MY EXPERIENCE ON ANTIDEPRESSANTS Q&A | Estée Lalonde

[@georgiap5159]

Depression is a conversation in the room next door while you're trying to sleep, loud enough to keep you awake, but quiet enough to not understand what's being said

oh danggg

[@heather6404]

Truthhhhh. So well said.

[@daisyjones5559]

*for some people.

[@georgiap5159]

@@daisyjones5559 Literally just a metaphor from a piece of creative writing omg....

[@daisyjones5559]

@@georgiap5159 and?

[@heatherharris72]

You really are transcending the whole ‘influencer’ role and providing real value that will help people live a better life...thank you!

That is so nice of you to say - thank you ❤️

[@karolinaks4192]

@ YES. I agree with Heather Harris. Even though we all 'know' that social media is often a highlight reel-i think posts like this cut through the veneer of perfection, glamour, and style. Thank you for sharing something so personal and an issue that has affected so many of my family members. I think your post can be so inspirational i.e. one can have real struggles, yet still be fabulous AND be relatable. xo from Canada PS Wishing you every success!!

[@mimosabasu1082]

Totally agree. Kinda getting tired of ppl just showing a magnified life which is good to escape from reality from time to time...but also makes u feel less too & reminds u if how much u lack. So yeah..appreciate this real content along with the chirpy stuff

[@rayanalam5344]

@ I like your All vedio and I like you can I get your number

[@tommyben755]

I know it's kinda randomly asking but does anyone know of a good place to watch newly released movies online?

[@violetkittens8859]

I admire how open and honest you are!

Thank you!

[@Jade-wb6fd]

When you have depression and anxiety but you’re too anxious to take medication because you’re worried about the side effects and all the what if’s, yeah that’s me. I wish there was a video like this that I could have watched like a decade ago when I was really struggling and at my worst. I’ve been going to therapy for a decade but this video made me rethink the medication route, it doesn’t seem as terrifying as I had imagined. Thank you so much for taking the time to help others understand something that isn’t talked about much

[@elliebabe155]

@@Billpeterson4785 what medication are you taking?

[@annadelcol2428]

Hang in there dear Jane. I understand you completely, I have the same struggles but you're so much stronger then you give credit for.

[@pastelwhimsy1516]

As a mental health therapist and also someone who has been on antidepressants now for almost a year I found this video really informative and validating. I had the exact same feeling when I first went on my medication, “oh my gosh there are people who feel this way all the time? People who don’t fixate and get anxious about literally everything big and small?” I definitely feel like going on medication was the right decision for me. It changed my life completely in such a positive way and I feel like I’m finally who I was meant to be without being weighed down by my wonky neurotransmitters. Thank you for making this video!

[@nileshgalchar7153]

Thanks 🙏

[@thebeautyroom6392]

This is amazing, I couldn’t have explained it better especially the part where you said that you still can ‘function’ AND be depressed. Many people think if you still get things done - you’re not depressed. A lot of times I’ve experienced this with people not taking me serious enough. I run my own business, live alone, have a dog, have support from friends and family yet still suffer from severe depression and anxiety. Love how transparent you are, you have such a great spirit! 🦋

[@warsawfashionfreak]

Same girl! You can have amazing career, do amazing at uni, have a huge group of friends and still suffer from mental disorders. Sending you lots of love

[@andreasummers1955]

Sending you lots of love!

[@aejlindvall]

I agree. But at times you can also question the wording of "functioning". Because - at least for me - I've become so good at pretending to be functioning or I just try SO hard to try to appear it. And like you said, despite being severely depressed. There are many types of depressions and also people have different ways of trying to cope with it

[@natashadefoe7035]

I'm high functioning depression and anxiety with PTSD and GAD/SAD.

[@hasinapatel1233]

@the beauty room 6392 You are so lucky you can do. all those things with feeling depressed because you have motivation . I have often wondered how depression is different each individual . I wished I has motivation to do everything you are managing to do.

[@emmabrkrshrp]

I know as a result of this video, some people will go talk to their healthcare professional about how they are feeling. Letting go of that 'secret' is always an instant improvement! Big hugs to you, Estee, and anyone else who needs one 💗

Very true!

[@natpaler883]

I think I'm going tomorrow because it's been too long since I felt 'anything'.

[@KaytieMay]

@ I did! thank you so much for this video

[@kobebryant-cl7ul]

@mind me asking what medication exactly worked for you?

[@yutubpopon8956]

I'm 26 and I've been on antidepressants for 9 months now, I feel great .. I hope everyone who's going through the same just know that you're not alone, you're loved. ❤️

[@ikhdakhusnayein4634]

Please tell me do you experience something with PSSD? Or you get low sexual desire or something? I’v been on antidepressant for a week now. Thankyou!

[@kobebryant-cl7ul]

Mind me asking what antidepressant??

[@gabbyz8995]

I’m only 25 and social anxiety was not talked about. People just kept telling me not to be so shy as if it was something I was choosing to do. My mother had anxiety, but she never talked about it so I never knew it existed and when I started to have major anxiety and panic attacks it was just ignored. I didn’t figure any of it out until college. And only recently upon reflection I’ve begun to realize I’ve had this major anxiety disorder and depression since I was 2. Or at least that’s as far back as I actually have memory. Thank you for talking about this. If mental health had been discussed and more normalized growing up maybe I could have gotten help and developed healthy coping mechanisms sooner. I’ll always believe in having these discussions for that reason, we can help people understand what’s going on within their minds so they can get help themselves.

[@ursulaleonowicz2744]

Reading this made me realize that the extreme "shyness" I experienced when I was young (which would regularly lead to me throwing up) was most likely anxiety (something my mother also experienced but never talked about). Thanks for sharing.

[@sasha_markovsky]

I had a similar experience. I sometimes wonder if it is a consequence of living as an introvert in this extroverted world. As Esteé mentioned, I think we learn to "push through" these issues, maybe because the society requires us to do so, but this impacts out mental health...

[@mirtaifiqbal1952]

Since 2 ? Really?

[@jessicahodgson2291]

When she’s describing the trip to the grocery store I’m like “there are people who don’t do that? They just get up and go places?”

[@mch186]

i literally started crying

[@inavitale3223]

Estee, I’m a long-time viewer and depressed/anxious person who has resisted medication for years. This video has given me the strength to want to ask my therapist about SSRIs next week at my appointment. Thank you for your honesty 😌♥️

[@inavitale3223]

I’m starting my SSRIs tomorrow, thank you for giving me the courage to try this, Estee! ♥️

[@alessandracurtoni304]

You go girl!

[@NewLeatherface]

@@inavitale3223 How did it go?

[@winniekyn6162]

@@inavitale3223 any update?

[@StonerE1]

i always describe my anxiety and depression like being suffocated or like im drowning, like im trying to breathe and i just cant. Swimming for me really helps this desperate feeling, like its washing something away for me and its so calming. Thank you so much for sharing your experience

[@11cesarrenato]

being suffocated all the time...and awareness

[@midnightstars78]

Thanks Estee for being so vulnerable and sharing your story! For those that have just started on antidepressants, they usually take about 6-8 weeks to fully 'work' and you may feel worse than before during this 6-8 weeks (its due to the mechanism of action of the antidepressant) so just like how Estee mentioned in the video, make sure family/loved ones are near to let you know if there are any mood changes because they will notice it earlier than you. If you are unable to push through, please see you pharmacist/doctor and do not stop the medication by yourself, as this may lead to unwanted side effects, the dose has to be slowly tapered down depending on how long you have been on it.

[@loxablowwww]

Thank you for this. Im 22 and Im on antidepressants for over 5 years now. And although it’s always been a huge part of my life I feel like I learn so much about my own depression and anxiety by listening to other people talk so openly about their experience. So thank you so much for this, really 💕

[@johnalberse5824]

Your description at 10:00 is exactly how my depression and anxiety manifest. While I wish nobody to feel this way, it's nice to listen to someone share a similar experience. It's very validating. Thank you for sharing.

[@annikaloebig6227]

Bit late but oh my God it’s so cathartic to hear you describe your experience. I finally started taking sertraline this year (after 2 years of counselling and CBT) and it’s like you read my mind when you said that taking antidepressants made you realise what it really means to just feel ‘normal’ or OK. I don’t think I realised how bad I was until I started feeling better. Thank you so much for being so open and honest about it all, for some reason that makes it easier to validate my own experience too.

[@ngozichukwuka9718]

I feel so much cleaner,energised,productive and smarter,Healerman got the best psychedelic.mushrooms are miracle man ,i also gained alot of perspective..i got the real recommendation,hit him up on instagram @healermanchris....

[@emmabertotto8209]

Yesterday I made a dr appt after struggling with depression for over a decade. It’s time for medication so this video appeared so on time. Thank you 💕

Good luck with your appointment!

[@mowoodhouse]

I’ve been on anxiety medication for 4 years now and one of my triggers is not taking my medication for the day, so I can’t imagine ever comings off my meds. It’s so crazy how everyone is so different with these things! Thank you for being so open and recognizing that we do need medication sometimes, and that’s ok. 💗

[@lolly7149]

Thank you for discussing this topic Estée! We are often made to feel ashamed for taking medication for depression/anxiety but your honesty, educating people about the positive effects medication can have has comforted me so much! You are such an amazing role model, using your platform to raise awareness about mental health. Sending you a massive virtual hug from everyone who this video has helped! 💗💗

[@kimberlyapodaca8845]

Wow. I wish more people would talk so openly about medication like this. For the longest time I didn't want to take medication because I was afraid it would alter my personality and I would lose who I was. But as you mentioned, it just got to the point where I had no control over my reactions and thoughts (I have general anxiety and has symptoms similar to what you have recently been experiencing). But as soon as the antidepressants kicked I remember feeling so light, so happy, and the things that I use to obsess about no longer took up my time. Thank you for sharing your experience. I'm sure many people will benefit from your honesty.

[@oppsendless3814]

How are you doing now, Kimberly?

[@gothicpotential]

Recently got put on SSRIs a week ago and it took me years to finally come to acceptance and want help. It brings me so much enthusiasm that medication will truly help me be in touch with the person I’ve always wanted to be, I’ve experienced depressed ever since I was a kid and didn’t know. I’ve already felt slight differences and glad I found this video to be more optimistic about my mental health healing journey Thank you for being open about your story

[@jessicaharris9423]

Thank you so much for sharing! My anxiety and depression presents itself similarly to yours, it's so helpful to hear someone talk about it openly. Hearing you describe the out of control planning about doing something so simple like going to the store is so relatable, that's where my anxiety goes when it's bad!!

[@zaprude]

Thank you for being so vocal about these things! Mental health is EVERYTHING.

[@lauragreybill2227]

Going into my 4th week of therapy today. Thank you for sharing. It's tough to see influencers only showing the highlights. Alot of them show "lows" but often try to capitalize on it in weird theatrical ways. I appreciate your honesty and transparency.

[@idaalberte8707]

I am 3 weeks into my first experience on antidepressants. Feeling better so far. Thank you for being so open and supportive 🙏🏻 Best from Denmark

[@kobebryant-cl7ul]

Mind me asking what specific medication worked for you?

[@hypejab3854]

thanks for making this video! i have been on antidepressant and anti-anxiety pills since last november. you really describe how depression and anxiety is perfectly. it truly is a never ending fatigue. it’s a speed anxiety it’s like our brain has a series of thoughts that runs in loop. thank you for your courage & honesty. stay strong!

[@Kusmiss]

It’s so relieving to hear someone who dedramatizes talks on depression and mental health issues. Again, thank you Estée🌻

[@alysmanning4490]

Today I rang the doctor for the first time and explained how I’d been feeling for the longest time after months of unsuccessful therapy I’ve now decided to go onto antidepressants starting tomorrow. This video has come at the PERFECT time as I constantly get people telling me to just “deal” with it or “you don’t need medication”. It should be ok to ask for help

[@baleek4367]

Escitalopram was a instant life saviour for me ! Even on the lowest dose (5mg)

[@makeupstarish]

@@baleek4367 do find it to be addictive?

[@millier9658]

@alys how are you feeling now?

[@caradyos6858]

This has been so helpful! So many people are so negative about antidepressants and it made me feel so anxious about taking them. I’m now a week into taking them and feel a lot better, I still feel quite anxious so this makes me feel a bit more optimistic that I will get to a place where I will feel like myself again!

[@aprilw4599]

I just started medication for the first time, I'm 38, and man that week 2 was absolutely horrible. I'm only on week 3 and I can myself flattening out. through this I found out that a lot of my family is on medication too and everyone is supportive. I definitely wish they would have talked about this more.

[@dancergirl231997]

Hi Estée, I'm 24 and have struggled with depression and anxiety for the past 12+ years and finally made an appointment to go see a doctor about it because just as you said, I am exhausted from living this way and I can't do it anymore. I'm very nervous but this video made me feel much more confident about my decision and also so much more excited to be taking these first steps for myself to better myself. Thank you very much for speaking and sharing your story.

[@Meilan92]

Thank you Estee for sharing your story. I also struggle with my mental health since I was very young. When I was 23 I decided to ask for help for the first time which was far too late. I hope with you sharing your story, others will find help sooner. Since the beginning I was against medication. Hearing you being so open and positive about it makes me want to look into it better. Thank you for being such an inspiration!

[@tiptapkey]

I like that you mention depression doesn't always mean staying in bed. I know several people who are clearly depressed but reject the idea of getting help because they go to work and do every day things without much issue. A lot of people just think being depressed is just how things have to be, or "everyone's depressed" so they're nothing special, but it doesn't have to be like that.

[@Tiny_20248]

I’m so happy that you speak about such an important topic! You can reach so many people! I’m on Citalopram since 2012. Tried to stop a couple of times, but no no didn’t work. After taking it the first time and feeling so “normal” after the first weeks, after years of fighting my depressions, was like a miracle. I can say, I’m grateful for having the possibility to get such medication. 👍🏻

Seems like we've had a similar experience!

[@Tiny_20248]

@ guess so, too. I wish us that we stay on track and be “normal”! ☺️

[@Tiny_20248]

My side effects were at the beginning that I felt nauseous and tired, but after a while it stopped. One thing that’s important is to get a blood test regularly to check your kidney value.

[@tank__girl6404]

Im in my first few days of taking citalopram, the side effects ive noticed already are yawning constantly and a lack of appetite. I hope i start feeling like myself again soon.

[@Tiny_20248]

@@tank__girl6404 it will! Just don’t give up!

[@alicjabiaek4277]

Such an important topic! I have been struggling for a long long time and started recently with the antidepressants and I have the same experience as you are describing in the video. Finally I feel like I can breath, get my thoughts together and relax. For anyone that it struggling - there is help available! You are not alone

[@annemarieseunnenga]

I really admire how open you are about difficult things like depression, anxiety and medication. It helps to see that other people go through the same things. Keep up the good work

[@Mosesmelanieee]

This has been so nice to hear. I recently got diagnosed with PMDD at 31, and have started antidepressants and its been a great overall change for me. I dont really know anyone who has gone through this so its nice its know im not alone.

[@athena12373]

Thank you very being courageous and open about your struggles. Depression and anxiety is a terrible affliction and can rob you of joy and your life. Medication is available for a reason- to help, cure or manage a condition. A person would not think twice about having to take a blood pressure medication daily... don’t let any potential stigma prevent you from taking an antidepressant. Their is no point in struggling unnecessarily through life- there are plenty of struggle we have to face as it is. If the medication helps, take it and don’t stop. There is no victory in not taking it when you know how bad your emotions can’t get. No shame in needing it. I’m so glad to see you are doing better now and that you are trying to help others who may be going through something similar.

[@eliza5393]

I've been watching you for years, Estee and I just want to say thank you

[@heather6404]

This video is so validating Estee. You give so many people the strength to reach out and to break the negative stigma that depression is something to keep hidden away or shameful.

[@CaseyCam]

I was literally just prescribed anti-depressants...like I’m just arriving home from a dr appt and was about to look up a video like this. Thanks for sharing Estee!

[@mizber]

Me right now. How has it been for you? I have anxiety and depression so I'm nervous

[@BecalmwithBecca]

The best way to describe anti depressants is that it acts like a cushion. It offers enough ease to be able to resume normal life.

[@swmrgirl9979]

This was beautiful to watch. It's so hard to talk when you're experiencing something but in being able to reflect in the recovery, you might reach someone who is still in the thick of it.

[@destiny13006]

Ooh your description of your anxiety during the pandemic is how I live daily... I know I have anxiety but have never talked to a professional. Hearing you talk about makes me realize how exhausting it is and maybe I could feel differently one day.

[@destiny13006]

I just made an appointment with my doctor.

[@inayakamal2474]

I wasn’t brave enough to get back on, I’ve been in that hamster wheel and I wasn’t brave enough to watch this video when it first came out. I’m finally taking the decision today (supported by doctors and my therapist) and thank you Estee for being the honest role model I needed to remind me of who I am, voice out the noise in my head in a coherent way- and bringing light to our shared darkness and for the many many others, who need it. For anyone else reading, you’re not alone. The fact that estee can describe exactly how I feel- and we’ve never met, shows me this is a condition, a hard one for sure- and a very heavy cross to bear- but this is not who you are. This is simply a condition you have. And you know what- you’re stronger than it the second you accept it.

[@ngozichukwuka9718]

I feel so much cleaner,energised,productive and smarter,Healerman got the best psychedelic.mushrooms are miracle man ,i also gained alot of perspective..i got the real recommendation,hit him up on instagram @healermanchris....

[@sadealonge7974]

"It's okay to say no and it's okay to say yes" and "[...] in moderation including moderation itself". Loved these. Thank you so much for reminding us 🌸🌾💜

[@jenn_in_atl]

Love watching Estee in a fuzzy sweater while I’m at work on a rainy day.

🥰

[@hatsandadreamcatcher]

Literally just decided with my GP to try anti-depressants yesterday and feeling nervous but hopeful. Perfect timing!

[@suzieoakley3034]

You are so awesome, Estee. I love your brutal honesty. There are so many of us that hide our issues from the world and think we are all alone in this journey. It's refreshing to hear your experience and helps us know that we are not alone.

[@emilyandrews552]

Really appreciate this video, Estee! I started on anti-depressants a year ago and it has really changed my life for the better.

[@noela4957]

wtf

[@alisonalibongo3177]

I lost my twins brother at 35 because of depression it is awful . Now i am taking medication for depression and it has really helpt me. I understand what you are saying. Thank you for being honest it helps so many people ❤️🙏🏼

[@braincircus6506]

WOW. i really bow my head! I'm in a middle depression and ptsd for the last 3 years and I always try to explain to ppl how this feels and omg you nailed it. like drowning and keeping up over water but you are tired and out of breath. thanks for being sooo sooi open. love you estee ❤️

[@starsdaisuki]

Thank you for talking about this. I don't feel so alone having a hard time keeping up with regularly taking my meds. Yes, I totally understand the wanting to be cared for even when your depressed.

[@sabinaandrei]

I’m the kind of person that has always been positive and energetic and the thought of a depression is very remote to me. So I really appreciate you sincerity and openness because this is the only way I can understand what other people might be going though in their lives.

[@niamhmackey5812]

You are speaking my story Estée! I struggled with school refusal, social anxiety and depression since I was 14 and I'm now 22, in uni and still experiencing it (and have experienced the stigma around it ever since I was diagnosed). Thank you for being a big sister and role model. Thank you for making me feel okay about being on medication. Thank you for being so honest with your experience and the wonderful advice in this vid!

[@rethinkthatkat]

Thank you for sharing this. I've witnessed my mom and my best friend decide to go on antidepressants and regain parts of their lives back. It always makes me emotional when I think about it

[@wulfsorenson8859]

Did they gain any weight?

[@99micol]

Thank you for speaking about it so openly! You’re a sun Estée☀️

[@BreanneVera]

Estee, I love you! I think it is absolutely incredible that you are being so open about your mental health journey and that you are creating an open and accepting space to have a conversation on this topic. You're doing incredible things girl. I'm very excited for your Mirror Water project! I can feel good, things coming from it. Your energy is so healing.

[@themuchfriendlyshow2872]

Thank you Estée! This video is amazing. I think one reason why the stigma around antidepressants still exists while taking medicine for other diseases being regarded completely normal is the mind/body dualism. Treating diabetes, hypertension, physical pain, or even just a cold with chemical compounds is considered helpful and practical. As for the mind, the common idea is still "oh it's in your head you can think through it". However, your mind is your body and also the other way around. At the end of the day, both treatments (for diabetes or depression) are about regulating the chemicals, neurotransmitters, and hormones that make the body function better. I am really grateful that modern medicine has already evolved to a level that such regulation is accessible. This allows people to at least have a solid base for a further, more holistic health approach. Of course, nobody wants to rely on any medicine to feel good. But sometimes I ask myself, what is medicine, and what is reliance anyway? You wouldn't go "oh my immune system is strong enough today I will stop having vitamin C from now on". The human body is a constantly changing organism that simply requires constant maintenance and external resources. One day, even better treatments might be invented (fewer side effects, less stigma). I will say let's go for what already can benefit us until that day comes. It's OK and necessary to reach for what makes you feel better. You can feel better and you deserve it.

[@francisdodson]

Best video you’ve ever done. I’ve been on Sertraline for over a year now and I’ve only just accepted that it’s okay for me to be on them long term. They’ve made me feel more ‘me’ than ever before. I couldn’t look after myself or my baby to my best ability without them a year ago. I’m forever thankful. I had the same worries before starting them and I put it off for a year. Thank you so much for speaking out estee. You’ve helped me accept the way I am :-)

[@NiinaSKlove]

- Your openness, honesty, integrity, - is the main reason why I follow your channel. Makeup and beauty is great, but what you are doing with your channel, the content you share is one of the the things that sets you apartment from many other KZbinrs. - That said, there’s more and more people in the KZbin community that are sharing a bit more about their journey through depression and anxiety. Which in my opinion is a good thing, since it can benefit people who struggle with depressed and anxiety. Thank you for being open about it. ❤️

[@amykatherinex]

Thank you Estee for sharing your experiences with depression and anxiety, I'm only eighteen and my mental health has really taken a hit because of covid and some life changes happening at the moment. I think I'm going to talk to someone about how I'm feeling, so thanks for giving me the encouragement to do so. I'm happy that you talked about this subject because it is definitely not talked about enough.

[@katinawilliams6052]

Thank you for sharing your story. I've dealt with depression since childhood and I have been on antidepressants since I was 17 (now 47) I'm not sure I would still be here if not for medication. ❤️❤️

[@siennax9101]

I'm 17 and have only been on antidepressants for 2 weeks, but they have genuinely made such a difference already. Completely get why you have been on them for 30 years

[@Bexxywhit]

This video was so helpful, I started Citalopram about 9 weeks ago so it is good to hear from someone on the same medication. Thanks for being so open and honest. Xx

[@LaLaLand926]

how has it worked for you?

[@suzeeabdelrahman6978]

Love these sit down talks. Never ever feel ashamed of medication. It’s all about perspective. If a person who is diabetic needs his medications to function, then more so does someone who needs their medications to maintain mental wellness. It’s about regulating your hormones. It doesn’t mean you are any less for needing a pill ❤️

[@GinaM3]

This really resonated with me as I'm sure it will with a lot of your viewers. Thank you for using your platform to talk about this. It is so often not discussed and especially with "influencers". It can be so hard seeing people living what seems like a perfect life online So to have you, someone i've watched for 10 years and respect, talk about it is like a relief. Depression and anxiety is a bitch, but we don't have to deal with it totally alone.

[@ninad.s4015]

Thank you for being so honest 🌸 ive had depressive periods and anxiety for as long as i can remember. I struggled a lot with medications, especially anti depressends. They seemed to make my anxiety worse. Since 6 months i’ve been diagnosed with Bipolar and been on mood stabilators and it is changing my life. I am currently learning how it is to feel “normal” .. thanks again❤️

[@superlissy90]

Long time follower here! Just wanted to let you know that girrrrl I see you. I am proud of you and the community you are building on self love. I'm sure 5 year ago Estee would be too X

[@TheBeatrizMartins264]

I have anxiety and depression as well and the way you described medication is exactly how I feel (I take fluoxetine, it really helps me function and remember what I study). The way you talked about our whole experience touched my soul! Thank you 💕

[@lemonmarzipan6330]

I'm on Citalopram at the mo... have been for a year now , getting used to it was awful but when they started working i felt amazing , literally like i had wings , in the best possible way - nothing was an issue and i was so proactive and happy. Now i am thinking of talking to my gp to either change them , up/lower the dose or something completely different . I've had depression pretty much most of my life (i'm 42 now) but last year was the first time ever i tried meds. And don't regret it , paired with counselling worked a treat! Good luck with everything 🌸

[@lola-x3x]

dear Estee ! im from Korea🇰🇷 and your video just saved me from endless rut that i have made so far. thank you for sharing your experiences and giving help for those who are in need of it!!! sending huge virtual hugs from Korea!!!🪁🌷💞✨💗💖

[@sabrinapacheco59puae]

This video makes me feel a lot more confident in making the decision on getting help and considering antidepressants.

[@MiaL1997]

Thank you so much for this video! My anxiety hit me really hard this week, kind of Covid related, and I feel much less lonely after hearing your open words!

[@anano1015]

Thank you so much Estee

[@valentinamellini3322]

Idk if you'll see this and I NEVER comment on KZbin videos. But thank you for making this. The similarities between us make me feel so much better, I keep laughing and tearing up hearing you say all the things you do and feel- it's so comforting to know that someone else goes through the same thing. Thank you.

[@aydanmalkoc]

This is the best video I have ever watched on KZbin. I have dealt with depression my whole life and you made me feel understood/seen. I have no one else around me dealing with this so I feel like a burden at all times. I’ve been pushing medication away for the last 7 years because of shame and disappointment in myself, it’s been torturous. I think I need to get back on it but I ~still~ feel ashamed about it.

[@triantamallis5567]

This one of the best information session on the experience of taking antidepressants. People do not need to suffer and your journey is proof of that❤️

[@strippyfire001]

Just want to let you know that you should be really proud of yourself because on top of battling mental health you've come so far and done so much with all these amazing accomplishments that I couldn't even imagine myself achieving (and that's with good mental health).

[@amisavage]

I hope you’re ok Estée, I’ve been watching your videos for about 9 years and I’ve always admired how honest you are with how you’re feeling, hope you’re looking after yourself and remembering all of the good advice you wrote in your book!! 💖💖💖

[@TeoniaTater2012]

It's so ironic for me that you just posted this. I just had to get back on antidepressants after going off of them for a year. My anxiety has been so bad that it caused depression as well (your hamster wheel example is perfect). It's gotten so bad that it's affected my work and I've had to take a leave of absence. I started Cymbalta on Monday and am waiting for it to get into my system. Thank you for posting this & sharing your experience ❤️

[@ruthgalvan8365]

Thank you for making this video! I’m a 37 year old woman and I to take citalopram! I dont talk about it much so it was so nice to hear someone who has the exact same experience!

[@courtneyucbearcats]

This was eerily timed. I have my prescription waiting on the counter and I’ve debated if I wanted to take it out of fear of the side effects. This answered/ eased each of my worries and was incredibly helpful. I really appreciate your insight. Thank you! All the best!

[@sotypicalmee]

There are of course other videos out there that touch on these topics. What I really believe makes you stand out in the crowd is that we all seem to feel like we're talking to a friend who is speaking about their experience rather than someone just sitting down and bawling their eyes out and explaining why they've been absent on social media etc. Not that there's anything wrong with that but these videos feel like a conversation with a friend that we all can relate to and care for.

[@frank-qk7gp]

I can't even begin to describe how much of a role model you are to me. I've watched you for years throughout high school and university. Your videos have always brought me a sense of peace, and I am so grateful for all your hard work to make as much content as you do. I have really struggled with my mental health over the past few years and had to spend more time than I'd like to admit in psych hospitals and outpatient programs. So having someone who I really look up to talking about their experience with mental health and being on meds makes it feel so much more normal. It also allows me to feel like there's hope for my future (as corny as that sounds) because I can see someone who I admire so much who deals with mental illness and still has a fulfilling life. Thank you for talking about this, it means more than I think you even know! :)

[@anacarolinaanzolaitriago3713]

Have the same issue and currently ending my treatment with escitalopram, and I can 100% agree with you on everything you just said. As a kid, you don't know how to say what you feel and when you do family and friends or whatever just push it off like it's nothing and not even with bad intention but they just don't know and cant relate. I am very thankful for people like you who talk about depression and anxiety and make it a normal thing because it is normal. We should all just take a moment to understand what people are going through. Thank you for being so clear and talking about mental health because it is a big issue and unfortunately it's not talked about enough.

[@jcm85]

This came at the perfect time. I'm starting a behavioral health program at the end of the month and have my first appointment ever with a psychiatrist for depression and anxiety. I've thought about trying medication for a decade, but I've always been too scared in fear of my body becoming dependent on it. I'm trying to stay open minded, and you have certainly alleviated some of my apprehension around this subject. Thanks so much, Estee, for being so real, casual, and sincere. Much love to you ❤

[@sophiedrummond928]

The bike anecdote rings so true to me. This is exactly what I try to explain to people about anti-depressants. It's hard for people to understand if they don't have those anxious thoughts in the first place that tip them over the edge about small things, but wow yes!

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[@marionpaterson772]

Your description of being depressed and then taking medication is the best I've ever heard. I remember when I started feeling better with the medication, just feeling that this is the way I should always have felt . I felt like the real me. The me I should always have been. I take Citalopram too and I've found it to be a really good drug. I dont think it dims my feelings. I just think it makes my feelings normal. I also listen to meditation and hypnotherapy apps. Theyre wonderful.Thanks for an excellent video .

[@almaarriaga8302]

I commend you for being honest and open. I’m a psychiatric nurse and I know how much medication in combination with therapy is the best treatment. Keep your great job on trying to promote mental health.

[@arnicepernice8656]

And the most important thing is to give patients HOPE , please....

[@shampoop118]

Thank you for being so open about your experience. It's extremely relatable and very much appreciated. We all need to speak more openly about mental health in order for destigmatize it and better support each other!

[@bagainsh]

Thank you Estée, for sharing, for being so raw and honest. I've been on antidepressants for 7 years now and I can't really imagine how I would cope without it. So so many people I know think someone who takes medication is weak and can't control their life , how I wish I could to talk them so openly like you do. I'm not ashamed I take antidepressants, but I wish I could talk about it so openly. Xx

[@clbake03]

How refreshing to see someone courageous enough to talk about this subject. Estee you’re such a beautiful strong person and I admire your strength. I’m dealing with a similar situation and it’s hard to break the stigma that medicine is bad from people who care but really people just need to educate themselves. Thank you for making me feel comfortable

[@aliceclements1]

Amen sister. I always applaud you talking about this stuff. I myself am an antidepressant lifer and just so grateful to have this option.

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[@alicekendall6284]

Just watching this now 3 years later, have a really confusing time at the moment and it's nice to hear that someone is feeling the same as me so thank you ❤

[@isadesusa4565]

Estee thank you so much for talking about this! I take an SSRI now and it was one of your earlier vids (from years ago) that convinced me it might be okay to try. So many important points highlighted here - the anxiety/depression exhaustion is so real. And the last thing anyone suffering needs is judgment from others when they opt for medication because they just need a break from their mind. I've been on my SSRI for about 9 months now and you reminded me of what I was saying when I was first on it. I couldn't believe how much lighter my mind felt. 24/7 headache gone. And not waking up every day literally shaking and feeling nauseous changed my life. It took four years of panic attacks, two rounds of therapy, and endless runs/meditations/yoga/naps to realise that I'd put in enough work by myself, and that it was okay if I opted for medication.. maybe I was one of the people that the medication is made for. I think it's also important to highlight that it's entirely a personal decision to come off/stay on medication. It's no one's business whether you take medication for 6 more months or forever. Besides a qualified medical professional who you have consulted for a medical need, absolutely no one is entitled to pass judgment on what medication you take each day. Last point is that I tried citalopram about 1 year ago and the side effects were nuts for me - after 3 days I had to stop it. I was immediately terrified of all antidepressants. But 3 months later I plucked up the courage to try again, called the GP and was prescribed sertraline. It was way easier to adjust to (minor, minor side effects in the beginning) and it has changed my life. So for anyone out there, reading this and thinking about trying medication, really don't get discouraged by the idea of trial/error to find the right one. It's not as big of a deal as it sounds and it's 500% worth the effort.

[@zoeforlife22]

Thank you for sharing your experience. I can definitely relate to not having the energy or motivation to do all the things you know will make you feel better but you’re just soo tired from your mind never shutting up. It’s crazy how physically draining mental health can be.

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[@potter2317]

estee is definitely one of the most honest beauty vlogger on earth!!!

[@hansjeveen4871]

my experience is that anti-depressants help me to do the things that are good for my mental health. So that's why it works for me. Without I wouldn't have routine, I would sleep less etc.

[@Jessymayco]

I have just recently been prescribed the same medication you are on Estee and i can't tell you how helpful and informative this video is. It's my first time being on any kind of medication and felt defeated and scared at the thought of taking it, but your video has helped me feel more brave! Thankyou so much for being so honest and amazing!

❤️

[@olyasurits7815]

Whew!! I resonated with SO much of what you said, and I wish there were MORE positive experiences spoken about online with meds. When I was first going on them and gripped by fear, all I could find were nightmare accounts of the loud minority in Reddit threads. After 8 years of being on them with success, I can say that the majority of the people around me that take anti-depressants have experienced great relief. I love the conversation about how to we ACCEPT medication as part of our journey and make peace.