Citizen Soldier - Mess of Me (Official Lyric Video)

[@CitizenSoldier]

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[@johnvail9267]

Love this so much

[@CarolMarineMom]

ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!!! I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!😊💙💚💛🧡🤘🤘🤘🤘

[@Punkwashed_Bleach]

KZbin is broken. The songs was upload nine minutes ago but y'all put this comment up three hours ago? Nice job YT😂👌

[@DarkHazeVT]

🖤❤️🖤

[@bluecross9963]

You good? This seems like a call for help.

[@EyeTea]

“It’s okay, I’m alright Even though I’m dying inside” Whoever relates to this, it’s ok, you’re not alone.

[@CitizenSoldier]

True. We're in this together

[@JoshyYoshiAMV]

❤️❤️❤️

[@Asaylum117]

Same. That is basically my entire life.

[@izumimiyamura7216]

my pain my mess is my fuel my life will never be the normal but i'll keep moving forward

[@EyeTea]

Leone Kennedy That’s the spirit

[@EyeTea]

Whoever embraces the mess of you is a gift from Heaven.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for listening!

[@Red_Kliff]

Your right I think it's time I embrace my gift from heaven.

[@meediamongergamemodder2302]

amen n b greatful to god for them never take them for granted always make with them n put he pride on the altar for them cuz n a world of bullies n liers only a precious few will c the beauty behind the beast

[@Red_Kliff]

@@meediamongergamemodder2302 preach it brother!

[@meediamongergamemodder2302]

@@Red_Kliff thanx I will

[@cerberusdogs4379]

I feel like I'm on an emotional roller coaster with you guys..you're songs just relate and it really puts my feelings into words.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad you feel it friend. Much love

[@xceryxdemurstra6323]

These guys are amazing and yes they're songs do hit your heart like freight train. They're songs are some of the most relatable music I've ever found. They know how to put the way you feel into words.

[@nicom.9204]

Same man. As I saw the three at the start it rly hit me. The three has an important meaning to me.

[@GsOfApollo]

With you on this one dawg, so with ya

[@foxtail2139]

This song really does relate and I loved it.

[@t.m.8664]

"Don't let your secret out." .. "They'll never understand why I disappear, the voices that I hear, calling me into the darkness." ... "it's okay, I'm alright even though I'm dying inside." Honestly, this song seems as a really loud calling out for a help.. that no ones hears.. or wants to hear. Cuz everybody needs to be perfect, while we're secretly fighting our demons inside us. Every day.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Very well said.

[@shadowhawk4164]

Citizen Soldier I agree very well said

[@missinichols8419]

Deep! Xoxo

[@unknownmusiclover3903]

It also can help express the need to cry out for help but not being able to. I'm in that place right now.

[@alexisgartman9459]

@@CitizenSoldier I love your songs

[@panhead537]

I don't have depression, anxiety, PTSD, or anything similar. And I've never been physically, mentaly, verbally, or sexually abused. But I feel bad 4 people who have. Listen 2 this band even if U don't like metal. It just might save your life.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad you still enjoy the music.

[@shadowhawk4164]

True

[@christykelly5522]

Their music has saved me more than once.

[@lexusoyangwa6033]

It's not just might save, it saved mine

[@anthro124]

@PanHead 537 If you listen closely you can hear the truths of PTSD and depression inside these songs

[@elliemaej520]

What you say is so very true, the traumas we keep locked inside never fade away no matter how much we want them to. They are the voices in our head, the horrible thoughts you wish would just disappear but they dont. Every song you write is always so relatable every word is a part of how I feel inside. Following you guys and being a part of your community makes me feel like I'm never alone. Thank you so so much ♡⚘xx

[@CitizenSoldier]

Of course, thank you

[@johnhacker6045]

Elliemae... 💜

[@xceryxdemurstra6323]

No they don't... They never stop... They're always talking and they keep you up at night and they nag and claw and scratch at your mind and they make that ledge look so appealing, and one step. One step is all it would take to silence them... To finally make them shut up... So why can't I take it? Why is everyone so opposed to letting me finally rest and finally be free of this hell inside that tortures me daily... How is it fair that I have to feel this and suffer silently just so other people don't have to miss me... And if I try then I'm the selfish one for not considering how they would feel, but how are they not the selfish ones for making me have to live like this..? Why is it okay for me to hurt this badly just so everyone around me doesn't have to..?

[@elliemaej520]

@@xceryxdemurstra6323 :'(

[@xceryxdemurstra6323]

@@elliemaej520 sorry to reply so negatively. I've been fighting PTSD and depression for the last 24 years, and there's literally nobody in my life that understands how hard it is sometimes to stay away from that ledge. And the last few days I've been at a low in my struggle, lower then I've been in a long time. And your comment hit close to home because this band and almost every one of their songs explains my mind in ways I've never been able to find the words to do. And your sentence of "the horrible thoughts you wish would disappear" is EXACTLY one of the things I struggle the most with because they cause me insomnia and I barely sleep and when I do they still don't stop because they become my dreams, making any dream I do have a nightmare.. to the point I don't sleep deeply enough to even dream anymore. I haven't since I was a child. And when I do dream they're always nightmares...

[@xmissxmi3eryx]

I think everyone watching this is a mess behind the scene. But at least we can be a mess while listening to this

[@CitizenSoldier]

We like that Archangel! We're in this together 👊

[@nikolaseleftheriou1835]

I accidentaly pressed the dislike button. Sorry. But you are 100% right at what you said Archangel.

[@xmissxmi3eryx]

@@nikolaseleftheriou1835 it's okay😂

[@nikolaseleftheriou1835]

@@xmissxmi3eryx In which country do you live at?

[@shadowhawk4164]

Most likely true

[@deybios7869]

[The Lyrics] (My charade, my charade My grenade, my grenade My charade, my charade My grenade, my grenade) Stay on the inside Don't let your secret out Reveal the landslide That's always pouring Down, down like the rain Can you see me drownin'? Drifting away They'll never understand Why I disappear The voices that I hear Calling me into the darkness I'll breathe in, I'll breathe out So sick of holding it down When no one sees This mess of me It's okay, I'm alright Even though I'm dyin' inside I'm never free Of this mess of me I dance with demons Conceal this double life No rhyme or reason For the war behind these Eyes, don't get too close Do you see what I see? Haunting like a ghost I'm never free I'll breathe in, I'll breathe out So sick of holding it down When no one sees This mess of me It's okay, I'm alright Even though I'm dyin' inside I'm never free Of this mess of me This mess of me No, I'm never free My charade, my grenade I will lie for you I will follow you Until the end I'm ashamed, I'm afraid If they knew the truth Of my abuse What would they do? What would they do? My charade, my grenade If they knew the truth Of my abuse I'll breathe in, I'll breathe out So sick of holding it down When no one sees This mess of me It's okay, I'm alright Even though I'm dyin' inside I'm never free Oh, of this mess of me I'm never free Of this mess of me [What a NICE song]

[@blaketheythem]

Ty so much for typing the lyrics!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you for this :)

[@moraelity]

Thank you, I appreciate you writing the lyrics. I have slight epilepsy and I couldn’t watch the video due to it but I really wanted to the lyrics

[@blaketheythem]

@@moraelity I have epilepsy too

[@hopelewis5612]

Thank you! I have epilepsy too and couldn't watch the video 😁

[@kyomi_exe67]

“If they knew the truth about my abuse” I feel insignificant because hearing everyone else’s stories makes mine very small but as a kid I wasn’t abused by my family but I was abused but the kids at school for 7 years, one of the worst times was when we had to wait for our parents to pick us up and I was hiding from everyone and reading when about 20 kids blocked the exit to where I was hiding and when I tried to get out they kicked me back in. I was kicked, pucnched, slapped, pushed and had many basket balls thrown at my head. I’ve never really told anyone because there’s always someone who has it worse and I don’t want them to feel alone. But being bullied and hurt for 7 years really shaped who I am not really in the best way, I don’t know how to make friends and I have severe trust issues and separation anxiety due to my mom leaving for 5 years and still never caring about me, even saying when I told her I cut my legs “I don’t give a shit about your legs” it’s hard but I’m learning to deal with it and get used to it

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for sharing your journey Gacha 🖤 We hear you

[@christykelly5522]

Just because others have been through more or worse does not invalidate what you faced. It saddens me when people say that. Abuse is abuse, it hurts us, it scars us, it alters our perceptions of life and people forever sometimes. I know it did mine. Don't ever feel like you need to invalidate or somehow lessen what you went through by saying I know someone had it worse. 💜

[@mikeberry2154]

Stay strong Gacha. Remember that what goes around, comes around. and Karma gets us all back, for good or bad.

[@kathrinahorton6199]

I understand how you feel because I'm in a dark place right now, and I was self harm free for about 9 months and now I'm cutting again but I can't let my parents see cause then I'll be sent back to the psych ward for the 3rd time since I've been clean, I'm having suicidal thoughts and my parents aren't really helping by telling and screaming and beating me (almost on a daily bases) so yeah I'm scared, and u don't feel safe but my friends reassure me that I'm safe and ok and I try to believe them but it's hard whenever you can't trust people, I've lost 3 friends to suicide in the last 5 years so I have a hard time telling if my friends are ok or not because if I couldn't see the signs with the ones that committed suicide then how am I going to be able to tell if the ones I have now are going to be ok. I'm here if anyone needs to talk my snap is Kathrinah050107 please don't ask me for nudes or your getting reported and blocked

[@gothic_ace2037]

Kids you go to school with suck, I hated the school I went to for most of my childhood. I transfered away for a year before being transfered back... wish I had stayed at the other school, nearly 12 years of bullying will fuck you up hard mentally

[@danickale8469]

I’m an ER nurse 👩🏻‍⚕️. Been crying to myself a lot lately. This song is how I feel during this quarantine time. Have to push all the mess inside and work to save lives. Don’t let anyone see the mess inside... 🥺 Thanks for the music, helping to keep me sane. 🎼❤️

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you SO much for your service. You’re a hero. 🖤

[@danickale8469]

Citizen Soldier ❤️❤️❤️

[@49854]

im an x ray tech and i about lost my mind seeing all the death, hang in there.

[@danickale8469]

@@49854 Thanks! You do the same… ❤️💪

[@kingfroggy2425]

"If they knew the truth of my abuse" ive been physically abused as a child growing up. Then i started to overdose, smoke and drink until i went flat out broke cause things went overboard. The toll it takes mentally, physically, emotionally, psycologically and on overall health, i started to snap and got angry and began to lash out and physically abuse the people i love. Now im 2 years clean, thanks to you guys for the comfort and hope in your songs and my friends who never stopped trying to help me.✊👍👌

[@CitizenSoldier]

proud of you for working through that. Much love and respect

[@iXore]

We've been through pretty Similar things bro, don't give up even if its hard :)

[@kingfroggy2425]

@@iXore i wont bro, not when ive come this far. I wont let down the people that stood by me and helped me. Keep our heads up and keep pushing forward

[@iXore]

@@kingfroggy2425 nice I'm supportin ya too, goodluck

[@GsOfApollo]

Proud of you man, sounds like you managed to crawl out from the depths of literal hell. I completely get ur struggle, cuz im goin thru it rn. Love ya brother

[@buddietaz1397]

I needed this so badly today. Life’s been continually beating me to the ground these last couple of months. Everything I learned to enjoy got ripped out from underneath me and today I found out that my state’s marching band competition got canceled for this year. My band is literally what I’ve been living for and now that this marching season is canceled I don’t know what I’m going to do. Just thank you so much for releasing this song today specifically.

[@cookiechan1253]

I feel u..

[@tazwarishmamsufi1399]

i hope everything comes up nice for you

[@CitizenSoldier]

So sorry to hear that friend. Hope we can offer some comfort in this time

[@georgelongcoal1117]

Good luck!

[@mayflyrose8195]

I feel you. For us it was our drama representations from March to the last one in May that were canceled.. It sucks but we'll get through it don't worry!

[@miguelbaide1309]

I have been listening to this band for over a year. When this band becomes super famous (because I know it will be), I will remember it's beautiful beginnings

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for the continuous support!

[@GsOfApollo]

The inevitable. Hyde in the shadows, strategize n prophetsize. Not even a mob could keep us down, sent from above. The answer lies in the love that unite us.

[@alyssaoliver222]

I found this band by accident. Honestly my music taste is a little harder. I have to say the lyrics to your music cuts deep for my father. He's almost 40 and when he listens to your music it breaks him. Such a strong man crying his eyes out because of your music. He was mentally and physically abused as a child and all of your music really touches home for him. It's like your music is the soundtrack to his childhood. It's incredible.

[@peterludwig4599]

At the moment this hits harder than it should.

[@coolnegative]

Screaming for anyone to see, But scared to death that someone might.

[@CitizenSoldier]

What a cool lyric!

[@coolnegative]

@@CitizenSoldier thank you. It was inspired by yours.

[@thecrew2773]

My life

[@coolnegative]

@@thecrew2773 mine too. Honestly my faith has been the only thing to keep me in this world at times. Even though I still struggle every day. I finally have hope. I am not a preachy person, but you might wanna look into it, but dont listen to the fake, rich, hypocrites on tv. I just started reading the bible for myself, but I've found some cool resources with Head (Korn's guitar player), and some other Metal artists who have been through it. Alice Cooper is another good one. Anyway, the choice is yours. If you're cool with it, I will put you in my prayers for emotional healing and some hope to hold on to. God Bless my friend. Please dont quit..........

[@thecrew2773]

@@coolnegative I'm cool with you doing so, not many people that ik of pray for me or think of me at all so that makes me feel special. The only that's kept me going is the fact if I give up it will only hurt those I care about and I don't want to do that. It's always so lonely, one minute I think I have a good friend the next it's like nothing and they've moved on. I've been waiting my whole life for someone to find me and actually care but I haven't had the best luck. If it's ok with you is there anyway that we could contact each other bc you seem pretty cool.

[@elliemaej520]

I'm sorry it's long I just wanted to try write something to say what your music and you as a band mean to me and to everyone here, I hope it doesn't sound silly.. C..is for Courteous, you are gracious and considerate. I.. is for Illustrious, you are respected and admired for all that you do. T.. is for Tender, a true gentle soul I.. is for Inspirational, motivating people for the better. Z.. is for Zealous, brimming with enthusiasm and dedication to every song you write. E.. is for Exceptional, you are simply outstanding. N.. is for Noble, a band with a truly honorable heart 🖤 S.. is for Sacred, a dear treasure. O.. is for Open-hearted, you are filled with generosity, kindness and always willing to listen. L.. is for Laudable, your accomplishments are most commendable. D.. is for Delightful, your company through your music is much enjoyed. I.. is for Illuminating, always brightening people's lives. E.. is for Earnest, your sincerity shines R.. is for Radiant, you are our shining light through the darkest times of our lives, you give hope to those that need it most ♡⚘xx Music is and will always be my escape from the horrible things in my head, you've shown that things can get better and that we have to find the strength to keep fighting. Some days it is really hard to keep going but we do. Thank you Citizen Soldier and once again I'm sorry it's a lot to read ♡⚘xx

[@CitizenSoldier]

This made our night. Thank you so much. You taking the time to write this meant the world. Much love to you

[@elliemaej520]

@@CitizenSoldier no you don't have to thank me it's a way of thanking you for everything you do, for being there for not only me but for everyone here, you are so special in so many ways. You guys deserve so much. Lots of love to all of you ♡⚘xx

[@laurazucchiatti8761]

Wow 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

[@Nocteul]

This deserves the comment of the year award

[@elliemaej520]

Thank you so much@@Nocteul I'm happy with just Citizen Soldier seeing it and replying, to me that is an award in itself xx

[@HerondalesAngel]

Once again you guys prove you are the best at sending inspirational messages in your songs and this was so worth the wait, thank you thank you for all you do love you guys so much ❤ you are all amazing xxxxxx

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means so much. Thank you :)

[@shadowhawk4164]

So agree

[@garrett9562]

@@CitizenSoldier I've said this one but ill say it again. Yall are so underrated its unbelievable. But please keep making music for the people thats lost in this world including myself. Your music truly helps

[@iguess4629]

This hit me right in the feels. This one song summed all of the emotions I'm hiding from people. Thank you, please keep making awesome music

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much 🖤

[@---rh2gv]

yesterday was this song's anniversary, and i just had to come back here to tell you guys that it's still one of my favourite ones, despite the time that's passed and the times that i've listened to it. thank you very much for what you're doing for us.

[@nk-dvm]

I've been listening to this piece for almost 8 hours straight now - it's amazing & I can't get enough of it, as per usual. Very representative of the demons a lot of us carry inside & fight against on a daily basis. Thank you guys! 🖤 You were so right at the beginning when you said that this album is something special. Can't wait to hear the rest of it. 🤘🏻 🖤

[@CitizenSoldier]

So honored to hear that. Thank you so much

[@Nocteul]

This is the only thing ive been listening to for the past 2 days

[@john3747]

This song I've listed to it the whole day today

[@Werka20029]

I'm so thankful for your songs. When I hear them I finally feel like someone understands my pain, seriously. It's so good to feel like you're not alone with everything and there is someone who actually know what you're going through. Thank you so much and please, keep doing what you're doing.

[@northembersdream8909]

10 seconds into this song I'm already in love in this! I haven't stopped your music while typing this and I have to say, this lyrics is so deep! Well done, Citizen Soldier! You've created another masterpiece 🖤

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you :)

[@argo6391]

These songs always hit my feelings. I can relate way too well, please don't ever stop

[@CitizenSoldier]

We don’t plan to stop. Thank you 🖤

[@xthejackaboyx1434]

This song was needed... Going through a lot right now... Loss of friends, Presure of being perfect, Discrimination... Right now i want to crawl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep.... I just want to sleep and stay asleep. Thank you guys for your music! Its whats been keeping me alive for the past year! I dont know what I would do without you guys! Thx!

[@CitizenSoldier]

You’re not Alone. Much love ❤️

[@Hello_Cherry]

Somehow this song is exactly what I needed to hear tonight. I've been struggling with how or when or if I even should tell my partner and my brother and the family members who don't know, what happened to me that made me the way I am. How broken I am. It's simultaneously easier and harder to keep that trauma secret. Very few people know about it, and not every person who does has been the most understanding, ('why aren't you over it by now?'), but this song understands me. Thank you so much for creating it.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So happy that it helped you to hear. Much love

[@majesticdreams240]

I get it. I finally came clean with mine a month ago or so and I know it’ll get a little worse before it can actually get better. I highly recommend reaching out. I know how scary the unknown is but initially keeping it inside will only continue to break you down more and more as time progresses. I told mine on impulse because the pain got so unbearable to the point of my sanity basically crippling to nothing. It won’t be easy. And there’s truly no telling when it’ll get better or how others will react. But depending on your situation, whether it was a person or a certain event, letting it eat away at you won’t do you any good. I believe in you, you are very strong. Thank you for existing. You deserve to find peace 💖

[@shadowhawk4164]

I hope your doing better

[@reaperofsouls5416]

Thank you for highlighting the abuse that people go through in their life. No one should face this alone. Just remember you always have someone to hold onto and believe in. Citizen soldier for life

[@CitizenSoldier]

We agree! Thanks for sharing 👊

[@DoctorLoveSr]

76 year old veteran who served 44 years in the US military from May 05th, 1958 to December 01st, 2002. Widower of both my first wife who died December 01st, 1963 and my second wife who died Tuesday night August 07th, 2018 and have been battling my own daemon's that torment me from my childhood and military career up to now. This song definitely fits a lot of us who are struggling daily.

[@ivanbump2544]

This song represents me and my mental state and you guys put it in words and you guys have helped me throw very hard times and my mental state

[@Altair6263]

I saw the title and expected something like "would anyone care"... You completely surpirsed me with this and i LOVE IT. Keep on going Guys, you're doing really great work!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear it was a good surprise! 👊

[@_Nyxus_]

I'd LOVE a shirt with "My charade, my grenade" on it. Like good hell, that's such a good line right there. It explains so much so well in only four words. Love all of your music

[@CitizenSoldier]

That’s a great idea! Will keep that in mind. Thanks :)

[@tatsukinomiya]

This whole album is a work of emotional ART!!! The heavy rifts, the soul filled vocals, the soft tracks, and just overall RELATABLE LYRICS!!! Glad my Spotify recommended this song, album and band!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate that 🖤

[@100spookyskelly]

If they knew the truth they would never stop talking about it, if they knew our mess they would never stop trying to clean it up, but we don’t want them to help, we want to do it ourselves. Amazing song guys, a banger as always!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much :)

[@racheal6358]

How is it every single song speaks to my soul?! I am so freaking glad i found you guys!!! ❤💙❤💙

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad you found us too. Much love Rachel 🖤🙏🏻

[@GrayIsNotHere]

I stayed awake until 2am for this... Don't regret it And I love you guys, you're probably the only people I try being early for lol

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means so much. Thank you

[@the_durkinator4506]

You guys always find a way to make music that speaks to my heart. This song is how I see my depression, anxiety, PTSD, low-self esteem, and other possible mental illnesses. I haven’t been a fan for that long, but this song and “Would Anyone Care” have solidified my presence in the fandom. I’m a Citizen Soldier fan for life. You guys rock. ❤️

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means the world to hear. Thank you friend. Stay strong 💪🏻

[@sanctuslupus913]

If I’m gonna be honest, this band is one of the ones that inspired me to write out my poems as songs now to hopefully one day sing them and actually make them into songs. Thanks for the help with lots of your songs Citizen Soldier

[@CitizenSoldier]

You are so welcome :)

[@selosxarabyss4811]

I don't ever really post comments. But I really think this band needs way more popularity. Iv been dealing with deep depression since iv been taken off work due to health issues. Seemed like just as I was getting somewhere in life my health sets me back. The pain from my health one thing but the pain you feel emotionally is brutal. And how much you just keep inside trying not to let them get the best of you. Feeling like you let everyone down. Your workplace and your loved ones. This bands music has helped me so much in dealing and so many people out there like me. Keep doing what you do Citizen soldier. Cause what you do is save lives

[@CitizenSoldier]

That is so kind. Thank you so much. It really means the world to us.

[@Leanthir.]

I don't know how you do it, but you always have a good timing with songs for my life situations. Thanks to your songs, I'm still mentally alive .

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad they help you. Much love to you 🖤🤘🏻

[@sarahjensen6440]

This song describes exactly how I felt about my self harm before my parents found out. It was really scary... Thank you for fantastic music🖤

[@HJ-kf7zn]

I know we don't know each other, but you're never alone.

[@sarahjensen6440]

@@HJ-kf7zn Thank you 🖤

[@CitizenSoldier]

You are so welcome. 🖤🤘🏻

[@draycoo_764]

I love how you guys make you’re songs so powerful, and also emotional in a combination that fits most people so perfectly!

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means a lot. Thank you :)

[@draycoo_764]

I think you guys are the only ones we can thank by making the songs for us!

[@azzahrrenayala3366]

This entire band has me in so many places emotionally. I want to scream i want to cry I want to live. Thank you for putting relatable music out it makes me live. When it when for "Down Down like the rain" I literally head banged so hard. Omg i could barely sleep last night waiting. And now its here!

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad it didn’t disappoint. Much love to you :)

[@daylam4856]

This song is so relatable. I can relate to a lot of the lyrics and this song is my favorite because of it, but I think what I relate to most is "I'm never free of this mess of me"

[@InnocentSweetie123]

Oh man, these songs never cease to amaze, as per usual. The dynamic vocals and the passionate instrumentals really pull this song together. It’s all so emotional, and good heavens, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t able to relate to this song! It’s honestly so relatable.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad you feel it on that level :)

[@Bogbabe77]

As someone whos dealing with abuse n trauma this song makes me wanna cry. All of your guy's songs are such a joy even if their not "happy" songs. You guys put all the stuff into words i cant or im to scared to. Love you guys so much 💙💙 (also dope animation babes)

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you very much :)

[@popescuflorian3033]

1 sec into The song and i already like it As always its a masterpiece!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much friend :)

[@pepsiconcola1974]

Every song you make it's just a masterpiece. The way you can carry these feelings and thoughts to the people is simply invaluable. Thanks for existing.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you :) that means the world

[@Ramy_Lm]

This song made my sad because i realized that your band deserves more fame and respect All love for the you guys 🔥👍

[@Dcandmarvelfangirl]

You guys are the most reliable band ever and I love it

[@davidminzes9886]

This gives me absolute chills, is so damn good. I have one person who actually sees it, and instead of running, instead of hiding, she'll ask to walk through the hell in my head, and as she does she brings me peace like nothing else

[@CitizenSoldier]

You’re not alone, much love :)

[@caleb5186]

Another wonderful song and another song added to my playlist

[@CitizenSoldier]

We're honored to be on your playlist. Thanks Caleb! 👊

[@Quince85]

Beautiful, just like all of their songs! It is relatable and inspiring to keep going on in life. I love the message of this band and it stands for. It is truly a light in this dark world!

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad you enjoy it. Much love 🖤

[@osobliwy4570]

Omg guys it's just NOT possible for you to dissapoint anyone with your music srsly... u are just guardians of my emotions i love it!

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means so much. Thank you :)

[@_dumb.emo.gxrl_]

"its ok, im alright, even though im dying inside" This hits hard.......

[@TheShowstopper115]

These last couple months have been so hard. I’ve felt so lost and confused, and dealing with a lot of mental conflict and anxiety. And I swear it’s like your guys music is what helps me to relate, and stay on track of things. Every song seems like it speaks directly to things I’m going through. I can’t thank you enough for giving me music and lyrics that explain better what I don’t think I ever could. Keep up this amazing work, I’m so glad to have found this group

[@CitizenSoldier]

Stay strong friend, we're in this fight together and we know you can make it through. We're so happy to hear our music can put into words the struggle you face, and we love knowing it helps. 🖤

[@TheShowstopper115]

Citizen Soldier Thank you so much! You guys really are the best

[@just4me754]

I've been waiting for this song to come out since you posted the pre-save notice. And I have to say it didn't disappoint. I'm always amazed at how accurately you portray the situations in your songs, and I have to say they always come at the times when I'm just about ready to give up. But somehow, I keep finding the strength to go on knowing that someone else understands the feelings and thoughts running through my head. So thank you--for the beautiful music and for the hope.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Honored that you felt it friend. appreciate you so much.

[@just4me754]

@@CitizenSoldier No matter the song, I always feel something so relatable with your music. And I'm sure I speak for many when I say how much I appreciate that you take the time to respond to everyone's comments as well. 💕 I can't wait to hear the rest of the album!

[@AleignaJC]

This song is one of many of yours that describes my feelings. I've stopped telling people around me how I truly feel because I feel ashamed to be an adult who feels so hopeless

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you Aleighna 🖤

[@pandoraswar]

Man these always hit so close to home. I hope everyone reading this has a good day. Love yall, we got this. It can be tought but even the roughest oceans has calm spots. 💙

[@CitizenSoldier]

[@ladyonyx3811]

Listening to this band while writing my novel. This speaks volumes not just for my main character but for me. C-PTSD is a thing. Most people who meet me have no idea the war behind these eyes or the demons I fight daily. Thank you for your music. With these songs, I might be able to one day share my pain with the world through my novels. Maybe one day there will be a day I can finally let the charade drop and step out into the light. Much love to all who feel the same.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Proud of you for trying to share those difficult things. Good luck with your novel friend 🖤🙏🏻

[@ladyonyx3811]

@@CitizenSoldier Thank you. I'm not broken, just scarred. But one day I'll turn that pain into something beautiful and inspirational. Your music has helped tremendously with writer's block. Take care.

[@Anthony.Paris.]

@@ladyonyx3811 that me know when your novel is done i'll read it

[@wrath0fheaven]

Listen to this song almost 2-3 times a day and with dealing with bipolar 2 for over 26 years this song is so amazing and hits all the things I have gone through. Keep up the amazing work this song has literally become my most favorite song ever.

[@CitizenSoldier]

That’s not an easy fight. Proud of you. Stay strong 🖤🙏🏻

[@Convify]

2:08 that transition into a haunting melody with such a haunting atmosphere, such a good transition, you can feel the emotion, i love that section you guys should 100% do more sections like that whole song was done very well but that's definitely the stand out amazing job and a hell of a way to end a song!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much. So glad you like it :)

[@realdooms3832]

This is the first one of your releases ive caught. I found you all with would anyone care, and it helped me through some dark times. So im glad to hear another song that speaks to the heart. Thank you.

[@CitizenSoldier]

You are so welcome. Much love to you friend

[@ZacharyHawkshaw]

The fact that so many songs with similar subject matter (trauma, suicide, depression, anxiety, etc.) are so relatable to so many people is almost depressing, because a great deal of pain is just so common and well understood, but so few want to talk about it... To those who are reading this, who are in pain, please talk to someone about it. You don't need to fight the battles alone, and it's okay to let people in to help you heal, and never forget that you are loved. Another thank you to Citizen Soldier for another exceptional song, for yet another song that everyone needs to hear. Some heroes wear capes, others wear uniforms, but heroes like yourself compose and perform amazing music that deserves to top the charts.

[@CitizenSoldier]

It’s hard to talk about, but needs to be. Much love to you friend 🖤

[@memawburks7078]

Citizen soldier is a great outlet when everyone expects you to pretend everything's ok. It's great to be able to listen to them it's as tho they speak for me .

[@ade684]

I don't know if anyone will read this but I just wanna share it and continue listening to this amazing song. I was always bullied by people around me. For some reason, no one tried to be friends with me, or talk to me like I'm a normal person. I was always lonely and developed anxiety and depression throughout my life, feeling useless, worthless, nothing but someone who doesn't deserve to live and feeling like I'm disappointing even the people that doesn't know me. I don't know what Am I living for, why do I continue and why was I born in the first place? I feel like my place isn't here, that I'm not worth to even breath but when I think of dying, leaving everything behind, I'm scared. I'm scared of making my family suffer when it's all my fault I feel like this. Truth is, no one wants to die for real, we just want to feel happy, just a little time when we don't have to worry about every little thing, when we don't have to cry and feel guilty, when we would smile and be happy. We just want everything to be over, either the loss of someone or the feeling of being wortless because the people around you don't care at all, we all have scars we just can't forget. I always thought I'm alone, but I see so many people sharing stories and realize I'm not the only one and maybe I'm not someone who can say this but just... don't give up. Even if you feel like there is no tomorrow, like your world is crashing down and you have no place to hide, there are always better times and a good future that is waiting for you, you just have to be strong and face the world, cry if you want, do things that at least used to give you happiness and find someone to listen to you. It's always gonna be something for you, so... Believe in yourself, in the person you are and try to love yourself! ❤ I may not know you, but I love you, I know you're a strong person, a kind and amazing person and can do everything you dream for!

[@tomaszgWauW]

❤️❤️😊

[@Cappo1710]

Back at you fuck the bullies

[@jadewolfie9310]

Every new song of Citizen Soldier is my new favorite song ❤

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means the world to us. Thank you :)

[@shadowhawk4164]

I agree so true

[@trynotdying6599]

Yes!!!! I'm so happy! I've been looking for other songs but this will definitely beat all the others I found recently.

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means so much. Thank you friend

[@sharonperez5011]

I love it. I come from a long struggle with my inner demons. You guys rock. Not one song I've heard that I don't love.

[@CitizenSoldier]

That is so good to hear. Thank you :)

[@grimmasaurusrex5157]

I have never clicked on a video so fast- Citizen Soldier is one of my all time favorite bands, especially with how meaningful the lyrics to their songs are.

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means a lot. Thank you so much 🖤

[@grimmasaurusrex5157]

@@CitizenSoldier No problem! 😁

[@Serenity_93]

"The voices that I hear, calling me into the darkness" this lyric hit my heart so hard.. this just became one of my top favourite songs 🎵 you guys killed it as always!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much Heather. You’re the best :)

[@xmissxmi3eryx]

Damn I really like the riff in this one. As always the lyrics are relatable. I hope this song blows up and more people discover this, it's amazing

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much!

[@PunzieFlower]

Everytime I listen to your music I feel like I finally found something that helps explain how I truely feel. It's so nice to finally be able to listen to something I can relate to on a personal level and it actually helps me feel better!

[@CitizenSoldier]

So happy to hear you feel the message. Thank you so much for supporting us 🖤

[@atomicr4y472]

You guys manage to be a constant source of inspiration and hope in my life.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Honored to hear that. Sending love 🖤🤘🏻

[@thelonelyrwby3909]

Wow...That hit me like a truck "When you keep your trauma a secret, it owns you." That's bloody powerful and makes me rethink my choices of keeping my problems to myself.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Shame kills. Opening up saves lives 🖤

[@rorysirag2853]

God you guys have been KILLING it with your more recent songs, every time I see something new coming out from you guys I get a mix of excitement and just utter peace that I'll have something to listen to that's real. Something that I can feel and Actually makes my heart beat

[@CitizenSoldier]

That makes my day to hear! Thank you :)

[@sendrex6762]

I have been feeling lonely here lately due to a break up that happened three months ago and y’all’s songs help me through it.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad it helped. 🖤🤘🏻

[@rogueshadow---5894]

Citizen soldier had grown so much since I first started listing to them and I’m so happy and proud for them! Love y’all so much. Thanks for the music that helps so much. 🙏❤️❤️ love ~Ashlynn

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love to you 🖤🤘🏻

[@imwastingtimehere6453]

This is BY FAR, my favorite band.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much 🖤🤘🏻

[@Sarah-du7vy]

I’ve listened to many songs with these topics and I’ve finally found someone who understands. No one sees, no one knows, and I want them too but I also can’t let them. I’m so afraid people do or will see me the way that I see myself. But sometimes I wish there was just ONE PERSON who hated me more than I hate myself. That way I wouldn’t be alone in that too

[@marzouqkhan4753]

Heard the song at least 30 times by now. I LOOOOVVVEEEE it. It's basically on loop.

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means so much. Thank you 🖤🤘🏻

[@hearts4livi]

Listen, i *just* came across this band, and i'm SO OBSESSED with the voice and the guitar! Already completely inlove with this band.

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means a lot. Thank you 🖤🙏🏻

[@konatomurima2230]

I used to keep all of my pains and secrets inside before I found the one that would stay by my side. He silences my demons and reminds for just a moment that everything is going to be okay in the end. My past keeps trying to pull me back under, but he keeps me not just above the water but high in the skies. This song reminds me of the older days, when I didn't have him and the beginning where I was too terrified to tell him a thing about the war I waged inside my head. It's another masterpiece; I am never disappointed when I come to listen to a new song that you guys release. Keep up the great work. This is going straight onto my Spotify playlist and being stuck onto repeat for the next while. ♡

[@CitizenSoldier]

Proud of you. Stay strong. Much love ❤️

[@StViciousVampire]

I found your music randomly on KZbin a couple months ago after I had a nervous breakdown when I developed Agoraphobia among other things. Your music has gotten me through so much in only short amount of time, and you are quickly becoming my favorite band. I don't know how, but its like your music always describes how I'm feeling inside perfectly. Thank you for existing and for doing what you do. You're AWESOME!

[@Asmentor]

This song speaks so much of how I've been feeling for months. You guys are truly incredible. I love your music, please don't ever stop.

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means a lot. Thank you :)

[@morningstarintheabyss2309]

It's truly a completely perfect art made by you ! I love the way you use these messages in your art and music in harmony to make us all relate to your songs! you are helping all of us with your art, hope you grow bigger and bigger, you deserve much more !!

[@CitizenSoldier]

We are working hard to deserve that support 🖤

[@Kelpweed]

This voice will always captivate me. Thank you for using this voice for something deep and real ❤ I'm grateful for all of you. Never would understand how much it can help.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that Kelsey 🖤

[@theodreer1356]

Wow. I just can't believe it. This song it... It was almost as if my heart had started beating again thanks to it. I am so sad that no one can understand my own thoughts, not even me, and now, i know. You guys do not understand too. Thank You. For still being here for us.

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad it helped. Much love 🖤

[@grimhaunt8837]

In these times, we need your music more than ever. I hope you understand the impact you guys are having on peoples lives. please don't stop producing this audio therapy

[@CitizenSoldier]

We won’t. Thanks for supporting us :)

[@dylanlomax2382]

Grew upon nothing but Country and Classic rock stumbled across this and now I can't stop finding awesome and relatable songs. Love it

[@CitizenSoldier]

So glad you like it! Glad you found us Dylan :)

[@jas17p]

I found your song "Would Anyone Care" the other day and since have fallen in love with this band! And now a new song. I get lots of Red/Skillet vibes and I love it! Your songs have brought me a lot of happiness... I'm thankfully in a better place mentally most days, but your songs are so relatable and I only wish I would have found you sooner. Better late than never though.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Welcome to the family, so happy you found us! 🖤

[@seasea7872]

Haha, same here. Literally exactly me. I found them through "Would Anyone Care"

[@lilianaandreeaschiau6376]

Every song you make hit right in the heart. Your music is our feelings, the words we can't say out loud. You are our voices and we are thankful for that. Just listening to this song make me realize how many people feel the same, how many people need someone to talk for them. And for me, your lyrics are my words that I fear to say out loud. You are my favourite band ever and my voice at the same time. Thank you~ Also, let's take a minute and appreciate THE ART! It's amazing!

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means so much honestly...thank you from the bottom of our hearts! :)

[@Ms.Kriddle]

The devastation parents do to their children is so overwhelming and overlooked. Our kid's PAY THE PRICE FOR OUR ACTIONS. So to you parents out there who are wondering "why's MY kid acting out " or depressed or suicidal etc...take a good hard look at yourselves in the mirror. The same thing goes for bullies. You're all feeling the same way inside as the people you pick on. Please go get some help, you're broken too.

[@ZK-nb3cq]

This band never ceases to amaze me, keep it up.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you friend :)

[@AshTheLampshade]

Not only is this extremely relatable, but it's also beautifully composed, I love you Citizen Soldier.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much. Appreciate you :)

[@y.5507]

Love every second of this song. Honestly, it all hits home. The art in the back just adds to it. Love y'alls music! 🖤

[@CitizenSoldier]

That means the world! Thank you :)

[@aidee4186]

Just the start is already epic!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Excited to hear your thoughts on the rest!

[@nkki8573]

AMAZING SONG AS ALWAYS!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much friend

[@Yael-em6go]

Sometimes I feel like I'm going to give up, that I want to leave everything behind and just disappear, but songs like this and people who support me make me feel like my pain is worth it

[@snoepje_love]

it's so great how you show and show your feelings in your songs that's great, but remember you're not just honey ❤

[@CitizenSoldier]

🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

[@snoepje_love]

@@CitizenSoldier I love you so much Citizen Soldier you're one of the persons who really knows how I some times feel and I feel the same for you Love You so much #CitizenSoldierForever ❤