Recovery Challenge with ME // Childhood & Pre-ED Favourites // ED Recovery

Join me in this vlog as I re-create one of the ways I challenged myself in recovery: having the foods that little me and pre-ED me liked! I hope that you enjoy it and if you'd like to see more videos like this then please let me know in the comments below! :)
Please note: everyone's recovery journey is unique and it may be that the points I make in this video are not accessible and/or relevant to you so please, as always, take what helps and leave the rest.
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[@susan_e]

I've been looking forward to your latest video and this was such a delight! I've been trying to connect with childhood favs. Some I just can't recall or the item is no longer available. So, I've embarked on self-discovery - trying new (to me)/taking suggestions to learn MY current true likes. I acknowledge some uneasiness around certain types of yummy foods and remind myself that all foods are perfectly OK since I don't have any food allergies. My husband even said (though about our senior dog at the time), that 'Any food you eat is healthier than the food you don't.' I'd love to hear how you pushed through mental barriers. My intuition is repetition to normalize eating. Thank you, Emily, for all you do to continually help me improve my relationship with food, and with myself.💖

[@emilyspence2961]

So pleased you enjoyed it Susan and love to hear you taking action/self-exploring :) And you are spot on; in short, marching into fear with opposite actions and repetition repetition repetition is how to navigate (and overcome) the mental anguish. Thank you again and sending lots of love xx

[@fornamnefternamn4869]

When I was younger and tried recovery (I have relapsing ana) I gained weight so fast and much it was unbelievable when just letting go and eat what I wanted. Is it really for everyone? Some seams to handle it very well (maybe most) but I and some others do not. Almost every recovery try when I was younger, lead to bulimi or real overweight. As older, I have another approach, and really try not skipping meals, not eating to little or too much. Even during relapses I make sure to eat real meals (too small, but not skewed balance or skipped). It has helped to make my relapses easier to come back from, and given me longer time between relapses. Pre-ED I was a slim person, but wanted to eat sugar from the bag, eat 2 pounds of crisps for dinner, live on frosties only and such. My parents did not let me of course. I moved from home during a time when I did not have a relapse, and started eating what I wanted. I gained 100 pounds in a couple of months. Therapists have assured me over and over again I will never become overweight, but they were wrong. Also they said stupid things like "you wont gain any weight if you eat", which is some really stupid thing to say. Of course someone near death will gain weight if they turn their ED. Since I knew what would happen to me if I just let go, I became really scared of recovery. I follow several good recovery channels like your (people that really get recovered and inspirate others to REAL recovery, not just eating what looks like a lot, but keeping low weight due to too little food). Have you ever had any experiences of becoming overweight as a part of recovery? I wonder if some gets somewhat overweight just as a part of healing, and then going back to normal range. Maybe, since I have high functioning autism I can never just eat intuitively, and have to train myself from scratch in healthy ways of eating, just not only "let go". Anyway, I like your channel, but got some bad binge eating flashbacks from all this and flashbacks to periods when I really got overweight from "letting go" of ana ed.

[@recyclefiiish7753]

I loved this video🩵🍰🍬It is super helpful. Thank you Emily🎂💖

[@emilyspence2961]

So pleased you enjoyed it and found it helpful! Thank YOU for your support ^^ x

[@kims9689]

LOVE this. I relate so much!

[@emilyspence2961]

Super pleased you enjoyed it! :D x

[@TheAlicesense]

Wow so helpful, please more videos like this one!

[@emilyspence2961]

Happy to share and help! Thank you for your kind words and support- I will add more videos like this my list! :D

[@lamaschingona1]

As a lifelong resident of Chicago I can confirm that deep dish pizza sauce can go nuclear! When I read the title of this upload I realized I could hardly remember what my favorites were pre-ED.. after some contemplation I got all nostalgic for Golden Grahams and Raspberry Zingers 🥳 thanks !

[@emilyspence2961]

I am pleased to hear that my findings are backed up by an expert witness! xD It really is like lava! Super pleased to hear that this video topic led to some exploration and connections for you: now for the doing and here's to rediscovering pre-ED favourites! :)

[@lilyp9983]

Does anyone remember Billy-Bear Ham? That’s just come to me, not sure if it even contained any ham but still 😂

[@judithkramer9824]

hi, i was just wondering: would you call yourself recovered and are things like this still challenging for you? thank you so much for your work!!

[@emilyspence2961]

I would (and do) indeed: fully free and totally recovered. And no, things are not challenging anymore but I thought it might be helpful to re-create the ways that I did challenge myself in recovery. Thank you :)

[@antonellarusso1233]

​​@@emilyspence2961hi and thankyouuuu ❤️ do you hado you eat much different now? Sorry for my question but im stuck in quasi recovery by years because gaining weight but exercise everyday count calories because no Hunger cues and crave,i crave only fresh fruit and peanuts,maybe i was a monkey😂 anyway my ed brain dont belive its possible eat Like you and look like you,😢Sorry for my messy mind and my english but im a 45 years old woman, hipotalamic amenorrea and hipotiroidism by years and i think its to late for me😢ciao from Roma e grazie❤

[@emilyspence2961]

@@antonellarusso1233 Hey, first and foremost please can you remove all reference to specific numbers from your comment as I endeavour to keep this space as safe for my audience as possible- if this is not done then I will delete the comment (something that I don't like doing) and hope you understand why. Secondly, please know that it is absolutely NOT too late for you and that recovery IS possible. Thirdly, I encourage you to recognise that your ED brain will likely never approve, believe or support the things/messages that align with recovery and will look to disapprove, doubt, query and refute them at every turn. This truth is something to hold onto as you push forwards in your recovery- rebelling against the ED (and all its resistance), leaning into body trust and marching towards food freedom. Recovery IS possible for every body, and that includes you

[@antonellarusso1233]

​@@emilyspence2961thank you and Sorry for mention numbers, thankyouuuu so much for your wise words ❤️

[@antonellarusso1233]

If you think its not good delete my post and Sorry with your followers❤