a long overdue and way too personal life update

I know this is probably way too uncensored and way too much information BUT i feel i owe it to you to let you into my life and see all the pieces that aren't connecting. this was a very isolating and confusing era of my life and i hope that at least one person can find something in here that makes them feel less alone in the midst of chaos. thank you for giving me this platform for all of these years i truly love you so so much.
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timestamps
0:00 - clearly nervous intro
2:54 - how i derailed my entire life
8:21 - why i dropped out of school
13:18 - please, no more shots
16:25 - the lawsuit 35
23:26 - botox and filler oh my
26:13 - please, seek help
if you're reading this comment "everyone meet at the deep end at 4"

[@morgansvlogs]

I just love you so much that is all. I know this is probably way too uncensored and way too much information but I feel I owe it to you all to connect all of the missing dots. 🤍 thank you for letting me just be me

[@iAmMadeOfSoup]

Is your house almost finished

[@AbilityToBeAwesome]

It’s the best way to be chica! You are a mood and I adore ya. “This is how your fucked today!” Yep totally a mood. But girl #Vlogmas2023 will be epic! 😂

[@jr.jen88]

You don’t owe us anything girlie!!

[@lukeb4988]

everyone meet at the deep end at 4

[@hmmpink4840]

hi Morgan, when is the house gonna be finished 🥺

[@Foreverenpointe]

***Morgan*** You are not alone. The random weight gain. Not physically recognizing yourself. Not mentally recognizing yourself. So many of us (100% myself) are going through the same thing and we appreciate that you're being honest about it. STRESS. Omg. What even is life anymore unless you are stressed all the time? Is there a way to not be? Anyway, keep doing you. Life is hard.

[@mermaiddiyartist8119]

Stress sucks.

[@dianaw4072]

🙋🏻‍♀️🙋🏻‍♀️me! Chronic pain is my stress. 50 pounds! Mostly stress but also meds. I used to struggle to gain weight but now I can’t get it off and I DO NOT recognize myself! 😳🫥

[@sarahboles-haslup7127]

I definitely gained 50 lbs in 5 months when I broke my ankle and I was couch bound. My mom was also getting really sick from her cancer (stage IV breast). I’ve never fully recovered…but I’m trying!

[@eatmyoctopus]

@@sarahboles-haslup7127That’s what I expected to happen but I actually lost weight after I had an ankle reconstruction. It’s the damn crutches!! Those things are a workout…

[@allisons6320]

STRESS IS A KILLER WE NEED TO PRIORITIZE SELF CARE

[@a1manda]

43 year old Australian Mum of 5 here. You know what makes you such a good role model? It’s that you are real, raw and relatable. Even at 43… I totally need to rediscover myself and need a full whole body makeover. In the meantime food is both my friend and my enemy. Never apologise for being yourself!! We all love you the way you are ❤

[@wildspirit6785]

Yes this. Thank you.

[@marissarogers4684]

I’ve never loved and related to you more ❤

[@oliviabrock7128]

THIS is what transparency means. It’s so important to share experiences with alcohol, especially because it gets swept under the rug when it comes addictions. Being able to share your emotional swings and all you went through shows how genuine you are. You are one of a kind, Morgan and I admire you so much! Blessings and prayers 💛💛

[@crystalvera9560]

Did she stop drinking, I’m lost there’s so much she talked about that it was hard to follow. Maybe I have ADDHD. 😢

[@tatersoup]

​@@crystalvera9560 I think she said she drinks 2-3 times a month normally. She doesn't drink alone every day anymore.

[@Dumbandofficial]

Life isn't completed without Morgans vlogs

[@alexander-np5sc]

☺️🙆‍♂️ right!

[@kevinjmartin1444]

You should write positive sentences; for example, life is complete with Morgan’s vlogs

[@SuzanneDeniseB]

This is why we love you. Honesty is a virtue Sis 💙💙

[@ExitLight]

I’m 55 yrs old and watch you and your family. I wish I could hug you. This was brave. I’m proud of you.

[@kb9847]

me too!! I'm 55 yrs old and my momma's heart is very warm to Morgan.

[@annakbm4670]

She is a precious jewel, I just love her too!!!! In good times and bad.

[@ellaova]

Did she come out with an amphetamine addiction? Just guessing; haven't watched. She's been super manic, talkative, outgoing

[@ellaova]

Oh bingo. 🙄 Meds for correctly diagnosed ADHD are meant to calm and center but girls totally scattered, tweaking, manic. This is going to complicate and exacerbate all her problems

[@Youtubbyface14]

I love how you go from dark humour to “this is my favourite blush”. I’m a Counsellor and I’m raising my hand to say I’ve been struggling. Sat in the garden in the sun on my second glass of white, by myself. Sometimes we have to just ride the wave. It’ll pass. Nothing is linear

[@katiemarie6274]

Hearing Morgan talk about how she gained weight and how she felt about it, was the most relatable thing I’ve ever heard. Thank you for talking about it with us. It’s almost kinda comforting knowing someone so beautiful in my eyes can also struggle with self imagine. I hope that isn’t taken the wrong way! Anyways love Morgan, you’re wonderful 🤍

[@morgansvlogs]

Not taken the wrong way at all, I appreciate you so much 🥹❤️❤️

[@KaylaMilligan-if1ru]

Been watching you for years, you're an absolute rocket and an inspiration to many. Much love and stay strong ❤

[@juanitapride7404]

We love a genuine honest queen! We absolutely adore you Morgan! ✨✨✨✨

[@philosophy_bot4171]

Beep bop... I'm the Philosophy Bot. Here, have a quote: "The irrationality of a thing is no argument against its existence, rather a condition of it" ~ Nietzsche

[@gemstone5456]

Morgan you are going to graduate 👩‍🎓 Write yourself another goal letter with a realistic time to register and finish those last two semesters. You made the right choice to keep yourself financially stable and work on yourself. In a year your house will be complete, legal dramas a thing of the past… Fall 2024 this Queen is going back to University. Looking forward to a spring 2025 graduation vlog.

[@morgansvlogs]

Thank you for this 🥹 it actually inspired me hahah

[@gemstone5456]

It’s all perspective it’s not quitting school it’s just putting your education on pause. Your mental health is priority number one and there’s no point in the renovated house if you can’t afford to turn the lights on. It’s never too late I went back to school at 28 and graduated at 30. You can do this when you get that itch to go back you will know it’s time. Let this time be the year of Morgan falling in love with Morgan.

[@frankieellsworth93]

this is what a real role model is. taking accountability and vulnerability.i applaud you for the amount of courage that this took for you.thank you for spreading this message and your story - a 16 year old girl 💗

[@laurenjones2216]

Don’t ever apologise for going away and dealing with absolute shit. We love you for you and everything you go through. Fuck the brutal bastards ❤️

[@kaitlynlee7010]

The best kind of role model is one that lives authentically. I thank you for your courage not only in your daily life, with all that you've been working towards for the last few years, but to also share your story with us on here. Legal battles are so hard. Let yourself feel that. We are here for you.

[@NightSky90s]

So true!

[@steph7940]

As a 28 year old who sees 'influences' on social media being all fake and not who they are. I'm so glad that you do youtube and never changed. You are a role model for so many people.

[@AlyciaDominguez]

I love that you spoke about the topic of excessive drinking! I feel like it’s so normalized to drink in excess and people don’t realize what a slippery slope it is for their mentality. Healthy coping mechanisms are so important! we love how open and transparent you are about everything Morgan ❤

[@bookwrm4evr]

Morgan, I'm a whole ass married 40 yr old with a teenager and every time you have these sit down chats or chicken coop chats (which I very much enjoy), I swear, there is so much I learn from you. Your perspective and your words, my gosh, have taught me accountability, toward myself mainly, which is one of those hard to swallow realizations one doesn't always want to face; but just know it has been helpful in ways I hadn't noticed before. Not trying to make a long ass speech, so to cut it off here, thank you. You truly are an incredible, inspirational young woman. I am cheering for you and your endeavors...chaotic and neutral haha.

[@carleighbear]

& very well said!

[@lucylu3193]

Oh my goodness girl SAMEEEE.. 47, 2 teen daughters. Love Morgan for every bit of wisdom she gives us Re. her generation. It’s so refreshing and helps me be a better mumma.

[@amandapandabb]

thiiiiiis ^^^ we’re all so different, but really we’re SO similar. Makes me feel better! 🤍

[@bookwrm4evr]

@@lucylu3193 Yes!, especially for her generation. Look at you Morgan, bringing people together ❤

[@jaime4890]

Same! 38 here with two teens and a 3 year old. Morgan you have already learned lessons most don’t learn till much later in life. Morgan you are amazing! Your prospective is so genuine.

[@rachelshhh]

“Hi nice to meet you I’m un fucking well” 💀 the girls that get it get 😂 But seriously, thank you for continually being your authentic and candid gorgeous self. It’s one thing to scroll social media and tell yourself that it’s all an illusion and people curate/post the best versions of themselves, it’s another to actually be able to hear someone you look up to and admire being open about their own struggles and experiences. Grateful for everything you choose to share with us 🖤

[@amandapandabb]

the way I couldn’t clip that sound bite fast enough to use it in my everyday life 😅

[@keiguzman96]

Morgan, as someone who went into a very deep depression and stress that went from weighing 175 to weighing 220 I completely understand what you’re going through. I’m glad that everything is starting to be better. Much love.

[@roxy2106]

Wow, I went through the exact same weight change! Down to that number! It really made me so depressed. I actually ended up going vegan and I lost all the weight in almost 2 months!

[@dm_1236]

This is so eerie. I’m going through this. Exact same weight change as well. I’m so stressed and depressed. I have so much anxiety and on top of that the weight gain.

[@megrozleeann]

"I didn't even recognize my own mind. They were someone else's toxic and scary thoughts." I find myself in this mental pattern of being well and then getting dark and not recognizing who I am physically, mentally, or emotionally. It is scary and you don't want to be in that headspace, but in those moments it seems like there is no way to get out of that negativity because of what life is handing you during that time. Just know that you aren't alone.❤

[@Ana-ig8ov]

Cookie did great entertaining us while you walked away 👍🏼👍🏼💖💖💖🐈‍⬛️✨️

[@mow171]

It feels so refreshing to hear someone talk about how stress and alcohol impact thinking. I recently came to my own conclusion with alcohol. Congratulations Morgan on getting through it!

[@chars_83]

Drinking made me gain like 50lbs so fast and as soon as I stopped I started dropping weight like crazy.. but was drinking bc of stress and depression..

[@Kieap247]

"From my deep end to yours" omg i love that so much!!!!

[@maggie_sugarxo]

My partner went trough a legal battle with now his ex employer, boy those were 8 rough months. Sending you much positive energy and prayers ❤

[@teetertotter5787]

Cookie so completely unbothered in the background while Morgan spills her heart and soul. You've been through so much, sister. Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing. We want you to thrive.

[@oliviaparker5540]

When you said you didn’t recognize yourself anymore, I felt that. There have been many times that I have felt like I don’t recognize the person in the mirror or the person in pictures with my friends. Thank you for sharing your raw real emotions💕

[@sheetzjunkie]

Morgan coming from a recovering addict. I think a lot of us saw you were reaching out for help but didn't know what to do. We all love you and want the best for you!

[@kyrasims6310]

Morgan, I was told I had ADHD in second grade. Because I and my parents were against medication I did nothing till I was 20 years old. This is when I got formally diagnosed and started ADHD meds. It’s like my mind was driving 80mph on the freeway in California at Russ hour and meds take me down to 25mph on a country road. It’s life changing. I’m so happy for you. I can honestly say 10 years later I have zero regrets in starting an ADHD med.

[@Cloudyconfusion]

This comment made me take my meds finally for the day which I’ve procrastinated

[@itsjess1046]

I wish I could find meds that don’t send me into panic attacks. Any advice? :( I struggle daily with adhd

[@Notthatkindofkarenkaren]

My story is very similar! I wish I had been on meds my whole life. I’m just grateful to have had them since college.

[@kyrasims6310]

@@itsjess1046 have you tried generic testing to see what meds are right fit you?

[@Cloudyconfusion]

@@itsjess1046 this might sound like strange advice but I would prioritize finding a better doctor over the right meds, once you find the right doctor everything else will come around. You need someone willing to listen to you when you say “hey I don’t like these” or “these make me feel like a zombie” or “these make me even more depressed”. A good doctor will listen and give their recommendation something like “well I would like if you tried this for at least one more month because it takes 3-4 weeks to really take affect so we want to make sure it’s not a good fit” or “okay I’m not sure why that would be case, I thought this would help because it increases xyz and that should improve things but let’s try something else” or the best response “I’m sorry it’s making things worse, here’s another medicine we can try that people who have had similar reactions like yours to that medication often prefer”. This is what my doctor did, I tried for 4 medications, each for 1-2 months before finding one that works. Normally a person would have anxiety about meds making them feel worse but this approach helps you see a light at the end of the tunnel and that you have the power to advocate and be in charge of your health, changing your meds because you know yourself, as long as you work WITH your doctor and wait out the few weeks of trial and error. I hope you can find a doctor like that! Keep looking around and also use Google reviews before seeing a doctor to see if they have good feedback, once you actually meet them it’s harder to switch providers with insurance. You got this good luck

[@BaileyB1011]

This video is exactly what I needed. I can’t even explain how refreshing this tone was. Being so honest and vulnerable but not looking for anything besides a space to be honest and that these moments although hard are temporary

[@catthare]

after 7 years of undergrad i finally graduated college!!! you will get there eventually i totally believe in you!!

[@sidsidwilliams]

The fact that I am going through the EXACT depressive/body dismorphic situation as you did but didn't fully comprehend/realize it until you explained it just now..im honestly speechless.😭

[@Jaxsi911]

I get it girl. I gained almost 80lbs after a mental breakdown, myself. Im currently on the second year after and working my weight back off. It’s hard to pull yourself up from the depths ❤❤❤

[@silentmortis]

My dog recently passed on Monday. Unexpectedly. It was a hit and run.. and she passed in my arms, while I screamed and cried.. so I haven’t been me lately.. but your video put a smile on my face for the first time this week. Thank you for sharing your videos with us. My Henny would always watch your videos with me. So I know she’s curled up in my lap watching you with me.

[@jacob8550]

We had to put down my lab of 12 years last Friday. It’s been really hard and it feels like a huge piece of our house is missing. I hope things start looking up for you. ❤️

[@a-ms9760]

That's terrible, i'm really sorry for you and your dog. I hope with time you'll heal and feel at peace. Take your time.

[@SamiiDearest]

so sorry for your loss. she most definitely is with you❤️ sending you positive energy 🙏🏽

[@BriFijiOfficial]

That weight gain confusion is SO relatable. I've gained a LOT more weight back since the first time I started losing weight a few years ago and its been hard for me to edit and feel confident enough to post videos to youtube now or even on IG. I feel so comforted since you were able to share that with us. I could feel myself spiraling as well so this was a well needed wake up call for me. Thanks for giving us an update on what happened. I hope you continue to feel better and heal from this! 💗

[@krisiicarey9418]

You spoke to me saying when you gain or lose weight you don’t recognize yourself, I barely push 100lbs, coming out of an abusive relationship and I don’t recognize myself. Fighting for my life to gain weight. Thank you for speaking your truth. ❤

[@minimalist2036]

Go back to school. Don’t put it off. If you have money for filler and Botox you can pay for classes. Sell stuff, get a loan from family if necessary but go back and finish! You are gonna be fine.

[@rlet03]

You honestly don't give yourself enough credit for the strength you carry. Thank you for being so real, transparent & relatable. You truly are a beautiful soul! Cannot wait to see you continue to grow & see the progress of your home evolve! Love ya!💜🤍💜

[@saharahhh8063]

a year ago I was diagnosed with a chronic illness and my life went of the recks. I can understand all the emotions you went through so much. I hope you feel loved. you are not alone and I hope you can always find the support you need!!

[@ayabasali13]

I sometimes feel like Morgan and I have the same feelings at the same time, but different situations. It’s so nice to watch someone who goes through the same stuff as you do. Also she finds always the best way possible to describe everything that’s going on

[@ATWAkorris]

Honestly, you are the best role model ever, imo. Speaking your truth and telling things just how they are - and taking responsibility for your life? Some of the most important things people could learn from you!

[@Phia.The1st]

i see myself so much in Morgan. She is like the big sister i never had x

[@rhiannaoconnor]

I cannot explain to you how much I needed to hear this. Thank you for being so freaking relatable to me.

[@lexycondeelis]

Omg this is like pages out of my journal. As sad as I feel you've had to know this trauma, it is comforting to hear that I am not the only one living in an absolutely INSANE horror film. Sending you love and light. Thank you for putting your story out there 🩷🩷🩷

[@gabriellebarlow2476]

Having gone through litigation of this nature, I feel for you so completely :( it is literally the scariest and most unsettling feeling ever. I admire you sm for your honesty, it is what keeps your viewers so loyal because anyone can put together a bs story time. Sending you so much love from Canada and big hugs for everything that you have endured this past year

[@Tara1016]

This is one of the most relatable videos I've ever watched I appreciate your vulnerability so very much. Not wanting to bother people with my shit, just wishing I could be sane, and being a queen of spiraling pretty much sums up life. Thank you for showing me through your bravery I'm not alone and that things can get better 💓💓💓

[@bellap0499]

thank you for sharing this

[@judycesena]

I'm watching this in the right time. I've been through a lot lately and listening to your experience makes me feel so seen, so thank you.

[@getteto]

Metal music over a shot of Cookie is eveything

[@Lamanpan]

I love seeing your vlogs and the progress on your house, I’m glad you’re back posting again, and that you’re feeling yourself again!

[@Olympasscee]

i've been struggling lately and i love to see those in the media being so vunerable and reltable! love you girl💓

[@Anni6758]

It’s like you’re living my life ! I’ve been experiencing such a similar thing this past 6-8 months - everything you said resonated with me so hard - it’s nice to not feel so alone

[@jessicalopez6488]

I love you so much Morgan!! Thank you for telling us what was going on we love when you’re this authentic! And so relatable

[@Schmoopie56]

This all speaks to me, so much. My father passed away in January and I've spent the last 5 months dealing with legal crap. It's exhausting and expensive. I've gained a ton of weight and I don't recognize myself anymore. I don't know how long this is gonna last and I'm trying to just keep it together. Thanks for sharing so much of yourself. That's what we all love about you. ❤

[@complimentsofanna]

I’m so sorry for your loss! You will get through this and find yourself on the other side. Sending lots of good vibes and positivity your way. ❤

[@karenguidry6110]

I'm so sorry for your loss! My 88 yr old father passed in Sept. 2020 and my 89 yr old mom in Sept. 2021. I was arranging care for them etc. plus I was the executor for their wills and all that comes with that. I can totally relate to what you are feeling. A year after my mom died I had so much anger inside me.( plus anxiety and depression; I was exhausted) I finally went to therapy (she said I had compounded grief); therapy really helped so if you can, please find someone to talk to. In the meantime, be gentle with yourself. You will get through this!!!!!

[@Ambrosethebard]

It took my family a year and a half to settle all the legal matters after my dad passed away. It's tough when you are grieving the loss of a parent and having to deal with legal matters. My heart goes out to you. There's nothing quite like losing a parent, and nothing that anyone can say to make it feel better but to let time pass. I hope time treats you well.

[@Schmoopie56]

@@complimentsofanna Thank you!

[@Schmoopie56]

@@karenguidry6110 Thank you! I'm sorry for what you've been through, too. But it helps to know I'm not alone. The anger thing is real.

[@kchristine7064]

I love that you told us about the Botox and such. It’s nice to hear different people’s experiences and how it went or how they felt afterwards. You don’t owe anyone anything in regards to telling information like that. It’s genuine of you to tell us like a big sister the experience you had ❤😊

[@shannenp.9664]

I love you. Thank you. I still can’t quite express how much you have helped me grow. Seeing your honesty with the dark bits of life… it’s freeing to not have to hide. What I’ve found myself working on is not letting the spiral go so long. Like I am allowed to feel this emotion but I don’t have to let it drag me down. We are standing up. Still keep you in my prayers sis. I am really proud of you for recognizing… and not being ashamed to share; because I’ve been slipping here recently. I needed a little wake up call too. Thank you for being you, quirks and all. ♥️

[@brendad940]

Thank you for sharing Morgan. We are privileged to follow along on your journey and appreciate your honesty. I am so sorry you went through this. Sending much love and virtual hugs from Wilsonville Oregon ❤❤❤

[@starrybtw4217]

ADHD medication is a life saver. I feel you 100% when you take the medication and have a clearer head. ADHD is no joke, people think that its only "you cant stay still" but its far far far more than that. The mental battle people with adhd go through is the hardest part of it all. Much love mama, keep your head up and we love an honest queen!

[@mikaplaysgames310]

I used to watch every one of your videos and started to fall off of watching in 2020/2021 when I switched channels and lost all my subscriptions. This video came up on my homepage today and I was so happy to see you that I immediately clicked it. This video just hit me right in the gut. I’ve been there and the way you described how easy it is to spiral is so spot on. I respect you so much for your honesty and realness and it’s so comforting to see you on the other side of that dark place and know that you CAN get through it. I’ve definitely resubscribed to you and can’t wait to watch you shine ❤ ✨

[@LilMawMaw]

Morgan, you're an absolutely beautiful upbeat young woman. I've been watching you for years and wondering where you've been lately and hearing you're story makes perfect sense why you've been absent. I'm disabled and have been since 2007. I understand so much of what you said about not recognizing yourself. I'm so glad to hear you're coming out on the other side of what you've been dealing with. I truly hoping to continue too see more of you and want to thank you for sharing what you can about your horrible experience. The willingness to share your truth will make such a difference for all your followers avidly support you. Welcome back, I hope to see so much more from you in the coming days, weeks and even months.

[@relaunchinglife]

Thank you for sharing Morgan! I've been in the middle of a lawsuit for 4 years (I was hit by a truck as a pedestrian) and it has put my entire life basically on hold since it happened - yes there was a pandemic too. But these are OUR stories that make up who we are. I don't recognize myself some days but for the most part I believe there is a bigger reason or purpose for this and it's really great to see someone come out the other side!! And thank G for ADHD meds!

[@jasmincartwright7215]

You make me feel so normal and not alone, I needed this right now and I’m so happy you’re okay and are so honest with us all. Never change ❤️

[@caitlynsmith7144]

I love how raw you are and these videos make me feel heard and seen.. I carry so much stress and every time I watch one of your videos, it makes me take a step back and work on things. I appreciate your honesty and openness

[@Amy-Adventures.]

I just watched your video and I want to cry!!! Your so open and honest… We are all going through things- I appreciate you!!!! ❤❤❤

[@imnumber142]

I've never seen any of your videos but this was eerily recommended to me as I'm going through the same legal battle... I struggled so hard to explain to people why I was literally terrified of my emails so it was good to hear someone else mentioning this

[@paigemarie1449]

this was so relatable I was like that for a year and I can’t even think about it, it hurts a lot but I’m so glad I’m back to myself I love listening to your videos love you Morgan and I hope you are doing really well💕💕

[@alleedrake7782]

Thank you for posting and being vulnerable. Love you and your videos!

[@andreaal2018]

thank you for being so honest with us and for being so kind and nice, you really have the ability to talk about things and emotions with a sincerity and tenderness that really helps to relate to them and to approach them better in our own lifes, it really helps listening to you , love you ❤

[@ashleydavis1]

For the record, I think you’re a fantastic role model. You seem, to me, to be kind, thoughtful, considerate, funny, driven, and absolutely beautiful inside and out. Huge fan of you xo

[@trinity4611]

my favorite human. we appreciate you so much. you’re so real, honest, and it’s so refreshing. take care of yourself, we will always be here❤️

[@emilybears158]

These videos help so much being in my early 20’s and navigating stress and mental health real videos and raw feelings mean so much . Been watching you since you first got posted on Shane’s channel and you started your own channels ❤ .life is sometimes such a spiral and hard to see a light and it’s a relief to hear someone I look up to relate . We love you

[@morganwalford-bourke9625]

Sending you so much love! I was diagnosed with ADHD 3 years ago (I was 23) and the way you described your mind after taking your meds was exactly how I felt. I think I cried when they kicked in because I didn't realise just how much was going on in my brain at all times. It's AMAZING.

[@theoconnorfam9097]

This spoke to me so hard! Thanks for being open and honest with us! ❤️ Everyone meet at the deep end at 4! 🎉

[@MonkeyPants02]

I just love how open you are! These moments feel like friends just chatting and catching up. You’ve got this and happy to be part of the nice corner of the internet.

[@marionsicard6479]

I’m so glad your storm has quieted and the sunshine is back! It’s so nice to know we don’t endure storms alone and it feels great that the sun shines on us together too. Shine bright girl ❤☀️😊

[@Cakerolz]

I relate so hard to these things. So happy to have you here

[@bethlovesthings]

Sending you so much love. Life is such a fucking drag sometimes, it IS Easy to spiral & it takes strength to get yourself back "on track". We love your honesty and transparency. Xxx

[@kayyemess]

Thanks for talking about this morgan, I have definitely hit a place in life where I feel the same like my brain and thoughts aren’t “mine” and I don’t recognize them. I am def that person that makes excuses to put it off or blame it on something temporary, but after viewing this and seeing how much happier you are I feel more encouraged to get help ❤

[@ameliatocchio7677]

You’re not alone Morgan. I went undiagnosed my whole life which made things so much more confusing and made the spirals so much more frequent. The meds quieted my brain completely and help me 110000%. I am so proud of you.

[@ChelseaCHICKAPOW]

I'm currently going through and struggling with all these same mental struggles, the alcohol and the weight gain (but no lawsuit lol). Finally going to a doctor for the first time tomorrow about it, but I love listening to others be so vulnerable and discuss their very similar struggles. It feels a lot less lonely, so thank you for being so open.

[@jwizzlesk8r26]

Literally did the same thing this past year. My goodness this is relatable. You go girl! If you put your mind to it you literally can do it. 😊

[@_araizaaziara]

i love you so much thank u for being honest it helps me so much and i know other people as well.

[@shananigans_3157]

We love a non selfish queen who will gladly share the spotlight by making sure Miss Cookie is in frame.

[@nordeenk]

You are my favorite KZbinr as a single girl over 40. So genuine and relatable. I don’t watch many people, but I keep coming back to yours, because they’re so real!

[@laurenbosworth546]

Thank you for your transparency this literally makes me feel so heart 😭 I had a similar experience this year and I feel like I’m finally seeing myself again 😭

[@GameMasterJack9769]

Hun we all go through the shit. Just hope you’re doin good physically and mentally. Keep the content coming cause I need something to relate to and as someone of the same age and dealing with similar issues it’s truly encouraging seeing you’re videos. Friggin love you!!!!!

[@theresaharding5744]

I just respect how honest you are. Showing people how life is not perfect, people are not perfect. How every day can be a struggle at times. I think you are a roll model and the best kind. A HONEST ONE. Keep being your beautiful self.

[@thepaperlulu]

My husband has been battling cancer, now stage 4, since 2020, and the stress is obviously horrible. My weight yo-yos, my hair is falling out, and some days it’s hard to breathe. But like you said, it has made me less judgmental, and more compassionate. You have no idea the battles people are facing in private. I’m so glad you seem to be on the other side of it, but be gentle on yourself because residual trauma is real. 🧡

[@marinnakay3280]

love your vulnerability! it's so refreshing

[@katienewswanger]

you were always my comfort person and I just wanted to say thank you so so much for always making me happy and I'm sending you all the love and light in this world!

[@scottydoggymama]

Sending a massive hug. I spiralled into a depression when I lost one of my dogs in 2021. Took me a while to figure it out so I opened up to my friends and I spoke to my GP. But I got it out and at least realized what was wrong with me. So you are not alone. Stresses have such an effect on us and we do not even realize. And my relationship with my abusive mum finally came to an end. As happy an event as that is, it still diid not feel good.

[@mochibear8933]

Hey Morgan! So glad you are here to share this video with us & feeling like you again. You aren't alone at looking in the mirror at times thinking there's a phrogger in your home. Life, mental health isn't easy. Happy to hear things are on the up for you, you don't owe us explanations- we just want the best for you ❤

[@mellove85]

I just started adhd meds and im 38 and im so excited so far its helping me control my anxiety/boredom eating and we shall see once my body regulates. So proud of you for getting the help you needed! Xoxo eff the person who tried to stop you

[@amysutton5265]

Medication for me was a game changer. Started therapy. I have meltdowns all the time but I feel like I have better control of how I react to situations & how I treat myself. Even though I am the most I’ve ever weighed in my life. After getting my mental stuff in order I’m getting my physical health in order. It’s a daily process and hard to not get overwhelmed with everything we have to do! One step at a time❤️❤️❤️ You are so beautiful!

[@breannaott3114]

Praying for you Morgan 💛 I pray that your situation gets better and that God gives you strength 💛

[@PlantsPotsWhatNots]

44 years old today, and I can tell you that this resonated so much with me. Thank you, Morgan, for sharing all of that with us. I'm sure it wasn't easy. You're not alone, we are not alone, and we love you to bits! ❤

[@bicyclesammi079]

Happy belated birthday!

[@marianacasillas813]

Thank you!!! For being so real and relatable its not easy being vulnerable and sharing our mental state and you sharing just shows how it is ok to talk and open up about anything that can be damaging to our mind and soul you are so brave and strong i truly believe you will come out on top !❤

[@MoonMagickSpirit]

“Someone else’s scary, toxic brain got put into my head”-this hits hard and is so relatable. I feel like I’m starting to out of the other side of it too. But that is such a scary place to be in. It makes me so happy to hear that you’re starting to feel like yourself again too. I got my undergrad in psych too but keep learning so much post grad. Back when I was in school, I remember mostly learning about the brain. But what I’ve learned post-grad is our bodies hold SO much. I learned I often live so much in my head, and I’m not really connected to my body at all and my body is holding to so much anxiety and depression. I know once I start to work on being more present in my body, it will help significantly. I also feel you on your medication journey. I’m medication resistant with SSRIs and SNRIs but adderall helps me SO MUCH!!!!! I also didn’t want to speculate but wondered if you were neurodivergent too bc I feel like ND sees fellow ND😅 I’m so glad it’s helping you to. I recently tried TMS for my CPTSD, anxiety and depression and it helped so much too. I also hate when viewers put content creators on the pedestal of HAVING to be this perfect role model, when none of us are. It’s a fine line of being a caring person who uses their platform responsibly and expecting absolute complete role model perfection. It’s so much pressure; I can’t imagine. I truly think videos like these are so important. It gives me the courage and motivation to share my story more. Thank you so much for being vulnerable and comfortable enough sharing with us.

[@Amy-Adventures.]

My favorite creator at it again!!!! We love you Morgan ❤

[@Autumnruiiz]

I tried not crying when you were talking about how out of body you’ve been😭😭 Love you and thank you for being so real. I wish the best for you. Keep going love!!

[@Peytonscomet]

Im so thankful for your content morgan. Im thankful youre a creator. Youve made an impact on my life and i want you to know im thankful you exist. Im sending you all my positive energy i understand things have been tough and you alwayd keep going, i hope you know you are not alone ❤️