well this took a turn..

[@sandraorton6061]

48 yr old widow here - discovered your vlog years ago. I watch you because you're honest and open. The subject matter doesn't really matter. I feel like I'm visiting a friend when I watch your videos. Thank you for putting them out.

[@juliehorobin]

100% agree ❤️❤️

[@raukapalatinae3591]

Lots of Love Bea ❤ I enjoy watching your journey, but I *adore* you showing up for yourself!

[@msSweeTae]

Yes, exactly!

[@cristalpalaciosyumar2187]

I'm 45, divorced, and look forward to Bea's videos every week. Keep goooooing!

[@sjwestmo]

Yep middle ager here enjoying watching you grow thru this life. Thanks for sharing your day to day

[@mimzy1988]

Please don’t leave! I became a follower because of your personality, your interests and ideas. From all the odd little hobbies you’ve adopted, puzzle dates, real talk realness and real health relationships you have with your family. It’s very inspiring and refreshing to watch because it’s relatable

[@atharahmed7503]

Me too

[@VampireWytch]

100% agree!

[@crystalroberts3133]

Exactly this. Love your channel because your just like one of us. please don't leave

[@StineMah]

I came here for the weight loss, stayed for your personality, and I'm here for all of it. Love the projects, plants, chickens, meals, weight loss and deep talks. I would love to see more of you again!

[@hollywebster6844]

I will suggest a reframe: not murder your past self, but allow her to step off stage, into the wings, then into the dressing room and then into audience, moving farther rows back as you grow. Our past self is always a part of us, all the f-ups, the horrible mistakes and the times in the spotlight. Growing and changing brings our past with us. Wisdom and continuous healing allow us to decide how much of our past we want to keep in our current consciousness. Growth and healing are mostly very difficult, take a lot of energy and focus and mostly feel like 2 steps forward and sliding backwards. If vlogging your life brings you joy, do it. I'm here for it, along with many other people in your audience.

[@katherinemclean1448]

I love the way you put this. It's very tidy and elegant. 😊

[@michellemarquez2440]

Agree 💯

[@claudiacanales2662]

Agreed you explained it sooo well

[@sunnyglamglam]

Thank you, that is the best analogy. It resonated with me.

[@hollywebster6844]

@@katherinemclean1448 Thank you!

[@nicsmith725]

I initially subscribed for the weight loss, but I've stayed purely for you the person. Your videos feel like hanging with a friend that just gets me. I'll continue to be here for whatever you want to share. Beautiful inside and out!!

[@ashleylaw7567]

Me too ❤

[@alanamcgrath7295]

Me as well!

[@Mearadge]

Same ❤

[@jary72501]

Exactly! ❤

[@joannerichardson762]

Same

[@leah436]

I really resonated with something I heard Hank Green say: "you don't owe anything to your past self, because they are gone". For me, that means that all those plans I had for myself of who I thought I would be and what I'd be doing don't matter to me today, unless I want those same things now. I can change my life plan everyday if I want to and if it serves me, because I don't owe something to that person yesterday. It's not that that person is dead, it's that she was in a different time and what she wanted then and who she was then is not the whole of me now. So I get where you're coming from.

[@margaretthym8234]

Hello and dftba!

[@IdaAndrr]

Yes! Dftba! 🎉

[@darknight0dc]

That's such a good advice ❤️

[@leannegander796]

Lovely 😊❤

[@melissabell6688]

Hello I am a 57 yr old woman who has been watching you from the start. I was going thru a divorce after 27 years, very over weight and my mental anxiety was taking over. Watching you has help me because of you I got myself into therapy and I have learned to appreciate who I am and where I am at. Seeing you try different things with dieting, exercise, and hobbies has made me a little bolder to try things. I love your realness, I love your laugh and I love that I have gotten to share things with you. I still have a long way to go with many things so please keep sharing I want to see the garden and see the chicks grow up and I want to see you win because I know you will.

[@Alaequenasi]

Silent watcher here! I‘m 23 now and i have been watching your videos almost religiously for the past few years! I‘m okay fit and never in my life have i been bothered about weight loss, so i was never here for the weightloss content!! Still i LOVE when i see you posted a new video, you have been my favorite person on the internet for the last years and the only youtuber i watch every single video of. It‘s your humor, the animals, the realness, everything fun you do with crafting and building, your amazing comfy editing style, your mom and your grandma, just seeing another woman in this world finding her way and creating her life in such a unique way. I don‘t care about the weight loss, you are a huge inspiration and i‘m sad i will never meet you and be your friend because i know we‘d have a blast! You don‘t owe any of us videos or insights but i just wanted to let you know that i think there are many many people watching you for you, whatever you do😊 Greetings from Austria!

[@R3ddT3rr]

It's not abandoning yourself it's finding your true self.

[@user-nlvmruu]

Yes! Its like the saying that your mind is a great problem solver. if you ask it "what is so wrong with me why can't I figure it out" it will give you 1000 answers. but if you ask it "why will this work out for me, what is it about me that makes sense and works so well" it will also give you a 1000 answers. its all about perspective.

[@jakietaylor327]

I dont think any part of this video was weird, your frustrations make sense. I watch you because of your honesty, jokes, and relatable struggles. You sound a bit burnt out. If you take a break thats fine and if u post anything Ill watch it. Im sure we are all rooting for you either way! ❤

[@firesong100100]

I agree, it's good to take a break when bunrt out

[@MsFadir]

If I may say, your channel hasn't been a weight-loss-focused channel for a few years now. And people are still watching, commenting, following... That could be seen as a sign that you have people that enjoy watching your content: From graffic designer to full-time youtuber to two times home owner to DIY Queen to farmer in the making (damn, you're awesome Beatrice Caruso!!!) My question to you would be, are YOU ok with your channel focusing on vlogging rather than weight loss? 👀

[@bree1540]

Girl! We showed up for the weight loss content, but stayed around for you! I actually like the fact that you have branched out into showing different aspects of your life. This helps us connect with you more. It’s so refreshing when we can see someone with a normal life with hobbies, family, and responsibilities.

[@keoshalanea]

Bea, I’ve been watching you for a while. Probably since you first started your channel. I understand your feelings, because I have those thoughts as well. But also I want to say, DO WTF YOU WANT TO DO!! You have at least 50 THOUSAND ppl that tune in to your videos, even with any inconsistency. I tune in. & it’s cause I just like you. & I understand you. Be yourself. Vlog. Don’t vlog. Workout. Don’t workout. Plant shit. Don’t plant shit. Build shit. Don’t build shit. Girl I’m just glad I found your channel & I can just vibe out with you. I’ve been telling myself these same things so it’s coming from the same “get your shit together” place that you’re in. You’ve done far more with your channel than I could ever imagine for myself. Please keep being an inspiration for me. I love seeing you & don’t want you to go but if you want to chill on uploading, I support what makes you happy. I’m going to start uploading again for my channel soon & you’re part of the reason. You’re amazing. You’re beautiful. You’re intelligent. You’re inspirational. You’re a whole lot of other things me & plenty of others want to be! ❤❤❤

[@Idontwantachann]

Keoshalnea, you said it all! I totally agree. We love you, Bea, just as you are.

[@firesong100100]

I agree. Bea, you do you

[@lizardstew]

Also, we watch you for you. We think you’re cool no matter what you’re doing. And the things you’re talking about with your identity, mental health, and physical well-being…it’s SO relatable. I would be so sad if you quit😭

[@jrumpf2]

I'm 37 and feel stuck, too. Just got diagnosed with anxiety, depression, and OCD, so watching you makes me feel seen every time. I love the talk of the "process" and leaving your old selves behind, so thank you!

[@happycanadian8558]

Sounds like you’ve entered the “I don’t give a F what others think about me, and I’m going to start taking care of myself how I’ve always taken care of others, because I matter” phase in your life. Welcome to this stage/club, it’s honestly liberating, took me 43 years to get here. I look at it like a mixture of a little kid and a senior person because if you look at a little kid they will wear whatever the hell they want and they will wear it with confidence and they will ask 1 million questions and they don’t care what people think. When you look at a senior person who’s lived their life, they’ve been through it all and they don’t care what other people think because they’ve been there and done that and they know what’s really important in life. It’s like the perfect mixture. ❤

[@maylae8069]

I started watching you because of your personality. It is really inspiring to watch someone continue trying even through the hurdles.

[@Pand_a_Dora]

There have been days I made it out of bed only because of you. When depression takes over, you are my go to drug to drag myself out of the darkness. Your strenght and creativity, your power and willingness to not be destroyed by the outside world, is what makes you a knight in shining armour to some of us. Keep up doing what you're doing. Live your life to the fullest and only give away what you are comfortable with. If that is procrastinating on assembling planters or watching the chicks become feathered t-rexes demolishing your garden shed. I will be here, hoping for another time meeting a friend I don't know. Hugs from an old lady patiently waiting in a rocking chair on a creaky german balcony 😊

[@nonamepleaseandthankyou]

Sending you lots of well wishes ♡

[@gwyn1714]

❤

[@please_stahp98]

I've only recently started taking positive rewards for my actions instead of the lifelong cycle I've had with negative reinforcement. Denying myself help, restricting the way I eat or nor yo-yo diet or letting myself rot for 2 weeks with only negative thoughts, pushing help away and trying to Stick It Out has gotten me through surviving life. I mean damn I am 26 now! I realised I need to stop giving in to positive and negative punishment and instead push my anxiety towards this that make me uncomfortable but with safety nets like my friends, my family, and creative outlets. This year was the first time since I was 12 years old, I had a solo date for my birthday - I took my car, got all dolled up, when and got breakfast at a cute cafe, read a book I bought last year that I swore I would read immediately and never did in a beautiful park, changed shoes and makeup and all took myself slowly on a hiking trail with a beautiful view, went to a beach and washed the sunset and then took myself to dinner where I told them it was my birthday and suffered through my embarrassment (but utter childhood glee) of having them sing me happy birthday and give me a caramel Sunday with sparkles all around me. It was such a self-fulfilling day and I let myself have it. No photos, no status and social media updates on how GREAT the day was, just me with my thoughts that always terrify me even through the meds, then I realised at the end of the day that the thoughts were quieter that day, because I was living in the present, soothing some rough edges that neglected childhood me I punished for so many years... It was one of the saddest and greatest day of my year thus far. So know that it was okay for you to be withdrawn sometimes it's okay for you to let yourself sit before you crawl and then learn to stand. I love your channel bc of your personality and will watch any content you put out bc you are creative, amazing, and so damn gorgeous girl!

[@lauralmiller8852]

You are not alone, I have been on this 2+ year journey of finding who I really am after living in a toxic family dynamic. It took me moving to another Country to find a safe place to really start that journey. I have had to learn how to properly take care of myself because I never had that, my group of friends here have helped tremendously with that. I have started to attend long neglected needs. (in the last 2 years I found out I have Asthma, a congenital defect in my bladder system, and ADHD) I finally stopped listening to the voices that told me it was all in my head and started actually seeking help. It is a journey and it is a choice you make on a daily basis. I am here for your journey and I don't mind the weird because its honest and its authentic, and that is refreshing.

[@smm855]

Wow! You moved to another country!? That's so cool that you were able to do that and find the strength to put yourself first! ❤ Escaping a toxic relationship (family or otherwise) dynamic is no small feat. Sometimes those voices from the people that hurt us hang around in the corners of our brain waiting to pop out in moments of doubt. It's admirable that you're choosing to become the person that you want to be and leave that stuff behind. 🤗

[@steph6337]

My 7 year old son passed away in march of last year. I cant escape the person I've become since then. I do worry ill never be ok again. I do want amd need a fresh start over physically, but the emotional heaviness doesnt allow that. Thank you for your willingness to share.

[@outoftheklosset]

I'm so sorry for your loss of your sweet baby boy.💔😭 My heart hurts for you. Sending you so much love and support.💐 *hugs if wanted*

[@laurieb6163]

I am so very sorry for your loss and the grief you are carrying. It is a heavy, heavy load and definitely changes a person. My heart hurts for you. Wishing you all the best. ❤

[@familyfirst3380]

Dear mom, you are doing oke.. just by commenting in such bravery means your are on the road of healing ❤ you don’t have to become the same person before losing a loved one, I think it’s pretty normal to change.. take your time for the healing and finding your new stronger self ❤️‍🩹❤️

[@teresakornegay1580]

I lost my son five years ago. I will never be the same. I still could cry at any moment. However I am better I know that he is in heaven and I have to be ok with that

[@juliehilton1701]

I’m so so sorry for your loss, I’m no expert but I think you need to give yourself some more time with the grief, I know it’s completely different but my mum passed two years ago in March and only now am I looking at where do I go from here? A piece of me died the day she died as I’m sure you felt, I’ll never be the same again but I’ve only just realised that. Your loss imo was worse than mine and you need to take it slow to find out if or how you are going to fill in that lost piece ❤❤❤❤

[@krissyvanous]

I love you Bea and I don’t give a flying flip about what the content you post is about; farming, crafting, weight loss, thoughts and feelings, mental health, fashion, food, your cat, adorable Elmo, trying new things, blah blah blah, it’s ALL the best part of my day/week/month! You are so relatable and likable. Got nothing but good vibes for you!

[@Beanits]

Omg bea I cannot tell you how excited I am to have more vlog content!!!! It feels like hanging out with a buddy while I crochet or clean

[@stephanierussell230]

Never abandon your opportunity to choose and love yourself. I look at my younger Version of me with love and compassion. And I also look at my older self and think about what i'm doing today is going to affect her. I started writing a health journal this year. Every day I write how many steps I have taken, what I've done for anything health-related. How good my sleep is, how my mental health is, all of it. I also write how many days i've been writing in the journal. I'm on day 79 right now. I do this because I want to always remember that i'm doing something good for myself, every single day. I got to this place because I got fed up to. I realize that I lose the ability to choose my day when I let my feeling's run the show all the time. Writing helped me with this. The other big thing that helps is learning how to look at yourself on a scale instead of a box. Box thinking is you're good, or you're bad. Scale thanking is one out of ten. I remember where I was when I said what you have said in this video. I was talking to a friend on the phone In a pharmacy parking lot. and said that I want to let my old self Die. But 5 years later I look at my younger safe with love and Compassion. I look at my older self with Hope and Excitement. Everything you do good or bad is making an investment one way or another. Just make deposits in positive, healthy things and Dismiss the rest. Your in charge of you. And I think it's important to love both older and younger. And you do that in the Present 🎁.

[@ashleywoods2201]

You’re the only KZbinr I’ve watched every video of. Also, I love seeing your weekly vids, no matter how boring you think they are, because I feel like I can relate.. especially with getting healthy, I’ve been in the same boat for basically the same amount of time… I feel like we’re very similar. It’s so refreshing to see someone open and honest about their struggles.

[@karenlayton7806]

More Bea? YES PLEASE! I’ll keep watching no matter what content you make. Love your channel and how real you are. Do what makes YOU happy and fulfilled.

[@LavaWaffle1]

You made me feel seen. I feel the same way. Also 32. Also sick of a lot. Had a thought yesterday; I'm constantly 'checking' myself and my behavior. I was trying to feed my 10 month old end playing with the spoon (choo choo, you know). I just realized that that very moment will be so fleeting that I could either dread it or make a complete idiot of myself and laugh with my baby. Let me tell you, I was spinning and flying that little airplane spoon with so much gusto that both I and baby were having fun. I realized that I could go through every single fleeting minute worried, anxious and irritated or I can choose to have as much fun as possible. I clip of you guys chilling with the cats reminded me of that, because you were just chatting and that's something I really struggle to do because I'm always on edge, thinking of the next thing that has to get done. So much so that I feel like I've rushed by most of my own life. At the end f the day, the little things make up the majority of our life and are actually the most important. I'm going to try to enjoy it along the way

[@chaneloosthuizen7210]

Hi there Bea! I wish you could know the impact that you have, all around the world (I'm from South Africa😊). I've been watching your channel since the beginning and I look forward to all of your videos, because it feels like a weekly catch-up with a lifelong friend. Your variety of hobbies have encouraged me to start developing hobbies of my own. You've inspired me to: start painting again, work in my garden, try to get fit and romantisize all the small things in life. Thank-you for encouraging me to lead a fuller life! Keep doing what makes you happy!

[@jennifermatthews7722]

I love seeing you spend time with your mom and grandma. They are so cute!

[@sarahmann9559]

Never missed one of your videos. I appreciate you sharing yourself so authentically and with sprinkles of joy throughout. Always cheering you on and rooting for you!

[@no_number_at_end_of_name]

Yes Bea! The whole "sick of" mindset got me to completely change my life. I did a 75 day reset and when I was done I realized I wasn't ready to be in the wild yet so I'm in the middle of another 75 days. Please vlog! Even though opinions may not all be the same and often change, there's still common ground with us subs. We all tune in cuz we like you. Life is messy, feelings are messy, but it's also fun and we relate to the mess. Fruit flies and all. ❤❤❤❤

[@user-nlvmruu]

Thanks for posting! Your honesty, and lack of trying to hide who you are physically or otherwise is helpful for me and encourages me to do the same because why not? Not all those who wander are lost.. in fact some of those people can lead others to also starting wandering and wondering... and that is a helpful gift. but life also doesn't have to be about helping others as well, you should do what serves you. I can imagine vlogging your life feels shallow, but I can imagine you keep doing it because you're benefitting from the mirror you're creating.. if at some point you no longer need it, then so be it! I am sure you will find success no matter what.. but getting connected to who you are is the most important piece. I'm sure youtube or graphic design jobs would feel much more fulfilling if you knew your "why" and forgot all the rest : )

[@linag1]

Even this clip was relateable. I watch for it all, not just one thing...the weight loss, cooking, daily life, hobbies... you are relateable and your content is relateable. Its like hanging out with a friend you are comfortable just being regular you with.

[@danielleshanti]

Don't quit! We like you! I would love to see you continue weight loss vlogs. We all struggle with things and make progress with other things, and you're absolutely doing that. You're so relatable, and also intelligent and articulate. Thank you for sharing your journey!

[@KeenaandMattsJourney]

I am disabled and you are very entertaining. You make me laugh so that's why I watch. It doesn't matter what you are filming.

[@marymickelsen3378]

I bet the little flies on the plants are fungus gnats. They come out of the potting soil. They sell sticky traps for them! Get some, it will help!

[@faunivore9485]

Or sprinkle diatomaceous earth on the soil. When the eggs hatch, the flies will crawl to the surface, the DE will desiccate them. Sticky traps are good for catching adult flies, but if they are laying eggs before they get stuck in the traps, you will continually have a gnat problem. DE will make it so none/few of the newly hatched flies survive.

[@CJAmara]

I HATE fungus gnats. The sticky traps are the most effective thing, but at this point if one of my plants gets fungus gnats, I just get rid of it.

[@MandaLay19]

I was just commenting this exact thing :'D. The sticky traps saved me and my stress. Nothing else worked. The faster you rid the adult gnats the less eggs they lay in the soil so they eventually go poof.

[@tashyam7736]

I've heard the gnats are really bad in Florida right now too

[@intrepidtomato]

ugh yeah I used to get them all the time.

[@carriecarrie5285]

I appreciate when you talk about your feelings, experiences, and truths. Watching your videos led me to go get some testing done, where I found out in my 40s that I’ have ADHD. My whole suddenly made sense after the diagnosis. I tell you this because your videos changed my life just by you being honest and genuine. It’s funny at the end when you talk about being sick of anxiety, feeling old, worrying about how you come across to others. I am a middle-aged successful professional woman and I have been feeling the sane way, especially lately. You keep doing you, and we will keep supporting you, whatever that version is!

[@fisaysbiteme]

Watching from Barbados here. Your honesty and openness about your mental health and struggles with weight make me hopeful. So many people hide their struggles and feelings from the world and present perfection, you are a breath of fresh air and I look forward to listening to you and watching you try new things to improve your life. Mad love yo.

[@amorexis]

Why would anyone wanna watch you? Because of who you are! I know I'm just a viewer from far away, but your videos always make me feel something. Whether that something is happy for you, proud of you, sad for you, or just happy in general because of your persona - Your videos are always an instant watch because of how real you are ♡ Do what makes you feel good and happy, we'll be here to watch you and cheer you and your chickens on! :D

[@cassandra8495]

I love watching what you’re doing because I see me and how I need to take care of myself too.

[@SimplyStevieNicole]

Bea, we love you so much!!! I’ll literally watch anything you post. Random daily vlogs, your weight loss journey, diys, whatever it is we love it cause we love YOU! My sister and I have enjoyed your channel for the past,couple years we always text or FaceTime when you upload a new video, we love you and your personality so much!! I turn 32 in 2 weeks so we’re the same age, same journey with our weight, we raised chickens and gardens for the past year and half so I’ve really enjoyed seeing you share this part of your life too. Whatever you want to share I’m here for it! ☺️☺️☺️☺️☺️ I never get to comment cause we usually always have you on the living room tv 😁

[@leahg2555]

I’m also at the “fork in the road”. Thank you for being so open about your experience. It helps me to know I’m less alone in that feeling.

[@lorireid2860]

Girl I wish I could have been as self aware at your age. I am still trying to find myself and where I fit in. Love your honesty.

[@nataliagomez473]

Hi, Bea! The only thing I know is that you're one of the 2-3 people who I wait for them to upload a video every week. I enjoy watching any type of content you share with us, but that's because of how comfortable I feel when I'm watching it... it's VERY calming🥰 so thank you for being here❤ hugs from Mexico!

[@Sassy.Sasquatch]

Ms. Trunchbull BAHAHA I'M HOLLERING 🤣🤣🤣

[@eartht0erika]

Love that your grandma got two cats!! Wishing her a speedy recovery. Tortie kitties are the BIGGEST LUMPS OF LOVE!!! So curious and friendly ❤❤

[@pikkabby6635]

Bea!! I've been following you since the beginning, I've commented this before, but I finally started seeing changes in myself (mentally and physically) by telling myself "You are stronger than you think, you deserve to be happy". I was self-sabotaging without even realizing it. I pushed through a lot of mental roadblocks in the past three years and I lost 50+ pounds very slowly since January 2022 and am so amazed at where I am now. In every video you post I am so amazed that you are always on the same "wavelength" as me, the problems you experience, your mentality, the hobbies you've picked up, they've all been so relatable. One thing that has impacted me a lot has been physical therapy, I was given a prescription for that when I threw out my back. Personal trainers are knowledgable but Physical Therapists are on another level. I finally learned where my core muscles are (LOL) and now I'm working on my posture, because my neurologist thinks that's what has been causing a lot of my migraines. I wish you the best and look forward to being part of your journey moving forward

[@abbythewannabe]

You are one of my favorites on KZbin because you are doing your best to try to get better. None of us are entitled to have you share that process with us but if you want to and that helps you I’m glad we can be here to support you! ❤

[@JimmieHammel]

You do make me feel seen. Your craftiness and silly pets and farming interests and even the ups and downs of the mental health and fitness struggle. I see pieces of myself in your stories, and that humanity is what makes me follow you week after week. But only give as much of yourself as feels comfortable. ❤❤❤

[@kristenhorwood2821]

I watch your videos when I’m having a low energy day but still need to get things done… I prop up my phone and do some dishes, etc. Your content is enjoyable and relatable. Keep it up.

[@lionemom]

I completely hear you about needing to change. I've faced challenges in my life, but the path I've been on since 2021 has changed the way I think and approach my life more than anything I've ever done. I left my IT Support career, had a nervous breakdown, have been in intensive therapy, owned that I have C-PTSD from my second marriage which ended a decade ago, and have learned so much about trauma, grief, mental health and what no longer works for me. For me, I don't feel like I'm a totally different person than I used to be, BUT as I said above, the way I think about and approach my life has changed drastically. I'm still me, but I've grown and evolved and slowed WAY the fuck down. I am way more INTENTIONAL in everything I do. It's helped me identify what is and isn't important, meaningful, and meets my needs (still working on my needs, I've spent so long tending to everyone else's needs it's very hard to feel comfortable learning what I actually need.) Anyway, maybe what I've said here is helpful for you. I think your plan to vlog more and be more unfiltered in them, and just document what you're doing and dealing with is great. I appreciate you and hope you find your center, however it happens!

[@km7575]

You’re so relatable. I think people enjoy watching you because you are genuine and funny. You’re like the best friend we all want!

[@Nimmeth]

Those last few minutes hit home for me. I've been feeling similar lately. It's hard to start changing and carving a different path. Good luck Beatrice!

[@c.w2000]

I hear you, think weather plays a part

[@AllTheButtons87]

Grandma got the popcorn hookup! 🍿 That is so sweet of you. Also, once again at the end of the video you say things that are so relatable. I went through postpartum depression with my first child and for me that meant who I was died with in a day of my son's birth. I did go through a really rough mourning period and it also was scary because of how quickly it happened. All of a sudden I was someone else that I didn't recognize. But I've learned to love the new me. It takes a long time, but I do feel like we go through deaths of personalities throughout our lives

[@tinatravis]

Thank you for your honesty. I want to see your process, it makes me feel less alone in my own struggles.

[@mackenzievlogs]

my favorite quote is “you’re under no obligation to be the same person you were 5 minutes ago” - we don’t have to let things from our past define us and we at any point can make a change. i always look forward to anything you post because you’ve always been so real! ❤ excited to see what’s next

[@faithe.1066]

ditto!!

[@camishaurie1353]

I love watching your videos and vlogs because you're so relatable. I know you say you are awkward and shy in public but you are very open on video that it's like a breath of fresh air. I don't feel like I'm watching a fake person with some crazy standard we are expected to live up to. You are doing it all as "real" as it comes and even though I'm almost 51, and you're 20... ish I have enjoyed watching your life change and your growth process and doing things unconventionally, and I enjoy it all. Especially the parts you make me laugh because you can laugh at yourself. Don't overthink it. The OGs that have been here for you aren't going anywhere.

[@tallylol-bd1yk]

she's 32

[@VampireWytch]

I’ve been watching you for years. You have gotten me through my own personal mental health struggles, a divorce and encouraged me to focus on weight loss and recognize my own food addiction. As a fellow walking poster for ADHD I get starting something and not finishing it…but also how we punish ourselves for being that way and give up instead of picking up where we left off and keep going. I love your videos and think if anything…do these videos for you and future you to look back on and give yourself grace. You have WAY MORE supporters than haters! 🖤🖤🖤

[@lenoose]

Following your lead, today I'm sick of shaming myself for not doing the obsessive things to prepare for a "summer body."

[@RelieaYuell]

Honestly so glad to see a little clip of your gramma, what a gem of a woman she is!

[@smm855]

Yes! and I'm stoked to see she has some kitty friends! 😍

[@lesliebehrens7252]

I hope you do what feels right for you. When I watch you work out I think holy shit she’s so strong! I’m glad you have family that loves you nearby.

[@BrierRose2484]

I think you're one of the most relatable people on KZbin. I know for myself you make me feel normal. I love that!You're always pulling yourself up, and moving forward regardless of how hard it is. That is something people need to see because it's so easy to get stuck. The most profound thing my therapist said to me was, “There can be comfort in an uncomfortable situation because there is comfort in what we already know. Even if it's not serving us anymore, the fear of the unknown holds us back. It’s when we step out of that comfort that we truly start finding ourselves”

[@cecyvargas97]

The last few minutes of this video however “weird” you think they are, help the rest of us who feel the same way connect with you and know we’re not alone. Thank you for that. ❤

[@hollymyers5901]

I've been following along for a quiet some time now. I enjoy your content and what ever direction you go it with the channel, I support you. Support crew member from Australia 🐨

[@IDreamInMini]

That's awesome news! I watch a LOT of KZbin, and you are the ONLY channel that I watch every single video because I don't want to miss any. I love your content and your personality and I have really enjoyed watching you bloom over the years. Here's to the next chapter ❤

[@imlovingtheday]

Thanks for sharing :) the “I’m sick of..” chunk really hit home lol even the baggy jeans bit.

[@jessicaboss9950]

I’ve always enjoyed your videos, I’ve never followed anyone’s videos as much as I’ve followed yours! Weightloss, random hobbies like gardening & art, mental health like anxiety & depression I’ve always found you relatable and inspiring. Even the “boring” stuff.

[@angelique_cs]

We absolutely support you Bea! You're so insightful and we all need a real person doing real self reflection to help remind us all that we can do it ❤

[@Mryska]

😢 girl the end, wow! Ready to be a new version too!

[@useallthemakeups]

The end of this video hit me hard- in a good way. I started watching your videos two years ago, I even went back to the beginning of the channel and watched all the ones to catch up. I initially watched for the weight loss content, and then your honesty and vulnerability. Back in August, I was hit with the realization that I was not as stable as I thought I was and I decided I should start going to therapy. I immediately signed up for better help (I knew about it because of your videos and used your codes), and it has been the best thing for me. And you talking about how we can let past versions of ourselves die is what I'm currently dealing with. I have held onto things from a past abusive relationship for years and I know it's best to let them go, and I am so close, but I haven't taken that leap yet and like you said, I can today- nothing is stopping me except me. But your video and reminder is causing me to inch closer to that decision. I look forward to any and all videos and insights you have. Your journey has certainly helped me in my own journey.

[@quallssr]

Imposture syndrome is a real thing. I've been a nurse for 20 years and not a day goes by that I don't have the thought "when are they going to find out I'm not good at this job?" It's such a mean thing our brain does. That being said, you are my go to, watch and listen while I cook dinner, and I would legit watch/listen to you talk to the camera while you fold laundry. You are hilarious and insightful and your journey is fun to watch. Came for weight loss, stayed for living room gardens and chickens.

[@joobcave]

NOT THE FUNGUS GNATS!!! I was at my wit's end with my indoor plants until I sprinkled diatomaceous earth on the top of the soil and poured "Mosquito Bits". Peace and clean coffee at last.

[@kathleeninkansas1770]

yes, it's certainly fungus gnats

[@domche]

Bea❤ I’m not doing so good but this is making my heart happy too see you friend

[@munka214]

I love your vlogs. You keep me company when I'm doing my own home diy/sewing projects. You're honest and open and I always laugh with you at your antics. 😁

[@kathleenbellefeuille5406]

When momma Elmo got in the jeep - I felt that huff…same Elmo…same!!

[@katiewhitestone2474]

Yes to more! Please don’t stop filming, that would be awful.

[@areebasbops]

Don't quit on us, Bea! I love watching your videos!

[@caitlynmacleod2895]

Me spitting my coffee when you talked about being sick of the jeans making you feel like Meg Griffin… relatable! 😂🤣👖

[@DeroDaks]

Many of us are here for you, no matter the content! Is the crazy sea of social media and over the too influencers, you are truly a wonderful breath of fresh air. I saw someone else comment that watching your videos is like visiting a friend. Could not agree more!

[@meaton3805]

Love you, Bea! You do what you need to to take care of you. Even if that means taking a break or even quitting making videos. Obviously, we'd miss you, but you don't owe us anything. You've given us a free gift for all these years, and it's totally up to you if you can't make it work anymore. On the flip side, I've missed the more personal talks and opinions you used to share with us, and I'm hoping that going down that route brings you joy and fulfillment.

[@firesong100100]

I agree. Don't get wrapped up in the comments that say people need you on here. You take care of you and they will find another youtuber to follow.

[@godsfavor6939]

Omg!!! Matilda is my FAVORITE movie 🥰 The Trunch was brutal! 😅

[@ks-wp2sz]

Your personality always makes me laugh. I'm 42 with 3 kids and get busy and stressed trying to be a perfect person so when I watch your video I leave happy

[@stevie09]

The last few minutes of the video is what I’m here for most!!! You really have a way of recognizing the little things in your life! I’m so bad at taking a step back from the misery cloud I get in and pin pointing all the separate things that are each creating the cloud. So listening to how you analyze things in your life or theories you create are both intriguing to me about your life but also make me reflect on not own. Also, I love your personality and your humor! It does feel like watching a friend. We change every day, every year, and it’s fun to watch your interests change just like mine do. Watching the things you do make me feel like what I do is normal😂. Don’t know if any of this makes sense, but I’m super excited for you to open back up and just be yourself. The weight loss journey is like only 10% of the reason I watch your channel. 90% is just you, your thoughts, your projects, your interactions, love your mom, the random stuff. Love it!! 😃🍿🎥

[@patkeo2320]

Currently sitting in the dark due to a power outage, so a new Bea video is right on time.

[@tinaaah_]

Missed you Bea! I really enjoyed this video, and just so you know, so many of us will watch anything you post and find it interesting because we like you girl! 😊❤️

[@simonesimone2148]

I found your vlogs during the first lockdown and have been hooked ever since. Your relatability, humour and passion for random ish have me looking for your videos religiously all the time. I don't think you fully grasp how much we love watching your vids, no matter where your journey is taking you at that moment.

[@cornn16]

48 year old single mom here, youngest is 16 and I love watching your videos because you are so honest and funny. I wish you would give yourself more credit for your accomplishments. You have been able to buy your own home, built a successful YT channel, you are doing great in life! I don’t know who you are comparing yourself to and get down on yourself, you should give yourself more credit. Your relationship with your family and your sense of humor, I love it. Just started watching Bridgerton ❤️

[@midigirl]

Echoing everyone else, keep being authentically you however you show up we’re all rooting for you ❤ seeing everyone’s comments being so supportive you’ve done it girla by creating this community

[@letsdomath1750]

All past versions of you are still alive. Each time you recall them, they are given new life. Heal your relationship with them, and intentionally choose a new path. They all have worked together to get you where you are now, and even if you are experiencing a low-point, you are much wiser than you were at your previous lowest point. Trust that you will find a way forward. Pivot as many times as needed. You are creative, curious, and resourceful. You are never permanently stuck. Never forget that, and keep going! 😄

[@kathleenj1158]

Wow! This is such great advice. ☺️🙌

[@gracec83]

Yes very much true. This info is also part of IFS internal family systems

[@carlasamuels479]

🥰

[@hannahnicole345]

Don’t run cause it’s getting hard! We all love your videos and I’m here cause you feel like a bestie that I get to chat to every once in a while. You’re the only person I religiously watch cause i just resonate with you

[@nanitacruz2878]

I can see how filming yourself and your day-to-day can feel self indulgent, so many people do it and it’s so very superficial. The difference with you Bea relatable and it’s real. This video alone and usually every video you make, makes me feel seen as a human, and like I’m not alone in this world when it can be so dark and confusing

[@prayfastlove]

Love you Bea, praying for you and always cheering for you❤🙏🏻

[@BeaElizabeth]

Always nice to catch your videos, name twin! You always bring me so much join when I don't feel good. ❤❤❤❤

[@Ash-nk8lk]

I’m trying to lose weight and your video with no sugar popped up. I’m so glad it did I feel less alone. I’m at my heaviest 5’4 170 pounds, I have a severe GI disorder so I can’t go number 2 unless I do warm water suds enemas and if I don’t keep up with them then I’m not passing any stool and I’ll get blockages, nauseous and just bad pains. I also have scoilios and had two major spinal surgeries and need a third, added weight hurts my spine more. I’m trying to lose weight, track calories, not as much junk or sweets, more protein, no soda or juice just water, limited added sugars like you except for fruits, low carb and got some keto bread (which is good) but my body and health issues aren’t allowing me to workout yet. Really discouraging me honestly. I may not be as big as some out there trying to lose weight, but I’m considered severely overweight for my height and age plus BMI, it hurts my spine more and makes my GI disorder worse. My clothes don’t fit so it’s affected my self esteem. I feel so sick right now 😢 idk if I can do this

[@user-bz3xj7xv8o]

Please keep vlogging, you are more real than most! love your channel!!

[@lianneleobrera4909]

I love you and your family so much.

[@loftus4453]

Hi Bea. Love the late night upload! ❤

[@melaniejane384]

I have anxiety, depression and I often binge-eat. Watching your videos reminds me that I'm not alone. Your random thoughts always give mine more clarity because you express yourself better than I do. For me, watching your videos is like being wrapped in a blanket ♥

[@briannaringley]

Hi Bea! I am almost an RD, and I started watching your videos years ago. Don’t give up on yourself. Life is hard, we just have to figure out ways to make it easier for ourselves. I love watching your videos and I really wish you well

[@katherinegibson740]

I know that you probably won't see this with so many comments. I feel like we have watched many versions of you over the years. Slowly becoming a very strong independent person who knows exactly what you are seeking in life and you are on the path to being that version of yourself. Adhd has a lot to do with all of those thoughts that you struggle with. Your brain doesn't have time to just rest. I know that you can not be on meds because of your bodies reaction. I hope that you do find the person that you want to be. I pray that you don't leave. You have gotten me through a lot in my years of watching you. By the way, your haircut is beautiful.