Alter - DID Short Film

[@lacrossestick132]

“You’re not alone.” “Yes, that’s the problem.” Felt

[@twinstarssystem2857]

As part of a system my only issue with this at all is that you learn early on not to be confused when people talk about stuff you don't remember doing XD but it's still very relatable even then and we really enjoy and appreciate seeing this ESPECIALLY the "there's no such thing as evil identities" as an ex-persecutor this means SO much to me

[@ryk6207]

I know this is a good message (or meant to be), but I don’t get it. If people can be evil, then why can’t alters? I guess it’s more about debunking media stereotypes?

[@twinstarssystem2857]

@@ryk6207 Yes, alters can be evil, just like any other person. However, it's not COMMON, but it is portrayed in media as invariably true. For example, people mentioning their system and getting asked if it's like Split, or saying they're going to switch and people being scared/asking if the new fronter is going to hurt them. It's a common stereotype that negatively impacts people all the time, and systems are LESS likely to be violent than any other person.

[@Doggo942]

We're a system too!🌺

[@twinstarssystem2857]

@@Doggo942 nice!! :D

[@theNoctifloralParacosm]

SAME, it helped me understand my two persecutors, and that in reality they were trying to protect the system, just not in the best way

[@julietagimenez8065]

"Guys, this is important, where did I put my laptop?" "Yes, I already checked there." This is a mood

[@nobodyimportant3278]

I was watching it with my mother and father, they said it's like that for my father. I've known about my father's DID for a few years. He started to switch and become aware of his switching along with my mother and siblings it was in 2013. Although he was dealing with it for so many years. Love this film and the work put into it, I've met around 10-12 people in my life with dissociative identify disorder so far and still meeting more people I'm meeting. That including more of my father's people so far we've met over 100 because, my father that was born never let anybody suffer more than ten seconds. So now I have multiple fathers, sisters, brothers, I even have a niece too and her name is summer, which also has DID. But the twist is that she's one of my father's people but she saw my little sister and calls her mommy. So it's a very interesting life. In case your probably wondering my age I'm only 16, about to be 17 at the end of October. But it's an amazing life lol.

[@ryk6207]

Thanks for sharing! Hope you are doing well.

[@Selectraf]

Wow, sounds like you have an awesome and supportive family. I've been trying to understand how DID functions, would you mind explaining a little about what it means for the person who was born to not let anyone suffer? Thank you and thank you for sharing!

[@nobodyimportant3278]

@@Selectraf Yeah I can do that, it may take a while to explain it. Do you have discord? Then I can explain it more clearly and if you have more questions.

[@furballscave4431]

i think ive only met a few with DID but many plural people! I am one mysqelf!

[@riccio2818]

@@nobodyimportant3278 wait wait can you explain to me too? my discord is riccio281#4690

[@TTHCreates]

Everyone needs to be talking about this. Fantastic!!! Excellent portrayal and I’m crying at how well this represented our own life!

[@TheAzureSystem]

Yeah. I am part of a system and it’s really accurate. However, we have osdd so we don’t have full amnesia, but it still happens to some extent and it’s scary. I’m a host and it took me a while to accept I have it. - Asher

[@theonionsystem7779]

@@TheAzureSystem wait that's my name too but I still don't believe that I am an alter and have D.I.D I still struggle to believe it

[@TheAzureSystem]

@@theonionsystem7779 yeah it’s really hard to accept. I spent like 2 years denying it. - Asher

[@gillslostsword]

@@TheAzureSystem wait do systems all have names? Because there is the legal name for all of you and all of the alter’s actual names but does the whole system have a name as well? Also another question that might seem dumb but I guess it’s better to ask someone with did than google it, what is headspace like? Is it as clear as when you are in control? Can you feel / taste things the same? I’m sorry for all the questions and you don’t have to answer any of them (obviously) but I’m just very curious about did. Also if I said anything offensive or used the wrong terms/ language let me know I really hope I didn’t but I don’t have did so I can’t be sure :) Again sorry for all the questions- I’m just really curious and first hand info is the best info

[@TheAzureSystem]

@@gillslostsword systems usually choose names to refer to them as a whole, like the ___ system or ____ collective. Different alters have individual names. A headspace/inner world is the place in the mind that some systems have where alters can manifest as themselves and interact with each other as a team. Our legal name is the host’s deadname cuz he’s also trans. We like different smells/foods and have different hobbies. I hope this helps. - Bianca

[@LeNoir2411]

This is exactly how it was before the rest of them disappear, tbh I don't know if they completely disappeared, dormant or we're just spontaneously integrated.. my last blackout was about 2-3yr ago, now it's peaceful but somehow awfully quiet.. thanks to a good therapist and psychologist and a really good friend who've been my best supporter ,i am now doing well ,i do feel bad because it feels like I'm the one who gets everything, but I'm really glad to finally be free from struggle on daily basis..

[@lorainisrael]

It might be temporary, I sometimes have long periods of quiet. Earlier this year it lasted a couple of months, so I felt lonely, then started panicking and then grieving that I lost them. Fortunately, they are back.

[@sill.yb0nes]

@@lorainisrael I’m glad :). Only one of ours is dormant currently, but we miss her dearly and hope she wakes up soon.

[@heatherrel7978]

alters can't disappear because they are parts of the whole entity and I think if they've all integrated, you would feel them becoming parts of you eg having their quirks, acquiring memories they exclusively carry.

[@LeNoir2411]

@@heatherrel7978 I'm not sure about feeling them becoming parts of me, but yes i do realized that i exhibit some of their quirks/behaviours and yes, i remembers things,bad things, i just can't let myself to truly remember and sit with it , because I'm afraid of losing control, so i only process the less hurtful ones.. currently I'm working on identifying specific emotions I'm feeling because my doc says i have a deep inner conflict so we gotta sort that out.. I'm not gonna run away anymore, i want to face it myself.. I'm also struggling with feelings of being a fake of some sort, am i the 'real' one ,or am i the normal version of her..because i remember all different version of 'me' in the past and it makes me feel like I don't actually have a 'personality', i think i have most of their memories ,but it doesn't feel like it happened to me despite knowing the fact that it does happen to this body.. I honestly miss them a lot even though I don't actually have a direct communication,it just felt nice reading about their 'part of life' and i selfishly felt safe knowing they'll take over in case it's too much to handle ,it felt like i have a family i could rely on.. but i also don't want them to come back because that means I'll be in trouble again..

[@heatherrel7978]

@@LeNoir2411 wow thank you so much for sharing this. besed on what you discribed, it feels like they do integraded with you(you as a former host alter?). only it's an on going process, the integration. it sure takes time for you to face and process all the things they've given to you. Good luck on the journey!!😄

[@auroralilyz]

Host trying to deny Anna’s existence is SO relatable. It’s challenging every time there’s “a new one.”

[@bambiiiamara]

Oh the part where "there's no such things as evil identities" hit us. We currently have a persecutor that we antagonized for many reasons, one of them being his method of protecting the body. It just made us realize he's just like us, trying to figure everything out. Thank you so much for this heart-touching film

[@alyx_1-g4j]

what is a persecutor? i dont know much about DID and I'm trying to learn more

[@bambiiiamara]

@@alyx_1-g4j a persecutor (to me) is basically an alter that has a habit of hurting the system in order to make them stronger due to past traumas

[@douglasvincent5925]

WOW! As a part/alter in a DID system myself, my highest compliments to everyone involved in making this! It's beautifully made and very accurate to the experience of having DID. Even though our system doesn't have as much external world amnesia as portrayed in this film, we know that many others do, and other aspects of the film resonated with me/us. Best of all, it shows a system that is just trying to get a handle on things and live their life, without the stigmatizing tropes of "evil alters" or showing us as perpetually weak and unable to live outside of a mental institution. I wish Hollywood would make movies like this, to show the world what we are really like. Great job!!! - Leyna of the Doug Vincent system

[@sill.yb0nes]

Thank you for your comment, Leyna :D! Every word is true :))

[@zeinabalkayed223]

Sorry I have to ask a question if you don't mind that. How do you actually switch from one alter to another?

[@douglasvincent5925]

@@zeinabalkayed223 Well, that's a good question, but it's one of those things that's very difficult to explain to someone who has never experienced it. But I will try. Sometimes it happens involuntarily, due to being triggered. But we can learn to control our switches somewhat. But by controlling switches, I don't mean that one alter can choose who should come out next and force them to come out. It usually requires the consent of both alters. If we try to do it without consent, it's a LOT more difficult, and causes a lot of headaches, both literally and figuratively. But if we agree that we both want to switch, it can go rather smoothly, sort of like a revolving door, one entering and one leaving at the exact same time. I'm sorry I can't describe it better than that, like I said, it's difficult to find the words to describe what the process is like. I hope this helps you to understand somewhat. - Leyna

[@zeinabalkayed223]

@@douglasvincent5925 I understand how difficult it is to explain this. I am making a short film about DID and I am doing my research including talking to someone who has it. Thank you for taking the time to reply this is so helpful!! I will ask you some questions too and you can refrain from answering if you want to!! How can you all communicate at once? Can you do that? I misunderstood something about it and I thought filming a scene of all alters sitting talking to each other would be helpful to represent what it's like. Is this a wrong representation of DID or would it be okay if I did this scene? Answer as honestly as you could please. Also, by saying what you did, alters don't randomly switch when for example Alter 1 is playing sports, it swithced to Alter 2 who doesn't like sports at all. Alter 2 exits the playground and goes home. Could this happen in any DID system? Last question: you said sometimes you switch due to a trigger. What could this trigger be. Sorry if I offended you with anything I wrote but I am still in the beginning of my research :,) . It would be amazing If you recommend a reddit quora any platform DID community channel, article, video so that I go through them!

[@thewildrobin]

@@zeinabalkayed223 Hello, I read your reply to this comment, and I was wondering how you have been doing your research? I am doing a project for school ,called a passion project. I am doing my passion project on how DID is misrepresented in media. I ask where you have done your research because I would like to know of some reliable resources to learn more about DID and how it works. The reason I chose this topic for my project, is because I have a friend with DID and I am hoping to learn as much as possible about DID and how it works so I can be the best friend I can be for them. Also, is there anything you would recommend I do for this? Include, research deeper, I am just starting to research this, so any advice would be much appreciated. Thanks!

[@slowfire2]

You forgot to add captions. Lots of people need them for many reasons.

[@thecheesycats8073]

Anna saying "I didn't mean to upset her, I just wanted to paint" hit hard.

[@hearthholmes]

No one with DID wants to meet a new one. I speak from experience. Excellent portrayal. Thank you!

[@katrinthorsdottir7514]

Every system is different, it may be a struggle to understand; but I want to meet and validate everyone in our system.

[@amaiacalliope]

We have OSDD, so it's a little different, but I as the host love meeting new people! I embrace every member of my system, they're like a little family to me. Though it's hard and we're still figuring things out, I cherish every interaction with them. Meeting new people is great, at least with us, and usually pretty seamless. So no, not "no one." That's a pretty generalizing statement. You could have just said "I don't like it." I'm sure you have your reasons for not liking it, but speak only for yourself please.

[@xsystem1771]

You, maybe. For us, it depends on the new alter and which alter you ask. Each system is different, each alter is different. For us, it's mostly just acceptance. Not reluctance or excitement, just acceptance.

[@amaiacalliope]

@@xsystem1771 Well, yes, that's the point I was trying to make. Speak for yourself. All systems are different. Saying "everyone likes" or "nobody wants" is just not something you can do with a community as diverse as ours.

[@xsystem1771]

@@amaiacalliope you're right, each system and each alter are different... I was commenting to OP, not you. I never disagreed with you? I'm sorry I'm just confused...

[@kathrin9674]

It is like that. Except for the fact, that probably the most of us having DID learned pretty fast how to fake "knowing each other" when meeting a totally new to us person like at the gallery.

[@MysticSynergy]

as a DID system we really love and appreciate this. more stuff like this needs to be out there for the public to see. it's so respectful and gives an accurate picture of what it's like to live as a system, from having different interests/abilities down to the innocent moments of a little playing with blocks.

[@elmondo-s1e]

We need people who’ve actually experienced DID to make and portray this “stuff like this” though. That’s how it ends up being respectful and accurate ☺️

[@MysticSynergy]

@@elmondo-s1e 100% agree

[@shirleybath9006]

My daughter has DID she has at the moment 80 Alters. and I will be showing her today what a great representation of this little-known condition especially in England

[@twinstarssystem2857]

I'm sorry to break this to you but DID is BEST known in england it sucks but I promise it's actually not a bad way to live

[@cloud.observations]

@@twinstarssystem2857 Its actually generally better understood in the US! In the UK the NHS does not recognise DID as a condition as they do not use the DSM to diagnose. The DID diagnosis is only in the DSM. Only in private healthcare is it a little more understood. :)

[@twinstarssystem2857]

@@cloud.observations DID is in the ICD? OSDD isn't I think but DID definitely is it's under diagnosis code F44.81

[@ryk6207]

Isn’t MultiplicityAndMe based in England?

[@jennifermetler2408]

@@ryk6207 Yes. and DissociaDID! Very informative.

[@afonstulen3779]

DID tends to be more a covert disorder, but that doesn't mean everyone experiences it that way. This film is a beautiful representation of a very personal experience of the writer. Absolutely beautiful. A lot of scenes I felt I could relate a lot. I'm definitely going to share this around and show to people I trust to explain what DID is like for me. It's going to help so much

[@amandahoule8415]

This is just what our system needed currently going through an extreme amount of amnesia and depression, a depressed alter and working through it.

[@noabinnendijk361]

"Do I know you?" ooof always a bad question to ask, just smile and nod until they say whatever they wanna say and then go "hold up I'm not so sure I want to do this, can we put it off for a while?"

[@jynxagain]

I feel this on such a deep level. I'm a teen learning about my alters. It's been hard, I know he doesn't want to hurt me, but I'm so scared to let him into my life because it's all new. This feels really encouraging, I feel like now I can at least *try* to accept him. Thank you for expressing this conflict in a way that can make sense, I feel so much less alone.

[@ayotochtle1194]

this is the most beautiful rep of DID our system has come across, and perfectly captures how it feels. i especially love the "there are no evil identities" part, because people seem to demonize persecutors and the disorder as a whole so it made me tear up a little. and then the part where paola doesnt wanna meet anna was just hit so close to home aghh i dont know how to explain it but thank you for this aaa

[@ash_and_lavender]

I cannot express to you how seen this made our system feel💗 I wish there was more representation of DID like this

[@andersonsystem2]

Our system loved this production. It’s pretty accurate about DID but in our case we have amnesia but it’s not that extreme as in the film. We have a more a CO conscious system with some amnesia breaks depinding on the alter fronting.

[@katrinthorsdottir7514]

Us too, we are primarily co-con but have only known about our system for less than four months. We’re still learning to communicate with each other, but this helped us understand the journal idea.

[@andersonsystem2]

@@katrinthorsdottir7514 I agree totally 💯 when you learn how to communicate with your system it does help so much.

[@authoroverlord4072]

We're an OSDD 1B system so we very rarely have the experience of "losing time" because we don't have those amnesiac barriers. But I'm glad to see some accurate representation because from the few times I have experienced lost time, that is almost exactly what it felt like.

[@andersonsystem2]

I agree

[@andersonsystem2]

@@authoroverlord4072 I agree

[@FlowergateSystem]

Our system has pretty good communication, but I remember about five years back, way before I knew I was part of a system, I was confused of why I would do or say things without being able to control. This film is really excellent of showing the feelings of not wanting another part, having a little, and even switching! The photography and the dialogue is very good, alongside the soundtrack in the background.

[@teammeteamus.8315]

Thank you for this wonderful film. I’d given up hope that I’d ever see some media about Dissociative Identity Disorder that didn’t.portray us as monsters. I really appreciate this. I’m in London, UK and there’s only one clinic that specialises in DID in the entire city. I always have to explain what DID is to ‘professional’ medics, because they just don’t know about it. The non-medics I’ve spoken to about it just fall back on stereotypes from horror films.

[@thompsontilly1]

Dissociative Disorders are non-existent in the NHS in England and whilst there are certain clinics or centres that do research and diagnosis, they are all private and extremely expensive and difficult to access if you do not live in their geographical boundary. I live in Stockport, which is Greater Manchester in Northwest England and our nearest clinic or anyone who has heard of the disorder is in Cheshire (CTAD Clinic) and then I believe in Norwich (The Pottergate), so in order to access any form of Trauma Treatment I am having to go private. I was told by my local mental health team that I couldn't have dissociation disorder because it is a symptom not a disorder and they suggested what I actually had was a Personality Disorder, which seems to be the go-to label our professionals understand and like. I think more of this kind of representation is needed and I am thankful it has been put out there too.

[@extraextraeverything1279]

Wow. I didn't think anyone really understood. This film is going to touch so many of us.

[@Its.hayden_tf]

As an alter in a system This is a very accurate representation of DID/Dissociative Identity Disorder thank you so much for working so hard and actually researching. this is the best representation i have ever seen.

[@justanotherfan18]

What life was like before I knew I had DID. Even though I know now...its still like this at times. Looking at drawings or writings I don't remember doing, losing keys or wallet daily, and never getting gas filled in the car and running out routinely. This is a good portrayal. Unlike KZbin Vloggers, that try to gain attention with getting a switch caught on camera, or meeting alters, etc...hate those....this is done well. Not all systems are the same. Dont compare yours to anyone else's. Great job !!!

[@KaijuDove]

i stumbled across this while i was searching for another film about DID, and i am SO GLAD i did. i have to save this to show to my other parts later, it left me surprised and excited to have seen such an accurate portrayal. Amazing job!!!

[@twinstarssystem2857]

DID and plurality can be annoying and it can be fun and it can be scary and I'm glad you chose to represent us and did so in such a way!

[@sill.yb0nes]

That... is such a good description. Yes, it’s like having a bunch of friends/family around all the time. But sometimes, much like friends/family, you don’t like them or you don’t want to be around them. And sometimes the idea of it can be really terrifying. But we systems have got to keep our chin up :)

[@jazminebellx11]

This is a very real portrayal of what it is like for us. We also have a part that is an artist and just recently found and met a new part. This new part ruined a relationship for us and we are still learning about her. Really great to see this. Thank you.

[@roachthefish]

Absolute banger! I'm not a System, but I read a lot about DID or OSDD and I almost started crying at "There are no evil identities". This is something that everyone should hear. Thank You for not romanticizing DID, because it's something common but harmful these days. Awesome film!

[@TheSleepSteward]

Incredible. Wow. I was chuckling in the beginning because, you know, you just don’t see stuff like this. And it’s really quite accurate. It really is. There are some things that are “off” and that’s because it’s excluding some stuff probably for simplicity’s sake but beautifully done. Thank you to all the people who worked on this. Truly. You are unbelievably amazing and you make it easier for people like us who have this condition… And… Live in a world where it’s super stigmatized, to just live a little easier with something so difficult and complex. Just so beautifully done. I cannot stress how well this was made.

[@kiiyann0]

this. this is perfect. as an alter, i can say that god this is so accurate. being a system can be fun and scary and frustrating and confusing, but it’s who we are. thank you for this beautiful production. gonna send this to some people.

[@didwithme7769]

We really loved this. Very well made and similar to our experiences earlier on in our healing journey.

[@mal-adaptivegaming5455]

My sister just showed me this (we both have DID.) THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS!!!!! PLEASE make more!!!!! We need more of this desperately. Sending love and light ❤

[@kingdom1018]

As a DID system a few if us have watched this and love it. It is so good to see some good representation of the community and Systems day to day lives. I love how it shows not all alters have communication too! That it can vary alter to alter. Thank you for this piece of art. Sending positivity to everyone! -MJ (the kingdom system)

[@margaux3334]

I've never understood a character that much. Just a different way of living and it's well represented. I don't know other people with DID irl. So this helped me feel normal, it's more accurate than anything I've seen. You succeeded to show what is normal life to me, without all the ''spectacular'' stuff. So reassuring to see it's ok to live like that. Thank you...

[@kellahanna-wayne4191]

Truly the most stunningly accurate portrayal of DID that we've seen in fictional media. The little side comments and the way that dissociation is represented were particularly spot on. Also one of the few representations that *doesn't* focus on the terrible traumas. Those are important but not the whole experience.

[@AdventureHunters2013]

Just now seeing this, and as a slowly Collective slowly discovering ourselves, I want to say THANK YOU for some positive representation in media. This is probably my top rep now, previously it was the romance movie What If It Worked.

[@werewolf74]

This is pretty incredible and powerful. I am dating a women with many, many 'others'. Its very hard for me to see that her 'main' feels shoved out, isolated like that, watching on the sidelines. Trying to sort out a way to communicate. Fears her main is not the 'real' her. It breaks my heart. Of her several I know of many but have only met and interacted with 4-5 ? or so. In various ways like I might schedule something with 1 but not even know its not my girls main its Kate. So its hard to say. I can say im very sensitive to other people and you can literally feel she shift. Not even looking at her, I could feel it. like she slipped out and another person formed behind me. This is pretty accurate and my girl just shared it with me. I honestly think she should write a book. Of all her others most know of me and are safe to come to me. Even her young ones. Its very hard at first, but I actually like each of them I have met.

[@KeyJester]

This had me in tears. Such a wonderful representation of a usually very misunderstood disorder. It was extra emotional cause a lot of us could see ourselves in this, especially since Anna is our "face outwards" name (as in, our registered name that people will use when adressing us). It really hit home. So wonderfully done, thank you.

[@ericaroozendaal629]

So happy to see a portrait of did without being sensational!

[@noabinnendijk361]

Wish a whole series could be made in this style! Then it's not just the distressing and sad moments you show, it's the positive and happy moments too. I really like this style because it's not the common 'hearing alter's voices audibly' and 'vivid inner world depiction' that you see more often in media, it feels way more natural and relatable to only be able to guess from context what's going on inside their head. Because usually, alters don't know most of what's going on inside their head, themselves!

[@Arkylie]

Yeah, this feels a bit like the film Memento, with having to guess what's going on from context. Memento gave us a bit of a window into the world of a guy with no ability to make new memories, whose memory only goes back about ten minutes, and this film gives us (those who don't have DID) a bit of an idea of what it might be like for y'all (those who have DID). Like experiencing a life in disconnected sequences and having to make sense within that framework. I have a friend who's got DID, and it's been interesting to get to know them, especially as certain online tools make it easier to visualize how their identity shifts here and there. And I'm glad to see that the comments here are positive (from people who have DID), because it does feel like a respectful and educational portrayal.

[@livysardothien5745]

Wow what a great short film. Although I'm not a part of a system and I don't have a DID but I am a supporter and It's really interesting to know more about it. I support DissociaDID and this community is just really lovely and I'm learning a lot. Much love to you all💜

[@isy5208]

im part of a osdd 1 system, we dont experience much amnesia but this film really touched me, its incredible and i love everything, i will send it to the system group chat so that the others will be able to watch it too, thank you for this great film!

[@sari9645]

If you don’t mind me asking, what’s it like without the amnesia? Like are you aware of alters and what they do when they front?

[@isy5208]

@@sari9645 i mind at all! yes, we can mostly tell what the other alters did while fronting but the memory feels very far away and not like mine though we have one alter with whom we do experience amnesia when they front i hope that helps!

[@sari9645]

@@isy5208 thank you! I appreciate it! I don’t know much about osdd so thank you for helping me out!

[@isy5208]

@@sari9645 we're always glad to help so if you have more questions, feel free to ask!:)

[@PeppermintToasties]

This made me cry. I have a non-switch system, but it wasn’t always that way. I have big gaps in memory from when I was a kid, and being Autistic I have always prided myself on my “good memory” but I have memories, of me being scared as a child of the fact I had lost time.

[@bestabothworldz2766]

@kacper I was wondering the same thing

[@luckless4871]

@left I assume it means that they don't switch? Like the same one person is fronting (in control of the body) all the time/no one else in the system fronts but them

[@teeadvocate]

Beautiful short film that left me wanting more. Thanks to all who spent blood, sweat, tears, & $$$ getting this made 💝

[@TheInfinitySystem]

This was extraordinarily well done and very accurate, right down to the ringing noise before a switch. You managed to capture the essence of the experience and the fear and wonder that it engenders. We will be recommending this video on our channel. Thank you.

[@bestabothworldz2766]

So a ringing noise does happen before a switch? Or like a headache?

[@noabinnendijk361]

@@bestabothworldz2766 depends on the system, I personally didn't know some systems get tinnitus with a switch. But a headache is pretty common (I think), if it's a slow switch especially

[@kathrin9674]

@@bestabothworldz2766 I don't experience a ringing noise, but the sensation feels the same. for me, it's more like a deep buzz, comparable to.... well... can't compare it - it has the same sensation as if you'd collapse soon?, but it's accompanied by headaches, too.

[@msskullyskeletonia7802]

I don't know a lot of people with DID but I did my own research on it to better understand the condition in case I ever met someone with it or had patients at work who had it. (I'm also quite fascinated in psychology, healthcare, the body, etc) I ended up meeting an online friend with it who was impressed by my knowledge of it compared to others. I feel happy knowing I can be a good friend and I always hope their system can feel comfortable talking to me. I cannot imagine how frequently those with the disorder have to hide it so I hope people I meet with it can be comfortable so that they don't have to. It must be so exhausting having DID in general let alone hiding it. I love this clip. very well done ❤

[@nguyenhaianh3081]

Beautiful slice-of-life piece. A big thank you to the crew. Representation like this is very important!

[@butterflygirl2645]

Wow ! This is such an amazingly represented way of explaining it and we're so glad that it was done with such care and respect for Paola and her system. This needs to be seen by more people all over the world since this is a very stigmatized disorder, well we don't like to call us that. We're how we survived it's a survival mechanism and no it's most of the time not fun or happy but we're our own little family of 26 or 27 somewhere around there. - Rissa, Melody(Core/Host, ANP, Host)

[@marshe.swamps689]

we have osdd and dont experience memory gaps in this much of an exteme sense. we do lose time on very rare occasions but. in general this is extremely relatable! good work!

[@trudylyte2660]

Thank you for making this film .. its closer to our experience than anything I’ve watched prior ... I’m 46 & diagnosed a few years ago .. its been a complex existence x

[@sill.yb0nes]

The scene where Paola was looking for her laptop was so relatable 😭 I’ll have misplaced something and one of ours will be like “did you check your room?” Lo and behold it’s not there-

[@mrmrspettersson8205]

that was so lovely, so sweet! Be sure to maybe do one in the future for otherwise specified dissociative disorder too.. which can be misunderstood not only by the public but by those with DID. Thanks for doing this.

[@LiEnby]

I was diagnosed with DID almost a year ago now and suspecting since even longer .. ever since then nothing will ever be the same … it flipped our life upside down and it likely won’t ever go back to how it was .. and gotta say I really like this video, i saw it come up on some of my alters accounts after switching back in, but hadn’t watched it myself yet, I dunno if they did either it was just in recommended. Glad I watched it however. I chuckled a little at “you’re not alone, yeah that’s the problem!”

[@Isablle199]

Beautiful, this is something they should show as an education model.

[@DariaHupov]

I am a filmmaker with an interest in DID. I don't have DID myself, but I am happy to see fellow creators making films that accurately depict this disorder. Well done!

[@Tofuschnittchen]

Though I just started learning about DID, I feel like this is an amazingly executed representation of it.

[@neurotichigh-femmelizard]

We have OSDD-1B, not DID, but the 2 are very similar. In our instance, we have weaker amnesia barriers. This was very emotional to watch, as it is so respectful and doesn't treat plurality as a bad thing. Thank you.

[@xaveria2852]

as a host of a osdd system, this is really accurate, other than my our amnesia barrier being not as strong, i love the representation in this, we really enjoyed it and we want to try the dairy thing out now so ty for the idea !!

[@LuciferKingOfHeck]

I found this video out of nowhere so i decided to watch it. As a system, this is absolutely great and fascinating how it's represented. It's also emotional to me, i almost cried how hard to live with the alters. Keep up the great work 💕

[@brookelynnwu8016]

Jesuz this is so relatable it’s painful. I often lose my belongings, lose periods of time, am met with ppl I supposedly met but can’t remember at all, my drastically different interests & talents, talking to myself as a response to my alters, forgetting what I’ve said or drawn, my impulsivity, the inability to access memories of the others, & a functional system

[@katrinthorsdottir7514]

This was amazing! As a very new to knowing about us system, I think we need more stories like this.

[@jothemadclown]

oh my god, thank you so much for this short film! it helped one of us who was created a few weeks ago and who's still very lost and sad. it's the first time we actually saw her smile! thank you!

[@PearlCradle]

Hey! As a member of a system here, I.... have nothing special to say, I'm just super stoked that this isn't one of 'em "DID means evil alter exists 😱PANIC!" movies. We need more like this tbh, and it made me really happy to watch something we can relate to. I hope more films like this exist in the future! -Addi of Pearl Cradle

[@lilbitslayy]

As a person with DID, thank you for this! One of the most accurate depictions I've seen so far.

[@combatwombats]

As a system with DID, this film is such a breath of fresh air. We have some minor critiques: not everyone likes the term alter, not all alters have an explicit purpose, and calling system member "identities" is a bit of an odd choice. But these are such small points, and the good messages in this film overshadow any murky ones. It's a wonderful, non-violent, ultimately positive film to show people who want to try to understand. And avoiding "evil alter" stereotypes and "poor broken victim" stories is so refreshing. Thank you! (We would also love to see more films like this, not just from a DID perspective but from the perspective of plurality in general! The world is in dire need of more like this, that are hopeful and uplifting rather than scary.)

[@juanrisa945]

I don't have DID, but i want to make an animated film like that. The main focus on the story would be the system learning to get along with each other. I would still feature the trauma, but i would center more on system syability and leave clear in the end that the host is starting to heal. There would also be action, with the systems having to protect their people from a psychotic villain (funnily enough with a similar vibe to Willem Dafoe's Green Goblin) because they are their future leaders, and, while not a comedy, there would be some levity from the dynamic between the alters in their inner world. And no, no evil alter. In fact, a small joke when the host meets her alters would be when one asks if she think they could hurt somebody, only for another alter to accidentally cause an explosion somewhere in their inner world, after which the first alter adds "on purpose".

[@FireflyOnyx]

@@juanrisa945 Sorry to say it, buddy. I would not recommend going ahead with it. Alot of people get uncomfortable with a story about a minority written by someone outside of that minority and this is the same situation. Unless you have a few systems willing to help you with making sure it's an accurate portrayal, it's really not a good idea. - 🌀

[@juanrisa945]

@@FireflyOnyx That's sort of my plan. Do the proper research and, if and when i can, contact at beast somevsystems, and at worst only psychiattrsts to consult.

[@kellahanna-wayne4191]

@@juanrisa945 I don't recommend using psychiatrists as a reference for writing a story about DID. Mental health professionals can be amazingly helpful but they are biased toward a pathological point of view, and so tend to think of things in term of a problem to be fixed, rather than a collection of humans and relationships to be explored.

[@effroid]

Could you add closed captions on this? I really want to enjoy this film, but I have a condition that makes hearing VERY difficult.

[@LunaStarlight35]

Thank you for this. We really enjoyed the portrayal. Not understanding what's going on can be really scary but when you figure it out, it can be okay.

[@chopsueyy27]

finally some movie that doesn’t make us a monsters.

[@KikaCFF]

Amazing! Love it! Would like to see a long film about it.

[@19albi]

This is so beautiful. A true way of representing our symptoms, thank u for the attention to detail and how gracefully u put this together

[@willow6726]

Such a brilliant depiction of a system! Thank you!❤

[@MaggiesMusicDID]

I have finally started to embrace my system and now use music composition as a way that my alters can have a voice. Great film ❤

[@novacoaler7433]

Ive been struggling to explain to one of my professors how DID can effect ones life. As someone who has a system with really bad communication at times, we dont always manage to get papers in on time and it had made him mad. I sent him this vido about 3 days ago and he is starting to understand. thank you so much for this.

[@teoeoiy3220]

As someone whom suffers with this. This is making us cry. This is so beautiful ❤️ it really is like this some days, most days.

[@Deaf.Swiftie]

THIS!!! Yes I adore this!! This is such a good portrayal!! Everyone needs to see this! Great representation🖤🤍🖤🤍THANK YOU

[@brozonesback]

As part of a system, I quite enjoy this. I don't know how my other family members (as we refer to each other) feel, but I personally enjoy this! - Herlock/FtM/34

[@saturn5063]

omg, I loved this sm. We are currently working on accepting everyone within the system, and this helped a lot! Not to mention the great representation of DID in this

[@jazmincook4940]

You're all loved so much 💕 Thank you for the hard work you do protecting yourselves and me, a stranger, is do proud of you ❤️

[@Pixielocks]

Omg this ROCKED! You ROCK! Love love love!!

[@floofygod]

I used to write things down to try and remember but the words didn't make sense anyways. So I just let go. I live purely in the moment now.

[@floofygod]

It gets sad sometimes. Cuz I can't remember the people that love me or the people that used to love me. But I understand that pain comes from trying to hold on to those memories and those people. If they truly love me, they will remind me everyday that they exist 💜

[@aurumisgreat]

I do not have DID, but thank you for posting this so that others can learn about it. It was very informative.

[@Tsekerynic]

My best friend is Eva. She's very kind and wants the best for me even if sometimes she has a hard time showing it. She's bad at expressing herself with words but she loves art. She works hard and loves helping others, she's very pretty and caring. It's a shame I'm the only one who can see her.

[@SailorSayuri]

Loved this video that helped understand even more the people with DID, thank you! It was a beautiful story and imagining was gorgeous as well as the lightening! 😊🙏🏻🎉

[@effieearly9976]

Great portrayal of d.i.d. And what our life is like

[@catz_circus]

This is just. This is beautiful. I can’t put it perfectly into words how much this strikes a chord in the brain, how this feels so real and relatable to us. I can tell everyone in this film worked really hard and it made this. A masterpiece. -Techno

[@Flojer0]

We all exist in heads that exist in a society. It's a tough act in life to find one treating both differently.

[@CharlieTheMad256]

This is should a good representation of what we live with. Plan on showing my parents this

[@Selectraf]

Wow, this had me in tears. So beautiful

[@TheFractureSystem]

This is such a powerful short film. Thank you for making this.

[@georgecaloba]

What a great short film! We were happy to finally watch a good representation of our lives :)

[@brittsheff]

Wow. I don’t even have DID and this damn near made me cry. The ending tooootally gave me goosebumps!! Beautifully done. 🎥👌🏼🥰

[@desireewelvaert494]

Realistic. Well done. Thank You !!!❤

[@ericwalters3426]

I was married to someone with DID, and helped her merge a lot of alters, but its certainly an interesting experience. I had to develope different kinds of relationships with each alter. I just had to get them to work together and not against each other. Much respect for anyone working through these issues, and the supportive people in their life.

[@OLGA-OLiX]

Wow ! What a challenge

[@baileytate3938]

Thank you for making such a thoughtful and respectful film. Wonderful job! Great Film!

[@lilme7052]

I love love loved that the host sat in the darkness and listened. It really felt like me!!!

[@vickeyheisler2369]

Absolutely amazing. So vivid and realistic.

[@3six9_eye_am]

Poignant and Eloquently done. Brava!