How 2020 Changed Me

[@imjennim]

Aghhh! Why do I feel so nervous posting this?! At the end of 2020 I went through all my journal entries. I wanted to consolidate what was going through my mind each month. I'd love to know how last year impacted you in the comments.

[@Boo066]

Love you Jenn!

[@burtonizex]

this inspires me to go through my own journal entries to see how 2020 impacted me. it kind of all blurred into a mess of tears, binge eating but there were some really good moments in between!

[@mauramcgoldrick8801]

thank you so much for posting this, literally made me cry!! i love what you said at the end about just taking things at face-value and letting yourself feel, i definitely agree that 2020 was a year of introspection

[@jessicacorbett3913]

i just want to let you know how much this video helped me xoxo

[@Alexa-cr1vy]

Love u forever! I was feeling so many of those same emotions. 🥺🥺 Thank you for being you.

[@sophiachang]

The best narrator and storyteller. I love you so much.

[@imjennim]

Love you Sof ♥️♥️

[@MarieAdelyn]

Yesss. THE BEST!!! 🥺❤

[@1tbspsoy]

hahaha this was exactly what I was thinking after the video ended. i was like I LOVE YOU JENNNNNNN! 🥰

[@tigertank06]

That she is.

[@knongknongs]

“It’s all temporary. The bad feelings are temporary; the good feelings are temporary. It all passes. So take it at face value, and let yourself feel.” 💙

[@katherinedeng6881]

I love what Jenn said here: "My social life kind of took a plunge in 2020, but COVID just downsized the people in my life and boiled it down to the most important ones." ❤ So true ❤

[@kae_iron]

This , and “What I Learned in My 20’s” are my two favourite videos on your channel. Petition for more journal-entry style videos please! They’re beautiful.

[@xoxobakyt]

idk why this just made me cry. 2020 was so difficult for me, im naturally optimistic person and very very strong but now i feel beaten up, i feel hopeless. ppl around me literally leaving this world and just so many other personal things. i still dont know how to feel. just wish everyone all the peace and happiness

[@simplybychristine]

Thanks so much for sharing your reflections Jenn - loved how you edited and narrated. I loved being able to learn from your personal experiences that you brought us through 2020 for me was a year of letting go of all my plans, and it was definitely a good muscle to exercise as we head into 2021, a year of many unknowns! Take care (:

[@arielatalavera9349]

This video summarizing 2020 felt like poetry. Simply beautiful.

[@imjennim]

Thank you, Ariela! ❤️

[@sophiayuna]

I really love how you're able to create a personal diary & journey into something we all actually relate with a lot. Thanks for sharing jennnnn

[@imjennim]

Aww thanks for watching, Sophia!

[@jadajonesoldchannel]

I legit cried... Jenn, I grew so close with you all throughout 2020. I'm one who never takes advice and feels like I don't have anyone to look up to other than myself. You have given me that big sister energy that I am for others. I trust and admire you and your work so much, you truly are my inspiration. So much love a continued success to you in 2021 Jenn and I hope to meet you post-pandemic in the real world haha. xoxo- Jada

[@rudig5698]

I guess 2020 was tough for all of us. I lost a lot of people but I also found to myself and finally had the courage to follow my dreams and start my own KZbin channel. I also think that we as a society started to turn back to the most important things such as family and love. Every bad situation offers an opportunity for us to improve.🥺❤️

[@imjennim]

It was definitely a challenging year, but it absolutely brought forth what we find important. ❤️

[@dejashu]

In tears by the end of this video. Such a beautiful summary of trials and triumphs in 2020. Always learning from your videos and reflections ♥️

[@djjimenez964]

My 3 favorites points in this video: 1. Analyze who you want in your life, & be around those who you can be authentically yourself. 2. You have the ability to positively affect the people who are directly closest to you. 3. Life is fleeting. Appreciate the life you have while you still can. Thanks for the reminders, Jen. I needed it 💕✨

[@prspctve]

Amen, brother 🤍

[@tarafranklin8276]

Thank you for posting this, it echoed so many of my own insecurities and issues. I started 2020 preparing to leave my EFL job in South Korea to return to DC and start a teaching program in Baltimore. It’s been the most challenging year of my life: reverse culture shock, lacking the social stability and financial/insurance stability I had in Korea, the difference in COVID reactions and having to teach virtually as a first year teacher. Knowing I wasn’t alone in our shared struggles takes away some loneliness I’ve had and seeing how you dealt with these obstacles as a fellow Virgo, I’m inspired. Thank you. I needed this video. I’m preparing to go back to in person teaching in a district not truly prepared while being autoimmune. I find comfort in your videos and they help with my own stress. Your channel is a part of my weekend self care routine. Thank you! 💕

[@xMizunderstoodx]

Thanks for sharing Jen. You might not see this nor realise it, but your 2020 videos during lockdown really helped. Whether it was what you ate in a day, books to read, vlogs in general.. the content consistently stepped up. I was really looking forward to your next video, and felt a little less alone whilst contained in our homes. It made me realise even in our darkest times, it will pass. There’s always something to live for, something to look forward to. Much love from Australia!

[@lucymoon]

this was so lovely

[@imjennim]

Thank you, Lucy! ♥️

[@carloscastro9134]

exactly lucymoon. 😉

[@nancydd1105]

Love you Jenn! I have to say that for 2020 your videos are my huge company, and 2020 is also special that I met you on KZbin!!!!!!

[@hellomeganlee]

thank you Jenn. Thank you 🌟👏

[@hallieharmon701]

Gosh Jenn, I LOVE when you make these reflective videos! I just watched on my tv and rushed to my computer to make a comment. You have such an articulate way of voicing your emotional journey. I teared up as usual when watching this style of your art. Thank you for sharing the highs and the lows of your year. Know that you are not singular in the rollercoaster of emotions it reigned down. Hearing some of your struggles makes me feel less alone in mine. And hearing how you've found ways to cope and regenerate makes me feel it's possible for myself. This is why you've been my favorite channel for 10 years!

[@catherine2044]

Every time I see a video or hear someone 2020 story, I start to cry. 2020 was a really hard time for everyone. I was going through depression for the first time and alone, I have trichotillomania and I haven't pulled my hair for 3 years and I I started pulling in 2020 (not anymore, I got it under control now), and I was getting headaches everyday. I get emotional because it was really rough year. I hope everyone is doing better and know your not alone. I learned to talk about with someone and I started meditating. Thank you for sharing.

[@AlyssaCeline]

"just accept it and understand that it's so beautiful and precious because it's all fleeting" - putting this into mind this year 💗

[@suqiwu]

2020 was a year that all of my inner self doubts and hatred surfaced. I deeply treasure 2020 as an opportunity for me to see myself clearly. I hope that 2021 will be my year to work to remove those doubts and strengthen my self confidence.

[@CydBee]

I love this!

[@imjennim]

♥️♥️♥️

[@loyda2031]

The part I liked the most was what you said at the end “Understand that it's so beautiful and precious because it's all fleeting, it's all temporary” you know people always say to not take things for granted because you’ll regret it or miss it when your gone, but to hear you say it in this narrative just hit different. These simple moments are beautiful and precious because they fleet, because in an instant they are gone. The sentence in itself was perfect, a beautiful description. It’s not that things have to be rainbows and butterflies so that you enjoy the moment, but each moment is precious because each moment is unique, irreplaceable, different, so enjoy it!

[@JulissaMercedes]

2020 was a change we all NEEDED like it or not

[@cosmiccrush22]

But now its getting out of hand people are going to go nuts if they keep this up

[@bookishbritt]

What I love most about this video is that even though I watch all your videos, this video taught so much about you and your personal life in 2020. It’s a reminder that online creators are more than their videos and experience so much more than their videos/vlogs show. Thank you Jenn for sharing 🧡

[@musicfreaak99]

Ultimate “big sister” energy

[@carloscastro9134]

exactly😉

[@Patience2dream]

I almost cried at the end because I felt your genuineness come through. You are seriously such a brave person for putting your life and thoughts out there, thank you for doing this, I think it helps so many of us. Cheers to 2021!!!!

[@tulsikeshwala7813]

listening to Jenn is like watching my future self. I watch her videos to remind myself that i need to work on me for me. thank you Jenn. Lots of love

[@ghiblies]

Hey Jenn, I've been watching you on and off for about 8 years and I've always checked in every now and then but I've never been a regular viewer - until the second half of 2020 that is. I don't know how to explain it but I felt there was a shift in you, and watching this video, and hearing your thoughts, I can appreciate how much you've grown and learned throughout 2020. And it's a wonderful change. I feel so happy for you. Your integrity has really shone through in your videos over the past couple of months and I've loved seeing it.

[@averypearl]

jenn is one of the most inspirational people ik ty for making such a positive difference! - avery pearl films :))

[@imjennim]

Aww thanks Avery. n_n;

[@sashabamf]

These introspective videos are always some of my favorite of yours. Even if we didn't go through the same things, they always remind me that everything I'm feeling is valid. And to appreciate every beautiful moment we're given, because it is all so fleeting. 2020 was a good year in terms of slowing down and not "being on the run", learning to nurture the space you hold around you and how it affects your mental state. Here's to 2021 and taking in all the beautiful moments every day.

[@kaymin712]

Wow, I really admire her courage to share her vulnerability and self-reflection to inspire so many including myself over the past few years. Thank you Jenn :)

[@gjori4704]

This video legit made me cry. The world is unfair and I'm sorry you had a rough time, but I'm so happy you also found healing and had a good time, and let's all bring that healing energy into 2021 and be kind to one another

[@sarahharmonie]

I feel so grateful for 2020 even if all my plans got ruined with quarantine etc and nothing happened like I planned. I had to face myself and my thoughts in quarantine and I grew up so much and understood a lot about myself. Be grateful for where you are now even if it's not where you though you'd be at this point 💕

[@iKajany]

Jenn, your self-reflection videos never fail to make me cry. Thank you for sharing these heart-warming experiences encompassed in your videos. ❤️

[@nicoleisasupreme]

i still always get inspired even after years of watching you. i wish i could be this introspective and courageous 🥺 thank you always for your genuineness, jenn ❤️ here’s to a better year ahead! 🥂

[@anomie1000]

Yes I agree 2020 was like an x ray which exposed all the flaws in economic and social systems within society but at the same time made us able to see what truly mattered, people

[@Thefitty]

I found you in 2020 and that was one *of the best things ever! :-) anyone else relate?* ❤️❤️

[@jacquegarza5550]

This made me want to cry 5 different times. Thank you for sharing the ups and downs of your life with us and for being so aware of privilege, but also not letting it take away from the quality of your life. I'm so glad to have grown up watching this channel

[@carlacarvalho8432]

life is a continuous learning, with moments and feelings, just continue and live! This video is wonderful.

[@potatosnacc6165]

I feel like for me the first 3 months of pandemic is the hardest for me. I couldn’t keep up with my routine anymore, I was trying rly hard to find a purpose in life, I kinda lost myself and was so OVERWHELMED with things that pop up in my social media. But it gave me time to adjust, to be more comfortable with myself, to breakdown, to accept. And ngl if it weren’t for tv and dramas I would probably be even more lost. I’m still struggling to find that purpose but recently I realized, just live in the present, just enjoy what you’re doing, and be good to yourself. Because at the end of day, we are all just little sparks in this humongous universe.

[@annih7385]

Oh man that was so nice to watch! I had goosebumps towards the end! I loved the direction your channel took in 2020 and I really really look forward for what's to come in the next chapters! Much much love!

[@veyruh]

thank you jenn. this is really a reboot. been drifting this whole 2020. watching this opened my mind.

[@blamemei]

such introspective story telling, love to see it 💖

[@viv7795]

Damn dude. Your videos have been so insanely good. First I applaud the vulnerability to be open. I think a lot of younger generations struggle so much with alcohol and it's so hard to see people even younger than me having to go through rehab and things like that. I think having someone speak out about how even just social drinking can affect your mood and life is important. It's not just those that are drinking 24/7 that are struggling. Body image and control. My gosh has that been me all last year. I'm working on it, but it really is taking it's time. It is pretty inspiring to see how you switched to healthier control options like limiting social media, controlling what you spend time doing, and how you care for your body. I totally do the thing where I put myself in outfits I know will make me uncomfortable and then just shit talk myself the whole time when if I just got a size up or switched part of it I would feel fine. What others would think of me going to marriage counseling sucked more than actual counseling. I'm glad you posted about it. I wish people would do it in relationships just as a tune up. As time goes on and life changes. I think it's super easy to get off track with each other, especially when you aren't able to get a lot of good 1 on 1. I really love what you said about my suffering won't make others suffer less. When I feel helpless sometimes it's a good reminder to just be grateful. Stressing won't take away others pain miraculously, but if we can come from a grounded relaxed place we can probably think of something better to help. I hope you, Ben, Cheeki, and your family have a great 2021 filled with good health, love, laughter, and peace.

[@michellesipalay1142]

The way I needed this 🥺 so eloquent, Jenn.

[@babiixjo]

We often are told to remember bad feelings are temporary but it is a nice reminder that good feelings are also temporary and should be enjoyed

[@AjaDang]

love this Jenn

[@carloscastro9134]

👌👍😉

[@hannahkay3614]

'if we don't post anything we're not doing our job' i used to have this mindset too! social media feels such a chore :// you did it again Jenn love love loveee this!

[@miasubrahmanyam7097]

This was so amazingly insightful! Thanks for this Jenn 😊

[@ChristineCeline]

I’ll be honest. I was a subscriber who couldn’t resonate with you over the past few years and I just had a random feeling to see what you’re up to and you look much happier and radiant now than back when I was subscribed. I’m happy for you and this was my favorite video I’ve seen as of late! 💛 I hope 2021 is just as nurturing and brings you more growth

[@silviaSosa]

I've never been this early! i'm so excited to see you back Jenn. I've been loving your sit down talks and your reflection to the new year as well as being intune with yourself! Love you Jenn and hope 2021 brings your greatness for you and your loving family! :))

[@imjennim]

Thanks so much, Silvia! Here's to 2021!

[@kristinastavri3273]

this was absolutely beautiful... it's easy to think that the people you look up to online are perfect, but seeing that you go through struggles that everyone else also goes through is very refreshing and helps us get to know you from a different angle. Thank you for this video, it was amazingly put together.

[@sophiayuna]

AHH I'M EARLY. oh my I love how you're able to create such a beautiful & heartwarming story through KZbin

[@dawnnira7842]

This was your BEST videos. I felt your vulnerability, reflected on my own, but also left me with a sense of encouragement, lifted my mood and helped me put in a different pair of lenses for 2021 👓

[@lolytabella6311]

This video made me feel some type of way. Thank you for sharing, you've always been my inspiration and more than ever now 🧡 love you Jenn!

[@mymoonspell]

Dear Jenn, I'm watching your vids since the days when you showed us your styles in your backyard. I want to thank you for sharing with us your thoughts and lessons. You have taught me so much. Especially to be bold and follow what I enjoy. Hugs to you 💕

[@8pointstudio709]

Jenn I remember so vividly when you went to sf! I remember how I so resonated with what you learned and looking at the list of values helped me a lot. what you said about suffering and gratitude was definitely a major lesson for me too, here’s to 2021 and keeping our priorities straight!

[@marijezwaneveld2821]

Your last dialogue really touched me, I really felt what you were saying. Thank you for being so open and vulnerable Jen, you really make a difference.

[@Plantjournalentries]

That "unflattering" body will be my dream/goal body this year... i'll be happy if I can get to that level of fitness.

[@swisstrader]

It’s cuz your an accountant

[@stupidthingthissucks]

maybe try reading the book she suggested? i don't think that was what you were supposed to get out of her including that clip :(

[@magaaliii]

The grass is always greener...

[@robyn8221]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. I’m still eyeballs deep in covid in the ICU at work. There’s no time to reflect. It’s just do and try to keep these people from dying. Sadly, that’s not usually the case. By the time they come to us, they are extremely sick. I love watching your videos and taking a mental break from my real life.

[@tobefemaleanxiousandblack8425]

Thank you for your content Jenn! I was never into KZbin prior to the pandemic. Then while stuck inside I discovered your 2020 content in a rabbit hole search and it really inspired to take my mental health seriously and try to live a more intentional life. I’m truly grateful to you and I really think you do make a difference. ❤️

[@ДианаЖумагалиева-ф1л]

I feel that I can relate to this video. 2020 was the year of mental growth and search for happiness and strength within.

[@averypearl]

this is so aesthetic and cinematic and so cute aweee - avery pearl films :))

[@theodoratilda]

Hi Jenn, I've been growing with you since I was 15 and now I am 19. I'm so happy to say that you inspired me so much for making me a positive person. You changed the way I see negativities in life to something positive and meaningful. I wished the year 2021 will be your another best year in your life ❤ I love you❤ keep inspiring others, Jenn! ❤

[@MOONBATHING98]

the openness with which you tell stories and share your struggles as well as triumphs is so inspiring

[@ginagaebl3555]

Jenn, my favorite content of yours is when you are introspective like this. It's so beautiful when you're vulnerable with us, and you share your thoughts so eloquently. Thank you for being exactly you

[@estrellasjournal]

'my suffering will not stop other people from suffering' i needed that reminder of acknowledging my privilege in the face of adversities but not feeling guilty because of it and instead leveraging my privilege to help others.

[@georginachiu7245]

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing this with us. It has really made me think about how I can take positives from 2020. I keep calling it my "lost year" because it was all about surviving. I didn't feel like I managed to achieve a lot personally.

[@LiBsTaRoX]

Wow!!! I’m all teary eyed but I just wanted to thank you Jenn for sharing such raw vulnerable moments, to resonate so deeply with us. Your reflection have taught me so much about myself, and my own emotions and phases I’m going through. Your eagerness on self development and self love is so honest and encouraging. It’s been beautiful watching you grow into such a positive ray of light. I’ve been watching you since your UCDavis days, and every year it’s as though you get closer and closer to the person you were always meant to be. Love you girl! Have a wonderful Friday 💓

[@serenag5982]

You are the best journalist, storyteller and narrator I have ever heard and met! You really inspired me to start journaling and let me say thank you so much. My Capricorn mind wanted to plan everything but this year I couldn't so I journaled a lot. Thank you so much best to you, Ben and Cheeky!

[@lesliemarquez8002]

Beautifully said Jenn Im . Cheers to 2021 and being present in the moment and living life to the fullest .

[@becac15]

I mean this in the most positive way possible, but your words made me sob. I'm also stuck in a loop and I feel lost. My daughter and decluttering the house are the only things keeping me going.

[@蔡子郁]

Greetings from TAIWAN! I have been watching your videos from such a long time, and I can tell that when Covid hits, there were less working vlogs but more self-building and self-communication ones that you are working on! Your 2020 reflection video is like a cheerful and inspiring documentary! I am super happy that you conquered your doubt and uncertainty, take care! Judy

[@sherlunavien4997]

Love the reminder that life and feelings are temporary. Sometimes I replay those moments I mess up and repeat it in my head. But it is temporary and those moments have passed.

[@djanedjd]

What a coincidence. 2020 changed me and I'm making that changes this year. This is relatable to watch thank you

[@hellotoday.coffee]

I'm not one to usually comment on youtube videos but thank you Jenn for sharing your thoughts and your struggles - throughout this year I've seen myself gravitate back to your channel a lot; the warmth and improvement you gave to yourself really shines through your work and it's really really inspiring and wholesome. Wishing you the best in 2021!

[@ylv4094]

I honestly wish I could reflect the way you do - I feel like this pandemic has just completely stopped my life and ruined so many good things - my university life, not being able to see any of my friends or even go outside other than for food shopping... My closest friends have had to move away from me and I’ve been stuck at home re-living the same exact day - wake up, work, cook dinner and sleep. For basically an entire year I haven’t done anything other than that and have had no social life whatsoever. Haven’t seen my family. To be honest, I feel robbed and stuck in a situation where I’m watching my life pass by... my youth is slipping through my fingers and there is nothing I can do about it. I can’t learn or network, and I feel so alone. And worst of all is, nothing will go back to how it was before. As someone who always feared growing up without having done what you enjoy, this is honestly my biggest nightmare. And I feel like I’m constantly wishing I wasn’t in my 20s right now... Anyway, thanks for sharing your reflections and feelings throughout 2020 Jen - this video is probably one my favourites ever and brought me some happiness🤍

[@andreaovalle606]

You really are a true inspiration for me, you got to inspire a small town mexican women over here! I love you Jenn! I see you as a friend and the most kind soul here on yt 🤍🤍🤍🤍

[@FreidaValentina]

I just want to say, that while you expressed feeling like you were somewhat powerless; the content you post, whether simple and fun or introspective and thought provoking (like this one), has been such a comfort throughout this past year especially. I've looked forward to every single one and I just want to thank you for the joy you bring into other people's lives. Even if it's through a digital platform. The internet and social media can do a lot of harm, but they are also such powerful tools of connection.

[@hazalsaryldz5209]

Oh my god! I was crying the entire video which has so many beautiful things. I've been watching you like 7 6 years lol. Like you are the most consistent thing in my life. Thank you Jenn for this amazing journey. I make no sense right now but I'm very emotional. Love you always and also Ben. Looking forward to your new notifications.

[@dream.5708]

Jenn is honestly such an inspiration and admire her soo much. She's beautiful in every way and i love how she cherishes life and is always talking about things that matter. And its kinda hard for me to phrase how i feel about her lol. Love you jenn i hope you have a pleasant and a joyful year.

[@lanale8092]

I think its really cool that she's open about the issues of alcoholism.

[@GroovyKnees]

Thank you for the reminder of making a difference with our loved ones. it's hard to want to do so much for everyone, and you're right, the change starts within and that inner circle.

[@katrinastacie]

I think something noticeably different about your 2020 content compared to the recent years was how introspective and reflective you got with your audience. Beyond the visual pleasure of your vids, there were lots of gems for the mind and soul I really appreciated that ☺️

[@livpxx]

Such a great video! I love that you continue to encourage us to be more introspective and to seek what is truly important in life. So much happened this year - lots of bad but also some good. I hope that we can all look back on this wild year and see that we have grown.

[@mariahcanton8]

thank you so much for sharing your experience with us. I'm also so grateful for 2020 because it made me realize how many unrealistic expectations I held myself to. Looking back on 2019, I can't believe how much I was working and how little grace I afforded myself. 2020 taught me to treat myself as a human and value joy and the everyday moments over outward facing productivity.

[@brigitakrista2127]

this is such a gem. you're one of the best storytellers! left this video with much inspiration and awakening.

[@malloryserrano7060]

2020 came back to me as I watched this, and I had to step away from watching because I began to sob. Your story deeply resonates with my soul. But also seeing you in the moments we get to see you, is truly heart warming. Seeing people love the life they live and savor it, is the most beautiful thing to witness. Thank you for sharing your story with us 💛

[@inesinha2000]

its very meaningful to witness how you reflect over 2020. your journey with alcohol is especially impactful. i feel very happy for you. such an inspiration

[@kaylenmccullough4166]

SO amaaaaazing Great reminder to just be grateful, accept the highs and lows of life when they come, and to notice how beautiful the unique life around you really is. So much of anxiety is worrying about what WILL happen, something I struggle with a lot, but there is so sense in trying to control all of what might come to pass, and the best we can do with what we've been given is really enough.

[@carylannebeltran]

Jenn, you are wise beyond your years, intelligent and beautiful beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing your life with us ❤

[@christinasong2066]

WOW. this made me cry :'( I always thought 2020 was horrible but when you say it taught you the most, I realized it DID

[@adrianaluciani_]

these videos are too good.. brings me so much joy and happiness. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable, this really helps to show the true sides of social media, life, the current situation we are in and the mental thinking of a regular human. You are beautiful Jenn!

[@chantalli6671]

Feel so healing to listen to the narratives, it's beautiful, thank you Jann

[@IssariyaBaby]

This video gave me goosebumps! You showed the lessons and the beauty of 2020 in such an inspiring way, despite it being probably the hardest year to go through for many. Thank you so much for this simply beautiful video!!

[@annabellatheartist]

Thank you for your honesty in this! I know it is easy to post only the nice things, but it is so valuable for us to share our struggles as well, especially in our relationships, so I really appreciate it!

[@abskatindig]

Jen, these types of videos you make are always amazing. Thank you for being you.

[@arin397]

I loved the message you left here, *it is all fleeting, life is fleeting and temporary* *the bad moments are temporary, the good moments are temporary, life just goes on*