MUM CONTROLS WHAT I EAT FOR 24 HOURS

Mum decides everything I eat for a day! This was really fun, Mum knows me the best so knows my fear foods and what I find more challenging, which was even better! Also Mum has the best relationship with food ever, and I will have that one day. Mum, you are the greatest!
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[@libbyhargreaves688]

I hate how much people have the tendency to focus on the physical changes of a person during recovery and refuse to recognise any progress unless it’s a physical measurement. And whilst physical health and wellness is vital for us all, it’s also important we recognise mental progress too. And my god Elzani your attitude not just to food but to life is blossoming so beautifully every upload is moving. I’m beyond proud of every progress you have made and are continuing to make. You are incredible Elzani big love from me ❤️

[@rainhealey9317]

how about you do this challenge but where she suprises you with the food you eat? like you aren't involved in the prep and you dont know what you're having until its put in front of you at the table? that would challenge you xx

[@ameliax1125]

Im 19 and I’m currently suffering from anorexia and have been trying to recover, your videos give me so much motivation to do my best and listen to my body instead of my ed thoughts. I adore your videos and they inspire me to recover so much. I wish you the best on your recovery journey you beautiful angel ❤️

[@laurahadwin2700]

You're doing so well Elzani but you're at a stage in recovery where your mum should be controlling your food everyday!! You need to be thinking about food as little as possible whilst still eating it 💗

[@sams5188]

Laura Hadwin I agree- recovery involves taking control away from the person who is ill.

[@iamsimplybee]

Agreed

[@justme-gh3uu]

Big respect for your mum she's really a strong person! I love how positive she always seems😍

[@MadisonTiahn]

My mum is my best friend too. She knows my disorder better than I do. We are so lucky.

[@kecrn4132]

Madison Killer - you girls do not realize exactly HOW lucky you girls are!

[@taylorthompson7538]

That scone moment made me so emotional because I FELT that. I’ve done that. Wow I’m so proud of you elzani, thank you for sharing your journey. It’s so inspiring!!!

[@lilygreenbliss]

Honestly I think this would be good for your recovery if you let your mum do this most days if not every day xx

[@aclotine_5569]

she looks so much more healthier and alive and her face is so gorgeous, im happy for her

[@blinka6633]

That is not an good compliment for someone with anoreksia, do your reasearh

[@victors.6255]

The mom is obviously so lovely, but the girl is soo sweet to her mom as well. It's heart-warming to witness this.

[@HollyGrace90]

I love watching how you're coming on with your recovery and it's excellent. Really try to thicken the spreads up. Really slap it on. You shouldn't even see a crumb through it 😂😂 it has be like an inch thick on my toast 🤤🤤 sooooo good. Also you should try Cadbury fingers dipped in nutella, wooooow it's out of this world lol. Also, next time you're in m&s get the gluten free millionaire shortbread, you'll absolutely love them, they're with all the gluten free cupboard things not fridge. Xx

[@georgieroberts8697]

Scone, cream, jam! Slather the jam into the cream!!! If you fancy something when your mum is choosing what you eat, have that too!!! Please do a day of eating double of what your mum eats, or the same as your dad again, OH or the 5000 calories - those are just my favourite videos

[@billie2130]

Your mum is the absolute cutest! You can see the relationship you two have together and it's really heartwarming, my mum is also my best friend and biggest supporter (yay!). I just also wanted to say compared to your really old videos and now, you know the improvement you've made over the years because of the way you talk about food! You seem much more relaxed around food, it's made my day! :)

[@mariazaragoza9181]

I only discovered you a couple weeks ago, and have been binge watching all your videos since then, and can tell a difference from a video that is months ago, and recent ones. You have made progress and you should be super proud!

[@BeautybyRonja101]

Elzani just some advice. I suffered from bulimia for 5 years. Got to some really low places physically and of course mentally. Seeing a therapist and taking medication for a short period of time helped me so much. That isn’t for everyone, obviously, but therapy or seeing a professional WILL help. They know what they’re doing. I never believed it either but along with seeing a professional you already have great support and are doing “DIVINE”. Saying that because I want the best for you. Good luck ❤️

[@annaelizabeth3525]

Your mum must be so proud of how far you’ve come. You have so much to look forward to together x

[@amberfarndon7493]

Haven’t come here in almsot a year. It’s so nice to see you looking better. I recovered from my life threatening illness and you helped me through that bad time xxx love to you and your family xx

[@saragill2720]

I love you dearly, but you need so much more in recovery. You must be hungry. You need so much more than your mum ❤️

[@shalibakes8440]

Sara Gill she is eating more than 3 meals and her snack are of a good size... it takes time x

[@saragill2720]

@@shalibakes8440 I know that all too well, but she was eating more. I love her to bits and worry

[@daisykemi771]

Satara in the background at 22:48 is such a mood. I love you and your family so much!

[@RCX_Games_]

Who thinks Elzani should cut her hair short??😍😍

[@KaiiiK02]

I think her hair is very gorgeous as it is, BUT I think she would also look gorgeous with like a right above the shoulders kinda thing

[@RCX_Games_]

Itsmeyademön yeah I love how long it is but I think she would suit shoulder length hair. I’m actually a hair dresser btw!:D

[@georgieroberts8697]

Just above boob length😍😍 would be stunningggg

[@kikas666]

I think that right from the very start 🙈

[@victorianilsen9475]

Tha would look so cute on her😍

[@hattiewattie]

Elzani, you're a beautiful, strong soul. Thanks for passing on your optimism, courage and for sharing your successes and struggles with us in such an honest way with such generosity! And thanks, too, to your wonderful family. Love Mumzani. You've got this, and you're going to go so far. Much love from Germany xxx

[@giselleroque8526]

The pesto panini looked so good! 😋

[@BloomingLisa]

“Brussels Sprouts taste like fart pouch”. Haha. That’s gold!! You’re doing so well Elzani. Well done for eating the scones, I could feel your anxiety from here! You go girl! Ps. Your mum is a legend. Satara is too!

[@krysteljae1797]

It's nice for someone to choose for you. It gives yourself a mental break!!!! I know the struggles!!! You are amazing and an inspiration to others.

[@sarab9670]

Maybe instead of saying outloud that something is a fear food or your nervous, you could say positive affirmations. Like, "I'm really looking forward to this" or "I honor and trust my body by eating foods that I enjoy". You're doing great, we're all rooting for you💕

[@summz13ify]

You should let your mom pick your food for you everyday so you don’t even have to think about food. 💕

[@shalibakes8440]

Summer Smith but she needs to be able to make the choices or she will have to rely on her mum forever x

[@summz13ify]

Shali Bakes Good point!

[@v3gancheese]

you’re such a beautiful person, elzani! proud of you💖

[@abilivia]

when you were eating the scone I couldn't help but feel emotional for you because it takes so much strength to eat a "fear food" I just avoid new food as much as possible and stick with things I've tried. but your face lit up when you ate it like you wished you had done it months/years ago Well done! because now you've got years and years to enjoy it. Youre also closer to being strong enough to just not think about the new taste/texture of food you'll just think about how good it will be. You're doing amazing and much better than I would of done I might not of even tired it im glad you did and now have another thing added to your safe foods. Much love

[@kylieshaine]

I just found ur channel and ur so amazing 🥺 I love ur mom and u did so well with the jam and cream , way to challenge yourself!!

[@saskiafinnan4216]

You are doing so well, but I think you still did talk a lot too much before eating the scone. It may be helpful for you to try to delay lots of talking until after eating or at least while eating. I know it can be a way to calm anxiety but it also seems to add to the time a lot before eating. When I was nervous I would just take 5 deep breaths and say “food is food” “food is delicious” “I need this food” and I try not to delay the eating 👍

[@kissesfromnarcissus]

You seem to be getting progressively happier in each video you’ve posted since last year, Elzani. I’m so pleased, and proud of you. I hope you continue to do well! Love and support from America ❤️

[@SimonMetin]

13:20 I think it would be good if you show footage of your doubts like this. It will add an element of realism to the battle you need to fight to overcome the anxiety. It makes it more realistic for someone suffering to know you aren’t gliding through challenges

[@julieannanderson2228]

I love seeing your recovery! Every few months your skin glows more and more! and you have such a positive personality! The positivity kind of reminds me of myself. Despite have depression I am one of the most positive people around! Always smiling and looking at the brighter side of things.

[@poliakoff1823]

my heart hurts ur mom is literally the sweetest person :,) also go u!!! i'm so proud!! ❤

[@izsp8737]

I wish I had a good relationship with my mom like u,be glad u have a supportive mother.

[@empoweringmindsets6667]

Hey Elzani! I found your channel a few months ago and now i’m back here again! I post recovery videos too and you inspired me to challenge my fear foods a few months ago so thankyou! You are inspiring so many people to challenge new foods. But I hope you are getting professional help, I know recovery can take a LONGGGG time.. but maybe you could try challenge talking about how your feeling with the thoughts? That could help you identify what you could challenge yourself with next. I think maybe you could challenge food not being perfect, that it doesn’t need to be presented in a perfect way for it to be eaten or “ worth it” It might take a while to come out of energy deficit but the quickest way is to allow your body to know there is no food scarcity and that it gets what your mentally hungry for and feeding that extreme hunger until your body comes out of the scarcity mindset and it knows food is available. But however you decide to challenge those hard and horrible thoughts in your brain is up to you! You are strong enough Elzani!! Rewire rewire rewire opposite actions!!! It only works by DOING!

[@kerryannelisa1523]

I actually love your mum she’s such a character you’re so lucky😂♥️

[@marysmith3427]

Your mom has lovely hair 💗

[@mariaruizdechavez1707]

Keep doing more of these!! Maybe your sisters pick your food. I love youu❤️

[@HS-uc7sk]

Still desperate to see your birds in the background. Are they budgies? Can we meet all your pets :)

[@AngelicasRecovery]

This is so awesome!! It makes me miss my mom so much, she passed almost 10 months ago BUT this video also makes me SO happy for you! It’s awesome that you and your mom are SO close!

[@rimaruttempest6109]

You just seem so vibrant and I hope youre able to keep raising your food intake love, you deserve it and you need it

[@MyPeriwinkleSkies]

you're just so sweet and genuine and talented!! and your family is so amazing and caring as well. your videos are such a joy to watch. hope you're doing well :)

[@emmalemasurier2860]

Ur mum is lovely, she’s so supportive! I’m in recovery and I’m also a mum u sud listen to all she says I can see she loves u and wants u better. X

[@xxxxxx6512]

Through your videos it's so amazing to see the lift of brain fog 💕 You speak so much more lively and seem so much more bubbly and happy

[@aristahenriot7450]

You mum is amazing and choosing you food to support you in your journey xxx

[@lilichan5320]

I always wait for see your videos, love this! You inspire a lot of people as you can see, challenging yourself looks so hard on you but at the same time powerful This is Elzani Team!

[@nadineschulz1590]

Oh Im hungry now .... I Love it how you celebrate your food. You´re on a good way i think.

[@d0t_DoT_dOT]

I get a sense this precious soul wants to be a tot again and not grown up. Which is a normal healthy dream I hope because I often wish I could be a tot again, snuggled up in a nest-(snuggly pallet) made by my nurturing grandmother, and fed her yummy fried-chicken, diced fried potatoes w/ onions, cornbread, and a pot of her yummy butter-beans. Growing up is for the birds.

[@louisepowell6939]

Your mum is the best! She’s so lovely. ❤️

[@rimaruttempest6109]

THIS IS AMAZING ELZANI you're so strong and brave!

[@kirstyindark4972]

Scones are honestly so easy to make yourself and more cost friendly and can make them any size you want😊

[@whatsthestorymorningglory61]

You really need thicker layers of nutella/biscoff in your life! Everyone does actually, but you need those extra calories so badly.

[@jonathanl1604]

lina lin woah! a triggering comment!

[@whatsthestorymorningglory61]

Jonathan Montoya - Lewis is it? Why?

[@jonathanl1604]

lina lin with anorexia, it is upsetting to have people commenting on your eating habits.

[@whatsthestorymorningglory61]

Jonathan Montoya - Lewis I was anorexic too and, honestly, sugarcoating played in the hands of my illness quite a bit. It is indeed upsetting, but triggering? I‘d never comment on her body or her appearance though. Being told that you don’t eat enough, that it seems you are avoiding things or that you’d rather apply a thicker layer of butter on your toast is part of the game I think. In her comments there are plenty of remarks like that. Even as inpatient you are told constantly what „normal people“ eat, what „normal“ portion sizes are etc. I hope I wasn‘t rude or body shaming so I still wonder why my comment was so shocking to you!

[@jonathanl1604]

lina lin I understand, and some people have different triggers. For example, not everyone is restrained or tubed during their illness, i happened to be one of the small percentage, that is my main trigger. some others are triggered by certain foods or numbers. every illness is different.

[@jowalby3502]

A wee personal question but how is your beautiful mum coping with her cancer treatment xx

[@hlpgray8772]

Yes elzani you've got this!!!! Well done you're doing amazing x

[@paigemelin547]

when she said “I just can’t believe this is my life” & she’s eating scones with her mom that got me 😭💙

[@lia6840]

Yayy another beautiful beautiful from the bestest☺good day to uu & ur family Elzani!! Thank uu for the upload n ur mum too teehee luv uu all loads😍

[@emilyc8958]

I really want to see you challenge yourself to eat more- not the types of food

[@yeganehsetayeshnia7262]

Emily C yeah I do agree

[@ezzfy1]

Let her challange herself how she wants to do it. Geeezzz

[@shalibakes8440]

I think the variety is a great idea though as it takes the focus away from the calories and on to the fun. She doesn’t want to get stuck on a diet thAt never changea forever x

[@skylerjade16]

Trying different foods is an amazing first step. Trying to eat more without exploring new foods first can be extremely difficult. I think her progress is amazing right now and she’s discovering foods she likes bc she never got to before due to restrictions. And while I don’t know her whole story since I’m a new viewer, I would assume the new foods she’s trying IS more food than what she used to eat

[@jayye.8886]

I’m SO HAPPY U UPLOADED I’m watching this as I eat my dinner

[@pinksloth7318]

Hey I know I might be sounding a bit nit picky, but I am seriously concerned about your bone density, you should go to the adult eating disorders team and tell them everything and get a DEXA scan, you are getting to the age where you will not be able to increase in bone density unless you get hormone therapy. It is SO important Elzani to get therapy along with refeeding, Anorexia Nervosa is a deep rooted mental illness, it is not just about weight restoration-although you really do need your observations taken regularly to make sure your body is fixing itself. ALSO therapy does NOT have to be just sitting around talking about your issues, I think the Maudsley method would work for you, but it does not always work that way, I have dance movement therapy with a lady who used to be Stephanie from Lazytown Live.

[@MadisonTiahn]

Pink Sloth I’m 24 and have osteoporosis in my spine. 💔

[@Remy4300]

She’s been to an adult ed unit They do a dexa scan a couple weeks after you arrive Only needs doing every couple of years I know because she’s been to the same unit as me ☺️

[@ilikeyoutube836]

@@Remy4300 Maybe you should allow her to reveal that information if she wants to

[@Remy4300]

Kym Jacobs she's said on here she's been to that unit I'm just saying my experience.

[@ilikeyoutube836]

@@Remy4300 I apologize then. I wasn't aware she had said that

[@Lmsarbs]

Your mum is incredible 👌👑

[@Mandapanda.]

Love how happy you look ❤️ this gives me hope I can overcome my bulimia

[@X_m19]

I love this. You are awesome. Thank you for uploading these moments and sharing it with us ❤️💪🏽

[@miashatzinger1650]

You can be sooooo proud of yourself.❤️👏

[@maryhille211]

You ate your way through a yummy day! I can’t wait to try a panini with pesto and mozzarella and tomato 🍅! Love watching you interact with your family you a quite a brilliant girl!

[@gillyana]

You look so much happier. You’re eyes shine bright and you have such a quirky personality which I think anorexia stole from you for many many years. I actually watched your latest video before this one and hearing you laugh and smile is priceless. Your whole family seems much happier. You have come such a long way from crying over a biscuit. You really should be so proud of yourself. Give yourself a hug pat on the back wee yin. When I think of a recovery warrior you are who always springs to mind. I suffer from gastroparesis (thanks to Ehlers Danlos Syndrome and a host of other illnesses) but having gastroparesis means I can’t eat food and haven’t for such a long time. I’m fed my tube bypassing my tummy into my small intestine and have a another tube that constantly drains my tummy as even my own bile makes me sick and poorly. I did suffer from anorexia and other ED behaviours for over 10 years. I was in and out of ED units private and public. Even when I wanted to eat and tried hard no one could understand why my body would protest and reject it. I was sent for a GES (gastric emptying scan) which showed that my stomach doesn’t empty like a normal persons. As well as been diagnosed with Intestinal Failure & bladder failure (I had a operation in 2016 to create a Ileostomy (she’s called Stella the stoma lol so TMI I poop in a bag and have a long term catheter. I went onto TPN via a Hickman Line that went straight into my heart for about six months to get me to a healthier weight as by the point I was diagnosed with Gastroparesis I was days from death. Whilst on TPN we trialled feeds by NJ (Naso-Jejunal) bypassing my tummy with a elemental feed (which just means it’s all broken down and easier to digest unlike the standard feeds you see like osmolite, nutrison multi fibre etc). I do miss food, but I’m physically nutritionally more stable than I was then. So every time you take a bite of food think of people like me who unfortunately can’t have food anymore. I have loved watching your relationship with food change, I know anorexia will always be there in the back of your head but girl you are smashing it and I see such big amazing things in your future! You’d be great in a young patient unit helping young kids with eating disorders get excited about food again. You would be such a great support worker! Love to all your famalam, they are absolutely ‘deeeeeevvvviiiiiiiine’ 😉 Also you really should do some merch with your slogan..... Maybe on the front ‘Real Recovery Warrior’ and on the back “It’s deeeeeviiiiiine” Love from someone who has followed you from your first video (where you had me in tears at your distress) to now where I laugh with you when you let your silliness shine out. Gilly (IG @ gillys_journey83) If you’re ever in Scotland/Glasgow give me a shout I’d love to meet up.

[@riptobias]

It's 1:30 in the morning and I'm literally planning my breakfast thanks to this video (Not a breakfast person) :)

[@dawanawhis9600]

Been watching you since the start of channel looking 100% keep of the good work Morganton north Carolina

[@bethstrain4585]

You go girl ! so inspiring and I love you and ur mom- so so lovely xxx

[@bemyfriend9802]

I can see elzani with shoulder length hair.

[@tuulia249]

I love it when you smile it makes me smile too lol :)

[@angelarodriguez1471]

I love how positive you two are:) im subscribing ❤️

[@shannonrobertson5865]

Love you elzani! Your so strong and beautiful! Reach for the stars♥️♥️

[@rainbowgorl8229]

your smile seems brighter and brighter each day, it makes my heart go: UWU

[@jayneemarieevans1559]

Love ur relationship you have with ur amazing mum xxxxxx

[@dreamywednesdays6298]

Yay for scones the Cornish way! I’m from Cornwall and people are very defensive about the way to put the jam and cream on, this has made me really fancy one now

[@utoobcandy]

Try cheesy scrambled eggs on buttered toast 🤤

[@leilastars456]

Wow first time I'm ever first !love you and your mom 🧡🖤

[@meavedeniel7669]

Your mum is just so sweet

[@samphillips7192]

you should try sticky toffee pudding white hot chocolate from Whittards! It's a bit expensive but well worth it! Good to see you eating some yummy food! Keep it up! xx

[@teabedran7894]

Yeyyy I've been waiting so long for a new video.Wish you all the best in the world💛

[@silkestorm.6486]

I can not stop smiliening wachting this

[@bbbbhbhjjj7222]

I'm ridiculously so proud of you !! Our taste buds do change its so weirdddl❤

[@adrim3749]

You look so happy 😃❤️ can’t wait to see you progress your doing so good

[@maziemason2]

Yes!!! I love your videos clicked on it straight away. 💕

[@Funjjjjj]

I was overweight so I started to lose weight .I lost about 22 kgs in 6 to 7 months now Iam in a normal BMI but I restricted myself from my favorite food the truth is I lost weight by eating less like 700 to 800 calories a day i was too scared to eat more than 800 calories a day .my relationship with food got worse my nails turned purplish bluish my hair started to fall but still I couldn't eat normally coz of fear of gaining weight I was almost into anorexia but when I saw your vedios u motivated me how to love food and have a happy relationship with food ..now Iam eating my favorite chocolate cakes and everything without any fear .IAM not worried abt my weight thank you so much elzani u really cured me . U saved me from my ED love u so much .God bless you

[@lizwaters5742]

Your mum is so supportive you are so lucky ❤️❤️

[@Lex-by5jz]

lol "sprout tastes like fart pouch." 20:55

[@thingsthatneverwere]

I LOVE Brussel Sprouts. BTW your mum is so cool, i might try this with my mum when I next spend the day with her (i live a far apart from my mum, she lives near the beach and I live in the city (I'm 31 but nothing beats a mumma hug and support)

[@MomSupreme]

I love Brussel sprouts!! I roast mine with bacon crumbles and parmigiana and it’s amazing!

[@evavoegeli3635]

Congrats Elzani this is amazing progress!! Have you ever watched nutty foodie fitness? She might help you get better

[@bellebooth1741]

She’s just the SWEETEST person ever really isn’t she.

[@juniperjane9582]

ooh, try the red pesto, it's sooo good on pasta with grated cheese and salad. And well done on the scone x

[@mummycook271]

Your mum is the foodie queen 👸

[@tammyramsden7414]

Your mum is absolutely gorgeous btw she's such a beautiful lady I love her hair

[@Shani249]

I haven’t been keeping up much but wow you are glowing 😍

[@AsteriasASMR]

Big up the Cornish way hehe And Happy Christmas to you and your lovely mum😊

[@luciemcadams9016]

Take it Satara isn't a fan of fart pouches then? 😂

[@veganbygeorge1009]

You've got this !

[@makayladay7938]

You have a lovely and supportive momma. She should be a caregiver as ED program.