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0:00 - Intro
1:38 - Why I've been gone / Health Issues
12:12 - Tater Update
19:00 - Broken Foot?
21:52 - House Hunting
25:40 - Scam House
28: 11 - Crochet

[@Alexandria-Ryan]

Hey guys! Im so sorry I have been gone for a week or so! I have been kind of struggling on my new medicine and its been really difficult to film but I'm hoping to get back into the swing of things! Let me know hoe you guys have been! love ya💖

[@promise3333]

Sending hugs Alexandria!!!! Hope you’re doing okay now. Take care of yourself, there is nothing wrong with you taking a break and getting healthy.

[@robinking6342]

Hope you're ok!

[@jacintadonadio1208]

Take care of yourself sweetheart 🇦🇺💜

[@rhoward295]

I’m sorry to hear about your health issues, and also your fur baby’s health problems (especially when they’re as yet undiagnosed). BTW, the name of the condition you didn’t know how to Google that the neurologist discussed with you is trigeminal neuralgia, just an fyi. And yes, rarely, they forget to tell you about important results, so ALWAYS call if you haven’t heard because most often no news is good news, but not every time). One more thing to ask the neurologist about is temporal arteritis (recommending due to your reported “extreme exhaustion”). Pain can also cause extreme exhaustion

[@LaceyNatasha41]

I have taken Lexapro and I was on it for awhile like 4 years and it seemed to help a little bit with Luke u said the physical side of my anxiety but on the other side of things it did make me extremely tired and exhausted feeling also it made me very depressed and it got so bad. So yes I had to stop taking it.

[@Jess-bee]

Counsellor/psychotherapist here! (+ lived experience of anxiety and depression). If you aren’t already, you may want to engage in some therapy sessions to help you add some additional strategies to your resource kit 😊 Also in regards to the tiredness, don’t forget that experiencing migraine and chronic headaches takes a massive toll on the body too. So that combined with the new meds, I can understand why you’re so tired! I hope you continue giving yourself time and space to recover. Xx

[@TheAshesvondust]

Additional vote for therapy! CBT has helped me immensely to manage/work through the worst of my anxiety

[@starsunmoon30]

This!!!!

[@amyshull8263]

Also a Social Worker with lived experience with anxiety and depression- I second your recommendations!

[@hopefullartist99]

What they said! I’m also a licensed therapist (and struggle with anxiety) and I agree that it’s so helpful for the combination of therapy and medication. But don’t hesitate to reach out to your providers about side effects! That is your right as a client!!! ❤ Plus, it can take some time to find the right medication and dosage that works right for you.

[@chandrasunny]

When I first started getting treatment for anxiety I was exhausted too. Through therapy I figured out that everything I had been doing was motivated by anxiety so as the anxiety eased I didn't know what to do with myself. I also hadn't been sleeping properly for years and the anxiety was giving me a kind of weird energy to keep going when what I really needed was rest. My doctor was concerned that I might have bipolar because of how I reacted to medication initially but as I learned how to listen to my body and got more used to medication we where able to rule that out because I started being able to function better.

[@bcgrote]

Trigeminal neuralgia (try-gem-in-el nur-al-geeya) I'm glad you're getting that treated. Pain sucks!

[@marissajohnson4250]

Checked the comments for this. Thank you!

[@ashleymcmechan674]

This one!! ☝️

[@sarawhite9338]

Same. I knew someone here would know. 😅

[@fruityxl00pz61]

I came here to say this.

[@VegasPoptarts]

Came here for this!

[@WildCynnie]

One thing my psychiatrist has explained to me is that when you have anxiety mixed with either/and/or depression, neurodivergency, etc, once you start treating the symptoms of anxiety, it will make the symptoms of the other things either pop up ten fold or just shut them down completely. As a personal experience, once I started treating anxiety, my autism came smacking in my face and I realized I was in a massive burnout and it took me 4 months to get over it. Give yourself grace, listen to your body and rest a lot. You need it and you deserve it!

[@mary-suemcgarry3027]

I have been on SSRI'S for years. Give it time the tiredness goes away. Hang in there girl, life's get better.

[@MyCatIsADonut]

And if it's really debilitating, talk to your doctor. That may not be the best med for you 😊

[@dmreddragon6]

@@MyCatIsADonut - Or even the wrong dosage.

[@freudianslipandfallover]

yay team SSRI, i just got put on an additional one...woohoo i'm so waaaavy. i know i'll be better soon...the wait is a biatch tho. YES don't worry, give it time, once you hit that tipping point it'll get SO MUCH BETTER. much love

[@maryboberry1807]

I have a friend who keeps a tree up all year and just seasonally decorates it. Keep the tree. 😉 And I’ll watch you do advent calendars all year round too.

[@Yenneffer]

Yes, hang some Easter eggs on there and you're golden for a while lol.

[@Plum_bird]

We used to do that at my old job.

[@MamaMOB]

This.

[@Alicelittlecross]

Me too!! It’s adorable

[@ladysamu9329]

I do the same thing! We call it our family tree of life. We decorate it for birthdays, holidays, and seasons.

[@stacey_moc]

Much love to you. ❤ Anecdote, not evidence: I was on anxiety meds for 2 decades before someone pointed out IT'S THE ADHD. Off anxiety meds, on adhd meds. Finally feel sane at 40.

[@jillianj310]

THIS!!!! The anxiety was actually overwhelming from the adhd. Stop/lessen the overwhelm, the anxiety goes down! The dopamine goes up, the energy stabilizes, motivation goes up… it’s amazing. My husband was taking Xanax multiple times daily for anxiety, I got diagnosed with adhd while explaining my symptoms he goes “yea, but I have those issues too… everyone does” and I was like “OR it’s adhd.” He talked to his dr, got diagnosed is taking meds for adhd and is off Xanax.

[@tinyprettymoon]

My bf was the same. Xanax was the only anxiety medicine that worked at all but his doctors stopped prescribing it so he was on his own until he got his ADHD diagnosis and an adderall prescription last year

[@JadeCC92]

Yes! I only got diagnosed last year aged 30 because I masked my ADHD really well. How did I mask it? I created maladaptive ways of coping with my ADHD symptoms that gave me crippling anxiety and stress 😂

[@bethlovesthings]

Yep, this is sadly very common! Thank you for sharing your experience.

[@maddiemcnugget1076]

Honestly this makes me feel a bit better. I highly suspect that I have ADHD, but would like a formal diagnosis, but I don't even know where to start. I'm 25 and people say even 25 is "late" to learn this... I feel like my life is just starting at 25. How is it late? IDK! My perception of time is so off.

[@tinklecatyt8350]

I work in Ortho! You’d be surprised how often we hear this exact story, and we do often find broken bones in the foot as a result! If you haven’t already, please go get an X-ray just to make sure you’re ok! Hope you feel better soon!

[@appledpickle]

Sometimes when you start anxiety treatment it feels like you've lost all motivation because it was actually your anxiety creating a false sense of urgency. You do (typically) get used to it but it can take some time. Don't give up!

[@sarahedge154]

From anxiety experience, here’s my advice: see a psychiatrist for your prescription, they’ll nitrate your dose, change your meds to the one that’s right for you, because there are many and I had to take 3 or 4 before I got a good one. Also, sometimes medication alone doesn’t work entirely for anxiety and you may need talk therapy for awhile, just to give you tips and tricks to help get through your day. Even with all that, I won’t drive long distances or on highways. Good luck!

[@MichelleC1974]

Yes, I agree. I talk medication and did a DBT group for a year, now I am doing EMDR.

[@BlueMolly2024]

I have to triple the agreement in seeing a psychiatrist. I have clinical depression and generalized anxiety. It took me a while to get on the right meds to get me through the days. I was on Lexipro years ago, and it made me so exhausted. I’m on Cymbalta, Remeron and Klonopin, and they’ve been so helpful.

[@BettietheRipper]

Yes! PCPs can only go so far with psych meds, only a true psych provider can work out the nuances of medication 😊

[@carrieradtke983]

Yes... My daughter has been thru a lot of meds. Some knocked her out completely, others made her sick. Psych did a gene test to see how medication works with her body and she can only take 3 different meds. And all that she was on were on the terrible reaction list.

[@glowfi2516]

I've been on lexapro for nearly 5 years now. The first two months were what you were talking about- brain foggy, slept all the time. Coffee wasn't waking me up, just kind of going through the motions. Then it got into my system, and it slowly got better. I still get a little brain-foggy at times, but that normally means I actually need to sleep better. BUT if it doesn't get better, it just means it isn't working! It's not uncommon for the first SSRI to not work. You got this!

[@bryghtfaery7]

I am a nurse that works in behavioral health. There is a genetic test they can do called Genesite. Genesite will be able to tell you which meds will work for you. It will tell you the ones that work the best and the ones that do not work at all for you. It is around $300, but it is honestly worth it. It has saved many of my patients from trying several types of meds to find the one that works best for them. I hope that helps!

[@jacquelinewilson5543]

AGREED!! I also work in behavioral health and yes this test is awesome i have had it myself it is so accurate and will tell you all kinds of cool info about your body and what meds will work for your...... yes get it !!!

[@dmreddragon6]

Hmm, I was given the test, and think I was deceived. Instead of helping me, maybe they used me to gather their baseline data. The medications prescribed after the test "results" came back had adverse effects on me. It would've been nice if things had worked out, as many drugs don't work the same way as they are "supposed" to work.

[@bryghtfaery7]

@@dmreddragon6 I'm sorry that happened to you. When you received the test results, it should clearly state on the paperwork they give you, which meds will work for you. Did your doctor not give you the written/printed out test results? The results are color coded for easy reference. That way you are also informed?

[@user-bu5rm5ds4m]

What all does this test tell you for $300 this could help a lot of ppl

[@joanneclark8256]

@@jacquelinewilson5543 is this in canada ? and would 23 and me be similar?

[@daniellebill7478]

That’s actually very common when Lexapro is introduced in the early stages. It’ll level out soon.

[@zoeygroat1560]

Same issue, went away after two weeks

[@rachaelwhitford6989]

Same with effexor. Also if you still have extreme tiredness you can see if you can take it at night before you sleep

[@lindsay9181]

I’ve been on Lexapro for about a year, and I’d agree it takes a few weeks to really feel an effect. Last week my doctor increased my dosage, and I feel like I’m going through the adjustment all over again- especially being sooo sleepy! Hang in there, hopefully it works for you, but definitely keep in touch with your doctor and don’t be afraid to try another medication if Lexapro doesn’t eventually give you any improvements! ❤

[@teri2466]

Excellent advice! 😊

[@Metroid250]

Oh that's interesting. I've had kinda the opposite. It worked on me days after I started taking it. It could be placebo effect, but I'm personally doubtful because I've already tried several SSRIs without results and I was just going through the motions and maintaining sea-floor level expectations

[@snivyvictor]

i started taking lexapro years ago and i actually had a super extreme allergic reaction and i had rashes that didnt go away for about 6 months. so anyone taking lexapro if you start getting spots on you stop taking it immediately!! i had months long rashes because my doctor said it was nothing and to keep taking them but i got increasingly covered in rashes and bumps

[@teri2466]

@@snivyvictor Oh wow! Don't you love it when docs pooh-pooh your symptoms? 🙄

[@terryblevins2516]

Hey girl you said u have A.d.h.d. now if they put you on adderall you will have all the energy in the world honey so ask.. Those pills your on don't do much.. But make u tired.. Believe me I know... Get off all that junk and try Adderall!!

[@smarttechaddict]

I love your honesty! On youtube we see so many perfect lives that the average person can never get. You make us feel like we're your friends. I got into needle felting. My fingers are like teabags with 1000 perforations.

[@deannagustafson3244]

I feel your pain trying to figure out dog allergies. My 3 year old has had severe allergies since I got him at 2 months old. He started out with getting the cytopoint injection every 3-6 weeks, depending on when it would wear off. That was not enough for him. Even with the injection in full effect, he would still get monthly ear infections, swollen feet, and bloody sores at the base of his neck. His feet get so swollen that he can't walk, and when the vets do x-rays, it looks like broken toes, but it is just the inflammation. We added weekly baths using douxo or oatmeal shampoo (douxo only during flairs) and BioHex for his feet. Again, this was not enough. When he was about 2 years old couple different vets recommended adding Apoquel daily, he had about 5 different vet clinics at this point due to appointment availability and his need to be seen right away when he was having allergy issues. They both said that Apoquel and Cytopoint work together and can prolong the effects of Cytopoint. With that combination, we were able to push the cytopoint to every 8 weeks. We did notice a huge change with both allergy medications. He grew hair! He always had a very thin coat on his back and nothing on his stomach or neck. For the first time in his life, he started shedding. This was finally a win, but it was still not good enough. I ended up shelling out $1000 and doing the skin allergy test. This finally gave a whole bunch of answers, and when I heard the results, all I could do was laugh. This poor dog was HIGHLY allergic to... HIMSELF! He was off the charts allergic to malassezia, which is the naturally produced yeast on his body, and unfortunately for him, his body produced lots of it, especially in his feet. Moving forward, we focused on keeping his feet clean and using lots of antifungal topicals to reduce the amount of yeast. We ended up moving out of state, and once we got settled, we found a new dermatologist for him. The new doctor was the answer to all of our prayers. We provided her with all of his medical records and his allergy tests. When we finally got to the appointment, she focused on his feet and pointed out that he has light black colored toes with white on the edges. She said this is not normal and that the yeast is growing inside his toe nails and that no matter how many topicals we use, it will not improve. She wanted to put him on a new medication, fluconazole. He has been on his medication since June 2023, and he has only needed 1 cytopoint injection during a flair of one of his other allergies. Find a good dermatologist and get the skin test. It's expensive but was definitely worth it in the end.

[@emilyruiz8423]

I’m going through the same thing with my dog, her allergies are so bad she breaks out in hives to the point. The doctor doesn’t feel comfortable, giving her her yearly vaccination because of it.

[@toxyvella]

I genuinely feel the population as a whole is....exhausted, depressed, anxious, frustrated. It's the state of the world and we're all in survival mode, even if we don't realize it. I'm just trying to keep going...it's been rough. Take solice in knowing you're not alone ❤

[@dmreddragon6]

I too have noticed this.

[@freudianslipandfallover]

i completely agree. ironically, after alexandria mentioned her parents were going to paris & switzerland, i wanna mention after a couple of trips over there last year believe it or not it's really less stressful there. pop culture is doing a job on us. social media too. while i'm not ignorant and know it also plays a large part of daily life in EU it's not like here. if you guys get a chance take a trip and see for yourself. culture is different. i've never felt so much like i wanna leave the States, and i LOVE my country, but i literally keep having to be put on more meds for anxiety and depression and get headaches and people are so mean. if anyone is interested i found a great yearly visa for france that's renewable annually if you promise not to take a french job. so if you're looking to work remotely away from the US, i can at least you point you in the right direction. It's called the Financially Independent Persons Visa (you gotta have at least 16,000 EURO deposited in one of their banks), but as long as you have that you can renew you visa annually and work remotely from your US job and get the heck outta here

[@maddiemcnugget1076]

@@freudianslipandfallover I feel this so much. I went to the Philippines and literally everything feels more chill there. Only thing I dislike is that the workers hawk over you while shopping in certain stores. I also like living in the US and I don't want to be a modern day colonizer (I am Filipina so moving to the Philippines would not really be colonizing...) and I will account, I was on vacation while I was there. There are a lot of political bs and people that make your head want to explode there as well. But I just felt more alive there. As humans we are meant to relax, enjoy hobbies, take leisure, but I know a lot of modern structures don't allow this for us. We aren't meant to work 40 hours a week for some bozo we don't care about (of course we can work 24/7 for things we care about like kids and loved ones or a small business we own or take great part in). There are ways for us to enjoy life, but like the original commenter said... there's a lot of stress going on right now all over the world and at least we aren't alone.

[@GretchArmstrong]

I can't help myself from busting out laughing at the "Mythological creature who eats souls" result!

[@sabbithcullen14]

As a frequent migraine sufferer, it may be on to something lol.

[@theseinstrumentals]

I get what I believe are migraines a couple times a year. Absolutely vile and I think mine are on the mild side (2 to 3 days horrible headache with nausea but no other symptoms), migraines blow and I hate when I hear others have them

[@rinashort3919]

I went through the same thing when i started my medications- I did switch to different meds but I think the main thing is that your body has been in panic mode for who knows how long, and it doesn't know how to function without anxiety. Let yourself rest! ❤

[@ShelleyKimmel]

I can relate to your feelings of anxiety and depression. I take an antidepressant and anxiety medication as well. I'm coping with my daughter turning 18 and planning to move in with her boyfriend when she graduates....she's my youngest and I'm not handling it well at all. You have a very supportive community here, of people that love you, please know we all will be here for you as you navigate the various issues you are facing. I'm keeping you in my prayers, same with Tater.🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️

[@robinwilkerson8942]

I am a knitter but when you pick up another skein of yarn check the lot number, usually if yarn is with the same lot number are dyed at the same time and more likely to match, with that said I like the variation in the color of your blanket.

[@user-zr9uy7bn2e]

yes my grandmother crocheted and she looked for same lot numbers to

[@checktheinsanity]

Also confirm. Because my mom knit a lot, and I work phone lines for a craft retailer haha

[@betsybabf748]

Always call for results if they don't call you. Yes, I have had a doctor forget to look at my results, and it resulted in a cancer scare and my needing surgery so for peace of mind, just touch base with your doctor in those situations. I was on Lexapro for a few years. I was exhausted, but when I was put on it I was also just suddenly widowed, caring for a parent with terminal cancer who also died and raising a house full of grieving children so I can't determine if the Lexapro was the cause of the exhaustion.

[@m.service5584]

Praying for you, hon.❤

[@danikaskye6511]

I started taking lexapro three weeks ago and I have been feeling the exact same way. Everyone is telling me to push through and honestly today felt better than the last week so I’m hopeful! I hope it works out for you ❤

[@elizabethsahu7822]

I have chronic migraines and tmj and I admire how you have coped with daily headaches it is so so hard. Good luck with the meds and know that a lot of these brain medicines take time to work but the can help so do much

[@smlorrin]

My ex-husband's father passed away because the doctor's office forgot to call him about a cancer diagnosis. 😥 Please don't ever assume that everything is OK just because you haven't heard anything about a test result from the doctor.

[@jenniferp7497]

Happened to my brother in-law as well. They forgot to call him and tell him he had cancer. Two years later he went back to the doctor, they realized they never followed up, and by then he was Stage 4 and died soon after.

[@victoriasowa2396]

A Lexapro, migraine, and fibromyalgia girlie here! I’m so happy that you’re figuring out your health stuff - pain is the worst! Never feel bad about prioritizing your health over videos. 💜 you’re my comfort channel, always Edit to add: meds always take some getting used to, but make sure to tell your doc about your fatigue bc you might just need a different med. wishing you the best!

[@donnanoe6736]

Cymbalta, Migraines, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome here. I get Botox for my headaches. So far it works.

[@2bleushadow]

Love the house updates! 😄

[@MissTraceyAnn]

Happy Birthday Jeremy 🎉

[@bonnieh5790]

Auburn University is Alabama. My son was walking through the room and heard you. He is a huge Auburn fan. Needless to say he was yelling at the TV. I went to the neurologist for migraines. I was treated with many kinds of antidepressants. Wish you luck in finding a treatment.😊

[@MamaMOB]

I went to a psychologist for bipolar disorder and I was treated with anti-seizure medicine. It's crazy the way things can cross work. I also was given Lexapro!

[@karine-v]

​@@MamaMOB my anti-anxiety medication, Clonazepam, is also used for seizures. Meds eorks in odd ways!

[@Sldejo]

Auburn University is IN Alabama. The University of Alabama is in Tuscaloosa.

[@bonnieh5790]

@@Sldejo Sorry you are correct.

[@birchandlily]

Hey Alexandria! The difference you're seeing in yarn color is because of something called "dye lot" all yarn will have a dye lot number on the ball band. You want to ensure that your dye lots match so that you don't have any difference in color in your project. I'd recommend buying everything you need for a project all at once and making sure the dye lots match!

[@jordangassman1177]

So sorry, wonderful to see you ❤️

[@ruthtaylor6049]

Sending you all lots of good thoughts and love 🥰

[@kkossor]

The shooting pain could be TMJ (Tempromandibular Joint Dysfunction) Your Dentist can check your bite and it can be fixed easily.

[@chrislynn9666]

I was coming on to say this too- I’ve had it for years and it comes from clenching at night. It can take so long to get diagnosed but sounds just like this!

[@NicoleCamp88]

@@chrislynn9666Got my device in December and my everyday basic headaches went away, my neurologist was so happy.

[@jmarshal]

It definitely sounds like TMJ pain to me, too.

[@chrislynn9666]

I strongly recommend Priya Mistry, DDS You tube channel. She specializes in TMJ diagnoses and treatment. I can’t be her patient (too far away) and don’t know her, but her channel has been really helpful.

[@almo33YO]

Girl! Fellow ADHDer on an SSRI (Zoloft). I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE OF FATIGUE FOR THE FIRST TWO MONTHS. I’m 3 years out and it’s great. Recently added Wellbutrin in the mix and I feel normal for the first time in 44 years. I’ve been able to get off adderall. Good luck. Hang in there!

[@AD-lb8xs]

Same here! Love Zoloft lol

[@riveramnell143]

Congrats on feeling normal!! That’s huge. ❤

[@StLsalsagirl]

Yup, maximum Zoloft and Wellbutrin for years. Added D3 and Super B Complex too. I still feel like I'm on the struggle bus, but I'm better than I was.

[@brendaharvey7886]

So sorry to hear about the troubles, but you are my hero - you keep pushing through it and taking care of your great pups. I hope sharing helps - it always does for me.

[@whiteoleander765]

I just started it not too long ago also and found taking it before bed helps me a great deal. Once I did that I saw a huge difference and feel so much better. Good luck with everything I wish you the best.

[@S_patricia]

Oh my, so much going on with you and your pup! I hope everything gets better soon ❤

[@VictoriaERav]

Trigeminal neuralgia! I was diagnosed with this so long ago, I have NEVER heard anyone else talk about it. It can be so painful and debilitating 😭 Have you also ever had your hormones checked or any of your vitamin levels? A huge reason for my migraines had to do with my hormone levels and my period anddd because I was deficient in multiple vitamins. I'd definitely say look into that as well. And just remember, medications can be trial and error and if you feel like something is not working for you, listen to your gut feeling. ❤

[@mosbyjessica]

Team TN too! 😂 not a group I signed up for..but. The amount of meds I have been on to try and tame it suck.

[@poietes7337]

And don't be afraid to tell your doctor about any and all concerns. If they don't listen or make you feel silly for asking about something, find a new doctor.

[@lisagaramone3570]

Omg girl!! I had almost the same thing happen with my foot and it turned out I had shattered the bones in my foot and I had to have surgery to fix them. PLEASE GO GET IT LOOKED AT!!

[@veronicavids]

I love your updates! Wishing you and tater the best 🐾❤️‍🩹

[@vereniceportales6724]

Girl, you have a lot going on!! I hope you and Tater feel better ❤❤❤❤

[@jillianj310]

This is an anecdote piggybacking on someone else’s comment, I had anxiety and some depression (what I thought was depression anyway), I was having daily headaches too. I got diagnosed with adhd, started taking adderall and it’s been a night and day difference for me! After the first week my regular headaches were gone, my general daily “anxiety” was gone, it was actually overwhelm. My motivation has increased, my energy to get through the day has increased. It’s been amazing. I was just so depleted from trying to function in a state of dopamine deprivation that it was actually debilitating. Do I still have adhd symptoms? Yea, I definitely put my dogs (clean!) poop bags into my purse this morning instead of into the stroller for our daily walk, I’m hyper fixating on remodeling our kitchen, and gardening… I forget what I’m doing the second I walk into another room. lol but I’m actually doing the things most of the time and the most debilitating symptoms are manageable. I’m not a dr, and there could very well be other stuff going on. But I really think addressing the adhd will be a big piece of the puzzle to getting you feeling better.

[@starsunmoon30]

This !!!

[@teri2466]

Great advice!

[@sweetpeasouthernhome]

Oh my gosh this is me lol!

[@heavenlycute]

Yes! I was diagnosed with ADHD at age 43... since I was 14 I've been in and out of therapy for depression and anxiety with various medications added to that. After getting ADHD meds, so much of my anxiety has been wiped out: I can go into the shops on a Saturday and not end up sitting on the floor sobbing from anxiety and overwhelm afterwards. 45 now and I often wonder how my life would have been very different had I been diagnosed earlier.

[@jillianj310]

@@heavenlycute yes! I'm 37 and only diagnosed in September. At first I was really sad for younger me who struggled for so long without knowing it could be better/easier. But my husband reminds me that we can't change the past, but we can enjoy the now and look toward the future. And, I probably wouldn't be where I am now or who I am now if I had been diagnosed earlier. And I love our life together and wouldn't trade our family for anything. So it's just part of the journey, and it was a struggle but at least I know why now. And it wasn't some fundemental personality flaw in me making me a bad human.

[@tiffh9072]

As someone with depression, anxiety, and ADHD... it's hell and takes a few tries to find the right combination of medications and talk therapy is also great to help you find the right tools for when you do feel more anxious over something(or ya know, seemingly nothing at all) ❤ YOU GOT THIS! ❤️ I didn't get my license till I was 25/26 because of my anxiety and even with the medication, I can't drive on highways because too many cars make me nervous. My best friend also doesn't drive due to her anxiety and she'll be 30 this year. It seems so common for those with anxiety to struggle with that stuff which sucks in the US because our public transit is very underdeveloped compared to other countries.

[@lethfuil]

Yeah. Not driving in my country, in my (very rural) area is a pain in the ass, but not really too problematic. In the US I guess you'd be completely stranded, in some places?

[@lollie1963]

I’m so sorry for all you’re going through. Praying for you and you and lil tater 🙏❤️🫶🏻

[@lbchristensen8732]

Hope you start feeling better. love the blanket, and critter

[@jjusttlistenn]

Welcome to the Lexapro club! It's the best thing that's ever happened to me. It does take 4-8 to really feel a difference, so you gotta stick with it. It has completely opened up the world to me. My first few weeks of Lexapro, I would get extremely tired after taking it because it changes your sleep a little bit (you may be having super vivid dreams). Your body adjusts after a while. Took about 2-3 weeks. Taking it at night helps.

[@KylaSibbett]

Same here! Lexapro changed my life! It's like magic. But unfortunately coming off of it is not as magical. I missed a refill 1 month and I haven't taken it since. And now I have a agoraphobia so that's fun and my anxiety is the worst it's ever been and I want to start taking Lexapro again but I don't want to go through the withdrawal process all over again because that was probably one of the hardest things I've done. I guess you can't have something good without the bad as well.

[@c.j.4180]

Hahaha, the lexapro dreams are reeeeeaalll. I kind of like them though, mine are so whack but so vivid so remembering them when I wake up is like watching an absurdist comedy. 😆

[@jjusttlistenn]

@@c.j.4180I had one so vivid where I married Henry Cavill that I woke up and thought I actually was 😂😂😂.

[@taylorpengov8907]

Hi there, don't get discouraged. I'm a nurse and it takes awhile for your body gets used to the meds and the reason your tired is because your body has been on high alert because of the anxiety so now that these meds are calming your anxiety down your body is relaxing. So it will take awhile for your body to get used to it and then you will feel more like yourself. Stay strong. I also struggle with anxiety and depression and had the same problem. Love ya ❤

[@chickpea003]

i am in love with your crochet octopi! precious little guys!

[@patricialynn6280]

You literally seem like the sweetest girl ❤

[@theresabeougher]

I’ve been on Lexapro for 7 years now and have had the dosage increased since then. I was also SUPER tired when I first started taking it. I was only able to stay awake for about 6 hours a day and slept the rest. It took about a month or 2 before that part wore off for me, but it does wonders for me! It also messed up my periods for awhile and took months for it to get back on track, so just a heads up if that happens to you too

[@samanthaestrada9476]

I personally love your rambling update videos. I wasn’t even watching the makeup. Love that you keep us up to date on what is going on in your life!! Thank you!! ❤❤

[@boogiebear3095]

Same

[@chelsey8737]

I love the drama with the scam house! Im so here for updates

[@crystalbartee5194]

I love you Alexandria!!! I love that you are sooo open! So many many deal with the same things and it’s good for them to hear it’s not just them. For someone sooo anxious all the time like me but so scared to take meds it makes me think maybe it could help! Just know you are AWESOME!!! You are definitely NOT useless! And we LOVE YOU!

[@DebbieBlatt0816]

I bought my boy a “doughnut” instead of the cone- it worked amazingly for him. And my pit had the same issues with paw chewing, until I started putting coconut oil on his food. 1/2 tablespoon would be a perfect amount for your boy. ❤❤❤

[@decatan3]

Coconut oil has been a huge win here too for our dogs allergies. 1 melted tbsp for a 45 lb staffy - and she's been itch free for years

[@DebbieBlatt0816]

@@decatan3 The benefits of coconut oil, are amazing.

[@thesussexbunion]

You are appreciated, and loved. I'm sorry about your health issues, as well as Tater's. We'll be here if you need us.

[@2frootloops]

I can really relate to what you are going through. I too am having health, dog, and energy issues. Things are starting to improve here, I hope you and Tater are feeling lots better real soon!

[@deirdreballou6341]

Good job on your crocheting!! I crochet all the time.....I love it. It's very relaxing and therapeutic. I hope you and Tatar get to feeling better soon. Thank you for taking the time to touch base with us during this crazy time you're going through. I love your videos ❤

[@britt3077]

Hi from another Spoonie with trigeminal neuralgia! I'm so so glad you're getting help, and you were able to get in to see the neurologist so quickly! I've been in Lexapro for a few years, and it definitely takes a while for your body to adjust. But there's also a ton of different anti-anxiety meds out there, and sometimes it takes a bit of trial and error to find one that works for you (Lexapro was the third for me!). Sending you all the love and hope you feel better soon! edit: Cause you asked for people to share their experiences, and I don't mind. I'm one of the oddballs that got nasty insomnia from the Lexapro, and even when I got to sleep, I'd wake up at 3 am and not be able to get back to sleep. Eventually I ended up taking melatonin for a few days to try and reset my shot sleep schedule, and it helped. I had to do it a few times, but eventually my body adjusted, and now I sleep more or less the same as I did before. My doctor recommended I change the time of day when I was taking my meds, and that helped a bit, too.

[@mackenzie6166]

I had the same experience with the insomnia! And when I finally did fall asleep, I would clench my jaw in my sleep so hard that it would be sore for days.

[@maggiejackson6364]

Hey! Glad to see you back! I do wanna say, as a adult woman with ADHD and anxiety, I 1,000% know what you’re going through! I will say my anxiety is way better and easier to manage when I’m I’m treating my adhd! A lot of my anxiety and depression wa caused by my untreated ADHD! Also lexapro can make you super sleepy and maybe it might be a little of coming out of fight or flight! I would definitely push for adhd treatment as well!

[@sfroio]

Completely agree! My ADHD meds do more for my anxiety than for my ADHD (and anxiety meds made my headaches worse). Also, with ADHD meds, even if it might take a while to figure out which is right for you, you'll know if they're working right away.

[@positivelykimmie]

OMG!!! You’ve had so much going on. Make sure to take care of yourself and your hubby and of course the babies. 💜💜💜

[@misslovlycassy]

Oh I missed you so much I’m glad u are some what ok hope your health gets better

[@BuyFelicia.]

I keep my tree up year round and decorate it seasonally. I love it. I also had the same reaction to Lexapro. It felt like Lexapro was like “step aside anxiety, it’s depression’s time to shine!” 😂 I was so lethargic and on a constant brain fog. I stayed in it for 6 months with no improvement to those effects. I switched to Wellbutrin and it was like I had a life again. It helps so much with the anxiety (I can leave my house again!) but does not make me depressed or lethargic. I hope you also find a medication that works for you and you get some relief.

[@teri2466]

It's crazy the way drugs work. I just got off Wellbutrin because it made my anxiety go through the roof! It was horrible. The funny thing is that I had been on it 20 years ago with no issues 🤷🏻‍♀️ I'm glad it's working for you.

[@BuyFelicia.]

@@teri2466 thank you. I had a similar experience with Prozac, worked amazing in my 20s. Not so much in my 40s. I hope you find something that helps you!

[@vj4195]

Lexapro (and its evil older cousin Celexa) along with Klonopin messed me up in the 20s. In my 40s Xanax and Clonidine taken only as needed for overwhelm along with talk therapy and EMDR is the key. Everyone is different but the important thing is to get a starting point and don’t be afraid to speak up if something doesn’t work.

[@danilleallmon9745]

Oh how I have missed you helping me do my dishes. I had to watch old videos. Lol🎉

[@hfrisch007]

The good thing is she never gets old , ❤ always good for a smile and a laugh😂

[@sheilacarlislepyreneesmom]

Praying for you and sweet fur baby!

[@Alexandria-Ryan]

Thank you❤️

[@insleyperdock9988]

I’ve been on Lexapro and it made me a zombie. I could just sit and stare into space all day long. I felt emotionless, like nothing bothered me. Which you may think sounds not too bad, but it was horrible. I had to get off of it because it changed my life for the worse. I was given Buspirone for my anxiety and it helped me so so much. Wishing you so much luck on your health journey. I know it can seem like so much at once, but you will get through this. 💛

[@rhondawolfgangbelluscio2548]

For years, I kept my tree up and decorated it for holidays and the seasons. I always put bows and flowers according to the holidays/seasons. Spring was birds, bird houses, nests. Then red, white and blue patriotic items. Summer was beach items. I loved getting items from thrift stores, Dollar Tree, Walmart and other stores. Everybody loved it and so did I!! I kept it up for about 10 years and every year I would buy some new items or change the bows and flowers. I really had a great time. The tree finally wore out and I never replaced it. Now, I have 5 cats and I'm pretty sure they would destroy it!! Sending warm thoughts, hugs and prayers for a quick recovery for both you and baby Tater. Love from Pa. 💙🙏🏻💙. ❤️🐶❤️ 💐🌷🌺

[@snudder.s.m.l.5026]

Don't you think about us, the only thing you should think about is getting better, it's your medicine that are making you tired and it is werry normal. Big hugs from Denmark. 🌹💝🥰

[@justmejenpolar]

morning! You joined me eating breakfast :D the blanket looks so cool and the octopusses (?) are so cute! Wish all of you a fast recovery and hopefully you will find the cause oh his allergy soon

[@FrizzyFranny82]

Aww, your crocheted octopuses are cute 🐙 I hope you and Tater start to feel better soon 💖

[@elizabethduggins1357]

Been on lexapro for the last 2 years…takes a few weeks to adjust and yes when I stop taking it and restart wipes me out! Hang in there, once you have the right dosage it is great.

[@joybodelay9679]

Yes, me too. I have been really helped by the lexapro. 😊

[@beautifullyremastered2073]

I've had Trigeminal neuroligia since 2017, and it has been debilitating, to say the least. Medication works for a lot of people, but i had brain surgery in 2019 to disect a blook vessel from the nerve. Best decision ever! Hooe medicine works for you!

[@appalachiancat]

Thank you so much for posting this! Please don't ever not post thinking we won't be interested. I would have watched a way longer version. You are loved!

[@cathfoley9240]

So sorry to hear you’re going through all of this. Life is sometimes very difficult hey! I had very similar symptoms to you (other than anxiety) and was diagnosed with an under active thyroid. Maybe something to consider 🤷‍♀️ sending you love and hoping you’re feeling a bit better soon ❤❤

[@daniellebill7478]

I’m struggling too! Very very much so. Thank you for sharing!!! ❤❤❤

[@tonyaweaver483]

I think right now everyone is struggling ❤

[@carrielankford4036]

I love these videos where you just talk to us and tell us whats going on in your life. You really need to get that foot checked out. I had you on in the background listening while I made peanut butter cookies.

[@hannahclosson6624]

you’re health is priority girl ! we will still be here ! 😊❤ i may miss the videos but self care is always more important than us!!! have a good weekend love

[@ashleyranae09]

YES, when I started my Lexapro I was soooo tired, like unbelievably tired. I switched to taking it at night and that helped, but after several weeks of taking it, I started to feel much better. It has changed my life so much for the better.

[@zesstra4587]

My puppers is also on this hydrolyzed dog food. It cut her allergies 85% out. Cytopoint shots actually do their job now! Good luck!

[@happycamper4thewin]

It’s Trigeminal neuralgia. I truly think you would benefit from therapy for your anxiety. When I started Zoloft for anxiety I felt like a zombie for about 6 months but it did go away. Hugs to you!

[@Jaxdom]

You've already got plenty of excellent advice, so i just want to send you a big, gentle hug & lots of love ❤

[@ddebarre7192]

Thanks for sharing with us. I'm always ready to listen, so share any thoughts that pop in! My brain goes off on tangents, too. Your crochet work is beautiful, and when you are ready to crochet again, I'd love to see more! Give your body and brain all the time they need. We'll still be ready for more videos. You're the best!

[@angelface8698]

The moment you showed where the pain location was, I thought of Trigeminal Neuralgia. I've had it since 2016. While it is not life threatening, it is painful. There are medications that can help with the pain. Sometimes there is no real cause for it, and sometimes there is a compressed nerve. So, I'm glad to see you did get an MRI. A headache can flare it up too. Whether its TN or something else, I hope you can find some pain relief.

[@AdorableOracle]

I've never commented I don't think, but thank you for sharing this and so much with us!! You helped me so much as a fellow gal with alopecia. I felt really alone being in my mid 30's and not knowing anyone around my age (20's and 30's) dealing with it, since I think it's different when you're younger, at least for me. You're amazing! Much love :)

[@carolynford2054]

I am praying you feel better soon! I took Lexapro many years ago and do not remember any side effects. Tater is in my prayers, too. You are a “super mom” to Tater.

[@EmilySusan61685]

ALEX SUper excited to see you uploaded I always am. Your effervescent personality coupled with your sweet demeanor makes your content a joy to watch. I'm sorry to hear about your health issues, please never feel bad about taking some much needed you time. Also love hearing about your 'boys' you really are the best fur mama I've encountered. I love hearing you share about them

[@joey_5060]

I'm not going to talk about my own diagnosis...but we have such similar symptoms. *Please* follow up and get your results from your mri. If something is there that needs to be treated, knowing sooner is better than later. Please call them. ❤

[@evaleslie3287]

Oh my gosh!! I hope you and tater start feeling better soon and figure out what's going on. And good luck with the house hunt my husband, daughter and I just moved out to Kentucky and so far we're loving it. We went to your shop a couple days ago and it is so cute! I loved your little crochet items too. I'm still a beginner but it brings me so much joy. Your dad was in there working that day and he was the sweetest! 😊

[@mokhiber1]

Alexandria the mug-rug is a great idea. If I lived near you shop I would definitely purchase one. I hope you and tater feel better soon. ❤😘

[@stephaniesaathoff7312]

I got diagnosed with Trigeminal neuralgia in 2016. I know the pain and struggle it causes. Glad they got you on the daily meds. I take tropraime daily for mine. Ice packs have also worked when I feel them coming on. Feel better soon.

[@Terrorific_tray]

I have been suffering from TN type 2 for over 10 yrs. I do know that cold is a major trigger for an attack for me. That and any wind over a light breeze will have me reeling in pain.

[@myndataylor892]

Happy Birthday Jeremy 🥳🎂

[@m.service5584]

Yes, HAVE A GREAT BIRTHDAY, JEREMY!! 🎈🎉❤🎂🎁

[@bronteharris5174]

I was actually crocheting while watching this video!! I love crocheting during all of your videos! I hope you're able to get back some of your energy, starting new medication and trying to take care of your health is not easy, but you're doing great. much love from a typically silent fan

[@Care2004Bear]

When I started Lexapro, I was exhausted for a couple of weeks but it does go away and you experience a daily nice calm.

[@kkossor]

Hope you and Tater feel better soon. xo❤xo

[@AnonymousMusing]

Your crocheted blanket is gorgeous! 👏👏👏 I hope that you and yours feel better soon.

[@SagaciousSprite]

So glad that you are getting help with the pain, headaches and anxiety. My cat is on a hydrolyze protein diet as well. And yes it is very expensive. My cat Louie's allergic response was constantly vomiting his food almost every day. I hope the root to Tater's allergy is found or that you are able to find a combination of food or products that level out his allergy issues. Oh my and your poor foot! Get better soon!!!

[@tanhux1672]

My anti anxiety meds messed with me for weeks before the side effects settled but now I feel "normal" and my anxiety levels are at almost a zero. Good luck x

[@meh_lady]

I haven’t driven due to anxiety for over 30 years, I get it. ❤ At 50 I was diagnosed with ADHD and low dose Ritalin has helped my anxiety so much! I’ve been on Lexapro for almost 20 years. The lethargy is normal early on but does pass. I think it’s as much to do with our body finally relaxing as it is the medication.

[@pinkbubblesnake]

Learning to drive was nearly impossible for me.

[@heavenlycute]

Same here! Ritalin has been a life saver.

[@Natashasha2319]

Ugh! I went through this! Prescribed Lexapro because I don't drive because of my anxiety. Then they refused to address my depression and adhd until I got the anxiety under control. I took the meds for 2 meds. Hated it. Weaned off the meds and never went back to those docs. Changed my diet and lifestyle, am completely sober, depression is gone, adhd is manageable and anxiety is controlled because I exercise. I still don't drive tho. Eff that. I'm good driving offroad. It's other drivers that freak me out.

[@lisamariesweet1297]

Hey, I’ve been on a few different anti-anxiety and antidepressant medications, as well as prescriptions for headaches, and I can attest to the fact that the exhaustion/lethargy/ lack of motivation IS only temporary, and you will eventually feel like you’re old self again (just less anxious and stressed all the time). Plus, at your follow up appointments they’ll ask about all that so they can address and resolve any of those kinds of issues. But this phase of things won’t last long ( even though it feels like it when you’re going through it) 😊 things will get better! Hang in there! Much love, prayers, and blessings😊💐💐💐

[@rachaelstewart3497]

So happy you are getting treated. I have neuralgia from nerve damage from shingles in my spine. So I get it!! Hopefully you will be in the mend soon!!

[@justdeb4730]

Not Christmas tree, call it say a general holiday tree. Hear me out just decorate it for the upcoming holidays and you never have to take it down.