Story of My 20s: How I Created My Dream Life 🌤

[@lavendaire]

What an experience it was to go through ten years of footage, reminiscing on the life that led me here. Thanks so much to my lavi loves for being a huge part of this journey!! 💖 I hope this helped you appreciate whatever struggle or phase you're going through, and remember that ALL OF IT IS BEAUTIFUL. 🌤 Lastly don't forget to check out the Artist of Life Workbook - a tool for self discovery, self love & life design: lavendaire.com/workbook

[@douaebatoulsiramdane7485]

I appreciate the way you spread energy and hope in our journeys , now I can see my 10 years later self and I'm in love with her.... Thanks

[@littleclj]

❤

[@kotokochan2971]

I'm 18 and im kinda worried because there's so much thing I want to do, and I just hope I can figure out what I really want to do in my life

[@azracham]

Im 18,still finding my ownself and what am i actual interest with.Thanks sis Aileen for encourage us ,always chering me up.I always come back to your chanel to gain inspiration especially when i'm very2 lost.I promise that i won't stop finding my ownself on what i interest with.

[@hopeworld8293]

Hii my age is 15 still lost that what my life is but your channel is relief it still gives me positive vibes and i love it thankypu for this channel can you please make a video of how you convense your family of what you want how can i tell my parents what i want please do a video it helps me a lot ☺

[@kerridubbs2]

I'm 50 and I feel like my life is just beginning!!!

[@s0ls0l.mp3]

You type really good for somebody in their 50's owo

[@heena3553]

Good luck for your beginning

[@iposhformoney]

I'm also 50, it feels unreal sometimes how awesome life is NOW. Discovering myself with help of videos like this is amazing!

[@holisticdancer]

@@iposhformoney same here! I'm about to turn 50 and I was a bit down about it - but have recently had an awakening about how perfect where I am is, and that I have so much wisdom to share!

[@anitfranklin8844]

good luck !!

[@VerenaSatriani]

Aileen shows us that success is about taking the first step and keep doing it consistently.. we were all born baby in the beginning..

[@Thedreamlifediary]

When you said "it's possible to do what you love" I literally cried.....

[@lavendaire]

💕 yes!! love you

[@livnicole9550]

31 yrs old - still finding myself - and thats ok :D

[@bogosbinted._.]

ABSOLUTELY LOVE

[@katelynbrown98]

I feel this. I'm 27, and trying so hard to be my own person.

[@bogosbinted._.]

@@katelynbrown98 Believe me you can only find your true self by yourself not by others

[@wonderwoman133]

I feel like when you find yourself the game is over. Do you know what I mean? 😂 Life is a game of exploration and it ends by finding what you were searching for

[@mashira14]

You just inspired me 🙏🏻 thank you

[@Lordymimi]

"The more you can see stories of success that you can relate to, the more that you will believe it's possible and real."

[@OingaOlive]

❤

[@sarahizmeth616]

Hi Aileen, I'm 37 years old now and approaching my birthday. I enjoyed hearing your success story and am happy for you that you created your dream life. I am at the beginning of my journey. When I look back to my twenties I see a girl who was forcing herself to join corporate North America and today am brave enough to go after my dreams of owning a specialty restaurant.

[@geyasuuu]

This is actually inspiring! I aim to one day be brave like you and set my soul free 😌 Well wishes for you and your restaurant ✨

[@star19934]

You go girl!

[@dex0n92]

You got kids? A husband? If not better hurry up and settle, those eggs are about to dry out and years 40 to 80 will be long and lonely. Cheers

[@inezae.eliane798]

You go for it girl! ❤️❤️

[@abbyabroad]

I’m 36 and a year into my own reset. Peace and good luck! 💕

[@CynthiaCho]

Who else thinks Aileen is SUCH an inspiration ☀️✨ she inspired me to start my own channel 🥰

[@HelloManpreet]

For sure!!

[@avneetkaur6745]

More than that🙇🏻‍♀️💯🥰✨

[@HelloManpreet]

@@avneetkaur6745 haha for sure!

[@shush285]

I am going to be 18 next year

[@elizabeththecity9674]

SUCH and inspiration!

[@riyanjinssi8264]

I'm 29 and still feels lost. Your story is very inspiring. I hope someday when I get back to this video and my comment, I finally found whatever my hearts greatest desire.

[@rootedro]

So it is my love

[@happyheartslee]

Same age and same feeling. May the future get better for us!

[@katelynbrown98]

I'm 27 & am trying to be confident and strong on my own for once in my life.

[@jadedkoi4196]

Same 😩

[@yashny]

We are the same age! I hope that all of us find our paths one day =)

[@carolynbell9040]

I was a follower from around 2018. Life got challenging and I lost my husband. I’m back. A widow, turned 60, opened an innovative Pilates based studio and crafting a happy life. What an amazing life you have!

[@lavendaire]

Sending love and light 💖 Thank you for sharing and for being here, love. Also, sending luck for the studio 🙏

[@themouse5495]

“It’s okay to be lost” I needed that

[@kiyarna3744]

We can all be found by the good shepherd Jesus christ, the son of God, who gave his life for us all

[@ysabelalaureano9055]

I just turned 20. I found this channel when I was really sad about my university rejection letters. You are a big part of my life. Right now, I'm learning to embrace my flaws and loving myself more when I feel the ugliest. Thank you

[@teabubbles4ever]

Happy belated birthday! I am sending you so much love. 💓 Life and learning to be okay with, and hopefully love, yourself, is such journey. Wishing you the best on it 💖 I can leave you my email if you would like to chat :)

[@ysabelalaureano9055]

@@teabubbles4ever hi, I love you! Thank you so much

[@teabubbles4ever]

@@ysabelalaureano9055 💓 you can write to [e-mail] ! I'm Olivia :)

[@maligaya5981]

I'm 26 and I'm still lost, confused and panicking that I might reach my 30's w/ nothing but lost dreams. Thank you for sharing your story and it helps me calm a little.

[@BlackRose-og8zj]

In July I will be 26 too, and at this point I feel exactly the same as you

[@maligaya5981]

@@BlackRose-og8zj😂 Let's hope for the best 🤞🤞

[@star19934]

I am 27 and just starting to live my dreams again. It’s never too late, as long as you are still breathing you are always “on time” to create the life of your dreams 💪🏻🙏🏻

[@sangichan]

I am also 26 and I understand what you mean, don't worry, take everything step by step! You will get there ❤️Always believe in yourself and in your vision ✨

[@maligaya5981]

@@sangichan Thank you. And yeah, will get there 🥺🤞

[@lillexx5778]

21 and I have no idea what I’m doing, struggling mentally and physically. I am so utterly grateful I came across this. Thank you

[@teabubbles4ever]

Health struggles, whether physical/mental/both are so tough. I hope you are able to give yourself a little bit of what you need, even if it's just one thing each day. 💖 I can leave you my email if you would like to chat :)

[@snuppl512]

I can relate to you, same age and that's how exactly I am as well

[@teabubbles4ever]

@@snuppl512 sending you love + strength 💓

[@DaniDangg]

Same. this relieved me that I am not the only one. Cz as everyone here seems to already figured out what tjey want in life, i feel so different. I feel lost. :(

[@leahvanderwalt2971]

I'm 19, turning 20 in a few months, I feel the same. Mental, physical and emotional health is not doing well. I don't feel like i am in the right place but I don't know what to do either.

[@leiaceleste2628]

I’m literally crying after watching this.. As a young woman at the beginning of her 20s, I feel so powerful and inspired by your story. It’s totally okay to have uncertainties and I think I’ve found my strength to deal with them. Thank you and hope you the best ☘️

[@chidiogoezeugwu8501]

I’m 22 and I feel like I just woke up from the auto pilot mode I’ve been in these past years. I know in my heart that live is so beautiful and a journey and I feel hopeful to start doing the things that truly excite me

[@BrunaClaas]

It's a story of self exploration, adaptation and persistence. And hairstyle changes. And we love it!

[@xpfarming4888]

Agreed!

[@lavendaire]

Haha lots of hair changes!!

[@ninaselamat2699]

I'm 23, and I'm at the point in gathering the courage to live the life that I want. I'm still in the process of recognizing what I really want to do in life, what I can do and also how to forgive myself over my own shortcomings. Trying to be at the state of spiritually connected most of the time and also feeling content!

[@SteAndRach]

We can totally relate, it takes courage to live the life you want!! One thing that really helped us was the Ikigai Model, its a straight forward, 4 step self reflection process to help gain clarity on the best path to take. We just made a video about it so we thought we would share in case you have never heard of it! ☺️💛Love that you are also into spirituality, that is something that I (Rach) have gotten much more into this year. Would love for you to check out our channel since you seem like such a likeminded person ✨

[@bp4731]

I am 16 from India and right now I am finding myself, and trying to dream and believing in myself that I can accomplish my dreams. I am just finding myself- my like and dislikes , what my dream life looks like. By the way thanks for this video I learnt that facing problems, getting lost and depressed is okay this is just a part of life which teaches you the most. I am just feeling lost as schools are closed and it's really difficult to go with studies. And seriously work from home is just like fighting with your own self , you have to go against you mind and force yourselves to get to that table and study but it also makes you more difficult. I also explored myself that I am a pretty good dancer😊 Wishing luck to all those teenager going through difficulties.

[@aryakumar9921]

same here about the age and place! These online classes are so monotonous, still we have to go through it.

[@bp4731]

@@aryakumar9921 yeah but we don't have any other option except just accepting it

[@aryakumar9921]

@@bp4731 ..and proving everyone that we can also be good at things we dont like >3

[@bp4731]

@@aryakumar9921 yeah I like the spirit by the way 2021 is gonna be hectic as all exams are waiting for us all practical as well as the boards huh

[@aryakumar9921]

@@bp4731 a positive attitude helps :D

[@withanoldsoul]

I turned 16 this year.. I really don't know what to say. Because, you made my life so better. I had so many problems(Still have). But in 2019 I was so lost. I found your channel during the pandemic. I'm following you since then. After that, I learned how to deal with problems and still learning. You helped me a lot to find myself. I've just started my journey, but it got really better. You really helped me during my mental break down and depression. Well, I'm still figuring out the purpose of my life. You're really my inspiration. Thanks a lot. : )

[@b1group99]

You felt lost during covid at the age of 12 loool son don't things so seriously

[@withanoldsoul]

@@b1group99 Age never matters, when you have depression or mental breakdown because of problems no one can explain or solve. Everyone faces so many issues, but the thing is how you manage them. We can survive anything if and only we learn to value others, despite their age or infirmity. ☺

[@pyerdmtz1527]

I am currently 18. Since I was little I've felt the need to grow past my limits, letting curiosity and intuition be my guidance. When the pandemic started I was 16, and since we wouldn't be able to go outside, I started an inner journey and discovered a lot more about who I am. But two years later, I feel like I am starting all over again. I've changed a lot since 2019, but still, I feel as if I'm not doing enough. At this point, I've learned to follow what makes me feel alive, even if it doesn't make sense right now, I am trusting the process and being kind to myself. I just saw this video and it was reassuring for me, it helped me to remind everything has its own course and I just have to allow my existence through. I want to say to anyone who has the opportunity to read this, as you scroll through you'll read hundreds of comments about people with different age, different stories, feelings, different paths; I want you to believe in yourself and realize how everyone is right where they are supposed to be, how everyone is living the cause and effect of their existence, which is unique, and if you feel lost or stuck, remember that contrast is necessary so you get to know what you really want, and you're not in the wrong path, what you want is unfolding, and you are making it. I love you! 💜

[@autumnsloner495]

Thank you and I love you too. Hope you achieve everything you manifest for 💜

[@F0reverblessed]

What a beautiful reminder to NOT be afraid of starting over. Exploring your curiosity and finding your true self. Life is a trial and error. Finding yourself and what makes you feel alive is everything. :) From a self love content creator to another, what a beautiful video Aileen. I loved it!!! 😍💕

[@HIXHAM]

“What is not started today is never finished tomorrow.” I hope y’all are taking action everyday to manifest your dreams into reality. Much love y’all 🙏🏾❤️

[@octoberwinters8001]

This girl .... I swear , she makes my day !! Never known or saw anyone like her .......

[@Malery]

So much growth so young. I am 35 and struggle with feeling behind and empty. I don't even know what I want anymore. I'm so impressed.

[@Sakshi-p]

I’m 20 and turning 21 in a month. I'm lost and still haven't figured myself where everyone around is so sorted. But I believe someday I'll too achieve what I truly want will be happy & strong.

[@JasmineLipska]

I’m feeling so emotional watching this for you Aileen! You are beyond amazing, and this video was SO well put together ❤️ love you!💞

[@lavendaire]

Aw thank you Jasmine!! ❤️❤️

[@lynn0773]

You both are angel thanks for sharing us amazing lesson 💗

[@MissSraG]

Oh hi Jasmine! Nice to see you here, I found Lavendaire through you. Both of you are inspiring and beautiful souls

[@juanpedro4083]

@@lavendaire I have schizophrenia and I would like to smoke marijuana. Do you know something about marijuana? What to do? Can you help me?

[@toubkalvlog5550]

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[@ihssanezakariaa9171]

I'm 19 years old, I'm at the beginning of my journey .you inspire me a lot thank you. I wish you the best😘❤

[@juanitaschrader9375]

Same here!

[@jarethw54]

Me too like where do we go

[@charkiyomi]

@@letsbethechange1424 the fact that you’re watching vids like this at such a young age shows that you’re already on the right path. I would say try as many new things as possible (especially ones that put u out of your comfort zone) + reflect on how those things made u feel. I’m 18 and it’s hard to do this consistently but like Aileen said be patient with urself. Everything I have done has either been a win or a lesson. Best of luck and much love to u!!

[@ihssanezakariaa9171]

@@jarethw54 to build our happy life

[@ihssanezakariaa9171]

@@letsbethechange1424 change, not something came suddenly. is a beautiful journey that you have to enjoy with every moment❤

[@MortarandPastry]

Thank you for sharing your life and giving us hope and inspiration Aileen! ❤

[@whateversinmymind5644]

Hey its Mortar and Pastry. Highly didin't expect you to be in the same comment section. Love your recipes.

[@huongang-cd5wd]

I lost myself lot of times. Finally, at 27, I found something that I want to do for my future. Your story is so emotional. Thanks for sharing

[@Grownglow123]

The moment she told that I'm sharing this with myself boosts myself to depending on myself. Ily:)

[@magdalenamora8694]

i’m 21 and i’m actually so lost. i lost my hope for “the better” but you’re bringing it back to me. thank you.

[@mayasalvatore8156]

You can do whatever you waant !!! If you want it go get it

[@iya_aaa]

You can do it! I'm 15 and I'm learning about my self and it's amazing.

[@WartyFingleBlaster]

You'll get there. It takes time, but you'll get there. Wherever it is that you need to be. Much love to you. I hope that some things have become more clear in the year since you posted this.

[@tgreaux5027]

@@mayasalvatore8156 yea all you need is LOTS OF CASH! lol

[@mayasalvatore8156]

@@tgreaux5027 when i said go get it it doesn't mean it is something u can buy but it is work it is a challenge to win

[@chelseajeong3935]

I'm 22. Up until this year, I was existing but not living. I grew up feeling invisible and lonely. I was sad but I didn't even know I was feeling this way because it just felt like me for the longest time, and it's all I've ever known for a good portion of my childhood/adolescent life. But thankfully I woke up and I began to do the inner work necessary to shed my old identity that I became so unconsciously attached to over the years (feeling unworthy, social anxiety label). I became aware of the thoughts that no longer serve me and I created a new self-image that I want to embody. Honestly, I see the world so differently now and I can't believe how much can change once you change your mindset. Although I'm just beginning my journey, I realized that it all starts from within and that you have to believe in yourself if you want to get anywhere special in life.

[@laurielauren]

I’m 21 and I want this to happen to me...

[@chelseajeong3935]

@Moss B aww thanks :)

[@chelseajeong3935]

@@laurielauren trust me, you can totally change your self-image, it's 100% doable. All you have to do is be willing to be honest with yourself and observe how you have been treating yourself, like your inner dialogue, lifestyle choices, etc. Give yourself the space and don't be too hard on yourself. You got this :)

[@geyasuuu]

@@chelseajeong3935 Dang, this is great advice. Thank you so much for sharing this! I can't wait to finally get to know myself and grow to be the person I aspire to be ✨

[@laurielauren]

@@chelseajeong3935 thank you so much ❤️

[@SamElle]

it's truly eye opening to hear your story!! I'm 24 and I've been feeling so so lost and it helps to hear how someone else has found their path!!

[@rochellee4458]

Hang in there Sam! This is the time for discovery in your life. It’s hard to imagine a different future outside of our current circumstances but you are exactly where you need to be. Be kind to yourself and journal your experiences to track your journey. If journaling is hard for you, voice memos are a good option.

[@SamElle]

@@rochellee4458 Thank you so so much! Your message is really reassuring and yes I have been journaling to self-reflect and that does make me feel better about things. Voice memos is a smart idea!! I will definitely do that

[@storiesbynaima]

I'm currently in a transition period in my life. It's really scary and I find it really difficult to overcome obstacles, push past barriers, and be confident in myself. I have a lot of dreams. Sometimes they excite me and sometimes they scare me or make me feel ashamed. You will probably not read this, but I just want to thank you for being you, following your dreams, and making the videos and content you have made. They have really inspired me and made me feel less alone. Your energy feels so genuine and kind. In these times where I feel sad and lost, videos, people, and creators like yourself give me a little motivation to keep going in a direction authentic to me, so thank you and I hope you continue to experience joy and success in your life.

[@hb2626]

A bit late to the party, but I’m nearly 25 and have been going through a really tough time for the past few months. I was listening to your video while painting and started crying but in a relief kind of way. I’ve been really lost recently and your video helped to allow myself to acknowledge my dreams and stop shoving them down out of fear. Thank you.

[@lavendaire]

thank you so much for sharing 💜 i send you hugs, energy, love & light your way love

[@Slowliving748]

Inspiring! I’m making similar transitions in my 50’s. Never too late for change!❤️

[@lea.mathilda]

Man this video was a real hit here. 21 years old. I've been doing youtube for 6 months now. I love creating videos, talking being in front of the camera and vlogging. I just love sharing real moments of life with the people around me & watching videos like that. But somehow I often reach the point where I think "do I even do things people could like? Am I not good? Do I suck that much at what I do?", it's challenging while it's my last year of university with LOTS of work, being stuck at home and doubting myself so much. But that won't stop me from dreaming and praying for my dream life. I know I'll get there! I can feel it. I can go against my thoughts, create stuff I like and live the life I want to. I'll get there. I believe so.

[@areumdw8077]

I am 26 and lost in life. I just had a really hard year and looking at my life up to now none of my plans turned out like I expected. Now I'm at this point of my life when I have no plan anymore and it's been really tough on my mental health. I never had a long term job, I always worked and then traveled or study abroad and it made me feel like I had done nothing in life. Looking at the people around me, I felt like I was behind because I don't have that settled life they have but thanks to your videos I realize that I'm not less successful, I just chose a different path and it doesn't make me less worthy than someone with a stable work, an apartment/house, car, etc. It is my path and I don't know where it will lead me but I have to embrace it. Now that you say it, all these past years I thought I was just trying to gain some time because I had not idea (and still have no idea) about what I want to do in life but no, all these years I was actually living my life and discovering and experiencing new things. I think it really is time for me to change the way I see things and experience life and you're helping a lot. Thank you Aileen 💖

[@harishmamariyam6956]

I was feeling down and unmotivated and wanted to talk to someone but didn't find anyone at the moment....now I feel a lot better after watching your videos 😌.......I m 20 .......I think I m on the journey of discovering myself .....I m really proud of how your life turned out .....thankyou for spreading light and making these enlightening videos

[@AndiTointonLivingAGoodLife]

I'm 53 but my daughter is 19 and I want to share your video with her. I love your meditation videos and I have been obsessed with Abraham Hicks and the law of attraction. They did a video that said its ok to enjoy other meditations. It's the feeling. I like your story very much. I really love the filming and visuals with your meditation it fits perfectly with me in full alignment. Thank you for being you. Your journey is something to really learn from.

[@kriziacc1988]

I imagine someday I'll be able to say to my family "I've achieved the things I promised before mom and dad, thank you"

[@shreyapendurkar5027]

I am 15 and i want to become a writer. I have started writing my first book, which is going to be a poetry book!! And just like you I want to explore everything in this world, and live life to my fullest...

[@Robynelli]

Can't wait ❤

[@geyasuuu]

So excited for you! ✨

[@theculturalear7134]

Do it!!! Instead of investing in class rings and letter jackets, I chose to self- publish a book for my senior year. It was just for friends and family, but that experience and determination stayed with me. Plus, I walked into my 20s being able to say, "I am an author" with no qualms🖤🙋🏽‍♀️

[@shreyapendurkar5027]

@@theculturalear7134 yeah you're right!!

[@dianacortez7275]

I’m turning 26 by the end of this year, still trying new things and figuring out what I truly want in life. Thank you so much Aileen! This video was beautiful and it brought me to tears 💗

[@cultivation4lfe]

was preparing for university when i got bored and decided to play your video. i feel so much better now. I'm grateful that you exist Aileen, you're one of my biggest inspiration!

[@isdiantiroselini7452]

I'm 23 years old, and now just started to pursue my dream. Even though, I still doubt about it. Thank you so much for your video, it's so inspiring ❤️

[@handlecp]

Same

[@kristenweiderman]

I'm 23 and while I'm not experiencing severe depression as I did a couple years ago, I still feel lost. It's okay though, because at least I can now breathe and I know that I'm finally, and confidently, starting to build the foundation for my future success 💜

[@ZhiMinLim]

Watching this made me tear up :" I feel a sense of pride towards Aileen for taking the necessary steps to create the kind of life she wants. Clearly, it hasn't been an easy journey of self-realisation, but it's a beautiful one 🤍 I hope that one day I too, would finally figure out my place in this world. You have no idea how much hope this video gave me, thank you so much ☺️☺️

[@jemimaorakwue3450]

I totally agree! 🥺

[@quirkducirque]

You truly have a place in this beautiful world - there is no need to search for it, only to discover the beauty of who you are! 🤍The world is blessed to have you in it ☺️

[@lavendaire]

sending you love for your journey

[@meherjanurmee9566]

You are not alone ☺. Keep working hard to become the best version of yourself!

[@aryakumar9921]

I'm 16 and I'm working towards building a safe career path for now, so that once I am financially stable, I can work towards my passion and won't have to beg my parents for their support. I respect that they want the safest path for me, but that's not what I want for myself. I want to observe, experiment, break, get up again, learn, become stronger and oh, so much! I want to LIVE. Your life is definitely an inspiration for all of us here, thank you for sharing it.

[@amruta8965]

I hope you don't get too old and tired to do what you actually like :)

[@junekafaltiya4514]

Same here

[@aryakumar9921]

@@amruta8965 ah, thanks. Hope the same...that till I get enough money, I don't lose the time, energy and motivation

[@Abel_Makkonen_Tesfaye-0]

Me too, i am 15 look up to you ill be 16 soon

[@aryakumar9921]

@@Abel_Makkonen_Tesfaye-0 :) All the best. I hope u never lose your motivation

[@ashleighhennessy]

This literally made me cry, I have true hope for the first time in a long time. My story - I had a difficult childhood, I was abused emotionally, physically and sexually, for most of my life and struggled with an eating disorder, ptsd, panic attacks, suicidal depression and self harm. Throughout this time I loved music, and often wrote songs about all I'd been through. I then became disabled aged 17, and then got into an abusive relationship aged 21, which caused me to have a miscarriage aged 25. I tried to make it as a music artist in my early twenties just like you, while all the other stuff was happening in my life, writing and producing 2 albums as an independent artist, which helped me feel heard, but wasn't really working out financially. I ran out of money and got tired of living in poverty despite working so hard, so after my miscarriage I decided to change my life. I left my abusive ex and moved 100 miles away to have a fresh start. I got into University and I'm currently about to graduate as a qualified therapist, helping others who have been through trauma just like me. I got my fresh start, and I reinvented myself just like you I'm building the life I always wanted. I'm 27 now, and am about to qualify next summer, so I'll be able to work doing what I love, helping people, while hopefully having enough money to put into my music so I can give that another proper go. I also met the love of my life at University and plan on having children while that all takes off. Am in an exciting place right now in my life x

[@toobachaudhary992]

I feel like I'm in tears! Currently 25 years old. Working as a kindergarten teacher since 5 years. Watching this give me hopes that things will be fine, ups and down will be worth it.

[@rowena]

such, such beautiful words Aileen 💕 lost then found then lost is such a mood 😂😅

[@lavendaire]

haha it totally is 🙏🏼

[@maygan425]

Ah rowena and aileen my 2 favorite role models!!!🤩💗💗💗

[@thatgirl1130]

@@maygan425 t78d

[@squishy_soob]

I've been feeling lost since I was a kid, not fitting in with society, been bullied through elementary and 8th grade. Looking back I've been through a lot and I think that's what motivates me to just improve my circumstances. I'm 20 and I'm starting on my journey. I'm taking baby steps and being gentle with myself and letting go of judgement and negative inner thoughts. It was such a blessing that I've been led to your channel, thank you for all the work that you do 💕

[@thecelestialheart]

I am 31 years old. In my 20s pursued musical theater and music, and realized that was not my path. Graduated college 2 years ago with a Communications degree. Started a KZbin channel in 2018 right after graduating. I put myself through school while working 2 waitressing jobs because my parents could not afford to help me out. Took a hiatus on KZbin to try the corporate life. Hated it. Went back to waitressing. Found out my father had cancer. Went back home to the Philippines to unite with my family after 19 years of being incomplete in February 2020. Pandemic hit. Lost my auntie in April, who I saw when I visited early this year. She raised me and made sure I was able to get a high school education in the Philippines. Lost my father in September. Lots of grieving, forgiveness, healing. Currently on a spiritual awakening and reliving my childhood dream of being an artist. Now also on the path to be a spiritual healer through different healing modalities. Thank you for being such an inspiration all these years Aileen! I truly appreciate your passion and bravery. You have served as a catalyst for many people. Light and love to you and to everyone reading this! ❤🙏✨

[@Kaymitlit]

Peace and love to you 2 and sorry for the loved one you lost 💙

[@dailyskincarewithh4143]

You're such a strong and beautiful human being. Sorry for the loose you have figured out, much love and happiness

[@thecelestialheart]

@@Kaymitlit thank you dear one!

[@thecelestialheart]

@@dailyskincarewithh4143 thank you so much dear one! ❤

[@namratamondal2685]

I am currently 15 and i am a beginner I am yours recent follower, your video has changed my thoughts about life. Though i am a student but currently in depression, i was so depressed that i thought my life is meaningless. But after watching this video i have understood everything is possible if i want and its my life i can do anything and everything that i want to be. Thank you so much ❤❤

[@ggukiescave]

I'm 16 and I feel this immense pressure to essentially "find who I am" and my overall purpose. It's something that I struggle with deep down inside, and it's a concept that caused me to have many mental breakdowns over. I look to my peers and it seems like they all have their lives together while I'm still the only one struggling to find my loves, my passions, and my deepest desires. It doesn't help that I have perfectionistic tendencies, which cause me to restrict myself from trying out new things, whether it would be hobbies or interests because I know that since I have no experience in these fields, I would fail. Oh gosh, don't even get me started about failure. I don't try anything because I'm absolutely terrified to fail, even when I *know* for a fact that the only way I can truly learn is through failure. Making mistakes and making a fool out of myself is just something that I am afraid of. I'm afraid of disappointing those around me, and I'm afraid of disappointing myself. Lately, I have the lack of motivation to do anything, and it sucks because it's 2021 and I desperately want to get my life together but I just don't know where to start. If I do start, I start blaming myself, saying things like, "You could've started earlier, why did it take you so long to do this?" or "You started doing this so late, your peers are way ahead of you. You'll never catch up, you're too far behind." It's true when one says that one's worst critic is themselves. I can't stop comparing myself to others and I don't know how to stop. My mind is like a twisted highway of rollercoaster-like roads. I never stop thinking and my mind is bustling like the city streets of New York City or Japan. It's hard to even concentrate anymore and I can't focus on one thing without having to worry about another. I keep having to consciously remind myself to be in the present and to think positively because my mind automatically thinks negatively due to years of it being conditioned that way. I don't even know what emotions I feel anymore because I feel too many all at once. I don't know when I started feeling this way because it's been a while. My life is so messed up and I hate myself so much. I hate myself so much to the point where it's even hard to have a straight conversation with my own parents. I don't like them looking at me because I feel like they see a monster. I'm a lot worse around my friends or my classmates. Another thing-- I hate complaining to others so I keep all my thoughts to myself. I feel guilty for complaining right now, in this KZbin video's comments section and I'm debating whether I should hit post or not. I don't feel as if I have the right to act this way, feel this way, or complain this way because my life is significantly easier than some out in the world without clean water, food, or shelter. I feel ungrateful. I feel disgusting. I don't think my life will ever be put together in a way that would make me happy. I just want to be content. I'm meant to feel this way. I'm meant to suffer. I guess that's my purpose in life after all.

[@Angel16C]

You're not meant to suffer! I think one of the best ways to find yourself is trying different things. Maybe start by reading some self-help book? I haven't read that many but "you can heal your life" by Louise L. Hay is a good beginning. "The defining decade" by meg jay (I know You're not 20 yet but it might help). Or whatch or read "the secret" if you haven't already. Just take it easy, it's not a race✨

[@Abel_Makkonen_Tesfaye-0]

Youre not Alone. Youre never Alone.

[@lizzie354]

I can resonate with you on a lot both when I was 16 and now at 25 in different ways. My best advice, is channel those struggles into creating like keep writing! Not only is it healthier for you and will help you sort out the mess in your brain, but you definitely seem to have a talent for it! I am a storyteller but I definitely couldn’t write that proficient when I was 16-still can’t! 😂😅 I also have been haunted by perfectionism that turned out to be OCD (form of anxiety). It can be scary to put a name to the way our brain functions, but nothing has given me more relief than starting the [admittedly long & not really that easy as much as I wish it wasn’t, it’s a process to finally get to a stable point but it’s one you have to start to get anywhere] mental health journey. I recommend looking into reliable professionals who can scan your brain and/or psychiatrists and therapists if you can. Unfortunately it’s not always financially easy to do but I deeply believe everyone should do it. The amount of insight you get from understanding the reasons behind why your mind works the way it does (or if there’s a physical condition that could be impacting it like I would be diagnosed with when I was 16, an autoimmune disease called Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis another long but worthwhile and even life-saving process I went through over the years) is SO life changing. And like I said about diagnosing my autoimmune disease so I could get treatment, it could even be lifesaving so definitely don’t be afraid of looking into it! The anxiety leading up to it is scary of course but the day I was diagnosed gave me so much relief that I really wasn’t going crazy, there were reasons & ways I could use them to my advantage as I tended to them, made it one of the best days of my life. I still remember to this day that is was my first day of my junior year of high school and one of the best but also worst weeks of my life (but cause of other fun things life through my way lololol-those too improved over time). My point is: there’s so much hope my dear! But you are so young whether you feel it or not so you have a lot of ups and downs ahead of you. It will be hard to see in the moment, but they’re for a reason and will teach you soooo much wisdom that you will hopefully get to use to help others or something of that sort (like I’m doing with my own in this very comment) 🥰💕 message me if you need anything dear! YOU CERTAINLY AREN’T ALONE!

[@lizzie354]

PS- definitely look into if you have ADHD (which can be connected to anxiety too). I wasn’t diagnosed until college but I had the same exact struggles you seem to and I couldn’t describe the mess ADHD makes my brain better than you did in your last paragraph! It’s a process to get diagnosed and meds aren’t always the best solution but it helps soooo much to understand why your brain seems to be on overdrive. It makes school a living hell and it’s def not that you aren’t smart, maybe makes you even smarter with all the thoughts and conflicts we have to sort through, but that it’s harder for us to be able to test, etc which our school systems are unfortunately based on. I wish I considered that I had ADHD back in high school, it would’ve helped me out sooo much. So give that a look! But above all, look into putting your mental health first-the pressures can wait I promise and will just keep changing anyways but your brain and body being crushed by the stress can’t. In the mean time look up ADHD help KZbin channels and Instagram accounts! It will make life soooo much better, trust me 😘 surprisingly there’s even pros to the mess our brains create too so focus on those!

[@kimnaomie2267]

This is exactly what I feel and think in this past month and actually until now. It come and goes you know. I'm scared of myself cause I know that I'm sabotaging my own health physically and mentally by feeding myself with negative thoughts. I'm aware but I just can't stop and it pained me a lot. But now I'm trying to atleast be in control of myself before I drag myself completely down and disappoint my friends and family more. I'm so ashamed of what I have become. Too ashamed that I just want to vanished and wished that I'm not the person that my closed friends and family met because I'm worth nothing. It's so disappointing and exhausted to feel this way, sometimes I just want to give up but I'm still having a faith that I will overcome this. This is just a challenge that God gave me to learn and grow up. I hope you'll have faith too that everything will be alright. We just need to pull ourselves up and keep on going. As long as we're alive we can do something and we can achieve everything we wanted to as long as we are willing to do so. Remember your not alone. Many people also feel this way but their giving their best to be better. Wish you all the best. This too shall pass. We can overcome this. FIGHTING!!

[@kassiaretagi2528]

I’m 22 years old and I’m most definitely in the part of life where I think I know what I’m doing and where I’m going, but at the same time feel lost and anxious and like I’m doing everything wrong. You’ve helped me a bit honestly. It gives me hope that I’ll find my path! Thank you 💓

[@nouraberrached5502]

Am at the same age of yours and feeling the same ... i hope we will find our path soon❤❤

[@happyme7215]

I love how your Friends and Boyfriend helped you through the journey and they gave you the support, love, and encouragement you needed

[@mounikavarma1176]

I am so happy & so proud of you Aileen 🤗 I am 22 & feeling so so happy from inside watching this. Thankyou for giving all of us the encouragement. Wishing you more & more happiness & success

[@tysonbw]

I'm 38. You don't know how much you helped me today. I feel like God lead me to your channel. I don't even know how I found you. Today, this week, this month, this past 12 months have been so challenging for me and I've felt far away from myself. I watched one of your other vids prior to this one. You accented the thought to give ourselves permission to just "be", to do nothing and be okay with that - to rest. I'm so glad I have your channel to help me through this chapter in my life. THANK YOU Aileen. You are making a difference in so many lives.

[@Klara_is_finding_herself]

I'm 29 years old. I feel like I'm still in the beginning. My whole life.

[@tarnielaska-wolfe7812]

Same 🥰

[@leaenongene2499]

Me too

[@linamostafa5580]

i've never related more

[@Theiris92]

Me too! Nice to not feel alone! Hope you all get what you’re hoping for in life x

[@Klara_is_finding_herself]

@@Theiris92 Thank you! You too ❤

[@anjaliroy9455]

"It's okay to be lost and it's okay to not have everything figured out, that is the space when magic can enter and create more exciting lifestory"...❤️❤️❤️ Loved it

[@XxLeCupcakexX]

I just turned 20 and so lost with life i dont know what I should do next. To see where you started and what a wonderful person you become is really motivating and i hope that in 10 years i also have figured out what my path looks like.

[@thelittleetherealghost]

24 and ready for my life to really begin. I started the journey and am on my way, but there is still so much I need to figure out and learn. Things are hard right now but I hope I make the choices that will help me grow and that will lead me to my dream life.

[@hildaalexandra7008]

I’m 20 now and I am currently in the midst of having my energy back after 4 months of feeling like not doing anything. Thanks for your story!

[@aniqah75]

"Through knowing and embracing fear and uncertainty, I found freedom and with that, I came alive" wow

[@astoldbyabi]

I am literally in tears. It just seems like divine timing that this is your first video that I stumbled upon. There are sooo many very stark similarities between our stories: -the college internship that was a clear fork in the the road -the decision to figure it out upsetting your family At early 23 I am still in the fog of uncertainty and exploring, in the trenches of creating a life I love. I set my intention for this era of my life as ‘Action in Alignment’. Thank you so much for sharing your light! This video really resonated with me (I am literally in tears 😭 ), want wait to be at a place where the struggle feels more beautiful but you have inspired me to embrace and document it more for this time is teaching me so many beautiful things! Okay I’ll stop boring everyone now, sending love 💕 and light ✨ to everyone who reads this 😊

[@rocaelliflores2292]

I just wanna cry watching this. THIS. This is a proof that we dont need to live up to others' expectation 😭😭😭😭♥️♥️

[@nosibusisocele984]

True❤

[@deardaisy]

This video is very motivational. I'm 23 years old and I relate to what you went through at 23/24 so much. Seeing how so many people start working very early to achieve their dreams made me feel anxious lately. I started a youtube channel 5 years ago but lost motivation pretty quickly because I fought with depression. Then I started another one last year in hopes to finally stick to it and to do what I wanted to do for such a long time: be creative. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. It gives me hope that I can still achieve my dreams if I start working hard now💕

[@kumababybear]

HI Aileen, I'm 25. This year has definitely been full of new beginnings for me. Late bloomer in love and got my first boyfriend, only to have broken up two months later and even though it was short, it hurt so freaking much and I'm still learning to get through the pain. Lost my job, lost many friends, all in the span of this year. I'm now finally trying to find my myself because I have been on autopilot for so long. Thank you for inspiring me with this video.

[@lavendaire]

i appreciate you 💓

[@kristina6804]

I'm 15 and I'm at that point in life where i question myself,,, who am i? what am i supposed to do in life? Thank you for this video, and tbh for every single one you've had, because you really inspire me a lot as a person

[@AneesahLife]

Same

[@yesno8785]

Same. I have a dream life envisioned, but it seems impossible to achieve, and I am getting a bit concerned.

[@kristina6804]

@@yesno8785 i think everything is possible if you really believe in it and really want it ^^ wish u good luck

[@kthsnriki9895]

I'm 15 too! And honestly I can relate to every word you said

[@tharumini2577]

Same

[@keisha9909]

I'm 19, started college. Currently, I'm walking in a path of God and discovering myself more😊. Thankyouu you inspires me a lot.💖

[@snuppl512]

I'm glad I'm not the only 19years old who just started the college

[@ClareceLeona]

I’m 24😭 and I literally feel my life reaching a point of true alignment! I’m in tears -thank you for this I feel so hopeful for my future 🙏🏾✨🌸💐

[@linlattwaialexa5582]

I am 16. And I don’t know why am I here .Your story give me lots of energy to just keep going and it’s ok to be lost

[@charlesemusicofficial]

I'm an 26 going on 27 and last year (2020) I was at the reset stage. For 10 years I was chasing this one dream blindly and whole heartedly that I realized that I didn't even stop to see all of the other opportunities around me that I was ignoring. In 2019 I stopped chasing that one dream because I realized that it wasn't for me anymore and I didn't want to be a part of it anymore; which really sent me into a deep self reflection which lead to depression. But because of the pandemic I was able to sit in silence for a while and truly think about what I want out of life, who I am and what I want to be. It led me into a this magical place in life where I was learning and trying out so many different things that I always wanted to do but never had the courage to ACTUALLY try. It made me realize that my life isn't over just because I could accomplish this one dream. It made me realize that I'm not a failure and that there is no shame in letting people see you trying. So at the in of 2020 I decided that from 2021 on out I will live life fearlessly with no regrets. I CAN do hard things and I CAN live the life I truly want. This video was beautiful! May 2021 bring even more beauty and happiness for you and your love ones

[@happylife3392]

I'm 22, I'm just beginning to start my journey. I feel like I'm worthless bcoz I wasn't making any progress for the past years. I'm so lost till now. but after watching your journey I feel like I'm not alone 💜

[@thenu_li5352]

Same

[@getbetterdaybyday3958]

As a 20 y/o in college, I feel this sentiment

[@luca3204]

“Not making progress” doesn’t make you worthless. u can’t change the past but u can start from here❤️

[@sarahbhg7233]

I'm your age and I feel the exact same way. You're not alone💕 we'll get through this, okay?

[@happylife3392]

@@sarahbhg7233 thanks for the support 😍

[@user-jk5jo3xc5v]

i’m 19, going on 20 literally in a couple days. i feel like i’m just beginning. thank you for this.

[@yasha36]

28, I still like I am in the depression stage but I do want to start living the life I imagine. ♡

[@fatemareza6165]

same situation Dear....I'm 28 too....and always in the depression stage...we will figure it out...it.. just a matter of time....all the best.

[@fabianeyung1270]

I love the "depression stage" hahaha I feel my life is the "depression stage". Like said the other comment... we will figure it out

[@ciarajuno5425]

I'm 28 too! And I'm honestly taking it day by day surrounding myself with the little things that make me happy.

[@canchanstudy5356]

I am 17 y.o now, on 21 May 2021, I'll be 18 y.o. Now I think, I'm just beginning, finding myself, creating my dream life. For the first time, i feel i've been late to start, but ur video make me emotional and give me strength. I wanna cry....Thank you Aileen!🙏⛤😊 I hope I'll be back here when I've found my dream life and have succeed🙏😊 For my future me: (5 or 10 years again) Wait for me, your young-me still try to be better everytime and still creating her dream life.Thank you for staying up right now.Thanks for not give up when u down.I love you💕

[@pamelakeith7659]

Iam about to be 57 and age is just a number every year is a new chapter! Live your best life, I need to find inner peace, I need to go for a new me ,I love the videos they have helped me a lot,

[@ghufran8386]

I am during a crisis right now, i am lost in my life, i have OCD,and trying to live my life. Your video showing up to me especially this moment is definitely a message to me. Thank you for being here, queen.

[@eriageranta6201]

Hello there! Amazing individual! I just wanted to say that you're beautiful, worthy, amazing, brave, tough and strong. Everything that happens to you is a form of instruction if you pay attention. That crisis on your life is a test towards on a strong you. Be BRAVE. WE LOVE YOU.💚🕊️

[@femmenistas]

Saw your comment and I just wanted to send some love

[@ghufran8386]

@@eriageranta6201 words cannot describe how i felt reading this comment. I am so grateful for you and your words. I literally cried. Much love 💙.

[@ghufran8386]

@@femmenistas i hope you are doing well. Yes. It helps. Knowing that I am not alone suffering makes it a lot more easier to accept the battle.

[@ghufran8386]

@@letsbethechange1424 soon you will, warrior. Soon you will! Just hang in there and don't give up.

[@VanillaCokeFriends]

I'm 22 and have been feeling like all of my dreams have been thrown in the trash since quarantine started. I've felt like a failure since I couldn't hone down which type art I should pursue and if I can ever live the life I want. This video is so inspiring and is a great reminder to take one step everyday and to never give up. That it's possible still. Thank you!

[@sedigaN]

This was honestly the most inspiring video I have ever seen. Im soon to be 20 years old and was questioning my path and my future. Seeing your 20´s have truly inspired me to enjoy this new decade and always try to do what I enjoy. Im currently studying medicine, so I will properly spend most of it in school, but that doesnt mean I cannot enjoy the process and the journey. Thank you for creating such inspiring content💜

[@lavendaire]

excited for you

[@Honey-in8re]

i'm 20, painting major and currently struggling mentally, financially and physically. i'm so glad i decided to watch your videos again after a long time. this really inspires me a lot, thank you so much❤️

[@bruh3290]

I am 12 still too 👌small but seeing this video, seeing the struggles you've been through but you didn't give up and you were lost but you followed your dreams and followed whatever you wanted to do. I am really proud of you, I also want to live my life like you with and without insecurities, with and without joy. I am honoured to share my thoughts and I wish you and everyone reading this, happiness, joy and success🎉

[@lizzie354]

Wow I’m sooo impressed at how well of a writer you are at just 12! Keep flourishing that, you definitely have a talent and are wise beyond your years! 🥰 Never lose your empathetic, kind heart through the ups and downs of life either! 💕

[@miriamzahorcova919]

I’m 18 and feeling lost, not sure what I want to do and together with this pandemic going on rn it makes me anxious. But videos like this help me realize that it’s not the end of the world and that I will find myself and glow up one day. What you do is amazing 💗 thank you and sending lots of love

[@geyasuuu]

I feel the same too! Wishing you the best for your self-discovery journey ✨

[@miriamzahorcova919]

@@geyasuuu thank you very much! I wish you the same! 😘

[@meherjanurmee9566]

You need to be brave. Take action, plan, reflect and learn. Also, don't forget to smile everyday. I am 17 and I can relate to your feelings. Keep working hard and I hope u will be the best version of yourself.

[@miriamzahorcova919]

@@meherjanurmee9566 thanks for your sweet words! 😊

[@meherjanurmee9566]

@@miriamzahorcova919 You are welcome, dear ☺

[@iaxiong2866]

I have been feeling so lost in life at the moment, I found your video one day, and I decided to watch it, it became life changing for me, because now I get it. Some times some people don’t have these good advices given to them, and you’re doing great ❤️ giving great life experiences 🥰

[@RiyaBasu]

27, just found my purpose, going ALL IN for my DREAM LIFE 💜

[@flrchile84]

20 y/o and trying to find myself. I don’t have direction, but this video gives me hope. Thank you!

[@manasi7898]

Hey can we connect??

[@chenlanorange]

Turning 26 this May. I had just been through two tough years, family and health issues. My mindset had a complete shift from very depressed, even suicidal to optimistic and grateful. I’m now very confident with my future. The first step in this process was to let go, not to be too harsh on myself, love the way I’m now. Watch tons of inspirational videos and books. Refuse negativity and bad news. Do things that make me feel happy and keep doing them. 2021 I’ve started learning Spanish and hit 100 new words last week. I also enjoy doing a lot of walking, breathing in fresh air, enjoy the nature and the moment. Eating lots of healthy food, also do exercise regularly. I’m now very sure 2021 is gonna be the best year of my life. Maybe when I turn 30, I will have my dream life. I’m always telling myself, I’m creating the life of my dreams. 💕💕💕 Life is wonderful.

[@Chandanasr]

22 and confused with too many options and dreams at hand . But I believe that I shall figure it out 🌸 thaaanks for your kind words 🤍

[@simrankharel9524]

“through knowing and embracing, fear and uncertainty, I found freedom.” This is exactly what I want to feel Aileen. I’m so glad as I really needed this video of yours to give me some hope. I’m 21.. completely clueless, stuck, confused, restricted.. there are SO many things that I want to try but I often get scared about how I might lose my energy and will to take risks and accept the uncertainties, to actually dare to live my life the way I wanted... It gets better, right?

[@julia4619]

im 18, totally clueless about what my life is going to be. Love to see your journey and accomplishments!

[@manveerkaur1179]

Samee

[@ShubhamKumar-rb6ts]

That's the beauty of clueless.. you don't, know what will happen next is scary and amazing at the same time. I'm also 18teen so don't worry no Matter which number we get but still we always be clueless about life. Which good actually not knowing what will happen next.

[@jacquelinediaz5987]

This was absolutely confirming. You can restart and reimagine you life at any age. Spent my late teen & early 20s raising a baby. Now, it’s my time to discover what is next for me. So appreciated this video. 🙏🏽💕🦋

[@Lomenar]

This was such a beautiful video. I’m 31 and in the beginning of my own journey and still feeling mostly lost to be honest. Your videos make me believe it is still possible to create the life I want though, so thank you for that. 💕

[@AuthorMorganLee]

I'm 30 and very much at the beginning. My 20's were filled with sickness (I was diagnosed with Crohn's disease at 20), uncertainty, confusion, and anger. I got lost because I felt the lifelong disease became my identity and I couldn't see past it. Now, I am a lot more confident. I've been through some things. My disease is in remission and I know how to handle it now. I'm ready to make my 30's the best years of my life and keep moving up.

[@geyasuuu]

I'm excited for you! Wishing you the best for your 30s ✨

[@AuthorMorganLee]

@@geyasuuu Thank you!

[@thulee_nkosi]

This was so touching to read. Wishing you all the best!

[@AuthorMorganLee]

@@thulee_nkosi Thank you!

[@fashioninspo2.0connie75]

I am 18 And my journey has just began. After years of being depressed, I finally feel alive 😇💜

[@leahborrino335]

27 and only just finding the courage and confidence to follow my dreams!

[@greys7734]

"Thirty, flirty, and thriving!" - This video was beautiful, and so open. I appreciated the deep breath after you spoke about your dad. I'm very glad to have come across your video at this point in time in my life, thank you for sharing!

[@Cloudy_Kim7]

I'm 17 years old girl.I'm so proud of my self and i try in my best.😌🥰thank you so much❤️✨️