"I'm not the me who was here a minute ago - I'm still ME" Holy shit... I recently became aware of my DID/OSDD in therapy [also because of a screaming teenage part, but she was mad at the quiet zoned-out part in the driver's seat]. But this quote of yours is... Really breaking through my denial. I thought I was faking because everyone still feels like _me_ - regardless of who's around, I've still lived my life & share most of the same events/experiences. But people online seem like they're so distinct that I didn't count. But, wow... Thank you so much for your content! 💕
@GianuSystem2 ай бұрын
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@adriana7633 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing
@GianuSystem Жыл бұрын
Yes, it is. Dreams have been very helpful for me in figuring things out.
@willow6726 Жыл бұрын
I just found your content. And Im newly diagnosed with DID. I really appreciate the way you explain and simplify a very complex condition. Thank you for this content.
@GianuSystem Жыл бұрын
❤️🫂 it’s hard in the early days. Hang in there. It gets better.
@willow6726 Жыл бұрын
@@GianuSystem thank you.💜 I mentioned your channel to my therapist today. After viewing so many others, I told her your content is what finally pulled it together for me. Im so grateful to have found you. 💜
@seaham Жыл бұрын
i like to see other people's thoughts on what did 'feels' like. i'll never forget when one of my alters explained what a switch felt like and i used it as a way to describe it to friends who knew about my did - she said one of our parts was triggered out, and pushed her out of the front so she completely lost her awareness of that period of time. when she came back, she could almost remember what transpired, but it disappeared when she took the front back from the triggered alter - and right away, she said it felt like she was waking up from a dream and forgetting the dream. as the host who was fairly unaware of that going on, it helped me notice switches more easily and gave me a new understanding of why it's so frustrating to intrusively switch throughout the day (i call it carouseling when i have multiple switches in a day.) using that rule i was able to figure out how much time i lost between switches though.
@aspen4786 Жыл бұрын
Honestly, this is so very helpful. Got diagnosed with OSDD over the summer, but we had somewhat known for about a year and a half before that that something was definitely off. It doesn’t help that there’s still so little research on dissociative disorders, so it’s so tough to know what it can look like. Hearing your experiences really helps us feel comfortable and validated. It’s especially helping me right now, as I just formed a few days ago and I am not used to this whatsoever. As it is, the host is currently co-conscious helping me write this so I don’t come off sounding like a jerk. Thank you again for what you’re doing here. -Shadow (from the Erebor System)
@the_ferris_system8333 Жыл бұрын
Great video, Jenna! We love learning about other systems and their experiences with multiplicity. Thank you all for sharing your experience. 💜
@hewhogoesbymanynames6 ай бұрын
It might be because the headmates that fused were "smaller" but I don't really see my fused alters in myself or my remaining alter at all. In my experience fusing really seems like disappearing (though unfusing is common for us, but always temporary).
@Marc16180 Жыл бұрын
"We didn't know the extent of it, though!" Oh, the feels! 😄
@NellyBlyAlibi Жыл бұрын
Oh such a beautiful expression of it all!
@hewhogoesbymanynames6 ай бұрын
We're an unusual DID system. We do have amnesia when we leave front, but barring extremely stressful situations (usually caused by our Tourettes) it's usually the two co-hosts in co-front so there's de facto no amnesia.
@Slipping_thru_the_Seams Жыл бұрын
this soo helpful as someone at the start of my journey. i appreciate the care you show for being accurate with your words.
@SoulSystem-ff6jo Жыл бұрын
Thanks for making this video, Jenna! We’re learning so much from your channel. The calm, quiet backgrounds make us feel safe and at peace in the face of so much online chaos about dissociative disorders, as well as conflict in our personal life. No worries if you can’t get around to answering this, but do you or any of the other members of your system have any advice on caring for littles? We have one little in particular who concerns us. Our friends from another system say that we’re bad people for not doing more for them, but we frankly don’t know how to reach them (short of bringing them to the front, which tends to be a stressful experience for the rest of us), what we’re supposed to do for them, what caring for them even means, etc. Some of us are super freaked out by the thought of even having kids around. We’re not ready to be parents, but our friends in the other system are pushing us to step up and be parents for these kids that we barely know. If you have any advice or recommended resources/research materials, that would be greatly appreciated! We’re working on finding a therapist now. :)
@GianuSystem Жыл бұрын
If you can’t care for them, is there someone else in your system who can? Littles need help, but it doesn’t have to be from the host.
@SoulSystem-ff6jo Жыл бұрын
Thanks for responding! We don’t have any one particular host (there are 60 of us, and about five or so who front publicly), but it seems that some of the littles have particular caretakers within the system. I think there’s a conceptual gap between how communication works in our system vs. our friends’ system. They have an inner world where they can talk to one another, but we don’t. We’ve been writing notes to one another, recording what we remember from the littles after they’re done fronting, trying to listen to inside voices when we think or talk about the littles, giving hugs, and trying to have more snacks on hand for them. A lot of the littles actually seem self-sufficient in a way because they know and like that we’re in an adult body, and our amnesiac barriers are usually low enough that most people can get their bearings when they front.
@ThePhantomsRose Жыл бұрын
Thank you! This is wonderful!
@arinad2 Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for answering our questions❤
@Kelz1136 Жыл бұрын
I'm so happy to see the outtakes because I do the same things while trying to record. Mine are often peppered with a ton of F 💣, though. Thank you!
@GianuSystem Жыл бұрын
When JA’s filming, there’s a lot more profanity. 😂
@clairepittaway1173 Жыл бұрын
This was so interesting and informative, thank you for sharing.
@andersonsystem2 Жыл бұрын
Great Q and you all keep up the good work ❤
@DiamondStarHaloYT Жыл бұрын
Some of your experiences are similar to ours. - Diamond (Phoenix System)
@mimisdeliveryservice Жыл бұрын
Heya, I just had a quick question. Actually, two: how can you tell if you’re actually speaking to another alter or just talking to yourself and convincing yourself it’s someone else (I can’t ever tell since if there are any others, I can’t *hear* them), and how would you suggest bettering communication between alters for confused questioning systems? :)
@GianuSystem Жыл бұрын
There are tests a therapist can give that are helpful. For helping communication, I have a KZbin vid. ^_^
@amymayorca Жыл бұрын
Im sorry, but I don’t know if I understand right, Jen is a different alter than Jenna?
@GianuSystem Жыл бұрын
Yep
@hewhogoesbymanynames6 ай бұрын
It's funny that you say your light will no longer be split up when you die. We don't believe in the afterlife but if we did we think a kind god would let us exist separately in the afterlife, or at least as separate as two singlets. We'd probably still hang out though.
@533134 Жыл бұрын
Thank you! So informative! Can you talk about sleep and dreaming with DID?
@GianuSystem Жыл бұрын
Great suggestion!
@user-wi3yx3gy2oАй бұрын
You might only switch with co consciousness half of a dozen times over a lifetime, and only have half a dozen distinct episodes of prolonged dissociative amnesia (lasting several hours to over a week) that you might think are switches. That happens. But at the other extent you might have past/future periods (as a current) of not even being around most of the time.
@user-wi3yx3gy2oАй бұрын
You might only switch with co consciousness half of a dozen times over a lifetime, and only have half a dozen distinct episodes of prolonged dissociative amnesia (lasting several hours to over a week) that you might think are switches. That happens. But at the other extent you might have past/future periods (as a current) of not even being around most of the time.