Bionicpig reacts to This is what Insanity Looks like

[@gojijynx]

i suffer from bipolar 1 and this time of year has been super hard on me, so i’ve been going thru varying episodes of manic and depressive psychosis. i’ve been hospitalized over my episodes a few times, and i truly do understand how he doesn’t remember what happened. i don’t remember anything of what happens during my episodes. i describe it as a blackout where it’s just a gap in my memory, but a lot of neurotypicals don’t seem to understand or “like” that explanation. it sucks. to the one guy in chat who said “it’s things like this that make me thankful i have control over my own brain”: yes. always be thankful for that. it’s so so hard to live with a chronic illness that affects literally every single thing you do from the thoughts you have to the way you walk and talk to the person you grow up to be. all involuntary and incurable and denied by many because it’s “not physically visible”. rant over ig ❤

[@carnuatus]

Another thing people don't seem to understand is that, if you've been on antidepressants, those are difficult enough. But those for bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, etc, can be harder to cope with because they can cause weight gain and binge eating.

[@gojijynx]

@@carnuatus YES! i binge eat (which causes disordered eating) and suffer from fluctuating weight gain/loss due to the meds im on as well as the birth control im on. it’s literally insane.

[@vampiresgrave]

aye bro, same boat. most of my social interractions are like im thinking "oh man.. you dont know how easy you have it"

[@carnuatus]

@@gojijynx I'm just on birth control and have endometriosis and those alone are bad enough 😂

[@Moerighan]

I was recently diagnosed as Bipolar type 2, it is so exhausting for me so I can't even imagine what it's like to be type 1. I feel for you

[@SweetThingsSourPeople]

Regarding how awkward those cops were talkin’ - I genuinely believe that some people are just built like NPCs and so their conversations follow oblivion logic

[@Master0119]

hail

[@m.donez8]

nice intro pig 10/10 🐳🐳🐳

[@CrypticAlley]

It's why the ocean is so salty

[@taer7097]

I have BPD one of the scariest things to me is completely losing control of myself and not being able to come back from the brink

[@dustyyshellz1320]

Borderline personality disorder?

[@AllMusicalThings]

I completely relate. I was just diagnosed with BPD in 2020. Getting help and psychological support however going into an episode or an emotional irregularity is so scary. 🤗😱

[@trashpanda3544]

I have bpd and I've had 2 serious psychotic breaks in my life. The first one resulted in having mild psychosis for over a year and the second was a 6 month long manic depressive episode. The psychosis happened before my diagnosis so I was unmedicated. Luckily I didn't have any violent tendencies so my delusions only really resulted in self harm. I would hallucinate people standing outside my window and in the corner of my room at night time. I thought my aunt and mum switched bodied. I thought my boyfriend was secretly only dating me so he could put cameras in my room and stream my life to the Internet. It was a really scary point in my life. I started sleeping in my parents room at the grown age of 16/17 because I didn't want the demons to get me. I'm sure how but it kinda just stopped one day.

[@allisoncastle]

@@trashpanda3544 Wow. I have BPD as well and had no idea that was possible with it. So sorry you went through that:(

[@harrison4409]

I had a family friend fall into drug abuse due to her schizophrenia. Her episodes were incredibly dangerous. Schizophrenia alone and not properly taken care of can be incredibly dangerous. I feel for his family and I feel for Mary Ann.

[@earthboundmother205]

Don’t do meth, kids. This is not breaking bad lol

[@KrintalSrim]

He later found an old box from his mother. The boy left the dog with his parents. They put the old knife on the fire and waited for an hour. The man sighed and left the property. Finally, the boy's mother called four cardiologists and confirmed that the boy was alive after a plane crash. The square was electrically cooled. Carter's father, Chandran, is still alive. I love this summer wardrobe. Do you think heaven is waiting for you? Our lives must end. Liska fell asleep, went back to the office and rang the bell. He frowned and nodded. We all suffer. When he got home, everyone was crying. Watch, listen and follow their activities. Don’t throw a black tie party when I die. We are all poor. I remember how I was saved from the yesterday disorder. You can't call in the morning, kid, don't you want to play like our boys? If you wake up and hear this story, you can't run, hide your gun, go out into the sun. Why is this decision being extended? She loves nature and the color red. His legs are tired and his clothes don't fit him. It is interesting that the room is blue on Sundays. But why him? What is the difference between human hair and human skin? Put on new socks every day. The rooms are all black and comfortable. But I was still young. Maybe I'm the devil. I love Greenleaf and the location is great. Don't lie 555 Serena is a woman with dreams. We see it all the time, we see it everywhere. -- God willing, I will return home. Otherwise he knew that many people would die in July, he knew that the time had come and he would die. They say it rarely happens here. Sorry, I asked the dog for advice again. Children should eat vegetables. Yes, you can bring water. He didn't see the dog, "I can't tell anyone who I am." I don't talk to anyone anymore. Not long after, in 1944, Orange County

[@thomasbalderrama7275]

I live there by that police station. That was so so crazy hearing about a beheading here I was really freaked out because I pick people up and give them rides off this highway sometimes. He wasn't on meth at the time but I've seen people act this way even after they stop using for awhile.

[@vampiresgrave]

yeah, i live out in the country so i give rides when i see someone walking. had one kid that was strikingly similar to this guy and he wanted me to drive him like 3hrs away. i dropped him off at the library and went to the police station right after because the entire ride the guy was strange and saying crazy shit. come to find out, this wasnt the first time this guy was reported to the police. havent heard anything about him since, though.

[@not.alexanderr]

i have schizophrenia and i do feel for the man, episodes are terrifying

[@rickashleysrollofricks7724]

………….

[@hellsdementedsong5563]

I can only imagine how horrible that is. I hope you are getting the help you need and taking meds to help you 🙏

[@T2KA]

Seriously bro last year damn near hopped out my dad's car onna freeway otw to the hospital while he stopped me with a seat belt round me while I thought he was kidnapping me n was gonna kill me 💀💀

[@zbcrazy]

I used to work with cops while I was a young, naive, 20 year old security guard. I still had dreams of sugar plum fairies dancing in my head, of actually helping people and doing good things for the community. But yeah, they ended up being like that guy in the video lol. Or laughing at me when they saw a tampon in the shared bathroom. Or making inappropriate comments to me. Violent and racist and sexist language. There were maybe two total over those couple of years that didn’t behave that way and that I had confidence could properly handle their weapon and badge. So yeah, ACAB. Using my degree for fraud prevention instead. I still get to investigate and research, but I’m mitigating financial loss for people victim to ID theft or account takeovers which feels more beneficial.

[@Sophia-vk5bq]

That sucks, I've talked to a few police and they seemed to be decent. I wasn't working with them or a suspect either soooo...

[@ohaiClemmy]

🤣🤣🤣 The First American Cop He was amped tf up frfr

[@kmaldo16]

Lol the "special k is cereal" got me 😆 🤣

[@Snakeofwrath]

On the operator sounding young, yeah there are just some adults that sound super young. I myself am 26 and assigned female at birth but have been told by some that I sound like a teenage boy. I look younger too. Many times I've been mistaken for a teenager and despite being 26, still get carded. My brother, two years younger than me, never gets carded. I have that baby face curse.

[@kyrauniversal]

Then, the girl with the Tiktok voice, which is unironically what she sounds like. I look at that and picture. "My voice is at least not that." The poor girl.

[@zeallust8542]

A ton of the young women I know also went to be 911 dispatcher immediately after graduating high school. Apparently at least where I live, its a very good job for people still in college.

[@nerdgirljean]

It's not just about the strain of the weed, it's the terpenes & level of them in the strain. Like limonene is uplifting & mycerene is relaxing but there are sativa strains that are high in limonene or indica strains high in mycerene. Look at the terpenes in the strains, that's what will determine the effects you're looking for whether it be for anxiety, depression, pain, etc. Love your content!

[@nzingahendricks4128]

Thank you for this! Extremely helpful info, dative wigs me the fuck out and I couldn’t figure out why. I’ll check the terpenes going forward ✨

[@itsace2648]

And actually it's even been found that while they do affect the feel of the THC, it's more about the ratios of different cannabinoids, for example if you have a strain higher in thcV and a lower ratio of cbd, like Durban poison, you get a strain known for the still calming but energetic feeling that its known for, but it's a double edged sword because it's also the cannabinoid that causes the most anxiety, hence why some people only smoke indicas.

[@IZBTV]

3:10 'Rivers of Blood' warning Chat meaning the Colosseum updates and Pig thinking they meant the video, adds a log to my happy fire despite the gravity of the video. Luv ya Pig 😘🐖

[@InfiniteSkiegh]

People with schizophrenia can't smoke weed from what I understand. It triggers episodes. I could be wrong, though. This is mostly acedotal. Any time my cousin (who does have schizophrenia) tried to smoke with my uncle, he'd have an episode. This one time he thought he was being attacked by demons, got nude and started fighting the air. 😅

[@itsace2648]

I have a uncle with schizophrenia and he absolutely loves weed, and has never triggered a episode. So to each their own I guess

[@InfiniteSkiegh]

@itsace2648 Everyone's different and there will always be outliers. That's good for him, though. 😊 In general though, I've heard it triggers episodes more often than not. And seeing it first hand is a bit freaky. 😅

[@tyler1234321]

Weed psychosis is definitely scary af. I've seen it happen first hand and I just feel so sad for that person. Especially with synthetic shit. I've seen that more than once and it is totally fucked.

[@itsace2648]

Idek if you can call even call that weed psychosis.. that indicates its anything like weed, the psychosis from spice is like fucking pcp, or meth, like straight up shadow people coming after you, it causes hallucinations that are so undistinguishable from reality (think the hallucinations from benedryl which is a deliriant in high doses) that it causes people to dig holes into their bodies thinking they feel bugs

[@flunkiebubs2002]

Synthetic shit isn’t weed psychosis, that’s something completely different.

[@InfiniteSkiegh]

44:56 "Indica and stevia" I didn't know weed was a sugar replacement. 🤣🤣🤣🤣 Sativa for one. For two, I smoke both and there is a huge difference between them. One, you feel more in the body. Sativas are more in the head. They also make you more aware and "wide awake" which can definitely lead to anxiety, not that indicas can't do the same, anxiety wise. But, sativas are super nice to meditate on in my opinion. Closing your eyes high makes you feel floaty. Indicas make you feel more bodily relaxed and they'll both put you sleep, you'll just stay up longer with a sat and feel more relaxed for the sleep with an indica.

[@zeallust8542]

Btw everything you said about weed here is literally incorrect and has been studied dozens of times and proven wrong every single time. Sativas vs Indicas does not determine your high, the only thing that does is the turpine types. There are plenty of indicas that align with what people think sativa is supposed to do, and vice versa. Moreso than all of that, the biggest thing that effects your high is mindset.

[@allisoncastle]

Wow I can’t imagine how terrifying it was for the medical professionals and everyone else there to hear a random gunshot :( Obviously it was terrifying for the cops but I imagine they weren’t as shocked and traumatized as people who don’t regularly face g*ns

[@iammyself7885]

Not a big fan of the way that narrator throws out body language phrases and mental diagnoses the way he does. People who aren't knowlegable in for example bipolar will most likely see this video and how the narrator gave that disorder as an example and then assume bipolar people are wild murderers. It doesn't exactly help the stigma around mental health

[@iceleftinpop5353]

yeh I got spiked with spice and the first time was so horrible, felt like a zombie and ended up woundering off into the woods with no idea how long I had been in there for when I was sentient enough to realise that being in the woods was odd I went home thinkin I coulda been gone a couple hours or days but ended up having been gone 6-7 hours longer than I shoulda been so about 8 i think. one of the worst thing I have ever experienced and made my paranoyer wayyy worse for a long time :p

[@Biggianf_]

That intro was truly insanity

[@itsyaboycactus6096]

Man bethesda really improved the radiant AI on those cyrodillic guards

[@graceandginger3233]

I used to smoke weed daily to help my depression and anxiety and all the sudden one day everything changed out of no where and now it makes it so so so much worse so i won’t touch it anymore

[@kyrauniversal]

Pro tip, Pig. Quit trusting the narrator's "body analysis" on Explore With Us. He's only getting the points on "Get the whole picture" because they were calked out for shit. Sources like SneegSnag (who has graduated with a law degree) have regarded the channel as having misinformation with ableist tendencies.

[@InfamouslyGay]

I always felt something was off with this channel. No regards for the victims and hyping up the crime itself.

[@kyrauniversal]

@@InfamouslyGay Yeah! Go to Snaggs VODs. He explains everything!

[@thej3799]

I've been holding back tort.

[@theuniquename5288]

Yeah, I used to get psychosis when I smoked weed a few years ago. It would be super weird and just felt like life wasn't real. Sometimes, I felt like I was above my body in third person.

[@deatherusfather]

SHANE DAWSON STIKES AGAIN ON HIS CAT

[@gravietrn]

the way this guy is hyping up the case i better be absolutely GOB-STOPPED

[@zeallust8542]

He just chopped an old ladys head off after all that. Like I know thats terrible, but at this point after all that suspense I was expecting it to be something like that dude who thought he was a werewolf killing and eating a witch

[@kenzie4217]

I will say, ive had my fair share of trips to the psyche ward because of my meth addiction. Never got violent tho

[@Joyful_Traitor]

Special K is a cereal and we had K2 here in NZ as well but quickly got made illegal

[@AlexAndrushukBone]

Already watched in stream but gotta support ya boyyyy

[@stevengosnell7034]

I live in the deep south and this is just how alot of us (and cops) talk tbh. I was a little mad cause me and my bf have the same sounding conversations about shit like this lol.

[@BristlyBill]

People that say that strain matters are the people that dont have issues with it. I smoked for like 7 years. Tried any and every strain i could. And what it did to me was increase anxiety and increase my depression. I didnt realize it until i finally quit. Weed definitely isnt for everybody.

[@Wherearemyfingers]

i use to be a huge stoner, but now every time i smoke i get really bad panic attacks

[@vulpineslegacy2361]

I would just like to add a point the only people I knew who got paranoid on THC were people smoking after they legalized. my guess is they aren't experienced in handling there emotions nor conquering their fears. sometime substances aren't for you though, like me with alcohol. shit spirals depression for me

[@valkyrie_07]

Many people think weed is just a chill drug that’s helps you relax, so did I. I figured since I’m an anxious person, it’d help me just chill out… I have never been so terrified in my life than the first time I did edibles. I was in my own head way more than I wanted to be, labored breathing, terrible thoughts, I was so scared. If they say this man’s crazed actions was caused by weed, I believe it. Could be, could not be. I’m just saying, after that night I know how bad weed can be for people like me.

[@jakemcadams6177]

Im currently recovering from marijuana induced psychosis. I said things and did things that disgust me to this day

[@monkimallow]

2.5 metres (8 ft 2 in) to 3 metres (9.8 ft) and a diameter of 30 centimetres (12 in) to 36 centimetres (14 in)

[@juanfreire2241]

52:14 Special K is Ketamine LOL

[@cremetangerine82]

I can't believe *this* guy is married and has a child. Also, I can't get over the irony that he said he's Jesus but murdered a woman named Mary. R.I.P. Mary Ann.

[@not.alexanderr]

"alright guys get your pants on"

[@onijoetavious]

40:05 had my first one monday I was sorta freakin out

[@BodegaBoy757]

Damn what was in that Marijuana 😳

[@ColtonWhite123]

It sounds to me that he seriously was having a psychotic or manic episode, and he had been dealing with his mental issues with drugs that only made things worse, and starting at 15 would align with that. I can tell this man is scared and not grounded in reality. Once again, not an excuse for his behavior, but a reason to be considered in court 100%.

[@the_chubby_jedi9189]

So I used to smoke pot almost all the time when I wasn't at work and got really into it and spent like over $10,000 just smoking it and just buying stupid shit while I was on it and a lot of my family still smokes and I'll do it occasionally but I stop hanging out with the friend group who wanted me to stop smoking and just start drinking with them and then started hanging out with a friend group wanted to smoke with me all the time and then I started sobering up and I started leaving the second friend group about 2 years ago and I just recently started hanging out with the original friend group and all of them are smoking pot heavily and doing shrooms and now I'm kind of making sure a bunch of people that I work with they're about three or four years younger than I am don't get in anything worse than alcohol

[@thebestrose6047]

w e l l c u m

[@-nyantic-son156]

I've tried to get high and it just didn't work. Taking entire lung fulls of stuff and just never felt anything

[@TH33C4SK3T]

Depends how you took it some carts are fake but buying bud would be best, perhaps making a tea or edible. Or maybe you just have a naturally high tolerance?

[@-nyantic-son156]

@@TH33C4SK3T idk I got it from the weed store, took the whole thing and never felt anything

[@Silentlyconfused]

25 seconds??? Noice!

[@hayleyhellbound9513]

it’s kinda funny that you’re incorrectly telling people strain doesn’t matter right after calling sativa the name of a sugar substitute (stevia)

[@zeallust8542]

Strain matters, the sativa and indica categories do not.

[@BP9000]

Rivers of Blood is the best weapon in Elden Ring. Don't care.

[@carnuatus]

The people who were thought to have done bath Salts and eaten people had only in fact smoked weed. Same for the fray dude that ate a guy in his garage in Florida. (But we covered that one, already.)

[@mr.creepygamer575]

Hi

[@Sidraughen]

Wait what? Cognizant, but also psychosis? Would he have had to be unconscious not to be cognizant?

[@YuriYumi902]

Fake news. Everyone knows MoistCritikal is really Jesus.

[@beatspopo]

nah bro, weed has more bad than good .... even if its benefits "some minor percentage of the minority"

[@Ziggykitty666]

I can guarantee it’s 99% from depression and not invincibility thoughts

[@Jade_1872]

Favorite intro yet.