“I Wasn't A Trans Man After All…” Detrans Woman Regrets Taking Testosterone

[@marcusdib]

❤Follow Nikita❤ www.tiktok.com/@nteran98?_t=8hwIaKGjw4e&_r=1

[@ArachnerdGC]

You should pin this Marcus 🙂

[@Stalemarshmallow]

I really hope people can understand that not fitting in perfectly with your birth gender doesn’t always mean trans. You’re still a woman even if you have masculine traits.

[@kellywaller8829]

My daughter is always talking about her dick, and I know its her metaphorical phallus but it still cracks me up when she starts getting mad.

[@SummersPsycheDelicates]

You’d think people would realize and accept that we’re unique people and not clusters of regressive stereotypes to be sorted into the proper category. Trans ‘activists’ act exactly like the mysoginists I grew up with when they think certain traits or hobbies aren’t for women.

[@AMKB01]

That's basically me. As a child, I hated all things "girly". Never once thought it made me less of a girl/woman. I'm in my 50's now. My heart breaks for "non conforming" children growing up today!

[@citizensgain]

Just be gay, it’s natural!

[@suitcase6698]

I was a tomboy as a 9 year old and I even had some gender dysphoric thoughts but it went away when I got puberty and now ten years later, I overall love being a young woman, even with some masculine traits, it doesn’t make me less of a woman

[@gymdilettante8407]

just because you're a tomboy doesn't mean you're trans

[@carrieann1640]

I totally agree. I wanted the agency, though I wouldn't have known the word, to do what the boys were doing. I most certainly did not want to be a boy.

[@champigranja1179]

Absolutely. My cousin, who is 45 now, told me that as a little tomboy she even said that she would have her breasts removed when she grew up. And she also told me: "imagine if I had been born in the 2000's, I would have totally had fallen for the trans discourse and my life would be ruined. I would be miserable, and I wouldn't have my husband and kids!" I couldn't agree more. I remember her to be a very feminine woman as a young adult, so I had no idea that her dysphoria was even a thing. But she grew out of it!

[@stayinalivewithtaylor1449]

I had it as well. In 5th grade I was riddled with the thoughts of “what if I am a boy in a girls body” because I wanted to dress like the boys and hangout with them. I wanted to fit in with them. Turns out, I was a little girl with daddy issues who always wanted to be accepted by men and shown respect from men. I grew out of it and quickly became the 7th grade little girl who wanted *affection & attention* from the boys 😂 now I’m a grown adult who’s self aware and has worked on my childhood trauma. This Shit goes so deep and it’s never just a rash decision. Don’t treat the thought… treat the root cause of the thought itself.

[@JaxXgotGame]

@@stayinalivewithtaylor1449 That last sentence is deep.

[@RS-vm9qd]

Full grown tomwoman here🎉

[@Hela89]

I was told a story of a young guy that was a femine man who believed he was gay, now he is happily married with a woman with kids and still a feminine man. Stereotypes are so annoying sometimes

[@rosablume4346]

so right, for some reason I was a very skinny, tall, broad shouldered girl with a very low voice when a teenager, later when I went dancing I was hit on by gay guys, some lesbians and straight guys. married a straight guy, we have two kids (like, traditionally, grew them inside me and nursed them and all) and our kid`s doc is the opposite of me, a tiny, slender man who often speaks with a high pitched voice especially with the young toddlers, and I totally like him becaue he is very good at what he does and genuinly friendly he himself is married, met them in the town somewhen, and -gasp- his wife is taller than him (exloding heads emoji...) yea, a toast to stereotypes

[@bundan1554]

@@rosablume4346same Lmao , me as A broad shoulder and very tall girl Also who is really really tomboy and thought girly thing makes me weak i often felt shame being born a girl , i often thought That if im A boy everything Will be better Like ill be handsome 6 foot man but then as i grew up i Like feminim things again and now i have A lovely boyfriend who at first looks kinda feminim and shorter than me lol , love my short King ❤

[@wild62meg47]

So sad that Nikita and some doctors thought that hating her period meant she was trans. So many "cisgender" women I know -- maybe most over a lifetime -- really hate having their periods and have a rough time with menstruation. I've even had friends say the best part of being pregnant was not having to hassle with their periods for 9 months!

[@Kirsty_Leanne]

I agree with you. I have endometriosis and sometimes the stress knowing that my period will be here soon and how much pain I’ll be in is debilitating. And at the exact same time I still appreciate it because I also have pcos and went through a long time of infertility and no periods so now that I do get one regularly I’m both grateful for my health but also miserable because it hurts 😂

[@vanessathompson851]

Juste one thing: we are not "cisgender" women. We are simply WOMEN. Cause trans women are not women.

[@misakistalker]

say biological women, don't use "cis"

[@SweeneyTodd1990]

I’m sure no women like their period. I’ve been on depo shot for 10 years so glad I never have to have a period again.

[@queenbeeps9992]

Exactly. The only time we women love periods is if we panic that we’re pregnant,and praying for it to come and it finally does😃

[@CharliStar]

If you are a female, and don’t like stereotypically “female” things : *_Congratulations_* you are a *Tomboy* If you are male and _DO_ like stereotypically “female” things : *_Congratulations_* you are a *Tomgirl* These are things we _desperately_ NEED to get young people to understand is acceptable. Being Gay/Bi/Lesbian is _also_ perfectly acceptable..!

[@boosqueezy2418]

yep! glad i was a tomboy back before all this trans nonsense

[@CharliStar]

@@boosqueezy2418 me too…! I feel so bad for all these gender non conforming kids who are having their lives permanently altered in negative ways - purely because they were given the choice to make a decision that only an adult can make…….

[@susanmcdonald-timms3202]

Marcus and Blair are bothering to put people on their channels to interview people’s experiences that aren’t like theirs. This is decent. And rare. And important.

[@t.n.9720]

Buck angel also do that, those 3 are the best

[@susanmcdonald-timms3202]

@@t.n.9720 Ill go check him out then thanks

[@mr.vorrnyvorrn2516]

Lana Wachowski and Lilly Wachowski don't do that. In fact, they're just jumping on bandwagons. This is why I usually REFRAIN from using those names, unless it fits the theme. Call me a hypocrite, but I stand by my words. Someone needs to open the eyes of Laurence "Larry" Wachowski and Andrew Paul "Andy" Wachowski.

[@rebeccalove9169]

One of the biggest problems with kids transitioning is kids are impulsive, they live in the here and now and have no ability to see their own future. You really don't have a solid self identity until you are like 25 to 30 years old. A 14 year old is so influenced by peers and social media and because it's "cool" to be trans and everyone else is doing it then they want to too. Also like she said any child that suffers trauma is going to have mental health struggles and need genuine help not to transition to the opposite sex.

[@Kathleen-vl5ws]

This! I went to highschool with a guy who was using a female name, wore high heels, and identified as gay and then as trans. This was almost 20 years ago before the trans stuff has really taken off. Back to 2023...he added me on Facebook, I didn't even recognize him. He looks like an average hetero dude, he's married, has three kids. Maybe he's in the closet now, I don't know. But maybe he was just confused back then. No doubt in my mind he'd be given hormones if he was young today.

[@awsome182]

That's why it's so important to have real life same age friends to talk to. "i didn't like having my period, I was different from other girls" - I'm sorry to break it to you, but you were exactly like the majority of girls. All my girl friends and me included hated being on our periods. The first time was exciting, yes, because it was new and meant we were now women and no longer little girls, but after the first time, no one enjoyed it anymore. Many had a lot of pain, heavy periods, irregular periods, etc. This is this myth around the (de)trans community, that they were all alone with their feelings and hence no real girls/women. Talk to your girl friends, your sisters, your mothers, your aunts, even your female teachers if you trust them - you'll learn that the female puberty is no fun for any girl. It's 100% normal and not enjoying the female puberty doesn't mean one is trans.

[@SummersPsycheDelicates]

One hundred percent. it’s so much healthier to open up. But nowadays unfortunately their echo chambers online tell them they can’t trust anybody or talk to anybody when they’re feeling these kinds of ways. I really believe it breaks down actual real life relationships. People say kids are still connected but through social media, but social media is rarely a genuine connection in my opinion

[@elsazarate1982]

THIS!!!!! 🙌🙌👏👏 I've always hated being in my period still do.

[@egghaverr]

@@Alexseyahow so

[@baconsarny-geddon8298]

Yep. In girls especially, all this pseudo-religious, evidence-free (sex-independent) "gender" nonsense has a dangerous tendency to give false hope, of being able to opt-out of your own biology, and/or the pressures that come with physically maturing. I think there's SOME degree of this in adolescent boys today, too. But it seems pretty undeniable that it's much more intense in girls, where the intrusion of the menstrual cycle, potential to get pregnant, often-unwanted sexual attention from peers, or even adult men, and unrealistic beauty standards, can easily become overwhelming for virtually ALL adolescent girls, at least sometimes. I suspect that in the past, the whole "Tomboy" thing provided some relief- Allowing girls to feel like they WEREN'T saddled with all the stress and expectations of stereotypical "womanhood", and giving them SOME sense of control over that sexual attention, especially. And it also let girls ease out of childhood, where sex wasn't a factor, and they could be largely the same as boys, in a day-to-day, social sense. But today, that "Tomboy" identity, which had ZERO real physiological cost to girls, has been replaced by "being trans", which often has a (totally needless) HUGE physiological cost- Potentially costing their breasts, and ability to EVER breast-feed their baby. Or even costing their fertility, and ability to ever HAVE a baby- Both of which may be irreversibly taken from them, because of """"consent""" they granted at age 12 to 14... But even short of full "trans" identity, there's a "gateway drug" of labels like "non-binary", "demi-girl/boy", even "asexual", that are HUGELY popular with young girls, and often start them down the path of rejecting their sex, and believing that SOME label will eventually relieve them of the (totally normal, for teens) unease they feel, with themselves... they just need to keep looking, until they find the RIGHT label, which will magically solve all their problems.... In SOME cases, those labels like "demi-boy" or "asexual" may provide similar relief and breathing-room, that "being a tomboy" did in past decades... ...but you'll find few girls who went DIRECT from accepting that they're a girl, to IDing as "a trans guy"; Those earlier, no-cost labels can ALSO be an early red flag, of heading down the road to irreversible chemical/surgical self-mutilation...

[@ArtandDiamondsWithEskies]

Believe me I'm thankful that menopause is over and that I no longer have cycles or the emotional things that came with having menstrual cycles. Although I enjoyed doing boy things like going fishing and camping and hiking and horseback riding and having my own motorcycle I've always been very proud to be a strong woman and I wish that so many other young women and girls could understand that having a little bit of tomboy tendencies doesn't make them less strong. In fact it can make you stronger later in life. My prayers go out to these young people struggling with such things and knowing that society is telling them the wrong things. Especially when it's coming from the medical community

[@albin2232]

I thought about transitioning for years, but in the end I decided to become a Goth.

[@steph678]

Thank God for that

[@steph678]

Or thank the demons for that whatever..😅 I wish nobody would transition until they get this medical industry under control

[@elena7520]

Me too friend. I'm glad my goth phase just gave me cool tattoos and piercings instead of growing facial hair or a deep voice, like what would have happened if I had have transitioned instead 🙏

[@cdrone4066]

I’m 72, I wasn’t happy about getting my period but I had no choice. All kids have concerns about their body changes, I didn’t develop as quickly as other girls but I dealt with it. I was also a tomboy. I grew up, got married, had a son and look back and think my life worked out pretty well. 😊over thinking stuff is an issue, stop doing it.

[@champigranja1179]

Exactly. Nature can be hard at times. I wasn't thrilled about getting my period but it is what it is. And I even enjoy it now. At least, I know I'm not pregnant when it comes (LOL). Just kidding, but, as you say, my life worked out pretty well too! I love being who I am and having the body I have. Even though I have stretch marks, but whatever!! At least, I'm healthy.

[@TedEhioghae]

Girls and women should stop appropriating the male gender.

[@Exercise-01]

The US sex reassignment surgery market size was valued at 1.9 bilion in 2021. That's why they ignored your red flags.

[@suitcase6698]

They’re all about the money and keeping lifelong patients

[@steph678]

Exactly

[@ivanaandric5703]

EXECTEMUNDO!!!!

[@applejones1697]

Exactly!!! People need to talk more about this!!! Medical weightloss, psychiatric medications, cosmetic surgery!! They are money mills and are not treated like medicine, they are treated like banks, or country clubs. You come in looking for actual assistance? They don't even have people qualified to do that anymore because they dont have to, they make plenty enough just giving the majority what they want. Easy quick access to what they think will fix everything. They do not properly warn you of consequences because they are not required to and want money

[@QuatrinaVR]

Another victim of the medical industry greed

[@Me_AV]

"I hated getting my period" I have yet to meet a fellow woman who enjoys getting her period. 🤔

[@yoninjazombieslayer7016]

Well you just met your first! Mines great. A lot of extras like sense of smell is amazing and long easy to get orgasms and no cramps and very light short flow. Some women actually do like their periods. I’m a superwoman on mine.

[@HoneyBunches44]

​​@@yoninjazombieslayer7016 The only thing I like about my period is that I'm a bird nester 😂 lmao I clean ALOT before my period for some reason, the cramps are hell but atleast my room is comfortable lmao

[@SMV95OA]

I remember when I first got my period, I was in denial and sobbed for several hours, praying that God would reverse it. All through my teen years I hated it and felt very uncomfortable discussing it with anyone. I cried a lot when I had long, heavy periods because it was very stressful for me having to constantly change pads and tampons at school. I think it's a fairly normal feeling, especially when you feel that you can't talk to anyone about it or have very heavy or painful periods. I sometimes wished I could be a guy so I wouldn't have to deal with painful cramps, but these were just fleeting thoughts. I never actually felt dysphoric about my gender.

[@Me_AV]

@@SMV95OA Same. My periods are heavy and painful. They are lessening as I approach 50, but I totally understand, I was the same way i junior high and high school. I still hate getting my period. It is an entire body change and it is stressful. And the fact that is recurrs every month....is just too much sometimes.

[@harutizwemushavatu7215]

Girl, who likes having their periods 😡

[@queenbeeps9992]

Ikr😂

[@afroaesthete3701]

Sometimes I do! I feel most creative on my period lol. But that’s now, as a 31 yo woman. No one likes it at first 😅

[@so_soya]

I like getting my period now tbh.

[@BlindBabeBeth]

While taking the pill for several years, I actually started to miss having my period, not just a withdrawal bleed. My mood fluctuates more (not always negatively) and I feel more like myself off it. The world has more colour and depth and I've fallen back in love with music.

[@windyway2424]

@@BlindBabeBeth I feel more like myself without taking the pill as well. But I hate having my period, not only physically also mentally. Sadly at the moment I cannot have both, but I am looking forward to have my uterus removed in some years. Then I can finally stop taking the pill and still be free of my periode bleedings.

[@ren_theHEN]

I am a straight biological woman, and growing up I was a major tomboy. Still am. I have never had many girlfriends or been too much into girly things. I had some pretty major childhood trauma and was lost, without any role models to show me the way. I truly feel like if I grew up in a different time, I could have gone a route like this and I feel so thankful that I grew up in the 90s. Also feel very lucky to have had some guardian angels protecting me and guiding me through life which has gotten me this far. I appreciate everyone who chooses to speak out. Takes a lot of heart to do so but I would imagine the drive to help others that may be in a similar situation is a big factor. ❤

[@CloudyWolf713]

Hey. I hope you’re doing OK nowadays.

[@TedEhioghae]

Girls and women should stop appropriating the male gender.

[@indeovertuin]

KZbin recommended your videos to me. I'm glad. You help me to understand this whole 'ideology' much better. You're a beautiful human being, intelligent, considered and eloquent. Thank you for enlightening us. I wish you well - from the Netherlands!

[@jamisonfawkes8537]

i’m also a detrans woman and also had the same experience with surgery. i got a hematoma and had to be rushed right back into surgery after only an hour or two in the hotel room.

[@steph678]

Pretty much every single woman hates getting her period I was gender dysphoric as a child all the way up until around 16 years old. But a lot of the gender dysphoria came from embarrassment over female body parts and that the boys got to have more fun for my perspective and the girls were expected to act certain ways without people even necessarily saying it. Luckily I didn't know what trans was or else I would have transitioned because I truly thought I wanted to be a boy or should have been born as one

[@joeyk5]

Thank you Marcus for bringing Nikita’s story to us.

[@Spendomaniac]

It's a perfectly normal FEMALE thing to not like getting your period. I,m my 56 years on this earth I've met a lot of people but have yet to meet a woman who likes getting her period. I've met plenty who have had a feeling of immense relief when it turned up from time to time but no one who actually LIKES having their period.

[@kellywaller8829]

Loving family will always support you. Thank you for sharing your story, Nikita. I am so scared for this generation of transitioners. They have been misled by the medical field. We needed the mental health field to help everyone to learn how to BE themself before worrying about gender or sexuality. Let kids be kids fluidly, boys want to play princess....oh rapunzel's buzzcut, and girls may want to play football once in a while and both are ok to explore for all kids.

[@misakistalker]

that's not love, family also should put limits

[@troutfisher7182]

If there's one thing I wish young people could understand is, that self identity changes continually through out our lives. It's how we mature and grow. It's clinging on to an identity when ones spirit needs to grow that causes so much discomfort. She should just go for it and tell her family. They'll get over it, embarrassment won't kill you, and it's ok to change ones mind at any stage through life.

[@Naijacatt]

Just to comment I don’t think any woman “likes” getting there period. It takes a huge toll on the body and our mind.

[@eleisatrujillo3398]

❤ty Marcus keep giving people being silenced a platform to speak 🗣️

[@DanielleStarry]

thank you so much for using your channel to elevate the voices and stories of detransitioners. they are often shouted down and suppressed. we're in a culture right now of which trans men and homosexual males are the only ones allowed to advocate for cis women anymore, and of which detransitioners are only listened to when advocated for by trans people who are secure and strong enough in their identities that they don't see detransitioners as a threat, attack, or an offense. YOU ARE SO VALUABLE, MARCUS! regardless of sex, presentation, or anything else at all, you have heart and compassion. you'll always be a good person.

[@shAnn0n1]

We ALL feel uncomfortable in our bodies during our adolescence. It doesn't always mean that you need to transition.

[@MichaelYoder1961]

I think we need to explore the difference between "gender dysphoria" and "gender confusion". As a young gay boy I had a lot of "confusion", because I didn't really like "boy" things (this is in the 1960s), but eventually when I realized I was gay, it all made sense. Dysphoria is one thing (and very real), but Confusion is also very real - especially with young kids who don't understand biology, sex and orientation and who have not developed brains. Social media complicates it to the Nth degree.

[@karinascosta1218]

This is all insane to me! Teenagers RARELY are comfortable with their bodies. Being a tomboy is NOT an indicator or dysphoria. I don’t get you people.

[@tiffanygilmore7008]

Thank you for doing these interviews. There isn't enough of them. People need to know the other side.

[@ThisIsJ.Nicole]

Yes because the media wants to keep this under wraps.

[@TrueEnergizerBunnies]

I have my 6 year old in therapy because he has extreme anxiety issues. Well at his last appointment he decided to talk to the therapist about this phase he went through when he was 3 or 4 and wanted everything pink. He just liked the color pink for some reason and he out grew it. Well when asked why he liked pink he said "i dont know, maybe i was born a girl or something" and I damn near had a heart attack thinking that the therapist was gonna latch onto that and start pushing transgerderism as the reason my son is so anxious (which i know its not because we know the exact traumatic event that caused his anxiety). It's sick that you have to panic over silly nonsensical ramblings of a little kid wondering if that little ramble is gonna ruin their life forever because the wrong person took it too literally.

[@decknamen4948]

I have PCOS and endometriosis. My period has always been a lengthy, at times excruciatingly painful experience, and I always dread the days it is supposed to start because of all of that. I have never, not even for a single moment, considered that I might not be a woman. I have never heard a single girl or woman proclaim their love for their period. It is absolutely disgusting what these "doctors" did. They disgraced themselves, insulted their colleagues, and spat on the Hippocratic Oath. They should be stripped of their licenses, and jailed for pushing a young person into undergoing such life-altering, irreversible procedures.

[@succubliss379]

I am so sorry that you went through this Nikita, I wish you the absolute best moving forward. Your strength, bravery, and resilence is inspiring, and you are apprecisted and loved.

[@Me_AV]

Thank you both for speaking out on this important issue. Education is so important. ❤

[@sparkletrashtheunicorn]

There needs to be more research & resources put into differential diagnosis especially for gender dysphoria, body dysmorphia, disembodiment & dissociation. They’re all very strong symptoms of trauma & aren’t distinguished well enough. I think a lot of ppl are suffering from trauma & viewing their symptoms through gendered framework is causing misdiagnosis. We need more comprehensive, trauma-informed mental healthcare

[@Queenbbyj]

I hope Nikita finds the inner peace she deservers 😊

[@boxonothing4087]

I think too many ignore the fact you can't detransition, you can never return to what you once were. Some changes can be partially reversed but some significant ones can never be reversed.

[@Beingamomrules]

Thanks for addressing these issues; a much needed conversation to be had!

[@roselyn132]

So just to clarify that complication....it's called a hematoma, and basically it means there was residual bleeding occurring under the skin, in a large enough amount to create a bump or sack of blood. Small hematomas are not necessarily serious, just concerning. Large ones like what this person is describing, means the body is still experiencing significant bleeding, and if it is not controlled/stopped, the person can go into shock due to blood loss. Even though the blood hasn't left the body, it is out of circulation and unusable, which causes the person's blood pressure to tank. This is very dangerous, and can occur as a result of virtually any major surgery. Scary stuff. I'm glad she is ok.

[@shifterofshape]

Tragic.

[@eleisatrujillo3398]

😊❤hello 👋 I hope you are doing well today

[@aryella7107]

"I hated getting my period" is not a valid reason to transition lmao... none of us fucking like bleeding for a week and being in crippling pain lmao

[@beentheredonethat6219]

If she was diagnosed with depression, they should have gone deeper into that! Often that is caused by childhood trauma, and that should have been required to have more Therapy before any transition is started! That is why there are so many de-transitioners.

[@DJRazorgirl826]

It's actually refreshing to hear a story where the detrans person wasn't immediately bullied. But, that is definitely a personal issue when people get mean.

[@Kwillkwil]

I just want to give her a hug❤

[@TheCentristChad]

The Tomboys are going extinct

[@pamelabye7509]

She has such a calming aura. And she has such a good perspective and understanding of how it impacts everyone. And instead of blaming just speaking facts. They need to learn more about dysphoria before they encourage any more kids to alter their bodies forever with no takes backsies.

[@therealgrimreaper68]

All detrans stories go like this- 'I didn't fit in", "I hated my body"

[@noladavis5085]

What a brave lady. The fact that she cares about how it will affect others, shows what a lovely lady she is. There's no self centeredness. Everyone should be able to tell their story.

[@shereeroth191]

Now that I have passed menopause, I don't miss the cramps and bitchiness......yes, hard to be a woman, but so beautiful! I miss the days when you just could be hetero, gay, lesbian, bi or trans....we were much more inclusive back in the day.

[@DawnieG]

Young females transitioning is so similar to all the girls with EDs during my youth.

[@ClayMastah344]

A lot of them have both Ed’s and transition

[@antivirusdictionary]

I don't know one woman in my life that doesn't hate her period ( small exception after some unprotected sex to confirm you aren't pregnant). This is not a good symptom.

[@ivanaandric5703]

I love the "small exeption" part 😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣

[@dg9531]

I understood her reluctance to start telling her family that now she was detrans. My daughter from age 17 to age 30 was a lesbian, and I don't mean in name only. She had 3 very serious relationships, one with whom she actually bought a house with and was engaged to. She was very active in the lifestyle. This started in 1991, when being gay wasn't such an easy thing. It took me a year to be open about her gay lifestyle with my friends, and their negative reaction made me kind of back off from telling people. When she was 30, she started feeling differently and divided her self from the lgb community. My massage therapist was a lesbian, she was very upset when I told her my daughter no longer considered herself gay. I actually found it really difficult to let my friends and family know my daughter had changed her lifestyle and no longer considered herself gay. They had seen how I had struggled at the beginning to deal with the gay issue, and I had fully accepted it and her partners. So now I had to say, oh guess what, no longer gay. People claim this doesn't happen, but it actually does.

[@NKanchevful]

Probably just bisexual

[@Burkwood]

She's so intelligent and well-spoken. And as a heterosexual man, I think she's very beautiful and charming :) I wish her all the best. And you too, Marcus 💛

[@ThisIsJ.Nicole]

I had a friend that announced on social media that he was going to transition. He had made up his mind. I immediately text him and let him know how beautifully and wonderfully made he was and that I always thought he was special and beautiful and unique and that there was no one like him. He's still a man. Sometimes it just takes reaching out to someone and letting them know they matter. Trauma is a big factor and its upsetting that the medical community just completely overlooked that. All they see is money. And now these organizations are trying to reach out to kids.

[@baronessboomer3865]

Thank you so much, Nikita, for speaking up & sharing your story. It's incredibly important for young people to hear from those of you who have lived through it share your experiences. Unfortunately, far too many children & teenagers only hear the propaganda, & make irreversible choices when they are too young to understand the potential long term consequences. I'm sending you love, support, respect & so much appreciation for your bravery. Bless you Sweetheart. 💖

[@kimj5037]

Thank you for sharing your story, Nikita.

[@lindylou1471]

It’s so ridiculous that normal things/feelings that most people go through are now made out to mean that you are not normal and have to start chopping off body parts. It’s absolutely criminal!

[@Veritasominavincit]

And no Doctor suggested she go on depo contraceptive injections (implant and patches also options), this will generally make you amenorrheac (stop your periods whilst you use it) and is a lot lot lot less drastic.

[@ArachnerdGC]

They were doing this for teenage girls back in the 70s using the contraceptive pill. My sister took it to give her lighter, less painful periods. I suffered even worse from heavy flow and pain but my mother wouldn't allow the doctor to prescribe it for me, because she claimed I was "boy crazy". My sister is a lesbian, although our mum didn't know that at the time. She only knew that I had (what was a totally normal) interest in boys that my sister did not. (Turns out I'm bi anyway 😂) My sister and I were both tomboys. I know without doubt that if I were a teen today I'd be proclaiming myself trans. I'm so happy to have been a teen in the seventies when this nonsense wasn't being pushed on to kids.

[@labitcoineragt3596]

I think they will support you no matter what if they supported you to transition already. You have a good support system and the most important thing is that you live your life in the most true and comfortable way to yourself. I wish you success! ❤

[@AnabolicCoachMR]

This is a very good video. My girlfriend is 5’7” muscular a lot of people nothing she said transgender but she’s very pretty feminine what she walk the way she act she has muscle before. This was not a problem. There was a woman with muscle, but now people are confused because the woman has muscle or like to do activities of men doesn’t mean she’s a man it’s a woman with muscular I’ve been all my life I’ve been around women like that, even when they have a lot of muscle, very feminine, like the woman.

[@ShineOnBenevolentSun]

No person has the right to make these kinds of life-altering decision for a competent adult. A child especially does not have that right, including making lifelong decisions for the future adult they will become (and hopefully live as for longer than they were a child.)

[@boj353boy]

It's good that they talk about mental illness. They are both nice young ladies. I will pray for their soul, especially for the butch one.

[@paulfrels3590]

This person has Really been through So much, and So much stronger than she can Ever know. Bless you on your life’s journey. Marcus 👍👍👍👍❤️

[@alyross3081]

This interview may be the first one where I heard a person cry for the feelings of her family. Usually the crying is for themselves…..non support, name calling, getting kicked out. This young woman cries because she feels empathy for her family having to go through this with her. You’ll be ok, friend. 😊

[@QueSeraSeraaaa]

I have a friend who is also a dertrans and hated by the trans community for aknowledging how this isn't how he would feel happier that way. They were batshit crazy over him..

[@linusgustafsson2629]

It is a cult of narcissists after all. The worst thing you can do is say something that could make less people transition and join their cult. Like saying you are still unhappy, or that you want to detransition, or that you understand people who don't want trans women in women's sports. But as long as you hype up the cult and praise it, you are the most welcome member ever.

[@QueSeraSeraaaa]

@@linusgustafsson2629 ain't gonna feed their cultish behavior, nor i will aknowledge them the "same" as us, women. They are perverted guys maskarading as living parodies, and think we will listen to them.

[@chimanruler15]

Cool! Another interview!

[@mrs.w8193]

a lot of women HATE our periods, and some think it’s a the very least a nuisance. Period that’s shouldn’t be one of the reasons to start puberty blockers. I have to have blood transfusions, have debilitating pains, anemia and other symptoms. It’s a common feeling with women.

[@sarabadara]

Marcus, I respect your intellectual integrity and the work you do. I also wanted to share my honest thought that you are so damn attractive and masculine. I am a straight cis woman and find you so attractive. I wanted to share this and hope not to sound creepy, I mean it solely as a compliment and not to objectify you!

[@windyway2424]

Thanks for sharing your story. I can totally relate to it. I dont fit in the female gender roles at all, and struggled a long time with it. Actually not because I cared about it, but because I had the feeling I dont fit for the society and therefore I often felt like becoming "male" would be the solution. I mean even as a little kid I never played with dolls, I loved all ball sports, had only male friends, I never wear make up, skirts or dresses. I am really good at physics, chemistry, maths and having children was and still is my absolute nightmare. I love adrenalin rush, I like playing poker, I hate romantic comedies and so on. I was ashamed of my growing breasts, but having my period was the most horrible thing, because it reminded me everytime that my body is able to give birth, which I reject with every part of my body, brain, soul and heart. And what I really hated was when people assumed just because I am a girl/woman I certainly have the wish of having children and becoming a mother. This "social expectation" actually was the main reason I wanted to be male. If men say, they dont want children, it always was/is accepted, but if a female (I) said it, everybody started to argue with me. I totally hated it and still hate it, its just unfair and in fact sexism. At least with ~16y - after 5-6 years- I could finally accept the fact, that I have breasts. I never had problems with my voice and I didnt wish for having a beard, a p*nis, a different/male hairline or something like that. I started played in the school basektball team (open for all but I was the only girl there) at that time and there was this boy who always wore eyeliner. He was 17y, probably shorter than the average man, but quite muscular/athletic and the best player of our school basketball team. And yeah, Idk but I was kinda impressed that he didnt care about wearing eyeliner or what others might think of it. Especially because he had this quite muscular body, which most people consider as quite masculine, wearing eyeliner seemed to be a bigger/stronger contradiction than in a boy/man which overall looks more feminine. Actually seeing somebody who just gave a f*ck helped me a lot in accepting that I can be whatever I want to be, that I dont have to fit in any gender role or stereotype and if the society has a problem with that, its not me who has to change but the society. I dont have to please anybody than myself and I dont have to fulfill anybodys gender role expectations. So I am thankful that this trans activism wasnt such a thing when I was young, because I probably would have chosen to transition, but I think out of the wrong reasons. I am now 28 and sometimes even wear make up. I still dont fit in any other gender roles and having children would still be my absolute nightmare, but I learned thats totally okey and has nothing to do with beeing a woman/female. And I think its important to mention, that many kids/teens struggle during their puberty and reject their changing body. Thats not something "unusual" and not immediately a sign that they are transsexual. Just give them time. In many cases they will arrange and accept it after some time. And if not, they need to figure out why they feel that way and if it really is gender dysphoria.

[@Octarin]

There's nothing wrong with being a later bloomer. Feeling uncomfortable with your body and tour sexuality is part of adolescence. So is being confused and undecided. Not being a girly girl or a man's man doesn't mean you aren't your sex. Whoever gives people the idea that there's a manual to be followed here needs a good slap. We all do it differently. There is no right way one size fits all. I wish she didn't have to go through this, and I wish someone in her close environment had taken the time to tell her those few simple things before this tragedy happened.

[@fredascher9412]

I just discovered you, and I'm very impressed by your maturity and insight. I was twice your age before I had the grasp on life that you have. I would love to talk to you sometime - I am a gay conservative who scratches my head at the times we live in. As you mentioned in one of your commentaries, we live at a time when LGBT is totally acceptable in the West, and somehow it isn't enough! Keep up the great work!

[@taylersherman1687]

Im trying to understand so someone please explain. As a woman i can say ive never met a girl or woman that didn't hate having a period. From the first one, we hate it. It sucks and we all know it. How is that a qualification for transgender affirmation surgies or even hormone blockers/ therapy?

[@catwalkster]

Your transition is going so well. You look really male now. Very good. Greetings from the Netherlands 🇳🇱

[@michelleruss9877]

I'm sorry for them. Change is natural. It's ok to change your mind. Your family will be ok. They want you to be happy, I know they do.

[@Jdrfam]

‘Pretending’ is the key word.

[@alissonvonderlane862]

8:00 so EVEN with good mental health screening we still have de transitions... 😢

[@usagiroxie]

The healthcare system is a business. It's about money. Trans people are a lifelong patient, so that's gold to them. I also find mental healthcare to be equally predatory. Malpractice and false belief spreading like wildfires. It seems to me that there's a lot more detrans women speaking out about this than detrans men. Do you think societal expectations for men is a factor in their silence? I appreciate those that do speak up to prevent others from being victimised.

[@slange1829]

I'm interested to know which blood results were negatively impacted by the testosterone.

[@Sjivje]

This is what I feared in this day and age. I also grew up as what people would label as a tomboy. I was very much one of the boys. I felt mentally more aligned to them than to girls. I loved dressing comfortably and easily. Thing that didn't hurt like cramped shoes or cramped pants or things that were annoying to take into account when you're playing outside like a dress or a skirt. So I picked shoes store sellers would say were normally for boys. Clothes that had cuts that were more similar to boys clothes. Short hair not because of myself but because of my mom who always told the hairdresser to cut it above shoulder length. I hated anything girly. Anything pink. Girls were obnoxious to me too because they talked about things I found a waste of time. Fucking MTV or "that hot boy" or "hot celebrities" and shit. Dresses, makeup, BRAS???? wtf we were in elementary school. I liked stuff like martial arts, playing football (soccer), watching cartoons(anime) like Dragonball Z, climbing, overly competitive because I loved being the best at stuff, building/creating/inventing, computers (which became my profession, I am a computer scientist), science, video games, etc. In the 90s, this was seen as being very boy-ish. Even my mom could me 'half a boy'. And nowadays, I look pretty feminine. I told my mom to stop telling the hairdresser to cut off so much everytime we went and then I was free to decide how much I wanted to cut off. I went from having 10cm cut off each and every time to 2cm. That caused my hair to grow so long that by the time I started university, my hair was almost knee-length (I'm Indian born and raised in the Netherlands). When I was 15 I got more famiiar with Asian fashion styles (mostly Japanese) and that was the first time in my life where a fashion style made me feel all giddy. So I started indulging and I realised I could look feminine, cool, tough, ánd be comfortable all in one! So that wass the turning point for my appearance. I am a fan of pants and with this style, still could wear them plenty while still looking feminine! That was unheard of for me. So that developed and by the time I was 19, I reached peak femininity. Had been doing my makeup everyday since I was 15. Started really investing into more girly clothes that I could combine with pants ánd were comfortable. But I also liked cool/tough looking clothes that were also cute-looking and that's how I got familiar with more Korean and Chinese styles. Anyway, I was also always into creative stuff ánd have long growing sturdy nails as well which I loved so I polished them ever since I was 12/13 and now have a humongous collection of nail polish and tools, haha. I love looking elegant, cute, and sexy all at the same time. Often incorporated with dark stuff as I am also very much still into goth stuff. I loved cross-dressing when I was younger. I still do but my breasts are huge so I can't really hide them successfully anymore. What I'm trying to say with this very summarized version of my life, is that how one's inner self is coming to expression on the outside, doesn't mean the outside is fully reflecting the complete person on the inside. I never claimed to be a tomboy but that is how I came across to others. I just always felt like me and other people's perceptions were just that, perceptions. Why can't I be a woman and be like the aforementioned? Because only my appearance has changed over time. I still am the same person on the inside. I still hate pink and overly girly stuff, yes. And the vast majority of my friends are still male. However, when you study something you love, you meet more like-minded people so I met women during my studies who were more alike to who I am. And now I also have some good female friends (: Again, why are others making people like us feel that they are trans bassed on so little information they have on us? It's fully growing out of assumpttions. Being 'boy-ish' is a socially constructed concept. Without it, I'm just a woman. Sure, different from many but we aren't a collective entity and that's the issue here. Women ánd men being made to feel like we should think like a collective. We are individuals. There's no reason for concern nor panic just because I don't fit in what is perceived to be the majority. I still am just as much a woman. I just have a brain that thinks differently which should be nothing thát surprising. Protect kids ánd adults from rashly thinking/assuming someone is trans just because they don't fit in gender stereotypes.

[@ivanaandric5703]

Wright a book maybe.. just sayin

[@mizuwaoo6190]

Shame on the doctors and counselors if they did purposely ignored the red flags. I just don't know because she did say to them that nothing else worked. Wish she had more time to expand on the red flags and her saying that she tried other options and telling them that.

[@palmanardozza2041]

I can't help but wonder if this brave soul felt the need to transition to a man due to the lack of positive male influence in her life. Being that her father wasn't in the picture, I imagine she was starved for a male role model to call her own. I have my own history with a father who wasn't very present during my childhood. I felt the same need for male approval but sought it out a different way before ultimately getting help through therapy that helped me create healthier expectations about life.

[@hellbound9136]

I honestly don't think that anyone could have really discouraged this person from going through their transition. I have been hearing the same line from other de-transitioners. It does not sound genuine at all, it to me, has a more deflecting feel of responsibility to it. I could be wrong though. There are way too many de-transition stories on KZbin for anyone to claim ignorance to the horrific side effects of transitioning.

[@Chris-vm3ym]

This push on kids to transition needs to stop.

[@mizuwaoo6190]

I truly do feel for her and her struggles. I think she should have gone through a couple of years of therapy if there were red flags. I won't speak on her experiences, but I was always under the impression that "gender dysphoria" is completely unrelated to sexuality. If childhood trauma, sexuality, and other mental health issues is what leads to someone's "gender dysphoria," is that not what would be unintentional pseudo-gender dysphoria? I'm not trying to take away from her story or experience. I just can't call it gender dysphoria. It seems like a filler that was used for underlying issues.

[@selinnazsur2328]

Not treating a patient how he/she should be treated (the medical and psychiatric way Marcus tells us on his channel in case there's any confusion lmao) should have more dire consequences. These ideologues parading as doctors are disgusting. I wish Nikita the best in life, take care of yourself sister ❤

[@carinagomezfernandez7473]

I was a very dysphoric tomboy as a child. I always wanted to be a boy. I am now 52 years of age and I still wish I was born as a man. But unfortunately this isn't my reality and somehow being a medical patient for life doesn't sound appealling to me either.

[@clarkkent5442]

women, young women especially NEED to know about vaginal atrophy before going on testosterone. I cannot imagine going on cross sex hormones, getting that condition, then realizing you need to detransition. that's why gatekeeping is so important

[@KCo-eh3ze]

Marcus looking hot with that look today and more mature ❤

[@mouzziewouzzie2305]

What is it?

[@michaelmayer-o3s]

there is the study that showed 80% of kids grow out of it by 18-20 and an additional 15% by 25. Understandable if someone wants to carry on with their life off of social media but I hope Nikita counts herself in any official studies that may be coming in the future.

[@CoftheIsland370]

This young woman is still very confused.

[@marynoonan6111]

I hope you sue their collective arses

[@Justanopinionnooffense]

I really love that you let the guests talk, Marcus. You and Blaire White❤

[@pensive8552]

I like your questioning style with these 👍 You know what it makes me think of though... I wonder if you could put together a pointed questionnaire and give it to known "real" (happy) transitioners and detransitioners, to try and find a solid set of markers for real outcome prediction? That actually would be really awesome imo, and I feel like you are in a good position to do it 🕵️👩‍🔬 Also, bro... that jaw line you got going is pretty sick 🤛

[@shifterofshape]

😢😢😢😢😢

[@Outnumberedbykidsandcats]

Everything she says about why she felt this way is how I felt growing up and I’m definitely still female. I don’t like girly stuff, always preferred to hang around doing boyish things, I never wear girly clothes, I generally found other girls bitchy etc. I’m just what they used to call a Tom boy. Nowadays though everyone is pushed into it all meaning something. My mum was desperate to be a boy until she was about 14 - trying to pee through a straw etc. If she grew up now she would have been told she was a trans male and put on hormones. Both of us have high functioning autism and a lot of the feelings we had are similar to what she was saying about feeling growing up. I think it’s outrageous how children are being pushed into things now. A friend of mine apparently has 4 of his 7 kids being trans. That’s just not statistically believable.

[@champigranja1179]

Thank you, Marcus, for another interesting video. I would like Nikita to know that she is a very brave and amazing young girl. She has nothing to be ashamed of. I am sure that her family will be supportive and they will be glad to see her happy again. Greetings from Argentina.

[@stephanielewis1006]

Sending you love and peace of mind ❤

[@danihoney7087]

I’ve seen a few of these videos from several content creators. And I must say, regardless of nationality, the stories are very similar. Even the language the detrans use is almost identical. Many times the top surgery is a disaster and they are rushed back into hospital. And sexuality is explored in their early 20s and THAT’S when they see how wrong they were about their gender. The way I see it, there are 2 explanations for this: 1. These stories are scripted to push an transphobic agenda OR 2. The emotions and psychological distress that young people go through are universal. This is often compounded by outside influences which tell them that if they don’t fit into the “gender binary” they are trans. However, many times they grow out of their confusion and mature to become their “authentic selves”. All that to say, LEAVE THE KIDS ALONE. There is so much damage being inflicted on a generation of children because they’re uncomfortable with growing up. EVERYONE SINCE THE DAWN OF TIME HAS BEEN UNCOMFORTABLE WITH GROWING UP. Leave them alone. Those who are genuinely trans will find a way, and those who aren’t will develop the way they are meant to. Sheesh 🙄

[@AngryPanda.]

She is so naturally beautiful. How dare these doctors affirm her insecurities.

[@susanmcdonald-timms3202]

I didn’t feel i fit in as a child. I felt so uncomfortable being a girl. If i was born into the generation of these two people, I’d have gone along with this cult and been shepherded into being operated on. It would have been ridiculous. I ended up becoming a sex and love added. My uncomfortableness with being a girl was rooted in general fear about being in the world and being wanted as a person full stop. And I became addicted to the attentions of men because i felt empty, unworthy, crazy- and the attention men paid me made me feel high for a short period of time. (Just like an alcoholic has an unbearable psychic state day to day- they are restless, irritable and discontent until they get relief n a drink. That is, the alcoholic’s problem is how they feel in their spirit when they are sober - and their solution is alcohol. Well, my solution to me- the anaesthetic that worked for me, that relieved me if myself- was sexual attention). Well, i ended up, by a series of good coincidences, in SLAA, and i put down the men (like an alcoholic puts down alcohol)- and then began to attend to the chronic discontent i had had all my life, long before i got addicted to men. Today, people are stuck in a psychic spell epidemic - where, if theres sex / gender related problems you must be trans. My problem was me. Too much self. I was sexualising my angers, fears etc. It had nothing to do with sex in the end. I had an obsession with my gender and sexual issues etc. Thats not about sex or gender believe it or not. Its about finding an anaesthetic in sexuality- and using my own body and other people as drugs. But the thing i was anaesthetising was simple the inability to be in my skin without something to change the way I feel. Just like every garden variety drug addict that ever lived. I now have steps to take to deal with the way I routinely feel -do that i don’t have to go back to taking a drug -the drug of getting sexual attention. And i didn’t have to tear my body up to do it. So, tough as it us sometimes, I realise I’m lucky. And i get to try to carry a message to others which is kinda of satisfying . -And it’s incredibly profound when it just so happens that someone who is suffering this same illness, hears what i have recovered from, and is no longer baffled about their lifelong destructive behaviour