UG Studios session "Addict With A Pen" by Twenty One Pilots

A UG Studios session with Twenty One Pilots. This is an acoustic version of their song "Addict With A Pen".

[@entcmbed]

Ahhhhh, poor Tyler. He looks like he's on the verge of tears the whole video. This must be hard to play live.

[@yeeyee6565]

Yup

[@emmadabbs2692]

Even Josh looks like he is holding it in.

[@Lily-ws3dj]

OMG IT'S SO SAD WHEN HE TEARS UP

[@implicitdemandforpilots7546]

twenty øne piløts piercing the crybaby yeah

[@valeriashumanexperience]

so true, it hurts...

[@lmc6738]

*nodds head* twinkle twinkle

[@Mazadepizza]

same

[@yomaster720]

what is this song about ? like i can tell half from the lyrics but is it about someone he knows ?

[@swervydervy9177]

+Vimto_Splash God. It's about God.

[@yomaster720]

really?

[@colonelcrackerz2320]

Yeah it's about a part in Tyler's life when he felt far away from God; as though he'd been deserted, hence: 'we haven't talked in quite some time' & 'I haven't found a drop of you'. But he comes back around an re-kindles his faith. Check this out for the whole explanation: genius.com/Twenty-one-pilots-addict-with-a-pen-lyrics

[@romeomaldonado1310]

Anyone in 2024?

[@lomaxo3978]

I’m with you bro! Wish you all the best…

[@wahwahster]

Obviously

[@ninjaeniu3097]

Of course

[@Insideleagueofpsychos]

here after watching them play self titled tracks at the bowery

[@Laae934]

Me❤

[@19zuzi82]

You know it's serious stuff when Josh is not pulling funny faces.

[@i3ignorantidelweb43]

Yes, it makes me almost crying :_(

[@mayakerr3473]

no fr-

[@MelodyAndersoneja22]

I really love how they add in some Christian meanings into their music. As a Christian, it's cool to see how they're being influenced so much in their music. In this one, the lyrics are about a Christian coming back to God after getting so caught up in the worldly things. He says he hasn't found a drop of water or a drop of life all this time, in all these things that we put our time into that don't matter as much as we desperately want them to. So this Christian is asking God to wash him with the water, with the life that he needed so badly. I mean, regardless of whether or not you believe in God, it's alright to appreciate the beauty of these lyrics. This is just one tiny little piece of why I love these guys to death.

[@twentyonepilotfanz1558]

+Melody Anderson *Same*

[@quinnmcdonald5529]

+Melody Anderson A few of their songs are actually my favorite worship songs

[@jenniferandrade1053]

most of they're songs are deeply inspired by his religion...but he uses alot of metaphors ..which you have to break apart to see what he really means ...honestly this is one of the songs like the other guy he says i use to worship..its so deep and beautiful..

[@MelodyAndersoneja22]

***** I can't tell if you're being sarcastic or not. They're more along the lines of a band made of Christians; many of their songs have nothing to do with religion at all. This song and maybe a few others are the lone exceptions.

[@jenniferandrade1053]

+hunternellis they're personal religion is Christian...not their band!!! their band isn't classified as Christian....there's a difference..man God bless you!

[@serenityclark13]

I CAN SEE TYLER STRUGGLING TO KEEP HIS EMOTIONS CONTAINED IM LITERALLY CRYING

[@brookiewantsacookie_]

Serenity Clark 😭😭😭

[@NFan_37]

Serenity Clark me too

[@andrewjoseph3404]

Why didn't they just let him shout, it's easier for him that way.

[@sophie-xl4vs]

people need to feel the emotion in music

[@arzooey]

Serenity Clark it makes me wanna Burst into TEARS

[@graciebarton8512]

me: this is a beautiful and deeply moving performance my brain: *wadur*

[@punchy99]

FDHGKJDS

[@JoshTsukayama]

NOOO YOU RUINED THE SONG YOU FREAKING FREAK

[@colednotarealurl]

Hehehehe

[@wellhelltherefellwhuman4637]

@Chlørine Sippr aah I saw you recently! Can't remember where

[@wellhelltherefellwhuman4637]

I'm only at it again as an addict with a pen who's *addictAd* to the wind

[@renzocastillo4964]

Here after Choker. The nostalgia man...

[@cedricbn]

Same

[@shaizaqamar8204]

i feel like i come back to this every few months, it just doesn't get old

[@TK5280.]

It really doesn’t get old 💗

[@OMsBeliever]

😭

[@TobeyFairre7861]

I came back to listen to this version, the genius of this song, this band and these two transcends time. I will listen to their music for years, and I'm certain countless others will!

[@drummerboy231434]

For some reason it wasn't til this video that I realized how important Josh was to the band. Like Tyler always said Josh made the band who they are today but I always thought "yeah, hes a great and tight drummer, but there are so many other good drummers too". But just seeing the emotion Josh puts into his playing and the unspoken chemistry between the two... You can just feel that these two were meant to play music together.

[@blackkatmuzic]

+drummerboy231434 what really gets me is the way Tyler looks over at Josh especially during those really emotional bits and instrumentals and you just feel its because he's desperately holding on to him, Josh is anchoring him in that moment and they've been through so much together that they both just understand and seeing one another and being around each other is all Tyler needs to grasp the strength in those moments

[@15thejoker87]

+Katelin Sacco |-/ the first line is representing josh, anchoring tyler.

[@johndavies9456]

yeah mate got it in one !

[@Hummustimesu]

+drummerboy231434 :') this makes me so happy

[@olispolis24]

+drummerboy231434 it's like 2am and this comment just made me cry LOL

[@maisyxx17]

I just feel the need to point out that josh looks just as emotional as Tyler does and he really is just as important as Tyler is to this band

[@calumcooper6841]

thank you.

[@thotiana59]

I love you.

[@liligravando9126]

Thank you

[@peepwentz6968]

I LOVE YOU THANK YOU

[@thatredblob2004]

i saw it at the end of the vid-FCK

[@summerbarnett3520]

The way he sings feels so...raw. it almost feels like we should look away, like we're intruding on something so deeply human and personal that it's almost wrong to watch. But we need that. We need someone to create something--some piece of art that's almost disturbing in it's rawness, so we can face our own humanity too. That's what twenty one pilots has done for us. They've given us a mirror in which we can more easily view those parts of ourselves that we want to forget, but must not, and through that process, we begin to heal. Their music isn't just music anymore. It represents us--all of us, as humans, as people who've been broken and who've failed and who still find something within themselves that urges them to press on, even when the desert's dry and we've nearly forgotten what we began for.

[@needsomespace]

Summer Barnett this just made me break into tears. you said exactly what ive been thinking and wanting to say for so long 💛

[@r_ver777]

thats why i came to the comments, i cant bare to look becuz it feels too personal for him and as if im intruding

[@jg-reis]

I admit I scrolled to the comments section because watching Tyler sing was too much like intruding into someone’s pain. To think I didn’t make much of this song… but now it came alive to me.

[@Unknown-tl5ts]

Thank you so much for writing this comment. It really helped me sort out what I’ve been feeling every time I listen to this song. I knew there was something, I jut wasn’t sure what, until now.

[@CyInept]

Chill man it's good but he's just singing bro

[@jiakas_124]

nobody realizes how hard it is to play the piano while rapping/singing, especially the thing Tyler plays. you gotta appreciate how good he is at what he does

[@julezdacoolz5955]

it has a lot of dynamic changes

[@BIGBOOMBOOM69]

Any instruments not just piano

[@lyndseydavis3658]

​@@julezdacoolz5955tempo change every other time change

[@wynncityco]

This makes me cry.

[@wynncityco]

Seeing Tyler cry - or almost cry-, added to my weeping.

[@brooksking7516]

Me too

[@kilynnhunt1594]

Mw too...😢 so beutiful

[@marie-wu8su]

I cry everytime I listen to this song

[@deb1827]

BlurryFace 19 We

[@graceputnam6138]

the opening notes to this are just as powerful as a g note to me

[@-scotty-6321]

tbh the beginning notes of this hit me harder than the g note

[@CrescentWrench760]

Isn't is actually G/B?

[@aaronomalley1609]

No, both songs are just G chords/ notes.

[@REDSTAR726]

all these replies and im just here as the guy who doesnt know how to music

[@graceputnam6138]

oml i never said i didnt know the notes im saying they hit me juSt as hard smh

[@sp1d3ycide]

okay i’m emotional, but the way tyler says “the water” was just.. so cute. _”da wader!”_

[@tamaracassidy720]

tyler hoeseph addict wid a pen

[@squizaaard]

*W A D U R*

[@hannahkohl6053]

Wadur

[@chelseavalenciachairil370]

LMAO couldn't give this comment enough love

[@grizzi0789]

I just can't believe our boys were 22 here

[@britneycampbell4945]

Waaaait... I never even thought about this. They are younger than me in this video, is crazy to think

[@grizzi0789]

@@britneycampbell4945 ikr!

[@chaosdrop7151]

I read a lot of comments that say they cried while listening, and I can't help but feel left out. I know I started to tear up the first time I heard this song, but I never cried. And as I listened to it more, it almost feels like this is the song. And by the song, I mean THE SONG. The song that can be mine, and is mine. I don't know how, but I just feel so collected and put together when listening to it. Like I wasn't scrambling in my mind for words to describe a feeling that I didn't even know, and still don't know. But now I don't care that I don't know, because someone else does. And he put it into so many words that were just right. Just the right amount. This band isn't just a band. It's an emotion. It's the feeling of understanding. It's a family.

[@CinnamonEggs]

Well, I've cried sometimes, but that is because I can see how much this song affects Tyler (and Dun). How he struggles to sing the words, it's just so emotional, that I can't help it. This is what true music sounds like l-/

[@TheLivvieLove]

i understand. like the realization and connection that some one else feels what you feel and you just start to try and describe it but someone just comes and finishes your sentence and its exactly what you wish you could say. it's like a lifted weight.

[@elisarodriguez2356]

I feel the exact same way TBH but the first time I did hear it and I mean like heard it I cried

[@artsy3130]

I don't cry to their songs even if I relate to them but I do get emotional, I just don't cry ,sometimes on the verge of tears

[@moki1547]

well of course we are, we're twenty one pilots after all.... aren't we?

[@libby4810]

I'm not crying you're cr- Ah who cares, we're all crying

[@masterg8869]

100th like on haloween I feel kewl

[@sendnudeslmao9844]

mood

[@virgotime3875]

libby True

[@virgotime3875]

Joshua Davis I CRY YOU CRY WE ALL CRY

[@moth4082]

libby same

[@_taxi.cabb_3710]

You can just *SEE* the tears in Tyler's eyes. This must be so difficult for him. You could also just hear his trembling voice like he was going to break down. I just want to give him a hug!!!💚😢

[@toadetteremotewithwiimotio3330]

Super Idiøtic i see tears... but not Tyler’s

[@CTonefatpiglol]

At this point I can't even distinguish whose tears are those anymore...probably mine

[@azulBjort_1406]

Right, I wasn't ready for this shit 😰

[@iNREEk]

I never heard someone sing "water" with such passion and emotion :(

[@rosieclym8197]

iNREEk wadur

[@theowlhouseseason3213]

Arabians: am i joke to u

[@ScisaacFisaac]

It looks like Tyler's walking a thin line between getting really into the beat of the song, and breaking down into a sobbing fit. (Edit: three years later, after growing up a bit and going through a few things, I get it. That's exactly what's happening.)

[@animationstudio5311]

Isaac Hidalgo yes

[@sceptre80]

This is honestly a description of people (me included) listening to their music.

[@johnathanbruno2525]

No he’s just a good performer and put the emotion on required for the song

[@violetmccarley6714]

me too honestly

[@kidex9884]

@@sceptre80 same here I'm turning the fuck up but I'm also having a brakdown at the same time lol

[@TheWebkinztimberwolf]

this is heart breaking. Tyler looks like he's gonna cry throughout the whole video.

[@turner6666]

ikr

[@nathanmontagnani8392]

Because he sings with his soul ;)

[@elizab9217]

+Nathan Montagnani a heavy dirty one

[@Jayzoregames]

omg

[@felixrodhe8723]

|-/

[@CryogenicRemix]

Look at him. Wandering through that desert, across porches, torch in hand. Looking for that last bit of water to graze across his hands. Now he's built a Trench. And he isn't leaving without a fight. His jumpsuit will keep him steady. And the Trench will trap what water is still there. He made it. We made it. Stay Alive ||-//

[@bradleybeck4423]

Love this

[@gogyy_]

oh my god

[@hatchflash3088]

Stay Alive ||-//

[@ivywinter1948]

Oh, that was just, right in the feels, beautiful. Stay Alive |-/

[@francoaranda6499]

I live for this comment ||-//

[@sofiaterese9891]

Tyler was crying during this. He’s human too. He feels pain. And he survives. You can too. ||-// Stay Alive ❤️

[@kai-tu3mn]

Stay alive, dearest fren ||-//

[@bryanfernanrabara8083]

Stay alive bro .❤

[@inesquijandria789]

Thank u

[@patriciasamaan6270]

IKRRR I’m gonna cry I love them from the bottom of my heart

[@gattenk]

Stay alive ❤️ ||-//

[@abizadddy]

you can see Tyler trying to hold himself together. and you can see Josh glancing at tyler every once in a while

[@KB-cc7yd]

My heart hurts

[@samantha8929]

his voice and his words can make me feel so open...

[@jacob_massengale]

wow thats a very good description of the feeling!

[@samantha8929]

i'm glad you agree and feel the same, friend :)

[@eminek8526]

+jacob massengale was that sarcasm

[@samantha8929]

+tylerrjoseph it didnt seem like it to me

[@jacob_massengale]

tylerrjoseph no i was serious

[@RespiteofChampions]

It's so so hard when you have a song that has everyone in the band on the verge of tears when you play it. Both Tyler AND Josh are just seconds away from breaking down throughout this entire song. It's so heartbreakingly beautiful. That's how you know it comes from a genuine place.

[@MelissaBackwoods]

2:55 😩😭🙏🏼 Speechless

[@logannlovesrestoration]

Melissa Backwoods i swear, the angle cried after recording this

[@Tyler.Price18]

Melissa Miller A

[@cheytheratking266]

Just imagine him sobbing and josh coming up to comfort him. 😭😭

[@Unknown-tl5ts]

It’s amazing to see the emotions he truly puts into his music

[@taylor-tb9np]

tonmy cas yeah, it seems like he’s talking about the Lord.

[@maehall730]

somebody give this man a hug and some taco bell

[@clairethepotatosoup8767]

Alex 🌮🌮🌯🌯 free tacos **bursts into tears**

[@louisadruner3934]

What about Josh???

[@666cowboy.]

@@louisadruner3934 he didn't specify witch one

[@OverlyHonestGaming]

FAST FOOOOOD GREEEAAASYYY TACCOOOOS I LOOOOVEEE!!!!!!!!!!

[@OverlyHonestGaming]

MYYYY CHAAALUUUUUPPAAAAAA

[@luag1783]

so weird to see josh's arm without all the tatoos

[@liamturner6424]

and without his hair being dyed and stuff

[@aussieotaku9196]

he is naked

[@cloudwinchester6877]

I know he looks so naked without his tats and bright hair

[@mallorypallory7176]

EmoQuartetHydra he looks so clean but sad

[@tristanmiller9571]

I don't think that most fans realize how many of their songs are about god.

[@davidchristorei2767]

True

[@dr.bright659]

Very true.

[@deaksami3254]

I hate it when people give a different meaning to a song. My wife just thought of a great interpretation to Chlorine from Trench album...but everyone is saying it's about his writing but i think it's about the struggle of tasting something painful from the world("Lovin' what I'm tastin' / Venom on my tongue"). His struggle to find God is heartbraking

[@stevebennion8601]

@@deaksami3254 you shouldn't. Some of us don't believe in God but you can still pull your own meaning from the songs that means a lot to you. He uses metaphors for a reason.

[@valeriyasazontova6444]

Tristan Miller ххх

[@earthtrotterjones7835]

I am 47 years old and I’ve been a fan of TOP since Car Radio and then Vessel and Blurry Face BUT then started digging deeper and this older TOP songs and lyrics are just amazing. Tyler had a special gift and such deep symbolic lyrics that are unique. I’m years deep listening to them and can’t get enough and understanding lyrics more gives me more reasons to dive deep into all older Songs.

[@charlottenoble9421]

ditto. Old lady (46) new fan, diving deep too. Such talent, such depth.

[@earthtrotterjones7835]

not old lol never too old for awesome music :)

[@bassimprovjams3772]

It's expanding like this, that just shows age is just a number, new good.music will keep you young feeling, I'm 35 and my 13 yr old daughter loves TOP. she got me into them. I this this is as talented as it gets as far as good song writing goes

[@Pandabearmadness]

im very surprised how much ive fallen in love with this group,

[@franoi8901]

I’m 18 and uh wanna correct u there it’s TØP not TOP 😅.

[@meghanhammett1435]

You can tell in not just Tyler's but in Josh's eyes too the lyrics meant something to him

[@JarblinskiAcrapony]

And looking at Tyler's mouth kind of shaking

[@RitzToInternet]

I literally only found Twenty One Pilots 2 weeks ago and I've never been able to connect so easily to a band! They are genuine and feel they speak on such a personal level!

[@celii.k8418]

same omg

[@penguinluva1231]

+RitzToInternet this literally is me 100% the same thing lol

[@charliefaulkner1402]

+RitzToInternet welcome to the clique fren !!! |-/

[@ibabbs2001]

+RitzToInternet Happy 6 week clique anniversary |-/

[@courtneyjohnson6268]

+RitzToInternet XD Same thing here! Found them on iheartradio, and literally now have every song playing continuously on my iPod, and car radio!

[@madam-mint]

Commented on this 8 years ago. This would be the go-to loop song when depressive episodes happened. Several years of therapy later…I love being alive again. I’m somewhere I never thought I’d be. Stay alive. Please.

[@aubreyfuss8703]

I think this is one of the most emotional versions of addict with a pen on the internet. It makes me cry almost every time. There is just so much emotion in Tyler’s voice and both of them look on the verge of tears. This version is perfect for when you are feeling lost or down. Stay Alive frens |-/

[@jordanjames6851]

🙏

[@neonice]

Very true, I'm still coming back to this every once in a while after 7y

[@dayanaromero13]

Got this knot in my throat 😂😢

[@brynndurham9957]

Josh's arm is naked I'm so uncomfortable

[@moki1547]

hello new fan and fren

[@moki1547]

+Best Cover hello best cover fren, how are you

[@moki1547]

+Best Cover oh god that makes me so sad hearing about that! I'm trying to sleep but I can't cuz u guys with ur guns for hands make me worry, I notice you, stay alive fren, it's worth it, I promise

[@moki1547]

+Best Cover thank you and fren please I'll give hugs and love ya too stay alive for me and you

[@moki1547]

+Best Cover no problem and don't be concerned it's good English and yes I'm from America, where are you from

[@S3CT0R49]

I hate being a fan that found out about them because of "stressed out". I wish i knew them longer but oh well

[@kylee8138]

That's exactly how I feel

[@emilryland5134]

Same

[@kixieschiano2089]

it doesn't matter from how long you're here.You're here.

[@CinnamonEggs]

That was my exact thought, too. I saw all these tøp "fans" on different youtube videos saying that people who heard of tøp through stressed out wasn't real fans and only used that song to be "cool":.. I hated to be a tøp fan at first, but I just began to focus on their music. There are many "old fans" who think they own Josh and Tyler. Those type of persons are in every "fandom".. It's so sad, but just focus on their music, and ignore those crazy "old fans" :D

[@maddiesaurous2451]

it's nothing to be ashamed of. stressed out is a great song, in fact, i'm glad you found them in the first place. they are a great band that has helped, and continues to help many people. |-/

[@Stats4nerds]

I know I`m going to be eighty years old and I`ll still be listening to twenty one pilots and they`ll still be my favourite band

[@prettyoddbagofbones3121]

Same. I’ll be 80 and covered in my top, fob, and panic tattoos lol

[@peachhblood6011]

can u be my grandpa pls

[@crusadervfx]

@@peachhblood6011 he might die if you become 9

[@elementalintellectual215]

Feel that 😭❤

[@lyndseydavis3658]

Omg that's so awesome lol

[@Meow-Meow501]

I’ve returned to this song hundreds of times by now. Thought I should finally leave a comment. If you find yourself here, know that you are not alone. ❤

[@isabelbatiste]

That moment when your own music can make you cry. Yes, it's that powerful.

[@heyimanion3931]

But do you know which part of their music is making Ty crime?

[@heyimanion3931]

+Maria K. *cry

[@yannabijlmakers2642]

Maria K. --I try my best i think

[@yannabijlmakers2642]

Maria K. --and "wash me with your water

[@AliM-kz7oh]

I found a drop of water............coming out of my eyes

[@mariefrg3226]

Hello We haven't talked in quite some time I know I haven't been the best Of sons, hello, I've been traveling in the desert of my mind And I Haven't found a drop Of life I haven't found a drop Of you, I haven't found a drop I haven't found a drop Of water Water I try desperately to run through the sand As I hold the water in the palm of my hand 'Cause it's all that I have and it's all that I need and The waves of the water mean nothing to me But I try my best and all that I can To hold tightly onto what's left in my hand But no matter how, how tightly I will strain The sand will slow me down and the water will drain I'm just being dramatic, in fact, I'm only at it again As an addict with a pen, who's addicted to the wind As it blows me back and forth, mindless, spineless, and pretend Of course I'll be here again, see you tomorrow, but it's the end of today End of my ways as a walking denial My trial was filed as a crazy suicidal head case But you specialize in dying, you hear me screaming "father" And I'm lying here just crying, so wash me with your water Water Hello I haven't talked in quite some time I know I haven't been the best Of sons, hello, I've been traveling in the desert of my mind And I I haven't found a drop Of life I haven't found a drop Of you I haven't found a drop I haven't found a drop Of water

[@aniceperson1910]

Thanks fren!

[@abriil5265]

Gracias por la letra capx

[@mariefrg3226]

No problem guys! (:

[@klajwh0681]

He says, the suns so low and I've been traveling in the desert in my mind. And he still hasn't found a drop of water

[@frizzyneyo9110]

@@klajwh0681 I know I haven’t been the best of sons, though I’ve been traveling the desert of my mind, I haven’t found a drop...

[@ayaelhalawany4603]

Is it just me or do these two angels seem to find their way into our lives when we need it most. Some how, some way, we end up back with them again. Its amazing. I find myself listening to a certain song of theirs and no matter what song, everytime, it speaks to me. The clique is like a family to me. I'm so glad I wandered into it because I dont know what I would do without it. Without you guys. Without Tyler and Josh. Thank you. So much. ||-// Stay alive frens ♡♡♡

[@kristindyas6073]

Yes

[@Watthexe0815]

Same here

[@-scotty-6321]

0.2 seconds in *starts sobbing*

[@eminek8526]

I literally started crying at 0:25

[@chelseaalonso2374]

+tylerrjoseph so did i

[@literaltrash6991]

+tylerrjoseph 0:34 for me

[@autumnblack7350]

Same

[@xsmms1918]

0:00 tears from reading emotional comments

[@seanm5576]

I am an atheist, and this song has hit me hard. I understand what he is saying in this song. I was raised a christian and lost my faith and can never seem to find God. But i'm trying to, I need help.

[@aliej8046]

+John Doe Some people loose their faith when they have doubts about God. Are you having doubts?

[@seanm5576]

Alice Jesse I have been living as an atheist for about 2 years now, and I'm not sure what to believe anymore

[@aliej8046]

I guess there is nothing wrong with that. I know I have lost touch with God but some how I found my way back. I think it is really about how people personally interpret things and what they have taken in from the bible and sermons. I mean I'm not trying to convert you or anything so I hope you don't feel pressured by it. Have you been to church at all since? because sometimes it's maybe that you don't like how the church does things because I believe you have to feel comfortable in a church to take in the message. or is it something else?

[@Revieweverything100]

+Sean M I know you posted this a couple of weeks ago, but I just wanted to encourage you as you're seeking. I've been there a number of times where God feels so distant, but the truth of the matter is that so often we build portray Christianity as a religion of feelings. "Do I feel Jesus?" and when we don't feel Him all of sudden we're lost and confused. But when you look at Scripture, nobody ever builds there relationship with Christ off of feelings. 1 John 5 says "I write these so that you *know* you have eternal life." Sometimes, God may feel far away, but our comfort is that because of what His Son did for us on the cross and rising from the dead, God no longer is far away from the one who trusts Jesus alone for salvation. I'll be praying for you as you seek. Just know that even when God feels far off, not to look to your feelings, but to look to the truth of His word.

[@seanm5576]

+Revieweverything100 Thank you so much, I cant even explain to you how much this reply meant.

[@smercklecaeser7805]

KZbin: Would you like to replay this song? Me: ye

[@laurasavage9874]

Hey this is in 2018 ☺️... lol... anyways if you notice in most of his performances of addict with a pen Tyler always looks up at the sky. I think he’s trying to communicate with God. Ik it’s prob weird for people who aren’t religious, but for me it makes a lot of sense. He’s crying to God, “and you specialize in dying you hear me screaming father and I’m lying here just crying so wash me with your water” I feel like now in most of his performances, (yes he probably still has a lot of struggles) but now he found purpose, he found a way to live through life. He isn’t hurting as much as he used to (I’m sure singing this song brings back a lot of bad memories, in fact I’m sure singing a lot of his older songs do)so I think while singing this song he’s so appreciative to God for letting him live on, and get through his struggles to be able to preform that song for thousands of people. Idk it’s just something I noticed and I can relate to it. Anyways this was long but it was on my heart I hope you have an amazing day! Stay alive!! ||-// Edit: 0:33

[@JoaoAlves-wb4rr]

I think he can't believe in God but is asking for help anyway. The part you citate is he asking for help and the part he says" I'm haven't found a drop of water" water is faith in him. Oh well, Im not Catholic or anything but it is what I think of this lyrics

[@alicetoniian7432]

@@JoaoAlves-wb4rr I liked the line of yours "I`m nor Catholic or anything" You can believe in God and don`t be Catholic... or anything))

[@bananaperson7020]

@@alicetoniian7432 lol who cares, you knew what they meant... maybe dude thinks they are Catholic, or maybe he doesn't know the difference because he wasn't raisied into any religion. Sorry, I normally don't bother posting but people make mistakes all the time. You're probably younger, my advice is to pick your battles thoughtfully or you'll be fighting and unhappy for a lot of your life. 🙂

[@alicetoniian7432]

@@bananaperson7020 oh man. true.

[@caysetp50]

Is it only me or does it look like Tyler is tearing up😢

[@caysetp50]

It's making me sad 😭

[@Jael5140]

He's always on the verge of crying when he sings addict with a pen. This song has such a deep meaning, you basically can't hold back your tears

[@iiskyewolfyoutube5885]

Pause at 3:17. Tyler is teared up... My poor handsome boy...

[@yvonne9800]

+LizzieKat // KZbin he practical shakes his head saying no don't cry

[@emilynicholls3360]

He always looks like he's tearing up tbh

[@sodabunny5554]

When I listen to Addict with pen, I always feel so close to Tyler for some reason. Like, we're close friends. I just feel so connected. I love them so much.

[@blackroseofnight4760]

This song is waaaaaayyyyy better than the one on the album.....I love love LOVE this version!!!

[@derylleon]

Their best song, and that's saying A LOT.

[@asm21197]

im not crying you're crying

[@Genaviive]

Crying? What r u talking about I'm not crying if anything I'm sweating very intensely

[@sleepoverjunk816]

Immense amounts of sweat is pouring directly from my tear ducts, that's all.

[@NitrogenJake]

tyler's piano has been to more places than me.....

[@wutwashy2174]

Me too lol I’m such a coach potato

[@_Kid_King_]

This is so underated

[@chrisari101]

@@_Kid_King_ 721 likes...

[@_Kid_King_]

@@chrisari101 ok? the comment had less then. you want a trophy?

[@chrisari101]

@@_Kid_King_ Did you wanna a trophy of the most annoying and toxic one?

[@Quinoa_316]

I know I’m a little late but I’ve been listening to a lot of their older songs and I just wanna say on the line “My trial was filed as a crazy suicidal head case, but you specials in dying, you hear me screaming father, and I’m lying here just crying so wash me with your water” every time I hear that line I burst into tears because that line to me symbolizes he’s talking to God. As a Christian who deals with depression anxiety ect and just finding peace in God calling out to him in my pain it really resonates with me ❤️

[@heartbreakinstreo]

me too you're not alone

[@ajcarter7120]

I still watch their performances for the music but sometimes I just read comments and it helps me feel understood. Thanks for your story I hope everything is going well. I’ve been dealing with thoughts like that for a long time and am Christian as well. It’s hard to feel much of anything especially Gods love with depression, but it does make faith stronger and it makes the times you can feel it that much better. Stay alive ||-//

[@ajcarter7120]

I still watch their performances for the music but sometimes I just read comments and it helps me feel understood. Thanks for your story I hope everything is going well. I’ve been dealing with thoughts like that for a long time and am Christian as well. It’s hard to feel much of anything especially Gods love with depression, but it does make faith stronger and it makes the times you can feel it that much better. Stay alive ||-//

[@Shirley-xe9pj]

It's absolutely beautiful to see how much Tyler and Josh have grown. absolutely beautiful.

[@chiararachael2807]

IM CRYING AND JOSHS ARM IS NAKED

[@wellhelltherefellwhuman4637]

Omg I just realised that

[@forestfloor]

this is so important

[@virgotime3875]

sara kangas It's important

[@nannamlgaard9888]

this saves lifes

[@shannafranna3294]

Nanna Mølgaard How?

[@kaitoric]

3,000 Subs? The lyrics. The relation. Everything.

[@shannafranna3294]

Crunched Skittles ooooooohhhhhhhhhh ok

[@nicoleschnapp]

My favourite song from self-titled This is gorgeous

[@redguy8]

This is by far one of the best TØP songs, i know we shouldn't trust a song that's flawless but this song is as close to perfection as you can get

[@jaleathead]

I could write an 100 page essay on how much this song fucking speaks to me. The meaning and depth is unmatched by any song

[@annalicon2037]

That awkward moment when you realize Tyler pressed the g note at the end of the song and it physically hurts your heart

[@kjerstihaaland1286]

i'm crying bc of this video and now I'm laughing my ass off thank you i guess

[@campbellssoupcan1369]

it's a different octave so it doesn't hurt as much but i'm already crying from this song so what's the difference

[@themaster.8143]

Anna Licon what does it mean

[@Samuel-tt6db]

THE MASTER. Welcome to the black parade

[@xxB4J4BL4STxx]

Anna Licon I was already crying...oh well

[@wellhelltherefellwhuman4637]

3:11 wow. Just wow. It just shows how real his lyrics are, they're so emotional and I think that's what we all need. We've become desensitised by our own feelings and thoughts. Tyler sings about them for us which makes the connection between us and him so strong. Tyler and Josh are legends, angels and heroes. A hero isn't someone who stops someone from killing themselves, it's someone who tells them that they will help you through it all and actually does. These two are heroes.

[@abrahambaltazar8342]

Addict with a pen will always be my favorite twenty one pilot song. I was that person who was lost in the dessert holding on so tightly to what didn’t serve me. I begged the universe to wash me with forgiveness and love at my lowest. You are a victim to your own circumstances that no one can see. I’ve been blessed in so many ways since then every time I hear this song I get so emotional and grateful for where I am today. I can’t thank josh and Tyler enough for this beautiful piece of art that helped get me through a really tough time I tear up at the thought of it, love you guys and everyone who can relate

[@amalielauder782]

I hate but love at the same time when you can start to see tears forming in Tyler's eyes. This must be so hard to perform. It just breaks my heart.

[@howfarissaturn]

HOW ARE THEY SO TALENTED I AM ACTUALLY GOING TO PUNCH MYSELF IN THE FACE. tyler was a suicidal teen who didn't think he would live past 18. he's 28 now and performing sold out venues all over the world performing songs he wrote in his parents basement with his best friend. if that doesn't say it will be okay, tomorrow will be better, I don't know what will.

[@antonionsfw]

:((( i love him i just want to hug everyone that isn’t okay.

[@oikawaseyebrow391]

Same

[@_taxi.cabb_3710]

But now he is 30! He has lived another day! Happy birthday Tyler! ❤

[@ellieshull1475]

thank you

[@michaelaj6819]

I miss Tyler's hyper-emotional, half-screamed lyrics, but if the lack of them nowadays means he's in a better place, then I wouldn't want them back for the world ❤ ll-//

[@kyaaiton7916]

Yall they're fetuses Josh looks so nervous I wanna go through my phone give him a hug and whisper in his ear that he became successful with Tyler and that they are the best people alive And tyler babi look at you. You're so.. emotional playing this song not knowing how many people fell in love with you and that loser on the drums.. This is inspirational and yet so relatable. Tyler and Josh used to be so scared. They thought they wouldnt make it. Josh fought his anxiety to do this and well tyler. He was going through so much that he was debating ending it all. But they kept going and now here we are with that coward and Jish in the trench era still looking back at these videos. Still in love with the way they used to be with loving them now as well.. yes they have changed. Because they have realized that it's worth it. Take a message from them. No matter what you're going through just fight through it. It's worth it. Your life is worth living. STAY ALIVE FRENS |-/

[@trashdoctor6217]

AMEN 🙏

[@kaynjt3247]

This breaks me.

[@houseofguns9034]

3:18-3:30 look at his eyes..LOOK AT THEM! I can only imagine what's going through his head there

[@samcifuentes7199]

I think he's blaming himself for something ,that's what I could see in his eyes ...

[@no1u-know532]

Deserts of his mind.theyre very dry.

[@magdalenak6488]

WhyI just cry?

[@aldoguitierrez5510]

Maybe he’s desperately trying to hold on to his faith. I got that from him holding onto the water and it draining then asking to be washed by his water. Holy water

[@19zuzi82]

@@samcifuentes7199 Pain, pure, unadulterated pain. I know that pain. Everyone who understands his words knows that pain. Don't wish for it, don't even wish to imagine it. Watch and listen and feel, but stay on the other side of the fence. It's ugly here.

[@rizzo2506]

He's literally crying in the video like omg how much more real of a band can you get

[@fernandoleon313]

Is nobody gonna mention how perfect Josh's drumming sounds in this?

[@19zuzi82]

He's giving this song all the respect and reverence it deserves.

[@sope4723]

What? No. I'm not crying.. I just... Uh.. THE DROP OF WATER HE DIDN'T FIND WAS IN MY EYE.

[@ellavandenherik8428]

Greeny THAT WAS A GREAT REFERENCE I LOVED IT GOOD JOB 11/10

[@ailiab373]

Oof😭

[@Chiara-ur9mn]

Several drops of water

[@skeletonclique777]

THIS IS THE BEST PERFORMANCE EVER, JESUS HOW, THIS IS SO EMOTIONAL, I CAN'T, THEY WERE SO SMOL AND LOOK WHERE THEY ARE NOW, THEY ARE PLAYING SOLD OUT SHOW, THEY ARE TRAVELING AROUND THE WORLD, ISN'T IT BEAUTIFUL I could write more but I'm crying and my keyboard is getting wet, sorry *sorry, I'm rambling*

[@randycoleman668]

Same |-/

[@arouoraios5710]

His pain in his eyes broke my heart

[@colbyjohnson3793]

He's holding back tears the whole time and his voice still sounds amazing :(

[@user-gs4wg2sc9e]

Tyler shakes his head to keep from crying

[@tylerjsephismymmjshismydad1582]

no

[@user-gs4wg2sc9e]

Actually no he doesn't I found out it's just the music "running through him" I think he was holding back tears this time tho

[@leonbrian2946]

no its not its too keep the bad thought out

[@myles9652]

it has to do with like anxiety attacks, it's a way to cope with them

[@kaitoric]

some people twitch to stop anxiety attacks. that's most likely why he does it.

[@vega1617]

I never wanted to hug someone so bad ever

[@riverasuprarojo1993]

2019 this will always be a masterpiece Edit:Thx for 2 likes

[@pinata4050]

Anyone ? 2021 shy away is out and you still here, just me?.

[@meghanhammett1435]

At around 3:20 he looked up after the part talking about God...

[@linyousef9887]

ItsAMe I think he looked up couple times so his tears don’t drop from his eyes ..💔

[@kaitoric]

lin yousef Do you know that he's Christian..?

[@AndrewKlaassen]

Lol this whole song is about being a Christian

[@orca6620]

Yep

[@aliaaabdo5711]

And at 0:35 also

[@lisapauli3640]

This is the video that introduced me to twenty one pilots almost 2 years ago and Addict with a pen has been my favourite song of them ever since. It just means so much to me. And now I've come full circle. Nobody cares but I saw them live last week and they played the medley of their old songs at the b stage and I was not even 3 meters away from them when they sang this song and I almost started crying and I was screaming along to all the lyrics even though I can't rap (and I got every single world right. I'm proud of myself). Basically it was one of the best moments of my entire life. Screaming and crying along to one of my favourite songs. And now I'm sitting in bed wearing their tour merch, desperately wishing I could go back to that moment.

[@Leon-ss2uj]

Lisa Pauli I saw them on the 11th and the medley was definitely the most emotional part, I was in tears the whole time

[@oscaravendano3451]

Lisa Pauli Which old songs they played???

[@lisapauli3640]

Oscar Avendano they played the same one (I think) at every emotional roadshow performance, if you just search for 'twenty one pilots old song medley' on KZbin it will come up

[@lapis1270]

Lisa Pauli I found out about them from car radio

[@tunedtofacgce]

Found them from We Don't Believe What's On Tv.

[@ellie.644]

This hurts And it hurt eaven more for Tyjo and josh They fight for us and for life, they are more than just a duo like all the others They help us throug depression, anexiety from starving and to stay alive|-/ And each individual should feel safe and i can say that these people( ty and josh ) helps us with that And this is easier to write down then say it infront of many people but i can say that Tyler and josh are HEROES They have helped so many people to feel inportant and helped me and others throug pysically and mentally -thanks- STAY ALIVE FRENS |-/

[@ellie.644]

Sorry for my english

[@Anna-jl7gy]

still coming back to this. Still get's me the same way. I will always remember the first time I saw this, I had just found TØP that same day. I was in one of the darkest places I've ever been. And I saw so much emotion, so much pain and so much passion, I've never seen anyone drum with such passion and sing with so much emotion. And I started listening to the words and I saw so much thought. And I remember thinking: I have never seen anything like this, and I will never see anything else like this. And I haven't. Now years later being able to come back to this, because I AM ALIVE. Tank you II-//

[@porcelinaofthevastoceans3903]

This is how I felt when I found them. I saw them live w my daughter, took her for her bday. I had prejudged them as trendy and written them off, as I felt no new bands past the 90s had anything I was interested in. I could SEE the talent and passion in his face. Coming out of his face. Lol. And Josh bouncing on that hydraulic chair. I was like whoa, who are these fucking people.

[@teaisfortired-6467]

I would say this band has saved my life... But that's not quite right. Twenty Øne Pilots has given me the courage to stay alive. Everyone says, "Sarah, he sounds like he's whining. Why are you playing the piano in class? Can you stop singing honestly, you sing everyday. Can you take those earbuds out?" They say these things because they don't understand that without this music I wouldn't be here to write this comment. I hide my emotions, let them ball up. With Twenty One Pilots, I don't feel so... Hopeless. Forlorn. This music has given me the solace I need! They ask why I listen to a guy who sounds like he's whining. I reply, because it's what's keeping me alive. They take it as a joke and giggle. Seriously. Don't make fun of the clique |-/

[@halliesmith4659]

That's like me, I build a shell around me with music, I've become distant. It's almost like I'm not really here but in my own world, I love it. I love the way his music makes me feel. I feel like I can do it and belong here and continue and I have a purpose. I connect with his music more than I have a person and I think he's awesome for giving me an outlet to portray my emotions

[@teaisfortired-6467]

+Hallie Smith Exactly me. Some people would take it as a bad thing but honestly I'd rtather have it be this way than be 'normal'.

[@jaydenisameme9494]

Well singing in public around others is pretty annoying NGL.

[@teaisfortired-6467]

+ElephantOnAHill Too true tbh.

[@teaisfortired-6467]

+ElephantOnAHill I actually have stage fright so yeah 😂

[@avg_lucidpanda3908]

I'm not crying, you're crying (JK, I'M FUCKING SO MUCH CRYING DKLFSDJKFKDSLFJKLDSKJLFKLDSKFLJSDFDS)

[@itsnofunwithoutjoshdun665]

Jordie Kitty I tried to take this seriously but that profile pic man...

[@avg_lucidpanda3908]

itsnofunwithoutjoshdun it's sexy

[@mariemarely319]

Jordie Kitty I can't rn with ur profile pic😂😂😂😃wt heck happened

[@avg_lucidpanda3908]

Merely Lopez JISHWA DUUN

[@raspfairies]

im crying and laughing at the same time

[@mightypeachy2676]

I want to change people's hearts like they do.

[@kevinbugueno316]

Ni un comentario en español, tyler es lo mejor y los sentimientos que me entrega con esta canción me hace llorar 🥺🥺💓💓

[@iriskartman7967]

there are only a certain number of people who can understand people's love for this band's music - the fighters, the survivors...

[@coletrain3599]

Well put :)

[@scraphappy51185]

+Iris Kartman As someone who has always felt different, with a feeling of being "outside looking in", I connect with their lyrics. I've also suffered from depression. Only someone who has lived through that darkness can appreciate these songs.

[@TheWebkinztimberwolf]

"only few understand" :)

[@jaydenisameme9494]

+BENTLY_KINZ YESSS

[@rimsha999]

|-/

[@scarletvisions]

Damn, this was a long time ago. Josh didn't even have tattoos or dyed hair XD.

[@picklegerard4722]

ikr! i was thinking the same thing!

[@parkerhahaha]

canadianbeanies JOSH WITH HIS SOFT CHESTNUT HAIR WITH ITS LITTLE CURLS OK IM FINE

[@hannahspencer2599]

airlings or piercings :P

[@noisenoise9600]

Natalie xx This isn't tumblr.

[@parkerhahaha]

uwot mate Excuse me, I came here to have a good time but I'm feeling so attacked rn

[@elladyal7127]

You can see so much emotion in all of their songs but this one makes my cry it’s so understanding and you can really hear what’s wrong. They have helped so many people with their life and their tough times. They are truly angels in disguise and they are so influential on everything they do. Tyler puts so much emotion into his songs and so many people deal with the same issues that he’s talking about but Josh and Tyler deserve all of the respect because they have come so far and now we have too. Everyone who listens to TØP is so amazing as well as Tyler and Josh and I just want to say thank you to them for everything because they make my life complete and help me through a lot.

[@gracelinenfelser8663]

i want to give this smol man a hug so bad ahh

[@kaitoric]

we don't call them smol anymore, just to let you know before someone kills the crap out of you for saying smol.

[@emily-tx3yp]

nicoandthelegends coward now

[@heatherparks8469]

The raw emotion in Tyler's face is what really gets me. These songs aren't just words. They mean something to Tyler and to Josh and by sharing these songs with the world it can mean something to other people. I find it very easy to relate to tøp's songs and they become personal to me because of that. This band is something special.

[@stanaccount7082]

this song makes me so happy and proud and i dont know why but i showed it to my friend and she goes "he sings weird, he sounds like he's whining" and i just dont know why it made me so angry and i wanted to punch her but i just really love hiim and his voice and i love twenty one pilots goodnight

[@stanaccount7082]

meeapy exactly omg

[@sydneyanderson7346]

sdk or die I feel you. I showed this to my sister and she couldn't even watch/listen to the entire song. She left saying that she needed to listen to "Trap Queen"

[@kimberlita11]

sdk or die That happens to me when i show people but its people who usually never really listen to good music with actual meaning and when I try to explain a song they just never really understand the meaning behind it.

[@halezjameson]

LITERALLY ME. I cant stand when i show people them and they say something like he sounds whiney or he thinks he's a rapper. it's so funny bc most of the ppl I've shown didn't like them at first and are now obsessed with tøp. but some ppl just can't relate to the lyrics and bc its different and not talking about money weed pussy every second so ppl won't even give it a chance.. I got into a fight with my co worker bc he was talking shit about them and then he started playing his music and it was all rap. I like rap but i just can't stand ppl who won't even give tøp a chance. been listening to them for 4 years and helped me thru so much, lyrics are so meaningful and relatable. "these lyrics arnt for everyone, only if you understand"

[@kimberlita11]

wait i thought it said "only few will understand"?but yeah not everyone likes them at first but its becuase they dont really see the full meaning of the songs and because it is different but a good different all the songs they like are so meaningless.I show it to my friends and they are always like wtf!what is wrong with you they are so weird and ughh I hate when they say that.they have also helped me through out so much and i think they are 2 of the most amazing people i have ever seen/heard.

[@Not-Valid]

I honestly never thought I would cry to music but here we are

[@rafael-nk3fq]

You cry for this be cause that you is idiot and strange dude

[@Jj-nn9yn]

@@rafael-nk3fq ????????${¶¥¶~}

[@mariajoannorlina3867]

I always feel so alive when I'm listening to TØP , they saved me from the darkness I have when I was a teenager ... my mom and dad got seperated to each other , my Dad wished that I haven't been born so that I won't be a burden to him ... my friends slowly turn away to me ... all of my precious things disappeared , I have no where to go and when I found this band , I feel this kind of peace that lurks deep inside my darkness memories and just burst out because of them , I wouldn't be here if I didn't discover this band ... this band means everything if only I could meet them in person and thank them for everything they've done for me that would be a dream come true ... thank you for everything thank you for being here when I'm at my worst , thank you for saving me in the darkness Always and forever |-/ ||-// Stay alive my fellow skeleton cliques

[@tweinty]

Stay alive my friend

[@mahiyashah9829]

He sings with so much emotion I just can't

[@jmrf9591]

i cry every fucking time.

[@yannabijlmakers2642]

Same over here |-/❤️😭

[@yannabijlmakers2642]

I cry because it's facking beautiful

[@jmrf9591]

Tøp in amsterdam I cry because of that, and because I'm also in a lot of emotional pain, I'm very suicidal and Tyler's voice is better than taking meds.

[@teahall1963]

+myTREEHOUSEisonFIRE Same, i support you bro

[@twentyonepilotsl.7933]

me too.

[@riverasuprarojo1993]

Tyler has helped millions and haters never have a good time without tyler

[@frankrosales5221]

These songs and this band helped me thru a hard time in my life. Who ever you are coming across this song...hang in there...just hold on and keep fighting