i am not ok... not at all | Vocal Coach Reaction to NEW Linkin Park "Lost"

[@jvoxfox]

The overwhelming feelings with this one… 😭😭😭 RIP Chester. I am so thankful to get to hear this song and at the same time it hurts anew…

[@David-nf8vb]

Me: I can do this, I've heard LP thousands of times Chester start singing Me: I got this Chester start screaming Me: Oh dear😭😭😭 RIP Chester, thanks for that reaction Julia.

[@bhishekthakur1331]

😭😭

[@tribblefluffer]

It brings me to tears every time but I can't stop listening to it. Just to hear something I haven't before from Chester, it's indescribable. This is probably one of the worst days of the year for me so if I'm going to water my keyboard, it's going to be for a good reason. No better reason than than.

[@brismithejedi]

I put off listening to this song because of this, but I had the same feelings. I thought I was done getting emotional about it, but then I saw this. Everything that you said is true and I can definitely relate to the song and many of your comments. Thank you for sharing your feelings and thoughts with us. I hope you're doing better. Much love to you

[@jaimemarques8659]

you should react to HYBRID THEORY - THE LINKIN PARK TRIBUTE SHOW they are in a world tour have already pass in Australia with sold out concert's kzbin.info/www/bejne/apWmcmWieJV7fJY

[@peterstuart5640]

A man who saved millions, but millions couldn't save him ... RIP a true legend and a saviour Chester Bennington!! Lost but NEVER forgotten

[@SwizzPro]

so true....

[@mikepaoletta9847]

“Come and watch the skinny kid, with a steadily declining mental health, and watch as he tries to give you something that he cannot give himself”-Bo Burnham It’s an incredibly crazy thing that those who struggle the most are the ones trying the most to help others. I wish he was still here with us, but I hope his broken soul finally found the peace it deserved.

[@ULTATZ]

you can only save yourself. How can another one safe you from your own thoughts in your mind? they cant

[@philipkakstein5719]

@@ULTATZ Wounds heal when you are able to tackle them emotionally... and this is what his Stuff does... its a catalyst for many emotions... for many people to even comprehend what hurts them... If you really think that "only you can safe yourself"... if you really do think that... I m sorry for you.... and I hope that you gain more understanding over the next weeks, months, years on the topic of intrinsic Healing...

[@omeka6]

Can confirm his music definitely saved me from ...his fate, and after his death listening to his words of all of his songs... They stopped me but I never noticed his own cries for help

[@brianarby2894]

Chester is one I'll never get over , this band was the closest thing to therapy as a depressed kid in a world that doesn't believe in mental health. R.I.P Chester Bennington.

[@rustyrelicsfarm2406]

Same can be said for Robin Williams.

[@jamescurfman3284]

@@rustyrelicsfarm2406 Agreed. There are others too. Robin broke my heart like Chester did. The world is a little less colorful with them gone.

[@anarchyenergy7796]

Same here. His passing hit me harder than any other, even some of my own family members. His struggles were so parallel to my own, and he had such a bittersweet gift of being so great at expressing the twisted sorrow he endured.

[@jamescurfman3284]

@@anarchyenergy7796 Good way to put it. I really hope that you are doing better these days.

[@anarchyenergy7796]

@@jamescurfman3284 I am. It's just like a roller coaster. Up and down. I have many more ups these days but every now and then I remember what I went through and just hate that others, including chester, couldn't or can't get the help needed. But I take joy in the fact that he did all that he did and reached so many of us.

[@zebrion5793]

Chester was the voice of pain. He was the vocal embodiment of despair and loss. He gave us all a voice in times when we needed it, and ultimately lost his fight - but he saved the rest of us. He was a martyr of a generation.

[@DrClownPhD]

He also sang about hope, love and evolving. Please, remember him for everything. He was the embodiment of emotion channeled through music

[@daimenddd]

It's impossible to watch without crying. RIP Chester. Your voice is always alive

[@VykoSss84]

Yes ...

[@adconde1]

I don't think it is posible to keep it together if Chester and Linkin Park meant something to you like it has for many of us. Thank you for sharing. Please stay safe everyone.

[@Aestareth_]

it is but i wish i could feel more tbh

[@stevenmann-strunz462]

It really is like that. I'm quite literally listened to this song 40 to 50 times already and I stop every single time. It is what it is 😂🥲

[@matthewdelaney5366]

Every time.

[@HugoBasson]

"But I'm tired..." This hit me right between the eyes because this is exactly how I feel even though I try to be strong. Every time I hear Chester sing that words, it almost sounds like he himself is close to tears and that I can understand because it always brings me to tears.

[@jshinnzr2]

The feeling is certainly there. Keep your head up dude. 🤘

[@willm5032]

Depression's fucking exhausting, its something people don't realise

[@airspike9561]

i been so strong couple of months, workingout hard, doing a lot psyhical work in forest, watching motivation videos, building up that strong villain character, over the depression, i just had breakup too and now just nowhere all to pieces 😭😭

[@willm5032]

@@airspike9561 that really sucks, I hope you can power through it, the gym helps me too though, can't be sad if you're swole ;)

[@TheChellybean85]

I feel that dude...I've said this to myself and friends before when they say oh your so strong to go through this crap and still keep going and I'm like sure I'm strong but...I'm so tired...it's so important that you find something to lighten your heart when you feel this tired because the tiredness isn't gonna go away it will keep coming back but if you refill yourself then it won't empty you out.

[@MrKiraBR]

We could make an ocean with the tears fallen for Chester. He was one of a kind. No one will ever get close to match him.

[@LucasReisFPS]

Faço das suas palavras as minhas 😭

[@Cantabile07]

I wish our love would have been able to carry him through life longer. This love we will share forever and its bigger than anything.

[@kcup5705]

I couldn't have said that any better...

[@pix_wbmr]

All my childhood heroes are dead: Chester, Chris, Kurt... It hurts to see yourself so much in these people, and knowing that maybe it's what is meant for us... A life of depression, loss and pain

[@holasrtompson4071]

Not gonna lie, some nights every year I still cry for him.

[@drgnladyblue]

"But I'm tired" hit me so hard too. I was choking up from the first note and sobbing by the end. It feels like he's reaching out to us from beyond the grave, confessing how he felt for so long before passing on.

[@evenfm97]

From meteora so a early cry for help,its about being lost in drugs not hard to know

[@shannarablackwater7004]

This hit me like a sledgehammer. Tears rolling down my face. Lyrics so raw and honest. I truly understand his pain as both a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and a recovering alcoholic. I miss you Chester. Just broken right now 😢

[@TruckinFool85]

Chester and Linkin Park gave a voice to a generation that felt voiceless. Someone stated "one man saved millions, but millions couldn't save the one man." Hearing this new song is a gift you think you lost. Brings a smile until you realize it's probably the last one from them.

[@CHiTO316]

There’s 6 other unreleased songs, i hope they release them one day

[@supersasukemaniac]

​@@CHiTO316 if they where all from Meteora, they might be avaliable once the 20th anniversary hits. That's why Lost has released.

[@xmadcoil]

It's weird. I didnt think I would get emotional the first time I heard it, because those feelings dont really shoot out like that from Crawling, Breaking the Habit and so on. The meaning and emotion I get from a song, USUALLY happens after I can digest it more fully, but as soon as I heard his voice, it just hit me. The context of something new, made it all so real again. He is gone. And I miss him. Suffering from depression myself, its so easy to get into the mindset of someone else suffering from it. The words mean so much, and they hit so hard.

[@MrSpawley]

Meteora is my favorite album of theres. To think this was left out because it sounded to similar to Numb

[@xmadcoil]

@@MrSpawley it makes sense. They have to cut stuff, and even though I like this song, it isnt close to being one of their best

[@tnindio]

Don’t apologize we are all feeling it right now.

[@chipznmusic]

The first song I ever remember hearing was Breaking The Habit on the radio when I was about 3-4 (born in 2000). My mom had their CDs and I honestly don't remember a day without listening to Linkin Park. I basically only listened to Linkin Park until I was about 13. This band was so engrained into me that, to me, losing Chester was like losing a family member. Lost has been so refreshing.

[@farisullah8464]

The first song I ever listened to was by Linkin Park as well .. Same age too .. My brothers were jamming to LP in their room with their LP cassettes and CDs .. LP helped me through the depression years .. I remember crying for days after I got the news of Chester's passing. Never a day has gone by where I don't listen to their songs

[@mamneo2]

What a privilege, here in Latin America I've never heard Linkin Park in the radio :(

[@EliteGamer-240]

I have to say this is the most honest and raw reaction I've ever seen. You've embodied every feeling and thought that true linkin park fans felt when this was released. The fact you held it together for so long is admirable (I broke the minute he started singing). As you say anyone who has suffered with mental health will understand why linkin Park had such an impact on our lives. Rip Chester. Keep up the amazing work, your amazing 🤩

[@gerrit9519]

We got the breakdown. Both of them. And it's fine. You do a lovely breakdown of technique, but the emotional breakdown shows how much you love music and how much emotion Linkin Park put in that music. And that IS why I'm here. You make sure YOU are ok.

[@s1lentsymphony607]

Could not have put it better myself

[@syyneater]

Exactly, I’m here for her authenticity no matter where that goes.

[@Oduunich]

Fucking this....💙

[@skijones007]

❤️

[@jamescurfman3284]

100%.

[@pokemcbrady7]

As a 90s kid this just hits in ya in the heart and can't help but get emotional

[@Shiftinggers]

Mike Shinoda put it the best:"This song is like an old photo of you and your friends that you thought lost and you just found out"

[@thomasharwood1358]

Losing Chester hit me extremely hard. I've suffered from PTSD and been to some dark places. Hybrid Theory was the first album I ever bought as a child so I grew up with them. So when I heard the new it broke me. And so did hearing his voice again

[@luvthetux]

I was 23 when hybrid theory came out. I was hooked right then when I heard it. LP is the best, even with Chester gone; they are still way better than a bunch of other bands. I know it's not the same without Chester, but I believe that Mike could carry the band as a lead singer without them finding someone else.

[@Metalstr8jacket]

Same here brother.

[@veramlyukhi4224]

Me too. It is awful. I still couldn't listen this song without crying at least once. I'm a 35 years old girl from Russia and I still can't deal with his death, he's literally one of the most important people in my life

[@silasakron4692]

Same. Had lots of music, but Hybrid Theory was also the first album I ever purchased myself. I still remember having to find a "safe" way to ride my bike to the music store; in the states, suburbs are massive, maze-like, and take forever to traverse - no public transit means trips like this could take over an hour by bike. This was back in the Napster era too, so I had the music already, but wanted a physical copy.

[@RyanRead678]

Been a fan since I was 13 now 29 Chester death hit me so hard glad I had to chance to see them was on stage with them in 2014 as well as attending there last concert 2 weeks before Chester passed.

[@CultripFounded]

the reason this sounds like an older linkin park song is because it was, this was a song that was made to be on the meteora album (2003) but was ultimately cut from the album because of its similarities with Numb. So they released it now as part of the 20 year anniversary of the album. The nostalgia from the instruments, the vocals, the song structure, all of it hits like a truck, and it will be a long time before I can listen to this song without tearing up

[@DeadlyAlpha]

They completely forgot about these songs too, no? (Lost & the other "new" songs released with the anniversary album)

[@SheldonGoff]

I still listen to LP, but not as much as I used to. It makes me sad now, I hear the songs differently. I can hear the pain in some of them, and I don't know why we didn't before. He was so loved, but so alone.

[@brunao_matoss]

@@DeadlyAlpha happens with every band/group/Singer. All of them have unreleased demos that Will never come to public.

[@StormTrooper1895]

Chester was crying out for help this whole time. I watched his interviews, listened to his music and there all connected. Every song is a different memory and emotion. And that’s why his sound is so powerful cause he pouring out his internal self into it. I love him so much. He used his feelings to heal millions of people. I’m glad the band is still dropping music it’s great to see longevity. I can’t stand to listen to linkin without Chester but Emily Armstrong is starting to grow on me. Thanks for the video. Looking forward for the next upload ❤

[@thomasthomsen2678]

Came for the vocal breakdown, stayed for the heartwarming emotional breakdown

[@kristinwallace6551]

The "But I am tired" also hit me very hard. Anyone who has experienced depression or mental health issues of their own can relate to how hard it is to be strong for so long. I think Chester was tired and he just couldn't do it anymore. I hope he is at peace and is in a place where he has no more scars... Chester's voice is so powerful and so real, that is why he helped so many people. He understood. I will always be shattered that he couldn't be saved, but a part of me wonders if it is better that he doesn't have to suffer anymore. Chester and LK got me through my own depression as a teen, being sent to an abusive TTI program and getting out as an adult trying to find out who I was. Healing from PTSD. This song speaks to me as a an abuse survivor. "I will always be afraid, of the damage I received, broken promises they made, and how blindly I believed." The Troubled teen industry (TTI) programs break kids, brainwash them, make them believe they are the problem and no matter how hard you fight in one of those programs to stay yourself, you eventually are brainwashed to a certain degree because its the only way you can survive. Then you get out into the real world and you wake up again, you trust no one. You have to heal from the reason you were sent there in the first place. Heal from the life you had ripped away from you, plus all the extra abuse and trauma you endured at the program. LK and Chester's voice was and is a friend to me. Someone who knew what it was like to bear the weight of the world, to be sensitive to everything. He will never ever be Lost to me.

[@texgarrett7158]

Yeah i use the word "exhausted" a lot. "Tired of fighting" is another one.

[@aztecklover69]

@@texgarrett7158i just don’t try anymore; since the more u enjoy 🎉he day to day grind; the harder the crash hits when depression sinks its claws in your heart/spirit.

[@OSSY17]

Ive been fighting depression and mental health for 16 years and tried to take my own life cause ei was exhausted and tired but something kept me alive cause i didn't want to give up at the same time even how much i wanted to sleep deep

[@magregory1985]

Growing up I just loved the sound of Linkin Park then as I got older they had so much more meaning and kept me going when I hit the bottom, because of Chester I've learnt to open up about how I'm feeling, it isn't ever easy but saying something is the first step to becoming whole again. BTW your reaction is what every other reactor has been like and hit them hard and every fan around the world. We are one big Linkin Park family , there for each other. ❤️

[@VapingwithFJ]

When I was younger I was abused both physically and mentally by someone I was supposed to be able to trust and then someone who I have now been friends with for 10-years going to be 11 years this year introduced me to Linkin Park and from there their music started helping me slowly but surely get into a better mental state. Their music has helped me and so many other people get through their darkest times in life. RIP Chester rock on man

[@nightshade7240]

Never apologise for feeling what you feel. Too often there is a demand for perfection or professionalism and that has its place but this is a reaction channel, part of reacting is emotion. It's nice to see the genuineness of the emotion of your reaction. I'd like to hear a reaction to a place for my head. I think it might be Link Park's best song but I've never heard anyone really react to it in the way it deserves.

[@thomasmuller1425]

Don't ever apologize for the way you were. We all feel you. I've been listening to Linkin Park since I was 10 years old & they've become one of my top favorite bands of all time. It really broke my heart when I found out that Chester passed away & how he passed. Sometimes, I can relate in a way to the things that he went through.

[@realjamesbowned]

I think we all shed a few tears after hearing this one but it did feel good hearing Chester's voice again. Gone but never forgotten.

[@onerule1915]

'Sings like an Angel , Screams like a Devil' That's the best description of Chester . I recommend reviewing the album 'A Thousand Suns' which in my opinion is a masterpiece .

[@NickACrowley]

ATS is so underrated. Unpopular opinion but I think it's their best album. I love concept albums and the diversity within that album, within the single concept, truly is a masterpiece.

[@samuelengle3773]

Julia some of us come for your analysis and some of come for you and your energy. Everything you said about depression was spot on. The Meteora album is probably one of the biggest reasons i didn't go over that edge of suicide as a teen. So resonating with this song in that sense is an understatment. But this was a great reaction Julia.

[@alphadork9851]

Thank you for releasing it the way you did When you talked about the quiet between words it really reminded me of the philosophy of "Mā" that Hayao Myazaki puts in a lot of his works, a philosophy that states that in the silence between words or notes, there is just as much meaning as there is in the obviously itself, and that really shows

[@bl00dthrister]

Fun fact: it's actually an earlier LP song. It was one of the songs that didn't make it to Meteora, because it had the same kind of vibe as Numb. This song touches a lot of people, I think. Like you're describing it's such a roller coaster of nostalgia, recognition, sadness for his passing and the quality of how Chester delivers the feeling alongside the lyrics. I hope you're doing great now, Julia! You're an amazing woman and keep up the great channel!

[@jabbazabba23]

That was really special, to watch somebody experience this that has the same reverence for Linkin Park. Thank you for being beautiful and vulnerable.

[@GodsSoldier2]

There's no way to describe how much this song means to us LP fans. We needed this!

[@sirgecko666]

I never was a big LP fan.... but hearing his voice, the words... the pictures... shit hits too hard! RIP Chester - Thank you

[@goeshm0st787]

Your reaction made me sit in my truck and cry. I also appreciate you just letting your emotions be your reaction. This song hits in many different ways and I hope Chester is watching us all and realize he wasn’t Lost because we found his music.

[@CB-tx3ul]

The fact that this song is back from the Meteora album but they decided not to ship the album with this song is bittersweet. We get the emotions of listening to it now in the wake of his passing, but it's also easy to see looking back the amount of hurt and distress in his lyrics and singing style. He will never be forgotten, as Linkin Park was single-handedly responsible for the raising and shaping of practically an entire generation, and their reach touched hundreds of millions worldwide. We all miss him, and the only recourse we get is the fact that they still have songs to release, and we still have Mike to carry on the legacy and history a little bit. We love and miss you, Chester. Your pain has helped so many, and it always will.

[@eduardinggs2918]

Julia, you do not understand what this, and your explanation and analysis (and your PURE, human, raw reaction) means to me... Linkin Parks music touches on a very deep level. Chester's voice (Especially the parts where he frays the sound so beautifully, yet so primal) embodies that feeling of loosing it and yet fighting to keep it together... MAN! This had me in tears... So many memories! Thank you Chester... Gone WAY too soon. RiP!

[@jeffmilligan6584]

Never apologize for how you feel ever again!. You are the most genuine human being I have seen, and honestly, I have been following you for a long time, and this with your emotions and feelings have made my family love you even more. We all miss Chester and are honored to be around to see his creativity and try and work through his pain. Thank you for this. And Happy Valentines Day from my family to yours!

[@jeffmilligan6584]

@JuliaNilon1 I don't need anything. I just want you to continue what you are doing with the passion and honesty you have. As a fellow musician and writer, it makes me elated to watch and learn from you and your own personal growth!! Love!

[@fantasistudion]

Thank you Julia for the honest emotional reaction, we love you ! RIP Chester ❤

[@Krazkindread]

This was one of the fully completed songs that didn't make it onto their album Meteora so that is why Chester sounds younger. When I first heard this song I started tearing up so much because when I went to high school in the early 2000s, I was in a really dark place and Linkin Park helped me so much during then. Music is such an incredible thing. Thank you so much for your reaction.

[@couver73]

Just seeing you nearly break down made me want to give you a hug. Chester's death has definitely effected all of us. But I think this song just resonates with us more with it being released now than if it were back then. Cause the lyrics sound as if it's talking about us fans. After we lost Chester, it was clear that his pain had been grafted onto all of us. But it almost feels like the song is telling us to stop looking back and move forward. Never forget what came before, but keep striving towards the future. Hope this helps anyone that reads this.

[@dsmembereddreams]

I think I know a way to put how we're all feeling. Hearing this song nearly 6 years after Chester passed... it's like when you lose someone you love and you would do anything just to hear their voice one more time.. this is that. This is that one last call to that person. You don't get to say what you want to say but you get to hear them (him) one last time and it hits deep.

[@solsirhibragusowl2221]

I agree. Even though we can't talk to him it's like he's talking through the void across the ether. It's relieving and heart breaking at the same time.

[@TheRealMikeHood]

Thats exactly what this is. We all got to hear from our friend again.

[@chrisstinson3250]

Nailed it.

[@Gdog692]

I was crying with you the entire time, Linkin Park was my childhood. I never imagined I’d hear his voice again in any new music. Hearing Chester’s voice again and remembering that he’s gone has been super hard, but I’m so grateful that he still lives on through his music. Huge props to Linkin Park for releasing this song and thank you for such a raw reaction to this song. Sending you virtual hugs ❤️❤️

[@poker26000]

First off. Holy raw batman! God damn Julia. Lots of hugs! You're spot on in how Chester delivers his raw vocals and the raw lyrics themselves are what pulled me in and has held me since I first heard of Linkin Park all those years ago. Honestly, pick any song. I'm totally down to see you react and breakdown any Linkin park song. Have a good day!

[@markbrinson6090]

I love to watch your reactions because you are real. Linkin Park and Chester's struggles resonate with me even though I am 58. The messages are timeless. I have CPTSD from childhood and adult trauma and I struggle with every day. I cried all through this and will after. I am here because of children because I will not leave them at my own hands. But as they get older that is harder and harder to do. Please everyone hug someone every day because that may be the only non judgmental contact they will have or have had in a long time. Love you Julia stay the way you are.

[@hp9697]

Every word of this song hits me HARD. I have battled with depression my whole life and many of Linkin Park's lyrics have had an effect on me. Chester was so talented and the lyrics and his emotional presentation have always had an incredibly strong influence on me.

[@elminweatherbee7672]

The pain that Chester has been able to convey with his sound has always resonated with the pain I was feeling in my own life. I will always miss him.

[@Mit_100_Sachen_80]

I am sitting here in my almost 40 years and crying as I watched you struggle with your composure. This song is a blueprint of my past. That combined with Chester's voice is opening up, but I think it's the way it has to be. Thank you

[@srudine]

Julia, thank you for being so brave to post this tribute to an artist that has profoundly impacted you personally and the line of work you so enjoy. It is sad that so many great vocalists/artists have decided that life isn't worth it and deprive us of their tremendous musical ability. Thank you for being you! Be at peace above all else. I'm praying for you.

[@tomson129]

Linkin Park, Chester and their music is probably the only thing that kept me alive and getting up every morning during the torture that my father's cancer was. I am glad that I am at least little better now due to medication, but the whole my father and best friend left will not just go away and neither will the one Chester left even though I never met him personally. But listening to interviews or their music always felt like he sitting next to me saying, "everything is going to get better with time." I appreciate them releasing this, and everyone who felt sad or needed to cry when listening to it like I did, just know if I could I would hug everyone of you :)

[@Stutterstep77]

I feel you here. I was literally in tears the whole video. Chester helped me through some dark times in my life and I wish I would have gotten a chance to thank him for everything. R.I.P. Chester, you are sorely missed by millions of people. One of the greatest Artists of all time.

[@Dave-fk5tz]

"It feels like younger Chester und LP" YES and you are spot on. Mike explained in an Interview that Lost was supposed to be the 13th song on the album "Meteora" back in 2003, but it was too similar to "Numb" and they didnt want to repeat the Vibe. RIP Chester. Thank you for all of the teen memories you have formed since 2002

[@TheMedicinalMan]

This song hits home so hard. As someone who was stopped from taking their life by listening to Linkin Park at the edge of my local lake late at night, to lose him the way we did shattered me. This song shatters me every time and I sing myself raw every time I listen to it. For people who wonder how the song was made: Mike Shinoda stated in an interview that Lost was the final song of Meteora, completely finished, mixed and mastered but due to its similarity in sound and message to Numb it was left off the album as Numb was already chosen as a single.

[@Dreznin]

At the time Meteora released, I was 18, and Numb resonated with how I felt at that time... Lost resonates now as life has progressed through adulthood. I'm glad to have both now, but really wish both had been included.

[@TheANSONATOR]

@@Dreznin It’s almost exactly like “Breaking the Habit’s” thematic brother given the context OP mentioned as well 😭

[@lorimiller8297]

Giving you the biggest virtual hug I can from Phoenix. Such a raw and honest reaction. The message in these lyrics is so powerful and emotional. Thanks for posting it so we could all be in the together. And yes, everyone please keep yourself safe and reach out for help if you need it. You are not alone. ❤️❤️❤️

[@lucyverde8250]

Wow the same place of Chester❤

[@astridwhite4882]

You don't need to apologize, it was amazing to hear him again. I'm right there with you in the crying 😭 let it out😊❤

[@iceman1986]

Chester literally saved my life his voice and lyrics stopped me from ending my life and helped me through a very dark period in my life and his loss hurts even now R.I.P Chester gone but never forgotten

[@JaxxBeatz]

First of all, just thank you Julia, for the most real reaction I've ever seen. I loved that you didn't cut your emotions out of this and just showed the raw feelings. I guess somehow many people can relate and find themselves in this song. Chester's voice just hits different, I didn't cried for like 2-3 years this song just slapped me like a truck...it istantly reminds me of the first time I heard In the End.. what a f... Emotional journey. Thank you so much for this reaction, showing people they're not the only one struggling with this feelings. As you said stay save!

[@CoffeeMatt10]

4:25 Linkin Park got me through some seriously tough times (and thoughts), the lyrics resonated so hard and made me realise that if someone else is able to put those thoughts and feelings into words, that I wasn’t alone with those, someone else was going through a similar experience, and was saying the words that I couldn’t. Knowing that Chester went a step further than I nearly did myself, and hearing the lyrics of several of their songs in the aftermath of that, it was always hard to listen to them over the last few years. Hearing this song, which they recorded as a demo during their writing sessions for Meteora, hearing it now, a little more than 5 years since his passing, made me feel just about every emotion… happiness at hearing that amazing voice, hearing that early Linkin Park style, sadness at the lyrics and the meaning behind them, the pain behind them, anger that Chester went through so much anguish in his life that he never recovered and felt he only one escape from it, anger at the people who put me through my own hell, and at those who put others through that too, because seriously, f**k the people who put others through that!! I’ve listened to this song so many times in the last few days, more just to try and desensitise myself from the lyrical content and to enjoy it for the great, impactful music that it is, and to celebrate the music that these great artists have given us. And maybe, just maybe, someone new to Linkin Park hears this song and has the same reaction to it that I did when I heard Meteora and Hybrid Theory, to realise that they aren’t alone, that these lyrics are FOR us, FOR those who have suffered, who are struggling, who can’t find an outlet for their emotions. Chester’s legacy lives through the words he sang, and even screamed, he was the voice for those of us that felt we didn’t have one. RIP Chester. 11:06 I second that! Keep safe, life has its ups and downs, enjoy the ups, don’t dwell on the downs, they’re done, they’re finished, use them to shape your future in a positive way, DON’T GIVE UP! I didn’t, and I ended up meeting some wonderful people who made me realise the world isn’t all bad, and I experienced things I wouldn’t have done… you can do the same. KEEP GOING STRONG! 14:55 the most obvious one that people will request is Given Up for that insane scream, but I would say anything off of Live in Texas, or anything from that early 2000’s period… early, raw Linkin Park.

[@chriswheeler857]

*offers hugs * Hearing him again... there is no words to convey the whirlwind of emotions that hit. You did amazing, remaining professional through this.

[@SavageD-qi2ti]

This song is so intense and powerful and hits so hard. I am so glad that I wasn't the only one that had such a raw emotional reaction to the song. This song is a masterpiece, and I can't believe that it didn't make the initial record, it blows my mind. Absolutely spectacular and emotional analysis, thank you.

[@TSPxEclipse]

I practically grew up on Hybrid Theory put on repeat. I could sit back and relate on such a spiritual level with LP's music through Chester that I couldn't with any other band or artist. The hindsight that slammed into me when I first heard of Chester's passing and the circumstances around it hit me like a tsunami to the heart full force. All those years, it was all a desperate cry for help. A similar feeling hit me with Juice WRLD's passing. It's so hard hearing this song because it just digs up the emotions I felt back in the day but in a much darker context. Chester, from a legion of lamenting fans, we miss you. RIP.

[@NowandDen83]

It’s tough which is understandable. Chester is definitely in a better place… he might be gone but his spirit will never die. So grateful I saw him preform live

[@forrestblythe9003]

You have every right to cry. This song really hits home with all the context that surrounds linkin park. You don't need to be sorry. You are great and keep up the great work.

[@lordhighnesscheshirecat3382]

Let's be honest here, he had one of the best, if not the best voice of all time. We were all lucky to hear him

[@alliedmanticoregaming]

I never noticed this before when I first heard this song, but the way Chester kept the grit in his screams as well as adding vibrato over that just shows how incredible of a vocalist he truly was.

[@natraj_kav]

I am so glad to see someone feeling the emotional turbulence I felt when I first heard this song. Linkin Park holds a special place in my heart and will never be replaced. I hope in the future you will be able to do more vocal reaction and analysis of their songs like New Divide and Given Up. His lyrics hit hard, but the artistry of his vocals and the melody is truly a sight to behold.

[@Mavrik440]

Sometimes you just gotta snot, cry, curl up and grieve. Thank you for your raw honest reaction, you are appreciated! Chester's loss was felt globally and now being able to appreciate him again with a fresh sound, it's an honour and a blessing.

[@drive687]

I didn’t listen to this song before because I wasn’t ready and you, somehow, helped me to go through it. Thank you, I can’t stop crying

[@svens4015]

Julia, thank you. You are so far the first or only one who reacted in an honest way. And even more important the most respectful way. Its such a shame that some people interrupt the song to talk about instruments or whatever, just let it go and FEEL the music. I can see that you really feel the melodies aand the lyrics. Most reactors just talk about the song like its a new phone. One more time, thank you for beiing a human not a robot

[@jerlansuliguin4829]

His voice live with us in memory and will forevermore and always in our heart, We miss u Legend!

[@noxanimus]

The moment the song came out in the first hour it has been on repeat. Early today the emotions came out of me. Chester always hit the core of your soul. Let the emotions flow out and embrace them. Thanks for the reaction

[@chaosreign7851]

You are amazing Julia, i know we normally come to your reactions for your positivity but we stay for your genuine heartfelt reactions. This was such a heartfelt reaction and I know I had a hard time getting through this song as well because of my own struggles and because of what a wonderful soul Chester was. You are such a wonderful, brave soul Julia.

[@yannpafemy]

I need to admit: i cried like a little child after hearing this song the first time. Suffering from depression i can just totally rely to the lyrics and the way chester went through. Edit: and i really like your honest reaction to this video. To all of the people who are suffering from depression: try to talk to friends. Tell them how you feel. And it is no shame to get medical help. Don't be like me. Look for help as soon as you are aware or even only think that you might have depression. Admitting your problem is not loosing. You are not allone. Keep your head up, get some help and you will see, life can get better♥️

[@NocturnalPyro]

5:46 Your reaction is the same as mine, I'm not ashamed to say that my first time hearing this song brought me to tears. Linkin Park got me through a lot of difficult times in my youth, almost 10 years ago, they were always the music I played whenever I angry, frustrated or stressed out, or sad, there'll always be a song of their that fits a situation that I can encounter.

[@markus852001]

Your reaction is awesome, it shows your compassion and your humanity. This song hits me hard, I've been in dark places mentally and still struggles to this day.

[@rdcloutier]

I cried my eyes out when I heard this song. Chester... OMG... I have Borderline Personality Disorder from childhood of abuse and neglect, and I feel everything Chester sings. So many of us do. We have been lost since his death.

[@deniselisamarietucci3235]

Same omg 😢❤

[@Dreznin]

As a fellow BPD sufferer, yeah... this kicked me square in the feels from the moment I heard it. Even now, it is difficult to listen to, even though I love it.

[@Skaatje]

There's no such thing as an "ugly cry". Emotion is a beautiful thing and I am happy for you that you can feel his voice again!

[@submissions72]

Linkin Park was such a HUGEEE PART OF MY LIFE as a teenager, like huge is an understatement. I'm 36 now...I'm talking about 23 year ago..gosh.

[@codyc6388]

Linkin Park was, and still is one of those bands that get me through my hard days. And when I heard of Chester's passing it hit me harder than I thought a celebrity death would, his music touched a part of my heart in a way I can't fathom. When I saw "Lost" I was thinking it'd be a tribute to Chester featuring other artists.. but when I heard his voice my heart stopped. Rip Chester, fly high friend. We all love and miss you here but are thankful for all the memories your music gave us

[@carlyoung6754]

Linkin Park were such a massive part of my childhood, I tear up every single time I hear his voice. Know what he went through and he shared that with the world through his art! He will never ever be forgotten.

[@ericgafford2457]

This song, right here, knowing he felt unimaginable pain and eventually was consumed by it, even brought a pain eater like me to rolling tears I could not stop. I didn't sob or full cry, but my face definitely leaked beyond my ability to staunch. RIP Chester, you absolute soldier. You conquered the world and made it to where other's could only dream. It wasn't enough to quell your demons, but you gave it a hell of a run until the road ended. Legend that will live forever. As a sufferer of depths of pain and scars unknown/beyond belief, this song cuts like a hot knife through butter. I'd never go where Chester went and ended up, but I swallow it down and it does damage and takes real control to keep in line. That inner chaos, rage, sadness, ect is a maelstrom that can easily break through the skin and consume you if not careful. Please take care other sufferers. Don't let it hurt you or channel through you to hurt others.

[@David-nf8vb]

OMG Julia, what a hearth breaking reaction, thank you so much. Also kudos for keeping that last part, very brave ♥️. And don't worry we WANTED a raw reaction, not a professional one (you gave us both), you reacted like the loving and caring person you are. Take care and Happy Valentines day. Now I'm going to bed to cry and hug my pillow.

[@3531thor]

i dont think anyone or even LP fans can get through this song without crying. the lyrics are so powerful ! even though this song is 20 yrs old its feels so related and current.

[@KnT_Noriiko]

I watched the release at the moment it popped up and was the same as you, tears, nostalgia, pain, happiness, a massive bag of mixed emotions. It brought up so much of the past and ive cherished every second of being able to hear Linkin Park once again... each and every time ive listened to it since its release i cant stop the tears from flowing. And thank you for posting all the numbers for help, so many people who feel this music on that level may need it at any given moment. Thank you for sharing your ugly cry too, its like looking into a mirror with a different face, i guarantee millions of us were in the same exact boat looking right back through the screen on our end. Keep up the great reviews

[@inkster34x54]

“Not all heroes wear capes” definitely applies to Chester. We lost a legend the day he left the world. His songs saved a lot of people from leaving too soon and allowed them to keep going even when they had lost all hope. May Chester forever rest peacefully and may we see him in the next life.

[@dualityofself]

In terms of the lyrics and emotions in the song, I've felt that way every single day since childhood (I'm in my 40s now). I and others are actually surprised that I'm still here after all this time. Thank you for sharing it, as this is the first time I've heard of/heard this song. I hope you took some time for self-care after filming this. It's a rough, yet beautiful one, like many of their other songs.

[@PauloRobMoreira09]

I'm a guy that suffers from anxsiety and hearing Linkin Park songs helped me put the bad feelings outside myself and scream it out. I understand anyone who cried listening to this song, because I did it too. This song is so strong and tells so much more about what Chester was fighting than anyone can imagine.

[@boernhead85]

First I heard this beautiful song, I cried.. I deeply connected with the lyrics and Chester’s voice hit me so hard everytime! But all these feelings… they‘re ok! No excuses necessary ❤

[@andrewmartin5073]

Julia, thank you. Thanks for inviting us to share this with you, and thank you for caring about us. But you know what? The same goes for you. I hope you're taking care of yourself and have others around to care for you. I hope you're safe, and healthy. You are absolute gold, Julia Nilon.

[@geofg66]

I'm an older LP fan. I was early 30's when I was suggested to watch/listen to Live In Texas. I loved it! On lonely night shifts I listened to their other albums and they would keep me awake and their lyrics kept getting me. I kept following them and I enjoyed their evolution in to different music also. In difficult times I could put them on and feel like I was human. The songs always hit me in the feels. When Chester died the lyrics just hit me more. This one had me balling again and I'm 56. Chester had a voice like no other . I will always be an LP fan! RIP Chester 💔💔

[@Hybrid0147]

The song, the lyrics, how relatable it is, it makes sense, it's genuine, and it's Lost... It's like hearing a voice message from someone you love so much after their passing. Thank you sister, I feel ya

[@zaneboi08]

I think that this was one of my favorite videos of yours and I want to say why. I keep coming back to it because it really feels like I'm watching this brand new release with someone who was as much of a fan of the band as I was and I know... I KNOW... You know what this release meant to us. So I come back. And again. And feel with you. And wipe away tears. And clutch my chest. And scream quietly. And I will never stop singing along with this one. Because it's everything we needed as fans this far down the road. Dunno what else to say.

[@zaneboi08]

Also. My second oldest does the scalp scratching thing. Hey. Stop it. You're only hurting yourself. I know it's a nervous type behavior. I get it. It soothes. But you're going to wake up one day 10 years from now and wish you hadn't adapted this behavior. This comment comes from a place of concern, not criticism. Like I said. I literally have a human being who is a part of me who does this that I am wholly concerned about. So to see it in someone else sets my concern off in a whole other way. We love you. Cut it out.

[@julianadeau5797]

Poor Chester... Following the lyrics, I cried and cried and cried...Gods, I'm still crying. I'm simply devastated. 😭

[@lcvisible]

I can never get over the fact that I will never see Chester live in a concert. I go with this thought to bed, everyday. And I know all us here feel the same way when we hear his voice. His voice was a gift that we will all cherish forever and ever. Much love ❤️

[@LadyEmilyNyx]

I grew up loving Linkin park, because the songs spoke words to feelings I had, but couldn't express myself. And when I lost that, it was impactful. The feelings didn't go away, but I didn't have the words for them anymore. And now here they are again. Still so true that it both hurts, and soothes. One final gift.

[@Amvedits20233]

Was very emotional listening to this track Getting to hear Chester’s voice again was amazing and made me feel a lot of different emotions

[@jb7753]

Chester.... the gift that keeps on giving even after he has past. Fucking amazing song and vocals. Miss you mate!

[@runfromthetruth1]

I feel the same way as you do. Chester was the reason I started singing and preforming with bands. This song tore me apart because I also deal with depression. He was my hero and to here these lyrics knowing what happened, it was beautiful but heartbreaking

[@Asl33pAwake]

From someone who has ideated for nearly a decade and a massive LP fan, i want to say Julia you are so brave and so perfect as the person to take us all through this. My heart thanks you with every ounce of sincerity i can summon.

[@Darkness255]

I really enjoyed and appreciated your reaction, truly authentic and shows the impact Chester had on people. Being someone who's recently and honestly through too much of my life gone through things Chester did in his life I can tell you it hit's in a way words can't describe. I barely and I mean barely got my life to a point I wanted to keep going. I owe thanks to an old friend for not just listening, not just hearing me but though I had not seen her in 21 years didn't hesitate to help. Now I am in a new town, rebuilding life. That being said, there's a lot of people out there crying out for help but go unheard. To all of you, even if it's some random person leaving a message about struggling, trust me a small act of kindness responding to them sometimes can literally save a life. Some of us have endured too many dark times and just a little light in the dark helps so much. You strike me as a kind soul Juila, never lose that.

[@L0v3dNL0st]

The first 20 listens, I couldn't keep it together through the song. There were just so many emotions coming together. Many of the songs that they have will randomly hit me like that. I honestly feel like Mike's post-traumatic album explores and explains some of the feelings that come from what happened and we who have been in similar situations or have had similar feelings to Chester it just resonates. But that's what their music has always done for me. Every album that they released just felt like it resonated with aspects of my life as u was experiencing it. And I was at my closest I've ever been to ending it in 2017, and then what happened to Chester just shattered me. It felt a little like the older brother who was always there was gone. I don't know where I was going with this but... I just wanted to share.