it's okay not to be okay (realness)

I made this almost two years ago, seems a little bit silly and cliche now, I've definitely grown since then, but a voice in the back of my head told me to post it.

[@castle_greene]

“It’s really weird knowing what you’re running from but not knowing what you’re searching for” this is truly accurate

[@heshamabdo7061]

Actually you're looking for you true self in a mostly fake world .

[@newsecondfilms6754]

"Have I lost my mind, or have I actually found it?" That hit something deep inside of me.

[@nightthinker4440]

I know right? i ask myself that specific sentence all the time, and her speaking it out really is hitting

[@Facetheblazingfire]

This made me feel not alone. I really needed to hear this.

[@jordystruik7384]

I'd say you're not alone because your family loves you. But I don't know your situation. So I'll leave you with I hope you're doing okay and talk to someone or me for that matter. So you're not alone buddy.

[@savphirediscopotatoe6340]

Ikr I just got better all of a sudden

[@avrillmejia6697]

Anxiety is the worst enemy ever, nobody should be going through it

[@cxmfordinner5151]

This video isn't an anxiety video.. ?_?

[@cyan420]

Water Sheep this video probably reminded her of herself or others struggling with anxiety.

[@jordystruik7384]

I fully agree and like, nobody will ever understand this if you can't tell them. Most of the times you can't and they wont understand at most of the time. But I give you this. You're not alone buddy.

[@jakubfrei3757]

And also best friend at the same time, it helps us survive... but do a lot of damage if it never goes away

[@KatAmarie]

I made this almost two years ago, seems a little bit silly and cliche now, I've definitely grown since then, but a voice in the back of my head told me to post it. for more work: instagram: napiorkowska

[@sachinrathi5358]

I just need ya type of woman 😐

[@MagdalenaNishe]

Kat Napiorkowska watch Jonna Jinton if you haven’t already ❤️

[@TheRedChairDiaries]

"The real voyage of discovery consists, not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes." All the best Kat.

[@samisaturn33]

I love that you posted this. As a private poet and some one with social anxiety, I had some many of the same thoughts portrayed in this video. I love your voice, it's therapeutic. I had a lil sort if writers block I think. I write my poems as an escape mechanism but I didn't what to write about and what should I escape to until I watched this video. I like your weirdness. I like being weird too. So thanks you so much for sharing. ♡

[@TheRedChairDiaries]

To answer your last question, personally I think if you're still on social media then yes we are not all sane. I've limited my information download. And I usually don't even comment anymore. My biggest fear with social anxiety is not telling enough people to piss off. And also putting myself into positions where I actually just don't want to be. No people, no problem. Go to the woods. But don't ever leave until it's your time to go. You did not choose when you came into this world so you shouldn't want to leave it before you've found what you are looking for. And if you haven't found what you are looking for then you have to keep on searching.

[@DS-uo1zy]

"who are you when nobody's watching?" liked that

[@tannesanimations9608]

Honestly it’s a hard question even if I don’t have any mental illnesses, I still don’t really know

[@deerdz9]

"I don't know, I constantly feel like something has ended but nothing new will start." It's like im in this limbo and no one gives me rope to crawl out of it. Maybe im the one who expects too much, maybe it's all my fault after all. Waiting for the time when I actually snap out of it and crawl out by myself.

[@ThePeachyCat]

Yes..

[@kylabustaa]

“Most of the speeches that are meant to inspire you are about becoming rich and successful. But what about the people who don’t want that? Can’t I just enjoy serving coffee in a tiny bar?” I feel like this so often ahhhhhhh. Beautifully articulated.

[@perplexed2352]

a friend once told me when i was in a very dark place in my life that which weirdly helped me a lot something along the lines of ''the people who struggle with these problems and still manage to continue through life are the strongest people anyone can ever meet, they go through hell and back just to do it again tomorrow, they are ther most metal people you can have around you dont give up''

[@gooeyshuga154]

Wow, you had a very nice friend

[@sturmgewehr6663]

\m/ !!!!! 🤘

[@kpotato6080]

Dear Kat, I actually am dealing with myself right now. I felt lost I felt drowning. I felt like I was just smiling for the people whom I love and show them that I’m ok. I’ve been in this mind maze losing myself over and over. But then you showed up. I realized I’m not alone. I shouldn’t felt alone in this unpredictable world we live in. Thank you for making me realize a lot of things. Thank you.

[@peacerose9804]

1 year after I hope your doing good now , you're not alone remember i love you ❤️

[@samira_k]

Your filming style, your voice and the words are so calming

[@tom.biermann]

3 favorite quotes from this that already stuck in my head and will for a long time help me every single day "it's weird knowing what you are running away from but not knowing what you are searching for" "Who are you when nobody is watching?" "As you can see I am still here, although I thought about leaving"

[@ruthvalentine6756]

It’s not cliche and silly if we keep coming back even after years. It’s on loop, it’s on at night, days In public washrooms After work, class and maybe even in sleep. It’s on On days I am alone On days there isn’t a leaning shoulder On days without comforting warmth On days I need it. Your voice is very soothing thank you for all your videos

[@KatAmarie]

That’s so sweet. :) thanks!

[@wies4062]

hey, my mother works with kids who suffer from mental disorders, I told her to show your videos to them because maybe they would feel understood, and they did, some of them cried out of relieve because they finally found someone who really knew how they felt. Know how much you give to the world, your videos help so many people, thank you for the great work ❤️

[@ebra2232]

the most beautiful movie on yt I've ever seen in my life

[@flovilanna]

I come back to this once in a while to remind myself that it's ok. To take a deep breath. It heals me even if only for a little while. Thank you, Kat. You've helped me more than you could ever know.

[@KatAmarie]

Happy to hear that. :)

[@RocioReyes1997]

My anxiety is eating me alive. My mind is changing me, changing the perspective I have of the world, of myself, of my beautiful boyfriend and family.7 years since this all started, and now I can't even breathe. I've been thinking about suicide, I can't see the world the way others see it... I'm scared. All the time... And finishing my master's degree...

[@RocioReyes1997]

@@alanisasteri8345 thank you so much... ♡♡♡ trying

[@llsofia9571]

I hope you are doing better today. I know anxiety can make your life a living hell, but please, even if this life doesn’t make sense at times, stay.

[@RocioReyes1997]

thank you so much! Doing better...

[@angelmogere1348]

I feel exactly the same way right now,but the difference is that I have no one ,no one listens to me and everyone has abandoned me

[@drqkkarisvidz]

“It’s really weird knowing what you’re running from but not knowing what you’re searching for.” Wow that hit me hard.

[@Smokethz]

I love listening to these vids when I sleep. Normally I wouldn't be able to sleep without music and lights off. And now I just sleep with this on my phone. And now I listen to this and I don't go all anxiety mode. The covid-19 has a role in it too. Soo busy as a nurse.

[@orsolyakatona2509]

Sometimes I dream about a world where online influencers don't exist and young people build real, intimate relationships/community.

[@aloomix8788]

disappearing in nature is the most beautiful feeling ever and it helps to calm down and stay present a lot

[@cyan420]

for me it feels like everyday is the same. constantly bored and never getting anything done. sometimes i feel completely numb. some days i feel no emotions. and it sucks.

[@femkepuszkar494]

I want to thank you for your honesty and for making me feel like I am not alone in this big world that there are other people who think like me ❤️

[@ShunnDolass]

You've got a wonderful narrating voice and add to that your ability to write such easy to understand yet captivating scripts about the most relatable of feelings,thank you for sharing it with us.

[@jordonshain1730]

Every now and then I get overwhelmed with life. I always come back here to fall asleep. Thank you ma’am.

[@oliwiakalinowska6803]

"Miał dość samego siebie, człowieka, który mimo ciągłych rozmyślań nie był w stanie posunąć się ani o centymetr."

[@fleurskitchen]

"I constantly feel like something has ended but nothing new will start". Mine is a little bit different , I feel like nothing has happened nor anything will. When I think about what have I been through since 25 years of my life, nothing pops up. I know I have lived, I know I had pain and happiness and memories and friends and I always have family but when I try to just remember a certain moment, something to care, nothing. There goes emptiness.

[@happytwin1234]

What a beautiful melody. I’ll always come back to this when I feel so low. This makes me feel alive, thank you for this Kat♥️

[@lunaa494]

"Have I lost my mind, or actually found it" I ask that question to myself everyday, maybe we have known some truth of life, far before than others, or maybe me thinking it this way proves I am crazy

[@nettya.4094]

You always manage to put into words the feelings and thoughts I can never express to people. Thank you.

[@Jess-gl5ys]

"It's really weird, knowing what you're running from but not knowing what you're searching for." wow. wow.

[@martynanowak3942]

Poryczałam się. Kasia, jesteś niesamowita. Ten moment, w którym mówisz o pieniądzach, karierze i o tym, że wcale nie każdy tego chce... to coś niezwykłego. Presja, którą nakłada społeczeństwo, a potem nakładam ja -- że skończyłam studia, więc muszę iść do "ambitnej" pracy w korpo, zarabiać kokosy, żeby móc odpowiedzieć komuś znajomemu, że jestem "kimś" i nie czuć się przegrana... a w głębi serca jestem duszą artystyczną, która jest zagubiona i nie chce mieć mnóstwo pieniędzy, a tylko tyle, żeby starczało na życie; żeby robić po prostu to co się kocha i być spełnionym. Dlaczego świat jest taki trudny dziś?... Jesteś wspaniała. Dziękuję za ten film. Dajesz wsparcie; poczucie, że nie jestem ze swoimi popie*rzonymi myślami sama :)

[@ukaszstefanowski6296]

I watched it multiple times on Lower Depths after first release. After all that time and beside of being aware of what is inside it hits me just as hard as back then.

[@cadeem88]

THIS IS GOLD

[@xxsavaxx2671]

So needed this 2 weeks ago. I came to realise that I was obsessed with succeeding and thinking about it so much that I became anxious and everything started to go wrong. Just relax, it's okay not to be perfect and there is no rush to do so.

[@kristinakay9985]

Please don't stop making mental health related videos ❤️❤️ you're really helping all of us struggling

[@oliwia3530]

Pamiętam gdy obejrzałam po raz pierwszy ten materiał byłam w bardzo ciężkim stanie... Bardzo mi ten film pomógł i czułam że ktoś mnie rozumie. Dziś jestem w lepszym miejscu, jestem szczęśliwą osobą. Nadal wracam do tego filmu bo pomógł mi w bardzo mrocznym dla mnie momencie życia. Dziękuję Ci Kasiu!!!

[@annaminer6211]

to whoever is reading this, i hope you all are healed from hurt and are thriving in your lives. i’m not gonna lie these past few months have been hella dark for me, but i’m still holding onto hope that it’s gonna get better. i was super close to pulling the plug but watching this video really made me realize a lot of shit, that life really is beautiful and that it’d be such a waste to throw all of that away not knowing what the future holds for all of us. mental health is so fucking important and i’m so glad to see people talking about it and shedding light on it because it truly makes us people who struggle with it feel a lot less alone. you’re all amazing and wonderful people and you all deserve the best, please don’t give up and keep your head high. i love you and keep fighting you got this💞

[@shiromoonflower]

Kocham Twoje filmy! Widać że wkładasz w nie całe swoje serce! Oby tak dalej

[@domenicodomenico3234]

"Its okay not to be okay" - Chloe Price - Life is strange......

[@maddiecancino9583]

This was so good. It was truly a poem. Everything you said is nothing but the truth and how it was spoken and the videography made everything just so much better. Well done.

[@elenapreda5635]

Hi Kat, I'm commenting again just to say that I'm glad this video is back up for free. It got me through tough times many times. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

[@Hael-]

I needed this do much.. Everything is just falling apart in my life these days, my 3,5 years relationship, my family.. I've just had the biggest argument with my mother's boyfriend (who's married) and she said nothing. I just feel like she wants me to get out of her home just because her boyfriend is pushing her to hate me. So I must move out, without money, with my boyfriend and at the same time study for my college exams...

[@dominikv8712]

Nie jestem w stanie wyrazić, jak bardzo Twoje filmy są wartościowe i pełne refleksji. Po prostu je uwielbiam i każdy kolejny wprawia mnie w osłupienie, a równocześnie czuje jakby moje wszystkie myśli zawarły się w tych 8 minutach. Dziękuje Ci za to co robisz i rób to dalej, jesteś niesamowita!

[@kt.g.3055]

I cried during the whole video...thank you for saying out loud what I can's express. Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for your videos.

[@elenapreda5635]

you have no idea. I had seen the short video years ago and watched it hundreds of time. I thought many times about subscribing to your blog, but at the time I had no money. I have cried over your words. I have written them on my bedroom's wall. They are part of my existence somehow. Thank you so so much for this.

[@cadeem88]

Her voice is so soothing.

[@wiolalosiewicz]

Wow, przepiękne, dziękuję, że wrzuciłaś to po 2 latach, nawet pomimo różnych refleksji. Dziękuję 🤍

[@Liza33650]

i can't thank you enough for posting this, i loved the short version but i was so sad i couldn't get the full a year go, so thank you immensely

[@taylorjackson9660]

Beautiful video. I feel your pain on the deepest level. I’m not okay right now but I don’t want to leave the world either even though sometimes I feel like it would be best. Know that you are worthy which is something difficult to grasp but you do have a purpose.

[@mariamallawzi4064]

THIS IS ART !!!!!!!!!! i love this so much , truly entered my heart

[@zoeliaume4905]

i see myself in this.

[@lastassi]

thank you soooo much. i'm happy I've found your channel.... thank you

[@lightrose01]

I remember when I watched this video the first time... I often get exactly the same thoughts. Sometimes I feel like I need to get more... more money, more things, getting better and better in my job. But in the end so many simple things in life are the most beautiful things.

[@itsme3441]

One of the most beautiful video in the entire youtube, not joking... Thanks so much

[@ThatsSoCindy]

Tbh right now I am in such a low moment in my life I just don’t know anymore! This anxiety is taking a huge toll in my life! And I don’t know 😢😢 I am slowly giving up!

[@Adel-vw4ry]

Me too... but we're strong and we'll get through it ! ♥

[@ouicmoi9975]

Me too..ireally wanna end up my life..

[@sabolovamiriama]

oui c moi guys you cannot just stop right now in the middle... i am sorry for all of you out there who feel insecure about themselves and mostly for those who suffer anxiety, i am thinking of you in my prayers. Please do not give up, life is so precious

[@ouicmoi9975]

@@sabolovamiriama thnkx a lot really appreciate that

[@KLAUDIOZ2]

OH. MY. GOD. Your channel is sooooo sooo sooooo useful, and helpful! Your films make me feel okay with my life, with my personality disorder, with my mess in head sometimes. THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!

[@sarahtaylor35]

I think this might be my favourite video of yours! It helps calm me down, I always come back to it! ❤

[@cloverisamess]

this one is hands down the most soothing and aesthetically gorgeous piece of art i've ever watched on youtube

[@mahimaggarwal]

I rarely comment on any videos. But I felt like this should be an exception. I recently found your channel, however, I am so freaking glad that I did. This video made me experience emotions that I had tried to repress day after day. It made me really realize what life is about and what we're really living for. You have inspired me to continue and that (however much it is worth) really means the world to me. Thank you :)

[@williamsouthwick6117]

It is called "The Dark Night of the Soul" your spiritual awakening!!! Thank you for sharing yours!!

[@Moon_Moon91]

The aesthetic of this vid is absolutely stunning🧡✨

[@AtBurgerKingWithMyBurgerQueen]

This helped a lot. Thanks for posting, especially since I wasn't expecting any more videos from this channel

[@Brokeninc]

I've been watching a lot of your videos because they make me feel less alone and like a puzzle piece that isn't fitting any puzzle. Thank you for making your content.

[@Blazingwitchbitch01]

You made me feel not alone and perfectly explained how I was feeling. I’ve always tried and sometimes found ways to tell others how I felt but they always threw the crazy card at me. But you made me feel like maybe losing your mind isn’t the worst thing that could happen.

[@svetlanaart]

my god, your videos ... they always leave me speechless! thank you for your art and honesty!

[@mairamahome1009]

"it's really weird knowing what you're running from but not knowing what you're searching for" I really feel that 😔😊❤️

[@angelicyearsago]

Ive always felt comfort from ur vids bc its so accurate and relatable and i love u for that 😭 get well soon 💕ur one of my prayers

[@aloomix8788]

that is exactly what I have felt like two years ago, It is so much better now, but It is okay to have moments like these, because they make us grow in so many ways and we usually don’t see it until some time passes by🍁

[@caicarney5614]

I thought you weren't making anymore of these yet I'm so glad you did!! ❤

[@basia704]

Most of the time I feel so alone and full of anxiety.. I'm so thankful for you and your videos. They are so real and perfectly done. I love you Kat, you have no idea how much u helped me in my hard times

[@vehemenceinfurs8605]

the nature you filmed in this video reminds me so much of romania, it makes me feel so calm, thank you for once again telling us a beautiful story

[@victoriabarnett242]

You may not be depressed love, but you have anxiety - possibly chronic; the over thinking, hair loss and skin flaring up, low energy and low confidence in ones day-to-day abilities - this is something I recognized in myself before I saw to the issue and got therapy. >I can happily say though that the feelings of anxiety can also be reduced with managing the stress in ones life. Easier said than done, I know. Not taking on too much, 'putting too much onto your life plate' but being realistic about your daily goals and recognizing reasons as to why you are feeling shitty and then being kind and understanding to yourself in the same way you would if you saw a loved one feeling down. I had to learn to be an emotional support system to and for myself first before simply leaning onto others to make me feel whole. Taking moments out in the day for my own sanity despite the world pushing me full speed ahead. If anything that I've said hits home, I hope you feel some sort of comfort in knowing that your video is VERY relate-able and that is priceless.

[@sarahk.2381]

Thank you so much for doing this. I'm in deep depression and don't see any worth in myself. This is wonderful 💖💖💖💖💖 I'm not alone in this and that is wonderful. It's ok not to be ok. So true thank you so much you are amazing

[@nataliataylor8988]

This is such a raw and beautiful video. I can relate to it so much, these are the thoughts that run through my head every day. Thank you for sharing this 💕

[@naelasaumi461]

Sometimes the answer of all this question in my head doesn't need an answer, i don't think people would feel the same feel from all the think that i tell them, nothing would be alright even if they say okay to me. Nothing feels right to me right now, things going harder but they don't care about about what i afraid about. It's difficult things for me to face, the loneliness keep grow on me, i'm afraid and i hope everything that happened is not real, thank's for post such a reliable video that makes me wonder if someone like me is exist in this world, not only me,you but it is fine to be like this,like now.

[@vitoriavilela7265]

hey, kat. i love your work, i love your art. please don't ever stop.

[@somyanandwani3420]

This is too accurate, I swear. Sometimes, I feel that I need to show the 'WORLD' what I have right now (the good things), because they might not last forever and then the other times I am just like wait, I got this one moment with me and I'll live for myself, I'll myself enjoy the beauty of everything. NOT TO PROVE MYSELF(my looks, my capabilities) to any single body. Fu*k their opinion of me. And I guess these moments, these little moments are actually WORTH LIVING. The things we suppose are like the biggest achievements, many a times might not give us what our soul desires, but being content and accepting ourselves might give us everything at that moment. :)

[@Honeyiroseupfromthedead]

I feel ya

[@Rosesylla]

Cieszę się że to opublikowałaś i dziękuję Ci za to 😻

[@Aurelia2147]

This is beautiful and thank you for following your intuition of posting it! These questions are exactly the questions that I keep asking myself right now. My life has fallen apart the past months and now I'm trying to pick up some pieces but also aquire new ones. Often I wonder if I should just move into the woods or mountains and work in a small coffee shop there and use the other time to connect with nature and write music. To become comfortable with my solitude and detox from the technology that surrounds us all Now I know I am not alone with these thoughts

[@aisaagustin6061]

"I really want to say,"im ok",but Im not"💔💪

[@flovilanna]

This is one of my favourite videos on the internet. I think about it often.

[@TZ2nd]

My stress has been giving me itchy sensitive small bumps on my skin. When I scratch lightly or rub it feels like I’m going to puncture the surface. And I get massive headaches, and a tension in my forehead that seems to never go away. I’ve also recently lost my appetite, everything makes me want to throw u except for oranges. It’s nice to feel related to

[@KayKumalMT7]

It's definitely not silly, and I really appreciate everything you have put on the table so that you can help all of us.

[@ysabelaarce2319]

I really needed this right now, everything resonated with me and I feel like I was meant to watch this. so, thank you ♡

[@Reivann]

This short film is too beautiful.. thank you for sharing this to us.

[@keziacaleb7198]

A sincerest Thank you for proving that this content has served as a mirror, I needed to see my true reflection in.

[@Black_Dark_Grey]

It's beeb years and i never stop watching this and i used to sleep listening to your voice, and this music😊, awesome ❤❤

[@sonnenblume2720]

I love that you followed the voice in your head. Thank you for that great and real content. It touched me and let me feel that iam not alone when life hits me. Because it always does, but also always gets better 🌻🐦❤️

[@Perez4]

I have no clue where this video was made but I'd walk away from the city life in a heartbeat to see these amazing spots in this video.

[@alexowl3021]

I really, and I mean REALLY love your work! I have no words to describe my appreciation for everything you're doing.

[@user-bu7oz1lx4e]

This is my favourite video out of all my favourites 🥰 love it....it opened up a new perspective, I felt understood, someone talks about what ive been feeling ! And it gave me some hope 🙏🧡💛

[@midnightatmidnight]

Watching this just before going to my stressful work. Wonderful !

[@camilla8129]

This is one of those videos that I truly think can be life-changer. What if I didn't want fame, what if my purpose in life was different than the other's ones? All I want is to live a quiet fairytale, and no one can tell me it's weird, or stupid. I mean, my personal fairytale. And maybe I'm not ready yet, I'm not strong enough to write it, but I'm sure I will, and all I have to do is wait for the bad days to pass away, or better yet, do something for it to happen

[@maciejskowron7550]

I love nostalgic, kinda 90s vibe

[@arturgatnar704]

Nie wiem jak to wyczułaś ale dzięki :)

[@oliviasanchez5995]

You can admire people with out wanting to be them or becoming them...remember that

[@MissLadyTreya]

right there with ya (back then) lol i would never have the guts to post anything like this, i appreciate that someone else does! ty

[@user-ie2xf2hy2n]

Kat, I want to give you a big thank you and a hug for putting my feelings into words 🌸😇

[@Vivson]

Zawsze twoje filmiki mają idealny timing do mojego życia. Wszystko co powiedziałaś to dokładnie to, co czuję. Dziękuję ci za tę kilka minut, czuję się dużo lepiej i zdecydowanie wrócę tu nieraz.