UG Studios session "Addict With A Pen" by Twenty One Pilots

[@maisyxx17]

I just feel the need to point out that josh looks just as emotional as Tyler does and he really is just as important as Tyler is to this band

[@calumcooper6841]

thank you.

[@thotiana59]

I love you.

[@liligravando9126]

Thank you

[@peepwentz6968]

I LOVE YOU THANK YOU

[@thatredblob2004]

i saw it at the end of the vid-FCK

[@serenityclark13]

I CAN SEE TYLER STRUGGLING TO KEEP HIS EMOTIONS CONTAINED IM LITERALLY CRYING

[@brookiewantsacookie_]

Serenity Clark 😭😭😭

[@NFan_37]

Serenity Clark me too

[@andrewjoseph3404]

Why didn't they just let him shout, it's easier for him that way.

[@sophie-xl4vs]

people need to feel the emotion in music

[@arzooey]

Serenity Clark it makes me wanna Burst into TEARS

[@drummerboy231434]

For some reason it wasn't til this video that I realized how important Josh was to the band. Like Tyler always said Josh made the band who they are today but I always thought "yeah, hes a great and tight drummer, but there are so many other good drummers too". But just seeing the emotion Josh puts into his playing and the unspoken chemistry between the two... You can just feel that these two were meant to play music together.

[@blackkatmuzic]

+drummerboy231434 what really gets me is the way Tyler looks over at Josh especially during those really emotional bits and instrumentals and you just feel its because he's desperately holding on to him, Josh is anchoring him in that moment and they've been through so much together that they both just understand and seeing one another and being around each other is all Tyler needs to grasp the strength in those moments

[@15thejoker87]

+Katelin Sacco |-/ the first line is representing josh, anchoring tyler.

[@johndavies9456]

yeah mate got it in one !

[@Hummustimesu]

+drummerboy231434 :') this makes me so happy

[@olispolis24]

+drummerboy231434 it's like 2am and this comment just made me cry LOL

[@summerbarnett3520]

The way he sings feels so...raw. it almost feels like we should look away, like we're intruding on something so deeply human and personal that it's almost wrong to watch. But we need that. We need someone to create something--some piece of art that's almost disturbing in it's rawness, so we can face our own humanity too. That's what twenty one pilots has done for us. They've given us a mirror in which we can more easily view those parts of ourselves that we want to forget, but must not, and through that process, we begin to heal. Their music isn't just music anymore. It represents us--all of us, as humans, as people who've been broken and who've failed and who still find something within themselves that urges them to press on, even when the desert's dry and we've nearly forgotten what we began for.

[@needsomespace]

Summer Barnett this just made me break into tears. you said exactly what ive been thinking and wanting to say for so long 💛

[@r_ver777]

thats why i came to the comments, i cant bare to look becuz it feels too personal for him and as if im intruding

[@jg-reis]

I admit I scrolled to the comments section because watching Tyler sing was too much like intruding into someone’s pain. To think I didn’t make much of this song… but now it came alive to me.

[@Unknown-tl5ts]

Thank you so much for writing this comment. It really helped me sort out what I’ve been feeling every time I listen to this song. I knew there was something, I jut wasn’t sure what, until now.

[@CyInept]

Chill man it's good but he's just singing bro

[@entcmbed]

Ahhhhh, poor Tyler. He looks like he's on the verge of tears the whole video. This must be hard to play live.

[@yeeyee6565]

Yup

[@emmadabbs2692]

Even Josh looks like he is holding it in.

[@Lily-ws3dj]

OMG IT'S SO SAD WHEN HE TEARS UP

[@implicitdemandforpilots7546]

twenty øne piløts piercing the crybaby yeah

[@valeriashumanexperience]

so true, it hurts...

[@graceputnam6138]

the opening notes to this are just as powerful as a g note to me

[@-scotty-6321]

tbh the beginning notes of this hit me harder than the g note

[@CrescentWrench760]

Isn't is actually G/B?

[@aaronomalley1609]

No, both songs are just G chords/ notes.

[@REDSTAR726]

all these replies and im just here as the guy who doesnt know how to music

[@graceputnam6138]

oml i never said i didnt know the notes im saying they hit me juSt as hard smh

[@ScisaacFisaac]

It looks like Tyler's walking a thin line between getting really into the beat of the song, and breaking down into a sobbing fit. (Edit: three years later, after growing up a bit and going through a few things, I get it. That's exactly what's happening.)

[@animationstudio5311]

Isaac Hidalgo yes

[@sceptre80]

This is honestly a description of people (me included) listening to their music.

[@johnathanbruno2525]

No he’s just a good performer and put the emotion on required for the song

[@violetmccarley6714]

me too honestly

[@kidex9884]

@@sceptre80 same here I'm turning the fuck up but I'm also having a brakdown at the same time lol

[@jiakas_124]

nobody realizes how hard it is to play the piano while rapping/singing, especially the thing Tyler plays. you gotta appreciate how good he is at what he does

[@julezdacoolz5955]

it has a lot of dynamic changes

[@BIGBOOMBOOM69]

Any instruments not just piano

[@lyndseydavis3658]

​@@julezdacoolz5955tempo change every other time change

[@abizadddy]

you can see Tyler trying to hold himself together. and you can see Josh glancing at tyler every once in a while

[@KB-cc7yd]

My heart hurts

[@meghanhammett1435]

You can tell in not just Tyler's but in Josh's eyes too the lyrics meant something to him

[@JarblinskiAcrapony]

And looking at Tyler's mouth kind of shaking

[@sodabunny5554]

When I listen to Addict with pen, I always feel so close to Tyler for some reason. Like, we're close friends. I just feel so connected. I love them so much.

[@graciebarton8512]

me: this is a beautiful and deeply moving performance my brain: *wadur*

[@binta9]

FDHGKJDS

[@JoshTsukayama]

NOOO YOU RUINED THE SONG YOU FREAKING FREAK

[@colednotarealurl]

Hehehehe

[@wellhelltherefellwhuman4637]

@Chlørine Sippr aah I saw you recently! Can't remember where

[@wellhelltherefellwhuman4637]

I'm only at it again as an addict with a pen who's *addictAd* to the wind

[@chaosdrop7151]

I read a lot of comments that say they cried while listening, and I can't help but feel left out. I know I started to tear up the first time I heard this song, but I never cried. And as I listened to it more, it almost feels like this is the song. And by the song, I mean THE SONG. The song that can be mine, and is mine. I don't know how, but I just feel so collected and put together when listening to it. Like I wasn't scrambling in my mind for words to describe a feeling that I didn't even know, and still don't know. But now I don't care that I don't know, because someone else does. And he put it into so many words that were just right. Just the right amount. This band isn't just a band. It's an emotion. It's the feeling of understanding. It's a family.

[@CinnamonEggs]

Well, I've cried sometimes, but that is because I can see how much this song affects Tyler (and Dun). How he struggles to sing the words, it's just so emotional, that I can't help it. This is what true music sounds like l-/

[@TheLivvieLove]

i understand. like the realization and connection that some one else feels what you feel and you just start to try and describe it but someone just comes and finishes your sentence and its exactly what you wish you could say. it's like a lifted weight.

[@elisarodriguez2356]

I feel the exact same way TBH but the first time I did hear it and I mean like heard it I cried

[@artsy3130]

I don't cry to their songs even if I relate to them but I do get emotional, I just don't cry ,sometimes on the verge of tears

[@moki1547]

well of course we are, we're twenty one pilots after all.... aren't we?

[@AliM-kz7oh]

I found a drop of water............coming out of my eyes

[@samantha8929]

his voice and his words can make me feel so open...

[@jacob_massengale]

wow thats a very good description of the feeling!

[@samantha8929]

i'm glad you agree and feel the same, friend :)

[@eminek8526]

+jacob massengale was that sarcasm

[@samantha8929]

+tylerrjoseph it didnt seem like it to me

[@jacob_massengale]

tylerrjoseph no i was serious

[@19zuzi82]

You know it's serious stuff when Josh is not pulling funny faces.

[@i3ignorantidelweb43]

Yes, it makes me almost crying :_(

[@mayakerr3473]

no fr-

[@RitzToInternet]

I literally only found Twenty One Pilots 2 weeks ago and I've never been able to connect so easily to a band! They are genuine and feel they speak on such a personal level!

[@celii.k8418]

same omg

[@penguinluva1231]

+RitzToInternet this literally is me 100% the same thing lol

[@charliefaulkner1402]

+RitzToInternet welcome to the clique fren !!! |-/

[@ibabbs2001]

+RitzToInternet Happy 6 week clique anniversary |-/

[@courtneyjohnson6268]

+RitzToInternet XD Same thing here! Found them on iheartradio, and literally now have every song playing continuously on my iPod, and car radio!

[@earthtrotterjones7835]

I am 47 years old and I’ve been a fan of TOP since Car Radio and then Vessel and Blurry Face BUT then started digging deeper and this older TOP songs and lyrics are just amazing. Tyler had a special gift and such deep symbolic lyrics that are unique. I’m years deep listening to them and can’t get enough and understanding lyrics more gives me more reasons to dive deep into all older Songs.

[@earthtrotterjones7835]

not old lol never too old for awesome music :)

[@bassimprovjams3772]

It's expanding like this, that just shows age is just a number, new good.music will keep you young feeling, I'm 35 and my 13 yr old daughter loves TOP. she got me into them. I this this is as talented as it gets as far as good song writing goes

[@Pandabearmadness]

im very surprised how much ive fallen in love with this group,

[@franoi8901]

I’m 18 and uh wanna correct u there it’s TØP not TOP 😅.

[@kai-tu3mn]

@@franoi8901 yeah im 4 and im gonna agree with you there lmao

[@forestfloor]

this is so important

[@virgotime3875]

sara kangas It's important

[@nannamlgaard9888]

this saves lifes

[@shannafranna3294]

Nanna Mølgaard How?

[@kaitoric]

3,000 Subs? The lyrics. The relation. Everything.

[@shannafranna3294]

Crunched Skittles ooooooohhhhhhhhhh ok

[@MelissaBackwoods]

2:55 😩😭🙏🏼 Speechless

[@logannlovesrestoration]

Melissa Backwoods i swear, the angle cried after recording this

[@Tyler.Price18]

Melissa Miller A

[@cheytheratking266]

Just imagine him sobbing and josh coming up to comfort him. 😭😭

[@Unknown-tl5ts]

It’s amazing to see the emotions he truly puts into his music

[@taylor-tb9np]

tonmy cas yeah, it seems like he’s talking about the Lord.

[@wynncityco]

This makes me cry.

[@wynncityco]

Seeing Tyler cry - or almost cry-, added to my weeping.

[@brooksking7516]

Me too

[@kilynnhunt1594]

Mw too...😢 so beutiful

[@marie-wu8su]

I cry everytime I listen to this song

[@deb1827]

BlurryFace 19 We

[@TheWebkinztimberwolf]

this is heart breaking. Tyler looks like he's gonna cry throughout the whole video.

[@turner6666]

ikr

[@nathanmontagnani8392]

Because he sings with his soul ;)

[@elizab9217]

+Nathan Montagnani a heavy dirty one

[@Jayzoregames]

omg

[@felixrodhe8723]

|-/

[@JohannaAFlorez]

crying... this is my most important tøp song right now, you know that feeling? and the live performance is so raw...

[@JohannaAFlorez]

also because Tyler is 100% holding back tears himself.

[@JohannaAFlorez]

ohhh at the end even Josh looked emotional this video really messed me up

[@johanna4609]

It's my most important one right now too

[@oxeyesaint]

Johanna A. Florez wats the message in this song?

[@JohannaAFlorez]

I like yoghurt There's a lot to dig through because it's so full of symbolism. But it is Tyler talking to God, definitely. It seems to me Tyler is holding onto a little bit of water, God's love, in his hand, but otherwise looking inward for fulfillment. His mind is a mess and has nothing to offer him, but only makes it harder for him to reach back to God. And eventually he has to give up and beg God to take care of him. For me it's just right for all the times I know I'm not enough in myself and haven't been crying to God enough.

[@sp1d3ycide]

okay i’m emotional, but the way tyler says “the water” was just.. so cute. _”da wader!”_

[@tamaracassidy720]

tyler hoeseph addict wid a pen

[@squizaaard]

*W A D U R*

[@hannahkohl6053]

Wadur

[@chelseavalenciachairil370]

LMAO couldn't give this comment enough love

[@amalielauder782]

I hate but love at the same time when you can start to see tears forming in Tyler's eyes. This must be so hard to perform. It just breaks my heart.

[@iCalJIngTechnology]

i could watch this on loop until i die. i haven't been in the clique that long, but twenty one pilots has already made my life more tolerable. stay alive frens ( ]|||-

[@bunnies202]

|-/

[@coletrain3599]

|-/ welcome, fren

[@foranyonewhoslistening5893]

|-/

[@blaaaa930]

Stay alive fren |-/

[@carlsivanortega2498]

l-/

[@_taxi.cabb_3710]

You can just *SEE* the tears in Tyler's eyes. This must be so difficult for him. You could also just hear his trembling voice like he was going to break down. I just want to give him a hug!!!💚😢

[@toadetteremotewithwiimotio3330]

Super Idiøtic i see tears... but not Tyler’s

[@CTonefatpiglol]

At this point I can't even distinguish whose tears are those anymore...probably mine

[@azulBjort_1406]

Right, I wasn't ready for this shit 😰

[@aidansometimes]

Look at him. Wandering through that desert, across porches, torch in hand. Looking for that last bit of water to graze across his hands. Now he's built a Trench. And he isn't leaving without a fight. His jumpsuit will keep him steady. And the Trench will trap what water is still there. He made it. We made it. Stay Alive ||-//

[@bradleybeck4423]

Love this

[@gogyy_]

oh my god

[@hatchflash3088]

Stay Alive ||-//

[@ivywinter1948]

Oh, that was just, right in the feels, beautiful. Stay Alive |-/

[@francoaranda6499]

I live for this comment ||-//

[@chiararachael2807]

IM CRYING AND JOSHS ARM IS NAKED

[@wellhelltherefellwhuman4637]

Omg I just realised that

[@isabelbatiste]

That moment when your own music can make you cry. Yes, it's that powerful.

[@heyimanion3931]

But do you know which part of their music is making Ty crime?

[@heyimanion3931]

+Maria K. *cry

[@yannabijlmakers2642]

Maria K. --I try my best i think

[@yannabijlmakers2642]

Maria K. --and "wash me with your water

[@jammiebear0011]

Part of me wants to close my eyes and take in all the words but part of me just wants to watch them play.

[@rayjay9715]

same!! 😂

[@5iveThumbsUp]

Yeah same, crazy, I didnt figure other people would think like that too...

[@Mel-ze7hj]

basically yea..

[@timenuamarge4]

same

[@caitgale2831]

i have the solution: play the video twice not only can you now be blessed with the voice of a god once, but twice. |-/

[@iNREEk]

I never heard someone sing "water" with such passion and emotion :(

[@rosieclym8197]

iNREEk wadur

[@theowlhouseseason3213]

Arabians: am i joke to u

[@sope4723]

What? No. I'm not crying.. I just... Uh.. THE DROP OF WATER HE DIDN'T FIND WAS IN MY EYE.

[@ellavandenherik8428]

Greeny THAT WAS A GREAT REFERENCE I LOVED IT GOOD JOB 11/10

[@ailiab373]

Oof😭

[@Chiara-ur9mn]

Several drops of water

[@MelodyAndersoneja22]

I really love how they add in some Christian meanings into their music. As a Christian, it's cool to see how they're being influenced so much in their music. In this one, the lyrics are about a Christian coming back to God after getting so caught up in the worldly things. He says he hasn't found a drop of water or a drop of life all this time, in all these things that we put our time into that don't matter as much as we desperately want them to. So this Christian is asking God to wash him with the water, with the life that he needed so badly. I mean, regardless of whether or not you believe in God, it's alright to appreciate the beauty of these lyrics. This is just one tiny little piece of why I love these guys to death.

[@twentyonepilotfanz1558]

+Melody Anderson *Same*

[@quinnmcdonald5529]

+Melody Anderson A few of their songs are actually my favorite worship songs

[@jenniferandrade1053]

most of they're songs are deeply inspired by his religion...but he uses alot of metaphors ..which you have to break apart to see what he really means ...honestly this is one of the songs like the other guy he says i use to worship..its so deep and beautiful..

[@MelodyAndersoneja22]

***** I can't tell if you're being sarcastic or not. They're more along the lines of a band made of Christians; many of their songs have nothing to do with religion at all. This song and maybe a few others are the lone exceptions.

[@jenniferandrade1053]

+hunternellis they're personal religion is Christian...not their band!!! their band isn't classified as Christian....there's a difference..man God bless you!

[@libby4810]

I'm not crying you're cr- Ah who cares, we're all crying

[@masterg8869]

100th like on haloween I feel kewl

[@sendnudeslmao9844]

mood

[@virgotime3875]

libby True

[@virgotime3875]

Joshua Davis I CRY YOU CRY WE ALL CRY

[@moth4082]

libby same

[@renzocastillo4964]

Here after Choker. The nostalgia man...

[@cedricbn]

Same

[@shaz09219]

i feel like i come back to this every few months, it just doesn't get old

[@TK5280.]

It really doesn’t get old 💗

[@OMsBeliever]

😭

[@TobeyFairre7861]

I came back to listen to this version, the genius of this song, this band and these two transcends time. I will listen to their music for years, and I'm certain countless others will!

[@Leon-ss2uj]

Petition for them to perform all of their emotional songs like this because it just feels so personal, yknow?

[@educated_animal]

aren't all their songs emotional...?

[@Leon-ss2uj]

Ella Welsh Not exactly, a lot are though

[@harle_]

soggy pitta bread *cough* Taco Bell Saga *cough*

[@siw444n]

i would sign this

[@educated_animal]

all their songs have emotion in them, they all mean something

[@maehall730]

somebody give this man a hug and some taco bell

[@clairethepotatosoup8767]

Alex 🌮🌮🌯🌯 free tacos **bursts into tears**

[@louisadruner3934]

What about Josh???

[@666cowboy.]

@@louisadruner3934 he didn't specify witch one

[@OverlyHonestGaming]

FAST FOOOOOD GREEEAAASYYY TACCOOOOS I LOOOOVEEE!!!!!!!!!!

[@OverlyHonestGaming]

MYYYY CHAAALUUUUUPPAAAAAA

[@skeletonclique777]

THIS IS THE BEST PERFORMANCE EVER, JESUS HOW, THIS IS SO EMOTIONAL, I CAN'T, THEY WERE SO SMOL AND LOOK WHERE THEY ARE NOW, THEY ARE PLAYING SOLD OUT SHOW, THEY ARE TRAVELING AROUND THE WORLD, ISN'T IT BEAUTIFUL I could write more but I'm crying and my keyboard is getting wet, sorry *sorry, I'm rambling*

[@randycoleman668]

Same |-/

[@sofiaterese9891]

Tyler was crying during this. He’s human too. He feels pain. And he survives. You can too. ||-// Stay Alive ❤️

[@kai-tu3mn]

Stay alive, dearest fren ||-//

[@bryanfernanrabara8083]

Stay alive bro .❤

[@inesquijandria789]

Thank u

[@patriciasamaan6270]

IKRRR I’m gonna cry I love them from the bottom of my heart

[@gattenk]

Stay alive ❤️ ||-//

[@MsBeliever316]

"But you specialize in dying, you hear me screaming "father" And I'm lying here just crying, so wash me with your water"

Que asco

[@lisapauli3640]

This is the video that introduced me to twenty one pilots almost 2 years ago and Addict with a pen has been my favourite song of them ever since. It just means so much to me. And now I've come full circle. Nobody cares but I saw them live last week and they played the medley of their old songs at the b stage and I was not even 3 meters away from them when they sang this song and I almost started crying and I was screaming along to all the lyrics even though I can't rap (and I got every single world right. I'm proud of myself). Basically it was one of the best moments of my entire life. Screaming and crying along to one of my favourite songs. And now I'm sitting in bed wearing their tour merch, desperately wishing I could go back to that moment.

[@Leon-ss2uj]

Lisa Pauli I saw them on the 11th and the medley was definitely the most emotional part, I was in tears the whole time

[@oscaravendano3451]

Lisa Pauli Which old songs they played???

[@lisapauli3640]

Oscar Avendano they played the same one (I think) at every emotional roadshow performance, if you just search for 'twenty one pilots old song medley' on KZbin it will come up

[@lapis1270]

Lisa Pauli I found out about them from car radio

[@tunedtofacgce]

Found them from We Don't Believe What's On Tv.

[@houseofguns9034]

3:18-3:30 look at his eyes..LOOK AT THEM! I can only imagine what's going through his head there

[@samcifuentes7199]

I think he's blaming himself for something ,that's what I could see in his eyes ...

[@no1u-know532]

Deserts of his mind.theyre very dry.

[@magdalenak6488]

WhyI just cry?

[@aldoguitierrez5510]

Maybe he’s desperately trying to hold on to his faith. I got that from him holding onto the water and it draining then asking to be washed by his water. Holy water

[@19zuzi82]

@@samcifuentes7199 Pain, pure, unadulterated pain. I know that pain. Everyone who understands his words knows that pain. Don't wish for it, don't even wish to imagine it. Watch and listen and feel, but stay on the other side of the fence. It's ugly here.

[@RespiteofChampions]

It's so so hard when you have a song that has everyone in the band on the verge of tears when you play it. Both Tyler AND Josh are just seconds away from breaking down throughout this entire song. It's so heartbreakingly beautiful. That's how you know it comes from a genuine place.

[@NaniNyan101]

Is no one talking about how choked up Josh was at the end. It broke my heart. This song means so much to me. It basically describes the state of my faith last year at around this time. I go to a Christian school, and I always felt a struggle when connecting and finding God. And by the end of the summer, I was just desperate. I hadn't found a drop of life, of Him. But by the end of the school year, my junior year, I felt less alone. I surrounded myself with friends of the faith and I found the water I was looking for. Every time I hear this song I wanna break down because it hits so hard at home; I cry out of anguish but also of joy of being washed by His water finally. I still struggle, but I do feel less alone.

[@indigogo5925]

don't you mean tyler? o.o josh was chill just rocking out

[@notaparsnip6316]

No look at Josh's fave at the end. The last shot of him he looks like he could cry. It seems like the live versions do that to both of them.

[@notaparsnip6316]

*face

[@indigogo5925]

Ohhh okay

[@indigogo5925]

*****​jfc quit trying to convert people

[@aubreyfuss8703]

I think this is one of the most emotional versions of addict with a pen on the internet. It makes me cry almost every time. There is just so much emotion in Tyler’s voice and both of them look on the verge of tears. This version is perfect for when you are feeling lost or down. Stay Alive frens |-/

[@jordanjames6851]

🙏

[@neonice]

Very true, I'm still coming back to this every once in a while after 7y

[@dayanaromero13]

Got this knot in my throat 😂😢

[@mahiyashah9829]

He sings with so much emotion I just can't

[@madam-mint]

Commented on this 8 years ago. This would be the go-to loop song when depressive episodes happened. Several years of therapy later…I love being alive again. I’m somewhere I never thought I’d be. Stay alive. Please.

[@NitrogenJake]

tyler's piano has been to more places than me.....

[@wutwashy2174]

Me too lol I’m such a coach potato

[@_Kid_King_]

This is so underated

[@chrisari101]

@@_Kid_King_ 721 likes...

[@_Kid_King_]

@@chrisari101 ok? the comment had less then. you want a trophy?

[@chrisari101]

@@_Kid_King_ Did you wanna a trophy of the most annoying and toxic one?

[@kittiecandy747]

he's so young it breaks my heart.. and the fact that he wrote this when he was even younger lor d give me strength

[@pippab.1500]

true.

[@eminek8526]

22 is young? Most people go through depression (are depressed) at that age or younger

[@zee9035]

but age really doesn't matter. It's amazing how he can put those feelings in these words.

[@analeephillips3855]

When I found out about twenty one pilots last summer, I was struggling with anorexia and self-harm. My dad had just passed and I had no idea what to do. The first song I listened to from them was House of Gold and I looked more into them. I found this song and this was the song that helped me the most. Something about it made me realize my worth and i'm much better now. I'm still struggling, but Tyler and Josh are making me want to keep going. Stay alive, frens |-/

[@eileensullivan3642]

You too, fren |-/

[@kristoferzubia1212]

hey we all go through depression its only normal...i struggled through depression...hell I still am but I'm better now because of them ...I struggled with self harm and insomnia ever since my dad left and this song....specifically helps cus it makes me feel worth ..and it reminds me of my mom and my mom is an only mother and she makes me happy ...stay strong u can make it |-/

[@analeephillips3855]

Kristofer Zubia stay alive fren |-/

[@SNIPERBLADES247]

My condolences

[@tirza9520]

^^

[@Stats4nerds]

I know I`m going to be eighty years old and I`ll still be listening to twenty one pilots and they`ll still be my favourite band

[@prettyoddbagofbones3121]

Same. I’ll be 80 and covered in my top, fob, and panic tattoos lol

[@peachhblood6011]

can u be my grandpa pls

[@crusadervfx]

@@peachhblood6011 he might die if you become 9

[@Justinejelliebean]

Feel that 😭❤

[@lyndseydavis3658]

Omg that's so awesome lol

[@howfarissaturn]

HOW ARE THEY SO TALENTED I AM ACTUALLY GOING TO PUNCH MYSELF IN THE FACE. tyler was a suicidal teen who didn't think he would live past 18. he's 28 now and performing sold out venues all over the world performing songs he wrote in his parents basement with his best friend. if that doesn't say it will be okay, tomorrow will be better, I don't know what will.

[@antonionsfw]

:((( i love him i just want to hug everyone that isn’t okay.

[@oikawaseyebrow391]

Same

[@_taxi.cabb_3710]

But now he is 30! He has lived another day! Happy birthday Tyler! ❤

[@jessicariordan1820]

Every time I hear this song I cry because I just remember when I saw them performing this live and Tyler seemed as if he was about to break down and I started crying. It was such an amazing experience

[@loco0311latino]

I was the same way when I saw them live. Had my hand in my chest the whole song.

[@uglydawgy]

It's called Concert Post Depression bruh

[@LexiWiggles]

Even Josh looks emotional, the concert I was at back in October everyone was crying, including myself, during this song and we started this huge group hug thing. It was amazing.

[@asmin9927]

Every live performance I've seen online, Josh is almost crying, more than Tyler to be honest. I don't know what this song was written about but I think Josh really connects with it on an emotional level.

[@ryanrutledge1719]

fandomsvsmuggles it's about crying out to God for help. The bible talks about the desires of worldly things being as useless as the chasing of the wind going back and forth back and forth accomplishing nothing. He's in the desert holding onto the water he has but desperately needs more. "I know we haven't talked in quite some time. I know I haven't been the best of sons." is the about prayer and living the way a son of God should live. Its a very deep song and that's why it bleeds the emotion that it does. Awesome song

[@heatherparks8469]

The raw emotion in Tyler's face is what really gets me. These songs aren't just words. They mean something to Tyler and to Josh and by sharing these songs with the world it can mean something to other people. I find it very easy to relate to tøp's songs and they become personal to me because of that. This band is something special.

[@ayaelhalawany4603]

Is it just me or do these two angels seem to find their way into our lives when we need it most. Some how, some way, we end up back with them again. Its amazing. I find myself listening to a certain song of theirs and no matter what song, everytime, it speaks to me. The clique is like a family to me. I'm so glad I wandered into it because I dont know what I would do without it. Without you guys. Without Tyler and Josh. Thank you. So much. ||-// Stay alive frens ♡♡♡

[@kristindyas6073]

Yes

[@Watthexe0815]

Same here

[@annalicon2037]

That awkward moment when you realize Tyler pressed the g note at the end of the song and it physically hurts your heart

[@kjerstihaaland1286]

i'm crying bc of this video and now I'm laughing my ass off thank you i guess

[@campbellssoupcan1369]

it's a different octave so it doesn't hurt as much but i'm already crying from this song so what's the difference

[@themaster.8143]

Anna Licon what does it mean

[@Samuel-tt6db]

THE MASTER. Welcome to the black parade

[@xxB4J4BL4STxx]

Anna Licon I was already crying...oh well

[@sofdrink]

I used to like this band a lot, my music tastes changed a lot and I haven't listened to them since. I knew this song was concerned with trying to find one's faith and being lost without religion. I've been struggling with this a lot recently so I came back and listened to this. It's a beautiful song and I can really connect to a lot of these lyrics about losing one's faith. It's helped me.

[@iriskartman7967]

there are only a certain number of people who can understand people's love for this band's music - the fighters, the survivors...

[@coletrain3599]

Well put :)

[@scraphappy51185]

+Iris Kartman As someone who has always felt different, with a feeling of being "outside looking in", I connect with their lyrics. I've also suffered from depression. Only someone who has lived through that darkness can appreciate these songs.

[@TheWebkinztimberwolf]

"only few understand" :)

[@jaydenisameme9494]

+BENTLY_KINZ YESSS

[@rimsha999]

|-/

[@Meow-Meow501]

I’ve returned to this song hundreds of times by now. Thought I should finally leave a comment. If you find yourself here, know that you are not alone. ❤

[@luag1783]

so weird to see josh's arm without all the tatoos

[@liamturner6424]

and without his hair being dyed and stuff

[@aussieotaku9196]

he is naked

[@cloudwinchester0903]

I know he looks so naked without his tats and bright hair

[@mallorypallory7176]

EmoQuartetHydra he looks so clean but sad

[@S3CT0R49]

I hate being a fan that found out about them because of "stressed out". I wish i knew them longer but oh well

[@kylee8138]

That's exactly how I feel

[@emilryland5134]

Same

[@kixieschiano2089]

it doesn't matter from how long you're here.You're here.

[@CinnamonEggs]

That was my exact thought, too. I saw all these tøp "fans" on different youtube videos saying that people who heard of tøp through stressed out wasn't real fans and only used that song to be "cool":.. I hated to be a tøp fan at first, but I just began to focus on their music. There are many "old fans" who think they own Josh and Tyler. Those type of persons are in every "fandom".. It's so sad, but just focus on their music, and ignore those crazy "old fans" :D

[@maddiesaurous2451]

it's nothing to be ashamed of. stressed out is a great song, in fact, i'm glad you found them in the first place. they are a great band that has helped, and continues to help many people. |-/

[@themikebliss]

I remember when I first watched this video it had somewhere around 20,000 views and now it's well over 1 million. I still love this version of Addict With A Pen so much. These guys deserve every bit of fame and success that they get and I'm so glad that they've grown so much since I first came across them. I just hope that people in the future won't just see them as a band with a few songs on the radio. These guys have always poured their hearts into their music and I don't believe that will ever change.

[@user-ff5yl5mf7i]

they deserve everything, truly everything.

[@grizzi0789]

I just can't believe our boys were 22 here

[@britneycampbell4945]

Waaaait... I never even thought about this. They are younger than me in this video, is crazy to think

[@grizzi0789]

@@britneycampbell4945 ikr!

[@arianarodriguez3]

All the pain in Tyler's face kills me. And then towards the end you can hear it in his voice and damn. I love you both so much ❤

[@lmc6738]

*nodds head* twinkle twinkle

[@Mazadepizza]

same

[@yomaster720]

what is this song about ? like i can tell half from the lyrics but is it about someone he knows ?

[@swervydervy9177]

+Vimto_Splash God. It's about God.

[@yomaster720]

really?

[@colonelcrackerz2320]

Yeah it's about a part in Tyler's life when he felt far away from God; as though he'd been deserted, hence: 'we haven't talked in quite some time' & 'I haven't found a drop of you'. But he comes back around an re-kindles his faith. Check this out for the whole explanation: genius.com/Twenty-one-pilots-addict-with-a-pen-lyrics

[@nomaam2400]

thanks ty for reminding us to stay hydrated

[@socnfusing]

My favourite song from self-titled This is gorgeous

[@SlayerPrincess]

this is literally one of the most beautiful, real, and soulful songs I've ever heard.

[@vega1617]

I never wanted to hug someone so bad ever

[@jasonsewerynski5622]

Hello We haven't talked in quite some time I know I haven't been the best Of sons Hello I've been traveling in The desert of my mind And I Haven't found a drop Of life I haven't found a drop Of you I haven't found a drop I haven't found a drop Of water Water I try desperately to run through the sand As I hold the water In the palm of my hand Cause it's all that I have And it's all that I need and The waves of the water Mean nothing to me But I try my best And all that I can to Hold tightly onto What's left in my hand But no matter how How tightly I will strain The sand will slow me down And the water will drain I'm just being dramatic In fact, I'm only at it again As an addict with a pen Who's addicted to the wind As it blows me back and forth Mindless, spineless, and pretend Of course I'll be here again See you tomorrow But it's the end of today End of my ways As a walking denial My trial was filed as a crazy Suicidal head case But you specialize in dying You hear me screaming, "Father," And I'm lying here just crying So wash me with your water Water Hello We haven't talked in quite some time I know I haven't been the best Of sons Hello I've been traveling in The desert of my mind And I I haven't found a drop Of life I haven't found a drop Of you I haven't found a drop I haven't found a drop Of water

[@sabrinadeberry1857]

Love

[@Unknown-tl5ts]

Thank you💛💛

[@19zuzi82]

I mean, do people realize that this little dude is a POET?

[@blackroseofnight4760]

This song is waaaaaayyyyy better than the one on the album.....I love love LOVE this version!!!

[@maria-ls6mt]

it hurts my heart that he was so sad i just want to hug him and tell him everything's ok and the clique loves him i'm crying so hard

[@leat.7187]

ツmaria it Sure is. Keep smiling

[@cindybronico2786]

One of the most raw, emotion-filled, HONEST songs about God I've heard

[@savannahlevy97]

I know. I hope one day someone just tells him that everything's ok, to just keep holding onto that faith.

[@davidsilvestre5222]

have you heard jake mcelfresh (front porch step) sing live? It gives me chills on how emotional his singing is.

[@savannahlevy97]

david silvestre no, but I'll look it up. ^-^

[@Christyyyytyyyyyyy]

Cindy Dunn I never thought about it that way and honestly it makes me tear up a bit seeing it from that perspective.

[@eugenecaudill5361]

The thing I love most about music is ambiguity. Tyler never actually says he's talking to God. It's just heavily implied. The ambiguity is what makes this song so good, though. It leaves the meaning up to the listeners interpretation. For instance. I actually place myself in this song, and rather a conversation with God, I have this conversation with my own father. He passed back in January, and there was a lot left unsaid between he and I. A lot that will never be said, and that's fine because I've found solace in this song.

[@toaadam]

You can tell that Tyler gets emotional. It's rare that an artist can get so connected with music like this. It's amazing.

[@mariefrg3226]

Hello We haven't talked in quite some time I know I haven't been the best Of sons, hello, I've been traveling in the desert of my mind And I Haven't found a drop Of life I haven't found a drop Of you, I haven't found a drop I haven't found a drop Of water Water I try desperately to run through the sand As I hold the water in the palm of my hand 'Cause it's all that I have and it's all that I need and The waves of the water mean nothing to me But I try my best and all that I can To hold tightly onto what's left in my hand But no matter how, how tightly I will strain The sand will slow me down and the water will drain I'm just being dramatic, in fact, I'm only at it again As an addict with a pen, who's addicted to the wind As it blows me back and forth, mindless, spineless, and pretend Of course I'll be here again, see you tomorrow, but it's the end of today End of my ways as a walking denial My trial was filed as a crazy suicidal head case But you specialize in dying, you hear me screaming "father" And I'm lying here just crying, so wash me with your water Water Hello I haven't talked in quite some time I know I haven't been the best Of sons, hello, I've been traveling in the desert of my mind And I I haven't found a drop Of life I haven't found a drop Of you I haven't found a drop I haven't found a drop Of water

[@aniceperson1910]

Thanks fren!

[@abriil5265]

Gracias por la letra capx

[@mariefrg3226]

No problem guys! (:

[@klajwh0681]

He says, the suns so low and I've been traveling in the desert in my mind. And he still hasn't found a drop of water

[@frizzyneyo9110]

@@klajwh0681 I know I haven’t been the best of sons, though I’ve been traveling the desert of my mind, I haven’t found a drop...

[@KylieChip]

I love how this is so raw. you can hear little mistakes and it's so beautiful to have a reminder that not everything is perfect. the small cracks in his voice and wrong piano keys just make them one of the best bands from this generation. they are real.

[@meghanhammett1435]

At around 3:20 he looked up after the part talking about God...

[@linyousef9887]

ItsAMe I think he looked up couple times so his tears don’t drop from his eyes ..💔

[@kaitoric]

lin yousef Do you know that he's Christian..?

[@AndrewKlaassen]

Lol this whole song is about being a Christian

[@orca6620]

Yep

[@aliaaabdo5711]

And at 0:35 also

[@kileym.6530]

These are actual tears in my eyes

[@kymott9178]

Oh my god.... my name is literally Kiley M. 😂

[@kyndallaws3657]

Kiley M. I guess you could say your eyes are having a... Northern Downpour

[@Shirley-xe9pj]

It's absolutely beautiful to see how much Tyler and Josh have grown. absolutely beautiful.

[@Sarah.kinnunen]

I would say this band has saved my life... But that's not quite right. Twenty Øne Pilots has given me the courage to stay alive. Everyone says, "Sarah, he sounds like he's whining. Why are you playing the piano in class? Can you stop singing honestly, you sing everyday. Can you take those earbuds out?" They say these things because they don't understand that without this music I wouldn't be here to write this comment. I hide my emotions, let them ball up. With Twenty One Pilots, I don't feel so... Hopeless. Forlorn. This music has given me the solace I need! They ask why I listen to a guy who sounds like he's whining. I reply, because it's what's keeping me alive. They take it as a joke and giggle. Seriously. Don't make fun of the clique |-/

[@halliesmith4659]

That's like me, I build a shell around me with music, I've become distant. It's almost like I'm not really here but in my own world, I love it. I love the way his music makes me feel. I feel like I can do it and belong here and continue and I have a purpose. I connect with his music more than I have a person and I think he's awesome for giving me an outlet to portray my emotions

[@Sarah.kinnunen]

+Hallie Smith Exactly me. Some people would take it as a bad thing but honestly I'd rtather have it be this way than be 'normal'.

[@jaydenisameme9494]

Well singing in public around others is pretty annoying NGL.

[@Sarah.kinnunen]

+ElephantOnAHill Too true tbh.

[@Sarah.kinnunen]

+ElephantOnAHill I actually have stage fright so yeah 😂

[@SydneydlC]

you can literally hear the emotion being bled out of the song,,, it's almost overwhelming, and never fails to bring me to tears. so much talent, so much meaning.

[@lillyjones1146]

Really, twenty one pilots is one of the few bands (like Placebo/Elliot Smith) that speaks my soul on a level that only few can.

[@vdmchar]

yes, same here

[@HickoryDickory86]

+Lilly Jones Yep! I freely admit that I was introduced to them with "Stressed Out." I liked it so much I started watching every video and listening to every song they've put out. I immediately fell in love with them. Their music sings to my soul. :')

[@kellanl.7878]

+HickoryDickory86 Exactly what happened to me and I am grateful

[@christopherblaess98]

+HickoryDickory86 same here

[@ducky1870]

+HickoryDickory86 Me too!

[@Limoneaid819]

I know I’m a little late but I’ve been listening to a lot of their older songs and I just wanna say on the line “My trial was filed as a crazy suicidal head case, but you specials in dying, you hear me screaming father, and I’m lying here just crying so wash me with your water” every time I hear that line I burst into tears because that line to me symbolizes he’s talking to God. As a Christian who deals with depression anxiety ect and just finding peace in God calling out to him in my pain it really resonates with me ❤️

[@heartbreakinstreo]

me too you're not alone

[@ajcarter7120]

I still watch their performances for the music but sometimes I just read comments and it helps me feel understood. Thanks for your story I hope everything is going well. I’ve been dealing with thoughts like that for a long time and am Christian as well. It’s hard to feel much of anything especially Gods love with depression, but it does make faith stronger and it makes the times you can feel it that much better. Stay alive ||-//

[@ajcarter7120]

I still watch their performances for the music but sometimes I just read comments and it helps me feel understood. Thanks for your story I hope everything is going well. I’ve been dealing with thoughts like that for a long time and am Christian as well. It’s hard to feel much of anything especially Gods love with depression, but it does make faith stronger and it makes the times you can feel it that much better. Stay alive ||-//

[@fetamean]

twenty one pilots has already climbed to the top of my favorite bands of all time list. I don't think they're my #1, but goddamn. I'm addicted to every single song that I've heard. They're so well written, emotional, heartfelt, and just all around enjoyable to listen to.

[@kaydenboschlopez769]

The best part about this band is that their songs are written by them from past experiences and real feeling they have. When they perform and get emotional you feel the connection even from just watching it on KZbin. Can you imagine the feeling in person ? TØP will forever be my favorite band

[@seanm5576]

I am an atheist, and this song has hit me hard. I understand what he is saying in this song. I was raised a christian and lost my faith and can never seem to find God. But i'm trying to, I need help.

[@aliej8046]

+John Doe Some people loose their faith when they have doubts about God. Are you having doubts?

[@seanm5576]

Alice Jesse I have been living as an atheist for about 2 years now, and I'm not sure what to believe anymore

[@aliej8046]

I guess there is nothing wrong with that. I know I have lost touch with God but some how I found my way back. I think it is really about how people personally interpret things and what they have taken in from the bible and sermons. I mean I'm not trying to convert you or anything so I hope you don't feel pressured by it. Have you been to church at all since? because sometimes it's maybe that you don't like how the church does things because I believe you have to feel comfortable in a church to take in the message. or is it something else?

[@Revieweverything100]

+Sean M I know you posted this a couple of weeks ago, but I just wanted to encourage you as you're seeking. I've been there a number of times where God feels so distant, but the truth of the matter is that so often we build portray Christianity as a religion of feelings. "Do I feel Jesus?" and when we don't feel Him all of sudden we're lost and confused. But when you look at Scripture, nobody ever builds there relationship with Christ off of feelings. 1 John 5 says "I write these so that you *know* you have eternal life." Sometimes, God may feel far away, but our comfort is that because of what His Son did for us on the cross and rising from the dead, God no longer is far away from the one who trusts Jesus alone for salvation. I'll be praying for you as you seek. Just know that even when God feels far off, not to look to your feelings, but to look to the truth of His word.

[@seanm5576]

+Revieweverything100 Thank you so much, I cant even explain to you how much this reply meant.

[@colbyjohnson3793]

He's holding back tears the whole time and his voice still sounds amazing :(

[@csby42000]

It's 3 A.M. And I can't sleep because the depression and anxiety, until I play this the everything is right with life.

[@crazysuicidalheadcase]

I hope you are better now.

[@sarahdaniele6673]

Caius Ayouby it’s 3:07 am. 2 years later, and i’m living the same thing as you did 2 years ago

[@illumiiii]

Let's not remind each other our worst nightmare.

[@flymind2964]

I hope that now your state of you mind is more better Stay alive

[@theowlhouseseason3213]

Hey, fren, where are you? Are you okay?

[@Lausaurine]

Something felt off when I saw Josh, and half an hour later I realised HIS SKIN IS SO NAKED Am I the only one that feels like Tyler helped Josh being less shy and help him to have to confidence to do what he wants even if it's different without fearing being judged (meaning the hair, the tattoo, the way of playing now, etc) ? I just love them so much

[@KillianDeaton]

trust me, Josh has only played what he wants, it's just that he never wants to overstep Tyler and what he's doing. Coming from a drummer myself, that's the ultimate rule of drumming set aside stay on time. It just happens to be that Blurryface is all chaos so he can play in according to that.

[@Lausaurine]

+Killian Deaton of course he does what he wants, but I think Tyler helped him build the confidence to do what he wants to do even if it's different, you don't see people with mohawks and bright hair everyday

[@Rain.Mippet]

+Killian Deaton why is that a , I watch drum covers solely because the drums are superimposed, at concerts what do you feel in your chest? the kickdrum.

[@Rain.Mippet]

+SeaHottie12 yesss, they are platonic soul mates! I tell people that all the time!

[@MrOphen]

This are real artists. They express they're emotions and meaning so good, I'm glad that they made it to the radio

[@Noelia768]

It's impossible not to cry to this song. These guys are incredible, they do great things without effort, and they don't care to be heard or have fans, or follow stereotypes, they really feel what they do, I can see it clearly. And it feels beautiful

[@jacobfrank2164]

Amazing. I feel every nuance of emotion in this man as he sits there pouring his heart out to the universe. I bet he felt alone in the few minutes while he was singing this song. NO! I HEARD YOU BROTHER! I HEARD YOUR CRIES, AND YOUR SILENCES. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@月-l3i1p]

Tyler shakes his head to keep from crying

[@tylerjsephismymmjshismydad1582]

no

[@月-l3i1p]

Actually no he doesn't I found out it's just the music "running through him" I think he was holding back tears this time tho

[@leonbrian2946]

no its not its too keep the bad thought out

[@myles9652]

it has to do with like anxiety attacks, it's a way to cope with them

[@kaitoric]

some people twitch to stop anxiety attacks. that's most likely why he does it.

[@ProfessionalLifeRuin]

this was the first performance i heard of this song and now im watching it almost a year later im crying

[@sofiecrews]

I was watching life performances and acoustic sessions all giddy and happy, I accidentally clicked on this and my entire mood changed. I love this song so much.

[@laurasavage9874]

Hey this is in 2018 ☺️... lol... anyways if you notice in most of his performances of addict with a pen Tyler always looks up at the sky. I think he’s trying to communicate with God. Ik it’s prob weird for people who aren’t religious, but for me it makes a lot of sense. He’s crying to God, “and you specialize in dying you hear me screaming father and I’m lying here just crying so wash me with your water” I feel like now in most of his performances, (yes he probably still has a lot of struggles) but now he found purpose, he found a way to live through life. He isn’t hurting as much as he used to (I’m sure singing this song brings back a lot of bad memories, in fact I’m sure singing a lot of his older songs do)so I think while singing this song he’s so appreciative to God for letting him live on, and get through his struggles to be able to preform that song for thousands of people. Idk it’s just something I noticed and I can relate to it. Anyways this was long but it was on my heart I hope you have an amazing day! Stay alive!! ||-// Edit: 0:33

[@JoaoAlves-wb4rr]

I think he can't believe in God but is asking for help anyway. The part you citate is he asking for help and the part he says" I'm haven't found a drop of water" water is faith in him. Oh well, Im not Catholic or anything but it is what I think of this lyrics

[@alicetoniian7432]

@@JoaoAlves-wb4rr I liked the line of yours "I`m nor Catholic or anything" You can believe in God and don`t be Catholic... or anything))

[@bananaperson7020]

@@alicetoniian7432 lol who cares, you knew what they meant... maybe dude thinks they are Catholic, or maybe he doesn't know the difference because he wasn't raisied into any religion. Sorry, I normally don't bother posting but people make mistakes all the time. You're probably younger, my advice is to pick your battles thoughtfully or you'll be fighting and unhappy for a lot of your life. 🙂

[@alicetoniian7432]

@@bananaperson7020 oh man. true.

[@sophie-pq5rq]

to me this is a prayer of desperation and it resounds so deeply

[@theductductgoose]

I'll start this by saying that I am not Christian. And yet, this song brings me to tears every damn time. The connection and faith that he has with God and the familial way he talks to Him. How he talks about straying away from his faith and begging to be taken back, and asking for help in doing so. Idk man, it just moves me in such an amazing way, it's hard to put into words.

[@tristanrose6727]

this song not only makes me think of my recovery, but my mother and how hard she fought so hard to keep me off drugs before she passed in september; but like the sand, it always fell through the palms of my hands...

[@wellhelltherefellwhuman4637]

3:11 wow. Just wow. It just shows how real his lyrics are, they're so emotional and I think that's what we all need. We've become desensitised by our own feelings and thoughts. Tyler sings about them for us which makes the connection between us and him so strong. Tyler and Josh are legends, angels and heroes. A hero isn't someone who stops someone from killing themselves, it's someone who tells them that they will help you through it all and actually does. These two are heroes.