Delusion Girl english ver. 【Oktavia】【英語で歌ってみた】

[@OktaviavonSeckendorff8]

Looks like due to the copyright of the song it may not be able to be played on certain devices, but I'll see what I can do to fix that! ;;

[@grafeugenius]

Oktavia von Seckendorff I was gonna ask why is the video not available. Copyright huh...

[@YamiBasara]

When I was ready to listen, the vídeo was not available. Stupid Copyright...

[@aMiyafuji]

Oktavia von Seckendorff hm. It worked just fine on my phone

[@StargazingDreamer]

Oh well. It's still a good song and KZbin has been hard on everyone lately.

[@dp2989]

Woah it works on mobile now! (At least for me) Awesome cover! ^-^

[@boeman6702]

This nearly happened to me on a rooftop. When I was doing something, I swore I saw a figure out of the corner of my eye. It looked like a kid. A small kid. Just then, the figure jumped off the building. I ran and nearly jumped off to throw the figure back on the roof. Instead, I looked down and I saw no one. My brain was probably smoking some weird shit.

[@thevillainousqueenofhearts4976]

Holy, moly! That’s spooky, thankfully nothings bad happened to you

[@blackRupee]

me when i lie

[@tylermcmurray2232]

Most relatable song ever. Everyone's got these delusions of heroism waiting for any opportunity that never comes.

[@therani9600]

Um, no. Not everyone fantasizes about saving someone at the expense of one's own life to have an excuse to kill themselves and be seen as a hero instead of a suicide victim. And even less people have those thoughts to an extent shown in this song. If you have thoughts like this you should go see a therapist.

[@tylermcmurray2232]

@@therani9600 huh... i though everyone had those i probably should seek therapy but im poor and live in america so no

[@diamondseraph9369]

​@@therani9600 You said exactly what I was thinking

[@gamergod98l86]

Same man ​@@tylermcmurray2232

[@genesisa6458]

The lyrics for anyone who has trouble reading the subtitles ~~ Day, night, nothing divides the staying always (the staying always) Still and dull, until I pull out a lie Flying from shame Made up and fake enough to wear a grin of fiction (a grin of fiction) Soon another smothered dawn is offed, along with any honest front Echoes the status quo, routine has run itself dry (run itself dry) As the platform brings in hordes, my tired eyes Spot change to my life Trapped by the crowd, looking for a way to make it out A little girl, alone Falls past the yellow Hibiya line whizzes by, stirring up something inside. Ah Clock stopped on eight, though it’s way too late, My logic’s gone with the clang of the train Every hero knows when they’re needed, so, that’s just what he’s born to be A man who manages throwing out his hand, Who doesn’t care if his own life is spared Such a feat like that, it’s a selfless act only completed in dreams And it stays like that for me With a crash I’m trapped back in reality The cat I’d greet with treats one day stopped coming (one day stopped coming) I searched, and found him down on the street, Dead at my feet Though I claim I’m not in pain, I just can’t admit it hurts When the tears nearly appear, I store my feelings further Hiding again, with no right, even breathing is a crime. Ah Hypocrite so hopeless, I wonder if even a body would seem more alive Don’t see, hear, speak of a tragedy, I said and fled from the known So my best friend, that cat, my family and girlfriend, I did nothing when they needed me most “But the fault’s not mine” so I justified, “That’s just the way the world goes” And since then, I’ve given up everything I loved. Although… The echoes come and go, but the voices never show any hope of being human Routine dry, these tired eyes are dim with life So why then, did they brighten when the danger came with her? If only I could stop time… Time will not wait or repeal. Time only tells what is real. Ah Crazy, yes maybe I’ve lost my mind, but I won’t stand by as someone else dies Every hero knows when they’re need so, that’s just what I’ll have to be A man who manages throwing out his hand, Who doesn’t care if his own life is spared If I’ve saved someone then my job is done, paid laying finally free In my last moment all I see Are that girl’s vacant eyes smiling at me Awake and breaking the dream With a crash I vanish from reality

[@wa6488]

THANK YOU

[@starscandietootm1304]

Am I the only one who's reminded of Heat Haze Daze when I listen to this song? I mean, a man dies saving a girls truck by *dying from trains?* Also, the art is from Sidu, who helped with the Kagerou Project. And great. Now another song I'm compelled to spam

[@scarery-p55]

Star Slayer I knew I recognized the art from somewhere

[@feralfauna_]

Yeah when I first watched the PV for the song (I knew it was done by Sidu because I'd seen it on her Twitter) I thought "huh, so this is like Kagerou Days but... with trains..." I mean even the cat's there come on!

[@Ei-chan]

Hibiya Station _wink wink_

[@carlrodgers3425]

First thing, Happy Early Birthday Oktavia! I know basically everyone is saying that but I don't care. I really do hope you have an amazing birthday this Friday. The other thing, I have a theory about this song. This might be a little long, but bear with me. So when I first watched/listened to this song, I was very confused on the name. The singer, the person in the PV, not Oktavia, is a man, not a girl. I'll call him Fred just so I can keep this straight. So I had to think about what it means. I was able to figure out pretty soon that the girl that he saves is the 'Delusion Girl'. Whenever we see the girl the only colors are black white and purple. In fact, it almost looks like these are the only three colors used, but they aren't. Near the end when we see him in front of the train, with no girl on the side, everything is in full color. There are a few other times, but this is the most important to my theory. Also, when it flashes the definition of delusion, it says, "a hallucination, wild idea". So here's everything put together. Fred is a cubicle worker. A while ago in his past he had a girlfriend. Everyone loved her, his friends, family, and especially him. But, for some reason, she committed suicide. And Fred didn't do anything. Everyone was heartbroken, and Fred wasn't able to anything. Fast forward to the song Fred is depressed. He can't find any meaning in his life, everything is dull. Then, one day when he's on a train, he starts daydreaming. He sees a girl with white hair and purple eyes about to be killed and he pulls her away. He is loved and applauded and is happy. He was actually able to save someone this time. He was able to... then his is jerked out of his fantasy by the train stopping. The next day at the train stop he sees her again. He realizes what he has to do and he runs forward. He flings her to safety and trows himself in front of the train. They smile at each other before the girl disappears. His eyes widen before he is killed. The girl is Fred's guilt over not being able to save his girlfriend. Her smiling at him is his relief that the stress of that has finally been relived. He has thought about suicide before, to join his girlfriend, but never goes through with it. He is hounded every day, and the stress from this causes him to hallucinate. Eventually these hallucinations take over his life, shown with the overabundance of purple, and cause him to take his own life, think it was to save another's. Thanks for reading this wall of words. Sorry it's so long and unorganized. I also probably didn't get as far into it as I could, there's definitely some stuff with the cat I'm choosing to ignore.

[@ShinePaw101]

I love your theory, it makes so much sence!

[@lillian4972]

Definitely agree with basically everything you said! The girlfriend hanging herself is pretty hard to see • v • I also kinda felt that the Delusion Girl was an excuse for him to commit suicide, because he lacks the motivation to do anything, but "saving the girl" would fulfill that. And the cat, I'm not sure but I thought it represented the girlfriend too? Because he does pay attention to and love his girlfriend (he gives the cat milk every time), but both still end up dead. Thank you for your explanation too! It cleared up a lot for me :>

[@dorkasaurus2187]

I think your theory is very interesting!! If I were to add anything about the cat, I'd say that as it was dead at his feet, it was another delusion. It was at that moment, he realized he let everyone down. He wasn't the hero he wished he was, that ideal was only a fantasy. He let down everyone; that cat, his best friend, his girlfriend, his family. He wasn't strong enough to save his girlfriend from suicide. I wasn't strong enough to save his family and friends from depression. He's blaming himself for these things he can't control. "Every hero's known when their needed so," he thinks it's his fault that all these things happen. So he images the girl. Wishing, just once, to play hero, he jumps in front of the train. However, right before his death, he "Crashes back to reality." The girl was his delusion. He committed suicide... This song is now very, very dear to me. Mainly because, I was never able to save anyone. They all left me... which might have happened to the man, now that i think about it. It was never said what happened to his family... perhaps they felt let down, and they left him? Sorry, getting off topic... so, they left me. Sometimes they came back, sometimes they didn't, but it felt like I wasn't good enough. Now, I often fantasize about being a hero. Saving someone else, not caring if my own life is spared... this song makes me feel less alone.

[@carlrodgers3425]

RainyDays So I've watched it a few more times and I think I know what the cat is supposed to be. When he says he let down his family, I'm not sure what that is, he let down his girlfriend because he wasn't able to stop her, but I think the cat is supposed to be his best friend. He greeted the cat with treats, meaning that whenever they hung out he got something for his friend. They were just really good friends. But then one day he doesn't show up where they were supposed to meet. Fred knows his path so he goes along that trying to find his friend. He looks down and sees a bloody corpse at his feet. A victim of a hit and run accident, and another person he wasn't able to save. Also, I'm sorry you feel that way Rainy. I'm glad that this makes you feel less lonely. Just know that you aren't alone. There are always people who care about you, you just have to look.

[@dorkasaurus2187]

Carl Rodgers thank you! And as for the theory, I think that also makes sense!! I feel like this song can be interpreted in many ways, but I like your theories!!!

[@gloriathemage4756]

The lyrics: about suicide and delusions of heroism The background music: yay happy piano!

[@indigoparadox]

Excellent vocals, excellent mixing. Frequently, cover artists don't attenuate or distort the parts that should be attenuated or distorted (not to minimize their efforts; I still enjoy their work a lot,) but your attenuation [sic] to detail (get it? get it?) is excellent and greatly appreciated, as I think it adds so much to the overall end result (this goes for your other covers, too, particularly Persecution Complex Cellphone Girl and People Allergy). Overall excellent job, as usual. ご馳走だな...

[@yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh]

❤❤❤❤ you sound so great!! I love sidu's art. I just love the detail like the amount of likes and retweets when he's daydreaming. Just everything is so sad aaagsg

[@pastaaaaaaaaoo3796]

Girl who almost died has purple eyes. Cat that died is purple. The rope used as train handles are purple (they look like nooses) How did I know he was going to die? The colour of his necktie.

[@shayden998]

ACE DETECTIVE!!!~ that is nice use of color though.

[@tailsrhtatonslice1418]

“Cat that died is purple” -tfw your favorite anime character is a male cat human in a purple sweater-

[@nightslasher9384]

*Takes your pasta away* o _ o You been eating too much pasta to think too much mate.

[@ChiChi-eu5qj]

Yallen 22 *Posh voice* ITS NOT VOILET ITS PRUUNE

[@leelowden654]

Its funny because the colour purple can be associated with the words selfless, fantasy, inventive, imagination and also 'can promote or aggravate depression in some' www.empower-yourself-with-color-psychology.com/color-purple.html

[@Potato-sg6qr]

From 1:58 to 2:04 the images flash by fast so I couldn't see them well. I slowed down the video and watched that part again. I can now clearly see those images and the song has suddenly gotten 5 times sadder.

[@keyofheartsheartwings6664]

3:00 What I like is how the train suddenly appears in the frame. Then it switches to 3:03 showing how close the train got and just how within that second he was able to snap back to reality again.

[@pixelizedsunset]

it's kagerou days all over again

[@fae8467]

I certainly didn't expect this to be so dark if i'm being completely honest, gave me goosebumps the first time I heard it. However it is in no way done badly, in fact the way you've sung this is perfect for these lyrics and this style of song. In terms of the songs story and video itself they are both also great, especially a few semi-hidden factors such as the color purple being associated with Death, as seen by the purple nooses, the girls purple eyes, the purple cat, and finally the man's purple tie. There is also the very realistic possibility that not once was the girl falling into the tracks either times, as seen by how she was still standing and didn't seem at all disoriented, which would be the normal result of being thrown by the momentum of a falling man, Instead she seemed simply shocked and horrified, as is the normal result of witnessing such an act on the sidelines. Not even to mention just how far back she was.

[@milkkkkkkks9803]

i just realized that the girl from the end of the vid also showed up at 1:16 after his first daydream of saving someone

[@peachforce]

So, serious question-- my _favorite_ part of these lyrics is undoubtedly the beautiful (and beautiful to sing) _The echoes come and go, but the voices never show any hope of being human / Routine dry, these tired eyes are dim with life..._ etc, but why use those lyrics for the bridge? The original is a repeat of the 'little girl falls across the warning line' part of the prechorus, just sung to a different tune. I'm guessing it was because of how damn hard it is to stretch that out (in the first verse/prechorus, the opening tune to those lines is covered by a different line; 'Spot change to my life', I think)-- is that right, or is there a deeper meaning?

[@OktaviavonSeckendorff8]

Yves I’m glad you liked it! And yeah the original is just a repeat of the lyrics, but I felt that it would sound a little bit unnatural to straight up repeat it (somehow it doesn’t work as well in English as in Japanese I found), so I tried to change it up a bit!

[@MichisDanglyAngly]

HOLY SHIT????????????????? MY?? EARS??? HAVE BEEN BLESSED??????????????????????????????????????????????????

[@vevesumi]

Heres a good question: Did he really save the little girl, or did he delude himself into being a hero as an excuse to kill himself?

[@kylemoran2931]

Judging by how far back from the tracks the girl is, and the fact that she is standing, are indicators that she couldn't have been thrown back like the man believes she was. She was likely just a face he made eye contact with at the last moment, which he may have retroactively made the justification to his death.

[@EnemyStandMamoru]

If you pause at 3:03, right after his eyes went wide, you'll see that she's not on the platform where she was seconds ago. It was a delusion. I don't believe it was as an excuse to kill himself, especially with his facial expressions, but rather he was so worn out and beaten down by life that he genuinely thought he saw the white haired girl go over the tracks, probably coming to his mind when he saw the brown haired girl that looked a lot like her.

[@postal3412]

She's a delusion girl

[@Kyle-us9qt]

not a real girl, a delusion he had

[@boeman6702]

The scenes where everything is white and purple are delusions. When it switches to the actual color of the scene, then its reality

[@violetsuwu]

1: HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY! Thanks for taking the time to make us happy so take this time to enjoy yourself! 2: I LOVE THISSSS!

[@vevesumi]

Day, night, nothing divides the staying always (the staying always) Still and dull, until I pull out a lie Flying from shame Made up and fake enough to wear a grin of fiction (a grin of fiction) Soon another smothered dawn is offed, along with any honest front Echoes the status quo, routine has run itself dry (run itself dry) As the platform brings in hordes, my tired eyes Spot change to my life Trapped by the crowd, looking for a way to make it out A little girl, alone Falls past the yellow Hibiya line whizzes by, stirring up something inside. Ah Clock stopped on eight, though it’s way too late, My logic’s gone with the clang of the train Every hero knows when they’re needed, so, that’s just what he’s born to be A man who manages throwing out his hand, Who doesn’t care if his own life is spared Such a feat like that, it’s a selfless act only completed in dreams And it stays like that for me With a crash I’m trapped back in reality The cat I’d greet with treats one day stopped coming (one day stopped coming) I searched, and found him down on the street, Dead at my feet Though I claim I’m not in pain, I just can’t admit it hurts When the tears nearly appear, I store my feelings further Hiding again, with no right, even breathing is a crime. Ah Hypocrite so hopeless, I wonder if even a body would seem more alive Don’t see, hear, speak of a tragedy, I said and fled from the known So my best friend, that cat, my family and girlfriend, I did nothing when they needed me most “But the fault’s not mine” so I justified, “That’s just the way the world goes” And since then, I’ve given up everything I loved. Although… The echoes come and go, but the voices never show any hope of being human Routine dry, these tired eyes are dim with life So why then, did they brighten when the danger came with her? If only I could stop time… Time will not wait or repeal. Time only tells what is real. Ah Crazy, yes maybe I’ve lost my mind, but I won’t stand by as someone else dies Every hero knows when they’re need so, that’s just what I’ll have to be A man who manages throwing out his hand, Who doesn’t care if his own life is spared If I’ve saved someone then my job is done, paid laying finally free In my last moment all I see Are that girl’s vacant eyes smiling at me Awake and breaking the dream With a crash I vanish from reality

[@vashustampede]

vevesumi oh my gosh thank you for this

[@Lustrous1180]

when I first saw the first paragraphs/lyrics of the song I thought ''well this guy definitely must have been through trauma as it had said 'made up and fake enough to bear a grin of fiction' and other obvious signs of how he feels and how much he tries to hide it the chorus at first I was a little confuse as it said 'Every hero knows when they’re needed, so, that’s just what he’s born to be.A man who manages throwing out his hand, Who doesn’t care if his own life is spared' (now I look at it its very obvious what the song was trying to say but) I thought ''the song was just talking about how he faked his smiles and how horrible he feels inside, why would he want to save someone he doesn't really know? unless it was a way to make him feel better about something. next paragraph, I literally understood all of the chorus as it had talked about how the people (and pet) he had known has died I was like ''OH, so he wanted to save a stranger to relieve himself from guilt, ok that makes sense to me now'' next paragraph, this part of it interested me most ''Routine dry, these tired eyes are dim with life, So why then, did they brighten when the danger came with her?'' I feel like this kind of shows how he didn't want to be in the same routine, doing the same normal things over and over again, or he wanted to show the purpose of his family, friends and other people he knew losing their lives/wanted to show that they didn't die in vain. last chorus, oh jeez that's when it got kind of dark ''If I’ve saved someone then my job is done, paid laying finally free,In my last moment all I see Are that girl’s vacant eyes smiling at me,Awake and breaking the dream,With a crash I vanish from reality'' he wanted to finally meet all the people he lost, without guilt pressured upon him, but, the last moment he realizes that, that girl was just a delusion (maybe it was the pill that was shown just before the second verse, maybe he started imagining things or maybe, that was the voices he was talking about ''The echoes come and go, but the voices never show any hope of being human'' maybe the voices had duplicate the girl that was at the train stop so he could actually think he was saving someone? I don't know, this was just what I thought about the song, I never ever do this kind of thing, so could you guys tell me if I made a error anywhere? thanks (also sorry this is soooo long T-T I will try to shorten it if I ever do this again)

[@Dramatic_Deco]

I know it’s 6 years ago but I love this song and I just figured something out!!! The first verse is ‘every hero knows when their needed so that’s just what HE has to be’ then he wakes up from his daydream however the end it’s ’every hero knows when their needed so that’s just what I have to be’ so he doesn’t realize its a delusion. Crazy details I’m still learning!

[@TheDioscuri_11]

aaaaa Advanced Happy Birthday! Have fun on your birthday! also aaaaaaa take care please know that we love you

[@UtauReni]

GIRL NICE!!!! those low notes though, holy crap?? also happy early birthday!!!

[@philodendronscandens8122]

This song gave me chills- good job Oktavia!

[@八木優綺]

Lyrics Day, night, nothing divides the staying always (the staying always) Still and dull, until I pull out a lie Flying from shame Made up and fake enough to wear a grin of fiction (a grin of fiction) Soon another smothered dawn is offed, along with any honest front Echoes the status quo, routine has run itself dry (run itself dry) As the platform brings in hordes, my tired eyes Spot change to my life Trapped by the crowd, looking for a way to make it out A little girl, alone Falls past the yellow Hibiya line whizzes by, stirring up something inside. Ah Clock stopped on eight, though it’s way too late, My logic’s gone with the clang of the train Every hero knows when they’re needed, so, that’s just what he’s born to be A man who manages throwing out his hand, Who doesn’t care if his own life is spared Such a feat like that, it’s a selfless act only completed in dreams And it stays like that for me With a crash I’m trapped back in reality The cat I’d greet with treats one day stopped coming (one day stopped coming) I searched, and found him down on the street, Dead at my feet Though I claim I’m not in pain, I just can’t admit it hurts When the tears nearly appear, I store my feelings further Hiding again, with no right, even breathing is a crime. Ah Hypocrite so hopeless, I wonder if even a body would seem more alive Don’t see, hear, speak of a tragedy, I said and fled from the known So my best friend, that cat, my family and girlfriend, I did nothing when they needed me most “But the fault’s not mine” so I justified, “That’s just the way the world goes” And since then, I’ve given up everything I loved. Although… The echoes come and go, but the voices never show any hope of being human Routine dry, these tired eyes are dim with life So why then, did they brighten when the danger came with her? If only I could stop time… Time will not wait or repeal. Time only tells what is real. Ah Crazy, yes maybe I’ve lost my mind, but I won’t stand by as someone else dies Every hero knows when they’re need so, that’s just what I’ll have to be A man who manages throwing out his hand, Who doesn’t care if his own life is spared If I’ve saved someone then my job is done, paid laying finally free In my last moment all I see Are that girl’s vacant eyes smiling at me Awake and breaking the dream With a crash I vanish from reality

[@wa6488]

ARIGATOU

[@kyleetime]

AAAAAAAAAH BEAUTIFUL COVER LIKE USUAL OKTAVIA

[@leynanguyen2809]

ok wow this is the most amazing vocaloid cover i've ever heard, hands down

[@puckman_deluxe]

I love this song a lot, it’s sad but also a story told so interestingly. I usually listen to the Japanese version (the original) but this cover is absolutely amazing. I really enjoy how you translated and sang it. Thank you for being inspiring.

[@kyleneckar3415]

Holy crap this is the most well-made and powerful lyric PV I've ever seen

[@vashustampede]

oh my gosh thank you so much for covering this song?? i just found it recently but it’s absolutely stolen my heart and i wasn’t expecting to find an english cover of it so soon! your works are absolutely stunning, and i love your voice! thank you for covering this song, you really do it justice!!

[@UnknownBird27]

This cover was so amazing, I loved it so much! Thank you for covering this song!!

[@chibimaster7819]

The harmonies if this song are just so addicting i can't stop replaying it

[@ichorvial]

your singing in this plus the lyrics gives me CHILLS this is such a good cover

[@luckycat5066]

I actually can't stop jamming to this.Well done, I hope you're happy c:

[@vigilante1603]

I’ve rewatched this so many times now. Your lyrics go excellently, they give me goosebumps just listening to it, paired with the animation I almost cried I’m not even kidding. Pls keep this up if another song similar to this comes out pls smash it like you did with this one!

[@scarery-p55]

well then, wasn't prepared for that ending

[@scarery-p55]

also I have a 9 part Biology assignment due in two days. Why do you this to me?

[@pocky1556]

xXScareMasterXx SAAAAAME

[@walnut_raisin2621]

I totally get this song (I hope lol) and I'm really glad of how smooth and quickly the writer was able to talk about the topics. Him wanting to be a hero not helping those he loved and then being a hero but dieing. All of that with awesome art lyrics and of course to top it off with the cherry is Oktavia's beautiful voice

[@mrsryoukotakihama]

happy birthday! and oh my gosh i never clicked a video so fast! so excellent to see sidu's pv with such an amazing voice.

[@tayls8158]

I swear, you're unable to ever disappoint; you never do. Everything you do is just perfection. A+ to you. Also, happy early birthday!!!

[@lolabee1825]

This is just sooo goood!!! The way you sang the last part of the song is SO AMAZING!! I can't stop listening to this!! So addictive! 😍😍😍

[@Shadowthian]

OKTAVIA BACK AT IT AGAIN WITH A VOICE THAT STEALS MY HEART

[@chaneychane9339]

This is DOPE

[@feralfauna_]

I'M HERE ONLY 10 HOURS LATE LOL Ughhhhh Oktavia whyyyyy You're perfect and this song is perfect and the PV is perfect and your lyrics are perfect and damn was it worth the hype.

[@feralfauna_]

Also that last sentence gah

[@Makkihlp]

im here 3 months late so......

[@jackieg5569]

You sing this song with such passion and emotion! Absolutely wonderful!

[@kylie3534]

I GOT CHILLS FROM THIS SONG OML

[@keipe008]

2:22 is my favorite part

[@yinyang-p9265]

Omg??? Your birthday is October too??? I feel so honored to have my birthday in the same month as the Youtaite queen,,, and I get to listen to such an amazing voice as a belated birthday gift too,,,, god bless your soul, Oktavia.

[@leemebaby]

"I won't stand by as someone else dies" oh fuck I just realized what that meant.

[@valxena9640]

NOT WHAT I EXPECTED, BUT I LOOOOVVVVEEEE IIITTTTTT

[@sunlaa7221]

Happy early birthday Oktavia! I hope you can get through all your work. Great cover as usual, and thanks for introducing me to another great song animated by Sidu!

[@albertand2484]

You covered this song. As if I didn't already, I love you even more now. THANK YOU! 😍

[@HatsuneM1ku01]

Came here from rachies comments and you are amazing too💙💙💙

[@mizukinosawada4586]

I can't stop hearing this °^° It's too fantastic!!!

[@suneater9106]

Happy early birthday!!!!! I hope you have a awesome birthday you deserve it!!! Amazing cover as always

[@Coquitten]

I interpret this (somewhat alike the video but with a twist) As he is a person who feels suicidal, and is sick and tired of everyday life; he wants to be a hero and mean something. So he dreams of saving a girl about to kill herself, because that is who he wants to be. And he leaves his family (or they leave him/die), so he starts to hate himself much more and delude himself to what is going on. At the end he creates an imaginary girl that he is going to "save" by jumping in front of the train, and when he falls in front of the train, he realizes there is no girl and he dies. ;w;

[@averyhappynobody8822]

Happy early birthday! Thanks for making this wonderful cover. It really made my day!

[@Darkrockmanbeyond]

Great cover as always, and happy early birthday!

[@notlucky756]

that...was...beautiful

[@arandomzasshu7207]

I DIDNT THINK THIS WOULD WORK BUT IT DID GREAT JOB!!!!!!!

[@HanaMangaka]

Am I the only one that thinks of Shouta Aizawa's story in the manga of BNHA with this song

[@KezoGrail]

YESSS OKTAVIA YOU'RE SO GOOD

[@kiring2297]

Ey Tavia’ can I call you that? No? Well, I mean, I can’t describe how well you sang this, the bleeding cat part killed me inside : A : but this song is beautiful, and describes many things in reality. Ya done good.

[@arcadiusdragoneyes727]

My theory is that he did save that girl originally and found a brief escape from his depression which then ended up creating an illusion of the girl causing him jump into the tracks to ‘save her’ again and find that happiness again

[@edenharass]

This is pretty amazing, I love your voice!

[@dallaswalker340]

OUCH! This is gorgeous oh my gosh ;;;

[@hockey-more-like-4943]

I love this song! Your voice really brings it to life!

[@cryingtea9288]

This is so great! I actually got goosebumps at the end...

[@onikama_]

IM GONNA FIGHT WHOEVER DISLIKED THIS MASTERPIECE

[@wisterisum6909]

HELL YEAH, OKTAVIA IT SOUNDS SO GOOD

[@ilovekeaten]

OML Where have you been all my life yes please! This is my new favorite song hell yes!

[@Sunshine-hb3pl]

Love this cover!

[@koutareyama8393]

Soo...Did the guy just imagined the girl as a way of redeeming himself And died for nothing at all?

[@Sours56]

I think he imagined saving the girl (with a crash I'm trapped back in reality), but just before the bridge the girl he daydreamed about actually appears, and he actually saves her, dying in the process (with a crash I vanish from reality)

[@hannanifakharuzzaman7158]

+wolverinedoctorwho I think he didn't actually saved anyone... he just killed himself in the end... the girl was like an excuse for him to jump

[@ryanthechilihost5102]

She’s a delusion. She wasn’t real in the first place

[@smolhermit207]

;--; 👏👏 beautiful

[@Elizabeth-hu9os]

This. Is. AMAZING!!!! I'm sorry for being late!!

[@idknw28]

So beautiful, I'm in love

[@thearsonistofarland3087]

R.I.P. purple cat😔

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Here’s what happened if you didn’t figure out (according to me) Best friend: murdered Family: murdered Cat: hit by a vehicle Girlfriend: suicide I think

[@halpyhal]

Uh, no, that’s not what happened lmfao. - His best friend was bullied and he did nothing to stop it. Bullying is very harsh and common in asian schools. - It looks as though his family is asking him to stay, maybe to help with finances but he refused. - The cat was hit by a car and left to die. The reason why he feels to blame for this is because he didn’t rescue it while he had the chance. - His girlfriend did indeed take her own life. She likely came to him for help in her distress and he didn’t know how to help her. That’s why he feels guilty about it. His friend and family getting murdered would go against the point of the song and the root of his depression. His inaction has caused people pain and he wishes he could be the opposite. If they were murdered then that wouldn’t be something he could perceive as his fault.

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@@halpyhal yeah that makes sense, is there an official story that goes with this song somewhere?

[@tidalwavewarning]

i! love! this! so! much! dsoudh and to think after all this time im STILL having a hard time figuring out whats going on ;;

[@wa6488]

1:10 I like how the likes and shares show up

[@brdnfrd6420]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETHEART UR SO SWEET AND TALENTED ILL ALWAYS LOVE U OK plus its ok i understand tht ur getting burieD IN SCHOOL WORK OK I FOrgot about an assignment and i need to read a 153 page book and then make an essay about it in two days bUT OH WELL HAPPY BIRTHDAY !! :0

[@altjay1837]

I love it!

[@loli_cvnt5622]

I read the description too late I WAS NOT PREPARED This is really good, but *I WAS NOT PREPARED :'DDD* Funfact: My birthday is on Saturday :p

[@swampet5457]

I hope you had a good birthday both this and last year =)

[@arinoir9257]

Happy early birdthday! And i hope school beggins to lay off of you to let you relax-

[@Jepysauce]

Welp i have a new favorite cover of yours.

[@melontown]

This was published on my birthday 0.0 (Anyway I love this cover its so well done!)

[@akarishiori5231]

I think when he was holding onto the ropes hanging on the train, he was still holding on to life. Ooor maybe they're just nooses and he's rethinking his life... He was sad and depressed and most of all, guilty. Guilty he couldn't save his best friend, that cat, his family and girlfriend. And that guilt took a form of a girl. (Idk why) And his guilt was trying to find him an opportunity to kill himself, but just making him think of it as a heroic act. "Tired eyes" was mentioned 2 times. He was tired of living, maybe tired of living with guilt? "Trapped by the crowd, looking for a way to make it out" ... I can only think he's being suffocated by the people around him and he's trying to find a way to break free and breathe, as he was choking on the constant reminder that was his guilt. Then the girl, his guilt, appeared again. The girl was pulling him towards his death, but he stopped and snapped out of it before he could do the deed. On the second verse, he said "Though I claim I'm not in pain, I just can't admit it hurts... When tears nearly appear, I store my feelings further". Maybe he was telling himself all the time not to feel and let the pain sink in because if it does, he wouldn't be able to live with himself. "Don't see, hear, speak of a tragedy" he told himself and was trying to run away from it all. He tried to stay positive, saying it's not his fault. The echoes in his head were probably his thoughts. His "routine" was the constant guilt creeping behind him everyday and the longer he lived, more tragedy will occur. This was becoming an inevitable cycle for him, to which he couldn't do anything about. When his eyes brightened when the girl appeared again, he was happy to find an excuse to die. He didn't care if he died anymore. He thought that if he died, he can repay the people he mentioned he failed. He thought that him merely existing is a crime and nobody should ever die or sacrifice anything for him again. So he decided to end it all. At some point near or in the bridge, you see him facing the train doors as it opens and he exits on his last stop: death. When he finally took the jump, he felt free of his debt to the people he failed. In his last moments he saw the girl smiling at him. Idk if thats evil or maybe the girl is smiling because he can finally be with his family or girlfriend?? He was able to snap out of his delusions... but it was too late. Maybe he came to his senses, realizing what he's done. Or maybe he snapped out of it because he saw the real girl among the crowd? But if I go along with what I said, that the girl is his guilt taking form in his delusions, then it might've disappeared when he felt he had fulfilled his part. I don't really know about the girl that showed up in the ending. Maybe theres more of a story to this than I thought.

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She was the real one, he saw her once and then his mind tricked him into thinking that she was falling a second time

[@maroonless]

is it just me or do the drums at the start/end / around the train scenes sound like train tracks bc i keep hearing and its so fuckin clever i love it

[@joellamae8004]

Ok so how I see these song is a man who fantasizes about being able to help someone and he works hard work. He also begins to realize that he threw almost his whole life away. He falls into a depression and then sees on of his daydreams come true and does what he did in the dream. Just he pulls her away and throws himself in-front instead. But in the end it could’ve possible been his own mind tricking him, so he just threw himself in front of a train because of his pain. Although if it wasn’t his mind playing tricks, the little girls purple eyes could possibly mean her innocence dying.

[@leelowden654]

The girl was a delusion he accidentally created as an excuse to kill himself. We see the real girl the delusion was based off twice in the song. Both after the events in which he 'saves' the 'girl'.

[@insufferableanarchist]

It is... beautiful... sad and depressing... but... beautiful

[@maxios-7613]

what's funny is the people who live this life everyday and no one understands what they are going through, and doesn't feel the loss until they gave up on their own life. your voice is nice though, I liked your cover more than Miku's one.

[@CrystalGlaze69]

THIS GUY REMINDS ME OF YOONBUM

[@YamiBasara]

Wanna make contributions for your covers in Spanish! (And Happy Birthday... too late for my part, I know -I am a bad person, I know ;;- )

[@gabriela3317]

it´s great!! :D

[@sisiliakordayanti5294]

This song is very emotional if it is sung by you 😍

[@CodedDragon]

Nice. I like it.

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The blonde girl looks like a younger version of the one in milk tea

[@MarieKyriney]

Ahh! I really wanna listen to it but i dont want to start up my pc right now xd

[@ameerm4899]

Wow, happy birthday :) by the way I liked your singing skills from other songs as well. Can't believe your voice is like a mature adult. Are you altering it ?

[@OktaviavonSeckendorff8]

Zero X thank you very much! and nope, this is my natural singing voice~

[@ameerm4899]

You should do Smokes and Mirrors cover too

[@kindantisocial352]

The video is not available but I'm pretty sure it's another amazing work