FIRST BBQ OF 2019 + SO MUCH CHOCOLATE - EASTER VLOG - ANOREXIA RECOVERY

EASTER VLOG!
What we did over Easter...
The best weather for soooo long, it was beautiful! We went to the beach and it really did feel so summery!
Satara and I made an Easter classic, then...
The first BBQ of the year!!! And the first time in years that I actually ate what I wanted (everything) when we have a BBQ!
And obviously lots of chocolate throughout!
What is your favourite BBQ food?
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[@Chloedeegerz]

Elzani you’re doing so well! Try keep your portion sizes big because I’ve noticed they seem to be getting a little smaller xx

[@user-bv7hz7yy9r]

Chloe & Lauren if she looks gaunt then I might as well be dead 😂

[@Danuxsy]

She's not doing well, she have barely gained any weight at all and she's been doing this for over a year now...

[@tmaraaramt3487]

This video is prerecorded

[@paulop3730]

@@taylortwinnings It could be the type of foods; she'll look gaunt if she's not getting enough nutrients or eating too much unhealthy food.

[@matildagreen554]

XIAO why do you have to put that it takes time to get better it’s not an easy thing. She’s trying really hard and is doing well.

[@georgiaseales6036]

Have you considered having a protein shake with every meal? It would be a great way to put weight on fast. I know your probably put off them because of hospital recovery but I really feel as it may be worth a try! You are doing so well and the chocolate looks so yummy.

[@LilyBelleJoy]

there some really yummy ones out there now to which you can add other things too... fantastic for your bones too. :)

[@Danuxsy]

@@hannahscanlon2455 that's not what she need, she need calories you dumb woman.

[@hallwnby]

XIAO huh? Ensure is what they use in the clinics??

[@EricaPapad]

Putting too much weight too quickly is also not recommended.. I think if she can gain about 0,5 kg, max1 kg per week its more than enough... and she can also spend time maintaining and then carrying on so she can get used to it...that's how it should be done..coz making someone put on weight too quickly even if they are cooperative will only just freak them out to the point where they risk to relapse and the relapse will be 10 times worst.

[@Danuxsy]

@@hallwnby I'm looking at that product now, it's 350 kcal (nothing, my smoothie is 900 kcal) and it's 22% sugar and less than 1% dietary fiber, pure shit.

[@MadisonTiahn]

Mums are so special. We are so lucky to have mums like we do.

[@MadisonTiahn]

Rebecca's Sofa so so so so so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts beautiful. ❤️

[@ttdfanforlife]

It's great to see you doing so well. You had me a little worried with no upload. You seem very happy

[@ailsaseex6423]

I love these videos so much I have just been watching them non stop and it’s so nice to see vulnerability and to see how important that is to show is just amazing

[@ladyhayley4859]

omg buuuutttttttterrrrrrr! yes!!!!! Great vlog Elzani! please please please try butter on a hot cross bun. It makes it infinitely more enjoyable. Though to be fair I didn't appreciate butter until my late twenties. I think tastes change :)

[@maggiefraser2551]

I was vegan for twenty years. When I decided to start reincorporating dairy (to add fat to my diet), my friend brought me two pounds of really good quality butter. Oh. My. God. Don't deprive yourself!

[@evelinavoltolini6219]

Satara is stunning ✨

[@charlottep3326]

Looks like I'm not the only one struggling to sleep tonight! Sending lots of love ❤️

[@etta1024]

That black and white stripe outfit looks fantastic on your mom!

[@videobuds19]

you're so inspiring elzani! It makes me so so happy to see YOU happy, and seeing you getting your life back again!! seeing your smile become even more genuine with every new video gives me such a hopeful and happy feeling. keep going girl, love you ❤

[@Rose-mf2vz]

Ahh!! I’ve been waiting so long!! You are so much happier! Love to see you finally happy! Keep going beautiful!

[@LilyBelleJoy]

@Elzani I love to see you eat a full English breakfast - 2 eggs, 2 slices seeded or tigar bread with butter (not a scraping), baked beans, 2 breakfast sausages and grilled tomato with vitamin drink. Then as morning snack, large full milk protein based shake & some fruit. 2 sandwiches for lunch. Sounds like a lot but if you look at others putting on muscle/weight in recovery there meals are much bigger and more often than a healthy person hun. I know this would be probably a huge fear but its good breakfast especially for those in recovery. I so proud of you though, please know this. Please make a P.O BOX, love to send you foods/gifts from Australia xxoo (PLEASE KNOW I PROUD THAT YOU ARE DOING WHAT YOU ARE DOING, YOU HAVE IMPROVED, OK? JUST NOW IT'S TIME TO STEP IT UP, TAKE EACH MOMENT AT A TIME) I CARE AND ADORE YOU HUN!

[@gabriellelynch7689]

This felt like a step back from previous videos and these were probably good days... She's said before on days she's not filming she sometimes falls back and struggles to eat as much. Good luck! Hope you can revaluate and get those portion sizes up, rooting for you! You'll get there if you stay mindful and vigilant and don't compensate at meal times

[@gabriellelynch7689]

@@mansisinghal5910 sorry I'm not sure of exact time stamps and videos I just remembered watching it

[@juliak9525]

I never usually watch videos that long. But I just LOVE watching you getting better every time and I'm so proud of you. You're doing amazing, but keep pushing and challenging yourself! Lots of love, Julia

[@throughrose-colouredeyes6284]

"baby, you look happier." i loved it when satara sang that. you do look happier. the real kind of happy. keep fighting for your sisters, your family, and you. i'm so proud of you, you brave soul. you can do this. 💛 ps. what you said about chocolate being hard for you now is quite normal. sometimes bad memories get attached to the only "safe" foods we allowed ourselves in the past. 🌸

[@akaykk961]

omg when she said that💓

[@throughrose-colouredeyes6284]

@@akaykk961 it made my heart smile. ⛅

[@ottaviazwillenberg3168]

Elzani you should do a video on how you deal with guilt after meals and other ways you cope when your eating disorder tells you it would be better to restrict etc!

[@mrb8810]

you should try clif bars! my favourite is peanut butter banana. it's a new one

[@denamullen340]

Mika Tremblay Are those in the states? Peanut butter and banana sounds amazing!

[@mrb8810]

@@denamullen340 I'm not sure. I live in canada.

[@AngelicasRecovery]

Oooooh that sounds good!

[@SandraEKitchen]

agreed. clif bars have helped me tremendously! I usually have the crunchy peanut butter!

[@hemimaraetai2177]

100% would watch Satara's vlog

[@ericaroozendaal629]

Elzani, I love seeing your videos. You are a beautiful person and your video's have so much positive energy! It helps me facing my fears and destructive habits. I hope you dont get too overwhelmed by all the comments. A lot of people watch your videos and a lot of people have opinions towards your eating, your recovery, your body, et cetera. I know thats how YT is, but sometimes i feel people think to know too well what is good and bad for you. Lets not forget we are not elzani's psychologist and we only see her life through editted videos, despite her being very honest in her videos.

[@lilyt6819]

Yay for chocolate porridge, in recovery I ate a lot of porridge with Nutella (try it- it's so good!!)

[@rudarudovic3878]

have you thought about trying snacks from all around the world? You could open PO box if you want, so people can send you stuff from their countries. I would send you some yummy things from Poland! :)

[@GabrielleLeGrange]

Great idea

[@mervs2631]

Hi, I am from Poland too ;)

[@zeenaidris8194]

Yes!!!!

[@emmapearson2031]

Your mums potatoes always look so good! Would love to see how she makes them. Well done on your progress Elzani! 🙂

[@avab7379]

Well done 👍 keep up the hard work it’s only you that can do it no one else your trying so hard and it will start paying off hope your well love your videos keep it up stay working that hard ❤️❤️❤️

[@izzydunning2269]

I love following your journey!! You are sunshine!

[@raspberrydream7329]

Well done for having butter on your toast - a few of us mentioned it on your last vlog and I’m so proud of you for pushing through that fear. Love your videos - I check my subscription box every day in the hope that you’ve uploaded 😂 xx

[@nichelleann8407]

That was a very impressive Shrek impression, I love how you have an Easter hunt with your family that’s my favorite part!! Besides all the treats 😂

[@kirstyhan]

Your doing so well! You need to try some biscoff or Nutella on your porridge it’s DEVINE

[@rielianavillamor272]

Hi elzani I'am Rieliana 17 years old i really love your videos and also i'm your new subcribers don't give up your recovery keep it up hehe your doing well you are lovely and amazing, you should eat more don't worry what you eat just eat hehe that's all love lots😊

[@alkapralka6680]

9:42 hahaha I LOVE YOU, YOU GO GIIIIRL. i'm fighting with anorexia too, your videos are keeping me in good and motivated mood and thank you for that, you are just my inspiration (and probably not only mine) and i'm totally 100% sure that we both can do it and win with this stupid ed😎 kisses and hugs ❤️

[@hollybanes8956]

She’s skipping snacks and having normal sized or smaller portions again :( It’s not her fault it’s hard to sustain a recovery plan when you’re not actually following a written plan, it takes a lot of thinking everyday. Another bit of proof that she needs outpatient care even just to take that burden on for her and all she’s has to do is follow it. She will never gain weight or get truly better eating like this. Yeah she’s achieving personal goals like the bbq etc but she isn’t beating her ED.

[@maggiefraser2551]

Everyone needs to go and make themselves an Easter bowl right now lol That is the best thing I've ever seen and we are all worth it!

[@aristahenriot7450]

You are amazing. No hesitation now. Loving the progress you are making xxxx

[@ssallass]

I love your videos !! I watch them everyday. trying to start recovery myself. you are smashing it! xx p.s. I loved the "'I'm sure Jesus would really like chocolate" comment XD

[@deyaniraramos1396]

Elzani, it seemed like it was an incredible Easter holiday experience! I loved it! See all your videos are so much fun, inspiring and heart warming...at least that's how I experience it to be from what I see. Your family was so supportive and caring 🖤 and yes it's never to much (of course unless it's not good for you medically or mentally) to have what you really fancy 🍫 I love your doggies too of course...they are soooooo precious 🌠🖤💜😁 your so brave and encouraging to me... adorable. Id love to see more but you do you 😘 the next day looked amazing too. Missed you so much. Keep at it, you definitely seems soooooooooo much happier, I can feel it🖤🦋😎👍🥂 love you Elzani.🖤🖤💜💜

[@LilyBelleJoy]

You are doing much better, now it's time to eat much more than your family. You need bigger portions to them, more protein, full cream milk, more butter, fruit and grains. Remember when you were away how dense the food you ate was in KJ? Protein shakes (you can get some really yummy flavors). Don't get me wrong you have improved but you need much more for your body to start to heal. I am so proud of you, take each day at a time and trust me I am so very proud of you. Love to see you having more butter, full cream milk, more bread/carbs etc. You can and Will do this! Supporting you all the way, you are stunning.

[@laurennorman1814]

You've left so many long comments on this vlog... Elzani knows what she needs to do and her family do too

[@LilyBelleJoy]

This is a meal plan for a day (of course you should have professional advice for you personally), you will see from here, how much is needed. Hugs BREAKFAST: 2 slices of toast with 1 tsp. OR more butter 2 scrambled eggs made with whole milk plus large glass of whole milk on the side to drink. Orange juice & 1/2 cup fruit salad LUNCH: Grilled cheese sandwich: 2 slices of bread, At least 2 tsp butter 3 slices of cheese & 1/2 Avocado Tomato soup (1 cup tomato soup condensed) made with 1 cup whole milk. DINNER: 1 cup OR more of cooked pasta 2 pieces garlic toast + 2 tsp butter Ground beef or turkey browned in 1 tsp OR more olive oil ½ cup tomato sauce with ½ cup cooked broccoli 1 orange Of course you need at least 3 snacks inbetween your main meals: Snack #1: 1 large muffin 1 cup whole milk (half & half could be added for more calories) Snack #2: 1 banana 1 cup whole milk yogurt Snack #3: At least 1 tsp peanut or almond butter 2 bread slices 1 cup raw carrots & at least 1 oz hummus You need your starch, protein, calcium, protein, good fats, fruits/vege/carbs to repair the damage to your body. So in reality you are doing better than before buee but I have studied a little in this, hence I always says you need to be under medical advice with this, your family are amazing but they do not have the professional knowledge. Sorry this is long, please at least comment saying you read this and your family. I understand this would cause you massive anxiety. However doesn't that show your eating disorder knows this is right and saying NO NO NO? Only placed this as I care and support you, and even though yes you doing things different, you need these sorts of foods/portions, you may even need more hence good to be under medical advice. I love and support you!

[@aleynav.9215]

Nuts would be healthy too

[@LilyBelleJoy]

@@aleynav.9215 yes.

[@georginapatterson3300]

Bot-bot is TOTALLY a thing! At least in our family

[@HollyGrace90]

I think you're just so inspirational. Keep doing such great work, I can see you changing, especially in your face and wow, you look so pretty Elzani. I really love your videos and nearly tripped over the dog on my walk when your notification came up on my phone 😂😂 you rock! 🤗🤗 lots of love

[@mattiedickson5129]

Mom's stripped jumper is so cute!!

[@drewk2089]

I totally agree that your portion sizes are a little bit too small;( I’m really really proud of you and I think such a fantastic, kind hearted person but please try to eat more

[@AA-nw7hi]

Yeees you uploaded it!! Thank u so much 💗💗

[@denamullen340]

You guys know your chocolate! Haha Makes me wish I went bought some clearance Easter candy! I’ve never heard of Biscoff. I seriously wish I was in your family to eat your moms cooking lol

[@akaykk961]

Elzani i’m so proud of you!!! u’re doing so well!💓

[@lotteberendsen9785]

Just want to let you know that you're so pretty and so are your sisters, whoa! Also your mom is the best haha :) Love your videos

[@flowerbreanna]

You should definitely try butter/margarine on your hot cross buns!! Makes them taste even better (I know this is a bit late, maybe next year haha)

[@samphillips7192]

Hi Elzani and the rest of the family! Lovin' these videos! Love the Jesus loving chocolate conversation!...Anyway, have you tried Galaxy 'Darker Milk' from the 'Darker Collection'? OH MY GOD Yummy, or what!! You have to try it! Anyway guys, happy Easter! You are looking GREAT Elzani!! xx

[@willday1510]

Your Mum looks absolutely beautiful at the BBQ.

[@ellynash4922]

Hello. Your family always use lovely huge mugs. Where does your mum buy them from? Most importantly, you are doing brilliantly still. All you have to do is keep going. You are loving joining in with your family and this could focus you if you ever gets doubts. There's no doubt that I know you will live all your dreams . Xx

[@t-nfinity4132]

Momzani has the cutest voice and demeanor in the WORLD

[@jessmando1]

You are looking so so good. Seriously you are beautiful. And your mom looks soooooo good too. Seriously you are beautiful and I’m so proud of you

[@shiftingrealities4213]

Young woman, keep going lovely, big noms, eat all the foods whenever you fancy, enjoy the taste journeys, butter is divine: just saying, keep kicking that ed hard babe! 😍😎👊✊

[@EmmyElle.]

Every time I see that rice I get so hungry, does your mum make it? I’d love to see how to make it!

[@LilyBelleJoy]

Just a important question: Have you been medically cleared to begin or continue nutritional rehabilitation on an outpatient basis? Also do you have checkup's and yuor full blood work up? Only asking as even though I do not suffer from this (studying (off right now due to health) this and other disorders and this is vital to keep an eye on how your body is responding. Of course I'm sure you been cleared from being at risk for refeeding? I pray you are having everything constantly checked as it can get dangerous. hugs

[@liagale4033]

Loved this! Does your grandma live with you?❤️❤️

[@kirinki13]

My favorite bbq is grilled seasoned carrots, or grilled pineapple. Recommend trying it the pineapple

[@pancakesyrups]

Lol a lot of people I know used to say “BotBot” for a bottle when they were young including me hahaha

[@kickboxingkitten7542]

That chocolate topped porridge looked amazing! I’m going to have to have to try that, even though I don’t like having anything “unhealthy” until the evening☺️🙄😂

[@lucydefoubert3716]

I bloody love your cat. Honestly... forget the dogs, I'm all about that cat getting more screen time 😍! Is he a British Shorthair?

[@vanessav4241]

This is my all time favorite video from her

[@saraa9762]

GIRL, you are AMAZING!!!❤️❤️❤️

[@leahhill3841]

Why the comments so negative? She’s doing really well

[@jazzcmbll]

You are doing so well Elzani!!

[@eleanorharrington469]

We actually use weetabix for rice crispie cakes!!

[@crazymistake5293]

Eleanor Harrington fudging great idea 💡

[@eleanorharrington469]

Crazy Mistake they’re so good they kinda remind me of kitkats

[@crazymistake5293]

Eleanor Harrington well I must try your idea then!!

[@jenniferhofkes4067]

My favorite BBQ is ribs and chicken are my favorite. I also like to grill is potatoes and corn too.

[@alycia1236]

You have done so well 😊😀😁 I like your personality!! 😀

[@maggiefraser2551]

BUTTER IS LIFE!

[@bethanymontague638]

We say bot bot. Omg I used to say it all the time as I couldn’t say bottle. I still call a bottle bot bot haah. Glad I’m not the only one ahah. Xxxx

[@Laura-jl7vc]

elzaniii how do you do your porridge?? It always looks so delicious!!

[@NataliaL98]

you are doing AMAZINGLY :)

[@theotherday6524]

A BOT BOT!!!!!!!!! OMG we have always called it that, pretty sure its a Scottish thing x

[@claireorr6699]

Keep the videos coming love them! ❤️ Answer to question in links below- My favourite BBQ food is coleslaw and corn on the cob. 🌽 As I am a veggie.

[@juliansgma]

Happy belated Easter!

[@perfectsmoked1674]

Seriously....this is a good video.

[@jessicarussell7934]

Our family always say bot bot 😂😂

[@eatyourheartoutwithbecca]

How long do you have to boil your eggs in order to get them like that so you can eat them like that with the toast?

[@aliceincrazyland3946]

Your toast in the beginning looked like an oven mitt 😭😂💕

[@willday1510]

Favourite colour....white?! LOL!!

[@Ellie-ut6zt]

When i was a baby my parents called it bot bot 😂😂😂

[@ashgonnaketchum9623]

You’re such a beautiful girl, I know it can be so hard you’re doing great, keep trekking 💕

[@bustedntrusted]

Have you ever thought about trying minnie maud? Tracking doesn’t work for everyone but it might help you increase your portions again to heal your body

[@whatsthestorymorningglory61]

The look in your eyes when you discovered your egg was broken, so sweet! Keep going, keep pushing! You could still increase lunch a lot and dinner a bit! You are doing well although I noticed you look slightly desperate when you are eating your meals which made me sad. Thumbs up nevertheless as you are so bravely trying and not giving up!

[@lindareinholdsson8701]

U ARE SOO GOOOD

[@sportyprincessxo]

What is the porridge you eat? My oatmeal is not the same texture

[@llizz56]

Noemie Beland it’s because she has made hers with water not milk :( please use milk Elzani!! It’s much nicer!!! X

[@BabyBriiii]

You should do a sisters do my makeup challenge!!

[@zoe9206]

What beach is that it looks so nice!

[@leahmulliner6422]

I called it a bot bot!!

[@leabell5763]

Where is that forestry area located at 33:01 ?

[@shellbysmith3479]

Amazing job at the barbeque elzani tell me what is halumi .

[@totallysashh4697]

It's cheese that can't melt, you grill it

[@MissKittyWiskers]

Halloumi is goat cheese from cyprus, its common to grill and its very Salty and it gnizzles When u chew

[@ambernoll1510]

In the US you can find it, it’s Calle bread cheese. It’s really nice

[@BabyBriiii]

There is so much competition between you and Satara it seems :O

[@taliaaustin9818]

We call it bot bot don’t worrh xx

[@befwang8417]

hahaha my family says bot bot!

[@aliyahreid41]

I really wanna know how she makes her Porridge

[@Remy4300]

I call it a bot bot!!

[@sackme4377]

I wish people would stop talking about the disorder in every single comment. In recovery, it's important to not mention how they look, how much they're eating, how "well" they look.

[@emsst2572]

Defo not enough chocolate on those Rice Krispie cakes lol

[@talissa3093]

You men Braai! ;)

[@kanishafladger316]

❤💋🥂

[@darkpaprika6221]

Omg my cats name is also Leonardo. :3

[@fededom.7676]

Anything digestion's troubles?? I couldn't do as well as you bc of them.....

[@floreynolds4203]

i said botbot too lol