Fi’s Fight Back - increase day and a big realisation moment.

Increase day, conference day, also a big realisation about me and recovery (in the latter part of the video after PM snack!)
Keeping moving forward, I know I’m not doing it alone.
Thankyou to every single person who continues to support me and believes in me.
We will get fi back 🌟
#anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #inpatient #recoveryispossible #dayinthelife #recovery

[@jasminee8472]

You’re doing so incredibly well Fi. I can see a spark in your eyes that wasn’t there a few months ago. I can sense your determination and fighting spirit increasing with every video. You deserve a wonderful life. Xx

[@courtneymcguffee5753]

When you lose the false protection anorexia says you have, you get to have the real protection of the love of people around you. I'm so proud of your realizations and how far you've come and how strong you are. Yes it's exhausting but you're having so many breakthroughs and you're doing this and you're amazing. Fi is absolutely fighting back and anorexia is absolutely going down.

[@drdebthompson]

fantastic realizations... and genuine desires for healthy Fi!!!! Here is a poem I love: Wild Geese by Mary Oliver You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees for a hundred miles through the desert repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves. Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine. Meanwhile the world goes on. Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain are moving across the landscapes, over the prairies and the deep trees, the mountains and the rivers. Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air, are heading home again. Whoever you are, no matter how lonely, the world offers itself to your imagination, calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting- over and over announcing your place In the family of things.

[@laurenmick]

Wow, you did so many tough things this day. I love how you are trying to reconnect with the ‘true Fi’ and saying things like l, “Fi loves this so I’m going to do it”. Keep going, you are moving forward x

[@lisanancoff3462]

You are an incredible woman, Fi ! You have taught me so much these last few months. I understand ED so much now because of you. Keep going, Darling ! You are so worth it ❤️

[@dianagreen4483]

Wow! Yes, I'm still here, and so are countless other people/ supporters! What fantastic observations n realisations going on at the moment; and humbling gratitude too! Its SO good to see you talking like u really truly actually believe in the support around you, and see your eyes light up with excitement about what could be instore in the future for you! Sorry, are u still with me Fi..!!? U rock! Xxx

[@daniellekernan2052]

I can hear so much more strength in your voice compared to when you started documenting this journey!

[@jessicalopes6159]

Wow you're doing great Fi, love watching you kick butt😊🥰

[@MsStampy82]

Apologies in advance for the language- but GO FUCKING SMASH IT FI!!! You’ve got this!!!! You’ve got the fight in you & a fire in your belly. You are in control. Well done!! ❤️❤️

[@harmonyhope1709]

Omg I am beaming with pride right now!!!!!!!!!!💪❤️ So many fears faced and challenges conquered, especially talking at the conference!!! WOW!!! such a superstar. You inspire me ✨❤️

[@kathleenbrewer1251]

I'm still here! 😉 You can do it.

[@BeccaDoss]

“Maybe I deserve to feel better.” YES! This is it right here! So much of what you say is exactly what I recognize in myself (even not letting myself enjoy tea to the fullest), and I’ve recently realized a lot of it is obviously the long-standing anorexia, but autism also keeps my anorexia stuck in this pattern, because both things carry the fear of not being enough as I am. Or even being too much. You’re not alone at all, and I can’t wait until you’re back to the Fi you know who loves life and laughing!

[@anncoley2645]

You are enough! Take care of yourself and believe in yourself! Fi is still in you - she will outshine this darkness.

[@user-ih1om4uy5n]

Treat yourself like you’d treat a friend. You are more than enough and deserve the world, you’re such a lovely soft spoken young woman and you deserve to live your dreams and future as much as everyone else if not more as you’ve fought so hard for it x

[@netties6653]

You are doing so well Fi. You are buzzing from your day… keep going xx

[@maylingrace]

I don’t have an ED, but I do relate to that feeling that I don’t deserve to have good things. That’s part of the fight back! We need to give ourself permission to do and have what we love, even when we aren’t “doing everything right.” ❤️

[@NinasHere4U]

Fi, I'm so proud of YOU!! You deserve a new tea bag with every cup, please do it 💜

[@robinteneyck6603]

You're almost better Fi. Your thinking is stronger. I've been following you for several months. You were in the hospital with a feeding tube when I started with you and to watch where you are now is amazing. Don't forget where you came from from. It's OK to be afraid of an egg mayonnaise sandwich but you did it and the next time you won't be so afraid because your thinking is better. Good for you Fi

[@bethforge9480]

You are much stronger than You think You are!! You're an amazing person and thank You for sharing.

[@cindylee7319]

Wow I'm seeing such positive changes with you more & more! The struggles you face, and how you share them with us, can help many people, and not just those with anorexia. I came over here from TikTok. I really enjoy your longer videos. I watch every minute of them. So much of what you said here, I can use to help with my ptsd. It's encouraging!! I bet you'd be a great counselor one day! As always Fiona, I'm here in Ohio quietly supporting your battle.... spoiler alert - you're going to win! ❤

[@M.F_L2468]

I am almost recovered now, but I still struggle with over exercising and ED-thoughts. And nothing has helped exept when I found Your channel!❤️

[@gretchenojala7055]

You’ve got this..you ARE all those wonderful,things you listed.

[@gwynethmorris6470]

The anorexia is stopping you from living life - live your life Fi - you deserve it . I can tell by your videos your are an amazing person and deserve to belly laugh and walk your dog. o had anorexia in High School and when I let it go, it was the most liberating moment of my life

[@bethforge9480]

I too have all these emotions daily where I have myself and punish myself as well but I over eat instead. Watching Your videos help me even though I'm on the polar opposite side of the eating disorder. Thank You Fi, God bless!! By the way, I Love Your eyebrows!!

[@joycegonzalez3436]

Wonderful Fi...Absolutely wonderful.

[@katespalding2134]

Your friend sounds such a special guy. He’s as lucky to have you as a friend as much as you are to have him❤️

[@darungel1]

I watched till the end girlfriend! Because I look forward to every update and video you post! You make me better at dealing with my mental health journey! I like many others am rooting for you Fi!!

[@danachisholm3552]

You are absolutely beautiful and strong and you are enough!

[@prayer_tent]

What a blessing your friends are! I am so glad you have them for support and they can speak life and comfort and security into you. You are getting well and you will continue to do so. Praying for you many times a day knowing this time you will fully recover. Blessings dear one.

[@harmonyhope1709]

Awww so glad you have such an amazing friend. Really hope that you enjoy your lunch out together! This is Fi getting her life back 💪✨🥰

[@juliebergeron2138]

Fi I know we have never met...But you are winning...the Voices in our heads suck!! But you are amazing...I believe you can do it!!!

[@lattitude4598]

Wooww! I am so happy for you Fi ! I'm frensh ,and i have an ED , you're an exemple for me ,and i belive in you !

[@chloebarker8398]

So proud!

[@chefash8769]

I am so proud of you and I'm so grateful that you have friends and family that support you wholy and completely and I know that you can get through anything you are enough you are beautiful you are loved

[@simonerapple9751]

you are a lovely person, you deserve all the happiness in the world. you are blessed to have such Good friends. I have had some sad times over the past few years and my friends have made me feel loved and included and it means the world. You are to be admired for facing your battles head-on. Oh by the way, have a new teabag every day in your amazing mugs...🥰

[@AutumnGracebeautywithgrace]

I love that you have such a great support system.

[@KRBiel]

this feels like a huge breakthrough. Hold onto the fact that Fi is enough.

[@applecheekedgirl]

Still here at the end. Your insights are so important and to voice them. Go you!

[@vanessarose9620]

You so deserve to get better and live your best life x keep head high and power on x.

[@stefanietibstra167]

I’m proud of you!! You are an inspiration and I hope you continue to stay positive!!

[@gabriellecohen8516]

there was so much light in your eyes by the end of this video and it was wonderful to see. you can do it:)

[@lorischmidt2936]

Wow you are amazing and so is your friend. So happy for you!!!!

[@kathrynkidd5796]

Keep fighting for Fi! You’re doing amazing!!

[@colleengrove-jones4207]

Thank you for your honesty. I can't wait to meet Fi.

[@emmathompson6699]

Just came across you on tik tok and spent 2 hours following all your journey. I have to say you are doing amazingly well I think you have amazing strength and deserve a great life xxxx I hope all these comments help in some way you got this! :))

[@JessMichael150]

Oh, and guess what, I am not battling any ED, and I follow you because I think you are a great person, you are articulate, you really think about what you want to say before you say it, you're tactful. I am very interested in educating myself on this particular eating disorder which is why I am following your journey.. Also, you are in fact in control of your eating right now, think of it that way. I understand what you mean by control of your eating, but it is still control TO eat. Happy for you Fi and I hope you have a wonderful outing for lunch this week.

[@sarayatsattie6339]

I had an amazing friend like that when I was in recovery. He made me feel the same way like I didn't have to be anything but myself and that was enough. That was ten years ago now. We are six years married with kids and a life I could have only dreamed of. There is a beautiful life waiting to you on the other side of this mountain 🏔️ keep going and you will move those mountains.

[@morgainetaylor5777]

Your honesty is so refreshing, so lovely hearing you getting better mentally. You are so much more positive and I love it, I am very proud of you!

[@JessMichael150]

I love oatmeal with mashed banana and powdered peanut butter, my husband's favorite Quest bar is cookies and cream. He loves it!! I'm happy you did your increase day. ❤️

[@fionalavery2407]

Your chatty bit was so empowering! It’s really reminds me as the speech from the film Coach Carter “What’s your greatest fear”. If you haven’t seen it, search it up. It’s everything 🥰

[@kassidynickerson3750]

You're being incredibly expressive, vocal and introspective which is lovely to see. Each day you're changing for the better - whether it's a bad or good day. The important thing is that when you have a difficult moment, meal or day - you're reflecting on that and using that to fuel yourself to face those challenges again and find strategies to overcome it. Massively proud of you

[@thepeacechannel7083]

Well done! You're doing it!!!

[@rebekahvogelaar4433]

Fi, it is so awesome to see you regaining your life… I can see such progress from your first videos and such a transformation… You have so much more life and spirit in your voice! Your voice is stronger, and you just have more spirit! So proud of you!😊 Keep going girl… You’re a true inspiration!❤️💜

[@joannaroberts3672]

Hi fi you are such a wonderful young woman who deserves only the best in life. I’m pleased you have such a wonderful set of friends and can see how determined you are to get the true Fi back. You’re friend , he sounds lovely and I believe you will be fine when you have the time out together. You’re conference talk shows again how brave you are. I’m older than you and have had anorexia from 10 years old and have had remissions and times where fully recovered so totally get it. Would never flip off one of you’re videos. You speak so much sense and you are helping me too so sending love you’re way fi. Stay strong xxxxx

[@amym8479]

Fi YOU ARE ENOUGH!!! Remember to listen to this when you have a bad day… what a motivating video!

[@rltr6146]

I haven't watched for a few weeks, I see you have a spring in your step Fi!! Xx

[@alimoore589]

my friend just sent me a video of a house Alpaca called Alf. I can't share it outside of Facebook. I know Llanas are your thing, but I thought you like it x You're doing amazing and you're so brave xxx

[@harmonyhope1709]

You look so happy even in the thumbnail ☺️❤️✨

[@staceylord1978]

There's a saying in eating disorder recovery "You alone can do this, but you don't have to do it alone". You have a fire in your belly now Fi, pushing you on. Go girl! Xxx

[@lorenspath6538]

You are doing a great job with your increases. You are a huge inspiration to me, with all my fears and struggles. You are a great help and I am so happy to see your videos. You make me feel so much better, especially when im having a really hard day. i love all your outfits! Thank you Fi! youre NOT ALONE! Love,Loren

[@catherinemitchell3721]

I understand your terror of leaving the Anorexia behind. I'm older than you Fi...& I get it. Yes,the An. seems safe; but it's also suffocating. Please play this back to yourself when the Demons are loud. My thoughts are with you; keep trying...💟

[@levlayke]

Your voice is so calming! I can image you doing an audiobook with your recovery story for kids or adults!

[@jjessyy95]

Thank you so much for being real with us! Even if I don‘t know you or you me, YOU helped me to fully go with recovery you helped me see that is hard but it will pay out at the end if I trust the process. And got this 💪💪💪

[@boncar55]

What a light bulb moment, Fi! You will get better!

[@cathj5213]

This is lovely to watch Fi. It seems like you’ve had some very profound ‘lightbulb” moments this last few days (alongside the very hard going stuff). Please keep on soul searching and keep sharing your thoughts (no matter how daft you think they are) with those you trust as you can see that by doing so, your mindset is shifting. As someone who’s been there, AN is such a secretive and deceptive illness (and turns the sufferers into the same) so continue to exert your power over it by silencing it with alternative views and questioning it’s loyalty to you. Keep doing what you’re doing and I truly hope that you achieve your dream of using your wisdom to show others the way out of their own hell. You are so highly thought of and respected by people who have never met you, simply for being you, nothing more, nothing less. My thoughts and admiration go to you x

[@jeannewallace7590]

You have amazing insight.

[@pamsiddall9132]

Yaaas girl! You deserve all the good things, so good to hear you talking like this, you CAN do this 💖

[@miabelieves]

Finally found you on the tube. You got this

[@Redoctopusgal]

You sound so inspired and positive in this and that’s such amazing progress! You’ve got this!

[@nightmime1547]

Your outfit looks so cozy, and I love your nails they’re so pretty!🥺 Super in awe of your strength and determination as always💗💗

[@kristinscarboro7093]

I’ve learned so much from you. Thank you for doing such a great job of expressing yourself and describing what you’re going through and how you’re feeling. Not only are you getting stronger, you’re enabling all of us out here to be better support for our friends and family and patients. You absolutely blow me away with how far you’ve come in your recovery. You deserve all the good things and more.

[@Kladlze]

What a beautiful and powerful vlog!

[@teainortakoy]

This was a very motivating video and you absolutely deserve all the great things and new tea bags!

[@Meg-hz4pt]

Congratulations Fi, you're really an inspiration ❤️ you've come so so far and you deserve to acknowledge that xx

[@sar12389]

Thanks for being so open and so real. Ur doing great! Ur such a wonderful,beautiful person inside and out. X

[@jillbettles5810]

Your doing amazing I'm so pleased you have good friends around you you've got this lots of love xx

[@alix9269]

What an absolutely inspiring video! I am so proud of your revelations and I hope they keep coming! You are worthy of love, life and getting Fi back!

[@JoJo-vg9sj]

Thankyou for sharing, you words really resonate with me... You help me to keep fighting this. Extremely proud of you

[@karendickerson3912]

I am so proud of you ❤️. You are so worthy and incredible ❤️. Just keep going because Fi is always enough!!

[@lauranorwar]

Hi! New subscriber here…you are amazing and you faced (and conquered!!) so many challenges on this day!! You are a fighter!!! Keep taking those leaps of faith!

[@karenroach6506]

Having such supportive friends and parents has got to help so much! But it’s also your fight and determination that’s getting you through this! 💕

[@amyallen517]

Oh Fi!!! I’m so happy for you!!! You are just glowing! I know how the struggle is strong. But you are stronger and YOU ARE ENOUGH!!! Bless your family/friends. Listen to those around you. Our internal dialog can be atrocious. They know us and can tell us the wonderful things about ourselves that we don’t see!! I’m praying for you!! You got this girl!!!!

[@jandouglass2675]

Well said Fi. Congratulations on the conference having the confidence to take part. What a lovely guy your friend sounds, very down to earth, full of common sense and making you feel so at ease and good about yourself. We could all do with a friend like that! Also such lovely girlfriends and parents all supporting you far more than the anorexia could ever do. Keep on fighting girl you are gradually getting there. Love and hugs 😘😘

[@mwillis7791]

I am so happy that you have such an amazing friendship. Big steps and I’m so proud of you. I watched until the end as always. We stick around because you are important, valuable, and you give us something too. Sending you love!

[@patriciasheridan7]

Go girl, you are doing great! And you look good. So honest, brave.

[@NagiCrawford]

I'm really proud of you. I've been watching your journey since November and I think you are amazing

[@wasurso]

I'm SO proud of you Fi! What an incredible breakthrough you've had! That is one giant leap forward. You ARE enough!

[@annasorelle2700]

I’m so, so proud of you, Fi! I’m struggling on my own healing journey right now, but when I see how hard you’re fighting I feel like I can do it too.

[@sieuesie]

What an absolutely massive day. Well done, Fi. Listening to you talk , it makes so much sense. A lot of people have ways of coping that make them feel safe, and those ways aren’t always healthy, but watching you work your way through it is helping everyone watching. Keep going.

[@starskeen7792]

I’m so proud of you Fi! I’ve followed you for months now and you’re an inspiration truly! I hope you can understand how strong you are.

[@penelopepolinsneemeyer4757]

You definitely deserve to feel better, Fi. I’m so proud of you! xxxxxxxxxxx

[@sonjaeriksen2635]

You can do this 😍 I can see the spark in your eyes. You are so blessed to have amazing people around you. You can do hard things. I can’t wait to see you out of the wheelchair and climbing those mountains. Love 💕

[@sadieherbert1963]

Woaw your words are so inspiring because they're so relatable. You're save yourself as Well as many of your viewers 😍

[@debzhughes5270]

Yes its sounds as if you've got it fi is enough fi is worthy fi is wonderful and we all are standing beside you keep it going xxxxxxxx

[@nikisawyer259]

You are fantastic Fi. Brave, determined and insparational. You so deserve to recover for the life you so deserve.xx

[@applecheekedgirl]

You amaze me every day Fi! You did a great job with the increases. Panic attacks are horrible but you did it and you got through.

[@nicoleschreffler8645]

You are doing so well and inspire me to keep going. I can also relate with not being enough as a person and not being able to cope. I wish I had a support system like your family mine doesn't get it.

[@katespalding2134]

This was the best video yet. Authentic, genuine and so honest🤗🤗🤗

[@KennithBcringe]

really cool you're sharing this journey with us, very inspirational.

[@coriward9655]

You are enough Fi! None of us are perfect.

[@sherrymazza8166]

I am very proud of you. You are moving forward one step at a time. So glad you have special people in your life. Keep fighting. Fi is coming back.