compared to this

The chores thing is real for sure, but I also have ADHD which means body doubling for things like chores is super helpful. So it's like "ok just stand there and don't let me know you exist"

Your channel has helped me so much with identifying autistic traits in myself I didn't know "not wanting people to notice you exist" was an autistic trait because it happened so many times before and I was like, it's not like I wanna disappear I just wish I could be invisible and others had nothing to do with me

I didn't leave my house for 3yrs and now only sparingly. Why? Because if people don't see me, then they don't know that I exist, and therefore they cannot judge me.