A week in my life living with schizophrenia: a chatty and simple week in my life 📖 🥗🇸🇪

[@custardcreambaby]

Seeing you happy inspires me to live well and try my best!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh wow what a compliment, thank you! makes me really happy to know. 🥹💚

[@hollywebster6844]

About your history program: the 10-15 years are going to pass anyway. Why not pass them doing something you love, that makes your life passionate? If there is a program available in Sweden that can accommodate your pace, I hope you will give it some serious consideration. I am disabled and everything takes me two or three times longer than before my illness. I'm working on a second master's degree and it will probably take me 6 years instead of 3. Do I care? Yes, sometimes. Sometimes it reminds me of my limitations and I feel sad or insecure. Most of the time I don't care. I'm going to live these next 6 years, so I will live them studying my passion and meeting academic peers.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you Holly! I think I'll see if I can meet with someone who might know more to help me with this issue, there is quite a lot of work before going to uni as I first need to finish my highschool degree. but again thank you for the encouragement! ill definitely look into it once more. 🥹💚

[@michelekeck7716]

I really love the painting, it is SO ALIVE and VIBRANT.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you! 💚

[@nishasankaran]

I'm an INTJ! 🙂 I can totally relate Kimberly, and Im much older than you, and I can tell you those characteristics are pretty ingrained lol. The good and the not so good, but Im aware so thats empowering. Hope you're well ❣Nisha

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you Nisha! 💚

[@silverdweller2809]

Your hair is so pretty! I always like watching your videos, so relaxing.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Oh thank you! 🥰💚

[@IngridHofmann-q9f]

You’re doing so well!!!

[@emmelinesprig489]

There is also the option to be a citizen-historian. You can become an expert on any topic without a degree. It depends if your goal includes work that is restricted to people with degrees. It took me 7 years to finish my undergraduate degree. That was actually too fast for me, and I burned myself out very badly. 😮‍💨 I would keep looking for part-time options. That helped me so much when I started uni. I know you will find the best option for you, no matter how long it takes! I love your painting! I was super impressed when you showed it. I really want to get some watercolors. I used to play with acrylic paints, but they dry out way too fast and make too much mess for me!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh i have heard of it before but not looked into it.. thats very interesting! I hope you're doing better now, and thank you! I highly recommend watercolors, they're very forgiving. 🥰💚

[@jmcconnor01]

it's always a treat seeing your videos! from one schizophrenic to another, you deserve a fabulous life :) :D

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh thank you! I hope you get a fabulous life too! 🥰

[@engleharddinglefester4285]

I would suggest seeing if the excitement of university work would help cancel out the stress sensitivity you have. The feeling of forward momentum when I was in night school at the local univ. here was a great antidote for stress. Of course I was stressed and in a lot of ways I was way way over stressed but it wound up being the kind of stress that was worth it, not unlike the soreness you get when exercising. I wouldn't say I regret going because it was too much, though it was lol and I was out of my depth in a few ways, but I just did it anyway. I even failed 2nd semester German and had to take it over again the next year. I would have graduated a year earlier if that hadn't happened. What I did was I put blinders on and said Damn it nothing is going to stop me and I am going to do this, and I did because I refused to quit. Took me 17 years to get a 4 yr degree and I didn't start till long after most people had already graduated. Eventually I got so sick I got my student loans forgiven. My psychiatrist helped with that and did the paperwork so the debt got written off. I couldn't go on to a graduate degree and get a license and a job or anything, I was too overwhelmed. When I first started the gov't policy made me take 2 courses at a time in order to get the financial assistance. Two courses when you are new or returning to academics is too much in my experience. At least it was for me considering the shape I was in 44 years ago. If I had wanted to take just one course I would have had to pay cash, which I didn't have. I dropped out at least once (can't really remember now) before I managed to get going and stay going. One of my points (if I ever stop writing) is it takes a long time, it's hard brain-wise, it's demanding physically with the transportation and walking, money is always tight, and it feels like it will never end. IMO one needs resolve and also IMO one needs to put on blinders. I suggest starting slow and building momentum with time. I didn't progress to full time until the last few years. It took a long time. One idea I picked up was someone said "If it takes you ten years to pass these courses and you don't go, in ten years you will be ten years older anyway, without the courses behind you." Then you'll look back and kick yourself. The time is going to pass school or no school. Now you go do better!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you for sharing and the advice, Im still unsure what to do with the idea of going to uni, who knows might try it if art school goes well? 🥰

[@mikkosuhonenphotography]

Good to see you chatty and happy! Edward looks happy too in the background.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! and yes he is! He is actually sleeping in the cardboard box with paper right now. 🥹

[@jacobfredericks896]

Way too go that kind of thing happens to me in northern Canada's it's happening right now it beautiful out here when spring turns to summer ☀️ it's amazing and fun looking forward to summer gonna be great wishing you a great summer too take care all the bes T

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you and you too! 🥰

[@gypsyskyy9451]

Hi Kimberly! I just loved this vlog, I say that a lot, lol, but this one I feel like you are doing well, and you look really good. I can relate to wanting to get it the "first time", when I do something new, but thats my perfectionism. I dont think anyone, especially artists, even the famous ones, get it right the first time. But I understand the angst and frustration for sure. I feel like you are in a process of figureing out what you want to do with your life, and Im sure if you keep on exploring things, you will figure it out. I like the painting you did and for a first try I think its good, and Im not just saying that, I mean it. Ive learned its always about the process and practice practice practice. UGH Not always what I want to do. Again, I love your cooking and the pasta salad looked scrumptious. Im very glad you have your mom and sister in your life, they seem to be so helpful. We all need some support. And loved your kitty in the box! 😍🤗💛💜😘 Hugs from Mary Ann in the US . . .😍

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you Mary Ann! your comments are always so kind and thoughtful. and yes, I would agree that I'm currently figuring out what I want to do with my life. especially since it feels like I've been a lot better these last months. have a great week and hugs! 🥰💚💚

[@gypsyskyy9451]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria Thanks! 🥰

[@gregdescant4121]

Thanks! So glad youre back!❤😅

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Oh wow thank you so much for the superthanks! 💚 I’m very happy to be back and are hoping to upload more consistently soon. 🥰

[@orangepulp392]

Love the vlog! I’m in a similar situation to you and this year I started an online degree part time, it’s definitely more manageable than full time. I have to write my assignment next week which I’m nervous about. Your cats are so cute! Have you thought about doing an online course? I know there’s places like The Open University which are good and you can study history 😊

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you for the tip! I havent looked into online courses much but I probably should! 😍 good luck with the assignment! 💚

[@jamespassas9441]

That's lovely, I like it!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 🥰

[@hayleyprice8345]

I'm procrastinating cleaning hahaha

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

haha I feel you! 😊

[@roberttravers7587]

Great vlog!😁

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you Robert! 😊

[@Bamgeutcutiepie]

i just bought a book of my favorite kpop group, filled with pictures of my favorite member. the most gorgeous pictures and funny other things included. and i love it. i am very proud that i bought something for myself. that makes me smile when i am struggling so much. BUT you can bet i will HIDE IT AWAY if guests come over 😄 😭 i am just scared of being judged as the people in my life don't like kpop 😄 💕

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Glad that someone can relate to this feeling! K-pop is nice! I’m not that deep into it but I definitely get the hype about it! 🥰💚

[@finn_blacklaws]

I am a INTJ aswell!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

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[@ullaskoglund9926]

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[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

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[@elysemattocks1495]

Oil takes time but for yr first one it is lovely

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you! 🥰

[@hollywebster6844]

Where's the nerdy shirt?!?!?

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

haha i didnt have the guts to embarrass myself more on KZbin quite yet! 😂

[@alexandermatthewsmusic]

I wonder if you have tried the keto diet.... Just mentioning it incase you haven't looked into it... Watch Lauren's channel "living well with schizophrenia" it made me want to try it her schizophrenia symptoms have almost gone and her meds are minimal... I'm trying it 2 weeks in but also it's no sugar or carbs and great for diabetics I think? I recently put on 25kgs and in 2 weeks on the diet I lost 4kgs its good for that too.... Anyway mentioning these things it always sounds crazy cook type stuff but it's really worth just a try and I'm reading a keto book right now maybe worth knowing about at the least if you have mental health challenges.... Thanks sorry if it does sound like a stupid idea but I'm trying it 2 weeks in for me 🙂

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Hi! i have tried keto a few times and lost weight every single time but I can't say I found it possible to maintain long term for me. so currently im trying to change my eating habits to something healthier but also sustainable. 😊

[@alexandermatthewsmusic]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria oh yes it wasn't about weight for me just a bi product it's for my mental health but yes I'm only 3 weeks in.... I was strict vegetarian for 7 years so not finding this as hard so I know if it works for me and I remain healthy physically I hope I can stick to it... Everyone's different... Looks like your a great cook so I'm sure you'll find a lot of healthy options 🙂

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@alexandermatthewsmusic thank you! I hope my interest in cooking will help me! 😊