Childhood Trauma: Managing PTSD Through Therapy | Julia Torres Barden | TEDxGraceStreetWomen

[@soniarodriguez1462]

" how well can you perform is school... when you are constantly on duty as your own security guard" Wow, I've never heard it said better.

[@MrKarameow]

This got me too.

[@deathuponusalll]

I felt it 😞

[@drmosaddegh]

i want to heal ! i’m sick and tired of my past holding me back from living my life. i wish i could go back in time and fix my childhood. it’s terrible. it’s terrible that most people don’t understand what i have to go through on a daily basis. i’m really tired of it all. it’s holding me back... i’m sorry. everyone in my life... i’m so sorry. i’m taking back control ! i’ve had enough.

[@daisyorozco1828]

Let’s do this! 💖

[@PeachySoju]

i relate to this feeling every second of the day. its hard to keep staying strong. its exhausting. but we cant give up ever. in the end, we are stronger and smarter than those without trauma. copoing with trauma is a rollercoaster so still be understanding of yourself. anyways hope you are doing well :)

[@drmosaddegh]

imarielmermaid thank you, you too 🥺

[@selirajashari1876]

Ash, how are you doing now?

[@sweetnothings12]

I’m 35 and I’m still dealing with childhood trauma.

[@ryadh456]

It's crazy how trauma affects your life so drastically to the point to which it's ridiculous and shows life to be pointless.

[@jshaka3769]

That’s how I feel.

[@pokiro1698]

@@jshaka3769 i love you.

[@jshaka3769]

@@pokiro1698 I love you too! Thank you 🙏

[@thirdy4threetv]

Exactly how I feel

[@charlenelee8772]

Ain't that the truth!.

[@astoldbylisa94]

This was so poignant and beautiful. I can't believe I'm only seeing it now. The trauma we face as children leaves such impressionable wounds on our psyche, it's hard to believe we will ever see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm glad she found hers, and I hope I find mine.

[@kkevus]

I feel like that as well but we got to stay strong. Sometimes the tunnel seems endless, sometimes the light at the end of the tunnel is even a train and you need to dodge that but finally we shall make it out of the tunnel and see the daylight and how beautiful everything can be. I don’t know how but it will happen. I’m really certain of that. Now I just need to convince myself of that every day to take action.

[@raalvarez9241]

I hope you find yours too friend. If anyone here needs to hear this, what happened wasn’t our fault and there’s more of us than you’ll ever realize. Love yourself everyday like if you were someone you truly cared for.

[@yvettewest3279]

Know how valuable it is to talk to your children when they seem withdrawn, so much so that they stop smiling, stop talking, show shyness, stutter, lack motivation, are in shock and look for attention and affection, particularly the youngest kids in family are forgotten. Alienation is really just a symptom of the dark shadows that torment us, bad memories.Thank-you, Michelle. The validity of your words is deeply heartfelt .

[@RosaMKelly]

Pretty useless when it's the parents inflicting the trauma

[@bluenuttefly8813]

@@RosaMKelly Honestly, couldn't agree more. Lived through it myself.

[@HH-kg4fq]

The anger slowly rose up in through my stomach and chest ..... as I hear her narrative and retelling her story..... which is a very good thing because I needed to to recall and relive and remember all of the abuse I lived through and oppressed and suppressed what was done to me .... my body survived but my heart and soul and spirit had and did not.... .. I carried the rotten pieces like carcasses. ....rotten and dead pieces of heart soul and spirit..... when you have been so abused and traumatized, and neglected, your spirit , heart and soul leaves your body..... I cannot refer to myself as a survivor because I am not my body. I am my my heart spirit and soul. Glad and thankful for this video because I am now able to retrieve what happened and help myself ...... please pray that the right and proper therapists come my way....

[@ryadh456]

🙏

[@whiteybopbop9232]

🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@mizmzappamizmzappa9548]

I pray 🙏 that hundreds of thousands more prayers are made for you and that they are answered . Keep the faith ✝️

[@callmekells802]

“I’m letting myself go grey” that really got me I had to pause the vid and smile for a second.

[@abigailchase9383]

She really helped me with her story. I'm coming to terms with who I am after leaving my abusive family at 18... and I know that as my 19th birthday comes along that my problems won't just dissipate and leave me, they are something I am going to be overcoming as time passes by- and that is okay. Time will help these wounds heal. Since I've left my mom, I've left the house twice and went back once because she begged me, in total I've lived 8 months away from home. I've had such a tough year and It's been so hard to get help. It's been so hard to admit to myself the truth about the people I love. It's been so hard to understand that I am worthy and deserving of respect, kindness, and compassion. It's so hard to feel motivated throughout the day as I process my past, working through every trigger I have and every symptom of depression, ptsd, and anxiety. It's so hard to understand my feelings. It's so hard to know who I am after everything that happened. It's been so hard to be kind to myself and put my well being first... but I'm trying. I deserve to let myself process this and learn about myself and enjoy my life. I'm struggling to find my resilience because I don't want to live my life being miserable about the past, but I understand that apart of me is still hurting and I'm still in pain. Healing comes and goes, but when it happens I feel better. I am learning about empathy, action, and advocacy. I'm learning how to talk about my pain. I'm learning to tell people that I need to be treated better. I'm learning that I'm not responsible for other people's emotions. I'm learning about what I want with my life. I'm learning who I am. I'm learning that I won't have all the answers, and that figuring things out is a stage of life that I'm acting our right now. I am learning that I am young, I am young and I am allowed to be young and it feels so good not to be criticized for not knowing everything about the world yet because I don't live up to someone's expectations of it. I am learning that other people don't define me. I am learning it's okay to be alone and it's okay to not force myself to like other people and have other people like me. I am learning that everyone has intrinsic value that is not determined by other people, and abuse, disrespect, and trauma can't take this away from anyone. I am learning to view the world differently, even if I do have reoccurring moments or mindsets from my past life as an abused adolescent, I am learning to see the world the way I know it is in my heart. A better place.

[@courtneyparlato9554]

ab c I cant say a word in response except that I’ve never seen someone write down my exact same situation. It feels good to not be alone.

[@0000bling]

I'm so proud of you. You have your whole life ahead of you to be hopeful and blossom into the person you are meant to be. I’m 49 and in trauma recovery.

[@universe4623]

I wanna hug you tight. i cant imagine the sufferings you've been through really. I hope you will get by each day and have more courage to live a good life! You are so brave!

[@selirajashari1876]

Hi ab, Id like to connect and talk with you and see how you are doing, and maybe give me some tips..

[@abhijitdas2127]

i can feel you stay strong 🤗

[@PaperBagProf]

The courage to stand on that stage and share your story is truly inspiring!

[@Ichigo7623]

I wish I could just sit down and have a cup of tea with this woman and discuss our childhood trauma. She spoke so eloquently of how she was able to live through such an awful period in her life and I can tell she has so much to offer to other children and adults that need to know their story doesn’t have to be silenced. Strong women like her make me proud to be a human in this dark time we live in today.

[@tinypeker6553]

This is really helpful my children hood ended really early because of all the horrible things I saw

[@tinypeker6553]

@zombie slayer 22 I saw lots of things as my dad hitting his girlfriend and breaking dishes I saw other things but this is what I saw the most

[@meistermaxxer]

You aren't alone we're in the same boat 😔

[@coelhinhatemminhavida]

same i wish i could jus turn it off

[@menace.capital]

@@coelhinhatemminhavida same but I’m trying my hardest to take it away from my life

[@anantgamer8952]

Same here man

[@kareno6844]

you are the first person I have heard talk about the amygdala trauma reaction. I was in a class action lawsuit for my childhood trauma and had a breakdown at work after filing out the application. My brain stem was shaking and I started screaming in my car. Thank you so much for sharing your story as I finally feel validated! No one understand when I tell them. Love and continued healing to you beautiful lady.

[@Beans-1111]

My father was in a very horrible war and came home an alcoholic and a drug addict. He beat me and my family up every single day and locked us in closets for days. Once when he was drunk he loaded his rifle and started shooting at my mother. She was running as fast as she could and the bullets kept missing her because he couldn't aim that good. This went on every single day for 14 years. I have autism and I can remember almost every single day of my life. It's so hard to remembering EVERYTHING!

[@Nokss_20]

💔💔💔💔💔💔 I'm so sorry

[@tenten3577]

Have you been able to find support?

[@georgen9755]

Resilience to survive with little anxiety but anxiety throughout life is uncommon and not natural but beyond human control ....... My father is dead , my mother is dead , but problems persist with more banks peeping into broken family and respect is virtually lost because cults get opinions from the dead dimension bringing in similar problems ...adding to bitter lives thieves get away with the little resource earned with literally no savings ....... It seems prayer groups are focussed on watching people who had no resources to break the family ties ..... Let me you there girls who not defiled at all so guys catch up with the pure products who bring ...fortune and fame in thier houses unlike me still struggling not like the feeding bottles who are on top .... with freebies all thier lives and nobody suspects even if they stole ATM

[@davidbrown6056]

Tk you so much for sharing. I too suffer from the 40 + major traumas in this my later years as a man .I can’t get to sleep tonite because today was my therapy day and it stirred up some of the major assaults of multiple rapes and my home of domestic violence.from my early yrs till 15 yrs old. I making some headway but 2 steps forward and 1 step back. It was good to hear you share about your hurts and struggles then to find out like I have about the ACEs test and medical issues that we may still have to face. Hearing someone share their wounds helps me not to feel so alone. I will stop here because I don’t want to make anyone feel bad on top of what our Country is now facing with the new virus.

[@daisylopez-kh3vm]

Today was my therapy session and I haven't been able to sleep for the same reasons. Thank you for your comment, now I feel less alone in this world:)

[@waltergodsoe5526]

Julia, your courage , resilience and beauty shine through. Thank you

[@coszec]

I'm sorry you had to go through this. This world is so sick. Thank you for having the courage to get on this stage.

[@nataliagomezsalas6382]

I just want to hug this great woman and tell her thank you for existing.

[@pelayia]

i can’t forgive my mother, i have so much trauma she can’t even imagine how many things i CANTTTTT do now

[@ryadh456]

This should have a lot more views than it does. This women is amazing!

[@sharonthomas2012]

This is heart breaking, I was forcing myself hard to watch full vedio.. becoz many people hesitate to continue watching.. because her experience sharing gives heart ach and stomach burning feelings which everyone cant handle... She is so strong.

[@intuitivelyinsync6500]

I started crying instantly while I was watching this. Thank you. ❤️

[@hey-wp1qd]

the woman who did it to me just towers over my thoughts and self worth everyday.

[@AnnaSantinaTetenburg]

so much respect for this women for speaking up about this.

[@shonnaroadruck5194]

The most powerful speech I have ever heard. I resonate so deeply with so many pieces of this story that I am just bawling my eyes out. Down to choosing photography and art as a means of healthy expression from my own r@pe. Thank you so much for this. You are giving a voice to so many of us who dont yet have the strength yet to share our own. Thank you for the courage to stand tall and tell your truth.

[@dobryden77]

I needed to hear this today. I can't seem to "get past" my trauma. the last time I tried college, I failed because even in high school, the worse the abuse got at home, the worse my grades got. I have a dead end job and I don't know how I can make it. I don't live in a place where therapy is easily accessible and I've tried so many therapists already; I haven't found one that can handle my diagnosis and what I have been through yet. I'm so tired of hurting all the time, being alone, getting older while things just get worse. I'm so mentally ill and I have no self esteem. Her explanation of performing in school when you are your own security guard made me stop what I was doing and write it down. I have never felt safe, I don't feel loved or special, and I don't think I will ever get better. Abuse changes you and can absolutely destroy you on the inside. I feel 1% better after watching this, and after being insanely suicidal (more than usual) for several days, even 1% is a relief.

[@gamesemuitomais2308]

I hope things can change for the best for you. Wish you all well God can bring you and offer my prayers. You can get through this and I believe you :)

[@sunniesublime1]

Early memories are the worst for me because I was a baby...held in a cold shower clothed because I knocked an ashtray down accidentally and broke it by my mothers boyfriend. Bloody nose by my mother when I arrived at the door late because I couldn’t tell time good in first grade. That’s just the tip. It got worse as I got older. The abuse continued into my adulthood until she died now I’m free but sad I can never confront her.

[@bbarnett7667]

You can confront her anytime you want if you believe that will help you heal. After you spend some time venting, hopefully you can get to a place where you understand that she was sick. Then maybe you can get to a place of forgiving her and moving on from it.

[@Thewritingelf]

@@bbarnett7667 Or she doesn't have to forgive her simply because her mother was "sick". That's not a one size fits all situation for everyone dealing with trauma and I wish people would understand that. You don't have to forgive everyone.

[@disneylandangel]

I want to hug you. This not only spoke to me about myself, and why I might be reacting the way that I am at 36 while I watch the father of my children, who has been mainly absent, (not always physically) take me to court and win against me. It had also lit a fire to help myself and others understand me, but to also bring this awareness that Trauma is brain damaging!! “You aren’t crazy, your amygdala has been injured” mind blown! Thank you, from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story. And thank you for your bravery in breaking the cycle. I work at a youth shelter. I feel I am being led to become and art therapist. Any tips?

[@isabellafacchini2121]

Julia, you are my hero! I hope you can see yourself as the great resilient and hero that you are! Still working on that myself, but one thing that makes us a hero: we broke the cycle of childhood abuse!

[@MrSlime2002]

its hard to admit the wrongs that ive made in my past, rather then the wrongs that have been done to me

[@Nokss_20]

We're taught to be grateful, and to oppress our pain...

[@ufoufo9182]

I'm so sorry that happened to you and anyone else who has had a similar encounter. I applaud your bravery to continue living, regardless of how you're able to do so. I pray you find the strength to stand tall and heal your body completely from all that pain.

[@katskills]

Thank you for showing it’s possible to keep going and succeed Julia

[@alexanderscholtz7303]

Julia's story, and that of many others on TED, are simply inspiring and moving. I love Julia for her honesty and vulnerability. She speaks about a serious issue but with a good sense of humor. It dawns on me that I need to talk about my PTSD and promote awareness and connection.

[@olisenpaii2090]

I want to get over this mental state I m in. I hate it ..I know my potential but I m so traumatized and fear of being judged.

[@kryslow]

Thank you for this, wishing you years of peace!

[@justinamusyoka4986]

Thank you for sharing,i'm coming to terms with my horrible childhood.

[@totalfootballpodcast5820]

I had an interaction with a paedophile and I was lucky to get away from him. I still have that trauma to this day and I want to get over it.

[@justinamusyoka4986]

You'll recover,i'm on same journey. All my life got trust issues.

[@naimamohamed9509]

Thank you for sharing your story with the world, you are truly helping others more than you.

[@kisamar]

Love it! "Ceremoniously letting myself go gray." Beautiful.

[@bradharp6609]

Very well spoken. Thank you I really needed this

[@bigdave_cyber]

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[@bigdave_cyber]

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[@tnwlsanstj]

Thank you, your speech really helped me at where I am

[@jennynyle89]

You are strong woman being able to recall this horrendous experience, you must have been crying a lot to be able to pour this story 😥😣😭

[@jeremiahmotselisimwamba02]

Only those who are facing it can understand every day that comes you have to find what makes you to continue living I hope we all heal from what’s eating us up

[@terriwerning3477]

You are awesome! Thank you for sharing your story.

[@wakingupisaBeautifulthingtodo]

You are an amazing woman who is a great role model and very brave woman. I know firsthand how hard living life feeling like a victim trapped in your own scary movie is . I commend you for facing your fears and sharing your story with millions of people . Thank you for your bravery 💙🫶🏻💙

[@juanitadiaz7781]

Bravo 👌 thank you very much for sharing 👏 🎉related with your story on so many levels 👏

[@theultimatesoph9248]

This healed me inside

[@ryadh456]

So many chances for good things to happen but there were none. 😓 I wish peace to you all.

[@jshaka3769]

It’s so hard when I went thru what I went thru at the hands of my older siblings and mother! And the only thing I can think is that I was an accident and I shouldn’t even exist . Just like my abusive older sister used to tell me .

[@addiecranfeild8023]

Your sharing your experience was amazing, I appreciated it so much because I know that I'm not alone and I'm going to get this with resilience. Thank you so much for sharing. Addie

[@deesweetiee]

This was so beautiful, thank you for sharing your story💛

[@stevejohnson747]

Everyone maybe rightfully, has walked out of my life. I feel they were lessons. I'm reminder to them.

[@pelilin2519]

She is strong!

[@tender_imp]

I h4te to be resilient, a survival or whatever BS they wanna call. I h4te do badly! It's tiring I wish I didn't need to.

[@Nokss_20]

It's the only way to live and you can do it for YOU!

[@saramedlin3343]

I want to say thank you thank you SOOOOOO much I have been struggling SOOOOOO much lately especially the last 3 weeks or so I ended up in the ER due to a psychotic issue while I was in the ER they had 2 security guards change me into the hospital scrubs they put the patients in before putting a patient on the psych unit the reason the security guards had to change me was I was so psychotic and out of it the problem is one of the security guards was a male I am a female there were female nurses and the ER doctor seeing me was female so I just DON'T UNDERSTAND why one of them did NOT help change me instead of the male security guard I have a VERY VERT traumatic past and this did NOT help and it reminded me of some other traumatic events in my life and now I am having REALLY BAD flashbacks I have also been feeling suicidal more often I almost did it last night but I reached out I just REALLY NEEDED to hear what was said in this video so THANKS

[@DC-wg1cr]

I'm so sorry you had to deal with that. That is bs and you absolutely should complain and leave a bad review, it'll help you feel a little better I think

[@ILAIBASYED]

I want to share my childhood trauma with someone who understands but I've no one.

[@lakhdeepkaur694]

You are so great. Touched

[@LonelyRider87]

It was great to hear her but it also made me feel inadequate shes done so much.

[@annaaidekijustloveyoutube2194]

Im working on it its hard

[@jllbruce11]

Thank you.

[@musiccabin]

Such an encouraging speech!

[@terence4427]

Phenomenal and thought-provoking video.

[@pelayia]

i can’t anymore fr 💔 …

[@jacquelinejuana34]

Thank you! ♥️

[@kkevus]

Thank you for sharing your traumatic experiences and knowledge you gained throughout your life! I rarely felt so understood. Also I currently try to gain more knowledge on trauma as I finally want to understand it better. It‘s so important that we understand and talk about this topic. More people should watch this video and try to understand how trauma affects those that have to deal with it and some people may even discover that they are probably traumatized too. Imagine what a world would look like where everyone is aware of their trauma and also aware about the fact that many people are dealing with it and where even those that don’t have to deal with trauma understand it and act appropriately.

[@mawriverbird]

Yes. 🙌🏻 Thank you for this.

[@valentine278]

Beautiful story!!!

[@MrsSagesPages]

Shes my soul sista for sure

[@bwogifarms]

thank you for this.

[@thameshaldane9342]

Literally listened to 3 seconds and couldn't deal

[@pantarei4328]

i wish that you can heal everything you need to heal

[@dilaraa3201]

Amazing woman 🙌🏼🧡

[@MM-Iconoclast]

Fellow Art and Design alumna! Btw, I wish I knew which medication caused her bad reaction!

[@wl415]

Thank you🙏🏾

[@dessarwanda7860]

I have same story like this 😭😭

[@pantarei4328]

so sorry to hear that. i hope you can heal everything

[@hannaalexander2046]

Thanks 💖

[@juliawho3896]

Im sorry i still can't lissen after 9 years of ptsd i still get triggerd with every story or that horrible word that should not be said. I tryed watching this for the 100th time but still can't sorry

[@daisyorozco1828]

We all have different processes please don’t lose hope

[@rynndiane6488]

I heard some triggers in there too, unlikely ones.

[@raphaellavelasquez8144]

Therapists don't have time to take on mentoring. They want clients who are easy and medicated. I no longer seek help. I was able to get well in the 80's because I had public transportation ( which solved about 50per cent of my problem.). I was able to have access to every free self help program in the city. Unfortunately I had to leave NYC.

[@Amelia-kw9om]

I promise you the good ones are out there, I know because I’ve found one.

[@wiccansita]

Thank you

[@ibeamy]

CPTSD and depression is a Horrible thing. I’ve come far from BPD. But good lord.

[@bigdave_cyber]

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[@moshsya]

Dope share big ups

[@Davinci637]

Los traumas de infancia siempre son complicados. En mi caso por ejemplo si bien siempre he tenido problemas al articular las palabras todo empeoró cuando en el colegio un maestro me sermoneo por gritarle: mamá! a mi madre que estaba a lo lejos y que había ido a visitarme. Desde entonces mi articulación de las palabras es aún peor aunque con el tiempo he sabido manejarlo y siempre me preparo antes de hablar algo importante cosa de que se entienda lo mejor posible lo que voy a decir. A fin de cuentas tengo una vida lo más normal posible.

[@GrammyGoodHartandFriends]

Wonderful!

[@gaurav9653]

I also go through,my mother is so bad i hate her too much she send wdh my father to die in class 12,and abuse me till now , physical torture from past very yrand as consequence of it i suffer a lot but i decide i dont even attend both of funeral. Garima

[@dawgydawg6264]

What if parents had to do a small parenting course to receive healthcare. Education would prevent so much trauma.

[@SterianAlinaNicoleta]

= Healing 2022= = Healing me and my biologic mom =2022

[@amberb803]

Beautiful

[@raphaellavelasquez8144]

NAMI recommends family values and medication. That's tough when you don't have family. Oh well.

[@Brcyx193]

I just got reminded of someone getting betrayed by his friends by setting his face on fire and his friends killed him he was special to me he made my early years so good just seeing him die infront of my eyes is traumatic no matter how violent something is like seeing someone getting eaten by a pack of wolves isn't nothing not even someone whos face littery got ripped of isent doing anything to me I would not care but someone enjoying the screams of agony and pain and suffering is what disgusts me the most

[@dessarwanda7860]

I would love to get help from you 😭 or talk to you I have to meet my doctor to help me with my trauma 😢

[@frankkahler1431]

Miss Julia.......Please watch my interview on KZbin called, "Is CBD being suppressed"!! Im not trying to out-do your story, but listen to what both of my children have been thru and what they've had to endure, then realize what CBD can do for a persons PTSD, Anxiety, depression.......THE LIST IS LONG!!!!!!! PEACE!!!

[@anne-zv8wm]

Sorry, i cant hear the whole story.its make me remember that day

[@earthlycolorbrown6246]

Smiling My thanks

[@dekapwt5618]

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[@adaywithaleks6556]

Only Jesus heals, let him in and let him help! I too have went through trauma childhood acts that shouldn't have ever happened but Jesus hold me down to this day.

[@AlyssaCilliersSinger]

Absolutely! I've had quite a traumatizing childhood as well and God is walking along with me everyday through the process of healing

[@Nokss_20]

God heals so much ❤💖💕

[@NoName-pu5ls]

I hate having CPTSD, I still feel those rats crawling on me!!

[@dekapwt5618]

😔

[@mpeace5283]

Who’s cutting the onions ?? 😭

[@abhilashasharma4476]

Only rapists

[@gaurav9653]

Bravo be strong abuser Ladlo desh chodo Garima

[@よこけい-h3g]

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[@loiekahan9233]

Thank you