CHINESE TAKEAWAY, PIZZA + RECOVERY - a vlog of my week

A vlog of some days in my life at the moment. I haven't been videoing so much and just living and recovering and enjoying life, trying to continuously challenge and change.
Chinese takeaway was amazing, and I talked about my thoughts and feelings after and what frustrates me in how a win can be questioned so much after..
Just a few clips of my days - lunch with Grandad, sushi, Chinese, chilling by the fire with Dad and is there anything better than watching a fire and thinking about life no there isn't. Tidied my room, missed Alisha lots, Alisha came home yaaaay the fam is complete again. Alisha making me an awesome lunch dessert, and another lunch out wit Grandad in the sunshine with more pizza because pizza is life. Also made a risotto and fell in love with granola on my greek yog combo.
A bit random but hey that is life and life is great thank you for watching love u bye x
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[@emerrlys]

The improvements from when you used to eat pizza out are incredible and so inspiring

[@sarahmoxie252]

Yes, when I was recovering I felt the same...like after eating more than your comfort zone, but actually finishing the meal and being like "well shoot...I should've had more..." but then it's too late in your mind to just go back and get extra. I get it girl,.you aren't alone with how you felt about that. But you're pushing yourself regardless so next Chinese meal just add more than last time with this experience in mind and increase, just bit by bit.

[@hallefranklin2646]

Pleaseeee let Satara do your make up one day! You're BEAUTIFUL as you are and you dont need make up but you should do a 'just for fun vid' and have a pamper day 😊🥰

[@thedrewbear4]

Iv'e said this before. :)

[@keverleycharles]

What a fun idea! Id love to see this ☺️

[@user-dk8hm4jj8d]

I suggested this once too! even a my sisters control my day or i say YES to my sisters for 24 hours sort of vid! xx

[@yeganehsetayeshnia7262]

Dear Elzani please please remember that you are not in the situation that your family members are and you’re recovering and you need more than them, you need more, you don’t have to eat like your family or the same as their portions please don’t compare yourself to them, and don’t ever think that you shouldn’t be eating more than the amount of they’re having! Cause you should ! You need more than them! Love ya a lot 💜💙

[@racheldomb4574]

That part of your brain that is telling you that you can "do more" is the recovery part of your brain winning! You are battling the thoughts that are scared to eat a lot, but you also have the side of your brain that is a warrior that knows it can do more! Listen to that warrior! Great job, I'm so happy you're feeling more calm around food :)

[@aiyjb6526]

You have come such a long way and your doing such a great job. Your smile and positivity and realness is something that many can look up to. Keep up the wonderful work 💙💜💖

[@JanusChan]

You give such a good insight in what the illness is: your mind trying to always tell you it's not good enough, your head constantly trying to keep in control in a perfectionist way (and it's using your food and body image for that). It's so great of you to be able to expres it and be aware of it. Next time you guys have takeaway you'll just have chicken satay. Got your whole life ahead of you, you'll have plenty of satay in the future. :) Now I know you know that, but still, it can be good to hear others say it sometimes. You are so strong and such a cool girl and so amazing! I'm proud of you!

[@rose-um1jt]

Someone beyond close to me once told me, " the good ones never think they do enough and always think they should have done more." Also, everytime you dont listen to that "ed voice" is an achievement , even if it doesn't feel like one or a big enough achievement, because it always wants to trick us into thinking we never do good enough, but that is all lies. Small victories are still victories. You're amazing, angel. Look how far you've come💗🌠💗🌠

[@lumemaa7]

Having those thoughts about improving next time is a good sign of recovery. This means that you are motivated and are reaching towards that goal of bettering yourself. Good, positive thoughts to have! Thinking opposite to those would not be improvement. 😘☺️

[@musicalhippie19]

Honey don’t feel like you’re not doing enough! Your progress is amazing. You don’t have to eat the whole fridge you just need to make sure you’re healthy. I’m proud of you. Stay safe and healthy.

[@reginaestrada5160]

I think feeling that “you didn’t do your best” makes you stronger than you think, because people with the same situation feel the opposite, they feel guilty, like my case. You are doing so good!! I’m so proud of you, wish I could have your strength and no problem with eating

[@goldencloset1554]

i haven't watched the video yet but- MY GOD I LOVE WHEN YOU VLOG YOUR ENTIRE WEEK I COULD SPEND HOURS JUST WATCHING YOU

[@chloecnd]

you are amazing, seeing how you talked about you feelings after the Chinese was such an improvement your doing amazing, and just remember when you think you could/should have done more remind yourself how well you have done and you can always eat a snack or something extra, cause hey, why not! so proud of you! xxx

[@empoweringmindsets6667]

You are amazing And NEVER beat yourself up Its the ED sending you negative thoughts because it knows you are stepping out of it’s comfort zone And it feels uneasy about it, but you NEED TO BREAKTHROUGH and keep going ❤️

[@laurakate4489]

Your meals dont have to be impressive, the fact that you are eating a big variety of foods and not crying over meals is impressive, you should be proud, we all are! 👍💜💪

[@francescafoster854]

I've noticed how well you are doing in these recent videos You don't seem as panicked where food is involved, and you don't talk as much or look at it as much before eating. That's amazing! Also your mum's hilarious (in a nice way), your family all seem so genuine and kind. Glad you can be open with your parents about your ED, I recovered without the help of my parents but sometimes I wish I could have talked to them about it. Keep going, you got this x

[@raspberrydream7329]

Wow Elzani, it’s so lovely to see you interacting and enjoying eating different foods with your family. It was interesting to hear you talking about how your ‘anorexia head’ talked to you about the Chinese takeaway. I imagine this kind of opening up about how you are feeling could really help other people with eating disorders too, which is great. I LOVED this weekly vlog with snippets of each day, it is more natural and we see more of your lovely and funny personality (and your family too!) It included food and eating, but wasn’t totally obsessive like in previous videos. Sorry this comment is so long Elzani, but I am just so happy to see you getting better and happier 😁 Just keep challenging and please make sure you eat enough calories as I worry that if you only eat the same amount as your family it won’t be enough for you to gain weight 😕 But really well done - you really are ‘doing it’ and should be very proud of yourself.

[@josie9762]

you’re getting brighter and brighter and it’s amazing to watch you get life back in to your eyes

[@chrissy_south75]

So wonderful to see you experiencing life & to see the joy in your face.

[@wicklandtube]

You keep shining through more and more with each video. You do you and it’s so refreshing and true!!!!

[@junenovae]

Those roasted potatoes.. I need to know how you made them so crispy!

[@LittlestHoboKatie]

YES! please spill the secrets Katie, these look unreal. Makes my mouth water every time i see them lol

[@denamullen340]

Littlest Hobo who is Katie?

[@tia5505]

@@denamullen340 her mum

[@annaclegg6226]

June Novae idk if they do it like this but just in case elzani doesn’t reply, you can make roast potatoes crispy by boiling them a bit first and then shaking them around in the pan so the outside gets like fluffy looking then cover them in oil & roast them

[@timetogetmylifeback]

Use lots of oil and most likely part boil them first :)

[@espie5106]

Yayyyy so happy you uploaded! I look forward to your videos so much. Don't put yourself down so much, your doing an amazing job and you can eat whatever you want! Try to challenge yourself if you know it's not enough or you know your still hungry or want something but won't let yourself! I believe in you and we're all here for you and cheering for you. Your videos help me so much with my recovery and I bet your helping a lot of other people! Keep continuing to challenge yourself and take care of yourself but also know your limits so you won't stress out too much! ❤️❤️❤️

[@throughrose-colouredeyes6284]

ps. i am so proud of you. you seem so much more at peace in your mind now, and it's beautiful. you did this! you are doing this!

[@Lousea14]

Everything is an accomplishment! You had a nice serving of both chicken and rice, don’t worry about not doing good enough. Remember you can always go back and have a snack or another serving if you’re feeling hungry or simply just want more.💕

[@_emmaa_xo6514]

your mums roast potatoes look UNREEEAALL! OMG!! my mouth was literally watering looking at them! 😂😅😍😍🤤🤤👌

[@happ1090]

I'm so proud of you! You used to have so many breakdowns but you're doing so well now! You're amazing ❤️

[@annibobonnie]

I love seeing your recovery journey but I would really enjoy seeing your hobbies or your work life and the other things you do during the day to pass the time!

[@billie-jeanaitchison998]

Sooooo proud of you elzani! You are GLOWING

[@yvonnepoe8117]

I love your video,s , your doing awesome on your eating and your recovery, I heard you mention beans on toast, and finally decided to try it, going to be a favorite for lunch, I live in Louisiana, so never heard of beans on toast. Thank you.

[@jasminehammond1396]

Elzani you are looking so amazing, you can see how hard you have been working during recovery! Amazing, well done :D You're incredibly strong, keep fighting :D xx

[@kyram1452]

thank you for another amazing video!! you’re making so much progress, seriously. the way you talked yourself out of not feeling guilty about the quantity of takeout you had was really inspiring. as i said, thank you for making another video. you have no idea how many people you’re helping to get better

[@claraharvey-hunt2016]

Remember that recovery is cumulative. Just because you weren’t shaking and crying whilst eating, doesn’t mean you haven’t done well- it’s actually proof that you ARE doing well and quietening the negative thoughts around food. A long distance runner won’t run a marathon every day 😚

[@marinachappell-pike3765]

We love you ELZANI. WE ALWAYS WILL

[@meganxoxo7472]

Make more videos please!!! I love watching your channel! I’m so happy you’re doing so much better! I’m glad you finally love to eat and you’re not trying to stay away from food! 💜💕💖💋

[@erikaschlegel3261]

you looked so happy in this video! and you weren’t too focused on the food!! amazing!! i was smiling the whole way through ☺️💖

[@chrisjaethey]

I’m so proud of how far you’ve come and are continuing to! Keep fighting ✌🏽

[@kamrynlazinbat3939]

LOVE YOU AND UR HELPFUL RECOVERY ELZANI!!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@HollyGrace90]

Try not to beat yourself up my sweet, you've done excellently and the imporvememts you're making are noticeable to everyone. Just remember that you're the only one who can put food in your body to create energy, all the decisions you make are all yours and not ED. They're all your thoughts and you do have control of them. Keep rocking this recovery girly because you've come so far from when I saw your first video. It's incredible! You've got my support all the way. You should read The Thrive Programme book, it will make so much sense to you and your ED. Lots of love xx

[@katansharif4180]

Petition to have Elzani be a club dj!! Balls rice very very nice is a jam tbh

[@laurahadwin2700]

Be careful with little habits Hun, you had a lot of sauce left after the ready meal, it's separating your food like that which keeps the ED behaviours going, but it can be incredibly difficult to get rid of the smaller ones

[@thepeacechannel7083]

Wow you are doing SO well! I have't watched one of your videos in a month or two and you seem SO much more relaxed around food these days. All of your hard work is paying off:)

[@fanetteguy1572]

Heya !! Super proud of you and seeing you grow mentally is amazing !! Just wanted to say when I was in my ED I had the same thing on my eyes it's called a Chalazion but it left on its own when I went on Holidays... Maybe ask your GP about it ? Lots of love and keep going angel xx

[@harmonyhope1709]

You did so well with the takeaway and the thoughts you had afterwards are completely normal. We want to do everything so perfectly and do recovery perfectly which is why we never feel good enough when we have challenged ourselves. It's a good sign that you're motivated to get better and want to do it well, but just because you didn't have loads of anxiety this time doesn't mean that you didn't challenge yourself enough, it's just that you are rewiring your brain and maybe the more you challenge things the less anxiety there will be. If you want to challenge yourself further though then there will always be another opportunity. Next time you have a Chinese, try a different dish or more balks💪 you got this xx

[@neleweisener8761]

Elzani! I haven‘t commented in a long time but I just feel you need to know that you are looking more and more beautiful with every video! And I feel like that‘s also because your character is starting to show more and more. You are amazing! Please keep going, keep fighting, you‘ll win your life back and do amazing things!✨

[@louisecochrane3738]

These new videos are amazing Elzani! You are engaging more in family time and living in the moment which is good to see. I like the style of this video and hope there are more. Love your channel :)

[@juliansgma]

Ohmygosh I love your mom’s energy! She’s absolutely beautiful!

[@harmonyhope1709]

Ha ha love the sushi faces 😆 also good to see you more relaxed around food with every video and see the relationship with your family improving too. Having more relaxing and fun times xx

[@meggardner7514]

you should make a recipe video with lots of the desserts and meals you’ve made on the channel!

[@darranbolas]

I adore your family x your all so loving and kind to one another and it's all real x

[@taliaaustin9818]

So happy to have another vlog I’ve just re watched your vids love you xxx and your family

[@aristahenriot7450]

I am proud of you and your achievement so far. The more you ignore the voice the more you move forward 💖 x

[@lexidanko2690]

I absolutely love all your vids but I ESPECIALLY loved this one for some reason! I'd love if you made a cooking video

[@OriginalOWL]

I know exactly what you mean, your brain trying to convince you that you did it wrong. You are doing amazing though I promise! You are an inspiration!

[@r.d.durfey5862]

Awww dear don't beat yourself up, your doing so very well. Hugs for you and your mom.

[@shellbysmith3479]

ELZANI WOW I AM SO PROUD OF YOU YOUR REALLY DOING IT THIS TIME YOUR MY INSPIRATION I AM STRUGGLING SO MUCH AND WHEN I SEE YOU GOING FOR IT AND DOUNG NORMAL THINGS IT GIVE ME THE PUSH I NEED .I NEED TO BORROW YOUR AMAZING FAMILY I DONT HAVE ANYONE REALLY AND TO HAVE A FAMILY LIKE YOURS IS A BLESSING KISS MOM GLAD SHE WELL AND YOUR DAD .GRAN AND SATARA AND ALISHA LOVE YOU ALL XXXXXOOO SHELLBY oh sorry but i cant forget leonardo blazey and brady i love animals too

[@alexkiker1509]

your mom is so pretty! and so are you

[@Karina_McMillan_Art]

I love your videos like this!! your positivity is so radiating !!!

[@victorianunez3348]

You inspire me to start eating again :), hopefully one day ill look as happy as you around food.

[@linnea8143]

Victoria Nuñez I can promise you that recovery is worth it! It’s amazing and even if it’s hard it will get easier as time goes by. I believe that you can do it, watch many inspirational recovery channels and set your mind that you can do it! Remember that you are never alone

[@victorianunez3348]

Linnéa thank u so much 😺

[@lilyisawesome9967]

The roll part and the chocolate teeth! LMAO :) :)

[@sophialurey5784]

Next time don’t try to choose one dessert over the other, why not just make a profiterole Sunday? 😁

[@smile-eq4fk]

I died when u said not just any rolls... Tesco rolls.💀💀 i was waiting for the M and S like😐

[@emilyjayne0112]

It’ll be so nice to see her not trying to make “perfect meals” all the time!!💛

[@linnea8143]

Every food you ate looked sooo delicious! Especially your moms food I mean she really seems like a good chef!💓

[@digitaldisaster1298]

And it's so nice to see y'all walking on the beach together

[@digitaldisaster1298]

This was honestly so inspiring to watch !

[@tammyramsden7414]

Yes SATARA! do Elzanis makeup!

[@ottaviazwillenberg3168]

You got me hooked on yoghurt!

[@deyaniraramos1396]

Love the dance lol. Aaawww...cute. Day 1- lunch- great, you had pizza🍕, conquering trying others foods, yaaas! Lol. Nice walk with Blazie baby!!! You guys seem cold ooh. Yeay I'm still watching love island too. Day 2- snack- thats a cute happy sushi face, did you use the sauce? Hope it was yum, I bet yosushi is going to be better, fresher.🍣 Dinner- wow yes! Congrats on the Chinese food 👍🖤 you did amaze🥡🍚. You were calmer and more willing of the challenge 👊🦋🌟 it always feels like that I bet, I know I do...it's never ever good enough with ED. Maybe next change it up but this day you did GREAT! 👍 At least Mom did it for you too. Such powerful words, inspiring. Day 3- brekkie- yaaaas no restrictions, seedy making Cereal time babe!!!!!🥣 Dinner- it's been a while seeing you have boxed yummy pizza. Changing it up, cool. No regrets. I also looove watching a fire too🔥, I use to have a fire place when I was younger, use to use it a lot...aawww,..I get it. Getting deep with Pops. Hehehehe. Day 5- looks like a nice day/morning. Blaze is so adorable, I really want one. Lunch- cheesy squeezy toasty! Dinner- toasty roasty hahahaha...nice fabulous.🥔 Some crunchy spuns. You got there. The pairing of that dinner always looks so perfect. Dessert- yaaas, keep up with the rewiring, I just got the book too,by Tabitha. Mom's number 1 number 1!!! Day 6- dinner- wow bolognaz!!!!! Been a while too... you did great !!! Looks fantastic too!🍝 She is great at cooking...you too. Day 7- dinner- oooh it seems amazing your choice, I'm proud of you for doing something new.🍛 Dessert- wow even dessert you had something different, oh fuck! Yaaaas, motivating, hahahaha Tesco forfeita tit rolls hahahaha. Sooo proud proud proud. Next day- Alisha's back!!!! The three beautiful lovely sistas hahahaha. Those are beautiful presents she got for everyone, how nice of her. Ooh book mark for your recent readings. They (cookies) look so dry but sweet like powdered donuts. Next day lunch- that looks tasty, the rice, I really do want to try that. Dessert- I'm proud for you that your allowing yourself to have the rest and sitting in a new spot you are doing this baby!!!! Next day- Alisha's hair looks beautiful on her. Next day lunch- with granddad- wow your doing spicy!!!!! 🌶️Wow!!!!! You washed that down after lol...that was hilarious lol, loved it. Butt ferry, what does that mean? Lol. Dinner- Greek risotto, I never had it too. It looks nice it really does but very squeeshy!!! Lol. Snack- oooh wow I was wanting you to try that one day, a partait with the granola, yougurt and fruit spread, yaaaaaas! You did incredible Elzani, sooo proud seeing you continue what you are doing to better your living experience now. I'm at aaaww...so touched, inspired, happy, tickled, in tears, shocked, amazed and constantly motivated by you. Your courageous, lovely, powerful truthful, honest, real and FUNNY I love it. Keep it up be yourself always 💯👊💪🤸💐🌟🦋🥇🎸📸

[@Rebecca-um5rz]

I haven't seen your videos for few weeks and you look fantastic! Keep fighting love from Italy

[@chloesjourney2015]

You should do the chocolate alphabet challenge, so for example have an aero for day when, then a bounty, so on xx

[@maripin3795]

Ahhhhh I heard Julia Micheal in the beginning and screeaemmmeeddd

[@PickyNiki]

You're doing great Elzani! Keep up the good work, you're such an inspiration! I've been watching your videos for a while now, and i just realized i wasn't subscribed! Aaaaaagh! I fixed it though!😊💗 bless you and your sweet family, doll!

[@elliecampbell8989]

Hey Elzani, im just starting recovery. Do you have any advice. You are such an inspiration and motivate me to get heathy again. keep fighting, you are doing amazing!

[@Remy4300]

Ellie Campbell I’m in recovery and a can give you advice I know you didn’t ask but I’ll let you know anyway xx Never give up even if you have a slip up just put that day behind you and start again recovery isn’t easy but it’s worth it and so are you x don’t listen to your thoughts do the opposite to every bad thought and when it’s difficult it’s just you killing your disorder x hang in there chick xx

[@jakiazhhabzgstaruiszjjzg3165]

Trust the process. Its 100% worth it

[@elliecampbell8989]

Amy K thank u so much

[@elliecampbell8989]

Amy K, how do u tell yourself that u have to eat a lot to recover and not feel bad about it, especially when it isn’t healthy?

[@linnea8143]

Ellie Campbell Hi! I know I can’t speak for her but I’ll just tell you from my experience. What helped for me was to watch inspirational youtubers like Elzani or Rebecca Leung to know that I’m not the only one. And for me, I just listened to my body and always told myself that I want to enjoy life as it is and never have to worry again. And of course, take one thing at a time, challenge yourself! I would always try to eat stuff I was afraid of and after some time, I could eat it without hesitation! I promise you that bloating and other mental problems will go away, as soon as you start eating normally the metabolism will speed and you can eat more without gaining as much weight as you would when you didn’t eat that much!

[@kayleigh2632]

we are all so proud of you too!

[@sabrinadamico8334]

If your were wondering about your eye it could be a stye or a chalazion I also had them

[@barli7153]

"it's called fashion...look it up"

[@twayland6186]

That pasta looked amazing

[@coreyjacq]

I’m living for ur smile 😊

[@tmknoyoutubeyeah2626]

Please come to Japan someday and try sushi again:)

[@junenovae]

Have you got any plan for the year to come? (13:35 maybe you should start a fashion channel hahaha )

[@quitadiva4235]

Love you Elzani!!! ❤❤❤❤

[@talissa3093]

Definitely agree that take away is too expensive! Would love to do a meet up with you Elzani..

[@sophiecrow5081]

Your smile is GORGEOUS!!!!!

[@louisapapadatos8632]

Your family is so beautiful🕊🌹

[@sophierichter6336]

You are such a great advocate and you are so wonderful ❤️!

[@cupcakekimmyy]

British takeaways are so weird to me haha. They seem like many cultures blended into one. It is not common to have hot chips with Chinese here, or satay which is for me a Thai/Indian food. Have you ever had Thai food? It’s so fresh and delicious.

[@hannahrr366]

All this foods allows so delicious 😍

[@annacatherine4941]

Well done, you're getting there! X

[@Olivia-ds4zt]

Love you so much 💞💞💞

[@daniellehinton7108]

I love the pizza there!!! 😍 I don't go there nearly enough though XD

[@rose-um1jt]

Omg so werid in the beginning of the video when you were all by the water, I was going to ask if it was in Cornwall, and then 19 min into the video, you ask your mom if you guys should go to Cornwall for summer!! 😂🌊🙈

[@nabiladib1186]

U look incredebly amazing 👏

[@katie1021dara]

You look amazing ! ❤️

[@Brokendreams77]

If you feel like you could of of done more than YES you probably can, which means next time have 5! And a few prawn crackers❤️ make an improvement each time 💖

[@christinak7524]

Greetings from Greece ❤️

[@junenovae]

Your black and white cocker spaniel (I guess) is sooo beautiful!

[@Remy4300]

June Novae Brady ☺️

[@uwuemo4263]

9:12 i feel this one...

[@claudialuna8739]

'you´re just red' lol

[@ferdinandfletcher1784]

Hi!! Great channel.

[@AbsoluteMAL]

Who doesn’t eat a sushi roll in one bite? 🤣