don't wanna know - original song | dodie

[@sydgrace5120]

don’t look at me while i grow is literally an insane line oh my god

[@fairygothmother111]

dude for real!!! so much of how i’ve been feeling/felt in the past put perfectly into words

[@emmadoesartonline]

NO LITERALLY ive been going through this deep introverted phase after a breakup and a stressful school year and,, Yeah .

[@fairygothmother111]

@@emmadoesartonline that’s real

[@KalebPeters99]

Dodie is a master at stabbing me in the heart with a single line Been feeling this one a lot 😕

[@snakejuce]

calm down child, it's not that serious

[@sjhstrange]

cutting someone off is such a weird sort of heartbreak. suddenly, the immediate image of them alongside you wherever you are has to be consciously corrected. being painfully aware that they're still somewhere out there when all you want to do is round the corner. i feel like these lyrics are reminding me to let go even if i don't necessarily want to- we still exist near each other, but i'm allowed to be on my own- i'm better off on my own.

[@lauri7529]

yup, i know this feeling!

[@sameasme608]

True! I'm going through the same thing right now. It's confusing and painful, but also freeing in the end.

[@amandat3655]

Beautifully put.

[@jennyw2006]

Yeah.. everyone talks about a significant other but I had to leave my best friend because I was too insecure :(

[@nanicrash]

@@jennyw2006 same for me.. I was quite insecure when we met, so they treated me without much respect. My confidence eventually grew, and I didn't want to feel the same way with them as before. So I cut her off... No regrets tho, we are better apart (sorry for venting, the song hit me in the feels✋)

[@paulroberts3639]

You need to put these monthly songs on a CD. I’d definitely buy it. Even though half of it isn’t written yet. I know it will be awesome.

[@louiseemily661]

thisss

[@GamingTheAce]

What's a CD?

[@fern107]

@@GamingTheAce this is a joke right?

[@forestissleepy]

@@GamingTheAce please no don't do this to me 😭💀

[@GamingTheAce]

@@fern107 I assumed it was some kind of classical directory for the music like this

[@leenanorms]

'and I'll let it' such a beautiful line, such a goddman beautiful song

[@doddleoddle]

wa thank u angel

[@martinsakmens8352]

Song Perfect ilove you song dodie clark ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🌹☕💋❤️❤️

[@kaedenreese]

“I’m getting good at enjoying the dark, why would I look if it tears me apart?” so good 😩💞

[@JamesCDavid]

So so good ,she's really amazing , I also do music with not this much Subscribers, if you have some free time ,check it out

[@simsim4910]

I dont think any line in any off her songs has resonated more with me than this one

[@larrydee3550]

i'm a new subscriber thank you i love you i only wish to attract a conversation that is all

[@orlagartland]

YOU’RE SO GOOD AT SONGS

[@freakincody706]

This song was really comforting to me as someone who STILL thinks about a person who left me years ago. That bit about the person who tracked their diary was also comforting, because it feels like, sometimes, I'm always thinking about the same upsetting things. It makes me feel normal to know I'm not the only one doing that.

[@randycandle]

you are such a careful writer, i admire it so much. it's easy to say how someone's hurt you, but the way you focus on the more complex feeling of knowing you'll forgive them because you love them in spite of how they've hurt you is -whew- ow. i don't know if i said any of that right, but just know you're lovely and i'm a better writer in my own songs because of you. x

[@doddleoddle]

🖤

[@professorquinsonsnib]

the actual sound of this song, like the production, is so cool. it sounds so ghostly. i love the way the harmonies mix together like ambiance rather than separate parts you can pick out. and the pulse effect on the vocals at the end of the chorus, wow. it feels like someone slipping away.

[@doddleoddle]

someone slipping away 🥺

[@abbyandrade6971]

I feel like its really easy to give sad songs happy chords so it's more swallowable, but the music and lyrics go perfectly together- a very honest and raw, melancholy experience. (I love it even more for that) :)

[@YTbeccy]

the smirk when she sings “curly hair” … she knows (amazing song btw dodie!!)

[@NephelleLanate1978]

"I'll forgive you, I'll forget it, it'll leave me, and I'll let it" - the simplicity of this beauty gave me chills. Love this song

[@justyourlocalrat_]

"I am making measures, severing tethers, don’t look at me while I grow" is just such a good line lyrically and melodically. this song is amazing and it just gets better every time i re-listen to it

[@lilali9797]

dodie recording this in bali, and trying to do so outdoors only to be interrupted by a rooster... the iconic Indonesian singer-songwriter experience

[@Viazerd]

i love how you choose your levels of pronunciation, from the staccato and clear consonants in "I used to pick up the pace then, take the left turn, it was bad" to the more flowy and overlapping words later in the song and the choruses. it invokes such different feelings and it elevates the song so marvelously. you're a musical fae

[@ladybugjuno]

"don't look at me while i grow" your music always makes me feel so so much

[@PARXROT]

Weirdly, the lyrics make so much sense. I feel the heartache like it’s my own. The feeling that you don’t want to see but still they remain so vivid in your mind. Allowing the scars they gave you to heal. It’s an art piece. You expressed such a complex emotion so simply. I am moved to tears. Gorgeous, gorgeous song! All of the luv dodes (Plus it’s the day b4 my bday so this is the last new song I hear before I turn 15 thats so sick)

[@luisabolado]

happy birthday! saw the comment 15min after it was posted haha🎉

[@PARXROT]

@@luisabolado THANK U SM

[@raiivenwastaken]

Hi hi may be unwarranted but happy early birthday (if you're alright with that dskjdsk)! I hope your 15th year is a good one :D

[@PARXROT]

@@raiivenwastaken you’re the sweetest! Thank you sm

[@christinalinadingdong9566]

Vampy you put that super super well i relate so much Andy happy early birthday!!!

[@ellispipermusic]

i'm obsessed with those little chopped vocals at 1:13 oooooh my goodness. chills

[@ellispipermusic]

i get the feeling that this is going to hit real close to home real soon and i'm not ready

[@sydgrace5120]

yep

[@ellispipermusic]

update: i was right. ow

[@izz2521]

It just hit me very close to home - and I was definitely not ready

[@mia-yf8pz]

@@izz2521 same. now when I listen to this song, it feels different :(

[@kolechuchi]

i dont think i can express how cathartic this song is for someone who has SUCH a hard time letting things go. it's so easy to get caught up in your nostalgia and imagining how things could have been now if we somehow worked it out back then, but you have to realize and look at it from a standpoint that thinking about it isn't helping anymore, it's not healthy anymore. this person has moved on and is probably much happier now, and being sad and nostalgic doesn't do anything for me. im allowed to move on. im allowed to be not friends with this person anymore. it's ok to be strangers again, even if it aches a little bit sometimes. thank you so much dodie. i think im ready to actually start letting go :,>

[@mia-yf8pz]

thank you for writing this :,) I think I'm ready to let go now too

[@kolechuchi]

​@@mia-yf8pz im so glad to hear this

[@mia-yf8pz]

@@kolechuchi hello! update! I did let go and started focusing on myself and grew so much as a person! Now I’m with someone new who makes me feel warm and light at the same time! Best thing I did was choose to let go and love myself. There was better waiting for me!! 🥰

[@ellispipermusic]

FRECKLES SO PRETTY HERE AW

[@raiivenwastaken]

Absolutely in love with the echoey effects on the word 'more' at 1:15 it's so so nice to listen to

[@AlexAlex]

this is criminally under rated

[@stickers-sounders]

for the past few months ive been listening to this song as two lovers ending things on a bad note, but today i just realized that this applies to friends too...almost a year ago, my best friend stopped talking to me, and she's still in my head each day. the "dont wanna know" part of the song is like my mind telling myself to move on and stop thinking about her, but theres still this sad curiosity that really does want to know, and its an ongoing, internal battle that i dont think will ever end. because at the end of the day, i lost a best friend, even though there were so many things we both could have done to fix it, but now its too late, and i will always have regrets great song! really makes me cry and wallow in self pity...but in a good way

[@chrisstephenson9386]

You just grow and grow as a songwriter. No-one else could have written and performed this song this way. It is your unique voice. Jools Holland said (about Jacob Collier) that musicians start out trying to sound like someone else, then they develop to the point where they sound like no-one else. You have reached that point. I can't wait to hear you write more about the other things, too. Richard and Betty showed that you can do that, beautifully. All power to your songwriting elbow.

[@analuizamoreira2697]

ok this made me cry. i BEG you to release it on spotify

[@nikbig2654]

i could talk about how this song was convenient for my circumstances right now but the rooster is the real star of the show here

[@kevinnathanson6876]

Hi; your now elderly fan here... Dodie, that was a beautiful song, and one that will resonate with almost every human. The feelings that you are writing about, and their deep intensity, ARE things that do fade over time. Weirdly, older people almost become nostalgic for those feelings, as, just like being able to jump, and fall, and play, they are things that we can remember, but no longer feel, or do. Your song helps bridge that gap, so thank you for writing it. There will be time for the 'serious' songs, and they too will be beautiful and meaningful... I think I speak for all your fans when I say that I believe you are a special person with a great ability, and I care for your well-being very much. Oh, and as for the ending? Leave it to a cock to mess things up...

[@Stevie_Blue]

"It'll leave me and I'll let it..." still makes me feel everything.

[@tigereye1500]

All of your music feels like a warm hug and really nostalgic. Thank you for creating such wonderful art and sharing it with us.

[@raindrop6566]

This song really helped me through a bad friend breakup. I just rediscovered it recently and it made me realize how long it's been. I really love and appreciate this song for giving me words for feelings I didn't know how to describe at the time.

[@Mossking_art]

I need this on Spotify YESTERDAAAAYYY ❤

[@marlenes593]

how HOW do you always, at the right moment, take my feelings, my pain, my EXACT thoughts, and put them into words and into songs so beautifully !!

[@espejo6904]

my thoughts exactly

[@copelandjames2034]

man i really FELT that frustration at the end with continuing to think and write about the same thing and that sense of “i Have other things to write about, why don’t i Do That?“ want you to know that every song you write feels different and unique, and has a new angle. every complex thing is built from simple parts. and i trust + believe that you will get to writing the other important songs you have to write, too

[@maggieo1683]

This song reminds me of my toxic ex best friend so much. "Why would I look if it tears me apart?" Thanks for writing beautiful and relatable songs dodie.

[@Kavenbink56]

love your songs, going to one of your concerts is on my bucket list

[@nadineebada6557]

same!!

[@offbeatkiki]

their concerts are phenomenal

[@TheHBKGOFFICIAL]

Please put this on Spotify one day I love it so much and come back to this song on the daily to listen to it! Keep up the good work lovely ! ❤❤

[@annabanana7897]

‘it’ll leave me, and i’ll let it” ugh dodie. beautiful as always

[@BrennaG222]

Her lyrics always tear me apart in the best way

[@JamesCDavid]

Same here😔

[@graysanemone]

ohhhh lord i don’t understand how you keep doing it, but for the last ten years without fail, i’ll be going through it for whatever reason and i’ll click on whatever video you just posted and it’s always exactly what i need to hear. the way in which you process the world in your music is so healing and guiding, and always brings new perspective. you have a deep and impressive understanding of how tone, melody, rhythm, and intensity and etc influence emotion, even before the gutting and beautiful lyrics. you put your whole heart into your music and it resonates so far and wide. i have grown so much in the world because of you. thank you for everything, dodie.

[@SadicMoutExt12]

I'm currently dealing with the most massive heartbreak I've experienced. I cannot say I don't want to know where she is or how she's doing now yet because those thoughts haunt me every single day. Even though I've realised there was no reason to be sad over happy memories and beautiful moments and a breakup that's been done tenderly, I can't avoid feeling it, the sadness. Thank you for this melody-hug ,dodie. As usual, you hit me right there.

[@jusong]

this seems to depict the 4th stage of grief packaged in a melancholic, dreamlike song lol

[@ellysseswainson3786]

Sitting in my car thinking about those people who I once held close that are still living in my head rent free. This song was the final nail in the coffin. I don't want to know. Thanks dodie❤️

[@kaedenreese]

the way i got a rush of serotonin from getting this notification

[@ellispipermusic]

it's been a weird day. so glad for a new upload :')

[@doddleoddle]

hope u ok!

[@hallofadventures2320]

This song is so GOOD ugh. The effects on your voice on “anymore” are enough to send me into absolute bliss for the next few days tysm

[@greyson713]

“i’ll forgive you, i’ll forget it it’ll leave me and i’ll let it” speaks to me so much. this whole song really relates to something i’m going through right now; thank you so much for sharing your art with us

[@lunamothhh]

Dodie is honestly one of the best songwriters around in her genre

[@sydgrace5120]

i’ve decided this summer i need to renter my 2016 dodie era and listen to the intertwined ep on loop

[@ellispipermusic]

bet, i'll do it too

[@ayybowman]

will forever be an alltime fav

[@pattheplanter]

What lovely exotic birdsong they have in Bali.

[@JamesCDavid]

She's amazing to listen to , I also do music with not this much Subscribers, if you have some free time ,check it out

[@aimeejane_writings]

The way dodie just creates a song that sounds (but isn’t) so effortless, yet so beautiful and calming. She makes every song look and sound so easy to copy, but really it’s so well thought out. A brilliant songwriter ❤

[@papayasaf5134]

The lyrics are perfect.. when we've learnt that the best way to let go is to get good at knowing it's best for us. And I really feel the ''don't look at me while I grow' - this is me blocking them and everyone they know even though they'll probably never even look hahah it's me going "don't look at me right now"..

[@heman_lee]

these monthly songs are so warm ans seemingly simple in the instrumentation but the melodies and the harmonic components are just so simply beautiful

[@SeerOfTime577]

Revisiting this song after two years, and I was struck by how indescribably beautiful it is.

[@satan_natas]

I can't tell if you always miraculously know how I'm feeling or if you just write songs in a way that always validates my interpretation perfectly

[@Subllama]

this is such a coming of age movie song to be honest like the growth of the first love and taking in the life that is in from the person you thought you loved

[@johannamoeller1375]

I normally never comment but this song touched my heart in such a deep way. Please upload these songs to Spotify!

[@marie-claire1591]

I think this is my favorite song of your monthly ones... around two years ago a friend I thought I would always keep in my life severely hurt me and betrayed my trust. I thought I could just move on and while it works just fine on some days, it doesn’t on others. My mom asked me if I heard of him lately and I told her I didn’t and I didn’t wanna know. Thank you for putting this feeling into music. I’ll continue to come here

[@randomgirl2173]

That yellow dress on the swing with the greenery in the background is all so pretty

[@jjdoesntlikeyoueither]

this is the best part of my day.

[@mystichlo]

“i’m making measures” to “i don’t wanna know even more” of the chorus is perfection

[@charissnyder5887]

Dodie your music is one of the things I’ve found that slows my mind and makes me feel still and calm. I have been diagnosed with ADHD recently, so I’m taking extra notice to what helps and what makes it worse. It’s no wonder I’ve been following you for so long.

[@ash_rob_artist4556]

I want to be here, but right now I’m not. I’m still angry and hurt and I want to know where he is and how he’s doing. But knowing I’ll be here eventually is so encouraging and helpful. I hope I can enjoy the dark, but right now it just makes me cry.

[@raspberrytaegi]

those topics that you mentioned you could write about sound really cool, but i am so thankful that this is the song you wrote and chose to share with us! it resonates with a lot of people, including me. i love the way you write lyrics about yearning

[@fairygothmother111]

completely agree :))

[@sapporo7king]

I was so impressed that my back trembled when I listened to it. I have a heart in the performance and it sounds beautiful. Thank you very much

[@mikichii333]

You always seem to write things as I go through them. You have a gift and a super power and I am so sorry for what ever gave you inspiration for this song because I can tell it hurts

[@lizlintonen9846]

i needed to hear this right now.

[@panix.x]

This song has somehow cemented itself in every area of my life god damn

[@DayneTheMane]

I'm so impressed with your mixing work Dodie!! As an audio student, I understand how much effort goes into good quality recordings and mixes. Loving the details around 1:15 and the subtle dynamic changes throughout the piece. Endlessly impressed with how quickly you're growing as a musician :) Cheers

[@whatdoinamemyself8300]

I love the song, and I love the little chat she has after it. Makes me feel less alone. Thank you Dodie, and to anyone else reading this :)

[@gracie7244]

I’ve put off listening to this for a week now and I despise that I did. Because exactly a week ago this would’ve broken me. There’s such a magic to your music dodie. The way it makes people feel is so fluid and it’s always changing with life experience. I could come back and listen in a year and feel something new. Thank you

[@alezanderlancelot585]

Had a recent friendship breakup. First time of my life, and it hurt so bad. But it's better this way, and this song really helped soothe my ache.

[@allyzanicolehernandez]

okay it's been a while but dodie never fails to make me shed a tear because of her words 🥹

[@postpukepeace5412]

Dear Dodie, Hearing about your experience with depression and dissociation all while pushing yourself to still make art, as a fellow musician and artist, keeps my spirits up. As someone who tends to fixate a lot on negative thoughts, I fear my 20s will be awful, but you make me genuinely excited to keep on growing and keep on learning about myself and the world around me. To continue taking things slowly, and making efforts to love myself. Your art brings me more comfort than any media I’ve consumed in the last few months. Thank you Sincerely, Binah

[@JohnSmith-xh5wz]

I just wanna say I freaking LOVE the stutter of 'even more' it's so mesmerising to an already eloquent melody.

[@forcefedsoup]

“that’s what i did. just made me sad.” that line cuts so deeply into me

[@brittanycurtis828]

This murdered me. Going through a breakup after 5 years of a relationship and this song just put so much of how i feel into words. Needless to say i cried through the whole thing. I love your art, dodie. Keep making me cry 💕

[@breb928]

i just got broken up with after nearly 3 and a half years. i had to block/unadd him from my socials because i could barely stand seeing him be seemingly perfectly fine. i couldn't see him living a life without me. this song came at just the right time.

[@brittanycurtis828]

@@breb928 here’s to healing our hearts ❣️

[@SequoiaVanEkeren]

please release these as singles and at the end of the year as a full album! its too good for just KZbin❤

[@janicasmusik]

This song helps me so so bloody much right now.. I‘ve loved it ever since it was posted.. but right now? Oh my god didn’t think it coult hit even more hard.. thank you dodie.. you let me live

[@DarthMaui]

You are wonderful in a world that often is not. Thank you, Dodie.

[@edensylvester13]

love the bridge

[@livvy833]

every time dodie writes a song she kills me and i love her for it. thanks for aiming directly at my chest every single time

[@BinaBianca]

beautiful!

[@blofishmusic]

wow wow the production and editing on this one has me in awe im not gonna lie

[@Quniquefab629]

This song screams growth after a falling out/break up and that's where I'm at right now. You have no idea how comforting this is to me

[@JadeTierra14]

I needed this upload today. Beautiful as ever!

[@irked_me5735]

I’m not sure how to type/share this but .. here goes: it’s sort of weird to think just four (?) months ago, I found your music because of my ex girlfriend. Now I’ve just graduated and and am listening to the first song I’ve heard by you that wasn’t because of her. And the strangest part … is that this song kind of encompasses how I feel about her now. I was so hurt just a few weeks ago but now that I’m finally getting the time not to see her .. and feel my feelings without worrying about seeing her face again, the pain doesn’t reside as much as it did. I thought it was a cliché but i guess it’s true what they say about time healing all wounds, the more days that pass, I think my mind drifts to her less… anyways thank you for sharing your music, I absolutely love your lyrics - they have never failed to resonate with me :)

[@milktears3756]

i was looking through all her old music, and wow, dodie really has like, grown into herself, and her face over the years, she looks so calming :)

[@lindsayh8374]

I will never get sick of her lyrics. I mean, they just fit perfectly and describe so well a feeling so many people know but can’t put into words

[@user-yn9fi3xd8f]

Dodie...from the very bottom of my heart...please please release these songs as soon as you can please. Please. It’s 3am and I’m listening to all the 2022 songs and they’re just so brilliant. Please. (Lots of love ❤️❤️)

[@lexi_hana]

Your music just brings my brain bliss. I have no way else to describe it. It's so soothing and easy to listen to and your way with lyrics is so inspiring. Thank you for another amazing song.

[@jernejq1651]

This casual fragility is so convincing, so lovable, so near to the heart ... Thanks!

[@TheRealDanVerton]

Dodie, as a longtime fan and father of a fan who introduced me to your music, I ask that you write something to help my country heal from the epidemic of gun violence and hatred. We really need it.

[@Rulerofwax24]

I feel like I needed this. I'm going through a breakup and I keep using all these little crutches to make sure I know they're still there. Knowing they exist, even if I can't talk to or interact with them, comforted me. I've gotten better over time, but I know I need to let go of that.

[@RosaChristen]

This tune was the only thing that calmed my anxiety today. Thanks Dodie.

[@ambiguousaesthetic4170]

I just came back after feeling sad I hadn't kept up with the rest of your year's monthly songs only to find that we were in the same boat! Even if it feels a little strange to continue the months after like a 7 month hiatus I'd still love to see this beautiful project continued, that is, if you'd like to continue it.

[@doodleedledoo]

I’m happy for all of us that you’re here.

[@thereseruffles7560]

This perfectly describes how I feel about an old friend, except I haven’t gotten to the point that I don’t ask how she is, even though it does tear me apart to know

[@silversoul3753]

This song hurts beautifully.