spend the week with me because i'm lonely

[@oliwia1140]

steph has made me comfortable with being and doing things alone, and I can't thank her enough for it

[@lauraaa3049]

Idk if you know her but Kennedy Walsh is also a KZbinr like that, she embraces her alone time. Thought it would be nice to tell you if you like seeing things that make you feel comfortable with being alone. Her recent vlogs are really calming

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[@fionaschimpf7717]

@@lauraaa3049 steph and kennedy are my comfort people

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[@prachurjyapadhi]

Yess watching her makes me feel like everything gonna be alright and living life alone can be comforting.

[@Julia-qq6wp]

steph is exactly a main character straight out of a romance book

[@justlxsa3572]

For real!!

[@Nanabeynon]

she's not

[@adri2215]

@@Nanabeynon dang you’re really her #1 hater

[@doe3747]

@@Nanabeynon oh snap

[@nastinka778]

she’s Hannah Wells from The Deal!!!

[@trulyinspirational23]

I think I speak for everyone when I say Steph’s made all our lives a whole lot better and a little less alone 💕

[@HannahMarieee]

couldnt agree more

[@kayyla5]

Watching this a year later and girl look how far you’ve come??? Im so proud of you. I hope the same happens to me too because your “before” is currently my current situation

[@PaperbackJourneys]

Sometimes it’s even lonelier when you’re surrounded by people who don’t get you. That’s what the internet is for I guess ha!

[@coffeebreakfiction1765]

Aww! It looks like you’re an Englishman in America!? You should have no problem making friends!

[@iphone7shoots]

@@coffeebreakfiction1765 huhhh……. there’re most psychopaths coz they don’t trust another person ig

[@lilymarie7112]

I think it’s fun to be alone when it’s your choice, not your only option. I’ve been living alone for 3 years now (I’m 22) and only had super flaky friends that I eventually drifted away from. I don’t miss going out/sleepovers/clubbing etc, what I really miss is the consistency of talking to another human being. Someone to tell your day to. Even just coexisting with someone without much conversation. Living alone can be isolating. The worst part for me was losing my personality. When you don’t have people to interact with you stop knowing who you are. Even your likes/dislikes get foggy because when you’re lonely you don’t enjoy much of anything. Every single thing you do becomes your choice, instead of a routine that involves another person. It’s like you’re hyperaware of everything you’re doing. The worst part for me was realizing it didn’t make a difference if I did my hot girl routine of gym, journaling, reading, etc. or if I just watched KZbin all day. Nothing to keep you accountable and no one making sure you’re okay. Sorry for the rant, just wanted to say my piece.

[@mtthplc]

i feel you so much

[@gloriangeno]

@tomi8554 This rant made me feel like I'm not alone The three year old nephew part is funny😂 Thanks for ranting❤️I surprisingly feel better

[@nikkilee143]

❤

[@v.eronica]

coming from someone who can't drive, is doing school online and has no friends, I completely understand everything that you talked about in this video, it's such an awful feeling and is so hard to deal with/ come out of (at least it has been for me lately). your videos in general have been so so nice and comforting to watch when I've been feeling lonely, and while this feeling sucks and I feel bad that you've been experiencing it too, it's still so nice knowing that I'm not alone in this feeling, so thank you for making this vlog and talking about it with us. I'm glad things were seeming to get better for you during this week, and I hope that they continue getting better so you don't have to experience this feeling as much (or at all, hopefully) anymore.💗

[@bubi3257]

Gyuuuuu 🫶🏽

[@v.eronica]

@@bubi3257 haha yesss I love him/ txt so so much!! :)

[@bubi3257]

@@v.eronica me toooo 🫶🏽

[@luvvreni]

are you sure you aren’t me?? seems like i commented this 😭. it does suck most days, but i try to be grateful for the little things

[@serene3175]

wait this is my exact situation 😭 i always feel so embarrassed for my life being so alone but knowing that it’s actually not that weird and i’m not alone makes me feel so much better

[@allmyloveli]

steph i love you forever your channel feels like home, like a deep breath in a tight space. i just started school and i'm struggling to balance taking advantages of new oppurtunities but im also so scared of burnout. ive been getting sad for no reason but your videos always make me smile :)

[@HannahMarieee]

💜

[@skk75000]

I've been feeling so lonely these past days, but watching your videos has made me so happy and less lonely. Sending lots of love, we're so grateful you exist Steph 💞

[@lizzooooo]

I’ve struggled with this because the feeling of the being inside alone gives me anxiety. I highly recommend going outside even for a few minutes every day. The sunshine really does have a good impact on our brain 💖

[@isitevenme6353]

that's super helpful

[@squidwardtentacles7144]

I actually really appreciate her commentary on how much school affects her. Like I know for the most part we don't like school. But just having someone really say it out loud I don't know it just does something to me cuz I really felt her words. I'm about to start college literally tomorrow and I'm already anxious about it and the work and the assignments and the course load and just not having time to myself and the things that I like to do so I'm glad Steph was able to shed light on her experience in terms of her dislike for school's ability to literally drain you cuz I felt that (and this is coming from someone that excels in school work).

[@jasminec5335]

the way i rewatch her vlogs like a comfort tv show episode...

[@jasminec5335]

you're back already

[@moniiccaax]

i’m so thankful for people like you on here who are honest about just not feeling okay sometimes & trying to get thru it. it’s reassuring for the rest of us with anxiety that we’re not so alone.

[@Ali.walmsley]

Steph is literally my comfort KZbinr, whenever I’m sad I go to watch her videos. You’ve got this Steph! ❤️

[@Schlurpies]

Enjoy your time alone. As a woman in my late 30's I never lived alone and don't know what its like at all. I went from living at home to with my boyfriend, we got married and had kids. I feel like it might be an important experience to have.

[@brookeelizabeth681]

Same story here. I've been with my husband since I was 17. Moved in with him at 18. We are in our late 30s with two kids. I was never alone and didn't like to be alone but now that I'm getting older I really see the value in alone time and I crave it more and more but it's a rarity. Enjoy this season of life 💙

[@natalie6887]

Same here, moved in with my now fiancé straight out of high school and never had time alone. I highly recommend having that experience and I wish I did (not that I don’t love being with my fiancé lol)

[@janejustin1788]

very true, living alone makes you understand yourself better. And you learn to be comfortable alone and gain independence

[@melissajoyceortizhuerta8802]

I also used to be a person who loved spending time by myself or couldn’t wait to finally be by myself , but lately I’ve been feeling extremely alone after a long time. This video really helped me realize that it’s ok , and that no feeling lasts forever , even tho I still feel this way it gives me a little more hope. Thank you steph

[@lt28maja]

the way you started out this video feeling lonely and thinking so much and ended it with a meal you cooked yourself, feeling proud and happy and finally reading a book you enjoy is so wholesome thank you for this. i love you and i’m absolutely proud of you

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[@isabellan5476]

This content really suits you! Not you feeling lonely, but the ‘we’re on facetime’ kind of content. Really enjoyed this video❤️

[@aleksandramir95]

I relate to this sooo much. I also just came back from a three-month trip where I actually FELT the life I lived. Being back feels slow, lonely and frustrating as if everything is on pause again.

[@im_just_vidu]

Living alone is an art. Once you get used to it, you get addicted And you don't wanna go back ever

[@lidcall0909]

Community college, all friends older, live at home, live in small town where going to Dunkin is the highlight of my day every day. Felt this video especially the intro of you explaining your situation so hard.

[@shegogreen]

i'm still learning to like my own solitude, so it is very comforting to know that other people feel this way too. much love to you steph

[@bethclifton9827]

steph!! this literally almost made me cry because i’ve literally been feeling exactly the same recently and to see you so happy at the end gave me so much hope that i’m just like in a slump and i’ll get over it. as much as i loved your study abroad vlogs (and trust me i did like they’re literally the reason i’m starting uni of sussex next week like i’m not even joking) i missed the vlogs where you’re just sort of alone talking to us, they’re so comforting to watch for me and help me so much. love u 💗💗

[@courtneyglassie]

It’s absolutely mind blowing how much of myself I see in you. i find so much comfort in the fact that there are people in this world that are just like me. makes me feel less alone.

[@panache3894]

i see steph you are perfecting the art of being ✨️alone✨️ but not lonely. love seeing you grow

[@kathleenfromwiller982]

I literally hate doing stuff alone, but I know I have to start eventually. School started for me today and let's just say - I'm not feeling it. I love being alone but going out alone is a no-no for me. I love your videos steph!

[@idontcare9574]

omg stephh T--T this is so comforting to watchhh. . . probably because how relatable all the words you have said regarding anxiety, stress comes from school homeworks, have not much friends to hang out with, the defeaning silence etc. i completely understand where are you coming from. ive been feeling that since college. and this honesty of yours made me feel less lonely because you made me tell to myself that im not the only one who feels this way. and you know what, it solidifies more my love for you as an youtuber. youve been my comfort person to watch since pandemic. you made me love books again. you made me love taylor swift and listen to harry style even though im not listening much of them back then. thank you for sharing this, it means a lot to us. always, remember that you may not please everyone but you always have an impact to people who truly care and appreciate you. you're amazing. you are beautiful just the way you aree. we love you so muchh!!! i love you!!!

[@linamarasc]

I related to your up and downs of living alone. I lived alone for 3 of my years in college and it was honestly the best feeling ever that I look back on with so much gratitude. You can invite over whoever you want, host people, and still have your space and privacy when you want. Now that I live with my bf I feel like that alone time prepared me and that I didn’t miss out on that experience. Wishing you all the best Steph loved this vlog ☺️

[@augustuslover]

today i was literally crying cause i was feeling alone all the time, u rlly make me feel comfortable thank u so much

[@uneedtherapy5937]

My clg has officially started so I dont feel lonely anymore. I have some friends but I dont feel like I fit in. Gladly I have this one friend who is really nice and we both vibe together. But I understand where u r coming from! Before my clg started and my schedule was this busy, I used to cry every night cuz I did not have any friends. My routine was: get up, eat, talk with my family, be on my phone and go to sleep, repeat. I got so frustrated cuz I didnt know anyone my age to talk about stuff. I really hope you meet someone you can hang out with!!!

[@adrianasalina6023]

I have been feeling the same exact way recently. I'm a freshman in college and I haven't found my group of friends yet so I've been feeling a little lonely and out of place. Thank you so much for being vulnerable and making everyone feel like we're not alone 🤎

[@eviexx4945]

I find being alone so therapeutic. As long as I’m not stuck in my head, I like the quite, no one asking questions or being loud. If I want to read, I can. Watch tv, I can. Cook, I can

[@anasuarez2443]

She is soooooo real. Not just pretty but also a normal girl who likes coffee and complains about Starbucks being expensive and drinks her tea every night. Just makes me feel so good about myself and so idk normal. It's so comforting. And when she said that her life was incomplete if she didn't have any current reading, omg me

[@jackysaurusr3x]

I'm 23, living with my fiancé, almost done with uni, and I still 100% get how you're feeling. I think uni/college is a time when a lot of us feel lost, lonely, kinda like floating in a sea of chaos waiting to find a stream to get us out into calmer waters. I'm currently in my second extra semester, and I know for a fact that I need a third one to finish my thesis and be done with my degree once and for all. Your videos started to be a thing that I look forward to each week, and your platform started to feel like a safe space to go to, when feeling lost. Thank you for making life feel a little nicer when you post💕 seriously tho: you cutting the onion physically hurt, sorry 😂

[@jackysaurusr3x]

@Hazel Allison I get what you’re saying. We’ve been friends and later a couple for years already & got engaged a few months ago on our anniversary, we’ll probably not be able to have a wedding for 3 more years though. And while I personally don’t think being engaged has to take away my independence (eg. we never put any pressure on the other to do what’s best for being a family. He finished his apprenticeship a few years ago, I’m still a student and he doesn’t expect me to stop studying anytime soon. If I wanted to do my masters degree and maybe even study on, I could), I also know my grandma is currently in her 3rd marriage. Not that I have to explain anything, I just want to say: if it’s well thought out and both partners respect the goals and situation of the other, being engaged at 23 is less a problem of independence nowadays. I personally was never interested in “work on my career ‘til 30” (to name the extreme), I also didn’t really cut back for my partner in any way. And while there are some restrictions now (like, I’m not gonna move countries now or even to a far away city), I don’t really mind them for different reasons. I know I explained more than probably even expected, I’m just bad a cutting myself short. So I hope you enjoyed that snippet into my life/ my take on being independent in a relationship 😂 On that note, have a wonderful day or night in whatever timezone you are 💕 (Also I’m sorry for possible typos, I just woke up and haven’t had coffee yet.)

[@nataliewooten6455]

Watching this now and seeing where you are in life is so inspirational! I’m struggling with finishing up college and feeling alone but seeing your videos now and how much happier you are inspires me 🤍

[@caitlyn9014]

I really liked this vlog. Like genuinely. It was raw. It was real. It was unfiltered. It was peaceful. It was emotional. You're such a comfort ytber for me I always look forward to what you post

[@taylorsversion7336]

I love your channel so much. I am feeling so lonely recently and this video made me feel like I have a friend

[@BrandonNinja]

"Being alone has a power that very few people can handle."

[@lucaelisa9286]

I like how you spoke about the silence being so loud, and then added the compilation of the complete silence in your evening. It was very relatable ngl

[@Kaylaxhutson]

I love how you HAVE to do your “things” to be happy. Like your coffee morning, tea night, your game thingy 🥹 I love it

[@alanabrown394]

the hardest part about being at college is how alone I feel rn. this vid was soooo very comforting, and such a nice way to fill my time. thank you babe

[@salmabouit]

hi steph, i love your videos so much… I’ve learned so much from you and i like that now i don’t feel weird being alone, doing things alone because you’ve showed the good side of it. whenever i see a video of you i literally stop everything and watch it !! you’re DEFINITELY my comfy person. i just so don’t feel judged :)

[@holly289]

steph is so real for this being alone kinda sucks but is also comforting

[@alexandradadzwell8914]

Loved the first part of the video. It’s so refreshing and encouraging to see your ‘normal’ life and feelings in a world were everything is fake! 💕 thanks for sharing! x

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[@alyssamk07]

hi steph

[@nataschaagerbk4892]

Honestly this video helps me and comforts me so much, because I'm soon moving out for myself (like two weeks after i turn 18) and I'm so scared. But it just helps me to know I'm not alone in feeling lonely, when I'm like fully alone.

[@luciaramirez2693]

You cannot understand how much i relate to you and i just love your content sm

[@darlingswiftie]

I can listen to you talk for hours you're literally my comfort person ily Steph ❤

[@aurorae7448]

steph its crazy how similar our lives are at the moment..i also spent a year abroad in the UK and coming back from there i cant handle the loneliness anymore like i could before going. now it weighs on me so much that i dont have people around me everyday to share whats on my mind with and to just do things together :( sending you hugs

[@syrineayedi3243]

18:37 that cracked me up cuz same at this point lol also this was recommended to me by KZbin and I'm so glad i've discovered your channel love your energy

[@azulh224]

it’s raining outside and steph is my comfort person fr fr it’s such a vibe

[@starlight4875]

She just precisely explained my anxiety. I feel exactly the same when school starts and I have to move back to my Uni town.

[@nycity123]

i just moved away for school and it’s really fun meeting so many people, meanwhile it can feel overwhelming and lonely at times. Can’t wait to watch this before bed to relax, love you Steph!💗💗

[@imanetourani5193]

Please make this a weekly thing, I too am feeling reaally alone and this just made me feel less lonely

[@Maria-fm6fs]

I'm literally in the same phase of life as you. It's a breath of fresh air to see real people on youtube that share their struggles and don't pretend that life is an ongoing party. Thank you!!!

[@chocolateoreo6489]

Rewatching Steph's vlogs gives me so much happiness ♥️

[@lilassatin]

Everytime i feel sad I rewatch your vlogs because they are comforting and I feel like we are besties

[@hirurathnayaka8330]

this is my new comfort video

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[@summertravels]

Damn, I really felt all of this. Some of the reasons I also want to go travelling are the same as you - I need the escape, I need to escape the feeling of not being able to do anything fun because of my responsibilities, I need to get away from a place where everyone expects something from me, I need to find myself and I can't right now because I feel stifled all the time. Thank you for making me feel less alone in this feeling :)

[@emafabijanic]

this is the most relatable vlog you have ever done. please be my friend xx

[@jessicasheridan7]

these comments just read my whole mind. they’re speaking facts. i love you so much steph

[@lizrosas1327]

The way I screamed when I saw you watching the triplets- I almost overreacted😃 The way I didn’t know I could love you more than I already do🥲

[@dianasirosh]

the way i looked for a comment about them for five minutes, i need a life

[@malorie8901]

@@dianasirosh I DID THE SAME LOL

[@HannahMarieee]

@@dianasirosh haha saame 😂

[@britneysequera]

youre literally my comfort person🫶🏻i literally love your videos sm, they make me so happy just know that you’re not alone, i feel lonely sometimes even though i love being alone so youre not the only one :)💌

[@thegingerreads]

This made me feel so much better. I feel lonely at my school all the time and I’m a senior in college too. It’s so relieving to know that I’m not alone in that.

[@samaa6289]

this was so comforting to watch, i have the same issue when it comes to homework and its so frustrating. i love you steph

[@luizadragomir1418]

I just wanted to thank you for being one of my fav and comfort youtubers, videos like this one make me feel like I am watching a friend. I am an introvert with social anxiety that has learned how to be alone and never gets bored ( i have lots of hobbies as you can imagine ) but there is always a time where i feel very very lonely. I feel like I am nobody’s fav person and I have no one to blame but me. Thank you for sharing your feelings💕

[@vannahughens]

When Steph mentioned panicking over assignments during the intro - SO ME, like I swear I had a whole breakdown in the car because our uni mods had 3 due all at once plus weekly work and etc, and I was like oh my god why are we hitting the ground flying

[@dsbfock]

your feelings are so relatable cause i use to make everything by myself, go to places by myself and solve all of my problems by myself cause i feel comfortable that way. and i truly enjoy being alone and read, walk or watch something. but sometimes it kinda hits me with loneliness and i miss my friends and my mom, but that’s okay. those feelings pasts, like everything does in our life. i’m kinda proud of myself for being to be by myself and enjoy it cause some people genuinely can’t do shit alone or being independent and suffering from it?? i don’t know it’s kinda sad for them, but not me. so i’m really understand what you feel but also proud of you cause you’re such a smart, kind and independent young lady and i’m rooting for you and enjoy your videos. and your vlogs are interesting to watch and enjoyable to listen so keep them going! also, i’m 25 and been living kinda by myself (apart from my mom) since i was 18 and i’m kinda got used to it. I travel, move and change jobs and ppl in my life but never feel too sad or anxious cause i have me and i know i can live on my own. so it’s a great thing actually. and being sad and lonely sometimes is perfectly okay. you and all of us doing great ❤️

[@eftichiabostanoglou5024]

you literally has become my comfort person! im love you, take care!!

[@franzinededje-robert2841]

I feel you girl. I didn't even start school yet and I feel so anxious. I just want to give myself time to read!!

[@laceyb7074]

I can physically feel this video. I was homeschooled for 6 years and I decided to go to pubic school for high school because how isolating it was and did so much better mentally but college is making me feeling how I felt being homeschooled. It sucks. One thing I do to help not lose my mind is find a local library that’s no apart of my school so I can just hear people around me.

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[@brooklynburns1381]

this made me feel so much more understood. Thank you for filming this.

[@rebeccasummerhill8010]

This truly is a comforting vlog, I love sit down chatty random vlogs. It’s nice to know other people feel the same ❤️

[@jordanhaynes27]

steph, my comfort & favorite youtuber, watching the sturniolo triplets who are my second favorite people is literally making my heart swell bro

[@CR-ri9gq]

pls never stop sharing ur life and feelings w us. it is so comforting bc it is soo relatable!! :))

[@Sba_w]

THE TITLE IS SUCH A MOOD ALREADY

[@rodsitamara]

this is why snapchat is my main form of communication with my best friends 😭😭 our group chat is constantly sending videos to each other. even snapping less close friends, snapchat is honestly such a conversation starter cos ppl can see what u r doing and start convos

[@panagiotasusan860]

honestly this vid was so comforting. loved it

[@13reasonswhy_5]

She has come so far I’m so proud of u Stephanie

[@ghitabencheikh2747]

It ‘s so reassuring to see that so many people feel this way!

[@selenamiller3813]

I’m here with you Steph, school legit makes me extremely anxious and depressed. I stress so much over the workload and being at school with less friends and things to do makes everything worse. I hope things get better for you Steph ❣️

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[@ivanafayzieva2535]

I feel like I've been waiting for a weekly vlog for so long, like 6 months. And I can confidently say, that it was sooooo worth it. Love the video. Steph is such a relatable person. Enjoyed the video so much and felt so comforted watching it. Love ya Steph)

[@vannahughens]

Yes! As an only child I usually just speak to myself all over the place, I’ve been abroad for summer school, and excitement was non-stop in London - coming back home is quiet (not staying in dorm), but biggest hugs, I absolutely get the whole pile up of school work

[@amanimeymon_]

this one of the most calm and comforting weekly vlog steph has ever made.

[@breannalexus]

this was sooo relatable, thank you for being so honest and transparent about how you’ve been feeling!

[@ashleymaurer546]

by far my favorite steph video of all time its def superior

[@zoefaith]

the happiness steph had when her friends invited her 🥹 that’s literally me bc i feel like everyone’s always busy and my friends don’t do the same sport as me so they’ll do things together and i’m never invited 🥺 i get so happy when they actually invite me to do things with them 🫶🏼

[@onedirection1204tb]

I honestly love videos like this that are talking videos about things that other people can relate to because it makes me feel less alone with how I’m feeling. I appreciate you making a video like this! 🥰

[@tyralove22]

i really feel you about the loving being alone vs the times you wish you weren't and can't help it

[@melxnielong]

You just made me feel so comforted, im on my period rn and have been so depressed. thank you stephhhhh 💗

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[@lizzieblades]

The loneliness since like June has been unbearable. I’ve lived alone so much, but it’s never been like this! I’m going to assume it’s post-pandemic stuff that I’ll realize more about later. - I just found your channel and I love it! Thank you so much for filling the silence. I feel like this video was confirmation that I’m not alone in how I’ve been feeling. I also wish I could make vlogs like yours!

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[@emily3927]

Steph being so excited to be invited to hangout is the sweetest thing ever

[@jenissemichelle478]

oh my GODDD the feelings you were talking about in the beginning are so me rn. last year all i wanted was to be alone & have my own space, and now it feels too quiet

[@imperialchalice]

Gosh, I know the feeling of not allowing yourself to do anything until all your work is done...it's such a vicious cycle. I decided to downgrade my bachelors to an associates, decided to entirely change majors, and am currently going to a school that gives me absolute freedom over how many courses a semester I take (they offer flexibility on which half of the semester I take it as well). At the moment it's just two classes this semester, and I've been doing so much better at finishing work. Instead of forcing deadlines on myself, my therapist challenged me to write a to-do list every day, until I can feel comfortable with looking at the full week's schedule (I was struggling with how busy the week ahead looked like, so I ended up becoming overwhelmed before anything even started LOL). Funny enough, I have NEVER struggled with schedules like I do now, and I think it has a lot to do with the same feeling you are going through. Feeling trapped, even though you're not. So...since implementing that strategy, I also wrote motivational sticky notes that say: Plans fall apart, Paola (my name lol). It's okay. Plans can change. Plans can be remade (something my therapist told me also). And Also: It's a bad day, not a bad life (given to me by my cousin haha). I journaled extensively those two weeks. Relearned how to talk to myself because that had actually changed over the years. Whenever I felt it, even if I was in the middle of working (luckily I work from home and can manage my to-do list at work as well, so I had the time). And yeah...I made it through. I can manage my weekly schedule again, and when it falls apart, I simply change it. :) I break tasks down throughout several days, even if it's just one assignment (I have a programming course that is much more difficult than the other class, and the assignments will take me literally 4 hours to complete - so I started breaking them down to 2 hours on separate days~). And if it's a late assignment - I say fuck it. It's late, but at least I turned it in. And I do better the next week (the goal for me is consistency, even if I drag my feet haha). For me, it was the crushing loneliness that was making everything so challenging. I've never had this issue before, I love to be alone. But these days, my priorities and my desires and my wants are all changing. But before I start breaking down and isolating, I need to be comfortable with the quiet again, with my time alone. I started neglecting myself and focusing on everyone else because I was tired of healing me (and to be honest, I didn't want to look at all the things I needed to change about myself). 7 years later, and I was finally starting to feel how much I procrastinated on my life. And yeah, my therapist is helping me out, but in truth, it is our choice how we wanna experience life and how we ultimately want to live it. I just told myself I need help to get back on track, but I love her. Without her these last two weeks would have been a disaster.

[@imperialchalice]

your life is likely changing, and adapting is key. C:

[@alliifaithh]

you give me so much comfort. can’t be thankful for you more! thank you showing us that it’s okay to spend time alone

[@analuizavegamartins1436]

this video healed me, can u literally do this every week pls

[@violetmanthey]

“i’ve been having a hard time adjusting, i had the shiniest pearls now they’re rusting” 20:43

[@eduardagonzaga7187]

please do more weekly vlogs omg i absolutely LOVED this

[@possiblyme14]

I hope you know that your vlogs are some of my favourite videos ever!

[@AimiNadiaChannel]

loving this vlog! its like we are with you everyday! and somehow it makes me feel less alone too, or alone but more comfortable!

[@kaitlynnlepage755]

I relate to so much of this - everyone I know from school last year is still going this year but I’m not so I’ve felt so lonely and have had no idea what to do with life