DAYS OF EATING PROPERLY PART 2 - CHIPS, WRAPS + SOME VERY GOOD SNACKS - ANOREXIA RECOVERY

Mother's Day! Mum is the greatest person ever and I am so lucky to have her, I don't know how she is so happy and strong, she always makes every situation a good one, and every person smile.
Egg, bacon, beans and toast.
Had a very chilled day, went for a walk and Blaze loved getting alllll the sticks! Satara made Mum an amazing card, I tried some new spread on tiger bread yum, and we got chips for dinner (omg not a roast yeah I know crazy!) which was a challenge, I had battered chips as well as normal! Also because I felt I annoyed people before so then it was easier for my head to mess with me well GO AWAY ED I ATE THE CHIPS AND HAD A HUGE SNACK lol editing is cringe but it even makes me think ok I cried but I am doing better than before, I am realising each time I panic that it is so silly and am able to then think realistically and it is hard but awesome!
A little talk whilst eating my biscoff bagel.
Monday was the day of the dinner that changed things. I didn't video anything all day on Monday but tried super hard and had a really good dinner, a proper portion, and before dinner I knew it would be hard but a great achievement and turning point so I decided to film it. I thought I hadn't done well because I cried, but that isn't true. Dad talked to me about it, and I didn't do badly or 'fail', I did so well, and I am glad! I am learning from every challenge and achievement, every success and hardship!
(also I have a bit of tissue on my nose the whole time lol hello supportive tissue thank you so much x)
On Tuesday I tried hot milk with cereal for the first time (so crazy), all bran! Mum said she used to have it a lot so I thought let's give it a go!
Made my first ever wrap for lunch it was DIVINE! Went into town and popped to co op, and got some food and yes wow I actually ate the food the same day!! I had a Marshmallow rice krispies square then wondered if chocolate was nicer...
cottage pie for dinner was amazing of course and duh I scraped the bowl, Blaze was being super cute as usual all evening and thennnn Mum and I did a TASTE TEST! Tried the Eat Natural bars, which are such a huge fear and I remember years ago wanting one and Mum loved them but I wouldn't have one, NUTS AND SEEDS AND JUST OMG IT WAS SO GOOD! And....... DIVINE CHOCOLATE! Literally - it is called Divine!
Hope you like the vid, a bit random just a vlog really filled with good food and good times and lessons and life!
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[@Ella-ps1lg]

There's something about your demeanour when eating that has really changed. Less hesistant, more easy and relaxed. You suddenly look like a normal eater - even though I know you don't always feel it. Love watching your progress so much. x

[@maiajasmine3266]

I wouldn’t go as far as to say normal, she still stalls a lot and cuts a lot of bits out and to say she looks like a normal eater could be a bit triggering as she still has a long way to go & improvements to make but overall I agree there’s a big difference! X

[@ArtBySoup]

I’m so so happy you’ve accepted you need to gain weight! That night snack looked awesome, and so did most of your meals! Keep pushing yourself, remember every choice you make is one for recovery or your ED

[@mia.nxlson1494]

Anyone else think she seems so much more alive, bubbly and has so much more personality. I feel like we are really starting to see who’d she really is and get to know her. She seems so much more like herself

[@lucymarie6413]

agreed!!!xx

[@celestialudenberg6966]

Yeah! Makes me so happy watching her progress ❤️

[@Ohdeerohman]

Only a couple minutes in but this is already a HUGE improvement for you! I can tell something clicked within you. We’re so so proud of you. Keep fighting!

[@phiakrygowski3124]

your dads words are golden. keep them forever. please remember that each and every subscriber is rooting for you. we accept and support you wholeheartedly with everything you do. keep going 💪🏼

[@harrietjackson8655]

Elzani you're allowed to freak out and cry, recovery is hard. The important thing is that no matter how much you freak out and cry you still eat the food that's scary/do the things that scare you ❤️

[@pouriaabadsafian]

*CHANGE THE WAY YOU THINK* "Recovery is a process. You're gonna have difficult days... You haven't failed when you've had a difficult day." - Dadzani

[@Carrot880]

Yes! This is what my therapist shared with me: You might have to fool yourself a little at first, fake it till you make it. If you are feeling nervous and are freaking out, just say to your self: I am very very excited and amped! How your body reacts to those feelings are very close together, it is how your mind perceives the situation.

[@Charleyyx14]

Proud of you :D the clip of your mum reading the card made me cry :D she is amazing! greetings from Germany :)

[@gemma3099]

Yes Elzani! Whenever you think “this is too much”, that’s exactly when you know you’re eating enough, because it’s quantity over quality right now for you! So proud

[@lealove707]

Gem L It's not always like that... She might think that a little strawberry is too much and when she eats just this one fruit, then that isn't enough :(

[@gemma3099]

Jagodania this is generally speaking, not taking everything literally. I think Elzani would know in her heart that one strawberry wasn’t enough!:)

[@marad786]

"I can't imagine being normal" oof I felt that one 💙

[@throughrose-colouredeyes6284]

no one is normal. 😘

[@pippy68p65]

@@throughrose-colouredeyes6284 so true. We all have our own normal.

[@RachaelHauganMusic]

Eat all the chocolate you want, Elzani! Who gives a rip! "addcited" to chocolate is better than restricting your calories or shaming yourself. Eat to put on weight, eat to make you strong, eat to make yourself happy.

[@zqflute3676]

I don't think giving into craving and just eating too much of what you like is healthy either.

[@MsKatieBo]

@@zqflute3676 You don't think so but it is healthy, for your mental state. You really think that ignoring it is healthy? Why?

[@GabijaS18]

@@zqflute3676 that’s the ONLY way to live. You live once. Enjoy it ffs.

[@heloisa7813]

i think you look much calmer when eating alone. maybe when you're feeling nervous about a fear food, eat it alone at the kitchen. at least for me it helps, everyone talking loud and eating makes me anxious. also, its so good to see your improving and facing your fears❣️stay strong! (sorry about my broken english lol)

[@xcookiewolfx9959]

My day has officially been made, best day ever! I love these super long videos that you make, im so happy that you take the time to vlog your experiences and edit them all just to upload it for us, i am so beyond grateful for that. Thank you Elzani, to the moon and back! I wish there was some way we could all repay you for your outstanding efforts ♡

[@isabel.j1136]

There is no such thing as “too much” in recovery!!

[@pennymcdonald538]

It’s crazy all the emotions that pop up by simply eating. Something that should be so normal is incredibly hard for us. Just remember it’s also very normal! Tears and all. I spent an entire day crying once and could not even say why. Maybe it’s our body’s reaction to actually having food and realizing we never should have been starving ourself. Thank you for making me think about this. Maybe it can help me try to turn things around.

[@emma.stallings]

“ you did not fail, you just had difficult day” your dad is wonderful

[@hannahlinstead8323]

Oh sweet lady, it's okay to cry. You can see the fear in your eyes, and my heart breaks for you. I'm so excited for you, and your future. You are getting better, even if it takes longer than you want. You ate that whole bowl of pasta, which looked amazing, and you looked so happy at the end. Your dad is right. It's not your fault. You're still learning, and it's okay to have a hard time while you're learning.

[@jule5745]

It is normal that your anorexia is freaking out about fear foods. But as long as you keep fighting and doing opposite actions it will go away. Also I found that in my recovery my mental state got so much better once I was at a healthy weight. Less freaking out, less worrying, less panic attacks and crying. You can do this I believe in you xxx

[@lumemaa7]

That spag bol was a decent size, well done!!! Keep it up Elzani xxx

[@BaloonieFloat]

lol spag bol

[@jonio7631]

The amount of times I’ve commented that you actually NEED TO EAT MORE THAN THE REST OF YOUR FAMILY !!!! And now to hear you say it yourself!!! Makes me so happy!!! You’re really doing it Elzani!!! You’re recovering!!! Amazing beautiful girl i love you and I’m soooo proud

[@illusions142]

Yes! These are proper servings of food! "I do need to eat more than everyone else though don't I?" Yes yes yes you do! It really does feel like you've started to push yourself with recovery, SO PROUD OF YOU!!! Theres no such thing as a perfect recovery, just keep going!

[@LexiLooBelle]

I love your Dad! He's amazing and speaks the truth. You need to have him on repeat 💜

[@mj425masa]

Chocolate is good for your recovery! They have a good amount of calories, which your body need now! I used to have exactly the same problem and I stopped having chocolate and switched to "healthy snacks", which has way fewer calories, and it made my situation worse because I couldn't gain weight... and now I let myself have cookies, pies, sometimes ice cream for my breakfast. LOL Just the advice from my experience. You are so brave!

[@lw9849]

I wish I had a family like yours. I virtually raised myself. I have no family or support. you’re so, so lucky. 🖤

[@cinnamon3174]

Head in the clouds I support you❤️ whatever is troubling you or is going wrong just know that there all people who care out there! Hope the best for you😊😊

[@nanabarker8140]

Head in the clouds,it is the same for me. I am alone,we have to be our own support & it is hard. But we can do it........I support you too even though I do not know you......hang in there.❤

[@lw9849]

thank you guys. you’re so kind 🖤 all the best xx

[@fabfourfever674]

Head in the clouds I feel you, hon'. 🙇 I have only myself to depend upon in life. Know that you're not alone. Much love and hugs to you. XOXO

[@alicat2375]

Tabitha Farrar is the best! Her book will be so helpful for you and her podcasts and KZbin videos are straight talking and spot on. She has been where you are for longer and has completely recovered. It is so possible! Also I remember her saying that she had to force feed herself sometimes and cried whilst eating constantly. It is normal to cry and ‘ be annoying’. As you gain weight and your brain is nourished and rewires and as you make new neural pathways your mood will improve, you will have more clarity, the crying and upset will reduce over time. BUT it will be difficult and there will be bad days, because staying in your ED life and not challenging it will always be easier. Also your dad is so right, nothing is perfect, life can be hard but also wonderful. You will find new ways of coping and your family are there for you. Keep going Elzani. You can do this!❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@leilastars456]

Honestly it makes me so happy to see just how much progress you are making both eating wise and mindset wise. I am so proud of you,keep pushing forward and you can do this!we all believe in you

[@Chloedeegerz]

Elzani! Try having your cereal in a different bowl, I’ve noticed the black one you use is very shallow, and even though you fill it with cereal it is still not very much!xxx

[@Sophieonline]

You don’t understand how excited I get when you upload! Literally my favourite person to watch! Love you Elzani xxxx

[@nktigger99]

Wow the difference here is beyond awesome!!! This is something to be so proud of...you have made so much progress!!!

[@mackenziedawe6784]

I actually cried when your mom started crying. So sweet!

[@shotgunwedding277]

Elzani please don't get into "fitness" yet! Don't think about exercise or being "healthy" in an 'aesthetic-instagram' way. Put weight-gain first until you're at least weight restored!!

[@plainlyjane6540]

I agree too early in recovery to concern with fitness and nutrition. In the long run this may be a healthful addition to her life but right now she needs to work on food fears and gaining healthy weight.

[@ilikeyoutube836]

Elzani it's perfectly normal to freak out sometimes. Just allow yourself to feel it, and when it's over take a deep breath and continue eating. Just like your dad said, you're going to have difficult days, that doesn't mean that you have failed. In fact when you have those moments of severe anxiety but then you go ahead and eat your food anyway, you have succeeded!! You didn't allow your eating disorder to actually stop you from eating. That is the opposite of failure. I am so proud of you Elzani. You are making real progress, it's noticeable and undeniable. Keep going!! ❤

[@thesorrow7499]

Yay the whole hour of Elzani goodness 😌👌 Love you 💟

[@ladyhayley4859]

So lovely to see you doing well. One thing that helps me when I keep looking backwards or worrying about a mistake i've made I think about a 'next job mentality'. So if you got upset during dinner, have that moment briefly then focus on your next job... which is to eat your dinner, then after that your next job is to eat dessert. etc. The enjoyment, fun and peace you want will come eventually.

[@annaclegg6226]

you’re doing amazing, i’m so happy for you. it doesn’t matter that you cry sometimes and freak out, all that matters is that the freak-out ends in you eating the thing you were freaking out about. the more this happens, the less you will freak out. just keep pushing and keep eating even more! also, you wrapped that wrap so perfectly i’m impressed 😂

[@neeshaflynn4156]

I can't believe this, I've watched your videos from 11am this morning, it's 9pm now. I got a meal plan few days ago and couldn't do it but today at tea time was the first time really trying. Idc it's only one meal but I sat at my kitchen table alone and had the meal! I swear to god your inspiration has really spurred me on I could cry 😭 xxxxx

[@inhetbos]

Congrats on the bolognese!! So proud:) Amazing to see you eat a normal portion.

[@dryard7981]

I am so proud of you, you're improving a lot and you look beautiful! Keep up the good work. You're kicking this E.D. in the ass! Everything you ate looked wonderful.

[@paigecollier8217]

Your parents love you so much and want to see you happy within yourself and free it would be the gift that will put a smile on their face forever having there beautiful child back to who they brought up but an adult, they are so supported literally gave me goose bumps xx well done you are going to do this

[@Laura-jl7vc]

god even i am crying with satara's card

[@sparkles877]

Go on, Elzani! Smash it, beautiful girl. I too really struggle with things not being 'perfect' and then feeling like I've 'failed'. This kind of thinking is very common in those with EDs and really needs to be addressed or it can be a huge hindrance to recovery. Listen to your dad; he's a wise man. Sending all my love to you xxxxx

[@issymather8116]

You go Glen Coco!! You are making amazing progress Elzani! You definitely still have a way to go (especially in weight gain) but I can tell that all your effort so far is definitely paying off! Just imagine the awesome life you will have when you are fully recovered; so much time for friends, family, parties, travel, trying new foods and living life to the full! Imagine being invited out to lunch or offered a cookie and never having to think twice about it! I always try to imagine the FREEDOM I will have when I'm fully recovered (the mental recovery is definitely trickier than the physical) but I remind myself to live the life that aligns with MY values (memories, freedom, fun with loved ones, exploring the world, self acceptance, relaxing), not the values society forces on us (skinny, toned, "fit", model). Stay strong because I believe in you 100%! - Love from Issy (your coolest Australian subscriber😊) (P.S. eat the chocolate and the other foods, EAT ALL THE FOODS)

[@maisieclarke2703]

Accepting that you need to gain weight is such a huge step! It's also super scary at times because it's easy to forget what it felt like to be a healthy weight. But you remember the strength that you used to have, and the joy you'd feel whilst taking part in your favourite sports and hobbies. That's the best motivation you could have! And you looked so so beautiful and healthy in that prom photo - you were literally glowing! Keep going my love, you are absolutely amazing and are so much stronger than you think you are. This channel makes me so happy, and we all love watching you grow and express more of your personality. Lots of love, great vid! xx

[@joshealthycupboard9336]

I recently started watching your videos and can see such a huge difference in your mindset in the past 3 months. You’re doing so well!!! I keep wanting to comment because I’ve read a few books I think might be helpful... Dr David Hamilton’s ‘I heart me’ is amazing and is all about how your mind can heal your body and is all about self love. And another one which is a bit more scientific is called ‘the biology of belief’ which is more about the science of how our thoughts can influence our physical wellbeing. I think you might get them on audiobook too. I prefer listening to reading sometimes. I hope this is helpful and keep going with challenging those thoughts.

[@Wolfstar26]

you are such an emotionally connected family

[@junelynch8988]

I just love your mum so much, she’s the best 👍🏻 well done Elzani looks like your on the right road now, it’s so good to see 😊👍🏻👌💕⭐️

[@user-dk8gc]

1) you are incredible because you are intrinsically and uniquely yourself - 2) No food is too much food- it’s fuel , it’s memories and its culture. 3) You deserve to eat .4) you weight is not your worth , it’s your relationship to gravity . 5) you are enough

[@freya4595]

You’re so strong, you’re honestly such an inspiration for me in recovery. Such a motivation, thank you.

[@amberdavies5998]

You're doing so so completely amazing Elizani!!! Keep going. Honestly you should be so so proud, I would be scared of battered chips and I'm fully weight restored well into 3 years of recovery (although I would still give them a good go ;). Honestly keep going, what you're doing is hard and yes you have to keep pushing and you need to get healthier but you're doing really well. It's honestly inspirational, after years and years of being frightened I've started eating nuts and nut butter as a part of my diet and its honestly amazing. Your strength inspired me to keep pushing even though I thought I had recovered. Well done, boi xx

[@MadisonTiahn]

Would you do a Q&A or a responding to comments section of a video? Would love to know you see our comments etc. Also, it is a common symptom of eating disorders to leave calories to be able to have a lot of food at night. Instead of waiting to have big night snacks, eating more throughout the day will help. After 10 years fighting this, trust me. Spreading the food out is more normal. X

[@aliceincrazyland3946]

Madison Killer I have noticed I save ALL of my calories for the end of the day (dinner and snacks after) but I have always justified this by telling myself it doesn’t matter when I eat it as long as I’m eating enough...ya know.

[@MadisonTiahn]

Of course eating the calories is the main thing! But when you start to really focus I guess on normalising your eating habits, then you will see that NORMAL people eat throughout the day, not at night. I completely see where you are coming from. I used to only eat x amount during the day so I can have xxx at night. Progress takes time! I have changed that now, and you will be able too as well!

[@aliceincrazyland3946]

Just Daphne I actually hate that I do it because I feel like I’ve over eaten (more that I’ve just eaten SO much more than I would had I just eaten NORMALLY through the day) I want to change it so much but I honestly don’t know how.

[@aliceincrazyland3946]

Madison Killer I always say I’ll have some oats at least before work and then I think ah I’ll have it when I get home, it isn’t that far off after work. and the cycle continues

[@Jessica-5827]

I do this too but then when it comes to the evening I tell myself there is no point in eating now as it is late and I don't need the energy for the day because I will be in bed soon and that I can make up for it the next day but then I never do.

[@meganw5122]

Aw Elzani. This is amazing. I have been watching your videos for over a month now, I actually created an account so I could suscribe to your videos. I suffer from insomnia and sleep issues and your videos help calm me at night and this is such a relief to see you going for it and not putting on a smile. If you have to cry through a meal that’s okay!!! - it’s hard and scary but you will see a change in yourself so quickly. This is such a huge shift in the next stage of your recovery. As we say in Norn Ireland - you are pure class (aka you are awesome) keep going you fabulous lady Xx

[@bredadonlonalder4643]

I love your mum and how supportive she is of you, and the rest if your family are too. Its heart warming to watch. X

[@nabiladib1186]

U killed up that pasta. So proud of u Elzani. Keep strong I got recovered since 1 year ago and it does pay off ❤💪

[@mrsf6740]

Elzani you seem so much more lively, the way your talking, the way you're laughing and just enjoying things. You seem much more relaxed also, having a mini meltdown and just getting back on with things... woop woop!!! xxx

[@charlottemcloughlin8843]

You’re beginning to look more and more healthy it’s so amazing and inspiring to see that both you and your family are all beginning to have way more faith in you because you’re showing them you will beat this no matter how many times it makes you cry or how hard it seems. We’re all routing for you Elzani ❤️❤️❤️

[@deyaniraramos1396]

Omg! So proud of you ❤️ you are doing incredible, see you do know all the things...it's ok that you freak out or get scared...at least you are fighting against the temptations of wanting to be safe/thinner/with Ed/left alone...it's brave of you. Definitely opposite action, I see it! Those do look like yummy snacks and it's balanced!🖤👍🌠💜🦋 Your so so amazing Elzani! Yeah... Tabitha is incredible and she is helpful... awesome!!! Hope she is encouraging you. Ooooh my gosh! Call me crazy but that was one of my favorites cereals, the All Bran cereal, wow! I hear the one you all have inyour country is Soo much better!!! Aahh I'm so excited for you...it's really good with cinnamon too.

[@lw9849]

Elzani, i’m so proud of you!! we all are here. keep up the fantastic work. 👏👏👏👏👏👏

[@lornaquinn5805]

So happy to see you making positive steps in your recovery. Keep moving forward, you are doing really well!

[@harrietmorgan24]

So so happy to see this video! Your meals and snacks looked so much better. Please remember, as weight gain happens your brain will begin to recovery to, and your thoughts will become more rational. You should be proud of yourself x

[@espie5106]

I'm so proud of you Elzani!!! Your doing so well, don't think your annoying anyone because your not. It's not your fault, it's the eating disorder. Everyone is rooting for you so keep going. One day you will look back on all this and be proud of how far you've come. We are proud of you and you should be too! It will be a long process but you can do it! ❤️ p.s. I get so happy when you upload.yayyy I'm so glad you checked out Tabatha Farrar,she helped me in my recovery.

[@mtndew616]

Your dad is a great father what he said @ 24:03 was spot on.. youre doing so great elzani and youre making real strides!

[@elisabeth9971]

omg your prom picture looks absolutely stunning😍

[@charlottep3326]

Your doing great Elzani! Well done for accepting new challenges. Sending lots of love x

[@nicolemariamorgan]

Ahhh i love your family so much. They are a DREAM!

[@rogat9775]

Watching food food food KZbin videos is a bad ED habit of mine... took me a while to realise it was linked to my mental health

[@sanjinamanjina5642]

RoGat why is this bad? I’m interested because I do it too

[@shellbysmith3479]

Sweetheart elzani when i saw you cry from the chips on your plate i understood completely i am so proud of you i wish i could be as brave as you this week i start and i am afraid but i watch you and you give me hope love you

[@wicklandtube]

Wow the rocks on the beach are like nothing I’ve ever seen. You are amazing and so is your family.

[@susanjarrell1573]

I’m so glad when your sister pushes you. It’s hard but you should be proud of yourself for doing the hard things.

[@jayneemarieevans1559]

Your not a failure your doing amazing... and when ur dad says these wonderful words about u he means it and he wants u do be well again xx he has to be hard because your his world and he wants you to be well...dont give up ur inspiring everyone xxxxxx

[@tmaraaramt3487]

I love how much love you give to your animals so adorable ❤️

[@marciv2926]

Yes, you freaked out, but you made it through and did it! That is progress, you are definitely moving in a positive direction

[@edi165]

I am so proud of you Elzani! you seem to be progressing so much in this video which is so inspiring! please don't let the people putting you down get to you- it is such a hard illness to overcome and you are so brave!

[@ardemusriley5392]

Thank You for sharing your struggles with us. It helps educate the public at large to gain true insights into eating disorders. Your courage to be publicly vulnerable is most admirable. Sending love and well wishes.

[@susieleyens3641]

Your mum is such a great cook do you think you could post some of her recipes eg spag bol etc...lots of love xx

[@XD-rm6yf]

i’m so proud of u!!! u inspired me to get an extra snack even tho i have dinner in an hour :3 stay strong

[@HayleyJohns]

I feel really honoured that we've been taken on this journey with you, you've been doing fantastically recently too! (P.s. I don't like those flapjack bars either haha)

[@nktigger99]

You eating that spaghetti....wow....just wow....you blow me away in the greatest way possible!!

[@MarvinTheBenchwarmer]

Elzani you have done nothing but improve, even through your difficult days. Your meals in this video look great and you seem so much happier lately. Keep going and remind yourself in hard times that you have so many people that care about you and want to see you succeed.

[@katherinegaryclarkegoddard7365]

I wish I had someone like your Dad on my side. He makes such a difference 😊xx

[@girlsurfingtheinternet8195]

Your father is a movitational speaker, and he talks real. Wish i had a dad, a dad like yours

[@hannahbennett4768]

I absolutely love everything about you and your channel! Try to stop saying to are going to be better and you are going to totally change and try and say you will try your best to be better and you will try your best to change. It has always worked for me as you begin to realise that if you have a bad day it doesn’t matter as much as long as you have lots of good days!

[@mystmyst4176]

Yes so glad to see you go back the other cereal options here to try - as I'd recommended on your last video this really helped me. 27:51 / 1:04:19 40:44 / 1:04:19 44:55 / 1:04:19 Little steps, 💪 Elzani keep working at it, Your sharing of this journey is inspiring the masses xx

[@maiseyandrews4554]

Every time I watch your videos- I just want to give you a hug! Look into the future and live your life. you are doing sooo well don't put yourself down!!!! I love youu. xoxox

[@thistoowillpass88]

You are doing so well, you can tell the changes happening in you and I love witnessing it. Keep up the hard work girl, you deserve all the success in the world ❤️

[@kathy97.]

You're doing amazing! Eating through the tears. Eventually the eating will win it from the tears! Keep going darling. For your strength, future, health and your lovely family ❤

[@bilalmuhammed7998]

Keep going you can do it yaaayyyyy❤❤❤

[@danielaearl3893]

IM SO PROUD OF U ELZANI watching your journey has been a roller coaster and im so glad your going so strong

[@violetmetcalfetrott5765]

well done elzani!!! It's not going to feel good for a while longer.. but there will come a day when you can enjoy your food completely. If it is making you freak out, that's a GOOD sign. It means the ED is being challenged. If you feel calm and safe, perhaps you need to push a little more? For example with the wrap, or the breakfast. How about adding butter or mayonnaise. Or cheese? You shy away from fats. Of course I understand why they freak your ED out.. but that's PRECISELY why you need to include them , a lot!! Be generous with spreads, butter, cheese etc. I believe in you. Only good things will come of it, I promise. Everything you want is on the other side of fear...

[@oatycookieori]

You seem so much more relaxed and bubbly in this video! you can tell that you're making so much more of an effort, keep fighting ! We all support you 100% of the way xx

[@izzy7492]

We can really see that you’re really trying and that’s so incredible :) Your hard work is paying off Elzani, you should feel proud of yourself. Keep up the great work, you’ve got this ❤️

[@haravar6848]

Its so nice seeing you trying and getting out of your comfort zone! You are doing an amazing job stay strong and keep going. You inspire a lot of people to recover 😃 including me 🙌. You can do this girl!!

[@Hazeydaze92]

I love the bonne maman salted caramel spread on digestive biscuits! & the almond/apricot eat natural bars are my fave too - soooo good.

[@nanabarker8140]

WOW!!!!!!!I am SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!LOOK @ HOW GOOD YOU ARE DOING!!!!!!!!You have turned a new page & it is working!!!!!!You will still have ups & downs.....But.....BE PROUD OF YOURSELF!!!!!!!💟💟💟💟

[@claireorr6699]

I agree with your mum, I LOVE those apricot and yoghurt cereal bars in the orange pack... could eat like 20 of them. You should do a video about Brody & Blaze! ❤️❤️

[@matitabu]

I’d really try and not ask your mum what she likes the best and if you should or shouldn’t get this or that, just get the food! 😍 I’m really happy to see your progress in the last videos, keep going you’re getting stronger!

[@tatlioca]

Gentle reminder that YOU are not a burden sweet soul, you carry a burden and that's something by definition that is too much to carry alone. Your family might struggle with understanding the nonsensical logic of anorexia at times, and that's okay. it's part of the process of working through this which you are doing with such grace (I know that might sound silly because recovery is a mess, but honestly, you are taking such strides, overcoming the challenges and the messy bits of recovery, and creating a life for yourself and it's rather beautiful to watch

[@aaliy0h]

so proud of you

[@justcallmepops22]

Yeeessss you're getting a po box!! thats so exciting🙋🏻‍♀️

[@DeannaaDay]

that spaghetti was like a normal size that i would normally have! keep it up girl your doing greattt

[@FrancescaCi]

Found you few days ago. You’re a lovely and kind sould and so your beautiful family. The only thing is that to get out from ED you have to stop being obsessed with food. The resolution is not talking about it anymore, focus on something else (your day, weather, things you need or want to do, study...). You should not talk about food but your life. Good luck lady! Big hug 💕