Addicted to Heroin

[@Sarahxxxxxxx]

This is one of the best podcast ever. Like everyone says, the fact you don’t interrupt the guest and let them just tell their story is awesome.

[@Girlhead]

I agree- this is an excellent podcast.

[@naomigary7930]

yessss

[@SM-vb8fj]

She's the opposite of how Whitney Cummings interviews lol

[@ChrisDomino82]

NEVER!!! Lie ti your DR. THEY TOOK A OATH TO PRETTY MUCH BE COOL NO MATTER WHAT

[@benwyatt8715]

@@naomigary7930o lol lmo

[@emilyhubbard137]

Thank you for having me on! You truly have one of the kindest, most supportive fan bases I've ever seen. Thank you everyone for your kind words and encouragement ❤ Please see the description for more resources (inpatient treatment, Oxford houses, narcan training, medication assisted treatment, needle exchange/harm reduction, etc.)

[@Marcellestanley23]

Thank you for sharing your story. This is my favourite episode on this channel as I can relate to your struggles. You’ve been through it and came out the other side. I’m proud of you and we can absolutely recover 🩵

[@aoasimex529]

Emily! Our journeys have been incredibly similar, it’s crazy. I’m also a new mom, my son was born 10/14/20 and we had to deal with the CPS bullshit, ive tried cosmo school and college and many jobs with shitty people. We would be able to talk for hours. Do you have an instagram? ALSO, I think that when you found your file at the therapist office, that was meant to be. You were able to see her true colors before you wasted anymore of your time there. And it’s funny to me that she saw you going above and beyond for a potential patient by searching for resources when you didn’t have to, as something to hold against you. That was something many wouldn’t do out of the kindness of their heart, and it really says a lot about who you are as a person. I think you would do great working in the recovery field, even if it were patient coordination like finding people resources. You’re awesome & Im so happy that you’re doing so well.

[@jennetteraspatello8558]

Holy shit! From Annapolis too...also, got my tonsils out at 17, started my addiction in the restaurant business also. ... did u work at the bikini barista place on route 2?? Like between Pasadena and severna park??

[@emilyhubbard137]

@@jennetteraspatello8558 That's the one! (which is now under new management, I feel inclined to say lmao)

[@makeupwithdrea6617]

@emily are you on medication still for the addiction? Congrats on sobriety! It's a process my bf has been sober for 8 mths of heroin It's not easy.. God speed!!

[@geniebeanie6988]

Yesterday, I celebrated 8 years opiate-free. Recovery is possible ❤️

[@ash6307]

Congratulations!

[@alysewariwanchik2736]

Congratulations!!

[@sarahmarie4180]

I have 8 years too 🎉

[@chelseahenckel3352]

We do recover 🎉

[@Kyra407]

congratulations!! you deserve it🤍

[@raerae9212]

I've been sober from heroin for almost 13 years to the day. For those people who are still in the early days of sobriety, or they're struggling to take the first steps, there will come a point in time when you won't recognize the addict that you used to be. It does get better. It may require you to give up relationships, opportunities, places, and other things, but it's worth it in the end. I grew up watching my father pretend to be a functioning alcoholic. By the time I was in middle school and began to experiment with drugs and alcohol, I was hooked. I hit the ground running with weed, alcohol, and pills. The drugs eventually lead me to a person who would become my fiance, but also my sexual, mental, and physical abuser, of over 5 years. When we met, I was still a minor in high school when he was almost old enough to drink. During the last few years of our relationship, he would threaten to leave me, to kill himself, or to cheat on me unless I shot up heroin with him. So eventually I succumbed. I wanted to save our dying relationship. I had given this person the best years of my youth and I thought that I deserved every mistreatment that he gave me. My last time shooting heroin, I OD'ed and ended up in the ICU. As soon as I woke up from the horrible pain of a catheter and the narcan, I knew that I had to change my entire life around if I wanted to get clean. I eventually pushed my fiance safely out of my life, disappeared from my current friend group, and started outpatient therapy. I made it out. I cannot say the same for so many people that I knew during my addiction. They're dead. And my ex fiance is in the penitentiary for a myriad of things including assaulting his current girlfriend at the time. I still have to work to keep my sobriety safe and my identity/location safe from my ex fiance. But being able to live without the pain of drugs is one of the best gifts that I've ever given myself. If you're still here, thanks for reading my story.

[@whittaker6868]

im just a stranger but reading this im so proud of you !

[@katalinaradi7472]

Thank you for telling us your story ♡

[@keandradavis1593]

❤great job to you

[@vali3462]

You are so strong❤

[@jillianlemons]

thank you for sharing🤍 keep going & stay strong

[@cassieblack1776]

Addiction is full of “Nevers“ that’s you inevitably end up breaking …. Is the best quote and the saddest reality of addiction.

[@CHiCguitar]

I just have to say this is my favorite podcast. You bring on the most interesting people whose stories both need and deserve to be heard. You never interrupt. You let them speak. Keep doing this stuff.

[@liarliarbandanaonfire6667]

I couldn't agree more! I'm always so excited when I see a new episode notification!

[@larajayne4934]

YESSSS!!! I just found this channel earlier and I've been watching a few videos already 😊

[@miatorelli7387]

What podcast are yall watching bc she is constantly interrupting and trying to finish their sentences

[@ninevahkathreptis196]

My brother was/is addicted to fetanyl and hydros. I was mad at him for a such a long time and really couldn't see past what he had done to my family and I. But listening to you talk about your withdrawal put so many pieces of his behavior together that i couldn't help but cry for him. He's dealt with stuff that i didnt consider. Thank you for changing my perspective of him

[@seinfields]

This is so wholesome. God bless

[@KiwikimNZ]

My brother was a herion addict for many years but he died of an overdose several years ago. Don’t be angry at your brother, make the most of every second you have with him, he maybe gone tomorrow. ❤ being addicted to Opioids and herion is a really horrible addiction to break, even though you think you are in control of it, your not because the minute you decide ok I’ve had enough now, is usually when you realise your physically addicted. I was on huge doses, 600mg of morphine a day! For multiple spinal fractures, I can tell you right now, the withdrawals are the most horrible thing I have ever experienced, you can not function, you can not think, you feel like you have the worst flu ever with the worst anxiety and restlessness ever, your hit and cold…. Honestly, it is incredibly hard for those addicted to give up. I managed to reduce my dose down and I’m only on 20mg a day now. It took a long time to reduce my dose in small increments over about 2 years! You never think it’s going to happen to you and the guilt and self loathing addicts have every time they use is enough, they don’t need their loved ones to judge them or be angry, they need your love and support, it’s a very lonely place to be in. Please forgive your brother, he is sick. Those that chose drugs, have something to escape from, they are usually sensitive people and find life hard. Xx

[@magvs_mæstro216]

Reading that made me tear up.

[@status0]

Thats awesome, try to be with him when u can safely

[@bartrese]

He is so lucky to have survived that. Fentanyl is no joke

[@mineuser5584]

My withdrawal process has lasted from 17-20 days of pure torture I’ve done it twice at home and once in the hospital. I’ve been clean 216 days today. My lady use was Thanksgiving. 🙏🏼 Prayers for all my fellow addicts. You’re worth it and you deserve peace in your soul and freedom from the grasp of addiction. I love you all 🩷

[@xavii.t7421]

congratulations on being clean for so long it takes a lot of work im proud :)

[@CertifiedDyme]

Congratulations🎊👏🏽💐🥳🎊

[@kaylakayla8713]

I hope you’re proud of yourself and I am so glad you gave yourself another chance 🩷

[@proctorsledge]

i’m so proud of you! keep going! it gets hard but it is so so worth it and you are so deserving of peace and a healthy life.

[@mai129i]

would u say it was easier at home or in the hospital?

[@Lelasings]

I learned recently that most addicts are functioning, seemingly "normal" looking people. It shocked me more than I want to admit but it makes sense because they're stereotyped as secretive and sneaky but when you're so used to a drug i'm sure it's not hard to begin to function and be high. Congrats on your sobriety this pod is so inspiring and raw! I love it

[@macaronigaming1127]

I’m obsessed with these videos found this channel about 1 month ago and have watch almost all

[@morganselina9936]

Same!!

[@mamatae1113]

Same!

[@charliet.3062]

Same!

[@mariyahmichelle437]

no bc same

[@dominiquealaska7490]

Y’all read my mind WTFFFF I LITERALLY WAS THINKING ABOUT HOW I WISH I COULD COME SHARE MY STORY YESTERDAY… so weird…. Thank you for giving a recovering addict a platform to share their experience!

[@Madgoodtimes14]

As a sister of an addict, this helps me better understand what she went through. Thanks again for such a powerful podcast Devorah!

[@jamesmckinnon5371]

This podcast episode put the seed of wanting to seek recovery into my head a few months ago. Today I’m celebrating my first milestone of being 30 days clean. Thank you both for providing a platform and sharing your story. You’ve helped me more than you’ll ever know. Thank you.

[@ashleexanna]

I hope you're doing well ❤

[@luvoi]

hallelujah.. this is why it's so important for us to share our stories!! congratulations and godspeed

[@shae1539]

Her dad is such a hero I don’t know many dads that could take all that trauma and still be a rock

[@hiccup363]

as a current fent user, this episode is so relatable, insightful, and just feels good to know I’m not alone. She is speaking such facts

[@Michaela-ub4ue]

Same. Wishing the best for you

[@ivys9544]

Sending u both all the best! Take care of yourselves

[@esthekatie]

Sending you all the love and support Erica 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

[@emily-wb4fv]

Wishing you the best Erica ❤

[@kylafish]

sending you good energy

[@lillyvanilley7586]

She met the devil that day at work… I’m a recovering prescription stimulants/meth addict. Been in recovery since October 2018. I have done almost every drug there is out there to try. I’ve never done Heroin. I know that would be the end of me if I were to Ever try it. I’ve lost two friends to Heroin and have seen what it can do to someone you know… Thank you for sharing this story and helping drug addicts, including myself, to not feel so alone.

[@nikailx22]

as a recovering addict myself… 3 years clean now.. it was almost uncomfortable hearing how similar our stories were, but it was also very confirming. it made me feel less alone. this was an awesome episode for me

[@cheyunderwood7941]

Congrats !!! So proud of you ❤

[@TheChibiTewii]

A lot of people do not understand how hard it is to get out of drugs, seeing her do everything for her daughter I wish my dad would’ve had the strength for me. Thank you for sharing your story, never hesitate it’s a beautiful story that you should always be proud of. I’m so happy for you and your daughter you’re an amazing mom

[@ericacruz7550]

My cousin recently passed away from drug use. THAT is why you share your story. You share to show people you can come out on the other side. Also you should share because it’s something to be proud of! ❤️❤️

[@karmabrown4635]

I haven't watched yet, just seen the title....I was a crack and heroin addict for ten years. Currently 3 years clean and life is amazing. I went from having sepsis, infected blood clots and nearly dying to now having an amazing life, meeting my partner and having my gorgeous baby boy who is now 2 months old. If anyone had of told me 3 years ago I would be clean and have a family I probably would of laughed in their face. It's been a battle to get here but now I experience a good life and that makes me know I will never go back and the fact that a tiny human depends on me and I love him more than any words could ever describe. Well done to all the recovering addicts out there and a prayer for the ones who haven't got there yet

[@marissamimi616]

You’re amazing 💜

[@bryannawells7066]

my father passed away from a heroine overdose, they said he had enough in his system to kill an elephant at his time of death. i've always an insight into what he felt and went through, i loved this episode and i'm so happy i found this episode. thank you both so much. this is so brave.

[@megsgonnamake]

This is one of the best recovery interviews I have seen. She did a great job! I realize this is a year later that I am commenting, but I just started this Pod recently. Really GREAT JOB! I relate to so much of this story and I just really appreciate the message this beautiful soul is spreading about the FEELINGS of being clean and what CAN happen when you surrender that life and truly make the change. Beautiful 🎉❤ I have 8 years and there was a 10+ year span where nobody thought I would make it including myself...and here I am @ 38 yrs old living my BEST life. It takes a lot of work, but Life CAN GET BETTER! ❤❤❤

[@albert.robles7]

Psychedelics killed my drug and alcohol dependencies - one trip two years ago to purge my depression and chronic anxiety from my system was the best decision I ever made. I've done psilocybin mushrooms a few times since, but after my last high dose trip I realized that the medicine has taught me enough for now. I might return to psychedelics later in my life if I ever find a source.

[@userconspiracynut]

[adamsflakesss] Ships psychedelics

[@albert.robles7]

@@userconspiracynut okay but how can I reach out? Is it Instagram?

[@userconspiracynut]

@@albert.robles7 Yeah, he has variety of stuffs like mushrooms, LSD, DMT even the chocolate bars

[@cannydave]

acid is my favorite, only done shrooms one time and that shit was extremely overwhelming, never again. Beautiful experience tho

[@albert.robles7]

@@userconspiracynut Thanks, I'll reach out asap

[@chelseymakes]

I'm also a mother who is in recovery. I take Suboxone long term for maintenance and it's saved my life and made me a more present mom. this episode feels so healing because I've been through some of these same things. thanks for sharing, mama. sending you strength 💖

[@KaileyB616]

Subutex saved my life too ❤️

[@chelseymakes]

@@KaileyB616 it looks like art had an influence in both of our recovery 💖

[@jessicamasonfobert]

As an addict in recovery myself with 2 children, this is one of your pid days that meant so much more to me than any other❤. It’s incredible for her to tell her story and not let ANYONE discourage her from sharing her truth. I’ll be clean for 4 years in august and to have just a little reminder once in a while that “hey you’re not alone” keeps me grounded. Thanks for sharing and congratulations to you and anyone one else 1 day to any amount clean🎉! I’m so proud of US!!!😊❤

[@tanie3543]

Can you explain why you used 'addict in recovery' and not "recovered addict' if you've been clean for 4 years? Genuinely asking, i mean no hate.

[@juliagreenberg9724]

Girl, I am also in recovery and have 1 child. Congratulations on your recovery success thus far as well ❤love to see the positivity being spread! △

[@chelseahayllar5853]

@@tanie3543you are never fully ‘recovered’ from addiction. It’s something you always battle with

[@KourtneyBlack]

This was absolutely what I needed today. 6 years in recovery and it’s sooo hard. Even through trying to heal all the trauma it IS better on this side! Thank you for staying strong and sharing your story with us ❤❤❤

[@animalover1211]

6 months is so long!!! congratulations 🎉 keep going, I believe in you❤

[@Tamsin_bear]

I’m not an addict, but I have massive struggles of other kinds and this has given me hope. Thank you. Wishing this lovely woman and her family the best

[@BKL6068]

I love this podcast so much. I really hope the ones who believe that addicts are choose this lifestyle instead of understanding it is an illness, change their mind.

[@Emorydawn830]

It is almost impossible to convince people who haven't gone through it. It's truly an interesting thing like the age regression etc. I truly believe that human suffering causes drug use, and human suffering will never go away.

[@BKL6068]

@@Emorydawn830 couldn’t agree more. Well said!

[@MultiY4]

I agree with you to some extent but in some situations addicts have to take some blame for experimenting with drugs in the first place. She was prescribed opioids after her surgery but she admits that was not the primary reason for her drug addiction/use

[@SomethingClever_]

@@MultiY4unfortunately a lot of addicts blame a prescription for their addiction. Prescriptions taken as prescribed as safe. Trying dangerous drugs is NOT and there should be some from of accountability for making that choice.

[@raegaia999]

i lost my mum at 14 to severe heroine addiction - it was horrific. I wish I could hear her story as well, it would be huge. I'm so glad to see her here today in recover, literally brings tears to my eyes. Wishing all the best for her.

[@brookiejai]

I lost my mom at 9 and I couldn’t agree more. I’m so drawn to these videos to try to understand her more

[@allisara16]

Emily looks like Scarlett Johansson! She’s so strong and her story is proof you should never judge a book by it’s cover. Thanks for this podcast and pleaseeee keep doing what you’re doing Dev!

[@LilyAria-n6b]

I had such a similar experience. From being introduced to “hiding from my family” so similar to my experience. So grateful to have almost 300 days

[@itsdrobunny]

I was on heroin for 20 years....I'm now 4 and a half yrs clean. I identified with everything she said. Loveddddd this one!!!

[@johnna3279]

4 years 5 months clean from heroin and I just started working as a recovery specialist at the first inpatient treatment center I went to at the start of my recovery journey!

[@kaylamarie9993]

Imagine firing somebody for being a recovering addict when that could literally ruin everything for them.. So glad to know that she’s doing amazing regardless. ❤

[@alilyahnajucutan3337]

You don’t just get a free pass cause your an addict, don’t get a. Job if you can’t be responsible.

[@jvnebugged]

yeah very upsetting tbh.

[@Selicular]

@@jvnebuggedRelapse rates are so high with heroin. Over 90% people fail within a year, so it’s no surprise some employers would rather not get involved with such person.

[@autumnssssss]

What are they supposed to do? Losing your job should be a wake up call when you're an addict

[@BeeRitt]

My boyfriend is almost in year two of sobriety. I met him one month before he started recovery so I’ve watched him build himself from the ground up. It’s really challenging from a partner’s perspective to watch them go through all of their ups and down. On his absolute worst days, I ask myself “Do I really want to keep putting up with this?” but I remember that when I was in my lowest point (not with drugs, but with mental illness) I had NO ONE there to support me. I am to him what I wish I had for myself. And I love being there to watch his journey all the way through. So to those who are in my shoes who have a partner that they’re supporting through recovery or sobriety, I say keep pushing through and remember why you’re there. Not just for love, but to give the support that you wish you had.

[@ofthesoundX]

So happy to hear someone speak on Oxford Houses. I’ve been clean from meth since 3/9/2020 and Oxford House is a big reason why. It’s a community like no other and really holds addicts accountable in all aspects of their life.

[@melodylee4405]

Great podcast, what an eloquent speaker, her recovery and self awareness, and her awareness of other people's feelings while she was in crisis speaks to what a sensitive lady she is. I pray that all people in the throes of addiction can come out of it as she has.

[@Ragdollcatlover]

My ex boyfriend is a heroin addict. He’s ok at the moment and seems to be having a good life. We broke up because of a relapse he had and it was a very painful time. I still have a special place for him in my heart and hope that he never relapses again.

[@Michaela-ub4ue]

Relapse is a part of recovery

[@Ragdollcatlover]

@@Michaela-ub4ue what I mean is, I hope that the addiction doesn’t steal years more of his life than it already has. I know it’s complicated though.

[@tonyaurwin]

my mom is celebrating 20 years clean next month! 🎉❤ NA was something that helped her find her community, I really believe that is what has saved her in her recovery! My older sister, however is still struggling in her addiction, even though our mom has shown by example how she was able to turn it around, it isn't that simple, every addict is different, and what works for one won't work for the next.... 💔 to anyone here struggling I hope you are able to find the support and help you need, know you truly aren't alone in this, you are capable of choosing a different path 🙏🙏🙏

[@AliciaM5555]

I love her she's so self aware, articulate and honest! I'm a recovering H addict myself, I never thought I had the strength to get clean and I didn't have this self awareness until just recently and I'm middle aged. God love you girl, don't EVER go back! Here in Cali ALL drugs are laced with fentanyl I'm so grateful I got out before this new epidemic 💪💖

[@corben2972]

congrats

[@SummerDreamzzz]

This women is so amazing. Her self awareness and maturity through all of this is truly the purpose for this in and of itself.

[@lbessai5356]

Literally! She’s awesome!

[@skn907]

It's ironic how much you can have in common with strangers. I can relate to so much of her story in my own situation. I've been sober for 9 years, and I can relate to how much appreciation she has for every single thing in life.

[@camgotvaslee16]

grateful for coming across this. im nearly 2 months clean (fent/meth) but lately ive noticed myself reflecting on “good times” & neglecting my recovery. definitely needed the reminder to keep going (:

[@wadewarriner139]

Clean from heroine, fent and coke for 2 years now..... Just remember that those "good times" come with "very bad times" never forget the low feeling that comes with it. You got this

[@artemis4935]

this podcast is so good, this is the second ep i’m watching and it feels so respectful to the victims stories. you’re able to have sponsorships on these videos and still your style of interview and active listening, only adding to their story. very impressive!

[@kanyewest5862]

this podcast is so beautiful. dev provides an outlet for these people who otherwise may not be able to share their stories and gives them full freedom and support in whatever their story is. its amazing to watch a podcast host be so supportive of their guests and leaving them to tell their own stories.

[@kellysendrowski6925]

she is so well spoken and insightful. i seriously struggled with cutting the cord on weed (i know it could've been a 'worse' drug but i was seriously addicted and even went through physical withdrawal for weeks) and i love hearing people who are able to show so well how the grass is truly greener on the other side. for some reason the brief mention on age regression with drug use really struck me. i had one tolerance break from weed from ages 14-22 and some days i really do feel like a teenager that doesnt know wtf im doing lol. thank you for sharing your story, so happy life is going so well for you now!

[@zoop1280]

Viewer also from annapolis! The drug addiction here is definitely rampant, glad to have heard her story ❤

[@tessadowney4100]

Wow this episode was literally made for me. wWe literally have almost identical stories! Down to the fact that our daughters were born born days apart in the same year too! Just celebrated my 5 years back in May! We CAN and we DO recover

[@cerysxox]

congrats on 5 years 💗💗 to many many more!!

[@katmyster4]

Felt so good to hear her story. Heroin addict in recovery myself. Had 4 children faced abortion. Just good to hear someone else feel my pain.

[@isaherrera7059]

8 months drug free. this is so insane to watch and relate to. sobriety rocks. keep going!!!!! recovery is possible

[@skiandcomment]

Crazy to hear how you were treated by the Psychiatrist you worked for… glad they’re the public facing arm of early treatment. I’ve been clean for years and have a surgery coming up, my gf doesn’t understand why I don’t want to talk about my difficulties in the past with the surgery team- they treat you like an irresponsible criminal and subject you to unnecessary pain. Unfortunately I’ve had to experience that firsthand.

[@dezdovalina]

The boss of a therapist office being prejudice against their employee who just so happens to be an addict in recovery makes me concerned about how this boss treated the patients. Out of all people, shouldn't a manager of a THERAPIST office be more understanding towards ppl who struggle from mental illness, considering the sole purpose of their job is to provide services to the mentally ill?

[@victoriapitt2305]

Thank you for sharing. I always look at my life in awe, because when I was younger I had a lot of bad influences around so I have to wonder why I was so fortunate to not go down a bad path when others did. Many friends developed addictions. I had an ex bf who was an addict. I've had friends OD and die. Somehow, I never struggled with drugs or alcohol, I made it through school and built myself a life. Ironically, the same thing that at first drove me to party ended up being the same thing that drove me towards a healthy lifestyle. I don't have children but I have a sister who was rendered mentally disabled after being assaulted as a teen. An absolute tragedy. At a certain point, I think in my mid 20s, I realized I owed it to her to live my life as best I could. I'm 40 now and I'm so proud of myself looking back. You should be immensely proud of yourself too!

[@william1078]

I know this is an older video, but I’m celebrating 10 months of sobriety tomorrow from fent after using for 8 years. I’d really love to come on your podcast and tell you my story from a view of a type 1 diabetic addict.

[@brunameneghetti]

Congrats! ❤

[@kelseyjohnson8182]

I love this podcast. My only complaint is that there aren't more episodes to watch. Keep up the great work ❤

[@agskater1914]

I really resonated with her story, especially the "sit there and crave or..." part. That is really how it feels when you are in pain and the drugs are right there.

[@dizneyhoney8829]

After several years of opiate/herion use I’ve been clean since 2021 ❤ I’m doing MAT (medication assisted treatment). Sometimes I feel as if I traded one drug for another, as I’m not dependent on my MAT meds… but I’m so glad that I got off the hard stuff… I am so lucky to still be here , as are all of my recovering addicts. Much love for all of you. ❤

[@gavinsnapdragon]

I am SO proud of you girl❤️ So many people don’t make it out on the other side and recover as well as you have. Please cherish it and stay strong! Congrats!!❤️❤️

[@ash-is-napping]

5 years clean. Amazing. I am 18 months sober. I agree, the best thing about being sober is the feeling. I’m no longer anxious all the time, I’m not running from something. I wish everyone on the journey peace.

[@ashleysartattack5600]

I’m also from Maryland. One of my ex’s was a heroin addict. He was from Rockville( Montgomery county). And I was such a naive young girl from Calvert county. So I gad no idea what drug addiction looked like. He would go to Baltimore all the time and visit (friends), aka. Dealers. Such crazy tumultuous things happened in the 3yrs I dated him. His brother and sister were heroin addicts too. And his sister also started meth and turned towards prostitution to support her habits. His brother was in NA, but lost all his teeth and got dentures. They were all in their early 30’s. There was so much lying, cheating, and stealing they all did for the drugs. Car crashes, hospital visits, physical fights. Loving a heroin addict was the hardest thing I’ve ever done.

[@barbaranaiman9783]

Emily you did a great job of telling your story step by step how you went from one drug to another. So proud of you great job for being clean for five years. I’m sure your also a great mom. Your doing amazing. Devorah another great episode for all the guest you have on sharing their stories I’m sure it is helping so many watching. Your a wonderful interviewer keep up the great work❤️👌👍

[@Randigirl2131]

Over a year sober from Fent ! Love this podcast!

[@ceresecherry]

To her boss: look at her now! So many people relating and commending her. This is why she wanted to share her story. I am able to relate to her in a lot of ways and hearing her story is awesome

[@Journey975]

Just found this podcast and I’m so obsessed. I absolutely love your style and how relaxed and easy it is to listen.

[@cocodollydear9]

This episode was incredible! I am almost 2 years sober from alcohol ❤ this story was so inspiring!!!

[@deanjackson625]

I'm truly proud of Emily and congratulations to her on the role to sober and addiction. Especially her being a wonderful mother, when I was watching her story I wanted to tell her it's OK and I'm proud of her support group of friends and family helping her and never letting her fall bye the waist side. Keep up the magnificent effort Emily and never let others dictate your success and happiness. Much love and happiness to you and your family. Stay safe and strong Emily 🎉🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤❤😊😊😊

[@brittanyzahn7939]

This is my favorite podcast. I love that you get people from all backgrounds to share their stories, it really has opened my eyes. I have learned SO much. You are such an amazing host as well. You let these guests talk

[@petracunningham2550]

This really brings me back. I was one of the lucky ones or maybe even smart that said id never do heroin or meth and meant it. Once eveyrone around progressed to heroin and i almost lost everything i finally made the decision to take suboxene which saved my life.

[@Honeydragonsalt1727]

Subs are very hard to get if I made that mistake I’m clean now but it took everything i have and more to stop it try to tapper as low as you can or switch to Buprenorphine without naloxone which is addictive as well and when they say it is not oh yes it is so pay double price Buprenorphine WD and naloxone WD that’s so your self big favor taper so low like 0.25 if you can as soon as you can and when you jump go as lowest as 0.1

[@c4reb3ar]

I have been in recovery for 5 years. i never imagined my life would ever be so good. recovery is possible

[@LilyAria-n6b]

Wow never heard it said so perfect. “Addiction is string of nevers you end up breaking”

[@thelifeofceceeee3374]

i recently lost my little brother to accidental drug overdose and a long struggle with addiction, thank you for posting these videos. They are oddly comforting to hear other people had similar struggles as him, that people had it so much worse or a lot better than him, and that all of these women are safe and healthy now out the otherside. the positivity of that helps because yes my brother didnt get out but I'd rather hear a million success stories than hear someone had to go through what my family did. thank you girl

[@harlidalton8025]

Mother’s Day will be 7 yrs I’ve been clean from heroin and she’s right! I started with pain pills and when those became impossible to find I went to heroin !

[@MccAdo42911]

Over a year sober from H thanks to MAT . Working my way out of the clinic already . My life has done a complete 360 since getting sober .

[@c333.]

I wish I could come on ur podcast - victim of childhood sexual abuse, living with toxic parents, dad was an addict & took his own life, battled addiction myself. took me awhile but now I am sober, going into nursing school, & doing well. I would love to share that.

[@puppymom77]

I don’t know why people have a problem with the pot gateway drug theory, it’s absolutely true. Not everyone who smokes pot becomes an addict, but everyone who is a drug addict, has started with smoking pot.

[@Antonia-yr6yt]

Well, ACTUALLY...I'd say everyone who is a drug addict has started with drinking alcohol.

[@kaiterenee8253]

Nope I didn't I went straight from alcohol to heroin

[@brookelynrobertson1909]

watching this before going to rehab for the second time.. was feeling really down but this kinda made me feel like there could be a light at the end of this tunnel for me too. ❤

[@JuanRodriguez-bx8yp]

I woke up one day and shot heroin for the first time ever. I started with meth and my uncle basically shot me for the first time with heroin. That shit was 11 years ago and shit has destroyed my life…

[@Therapisity]

100% accurate regarding West Baltimore. I often look back on those days in my own life and thank God I'm here today.

[@priscillakirchhoff1265]

I look forward to a new episode every Monday. I drive for work and as soon as I get in the car Monday mornings I put you tube on and turn on your new video. Love this podcast

[@themulti-coloredcanary5795]

I too am in recovery from opiates and from the outside looking in I shouldn't have been an addict either. So many of the stories on this channel mimic my life that it is spooky. Congratulations to this young lady for being clean today!

[@belindagalvan9815]

just recently found this channel, and i love it so much. thank you for letting these strong women come on your platform and share their stories, please don’t ever stop 💓

[@Tunicorn_]

I don’t know this women but I have never felt this amount of love, or been so proud of someone who turned their life around so drastically. She is so inspirational and this is just proof that if you want to change you can. ❤

[@dawnchelle]

1:13:35 in Arizona every babies meconium is tested for any substances. If you have controlled substance not give to you by the hospital for delivery. The hospital has to report it to DES per state law. Of course CPS has their policies on what level intervention or route taken. Congrats on being in recovery and keep up the amazing work! Very powerful story🙏💖

[@Em-me3]

Wow I watched this the other day and it touched me and made me think a lot - honestly one of the most interesting conversations I've listened to in a while. I've just come back from uni (aka 'college' for Americans) and have sat down to relisten to this again. I think the fact that Emily is naturally very good at podcasting is part of it but this conversation itself went really well. I've watched a lot of We're All Insane and (in my opinion) this is by far the best one that has come out !

[@hayleyakins154]

i did a case study on addiction recently, recovery is possible, but damn near impossible. thank you for sharing your story❤️

[@Michaela-ub4ue]

Well that's discouraging

[@hayleyakins154]

@@Michaela-ub4ue how’s that? i’m emphasizing how amazing it is that someone can recover. not to be discouraging. it’s just the harsh reality of it.

[@Michaela-ub4ue]

@hayleyakins154 no I agree I don't think you had any bad intentions. Just tough knowing it's near impossible

[@aleeeeeeexoxo]

@@Michaela-ub4ue unfortunately that’s the reality :(

[@notaperson9831]

As an addict who has been in and out of recovery for 16 years you’re absolutely right. The vast majority of us die before ever getting any long term sobriety. I’ve outlived all of my close friends. I had 6 years clean before my last relapse. Hopefully I can get back on track before I become a statistic.

[@margaridadom2]

Love putting this on while I do my makeup. These are so interesting, insightful and informative 🫶🏼

[@VioletFoxisms]

Thank you for this very relatable podcast. I’ve been sober since 2016 and there’s a whole world of of experiences that many people will never know what it’s like to have twisted thoughts. Fentanyl is a deadly f’d up drug. It’s taken several of my friends in recovery.

[@westernbelle7873]

The ONLY way we can change this world is if we start talking about these things. We NEED to talk about all of these things that people find so “taboo”. For the sake of our future generations we have to be talking about these things and educating kids about what they can do to prevent falling into these traumatic experiences. Super proud of you for telling your story and for helping others!

[@notaperson9831]

Very similar story to mine, but I’ve been stuck in it for 16 years now. I’m glad she is clean and I hope she doesn’t relapse 🖤

[@ravenchesser6606]

Wishing you the best, sending you all of the positive energy I can. Hang in there. ❤

[@karmakritik-marywolff]

Oxford house saved my brother's life. He now works for them and met his spouse in recovery as well. I'm very glad they helped you as well & you were able to overcome it. I know it's still a battle and I don't even know you but I'm very proud & I know your Mother is also. “Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail.”

[@graceannna]

Unfortunately no matter how “bad” it feels to come down/ withdrawal.. that will never be enough for an addict. You forget how bad it was within weeks/months

[@ruthtirado2750]

You are a sweet patient compassionate host! Thank you!

[@jessicagrover402]

This was incredible. Thank you for sharing. I’m about 45 minutes south of Annapolis in southern MD and it always hits me in the gut hearing these stories from my hometown. I’m a little over 7 years clean. So once again thank you so much for sharing this. So proud of you ❤

[@jessicagrover402]

The more I listen, the more I feel like you’re telling my story. I had a $300 a day pill habit but I was NEVER going to do heroin…then it was I’m NEVER going to use a needle. So in my mind I was still better than most. Little did I know there was a $800 a day IV habit waiting for me right around the corner. Thank God We Do Recover

[@jessicagrover402]

The sickest part is I was in my early 30’s when I started this shit and just like you said “I LOVED IT!”… I absolutely Fucking loved it. I’m so forever grateful for my boyfriend at the time because he was a big push for “us” to get clean. But I knew my family were the only people on the planet I couldn’t manipulate. So when I was ready I was really ready. I got clean and I’ve never looked back

[@valeriedanette3612]

alcohol/weed at 13 isn’t that normal to me 😅

[@victoriapitt2305]

It depends on your social circle. Kids in my neighborhood had that around at 14. But my friends from school that lived in other towns didn't really get into all that until 17-18 or for some, college.

[@Openjointsurgery]

You prolly weren’t around it. Consider yourself lucky 👍🏽 even SEX was normal to me at 12. Anybody who knows what i mean by that knows that’s really really not normal

[@SomethingClever_]

Right? I have a 13 yo and he’s not doing any of that, nor do his friends. At 13 kids are still very sheltered and innocent.

[@libairebane]

True, being sober from alcohol is also not all feeling so magical and healthy and happy all the time. I feel still like crap and so bored, but I definitely can trust myself a lot more and have so much more piece of mind, that crazy shit is not going to happen every weekend 😊

[@jasonbarney4278]

In recovery from stimulants myself and insane how much i resonated w this guest. Sooooo true! The NEVERs - things that we say we will never do and little by little it creeps in and small influences go from a party dabbling w a sniff or puff and it cascades down to the bottom over time. Long term chronic problems happen to lots of us. No one’s fault but mine but I do wish there had been more expansive , real-life situational education instead of the non-realistic “just say no” BS. I say the same thing all the time - “WHYYY was I never afraid of dr*gs? Why didn’t i have that healthy fear that so many others had? It’s bc of a million different factors but I did it. I have to live w the consequences. I don’t think we are preparing youth for the situations that are going to pop up that open these doors to darkness. 💔💔

[@jaanamirjam]

this podcast is sooooooo calming and interesting/informative, i’ve loved listening to every single story, it’s just so human and relatable, maybe not every part, but i find something in every story to relate to🥹 everyone is so strong and they tell their life-stories like they are reading us a book, that they made about it +you are such a nice host👏🏻👏🏻

[@anitaersson4948]

Crazy the trauma we put ourselves through for the sake of our addiction. Rock bottom isn't one place, there is always a new one to find. A year into recovery now and it's nice to finally feel some kind of stability to build someone on.

[@missMOLLY7777]

This saves lives! The end! Thank you for being so vulnerable and realistic!

[@alexisemo6002]

i think this is one of my favorite episodes of this podcast. the guest is such a good storyteller