When I Wanted To End It All... | My Journey With Depression & Anxiety

[@luccasacchetta6807]

Bro u built different, there’s thousands of influencers that don’t add nothing to our lives, u bring a lot of stuff, from body positivity to the Christian message (which I love) to faith and mental issues as well, u dope man. Keep up with it and God bless u bro!💪🏼

[@TheUnderdogTalk]

Amen

[@spokenwordsclouded6650]

Amen to that brother

[@HobbitNinjaWizard]

Yes! So many people try to live fake lives on social media, and don't want to offend anyone, but Alex is true and raw, and he really is a breath of fresh air in the fitness community. What a legend!

[@YohnzyRR]

Amen

[@AscendedZenith]

True. Alex made me a better person even though I’m still stuck in the lonely phase

[@deathstarvsdeathstarvs7009]

this is practically how every modern teenage boy who isn't interested in partying and is introverted feels like. STAY STRONG BROS. we can all relate

[@ErolDotCom]

Imagine being introverted, then partying to “fit in” then dealing with a life long oxy/fentanyl addiction. It can always be worse :/

[@conwks]

@@ErolDotCom you’ve got this bro we’re cheering for you

[@chickentoucher55]

And it’s all in your head we youst to live in a guilt based society where judgement from god what what drove people’s actions, but post ww2/baby boomers we become an anxiety based society where people’s judgement and fitting in became what drove society, same thing happened during the fall of rome, degeneracy from prosperity it’s all in your head

[@ramonsalazar6733]

Same here brother people don’t believe me at 24 I’ve never drank or tried any drug in my life. All honor and glory to God ❤

[@viiplayer1]

i feel ya

[@ReneZZ]

Keep doing this, my dude. Thank you.

[@promatrix561]

Rene? Que putas haces aquí papi? Jajajajja HERMOSO

[@MrTheCagados]

No esperaba ver por aquí a Rene TetaZZecas jaja saludos 🤞🏼

[@maziusclavo8021]

Mucho menos sat an ico que tv canal

[@juanvillegas1448]

Que haces aqui renesito jajja

[@ThoVCor999]

grande Rene, aqui viendo al rubio guapo mamadisimo 💀

[@eatncheetos2478]

You are amazing Alex, I want to be a better version of my self and stop all the addiction and bad habits in my life and every time I watch you, I keep getting that reminder to keep moving and don’t stop I don’t want to go back to where I was before I want to get to where I’m supposed to be. Thank you!

[@eatncheetos2478]

God bless you man.

[@jalixvintage]

@@eatncheetos2478God bless you bro

[@idarkboost]

The best use of money is charities and children who need it. He is already rich.

[@itsblazey]

@@idarkboost man stfu dawg

[@allegorx58]

lol why the f would you send him five bucks. are you good bro?

[@ezrawang6641]

I knew God wanted me to watch this. I’ve been struggling with addiction and extreme depression. Being high all the time has caused me to dissociate and forget who I am completely. I’ve been going to the gym for a couple months now and starting to read God’s Word everyday. Guys it does get better. I was on the verge of life and death due to an overdose but I’m still here and it blows my mind. Playing guitar is my absolute passion, so this is exactly what I needed to help motivate me. I encourage whoever’s reading this to turn to the Lord for strength. I’m on the path of building my physical and spiritual strength 💪🏼

[@JoeG71299]

You got this Alyssa! Thanks for sharing

[@levii2748]

Keep going my friend, when shit gets hard, remember what you do it for

[@davy_deshi6439]

I will pray for you alyssa!! life is hard but God will always be there if you fall.

[@liamsi.k.l.r4653]

search the true god

[@Karnam0]

love it man, pastors kid, it gets tough sometimes. love you bro, keep going

[@henk3252]

Youre a massive inspiration Alex, your testimony is another person's hope

[@Jay-zb2rd]

It's my hope

[@felipebarbosa2899]

I think i talk for everyone that the worst part of having anxiety and depression is the fear that if you tell someone,you'll be judge for it,which,sadly,is something that usually happens with a lot of people.

[@Felipe-ec8rg]

verdade irmão

[@ilikedogs870]

Ya sharing it is certainly not the worst part about it…

[@gutsbrsk]

lost a few friends just from sharing

[@victorwurtz9388]

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[@Leansthetics]

You are by far the realest in the industry. Being around my age and talking about real life issues that are not “cool” to talk about. Love seeing people like you succeed in life

[@GOINGBONKERZZ]

When you said “you can’t have anxiety and gratitude in your mind at the same time” it resonated with me .

[@GOINGBONKERZZ]

When you have resources please call the fort?🫡

[@alexreddekopp7689]

Fr same

[@covelli007]

Man I have anxiety like this. It came out of no where 2 weeks ago, it’s crippling and terrifying. I’ve been praying for it to leave

[@solarecl5671]

Make sure you find the source of your anxiety, pray and work on yourself. You got this brother💪

[@mufns]

im sorry bro ill be praying for you

[@alsowirklich3370]

Exactly Like myself, with the Power of god and His Trust in my own strength i have overcome this really dark time in my life and in the end it Made me stronger than ever before. Im thankful for god showing me the darkest time of my life to learn from it. The darkest Moment you experience in life, May be the best Thing that ever happens to you

[@jtames9040]

I have a similar situation and what helps is that We need to have The truth in life which is in the Orthodox christianity religion only btw. The orthodox version of Christianity is the original and true form of christianity that Jesus taught us when he came to earth, and you can feel God’s grace through the holy sacraments in this church after baptism , repentance-confession and holy communion in the orthodox christian church through the grace of the apostles that was transferred from generation to generation to what we have today as the orthodox christian priests, something that completely changes your life and turns you into a happier person with a meaningful life and also saves you by strengthening your bond with God. You can also watch the miracle of the holy fire that does not burn that happens every year, I suggest you get baptised at an orthodox christian church near you, receive the holy spirit and live a spiritual life through the church’s sacraments like confession to the priest and holy communion and God will protect you, in this life, and the next, the eternal one, 😊may God Bless you!

[@BrickmasterStudio]

Alex, I now know that finding your channel recently was no coincidence. I’m 22 and for years I’ve been battling porn, weed, and nicotine addiction. I was born in a Christian family but never felt like I belonged in it. Whenever we’d go to church I always thought it was strange when I saw other people worship with such conviction and even fall to their knees during worship. I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t feel the same as these people and almost mad at God that he couldn’t instill the same feeling in me. As I started college I grew further and further apart from God and that’s when my bad habits started to really get a grip on me. These past two weeks I’ve gone cold turkey no fap, no weed, and no nicotine. At the beginning the withdrawals were hard but when I found your channel about a week ago something beautiful happened, God replaced these cravings for a craving for him and the word and it’s fulfilled me more than any drug/vice I ever had. I truly believe you are an angel that was sent for me. You were the catalyst for the most important moment in my life and I couldn’t be more grateful. I love you Alex, God bless you and your entire family.

[@jits2q127]

Keep going! You are on the right track! Love you.

[@Body.By.Bennett]

That is amazing brother. God is so good! I have a similar story to you

[@zzzzsoothingsounds7512]

Reading this brings so much hope

[@garrettbellows1751]

This message was so inspirational. I pray for you and wish you truly the best on your walk with Christ. God bless you

[@BayAreaHoops415]

Bouta turn 24 and it's safe to say every single friend in my group all struggle with the same shit including myself. The nicotine is by far the hardest to kick, it's beyond fucked. Been using since I was 17 and have been hooked ever since. Good for you for staying off man, fr

[@lainiedoran6441]

I’m only like 7 minutes into watching but I’m crying. I’m so happy to see your growth. You have done so much for me and so many others you don’t even know. God bless.

[@pozityvas4944]

✊🏼

[@TheUnderdogTalk]

So true

[@Hoopculture24]

The voice recording part hit hard. To anyone one else that’s going through something in their life right now just know to trust that things will get better. Chase your passions love yourself and better yourself everyday. Find your purpose!❤️🙏🏻

[@SverreNygard]

I needed this bro, thank you❤️

[@tysmith3747]

His eyes are so beautiful, I can see the pain in his past, the joy he has now, the love he has for life itself, all in the ocean we call our soul. And his is the most beautiful blue it can be. Keep the positive mindset Alex, you’ve impacted so many lives, and kept many from ending it all, just as you have for me. Thank you for all you do!

[@LP3me]

Hey man I wanted to say a few things. I’m in my mid 30s, I’m a veteran, and I’ve been working out since I was 18. I came across your content about a year ago. I kept coming back to your videos because of your consistency in your faith, for not hoping on gear, and because you obviously know what you’re doing when you’re in the gym. Keep your faith first, don’t change for this industry. You’ve grown being exactly true to yourself. Good work man I wish you continued success. Your confidence in your faith, and showing your vulnerability on your channel has helped me in my own life. Thanks brother.

[@hyattgordon2281]

I’m 14 years old and so much of this video is realistic for me. I float around from different friend groups and I don’t fit in. I get bullied just because I’m a bullyable person. I recently started going to the gym and you have been a huge inspiration to me. I hope to transform myself over the summer and hopefully not get bullied when I start high school. Thank you for making this content

[@krishnasrivastava2855]

Hope you be well buddy

[@chaszeren7282]

Hey, mate, you will certainly get stronger😀, dont care about what they all think

[@SnowyGalaxyZz]

you will become strong and do not care about what people think, if you think its good for yourself, then do it and good luck bro

[@jasonstorey1905]

Keep workin on urself bro . Those who r bullying r in a bad place you’re in a better place. You’re becoming your best self. Be true to yourself become that king! 👑

[@parkermiller5549]

How you doing man

[@haydenhestermusic]

I immediately started crying when you played the voice messages. I've experienced some of the same feelings and it's the loneliest thing in the world. But I count on God every step of the way! Thank you Alex for your testimony

[@ayrz2248]

Same here bro omg

[@fivelions6854]

Same, I feel exactly like what he’s saying again… rn again. Sigh

[@3mill5]

The greatest inspiration for the whole fitness community and the younger generation. God bless you brother.

[@fgt2092]

Here I’m not going to lie I’ve been suffering from depression and anxiety and what u were saying abt de realisation. I want to let you know that you are such an inspiration and I found so much comfort in this video knowing that someone I look up to is going through the same problems as me. 🙏

[@diogomartins8755]

17:23 really touched me. the gym has helped me with almost every problem ive had in life but ive always felt like theres something missing. these words inspired me to once again reconnect with my faith. thank you alex god bless

[@gavingibson5746]

I am literally crying/laughing watching this because this is so relatable for me. I am 16 and I go to the gym, and so much of what was said in the video applies to me. I am deeply sorry for you and the girl that you connected with at 16 years old. I just had an experience with a girl who I have known for 5 years and she has been my best friend. I am a sophomore, and at the beginning of the year I became more attracted to her and I became friends w/benefits with her. This was at the beginning of October. Then, in the middle of December, she out of nowhere says that she has a boyfriend. I am very confused and I don't put two and two together until later, but I decide not to talk to her for a month. She does a martial art called jiu-jitsu, which I used to do with her, but I quit for a year. I decided to go back to see her, and when I show up (this was in the middle of January), she almost starts crying and she hugs me. I decide that I will ease back into our friends with benefits relationship before I tell her how I feel about her, but then some f*cker from jiu jitsu said that he liked her. At first I thought it was a joke, because in the past, she would tell me about guys that liked her, and then she wouldn't like them back. I thought this was another one of those situations. I was wrong. She starts talking to this guy and ends up dating him and they've been together for 3.5 months now. About 2 months ago I'd throw up multiple times a week and at one point I was down to 126 pounds (I am really short at 5 foot 2 inches). It was at this moment I decided to start gaining weight again and now I am back to around 135 and I feel much better. I haven't talked to her for a month and a half and I plan on keeping it up. I respect her much less now unfortunately, because the guy she is dating is a f*cking idiot. Anyway, Alex, your videos have made me feel much better and I could really relate to this video and I am happy I found your channel. Much respect.

[@daltonguan8593]

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[@KociembaGracz]

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[@swift-za8390]

good story

[@xunknxwn9923]

keep it up king. we all got this

[@Aqeel.701]

@@KociembaGracz Do not watch wheat waffless he is black pilled asf

[@SalvadorGonzalez.]

I’m going through anxiety rn and watching you and me getting motivation to go to the gym and starting to put god first, it really is changing me to be better than ever. Much love Alex 🔱

[@SalvadorGonzalez.]

Genuinely bro to bro I want to give you a hug and we’re all here for you matter what pops

[@divalhans7125]

How you feeling now bro?

[@michaelscott7252]

I always come back here when I feel I need it. I feel like I can relate to Alex on so many levels and he is such a good guide spiritually, mentally, and, physically. Keep it up alex you are truly touching hearts out here.

[@vintagesnapps14]

It’s crazy seeing someone of this influence literally explain exactly what I’ve went through. I felt like you just told my story to a T! Your a huge inspiration and it’s comforting to see you be so relatable. Thank you for this! My anxiety is already better by the end.

[@slumontbell1137]

You are a very strong man Alex. You’ve been through a lot and to be able to speak about it is amazing. God has a lot in store for your life, just keep your eyes on him. He promised to never leave us nor forsake us and to lean not on your own understanding. We may never know why we go through many events , but it’s all a part of Gods mighty plan. Thank you for being open, many can’t do that, it’s a step towards great healing. Looking back, I’ve gone through a divorce with my parents, my mom passed when I was 15, I’m now 19 and a freshman at Towson Uni. God has been great and has kept me all these years. He has you, lean on him in your time of struggles and praise him in your time of greatness. You may not read this, but if you do, God Bless You

[@george_powell1575]

hey alex, i’ve come across you a few months ago and ever since you have continued to inspire me. i am a 15 yr old boy in the uk who has struggled with depression,anxiety and ptsd also with the need to feel loved by someone for around 7-8 years since my dad left home. i have had many thoughts about finding christ but i feel like i’ve done to many bad things in my life. School is not for me at all, as much as i try it’s not for me i just want to make myself and others proud but with my mental health it is proving very difficult. i’ve started getting to the gym which is a big leap out of my comfort zone all thanks to you . Your a big inspiration alex thank you

[@STYXlawiiYT]

I will be praying for you, I hope you the best of luck. Being different is what makes people unique, be yourself at all times. Much love

[@bricehabekott5604]

in the Bible, John chapter 16 verse 33 it says "I have told you these things so that you may have peace, In this world you will have troubles, But take heart! (take comfort or reassurance) I have overcome the world. As Alex was saying, Jesus Christ died on the cross and became a sacrifice for all mankind so that we may have a relationship with Him. The craziest part about all this is that Jesus offers us forgiveness and Grace (grace from our sins, grace from our wrong doings, and grace from the harm that we may cause), He offers this as a FREE gift, all we have to do is put our faith and trust in Jesus, and believe that Jesus is the God of the universe and that he truly died for our sins. So I tell you these things because i want you to know that there is no sin or evil things that we can do that is not able to be forgiven by Jesus Christ. And that by putting your faith in Jesus you will be set free from sin, That you can truly take heart, that Jesus has overcome the sins of this world. If you got any question or anything, I am just a comment away. I will pray for you that you might find peace within this crazy crazy world that we live in, God Bless!!! Side note, keep grinding that Gym and gettin gains

[@edwardmaes3297]

You hit me really really deep. i cried the whole video just because you are the only person that feels wat i feel. I’m never Gonna forget this video. Just thank you

[@edwardmaes3297]

Just you liking my comment means so much to me.

[@pieceofbacon9775]

I’ll be honest, from a first glance I thought you were just another typical influencer but damn, I related to your video on a spiritual level man. Currently stuck in life, seems like I keep taking one step forward and two steps back and it’s hard to see the light at the end of a tunnel. I relate to the depression/anxiety aspect and I’ve also thought about ending it but trust me, this was not a coincidence that i saw these. You’ve helped me realigned myself with my purpose and I thank you for that man. Keep doing what you’re doing and thank you again. Much love.

[@Baker-bb3ls]

“You can not have gratitude and anxiety in your mind at the same time.” Amen. that was a word!

[@tomaswidding9532]

I lost my brother when i was 7. I have been depressed for 9 years basicly. Not anymore i think. Seeing you have helped me a lot. You are almost becoming a brother to me. My brother trained a lot. And now im 2 years in. Thank you

[@mollylang9367]

This is a man that everyone need in their lives- like as a friend, in any capacity. Knows how to love, pursues passions, stays authentic and real online. This is what social media and sharing your life should be- making people better and feel less alone. Huge, huge fan

[@johngergis4047]

Im currently going through anxiety and depression right now and im ngl i really needed this video rn. God bless you Alex ❤️🔱

[@davidfischo]

bro u got this stay strong, we will all succeed

[@xxxjuicewrld6384]

Hey Alex, I’m 16 and i recently got off of doing drugs and drinking and it’s been a year since I lve been in the gym it’s been a good escape from anxiety and depression but I’ve been struggling from derealization and I feel the same way that you explained thank you for this video, I thought I wasn’t normal and no one understands how I feel

[@user-sp2hj9il5n]

you got it dawg

[@ITSAYVERY]

I’ve been struggling with horrible anxiety just like this for two years now. God really wanted me to see this even in 2024. God bless you Alex! You don’t deserve all the hate you get. But scripture says that the world will hate you because you are different. Thank you for always being an inspiration. The lord knows your heart 🖤

[@joshvaitkus8007]

This really hits deep for me im 15 and struggling now with anxiety and it’s causing me to be depressed it’s hard because I don’t want to tell anyone about it and I just feel stuck all the time. I used to go to church a lot when I was younger but stopped this video is making me want to get back into it.

[@Mateoyoyo16_Gaming]

❤💪

[@David-tt1ds]

Stay strong man, with time everything changes and you will find peace. Keep going!

[@elaitman1]

hit me up if you need help. @mentalhealthcowboy

[@nathan32sanchez]

Make sure you find a sound congregation bro. Jesus came to shed his blood for the church, not multiple churches, so it’s important to find THE Church. One body-Ephesians 4:4, body=church-Ephesians 1:22-23, Christ: “my church”(one)-Matthew 16:18, many churches- 1 Corinthians 1:10. I recommend finding a church of christ-Roman’s 16:16

[@mikelurbin]

Hey man, even if you think nobody understands you there's people out there who will. If you know someone who you think could understand you, just tell them. Try to open up with someone you know will love you regardless. It will feel like dropping a huge weight off your shoulders. Stay strong king 👑

[@exonth6941]

Alex I have been going through dp and it's killing me. I'm at the lowest time and I was about to give up. This video felt like you were talking to me. I have never related to a KZbin as much as you. Favorite KZbin I have ever watched. You are showing me to god and I can't thankyou enough. I'm 15 and going through what you did. I'm in tears from this man. I eat the protein in class and evething. I thank you so so so much for evething you are doing

[@BenjaminBi]

i cried with u alex, youre so important to a lot of different people and we love you so much

[@julzylil]

I have recently come out of derealisation definitely the most scary thing that has ever happened to me. It’s taken hard work and time but I’m so glad I don’t feel like that anymore

[@Atyoursurfacellc]

You’re literally my inspiration to get up in the mornings and continue going through life. Your positivity and message is so beautiful. Thank you Alex for being you.

[@jordysavage3363]

Hey man I struggle with the same thing. The gym has undoubtedly been my constant that has kept me from slipping too hard and its thanks to youtubers like yourself. Keep up the great content

[@DevinJamalSims]

My brother in Christ, I literally cried with you watching this video cause, I’ve too struggled with anxiety, stress, depression, and depersonalization/derealization. Honestly I still do from time to time. I constantly prey for mental peace/mental clarity and just put All my faith in God. Keep grinding brother 💪🏾❤️.

[@Tadhg.lifts.]

Yeah bro, dpdr is so trashhh

[@rj.2k506]

devin I pray for breakthrough in the name of Jesus Christ, be healed in the name of Jesus Christ

[@Sariine436]

im unsure if you still have dpdr but the way to get rid of it is by accepting it and not putting your focus on it. Focus on everything else except for the dpdr.

[@danielcorcoran5562]

@@Sariine436 yeh, keeping busy is the best thing I've found to deal with it and trying my best to develop meaningful relationships

[@yungbruhmane8751]

@@danielcorcoran5562ya staying busy is the key. Doom scolling always causes it for me

[@tayloryoung4848]

“If you don’t sacrifice for what you want , what you want will become the sacrifice” that shit hit me to the top level. I’m ready to blast off this year. Change my habits. My mindset. My goals. My work rate 📈 God bless You Alex

[@tazerface9224]

Man you got me crying for the first time in months😭😭 Thanks for the uplifting content man! God bless you!

[@fliqzlol1622]

Alex your my inspiration because I too am struggling with anxiety and have used the gym as a place for me to feel happy and have a sense of purpose

[@collingreener2720]

I'm very glad that kids in high school have someone to look up to like Alex. Someone they can relate to if their struggling and/or in a dark place. Someone who can give them hope and help give them good values that he has learned and applied to himself to show that it can get better. I'm 17 and I find this man so inspirational and I can't wait to see what big and great things Alex does for our world and the people in it. I've personally never struggled with depression but so many people I care about have/do and it's a scary place to be. I hope people find this video and share it to others they think need it because it gives inspiration and hope. And Alex if you do read this I want to thank you for spreading your positive messages out into the world and as I've mentioned before, always giving people hope as well as motivation.

[@shanenlifts]

Bro you’ve seriously inspired so many people and changed so many lives It’s crazy. I’ve never seen someone do so much good with a platform like you have. Hope I get to thank you in person for everything you’ve done for me one day

[@donavenvasquez7128]

It's crazy because you explaining yourself at the age of 16 is me rn I'm 16 but its different hearing my issues being told to me by someone else who went threw the same thing rlly hits home thank you for being an inspiration bro may God bless u and everyone else

[@Irachild]

I have a similar testimony. Means a lot to hear yours. I feel like I’m on the right path and my story on spiritual and emotional growth isn’t over.

[@rkm_giyuu]

im a Muslim and i can understand your pain bro , you came from along way , and you deserve this blessing , keep growing bro , we are all here to help each other

[@ayraykaykay4958]

Doesn’t the Quran say Christians are going to hell for believing Jesus Is God?

[@reeshu367]

@@ayraykaykay4958 I don't think so (I'm a Christian) I think I remember seeing a video of sombody explaining this

[@Borschtt]

Jesus Loves you ❤️

[@Southized]

@@ayraykaykay4958 we have never gotten along. Never suppost to. Do not change the ways of the past for the new generation. Bad things will come

[@seabass62yearsago]

@@ayraykaykay4958 why tf does that matter 💀 the commenter didn’t even mention God

[@glzzbrahh]

You’re my biggest inspiration! Keep changing everyones lives ❤️

[@matthewbruen8142]

my grandpa recently died and at his funeral the grandkids had to take out his casket and it was raining all day but when we went outside the sun was shining right on us ever since ive turned to god, love ya alex

[@zacolsen]

I don't suffer from any of the same issues that you struggled through, and to be honest I don't really have a story, Christianity has always been a big part of my life, but more recently working out has. In recent times I have been wanting to go a mission, to spread the gospel to people who haven't experienced the glory of god, and haven't experienced what god can do for you as a person, or maybe just not realized it. I want to help people come to the same realization that you came to, how his love saved your life. The way you spoke in that video was truly inspiring, and with your followers, and your story, that you seem to enjoy sharing, I think that you could be an amazing missionary as well. Sharing you story and showing what god has done for you is exactly what these people need to hear, so I encourage you to go on a mission, bring your cameras, film, show the internet world what Jesus did to you, and what he can do to others if they embrace him, and let him in. If you read this comment I hope that you take it into consideration, because as a successful Christian with a story, you could be an amazing missionary. Please let me know what your thoughts are on this idea.

[@thirdy4threetv]

It's not a coincidence that I came across this video. More Power to you Alex

[@rasalresid9147]

I know how it feels like... 2 years ago I experienced worst depression because my ex girlfriend cheated on me which lead to me getting overweight. I weighted like 320 lbs and I didn't want lo live anymore. Only thing that saved me were some very motivational transformation videos. I first started to eat less then I started going to gym. I was losing fat until I hit my plateau. I realized I need to seek for a help. Recently I discovered site Next Level Diet where I found out how to eat properly while working out. Their meal plan helped me continue losing fat. Now I have 193 lbs, and I feel better than ever. I am ready to continue living life to the fullest.

[@risichad]

is this an ad?

[@hallorwalahfrid6074]

Amazing recovery, you have really did a great job

[@bhaveshkapoor6906]

@@risichad Feels like an AD!

[@ayrtonblieck3785]

Really needed this!!!

[@somi_2489]

@@risichad it is

[@misonaly2630]

OMG! When you started talking bout derealization i related so much. When i was 15-16 i used to experience it alot. Its was so crazy because i tried to describe it to others but no one understood and that made me think i was going insane. I totally get what you went through there and its the most horrible thing a human can experience in my opinion! much love from sweden.

[@mitchellcarlson4544]

Alex this speaks to the masses. I’ve been struggling with my faith lately and some similar mental health issues but this really made me want to work on it, try to reignite that internal flame. Thank you for having the strength to share your story.

[@abhaychawla3223]

my girl just died, march 11th, weirdly feels comforting that you survived and grew from an experience like that , im channeling all my anger in the gym but I haven't found a way to connect with god yet

[@intelligentidiots2841]

Sorry to hear bro much love

[@damianibarra499]

It takes a real man to speak up about the flaws,insecurities, and past trauma. Thank you for sharing you message. I am very grateful that we share both pasts and future visions. I’m a full time student athlete in college but I hope to very soon start growing like you! I currently work with 2 companies as a pro-ambassador and plan on starting my own line of clothing. Thank you for motivating me. I thank God for you. (I hope you see this) I’m so grateful for you!

[@judastehtics]

I'm just halfway into it but man the feels are hitting very hard but you made the best out of it and inspire many people out in the world despite your losses ...you are truly a blessing Alex and I hope that you never change.

[@Chris13B]

Alex just wanted to let you know, you saved my life. I almost ended myself but now i'm getting motivated by you. Keep going Alex, God Bless

[@maxadam23]

This hit right in the feels. You're a huge inspiration, God Bless Alex!

[@3am585]

You radiat love bro I see it in your eyes. I hope you never lose sight of who you truly are. Help people it's what you are meant to do.

[@3am585]

I feel u need to know God will never turn his back on you, he will be here waiting with open arms.

[@soluner5422]

I can’t believe I’m seeing this just now. Thank you Alex. I’ve felt so alone in my faith and it’s nice to see someone else who’ve gone through the same or similar struggles and found faith through it.

[@kokujinfps]

the fact that i can relate with almost everything. youre doing great man, keep it up. youre a true inspiration

[@alexhosking6807]

Respect for being one of the only guys to put their emotions out there🤝

[@josiahreilly7918]

I started tearing up watching this man. I have been dealing with a lot of anxiety recently and this video really spoke to me. I've grown up Christian but I never felt like I had a personal Christian life. My parents don't let me do much so I want to make my Christian decisions without them but I feel like I am held back by them. I want to get baptized but I want to do it with people that support me and have the same opinions as me. Anyways thanks for this video I really needed it. God bless Alex.

[@ontvlam]

God's love is amazing indeed. Felt it many times throughout this video, this put me back on track. Thank you.

[@matheusaraujo2529]

Hey alex, I’m currently 14 and I have been grinding and dieting trying my best to build muscle you are one of my biggest inspirations and I thank you for this, A lot of people doubt say I won’t get strong and I am also very shy to post a youtube video sharing about my fitness life but this video really impacted me and I thank you for this, I don’t care about what people in his think of me I will grind and strive to become like you with of course God being my number hope and power✝️

[@eskimoejoe1977]

this made me want to cry this has helped me in a way I can't comprehend thank you Alex

[@sam22312]

I’m going through your 2018 anxiety struggles rn, down 40 lbs, went from the best shape of my life to a shell of myself and I can’t get myself out of it. Don’t want to eat, don’t want to hangout with anyone, don’t wanna do anything that will progress my life out of fear of nothing. It’s just crazy to me that a year and a half ago I was completely normal and chased my dreams as one should. Hoping I have a turning point as you did. Thanks for sharing.

[@refxstupid5388]

Hey man, idk if you'll see this but I've been exactly where you are. I promise you it'll get better. I know right now it feels like you'll never feel okay again, but I know you will. For now, try to push yourself to do the stuff your anxiety tells you that you can't do. Even though it may be terrifying, it'll give your anxiety less power. If you can, I would also say that therapy can be a huge help if you are open to it. I'm rooting for you man.

[@Bigpeeshy]

Keep pushing

[@sam22312]

@@refxstupid5388 thank bro, means a lot fr. I’ve been pushing myself hard to step out of my comfort zone, hopefully this is the start of the incline.

[@olliehardyy4380]

Jheeze just read that and I’ve never related to something so much. I’m exactly like you rn besides I eat loads, gained loads of weight and I’ve always been in shape and cared about my body plus all the other stuff you mentioned, has anything helped you ? Tried so many medications they all made me so much worse

[@olliehardyy4380]

It’s Literally horrible living like this but I just cannot do anything to improve how crazy does that sound

[@mateogarces4676]

Going through a tough time always build character. I’ve come across a lot of Alex content but now I truly see the value he provides to people, And mainly myself

[@luisrauda1925]

5 minutes in and I feel like I just had you tell me my life. From the abandonment issues, multiple girlfriends with no time in between to heal, to the dry heaving, bro this is all too accurate.

[@tysoncluff5733]

You inspire me bro. I look up to you in a lot of ways. Keep fighting. Love you brotha

[@sammcqueen43]

Hey Alex I just wanted to tell you how much your videos helped me, and they got me out of a dark place. I appreciate you so much. God bless you

[@quintensmith6859]

Thanks for sharing that Alex. When you talked about your life in high school about being quiet and feeling like you didn't fit in, and that you let your anxiety get the better of you, I instantly thought to myself Damn this guy is so relatable, which is true. I was never the popular kid in high school, I was skinny, shy, insecure and didn't have a big number of friends and was afraid to ask girls out on a date because of the fear of rejection, and I had that negative thought in my head that I'd amount to nothing. I started going to the gym in 2015 (I was 17 when I started) and during that year I was starting to build a bit of muscle and was really enjoying it, I couldn't wait to get out of school and work out. But after that year I started to slack off, and was struggling to find my place in the world (which I still am). But after coming across your channel, and watching your previous video of your life story and other stories that I've listened to, really gave me hope that things can and will get better for me. Thank you so much Alex for your content man, you have an absolute wicked physique, your an awesome human being keep living, keep thriving and keep grinding. Hopefully I'll get to meet you one day.💪

[@e.h.5201]

as long as you bring Godliness in what you do, remember alot of fitness influencers have created this idea that having the perfect body brings real confidence, but forget sometimes that the confidence has come about due to vanity and pride

[@Valek2023]

This Video definitifly changed my life❤

[@jeremyterkelsen2518]

You're one hell of an influencer man. People like you and Hamza are the reason I can work to achieve strength while also understanding my vulnerability.

[@xoh0255]

I personally stopped watching Hamza because he made a video titled "Throw your Bible in the bin"

[@Viarska14]

Appreciate the motivation as always, I’ve been following for the last 2 years. I legit watched this through 2 times and it hit hard. Keep it up bro!

[@deon_pet]

As an athlete who suffers greatly from anxiety I can definitely relate to your story bro. Appreciate you sharing 🙏🏾

[@matteomancabelli6]

You are the best inspiration that someone can take, the trip you had from young to who are now is the most important history i ever heard. ❤️

[@PeaceLove9]

Yoo this was wonderful man. Feel like giving you a bro hug. I have always struggled with anxiety, a bit of depression, and OCD. I don't know you personally but I feel like it would be wonderful to have a real life friend like you. You truly seem like a genuine, uplifting, and compassionate man. Wish you the best I life man. God has our backs ❤🙏🏻

[@brandonhall1516]

I myself struggle with anxiety so to see someone of your notoriety say it out loud really shows that it doesn’t discriminate. You’re an inspiration man love you

[@Alex-vp8fm]

I really needed this right now Alex, i have not been alright but this video really helped me. I feel like our lifestorys are a little bit similar in a way so i kind of see myself looking at you. Thank you and God bless you Alex!

[@bryantledford.]

Wow, this is amazing thank you Alex for opening up and talking to us. It feel nice knowing that people are caring and honest.

[@amonjackson2072]

I deal with a lot of depression and anxiety. I cried watching this shit because I understand everywhere you’re coming from. My life has been in shambles the last three months. But you’ve given me the motivation to keep pushing. No homo shit bro I love you and appreciate you. For putting this video out. For ppl like me who have no where else to turn. Thank you 🙏🏽

[@paveldrenchev4358]

This hit deep man... You are way more than a influencer and deserve everything !

[@Luke24160]

5 years older than you and I can find a lot of inspiration from you. You're wise beyond your years man. Got me back in the gym and getting back into the shape I was in a few years back. Thank you Alex.

[@dreson8486]

How can someone not like this guy, W mans 🙏

[@morelorel]

he annoying and steroid abuser

[@coreranger9294]

You don’t understand how much I relate to this, especially with the being in a bunch of groups but not having a best friend and just doing my own thing. It feels so odd and like everyone has someone. Anxiety has really been affecting me this year

[@reeceburger]

Wow this is deep bro God bless you I’m proud of how far you have come

[@kflarebassin3635]

Alex, when I found this video and clicked on it I didn't know what to expect. But when I started to watch it I knew I was doing something right because I felt like there was a presence of some kind. It has been almost over two years since my dad passed away from ALS, but i think he was guiding me or telling me i needed to watch this video and man did this help me out. You are a very good person and there's no one else who can tell you different. keep up the good work, and God Bless you!!!!!!!!

[@ayon12351]

This is exactly why I'm subscribed to you Alex. Like you got an amazing physique etc, but the way you share that your life ain't "perfect" is just priceless

[@alecrider5077]

Dude I can relate to this way more than im willing to admit. I have always been an introvert, and I remember I was always pretty happy on my own as a kid. It wasn't until I reached middle school where it started to get tough. Things people would say would put me down, jokes made at my cost, my hobbies laughed at... I feel like that has left me permanently changed and scarred, I will no longer be the happy kid I used to be. Fast forward a few years, and now I no longer care for what people say, and have risen over many of my past problems, but the anxiety and the constant lack of motivation has not left me. I struggle to get out of bed in the morning, I feel like an absolute failure when I have no reason to, I can't do any work or concentrate for sh*t and I can burst out crying in an anxiety attack at any second. I feel the lonliest I have ever been and its a scary feeling. Going to the gym keeps me somewhat sane and your videos are a massive help, this one in particular really touched me. I hope I can turn my life around into something I am proud of in the next few years to come. Thank you for the great content ❤

[@ryanboyd7267]

Ur the goat bro well done bro getting through that rough pstcg

[@tobiseifert9741]

Thank god someone have going trough similar things like me we Can do it💪🏻

[@nab5999]

glad to have a fitness influencer that also talks about real life issues

[@matthewmaree6393]

I’ve seen you on Instagram before, but I didn’t know you were Christian. Your story is incredible man. So glad a fitness influencer is so outspoken about their faith and positively influencing people spiritually and giving fitness advice. Worship music is very powerful and God reaches many people through it, and I’m glad He reached you through it. Trust the Lord with all your heart, soul, mind and strength and he will bless you brother. You are making a big impact on young people especially, God bless you.

[@mattrusso4617]

Sacrifice for what you want or what you want becomes the sacrifice... Thank you Alex.

[@cashclay5971]

i watch tons of influencers and your the only one that i feel a relation too. Please keem making content you have changed my life so much.

[@tiaisenpoeka]

There's just no one like Alex. I literally teared up watching this video. We all love you, Alex, and youre just what the fitness community is about. I just dont know what to say. Thank you Alex for making this video and for everything you've done❤️

[@theraydenbelville]

you turned my life completely around by helping me build a relationship closer to God. i’ve battled every single day my whole life fighting against anxiety and depression and i never had anyone to turn to. our stories are very similar as my dad left when i was only 2. i was an a super athlete growing up but my anxiety and depression took over and literally made me quit playing sports. i’d have panic attacks and wouldn’t even go to school some days. when i found you i found our lord and savior Jesus Christ. i just wanna thank you for everything man. you’ve impacted so many people in the best ways. keep grinding man and God bless!