Day 5 Opiate withdrawal Percocet Withdrawal - Being mentally tough, while emotionally tired

Hey guys.
This video's late today, cuz I forgot to upload it earlier, and then I slept most of the day away... My sleep is finally coming back. So, that's a plus.
Getting my sleep back sure makes it easier to work harder and feel more positive! So I'm really grateful for that.
And I'm grateful for all of you guys.
💪😊💛
Peace and love,
Jay

[@rockinroberta9925]

You’re looking and sounding better babe! Thanks for sharing these things. I can relate to a lot of what you speak about. It’s a constant struggle for me to be a productive member of society. Opiates killed the crippling anxiety that I’ve always felt. Now a days I deal with depression, sometimes I don’t know what is worse. Acting as if Is a helpful tool. When I fake a smile sometimes it will stick.:) Our brains don’t know the difference after a while. It does feel good to be clean doesn’t it?! I am enjoying the clear mind myself. You’re doing great work! 🧡💥🧡💥🧡💥

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thank you, Roberta, for keeping it so real, always. It helps when people are so transparent about their triumphs and tribulations. It's hard for me, right now, to keep my brain "in the positive", but I do know that these "new mental habits" and strengths are things I have to build up, because I've depended on the pills being my coping mechanism for so long. Thank you, for encouraging me and offering such great support! 💛😊💛

[@JIMMYJREVIEWS_thaiM-A-F-I-A]

We miss you . Rip

[@Blondie727]

Anxiety & fear has ruled my life since I was a teenager. When I got prescribed 180 pain pills per month; I thought it was a “brilliant” idea to take more for my issues. I was with a guy who wanted me doped up & didn’t want me to seek help at the time. (Long story) Your emotions will eventually get regulated again; it will take some time. A routine is a great idea! Me getting into the routine of daily exercise & eating healthier made me feel better because it was something positive that I did for myself. I can relate to your videos the most. Thank you for sharing your journey with us Jason. These videos really help the viewer too. 💛

[@rockinroberta9925]

Reneé 🧡

[@Blondie727]

Rockin Roberta hey doll! Thank you for recommending this channel.💛🧡💛

[@CMoore8539]

Reneé 🧡 Love your comment! Sleep is another important thing. I recently found out that my sleeping schedule was causing my Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome. As I’m changing it, I’m getting much better. Have a Beautiful Day!

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thank you, Renee, for your continued support, encouragement, understanding and advice. It's all so helpful to me, especially right now, to see people who have been where I am, and who are happier now. It's all such a helpful form of motivation. Thanks for sharing in my journey!!

[@Blondie727]

These Four Walls You’re more than welcome. I’m glad we have a supportive little community to share our successes & struggles with one another. I know as anxious people we want everything now but it’ll take some time. You are doing really great & we’re all very proud of you. I’ll be here for continual updates & to lend supportive comments. 💛👍

[@CMoore8539]

Jason, You are Very Brave.♥️ Thank You for sharing. I too was molested as a child. My older Sister’s husband. I remember moving in with my grandma, although she lived next door, so the monster would still try to find me. I’d shut myself up in my bedroom there, lock and cover the windows with quilts, lock the doors, and journal. One day my sister talked me into leaving the house, when I came back, my brother in law was Reading my journal! I really hated him, and through the years, I have held resentments towards my sister, because he didn’t go to Jail. There are many of us, Jason. Thank you for sharing, you made me brave enough to share too. Lots of Love and Respect Always.♥️

[@kerryirving2949]

Cindy Moore ❤️

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thank you for being brave and sharing that with me. I honestly think sharing our shared experiences with one another helps us grow, emotionally, and helps us reclaim our power. Much love and respect to you. 💛 Thank you for your support.

[@ShawnTylerMusic]

I keep coming back to you, Ryan, and Tim Crawford. How are you man?!

[@sabbithablood5219]

Hi again! You are such a warm friendly person! I'm following your story from the darkest times up to the present day! You speak quietly but you do have a strong voice and you make me want to keep watching the journey as your intelligence is just one of your many lovable qualities!🙏👍❤

[@TheseFourWalls]

Your kind comments are food for the soul. 🌻🌈🌻💙💕 Thank you so much for following my journey.

[@sabbithablood5219]

Dont ever apologise for being quiet either! You be yourself as that guy is wonderful!😊🙏❤

[@jaimereynolds258]

I always like that there is someone that feels things I feel or have felt. Then again I don't want others to feel those ways. Good video, Babe. Love the Leather Face shirt. That's what it is, right?

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thanks, so much, for your continued kindness and support! 💛😊💛 (Yes, it's Leatherface on my shirt.)

[@MaineReactor]

“A big fuck you!” Love it bro! Listen man, I have done a lot in my life including being overseas in the military for 4 years, going to college on 11 Mile rd in Detroit, to working as a correctional officer at a super max prison and I wany to say that what you are doing right now and the things you are sharing on your channel has gained my greatest respect bro! ✊🏻 It is just about IMPOSSIBLE for you to feel any good feelings right now man but they WILL come back to you bro, I promise! Listen to “Beautiful” by Eminem it’s another song that really spoke to me in my early withdrawal. “Drug dealer” by Maclemore and “No Love” by Eminem and Lil Wayne also spoke to me bro. “No love” is a good motivating track though! Keep listening to music or doing anything to spark those neurons and “feel good” chemicals in your brain! You have to force the positive thoughts right now man and it sounds like you are doing that! Stay aware man and keep pushing through the shit! Here for you man! It is great that you are getting things off your chest already Jason. What happened to you was not your fault and you will NOT let it define you! You are way to smart for that shit, I knew this about you after your first video man! I didn’t go through anything like that in my childhood bud and certainly not saying that it is an easy thing to get over but I have faith in you that you will get past these things and focus on the future. I did shameful things in my addiction but have learned that it was not me, I was sick and that I am the true me again today because I was able to focus on the future finally and try to leave the past in the past. Again, obviously this will be more difficult in your case, but NOTHING is impossible if we want it bad enough man and I can tell you want this!!!! Message me anytime!

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thanks, Shane! You've been such a big help to me - by keeping my head in the right place, and reminding me that what I'm feeling is normal right now - and that it's going to get better. I'm being patient with myself this time, which is something I never did in the past. Hell, I look at it this way - I'd reached a point, with my addiction, where NOTHING was making me happy anymore anyways, even when I WAS taking pills. So, I'm just remembering that... this is my chance here at happiness again. This is my chance at getting my old life back. And I'm not about to throw that chance away. I'm doing this, and suffering thru this, as a way to prove to myself that life can be good again... And to prove to all the people who thought I couldn't get and stay clean, that they're fucking WRONG. :) Your support, your friendship, and your respect mean the world to me. Thanks, man, for helping me see my way thru this dark time, and being a constant reminder that there's light ahead. I've just gotta keep baby-stepping my way there. 💛😊✌

[@kerryirving2949]

You look well Jason! & your ABSOLUTELY right that it is MENTAL STRENGTH!! & Yeah f you to the people who minipulated you & took advantage of you!! Most it not all of my drug dealers minipulated me & took avantage on me because they knew they could!! This is one thing I’ve kept in mind when my cravings were really bad after I got well! I’m SO PLEASED meditation helped you at such a young age!

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thank you, Kerry! I'm glad you were able to find the strength to break your cycle! And thank you for supporting me in my journey. 💛

[@alirpa77]

I relate so much to this. I was agoraphobic for almost a year. Being acutely aware that it was severely impacting my life and the lives of my sons was severely distressing to me. So when I accidentally discovered that the Vicodin my dentist had given me, almost 8 months prior, “cured” my agoraphobia I couldn’t vilify it. I knew what I was doing and I didn’t, at the same time. Suddenly I could hop in the car with my boys and take them places and our quality of life vastly improved, so how could it possibly be wrong, right? It wasn’t until I had been in the throes of hopeless despair that my addiction had become that I finally was honest enough with myself to finally realize that I now had a LOT of damage to undo and would possibly go back to that “baseline “ of agoraphobic anxiety. It’s been a long, hard road but honestly, if I would not have gotten in so deep with the opiates, I don’t know that I would have made all the discoveries I’ve made on this journey! And I think you will have a similar outcome! You’re doing great, Jason! Just your willingness to be so open and share this with others is a tremendous edge! Keep on keeping on. We are here. And you got this!

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thank you so much, for sharing some of your story. Knowing that there are so many people out there, just like me, helps to not feel so isolated in this. It helps me to keep my eyes trained on that finish line - no matter how far away it looks at the moment. Because I got into these pills sooo deep, for sooo long... I know I've got a long journey ahead of me. But, I want it more than I've ever wanted anything. Thanks for being a part of my journey. 💛😊💛

[@rockinroberta9925]

Brave 🌸

[@CMoore8539]

Rockin Roberta Hey There, RR! Love Uuuu!!!😊♥️✌️

[@CMoore8539]

Rockin Roberta P.S. I challenge you to take the sleep schedule change 10pm-6am. I tried it 1 night, and I’m feeling Much Better! It’s more important than I realized. Please try it, Sweetheart, I believe that it’s the cause of post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome. All my Years of using got me in the habit of staying up all night and sleeping all day. If you can think of a way to help me make this change, I would greatly appreciate your advice. Thank You for being my friend.💛

[@miguelsoto5436]

I don’t understand some people it takes shorter than others to feel better

[@TheseFourWalls]

Yes, it's all about body chemistry. Also, good mental health and proper nutrition will aide in a faster recovery time. 😊✌

[@dickbeater8954]

Hi Jay, hope things are going well for you now.. thanks for sharing.. I have a friend that for the last few years takes prescribed Oxycodone..(opiate painkiller) one big issue (that Im not even sure is connected) is she tends to fall asleep while standing up.. its serious because she normally ends up taking a dive into a hard surface.. Im extremely concerned for her well being.. is this something you recognise? I found a clip on YT that is virtually identical to my friends.. thanks in advance Richard UK kzbin.info/www/bejne/Z5W3oIVobtygrZY

[@TheseFourWalls]

Hey friend - Thanks for commenting. It sounds like your friend may be on too high of a dose. The problem with oxycodone is that you develop a tolerance to the meds quickly... So she could be taking extra to alleviate the pain... Also, some people just get super sleepy on painkillers. They always gave me energy. But we all react to things differently. You sound like a good, caring friend. Maybe try talking to her com Good luck, and thanks again for the comments and kindness. 🙏☺🌻