what I eat in a day - the best breakfast, a sandwich stack + divine dessert - anorexia recovery

[@MadisonTiahn]

Yes to starting to get out of baggy clothes. That is a big step for some people. So proud of you. x

[@runningrigert]

I love that, too!

[@nat-hd9fq]

I know u might don't care, but I just made a decision that I'll try to recover. I'm not anorexic, bulimic, underweight but I definitely don't have a healthy relationship with food, counting calories and with myself. You are such a inspiration for me, really. I'm so proud of you Elzani. And for all of the people that are suffering from ed and are thinking about recovery- do it. ik you might think "i don't deserve it, I'm not even underweight /not even skinny (or what ever your thinking that makes you NOT ENOUGH FOR RECOVERY) it's bullshit. if u want it, u deserve it. make yourself a favor and choose a normal life. 'cause YOU DESERVE A HAPPY, NORMAL LIFE. remember that. stay strong babies🤧💜

[@brotaufstrich2461]

Thats the right mindset! You can do it!!

[@ohmycat4120]

I have the same mindset because I have to “recover”. I have to gain weight even though I’m not skinny or underweight because of missing menstrual, which I really hate but I don’t really consider it anorexia recovery for me I just consider it weight gain even though I have bad relationships with food and thoughts

[@georgieroberts8697]

Get ittt💛

[@nat-hd9fq]

@yourlittle princess we all fear baby:( you have to at least try to understand that your body needs it and even if you're gonna gain some weight it's gonna be ok. ik it's kinda stupid but ask yourself if you want to fear that in 5/10 years and what's going to happen if you don't overcome this fear. i believe in you, you should believe in yourself too❤️

[@maisiehinchliffe7107]

I just screenshotted this! I am going to read it everyday and motivate myself to eat more. I’m on 400 cals a day and honestly always feel tired and dizzy so its Time for me to try and help myself 🙌

[@Ella-ps1lg]

Before you got criticized for crying all the time - and now you're having too much fun and are fake. Some people will always judge and find fault but you have tons of lovely followers who can see how much work you've put in and how much you've progressed. You have always shown a very real and raw account of anorexia recovery (painfully real at times) & you continue to amaze and inspire me. Whenever I feel bad about eating I come and watch one of your videos and they help like nothing else does. Keep going! lots of love xx

[@katielp97]

I never comment on videos but just wanted to tell you that you should be so proud of yourself! You’re looking so much happier in every video. Stay strong and keep going beautiful! You can beat this xx

[@chillylilly6378]

„Got to eat the snacks to look like a snack“ has probably become one of my favorite life mottos ever😆❤️

[@ladyoflove1551]

She should make some merch and use these words on it. Perfect 🙌

[@startfromsquareone2913]

You rock girl and anyone saying that you are not realistic and recovery is not supposed to be fun, should just sh.. up. You can be so damn proud of what you have achieved!!

[@bbbbhbhjjj7222]

Agreedddd

[@bbbbhbhjjj7222]

Thank you

[@emma199307]

StartFromSquareOne she did show the hard moments she filmed herself crying and having meltdowns during recovery and many comments complained that she cries too much :/ so now she’s showing less of that

[@shaunaderubeis9230]

You are glowing, happy, fresh, and thriving. You fought your bum off to get to where you are right now, I hope you are so proud of yourself. I am so proud of you.

[@roosterooster]

look at those arm muscles coming in! i can tell you’re getting so strong, it’s inspiring

[@Zzzzzzzz41]

This is the most realistic portrayal of recovery i have watched (and i watch ALOT of recovery youtubers). Especially the bit you said near the end about finding it harder when youve eaten less the day before etc. So true. So we know the answer is to EAT. Always. Elzani iv been following you for a long time and im so proud of you... i hope you are proud of yourself too. You inspire me in my own recovery and im sure you do the same to many other viewers- you are putting good energy out into the world and you will be rewarded for this (you already are by reaching a healthier place every day). Please remember this all on the bad days. Sending love from a muslim girl in the uk xxx

[@isabel.j1136]

A couple of topics it would be really helpful if you felt okay to talk about❤️: 1)how to cope with weight gain 2)best distractions/coping mechanisms 3)how to deal with triggers I love your videos ❤️❤️

[@chandemg9963]

Let’s also add dealing with extreme hunger and bingeing in recovery

[@trinityfrick2193]

the color is coming back in your face. you look beautiful

[@Coloredsprinklegirl]

I see the difference in so many ways!!!! So inspiring!!!! Keep going girl. Love your videos!! Love your family!

[@ketchup1185]

You're looking more and more beautiful every day, you're so strong.

[@espie5106]

Well done Elzani, don't let anyone get you down about anything! I think your an amazing person and your helping so many other people struggling! I can relate to what you think or say and you know what I say to those thoughts? Living a life of deprivation isn't worth it. Keep eating what you want and doing what you do because I believe you can do it! ❤️❤️❤️

[@emilias993]

Elzani, just like any other subscriber to your channel, I am soo proud of you. I know you have put a lot of effort in this process so that you could reach this position of recovery. And I am very lucky for that. You smile more often, do like "soft" sports and... yes! - you have become a entire different woman (in a positive way, of course :)) But you HAVE to keep going. You are not fully recovered, I can see that. Do as you always do, eat fear foods, break your eating disorder rules, etc. But I think that you should think less about food because (from my experience) that makes your anorexia stronger. And you can't let it win! Stay strong, warrior! xx

[@denamullen340]

Hey pretty girl! Your really doing this thing! Kicking ass and taking names! 🌸. You look so good in them shorts!

[@oliviacapasso2792]

Girllllllll you’re killing recovery!!! I look up to you soooo much 😍

[@natreygadas4908]

I love how happier and healthier you look 💖 you're seriously super strong and inspiring, and I really admire you, your words when you were about to have that late night snack really got me, thank you so so much for being such a great help

[@leahmulliner6422]

Why shouldn’t recovery be fun. You’re getting better. And feeling better for it. Some people are so morbid. Keep doing what you’re doing. Eat everything you want and block out those haters gal

[@jacintarene_]

leah mulliner I don’t think anyone is saying recovery shouldn’t be fun. There is just a major problem with transitioning from obsessive thoughts about not eating and calorie counting to obsessive thoughts about perfect meals and everything tasting perfect. It’s not always the case that someone can eat perfect meals that are served in a particular way and with a wide variety of different things, you sometimes will have to just eat because you have too and it may be peanut butter sandwiches or 2 minute noodles because maybe you’re broke or you haven’t been to the store. Elzani does an absolutely brilliant job, but I think people would like to know that she’s eating because she knows she has to and that’s how you live, and that she is okay with maybe just eating a boring meal (or just eating crisps out of the bag). Does that make sense? Obvs we only see a small part of her life, but if she’s posting for support and to share her story then those who follow and support her are gunna point out concerns, and if these aren’t issues to Elzani then she can carry on. No hate going on

[@leahmulliner6422]

jacintalovesart just going off what she said. Recovery should be fun. You’re finding yourself again. People need to stop over thinking so into every tiny reason. Do what makes you happy and if she’s enjoying it. She’s enjoying it. She obviously knows all the reasons you just pointed out. All I’m saying is. Have fun. :)

[@Radisgrek]

Good work Elzani! I recommend you to definitely challenge your fear of butter at some point because eggs on toast with butter is too good to miss out on! You can do it! xxx

[@mariaamspacker7125]

Elzani, don't worry that someone said you shouldn't be happy. You have spent way to much time not being happy. Enough of that. Time to enjoy yourself and enjoy getting better. I'm sure you still have struggles but remember you don't want to be that person anymore, that person wasn't happy. Just think of all the things that you can do again when you are recovered! You CAN do this, YOUR way, as long as you are doing it healthy, doesn't matter what someone says.

[@MamaRoseto8]

I want to like this 100 times. :)

[@meryem2762]

Elzani you are just incredible, I've been watching your videos and following your recovery journey for 4 months now and you are looking better and better every video. You should be proud of yourself and of how far you've come. We are with you and you can do this! Much much much love ❤

[@konnass]

Keep going elzani you need to gain weight and be healthy you deserve this you are so beautiful and always you inspiring me to start the recovery journey ( sorry for the bad English i am from Greece)

[@konnass]

@Sophie Howard thank you ❤️❤️

[@HS-uc7sk]

Can we see your birds at some point, their little tweets are so cute! Well done today Elzani! Smashing it!

[@ellabicheno2732]

I’ve been watching you from the start and I can’t believe how AMAZING your doing and how far you’ve come!!!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@mollie6160]

Your radiance and positivity is amazing Elzani, so happy you’re sharing your journey with us 💖

[@Kath4954]

YOU LOOK SO GOOOOD ELZANI, YOURE DOING AMAZING

[@freyasworld2286]

This video (especially breakfast) shows how her attitude towards food is getting better🤩 I hope it’s not just for the camera and she’s genuinely getting better💓

[@harmonyhope1709]

When I was in treatment at The Bethlam, we had a 3 course breakfast. The middle course was Greek yoghurt and tinned fruit. I always chose apricots. At first I was actually too terrified to even taste what I was eating, but when I overcame the fear it was actually the best part of any of the meals I had in a day there and I really looked forward to it!!! I had kinda forgotten about the combo until now. I am inspired to try it again, years later at home!! 😊❤️ Loving the progress you're making. Not in terms of weight or anything like that, but how much more relaxed you are around food and how much more you're smiling! 😉❤️ Keep it up!! 💪💪💪

[@kirinki13]

Elzani I admire you because you give yourself actual snacks and meals. I have the fear of allowing myself an actual meal or snack and just grabbing small smorgasbord of food which makes me even more anxious. But I dont know how to give myself an actual meal because it's like I want everything and I'm always so obsessed with the foods I haven't had for years even if I want something else. It's such a fight in my head.

[@megeliz8651]

“Got to eat the snacks to look like a snack” -elzani. Best thing I’ve ever heard in a long time. 😂Meant a lot to me too! 💕

[@lexidanko2690]

pro tip: store your nut butters upside down so the oil will be at the bottom when you go to use it! love your videos Elzani you're such a beautiful soul

[@kecrn4132]

Lexi Danko - just make sure the lid is super super tight!!

[@bolleportmann3946]

Wow im so impressed that you are so positive in recovery, that shows to me how strong you are and how much you fight. When I was in recovery I was just crying all day long not being positive at all😂 but you are awesome! Although ist so hard to push yourself trough recovery you are allways smiling and keeping up that inspiring mentality. Thats so amazing! You really are a role model to me! ❤️❤️❤️😊🤗

[@flyabluefly]

To say I’m proud would be an understatement, you’ve grown so so much, Elzani. It’s truly amazing to see how much you’re progressing. ❤️

[@Sophieonline]

So bloody proud of you elzani!! Xxx

[@Sophieonline]

Mimi its a traditional English term, in the same context of amazing. Xxx

[@jessicamarsden1039]

Yess so good 😊😊all looks good 😋😋well done beautiful so proud of you. Great video❤️❤️keep going love u xx

[@pinksloth7318]

Poor mummy xx I wish I could help in some way xx It is a good thing that those cancer cells are being ionised though, I am not surprised if other healthy cells are being affected as well xxxx well done for today Elzani, loving your confidence.

[@sarab9670]

I'm so freaking proud of you! When you were talking at the end about the peanut butter and the thoughts you've been having you could tell you really meant what you were saying and you were still challenging yourself! You're a queen and motivate me and so many others, don't let those negative comments get to you 💕💕

[@kirstyindark4972]

I love your humour, honestly you always make me giggle especially during the phone robot dance 😂❤

[@videobuds19]

4:11 one of the mamy reasons you are such an amazing person 😂 you can be yourself and you are soo sweet!! thanks for being such an inspiration ❤

[@hellomadita9652]

Looove to see you‘re funny and joking side more and more often - Yay to becoming ourselfes again and being fun to be around 🌞

[@louiseschoemann5148]

Watching the the life get back in your eyes is sooooo inspiring and amazing. You look more and more alive and full of joy, you can be proud of yourself. Keep on thriving, you're a gorgeous soul!

[@shelleyn2884]

omg you are gorgeous....you just keep going . you are very aware of your struggle and you are striving to battle the thoughts....they are just thoughts.....and you are dominating . You go girl. You are making good progress....carry on! LOve from California

[@DRAGONFLYS06]

Sometimes people struggle but don't show it. I understand as I do this all the time. One thing Elzani might have that others don't is an amazing family that support her and understand more than some. I try to recover from my eating disorder sometimes but when I can't stop eating (it's not their fault) as they don't understand they make me feel guilty for it. I've been over weight and I've been very underweight to the point I was told they wanted me to go to inpatient. Eating disorders are not about food and are usually an unhelpful coping skill for something. Everyone is different and have experienced different lives so everyone's recovery is different

[@chloejoy774]

omg the difference in ur attitude and outlook now compared with ur videos at christmas is insane!! u seem so much happier which is so nice to watch x

[@emepleez]

Canada is routing for you!!!! You genuinely sound better... keep fighting!!!! you've got this!!!!

[@jessicasullivan5965]

You make recovery look fun which is so refreshing, positive and reassuring to see. You’re amazing Elzani xx

[@Stacyann_1]

Love seeing you so excited about food. Always makes me smile 😊

[@bloopjellybean1325]

I honestly had a long day at work, so many things were just negative and I felt like my day was gonna end on a bad note. But honestly I just enjoy your videos so much that your positive and energetic attitude feels like it's been transferred to me. And I feel great 😂

[@ellaeaton9316]

Yesssss elzani keep going strong!!!!!!x

[@Kiruxki]

Elzani, you are amazing! You are so strong and wonderful! Please do not look at the negative comments. Those people aren't you and they don't know what you are going through! But you are doing amazing! People who watched you for a while, know really well how much you struggle and we are so proud of you! Love you!

[@juliavesseur1249]

Elzani!! So proud of you!! I have a lil snack idea! Back when I used to live in Holland people would make sandwiches/toasties and put bars of chocolate in there. How about a peanut butter + milky bar toastie?? I love your videos, and you! You’re such a light! Sending love to you, your mum, and your whole fam!

[@cinnyslittlefriends1379]

So excited to watch early finally!! Love you Elanzi! I can’t believe I’m first!! ♥️

[@AnnabelleMitchellLucyRoss]

Omg your personality is just showing through more and more! Loving it :D you’re so funny and vibrant ❤️❤️😘

[@Creative_contour]

I have to admit your looking great girl!! I’m so proud of you! Keep doing what your doing

[@julietweston-simons142]

You have a beautiful relationship with your mum. Well done to both of you for fighting anorexia together. You are doing so well, well done x

[@darceytheveggie5668]

I love how varied your diet is, I watch to get meal and snack ideas. Keep fighting elzani x

[@Hazeydaze92]

Yes girl you're smashing this recovery for real now!! Life is about to get sooooo good just you wait! :D

[@georgiamccolley-brookes8244]

Girl you are looking fantastic!!!!!

[@mal2296]

i am so proud of you

[@ladyoflove1551]

Elzani, I am so proud of you! You are looking better and better. You are glowing from your happiness and you seem to have so much more energy. You keep that positive attitude because that is what is helping you in your recovery. Don't let anyone tell you any different. Positive vibes, brings so much more positivity and light into our lives. It took me many years to figure that out. Keep doing you! You're doing fantastic! 💖🤗👍😁

[@jillianmarie9998]

You are doing so amazing, Elzani. You look amazing and happier than ever before. Keep up the amazing work! We are all so proud!

[@greeentealeaf]

YESSS girl you're GLOWING yesssss

[@emilyrose4320]

Ok i haven’t watched in a minute, but it’s so nice to see you genuinely recovering. ELZANI YOU‘RE DOING SO AMAZING! I could cry I’m so happy. Also, loved the video. ☺️

[@JoJo-vg9sj]

If making recovery fun is working for you then keep doing it, you have been through enough and as you said it’s still not easy but your putting a positive spin on it!!!! Love your videos Elzani 💕💕💕

[@melanyfreij5319]

You should try almond butter and pink lady apple. YUM! PROUD OF YOU!

[@ottaviazwillenberg3168]

Melany Freij best combo

[@kecrn4132]

Sooooo yummy!

[@funhut1]

I think I am following you since maybe 5 months or even 6. And I AM SOO PROUD OF YOU Elzani♡

[@nabiladib1186]

Omg elzani u start looking healthy and more amazing than u are. Keep growing 👏💪❤

[@_kim_3688]

Glad to see that you have so much energy now!😘

[@mj425masa]

@Elzani I love seeds, but somehow these are also my fear food when I eat them as my "snack". But I love adding seeds and crushed nuts on my scrambled eggs as some toppings, and it tastes so good! I want you to try sometimes! ;) Also I add some dried fruits onto my scrambled eggs, which my family says that is a weird combination. lol By the way, seeing you getting better, I mean not just eating more but also you act more energetic and being funny with the cute sense of humor (like when you got a phone call on this video. LOL), brings up my motivation to get better from my ED. Thank you! and your family! and my husband always says I should be more serious facing for my ED and recovery, but I think trying to "enjoy" recovery is not bad things at all. I mean I need to be serious for my "health situation", but people ENJOY eating food which had been really really scary things for us who had restricted lots of food for a long time. And sometimes, trying to have fun let me feel a bit freer and not freaking out. You are super cool!

[@OriginalOWL]

Your editing has gotten so great. I love the little additions and funny sped up parts

[@OriginalOWL]

I just got to the part about recovery being fun. It should absolutely be fun at a point. Those people obviously have not watched from the beginning of your journey, because you used to cry and have to excuse yourself at least once each video. You were still in a very bad place. You can literally see the progress video by video. Don't ever let someone tell you what recovery "should be". None of us are the same, and we shouldn't want to be. Some people just don't know how to process their envy, other than to try to bring what they're envious of down to their level. It has nothing to do with you in reality, only them. Keep on doing your thing girl!

[@MrMsbill]

Original OWL Absolutely! I’ve watched her videos for a while and can tell a difference.

[@user-sg6hv5dn3y]

Elzani keep going you’re so strong and I’m sooooo proud of you

[@ninah8389]

Not sure what looks more beautiful, the food or you🤔 Hmm You❤

[@eviecrawford4314]

Hey Elzani I love your videos I just wanted to ask if you could talk more about your experiences finding sneaky bits of restriction while recovering, because i find your what I ate today videos helpful but then I still focus too much k food and not on really making progress every chance I get ::// love you xx

[@cindyharmsworth5526]

Ignore the bad comments you are definitely on the right track keep fighting. Such an inspiration!!!

[@reginaestrada5160]

I absolutely love your reactions jaja, I will love to have such a great recovery as yours

[@shellbysmith3479]

Your absolutely right elzani dont lusten to them recovery is fum dont do what i see your doing at the end of this video saying what your ed wants you to say oh i ate alot and other stuff you didnt eat alit or too much you dont need to explain yourself to anyone your doing just wonderful dont say this is hard and oh i ate to much or i shouldnt have YES YOU SHOULD AND YOU CAN DO IT ANYTHING IS GREAT YOUR THE BOSS REMEMBER THE WORLD IS YOUR LOVE YOU I DOING IT TOO THANKS TOO YOU XXXXXX OOOOO

[@josefinesgade]

I love watching u getting more and more life in to ur eyes. ilysm keep fighting 🖤🖤

[@MarvinTheBenchwarmer]

Love your outfit choice!! You're doing a great job :)

[@HollyGrace90]

I absolutely love pink lady apple dipped into nut butters sooooo good. I could eat it all day long and fish finger sandwich, daaaaamn, I was drooling on my phone watching this. Xx

[@georgiagidney4412]

Hi, this video is awesome btw ! U seem so chilled and it's lovely to see how strong Ur being through Ur recovery ! Also I hope this doesn't offend you but you actually look really beautiful ! Your eyes have a sparkle and your smile us beeming compared to Ur earlier videos ! You look gorgeous without anorexia ! ❤️ So proud, so inspiring !

[@emelierietz9390]

Awww Gurl you’re amazing don’t let anyone think otherwise❤️🥰 keep up the good work, always have what you’re craving and don’t regret it. Take double or even four times more of whatever your having. It’s you that decide what u want and how much of it, not your Ed. Always stay happy and always try to have fun while doing what you’re doing❤️❤️

[@frozenwegler69]

So seem genuinely happier now I’m so proud of you

[@ariannac1865]

I am so proud of you, keep going because you deserve to be happy!

[@yeganehsetayeshnia7262]

So happy and excited for this video my lovely friend 😍😍💜💙💚

[@LexiLooBelle]

Loving seeing the new videos Elzani. You are just so happy and seem so much more at peace with yourself and food. It's wonderful. So, having watched the rice pudding bit, you have to try Rachel's Divine Rice Pudding. Comes in packets of 2 in the fridge! It really is divine! 💜

[@feyre1188]

OMG ONE DIRECTION! 😍 I love your videos! You really inspire me and motivate me for my own recovery, thank you for that. I'm going camping with friends for the next 3 days, so that will involve lots of food and snacks. Kinda stressed out about it, but I'm not going to restrict, it'll only ruin the mood! Take care xx

[@illuminatingg9428]

Yay I just messaged saying I could wait and the video popped up!!!🥰🥰🥰

[@blumoon3100]

I see it as the opposite of what you have been told. Recovery can be fun. Is it easy ? hell no. That doesn't mean you can't enjoy it. Rediscovering yourself is amazing. Don't listen to the haters and continue being awesome.

[@carriegreen4306]

You are absolutely amazing, such an inspiration to so so many! Keep it going hun, you’re incredibly strong! 🥰🥰

[@Nikol_Vasilou]

Your mum is so sweet .... You re very lucky!

[@heloisa7813]

your skin is glowing and you look so beautiful omg

[@empoweringmindsets6667]

Yesss goodjob 💖 im going to make a video like this for my recovery channel 💪🏼 so inspiring

[@crystalgoddess4440]

You have got to try peanut butter on your chocolate oats! So divine 😍🙌🏻

[@blondelass123]

You are doing so well. 💖 Your personality is really starting to shine!! 💖💖

[@Jess-zh9qu]

So proud of you! we all believe in you!❤️keep fighting!❤️

[@karenwaren6852]

Your energy is so inspiring Elzani. you are so much happier now that you are feeding your soul, and i am so proud to have watched you on your journey 💜

[@TheAlicesense]

Addicted to your “what I eat in a day” videos!!

[@princessladytanya]

You're amazing well done, now to keep going one day at a time. Much love xx

[@DownTheRabbitHole100]

So proud of you beautiful girl x