Steven Universe: 10 Years Later - A Retrospective

[@Aberyyyy]

This show still genuinely has some of the most beautiful backgrounds ive ever seen in a cartoon.

[@SrMissileMonkey]

Not to mention ost. Gorgeous OST

[@threeguysandagirlinabeachhouse]

Background visuals are easily one of the shows best aspects they’re so beautiful and always fit the scene

[@RibEyesProduction]

I like how Steven universe has a outstanding background design, and then we saw the corrupted Steven (??? Containment? What do you even call it?) Anyway, bro what even was that shit the background looked like it belonged on a mediocre adventure time ripoff

[@SrMissileMonkey]

@@RibEyesProduction it wasn't a fight that's for sure

[@RyanSoltani]

Agreed

[@jonacarweenie]

Something I don't see people talking about is that Pearl was completely loyal and would die for Rose in battle, because if Rose was ever poofed her secret would be out, as everyone would see her gem.

[@icoolestcapn3452]

Oh my god. You’re so right how did I never realize this

[@Sabrosas]

That's not really the main reason why though

[@Sappysappster]

I can see why this show connects so deeply with you I'm sorry for your loss; you should feel proud for making it this far

[@Ramsey276one]

Fully agree

[@limegahaha]

agreed

[@hybridvenom9]

Me to

[@luciapeixoto6914]

@@Ramsey276oneWhat are You talking about

[@SSMp315]

It’s… been 10 years???

[@veebot75]

It sure has. Time flies by fast, doesn’t it?

[@SomeCraftive-Art]

Yup! Impressive right! Happy 10th Anniversary Steven Universe!

[@oversleep9920]

Im so old god

[@littlesamu5920]

👦🏽 ten 👨🏽 years 👴🏽 ?

[@Exoslayer100]

Sure has buster

[@SEGASister]

May Chloe rest in peace, and may her memory be a blessing

[@Wonderlandish]

Who was she? 😢 I saw the dedication and it was cute, didn’t know she passed

[@SEGASister]

@@Wonderlandish Chloe was Cartoonshi's girlfriend who passed earlier this year. He brings this up in the video's conclusion… I hardly knew myself before watching this.

[@Wonderlandish]

@@SEGASister thanks for explaining! I commented before finishing the video, sorry 🥲 RIP Chloe, she sounded like an amazing person and her memory is now carried in our hearts too. I hope to live that kind of love someday

[@kingbash6466]

Man, it's crazy looking back at how this series became what it is today after an entire decade. While my relationship with it have been rocky and I'm mixed on its effects on both the cartoon community and the industry in general, I still respect that it came out and did what a lot of other shows couldn't do at the time.

[@fittedurge4763]

Ha rocky, I get it

[@jaycrews4034]

Yeah I have my problems with it (writing wise) but will never deny it was my favorite for the longest and still is super rewatchable

[@jent14]

​@@jaycrews4034this show has some really cosy episodes and sound and visuals are very relaxing

[@ranzu3138]

Mixed on its effects on the industry? Mixed on what? I'm curious

[@kingbash6466]

@@ranzu3138 To be more specific, while I do appreciate that it helped serialized cartoons with interesting themes to grow in the future, it also has the drawback of a lot of folks trying to capitalize on that new trend by copying stuff like its artstyle and 10-minute runtime with less than stellar results. It also doesn't help that it along with Gravity Falls pretty much made some parts of the cartoon community super-obsessed over any new cartoon's lore to the point that if it doesn't have an ongoing plot, then it's worse by default.

[@mufinz0189]

Losing someone so young is one of the hardest things you can ever go through as a human being. Im sure she felt loved and cared for in her last moments. I love this video beyond belief, and as well as you as a creator, and a person. Rest in peace Grace. You were loved.

[@Purplethingyt]

What happened to her? I assumed she was passed from some sort of illness?

[@supaskiltz9877]

@@PurplethingytI don’t think we need to talk about this in the comments section of his video, if you are really curious you could just look it up yourself

[@edythebeast7087]

@@supaskiltz9877wat happened?

[@alextifa2695]

@@Purplethingytno it was from.. well offing herself unfortunately

[@Purplethingyt]

@supaskiltz9877 I did, that's why I asked. Could not find out how. I get you trying to be sensitive, but I was asking because sometimes context can help someone not to be insensitive (imagine someone bringing up choking and you get really upset because that's how your dad recently died, but you never revealed how he died so the person doesn't know not to bring up that specific topic because no one told him why he shouldn't)

[@criticalaorta]

When you said, “she loved Steven universe”, my heart sank. I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@vinylcomets]

It’s really comforting to hear Cartoonshi speak so genuinely like this. It’s really refreshing.

[@nevaehhamilton3493]

I can kinda feel his pain because one month before my 13th birthday... Well... I wanted to end it all. I still have those thoughts during my lower moments, but I never express any of this to my family, in fear of them worrying about me. This is a burden no one should ever have to deal with. So in order to motivate myself not to do it, I remind myself that I have a family that loves me very much. Again, I don't actually know how he feels, and the topic is way too painful for him as the loss was very recent, but he should know that he's not alone. He's far from the first person to feel this way.

[@Vleaso]

Steven Universe is 10 years Gravity Falls is 11 years Adventure Time is 13 years time really flies, huh?

[@fionn5053]

Oh god I'm old

[@robloxgirlwithadog]

I just realized that I am ancient.

[@boyvsgaming]

@@robloxgirlwithadog i just realized i am really young

[@capitatecab6049]

Regular Show is 13

[@SolarFlaregamer]

Oh my god time really flys by

[@urlhnd]

I have no words. This video is something that was missing from most Steven Universe reviews on KZbin. A genuine love letter for the show, filled with appreciation and understanding. The show approached emotional and mental struggles with such open-minded sincerity, helping millions of people cope and get better. Kudos to you and the Steven Universe crew, this world would be much worse without you.

[@Sci-fi-gu7]

Your a good person I hope you know that❤

[@kawaiizzythefrog8952]

I had a feeling when I saw “for Chloe” at the start. I’m so sorry for your loss. Keep fighting, every day is a win and I’m proud of you for coming this far.

[@Peridot5xg]

Over a decade old and still rocking? I gotta say, that is a really impressive milestone to reach for. This show changed the course of my life in many ways, many good ways. I absolutely ADORE every single one of it's aspects. These past 10 years have been absolutely stellar, and i'm honestly really curious (and hyped) for what the next 10 years might bring. Great video!

[@RyanSoltani]

Can’t believe it’s been 10 years already, and also I remember you from a comment you left on an old animation I made for Steven Universe a few years ago!

[@GeraldEatsSoup]

Omg Peridot I remember when u had 207 inscritos

[@SeanAlegator]

@@Peridot5xg hi peridot

[@H3rmon861]

The video just released so I can’t say what it’s going to be but something tells me it’s going to have a less angry edgy tone and a more of a comprehensive one compared to the previous one. I am so happy about that. Steven Universe has its flaws but the amount of hate it got while releasing compared to how groundbreaking it was is insane to me

[@omega7057]

I agree, but we can't deny that there were some heavy problems with pacing, hiatus and filler, all mixed together, which is a big part of why fans got so desperate when they were getting months for a chapter, and then they get food wars after being teased with massive clip hangers

[@DrawciaGleam02]

Funny, I started watching Toonshi because of his sarcasm in his Steven Universe reviews!

[@justcallmekai1554]

​@@omega7057Youre right. Those hiatus and scheduling wasnt good half time which led to people to theory craft and sometimes forget actual details about the story, improper releases of episodes etc. Thats stuff fine to critque imo but back then the SU hatred got so bad that most of the popular videos and discourse were straight up bigoted and bad faith. Its weird cause ive seen these vids when i was much younger and thought nothing of it. Now im like "Wtf is this shit. Its so blatant". Im just glad most of that shit calmed down and we can get an actual honest look of the series without the hiatuses, recentcy bias, and the internet culture around 2014-2018.

[@adv78]

Honestly I've never seen such hate while the show was running for the longest time, feel like early on was just massive appraise. Only about season 4 in people just flipped the 180 in the show for some reason. And I get that the ending was... To put it bluntly.... Extremely rushed (and tonally a bit bad??) but i never got why people use it as a reason to shit on the whole show Also Future has its flaws but it talks about the problems of creating dependency on helping others better than I've seen any other show doing since. (Part because it's a problem usually ignored)

[@blankedeye1451]

​@@adv78I can excuse the rushed ending (because it was _cancelled_ ) and I enjoyed the overall message of future, and what it chose to explore. The dialogue during kaiju steven though definitely could've been improved...

[@altcronym]

Toonshi, you're articulate in everything you present and having seen you grow and improve yourself by encapsulating new perspectives is such a testament to your character. You show how capable you are at facing the source of your trauma while also driving parallels to such a cathartic show, being fully transparent on how much it had affected you. I give you my unbounded respect as someone who's the same age as you for making such grand progress, as well as my many condolences for your girlfriend. I sincerely hope she rests easy in the skies. You can only ever go up from here on out.

[@animationed-dendem7896]

I'm deeply sorry that you had to deal with so many horrible things in your life and after reading your Twitter, it's especially painful to know how you lost Chloe. Steven Universe is a very complicated show in how people can interpret it and I'm glad that after dealing with all the complicated emotions that both this show and your life had left you with, you were able to show an appreciation for this series that meant a lot to various people, particularly someone you loved. I'm sure Chloe would be happy if she knew how much she was able to help you. It's just a shame that she couldn't find help for herself. I could tell that you're dealing with a lot even now, so hopefully, you'll be able to follow the light out of the dark tunnel you've been stuck in. I think more people should watch this video not only because it showed how far you came as a creator, but also because you showed an insight to the show that not a lot of people could really give. Even with the issues it struggled with, it still resonated with many people and I'm glad you were able to show how it resonated with you.

[@Yrlova]

May i ask how did she pass because the internet in my region is restricted

[@animationed-dendem7896]

@@Yrlova I don't know if I'm allowed to say it outright given KZbin's guidelines, but I'm certain someone else here was able to talk about it. In any case, please always check up on the people you love. Do what you can to make life better for those people. It's difficult, but they should always remember that they're not alone. I hope Cartoonshi is able to recover and I hope that Chloe can rest easy because even if she couldn't find help for herself, she did help the people around her and that's something that should never be taken for granted.

[@bluerious5475]

@@animationed-dendem7896Tbh I don’t think it’s really against anything to post a comment talking about it, since it’s way different than posting a video. It’s also just unfortunately hard to find any information about the subject since cartoonshi’s twitter is privated

[@Raph___A]

I remember not being interested in this show when I saw the commercials, but then I watched the first 2 episodes and that feeling of disinterest was gone. I grew up with this show, and while I still don't like Future, I've recently found myself looking back on this show fondly, whether it be its characters, its music or even its comedy. Happy 10 years, Steven Universe. ⭐

[@DrawciaGleam02]

Is it bad to like certain aspects of Future but not the show as a whole?

[@T-mack56]

@@DrawciaGleam02 Nah. I say that's pretty much a reasonable feeling to have. While I personally don't hate Future as much as most people, it's not something I'm as willing to go back to like I am with the main series.

[@tux_duh]

I really liked future, I was the same age as Steven when it came out and a lot of it was so relatable I cried really hard

[@dr.thunder1567]

Same, I never watched it because of the cringiness I saw on tv's everywhere A few weeks ago I finally sat threw and watched it all, this show is just mindblowing - it hit me in all the feels

[@nyes4596]

To be honest, I love future because it hits home to me. The feeling of starting to be distant with people and then starting to lashing out when people try to console you just feels.. Bad

[@marty0411]

You made me do something I’ve never done watching your videos: cry, joke aside this video deserves 30 minutes of applause for how much heart and love you put into it. 👏👏👏❤. Also my condolences for the lost of your girlfriend 😔

[@kelvinsmymiddlename5756]

I also teared up at the end when I heard he lost his girlfriend. It’s always a pain to lose someone you’ve loved for so long, and it’s not easy to simply “get it over with and move on.” But remembering all the good times you’ve had with them and reflecting on your experiences will always give you special memories to cherish, and how you can continue living knowing that they’ll always be with you no matter what. That’s the power of love, and I appreciate both Cartoonshi and Steven Universe for demonstrating that to many of us.

[@tokemonGG]

this video is beautiful

[@albatros_eats.f1sh]

i love the resurgence of steven universe this year with videos defending the show and trying to repair how the show is viewed. I'm sad to hear about the passing of your girlfriend and I really wish that she's happy wherever she is now

[@AnimationFanboy2k4]

As a Steven Universe and Gravity Falls fan, I can respect that. Edit: The series, ever since the day I saw this, I used to hate it before, but then as the series went on, I begin realize on something more than just a generic show, rather they have a connection and the way it hits the feels. Sometimes, love is the way to not just to connect to others but also to give respect and all to yourself (self-love) This may be my controversial oppinion, but this is consider as one of the best shows I've watched from the 2010s. Happy 10th anniversary, Steven Universe. 💎💗💙💜

[@pennysanchez7656]

Yay!

[@ranzu3138]

Steven Universe is one of the best western animated series ever. Is obviously my opinion but is one I stand by and will defend.

[@poweroffriendship2.0]

Steven Universe is definitely one of the best shows that deserves a second chance after years of backlash.

[@phantasmicphantasies]

im fighting tears from the outro and i just want to tell you that while i only learned that chloe even existed today, im sure she’d be very proud of you for living and for doing all of this. i dont know you, but from what ive seen, i know your life is more than worth living. i hope that you have a lovely day, (im afraid of being too casual to a stranger because im worried about making the other party uncomfortable so im going to say mx) mx toonshi. you’re awesome

[@Toontastic_Juju]

Here’s to 10 years of Steven Universe! And Toon, my condolences to Chloe, she must’ve been an excellent and caring person to you and it’s really sad that she’s no longer around. This video is amazing and heartwarming of how Steven Universe told us about love and support. The characters and songs are very well developed and memorable and it’s something we continue to praise. Excellent video buddy, keep it up!

[@TheMarketableJackFrost]

Opening up about the loss of your girlfriend is a sign of your strength. I’m sorry about your loss, and thank you for sharing your story. It was something I and many others needed to hear.

[@lancetheking7524]

Rest in peace to your girlfriend, steven universe is truly a special show, and respects to your life Cartoonshi

[@renneverscared]

holy shit i nearly teared up watching this video, im so glad you're still here and persevering regardless of your trauma. amazing video as always, it's not easy being vulnerable

[@krollebolle-yc1zr]

Ten..YEARS. It feels so strange to say that honestly, I grew up with this beautiful show and I will forever have a place in my heart for Steven universe.

[@baboin1851]

Steven universe is to this day my favourite piece of fiction ever written. Not the best, but my favourite. The ideas it presents are so inique and out there that it feels very different. The idea of gems being charecters is something i haven't ever seen before. The way it weaves that with the theme of worth. The quality of the gem. Steven Universe will forever hold a special place in heart. I will forever remember it, no matter what.

[@whywouldshebeacowb0y]

Exactly this for me

[@izzy_izzy_izzybelle]

absolutely this ❤

[@QuilLocke]

This is a beautiful video, Mate. I'm so sorry about your girlfriend's passing.

[@cassiushellsin6243]

One thing I CANNOT deny is that Steven Universe has such a strong VIBE, like the universe is just BEGGING to be explored! And the music has this ominous, yet beautiful melody to it that sticks with you. It elevates the emotion far more than it has any right to. Also that intro was fucking masterful, amazing editing Cartoonshi 👏

[@jenniferpratt3007]

Every once in a while it’s good to acknowledge the good a show did. Steven Universe’s biggest pro was the characters to me. Also rest in heavenly peace to Chloe

[@Yurkiiee]

10 year anniversary videos are the only ones where cartoonshi doesn’t sound miserable

[@lanshiong5876]

Rest in peace Chloe,sorry for your loss toonshi❤️

[@therandomness6403]

Pearl probably saw Steven as just another pink diamond (personality, like rose) for so long. She even thought taking his gem out would just bring her back, when we know that isn’t the case, but it’s fuccin wild she had that in her head for so much time, never knowing, always hoping

[@omegabrain230]

F*cking hell I never knew about the story with your gf props to you for speaking up about it and I now understand why your feelings towards the show are what they are stay strong your such a talented content creator and your videos have bought me a lot of joy

[@elsnasdragonnet6959]

I personnally connect to Amethyst because i can relate to her arc as a disabled person. Every disabled representation i've seen so far, the character arc ends with them realising that they are "still usefull" or "stronger but in a different way" and i can't relate, because no matter what i'll do, i'll still be weaker, less productive than others. Amethyst never gets stronger, or more useful to others, her arc is about how she matters no matter what. And, that's what 16 years old me needed, a goofy character showing me i deserved to exist. I think she's a better representation of disablility than Eda from the owl house even tho she was explicitly written to be disabled representation, because Eda's disablility is always treaten as a burden for others and she gets superpowers once she "accept who she is", she's litterally not disabled once she "accept herself" and i was really disapointed in her arc. I love toh don't get me wrong, i just relate more to Amethyst.

[@NotWhatIamMadeFor]

I feel the same way only my disabilities are mental and not physical and I was in my 30s when I first watched this! But yeah, you said it. Looking at Amethyst allows me to think "Hey, yes, I do have problems and maybe people think I am weird. But, this is me. This is who I am and I am good enough just how I am! So, yeah I totally get your feelings about our girl. I am getting a tattoo of her next weekend!

[@thecheck968]

Steven Universe carries a lot of weight for me, more so than any other piece of media. Which must sound strange to anyone not familiar with the show. But it represents something of a turning point of my life. I watched that show the same time I realized that I really didn't like myself and that I wanted to do something about that, but didn't know how. Amethyst especially brings up those insecurities. I grew up aromantic and asexual, willfully oblivious to these labels because I was afraid those would somehow make me less human. My parents overlooked me, one I blamed too much and one not nearly enough. I was working a stressful job with a manager willing to emotionally manipulate me just to get me to work a few more hours each week. My one escape in school was orchestra, but that was a toxic environment that only amplified my worst tendencies and insecurities. Everything that ever happened to me, anything at all, I used to construct a narrative that I was wrong and the world would be better off if I never existed. So when Amethyst said those words out loud, it destroyed me. The show gave me so much catharsis on so many emotions I kept buried, too afraid to confront. I've grown so much sense I first watched the show, but looking back, it reminds me of a dark time in my life where I could relate with some of the worst things the characters said about themselves.

[@SoraZ2112]

Even with its flaws, I just can't hate this show. Still love it to this day. My condolences for your girlfriend.

[@benjo2704]

I remember being obsessed with this show back in middle school. While it definitely has it's issues, I'll still always have a soft spot for this show and hearing how it's impacted your life was genuinely moving. I'm really sorry for your loss and I have nothing but respect for your resolve to keep going in spite of everything.

[@pieflower6419]

I love this show because ten years later, people are still sharing stories about how important it is to them. They're still discussing its themes, they're still using events in the show to open up about topics that people wouldn't discuss otherwise. Despite what some say, this show has had a positive impact on me and millions of others, and for that I'll always be grateful.

[@cat_with_a_witch_hat]

Y'know, at the ending of the video.. I actually teared up. I've experienced lots of loss too, and I want you to know that you're doing a great job. You're one of my favorite KZbinrs and I hope that you have an amazing day/night.

[@ZuckerBubi]

Love is an emotion felt even after death, every time you remember a lost one, every time you think of the connection you had to them. Every time your remember any good they have caused to you, what they meant to you, that is love. Appreciate the ones you love, and always remember that you are loved.

[@v1c-was-her3]

First off, the primary reason I'm commenting was the ending of your video. It's very nice to hear you genuinely speak about how much the show meant to you, and it's wonderful to hear you speak out and acknowledge the hardships you've been battling for the past 6 years (it's also genuinely nice to see how much you've grown since that old Steven Universe video. It's good to acknowledge what we've done wrong and that we've learned, and that we're always learning and growing and for us to not take our own faults and mistakes to the core of our heart), and what this show meant to you, and your own experiences and memories with your girlfriend. My heart goes out for you having to deal with something as hard hitting as the death of someone so close to you, someone who has been helping you immensely through your own hardships, and you continuing to be strong and live on. Her compassion will not go unnoticed and will be heavily valued not only now by all those who mattered (especially you), but by all those who stuck around and watched your video till the end. From a nobody on the Internet, rest in peace Chloe, I wish you a happy and stress free afterlife, and may all memories and experiences with her be happy ones But I'm glad everyone's slowly starting to rewatch Steven Universe under a new light after so much negativity about it in the past few years. I'd more than admit that negative critiques from creators at the time influenced my own thoughts at the time and made me turn away from a show I forgot that I had honestly loved watching since Season 2; waiting for all the new eps, and engaging in and producing Community content (I still very fondly remember having a debate with someone over if Rose Quartz was Pink Diamond or not back when the Bismuth ep first came out, arguing that she wasn't PD,,, man that aged well), and like many currently I'm re-igniting that love that I had and remembering the emotions I felt during my first watch throughs free of external opinions. It's still far from a perfect show but what it aimed to tackle at the time really flew over my head and I never realized/took severely for granted just how revolutionary the show, its themes and messages, and tackling of characters were during a time where society was still coming around to these topics themselves (if not still shunning certain things such as same sex marriages, sexualities, gender identities and presentation, disorders/disabilities, and so forth). It's such a wonderful show in retrospect that tackles so many things: love (self, familial, platonic, romantic, etc.), death, toxic and healthy relationships, war, trauma, the validity of reaching out and breaking emotional walls,,, revolutionary show it is. But yeah, wonderful show and I wish you the best in your healing process of both self and with the things you're goin through!

[@MichaeltheArchangel1-w5n]

I always knew this show was show was special compared to any other thing I've ever watched and to see it still resonate with people after all these years is beautiful. Been a fan since I was 8, a year after the show came out and it still stands. Thanks to Cartoonshi for this vid, Rebecca Sugar, the crewniverse, and the many fans thus far!

[@themarinawave]

my girlfriend and i just finished steven universe last night, coincidentally on the 10th anniversary of its premiere. for a while, i was one of those surface level haters who considered the toxic side of the fandom to be indicative of the show’s quality. i never gave it a try until my girlfriend suggested it, and i’m so, so glad i did. this show hit me in ways i would have never expected. i lost my dad in 2021 to covid. my relationship with him was so complicated, but yet even now, over two years later, i still feel so lost without him. pearl’s arc of loving rose, and basically giving up her entire self-worth for one person’s approval, struck really hard. seeing how shattered she is on the inside, but still trying to put up the front and present herself as this “perfect” gem…it’s so powerful. steven universe is a flawed masterpiece in my eyes. but to end off, i wanna say that i’m so sorry about the loss of your partner this year. i hope me bringing up my own experience doesn’t come off as insensitive. i want you to know that you are so much stronger than you realize for opening up about that. grief, loss, and trauma are so hard to be 100% open about. i’m proud of you. you’re gonna go far with this channel. ❤

[@DaviRed_]

It really hurts me to see how many people hate it now. For me, Steven Universe was special. It was the first cartoon (and show in general) that I came to love to that level. And while I realize rewatching now I can see it wasn't perfect like I previously thought, I still hold it in a special place in my heart.

[@randomdudewholikesmusic1640]

This show is why some of my friends gave me the nickname "Ruby" as they have been my favourite gems since Ruby's debut. I've had a friend since 2016, and I still occasionally call her "Garnet." We even had an online friend group where we all had gem names as our usernames. I still treasure those memories, gaming sessions and chats even now.

[@UserUnavailable714]

This was not only a beautiful retrospective, but a beautiful video. I was shocked to hear how closely your experiences with Steven Universe followed my own. Thank you for everything you had to say and decided to share. Of course I don't know you and I won't pretend to, but from what I can see here, I'm proud of everything you've accomplished. It's exciting to see where you'll go and you're doing amazing.

[@jamaldavis3224]

Happy 10 years to Steven Universe. And I sincerely hope you have found peace after your beloved Chloe's passing. My deepest condolences unto you

[@gustavsberzins5639]

Cartoonshi, thank you for sharing this message at the end. This whole video has been emotional, but the last few minutes have made such an impact to me. I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope that you're doing well and I and many others will be here to support you. You're awesome! Greetings from Latvia!

[@ImperiousMax]

I genuinely cried as I got to the end of your video. It's also just beautiful that a show like this can have such an effect on people, but given what you've had and are going through, to have something to look back on in remembrance to such a wonderful person in your life is a beautiful thing. You're not alone, and I think I can speak for everyone when I say I hope for the best for you.

[@davi-sza]

Dude I am so sorry for your loss. Hope you're doing OK by now

[@annagrayshon1052]

This video was such a beautiful way to show how media can grow and change along with the people who consume it, and such a mature way at looking at a show that has had so many critiques.

[@kadabraguy9846]

Sword in the Stone is such a good episode, I loved how it tackled Pearl's obsession with Rose/Pink and how she was subconsciously passing that trauma onto those around her. Thank you for being so candid in this video. I wish you luck in the future 💜

[@samcool245]

Wow... Words can't comprehend how amazing this video is

[@flaremawile726]

I know I'm probably late to comment this, but, I'm very sorry for your loss. Peace be upon her soul, and those of her loved ones.

[@mr.shreddergaming1940]

What a wonderfull video. May she rest in peace.

[@milanbarcenas5925]

Damn this got me emotional. Thank you for being vulnerable Cartoonshi. It meant so much.

[@SparklingWithNiGHTS-yv5fe]

It's really refreshing and interesting to see a good Review of the show nowadays.❤

[@gregvs.theworld451]

Damn dude, you made my cry at the end of this video. This is proof that anyone who says guys showing emotions are weak are stupid and can shove it, since I can only imagine the amount of bravery it takes to admit something as deeply intimate as what you went through with Chloe to perfect strangers on the internet knowing full well how the internet can be. And then those custom verses broke me, but in a good way. I have to admit, while I don't know you personally, I have enjoyed watching your content grow from what I saw as garden variety reaction and hating on popular thing content to more fully formed, personal, and thoughtful critiques of media, I think you really have an eye for fair and balanced nuance and analysis that I've really come to enjoy. Speaking personally, I know that both depression and discoveries of self identity can be a right bitch to deal with too, and that it's a process. Thank you for this video Cartoonshi, and I'm sorry for what you've had to go through with Chloe, from how you describe her it sounds like she was a real bang up woman. Here's to keeping on because life is worth living, and respect to the people who taught us that. Take care of yourself man, and know that there are people here who see, appreciate, and find value in what you do, not that you need our approval or anything, but your work is seen and appreciated.

[@pikakirby1119]

I think fusion isn't a consistent allegory throughout the show it just represents what it needs to for the episode. Like in the episode where pearl and garnet fuse I think it's sex but when it's Steven and his dad I think it's family bonds or it could just represent the quality of someones friendship or sometimes it is just fusion in the most literal way like with the rubies.

[@natalimoina]

Yeah, it's pretty clearly just a general metaphor for all kinds of complex relationships, depending on the relationship of who's doing the fusing. The people who complain about all of them being metaphors to sex either have no reading comprehension whatsoever or are parading this falsity to further spread their own agenda.

[@pikakirby1119]

@@natalimoina Yeah that definitely seems to be my experience I remember the neo nazi guy from a few years ago made it seem like sex so he could make rape jokes. The guy who made this video I honestly just think misinterpreted it and there are probably other people like him some people just kind of struggle with inconsistency like Peridot from the show. I can also vouch for it from personal experience I struggle with inconsistency myself. I still think most of the time the fusion = sex thing is a big dog whistle though.

[@MooshieBlueYT]

This show, even with its flaws, even with the messes that were rammed along the way, still has so much love and genuine care put into it, because of Steven Universe I found who I want to be and found who I am. I can’t thank Rebecca enough for making such a gift. And this video was really heartfelt.

[@KrisRN23935]

This is... strangely validing. I remember your retrospective on Future and I didn't really agree with your assessment that Steven wasn't a realistic depiction. Since When it was airing... I had been diagnosed with the same things, and it had helped me a lot. But since you had been through something similar, I wondered if maybe I was a particularly bad case or if it just was more extremely manifest in the show because of Steven being half Gem and because of the shear amount of crap he went through. I understand my experience is still FAR from universal in regards to those issues still, and not to invalidate those who aren't represented by Steven's depiction, but it is kind of nice to know I'm not alone. Anyway I'm glad you realized this about yourself and I hope this can be a breakthrough for you and I wish you the best. Love your work Cartoonshi.

[@bea2798]

This show has also saved my life. This was a beautiful video, thank you for sharing this with us, you are doing amazing

[@GatlingPea32]

Reflecting now on the SU fandom, being a fan of the show for so long made me see what happened to the most dedicated fans of the show. Most of the SU fans I've met back when this show was at its peak have already moved on now and faced reality. I believe most of them have jobs now, supporting their own families and they are raising their kids as well. Some of them are in college now and have also moved on to other fandoms, but what gets me is that these people once were the noisiest fans of the show who would defend its message despite the shows eventual backlash. Some of them were once the most toxic fans of the show who may have aggressively disagreed with others. I believe that despite their faults, they should still keep the message that SU taught them before and pass down to their kids. I myself am still a huge fan of the show despite no longer being active in the fandom and now working part time in a convenience store somewhere in France. I still hold on to the show because how much it taught me to embrace my neurodivergence and accept people's differences.

[@onesmolbean5823]

Just finished watching, this was really beautiful... Good luck with your journey

[@mehulchandra4855]

Great video, as always and sorry for your loss

[@SprongBobbles]

I lost my boyfriend in 2016, and one of the last episodes we watched together was the episode that "Love Like You" debuted in the episode 'Bubbled'. To this day every single time I hear the song I think back to that day. It'll be 7 years on the 10th of this month. I'm so sorry for your loss. If there's anything I can say, no matter how grueling and hard your grief is, you will be okay. Please take care of yourself.

[@nero1747]

This is talking DIRECTLY ro my soul, this show Hits SOOO DIFFERENTLY when you rewatch it in adulthood, can't wait to watch it again in another 10years to see how it hits

[@ckm5702]

Stay strong brother and rest in peace Chloe ❤

[@fonsales5373]

Thanks for this video. I was starting to finally finished this series from start to end and after all of that, it makes it all much clear. Chloe would be proud on you. hope you can find your way to enjoy the time you have. And... happy life for you.

[@voxxas]

i never had a cartoonshi video make me cry before until now, may chloe fly high

[@StarGazer0352]

This video has been sitting in my Watch Later for months. So glad I finally watched it. The ending sincerely brought a tear to my eye

[@TheXtraSpace]

I'm not entirely sure how to put this into coherent sentences, but just thank you for this video Cartoonshi~ I've had a similar experience with coming to embrace the messier and better parts of this series in a fine balance and will forever push it as one of the best cartoons of the 2010s and of my childhood. Because often in my passion for media, I can even see the most flawed of products for potential they have, for cracks that don't entirely break the entire foundation of what makes the result so good. So often times I try to find the best parts of something or try to see what could be worked on. But it all comes down to knowing nothing is perfect... Just like the people who make the media we consume. Just like the people who watch the media those people create, us. We are all flawed, we all share in many similar emotions, experiences, words, people, struggles, because we are all human. We all can love, we all can feel pain, we are all alive. Speaking on myself a bit more personally, my own characters and stories I've had for nearly 7 years of my life (I'm also 19 btw) Were created with my recent passion and come from large amounts of existentialism. Their stories and the themes I want to explore through my characters (and some day with enough work through a full series) are tied to my own experiences. But experiences, emotions, and struggles that I share with many people I interact with. Even some within my own community, social circle, and incredibly supportive team of artists and writers who "work for me." I find passion in even the most imperfect of media, because it's how I view people. And even if I can't always grasp it entirely, it is how I view myself. Flawed, broken, but glimmering beneath the surface, and yet another crack in a beautiful mirror, with many faces in the reflection staring back at me. I have many people that I love, I have many people who love me. Some of that love as you said, "I can't even begin to put into words." Sometimes I wonder "what makes you think I'm so special?" Only to realize that it's simply because I'm me. I exist. And I'm alive. I'm so sorry for your loss, here I am crying a mixture of emotions from not just your analysis of the show. But you are being willing enough to share your personal heartbreak with us and share how that grief has turned to love for something even as simple as a cartoon. Because at the end of the day, even when people say we shouldn't get attached to fiction, to media, to something that isn't real. The stories told, the themes explored, and the emotions felt are so very real. Because often we feel them in our everyday lives with the real people we have to love and struggle with on this planet. Thank you for this video, dude! Thank you for the good cry! Sorry it was a rambling mess, but I'm sure I made my point. Never stop caring about who you are, who loves you, and what it is you enjoy or love. Cause in the end, life is about love, love is about life. I wish you all the best, and I'm here to enjoy whatever you create next. Keep living dude, we're glad to have you here. "Life and death, and love and birth, and peace and war on the planet earth~"

[@rxtv1016]

Mann I really grew up with the show over the last decade….its truly crazy how time flies by I recently rewatched the show and I got so emotional when I realized how far this show came and realizing that it was over only made cry more this really was my favorite cartoon as a kid it wasn’t just a cartoon it was an experience truly and I miss that!!! Thank Rebecca Sugar for all of it ❤

[@followerofjimpickens9135]

Amazing video, man. The final few minutes had me in tears.

[@scallywag-rascal]

steven universe genuinely has some of the best venting music i’ve ever heard.

[@blueburner]

This is a great perspective on the show, and I couldn’t agree more. I’m so glad I live in a time that I could experience it. Also, so grateful and proud of you for sharing your story!!

[@HieuPham-hy5oe]

such great and precise analysis, this is my first video from your channel and i'm really impressed... and i'm really sorry for your loss, sending my gratitude to you!

[@NonsensicalTrickster]

Shows like Steven Universe, Gravity Falls, and Avatar the Last Airbender mean so much to me. They introduced me to compassionate characters who didn't fit the typical mold that I was used to... to look at myself and realize how much value I have as a person. To accept that, even though I am not perfect, I am a beautiful, amazing being who can exist and touch the lives of those around me in ways I may never fully understand. That alone gives me the strength to keep pushing no matter how draining life gets. Thank you for this video.

[@duartsy]

Literally never thought I’d cry this hard bc of a yt video, you deserve the universe (pun intended)

[@shroomoroom]

I refuse to believe it’s been 10 years

[@wizardly9211]

Me and my sisters never bonded over anything in our life, except for Steven Universe and Adventure Time. I miss being a kid again, sitting down every episode release on the couch, watching in anticipation as we talked about who our favorite characters were or our favorite episodes. Regardless of what I personally think of the quality of the story, I cannot deny the sheer impact the show had on me and my relationship with my two sisters. Now that I'm older, gone through ups and downs in life, grown as a person, maybe it's time for a rewatch. Amazing video

[@charliefoot6117]

This video is a love letter, and it's beautiful. Genuinely hope Rebecca sugar sees this, she should know how much her show has helped.people. Thanks for the vid, have some love ❤

[@MarsOuttaStars]

This video is beautiful tribute to Steven Universe and your girlfriend. I am truly sorry for your loss and wish you well. ❤

[@Coconut_Prrson]

May I say that, Ive been watching your channel since 2020, and being the same age as you, I have a deep love for this channel since you dont shy away from the fact that you struggle a lot in life and are currently living your coming of age years. Going through my own struggles over the years, and seeing you from a continent away I do feel like Ive grown with you. Your channel is amazing, at least to me, and this video encapsulates that perfectly

[@rayanimates4801]

I may be late, or whatever, but i finally got around to watching this video, and I’d like to say that I admire you as a content creator, and you being vulnerable like this is brave and truly admirable. Im so sorry for your loss and i truly hope that you heal from it, if you havent already. Hope you’re doing well toonshi, and rest in peace cloe.

[@Nocompany2]

I get the parts of trauma, I'm only 16 and I've gone through too much for someone even in their thirties. I can't be left alone for more than an hour without breaking down because I'm so focused on others & not fixing myself because I don't know how

[@girlywolfpup1588]

I'm so sorry for everything you've gone through and what you've lost. I hope you keep living

[@PeppermintBlues]

Ain't no way its been 10 years.

[@timothyliow943]

Man, I really miss Steven Universe. It’s what really inspired me to try making writing my dream. Sure, it’s has its flaws (with the many, many videos about them) but it also has its good points! It can move people like you.

[@smoldidi]

This genuely makes me cry

[@RioZMC]

I wasn’t prepared for this retrospective. Great video! Wish you a wonderful future!

[@Waelly17]

I was not ready for this. I'm glad I decided to view this one. I enjoyed the last one, and I'll enjoy the next one. The emotional resonance I personally had with this show and it's songs hit so hard for me and now I'll always think about this video when I enjoy this show/song/memories.

[@zoid4659]

Ive followed your channel for years now, and its nice to see how not only has your opinion on this show has changed over the years, but also about everything else in your life, the way you choose to deal with your own problems, im sorry for the loss you went through toonshi, i hope you heal, you deserve it a lot. This was a lovely to watch

[@JDoodles]

This was a beautiful retrospective. Steven Universe has always held a special place in my heart for many of the reasons you listed, and I always related to and defended Steven the most because I understood how badly he was hurting. Especially come SU Future, where it was so obvious that he was suffering from severe PTSD and everyone else seemed to see it as him throwing tantrums over nothing or being a jerk for no reason. This show has a lot more depth than people give it, and yes, it's incredibly flawed and handles some things poorly. But I truly believe one of the things it handles pretty well is trauma, and the different ways people handle/process it. To me, it's realistic in its portrayal of the different issues and traumas many of the people in the show deal with, because everyone handles things differently and there's no correct way to grieve or process. I rewatched all of SU a few months back, and several times through the show, with all the knowledge I had, I choked up or cried. And by the end of Future I was a sobbing mess, it was so impactful to me and means so much to me, even when I stopped watching the show for some time, I always loved it. This video has so much love, care, and dedication poured into it. It shows in the way you speak about the characters and what it all means to you. You call it sappy, and maybe it is, but I think it's heartwarming and speaks volumes about how much love you truly have for SU. I'm so sorry for your loss, grief is never easy to deal with, but I'm glad you're continuing on not just for your loved ones but yourself as well. Thank you for sharing this with us, I can only imagine how difficult it must have been.

[@Adderstinks]

i've seen your stuff before, but this video was the nail that made me subscribe. i'm not an emotional person, but the end choked me up a little. Steven Universe had and will continue to have a very special place in my heart and this video shows how even something flawed can change someone's life for the better. Thank you so much for your dedication to the show, and I truly appreciate making yourself just so vulnerable for this. Stay strong, man.

[@Hashiriya086]

I really wasn’t expecting to cry today man.

[@horseridinggirl121]

I woke up one morning my senior year and saw a pilot for a show at around 6 AM when adult swim switched back over to Cartoon Network. "If this gets greenlit," I thought, "I'll watch it." I've been with Steven Universe since the start, despite the backlash and anger. Some friends jumped on board, and the show carried me through college. I remember trying to get out of my night class early to watch the movie premiere. I'm a deeply flawed person, struggling with demons like many others. And there was a sense of familiarity, of love, that I held onto. Steven Universe was not a perfect show, but it was perfect to me. So many topics that they handled that hit home, so many stories that I hold dear to me. We were handed characters who are - by all accounts - aliens, created to fit a mold only to break out of it to experience themselves and who they were. Their struggles with unfamiliar territory all felt so human, making mistakes and lashing out in anger and frustration over loss of friends and loved one but also coming together and embracing the beauty of a life they fought to get for themselves. All topped off with a protagonist who is the embodiment of love in both healthy and toxic ways (the latter being more focused on in Future). I could go on, as you and many others can about how much this show meant to us. Your retrospective is so beautiful and reminded me of the reason I fell in love with Steven Universe in the first place. And that is love. I'm so sorry for your loss. I wish you all the love I can give, and hope that you're able to give yourself the time to heal.

[@plaguous6386]

I let myself get a very negative idea of SU thanks to those old videos (not yours specifically but just in general) I was young and had never actually seen anything pre season 5 so i let my judgement get clouded, fast forward and I have rewatched the entire show with an open mind and WOW did i realize just how GREAT this show is. I’m such a different person than back when I “”hated”” this show and had I given this show a chance back then with representation such as Garnet and steven’s song near the end of the show where it goes “I don’t need you to love me I love me, I don’t need you to respect me I respect me.” That almost made me cry when I heard it on my recent rewatch because i’ve never seen a show put my feelings into anything more accurately. This show will always be special to me.

[@trapsack]

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