FIRST PEANUT BUTTER IN 5 YEARS - BODY IMAGE, WEIGHT GAIN, UNINTENTIONAL RESTRICTION,

[@hippymama100]

You COULD have a peanut butter bagel....and then ALSO a Biscoff spread one, too! Nothing is stopping you, beautiful girl!

[@biffalump]

JazzBabe 1982 biscoff spread MMMMMMMMMMM🤤

[@annibobonnie]

Your personality is one of the most beautiful I have ever seen. I also find your mother incredibly sweet and endearing

[@mar-d5809]

There the most beautifull people with topic of eating disorders ive ever come accross on KZbin , then u get the toxicity of the ones that promote its as something to be proud of. Elzani is one of the most positive people to help in my own recovery

[@melijxx]

you are looking brighter day by day. thank you for being so positive and inspiring!!

[@stellar927]

Everyone is saying you look healthier, and you do but you still look really sick Elzani 😿 you need to keep fighting! No food is too much for your body because it is healing from years of malnutrition. When ever you say "I really want to have X but can't or should just wait" it breaks my heart 💔 if you want 2 bagels 2 with PB and one with biscoff and one with nutella, then have it! That is what recovery is! Recovery isn't getting the perfect picture of ypur food to post on instagram, or forcing yourself to have certain foods at certain times, or trying to make the perfect image of recovery, THAT IS NOT RECOVERY! IT IS STILL YOUR ED! Recovery=FREEDOM! Even you said Elzani, "if it DOESN'T challenge you, it WON'T CHANGE you." I know you hear it all the time, but, KEEP. FIGHTING. 💪🏻🥰

[@misskatooshka]

DIY Stuff thank you for saying this- I was reading the other well meaning comments of some of the other viewers and I was just thinking how Elzani's eating disorder brain could twist it around to think she doesn't need to keep on recovering- when she really does need to! So thanks for this good comment 👌🏼

[@Jade_L666]

I’m so proud of you Elzani!! You look so much more healthy since last year! You’re doing amazing, and you should be so bloody proud of yourself x

[@milla-mariakatariina1115]

This is maybe a weird thing to say but your voice is so calming and the way you speak🤩 I love your videos keep going girl!❤️

[@bansku2121]

Suomiiiii

[@milla-mariakatariina1115]

BANSKU haha jep😃 Miten arvasit? Nimestä?🤣

[@bansku2121]

@@milla-mariakatariina1115 Juu, en ois muuten kyllä tajunnukkaan:D

[@milla-mariakatariina1115]

BANSKU😁

[@its_msk]

I just watched a video that explains why you (recovering anorexics) get so anxious and upset if a meal or food wasnt perfect or something was off and you have a meltdown..(like sometimes if something isnt as good as you'd hoped you get emotional and cry ). Its because all the years restricting food, when you would allow yourself to eat it was special event because it was more rare to eat so the food, planning, environment had to be just right or perfect or it felt like a waste of a moment if that makes sense !

[@LolaBathory]

This explains the feeling perfectly in my opinion🙏🏼

[@simoneh8737]

I ate a whole chocolate cake while watching this, recovering is the best thing ever!!

[@vaughn2277]

Sweet!! Literally lol 🍰

[@holybiebahyt]

You are definitely an example that recovery is posible! ❣️❤️💪🏼 Thank you for starting this youtube channel and sharing your story with everyone.

[@rebeccaklein3952]

I know that i have to recover and i also wanna recover... but it is so hard. I never was ,,fat'', but i always was on the chubbier side. I lost a lot of weight and i'm still on a healthy weight, which is good, but i can't handle the fact that i will gain a lot of the weight i lost back and i'll get very chubby again. I know it doesn't really matter, because everybody is beautiful the way they are, but i am so self critical and i never liked the way i look... i'm freaking out recovery is so hard. Elzani, you are doing so well and you're such an inspiration to me. Every video helps me to recognize more how urgently i have to recover. Thanks for that. I love you (Sorry for my bad english xd)

[@paulaner1865]

Same. Slowly eat more and more to avoid refeeding syndrome but dont restrict

[@justahuman6067]

Rebecca Klein you won't gain all the weight back, you will stay at a healthy weight don't worry

[@kategreenaway3944]

You dont need to be underweight to recover chicky x the thing with the disorder is that you wont stop at any particular weight, the thoughts wont stop when you look 'thin'- they just keep going and you end up dying. My favourite quote is that 'your body is your home and you only get one' so make sure you looks after it- you obviously recognise that your thoughts and habits are not your own and they are part of the disorder. Your body knows what it is doing, I know it might feel like you will not stop eating once you start and that you will just grow and grow and grow, just remember what everyone else does- they all eat and they dont keep growing, they find their equilibrium. I hope you find the strength to recover because it is so worth it, you are worth it xx

[@irmelinkleiveneide3989]

I love your videos Elzani! Every time I see you post one, I smile. Thank you for making me smile, and making me motivated for anorexia recovery

[@barbidoll1548]

I think it would be really cool if you let a subscriber choose what you eat for a day. Or maybe have your followers on Insta choose your foods via poll? That could be a fun way to really push yourself when you feel ready for it :) You are doing so well so far, and I know your journey has just started! Very impressed over here xx

[@hannahkisley9118]

Peanut butter was one of my biggest fear foods for so long but today I’ve had 5, yes 5, tablespoons of pip and nut peanut butter, absolutely no regrets! There is no such things as too much peanut butter

[@gracemae4732]

Thank you Elzani. For being you. And for recovering, for sharing that with us, and for helping us too. You truly are an amazing person. Xxxxxxx

[@arkane7403]

Thank you for being such a down to earth person I’ve been struggling with food restrictions and seeing you challenge yourself and talk about self love is really calming for me thank you for using KZbin as an outlet ❤️

[@biffalump]

💖 things are so subconscious and sometimes unintentional with eating disorders it’s only when you look back when u start to get better that you can see it

[@maisieclarke2007]

I haven’t ever commented on here before but I’ve been watching for quite some time now. I’ve been in recovery for three years now and I’ve never found someone who shares what recovery is like in a way I’ve related to. You keep it real and it’s amazing. You inspire me every day to keep going, with your positive energy and bubbly personality. You’re absolutely beautiful inside and out, and you’ve done yourself so proud. Stay strong Elzani ❤️

[@kirstyindark4972]

Legit nutella and peanut butter tastes like reeses 🤤

[@elenam7922]

You look great and even healthier and happier every vlog! Go girl!!

[@hollyvan7011]

Watching you get happier and healthier is such an amazing thing to see , I’m so proud of you honestly

[@kristenlarsen4758]

You’re looking so much better with each video, so vibrant and full of life! Although there is always room for improvement, you’re on the right track 💕 and the only way from rock bottom is up. Glad to see you’re doing better. Thank you for sharing your road to recovery ☺️

[@matitabu]

When I'm feeling low and guilty over eating I love hearing your encouraging words. You are doing great, Elzani! 🥰

[@lexysouza8344]

You are doing so good! I'm so proud of you girl! You show the real struggle of eating disorders and don't sugar coat anything and it really help everyone else who is going through similar things. We love you, and we support you in your health journey!!

[@panagiotadrakontaeidi7624]

Omg that wasnt too much peanut butter AT ALL ...You should see how much i put in my bread😂😂And can you even go wrong or have too much peanut butter??like pb is life.lol

[@aliceincrazyland3946]

Penny Drako ha! My husband will literally stare at my food when I decide it needs peanut butter. It’s always “is there even any left IN the jar?!” NO. it’s mine and I’ll stick the WHOLE jar in my mouth 🔥

[@panagiotadrakontaeidi7624]

@@aliceincrazyland3946 omg thats me😂i dont have these kind of problems in my house cause no one likes pb..sometimes im like:"am i even your child? Wtf?" Lmao

[@jiajcho]

Lol I use like half the tub each time

[@gracemae4732]

Oh gosh I'm so glad you said this... I was sitting here thinking if this is too much... I am absolutely horrifically greedy D= thank you lol!!! X

[@panagiotadrakontaeidi7624]

@@gracemae4732 ❤💪

[@wilhelminalaughlin3020]

The first 30 seconds of this video is exactly what I needed to hear!!

[@marionhubert2169]

Hey Elzani! Thank you for posting regular videos of the real life, struggle of an ED. I would like to congratulate you in your positive attitude, your fights, your constant challenge and for been such an amazing inspiration! I think that you are doing the best recovering phase. Your mental thinking is so powerful and you offer so much motivation to yourself and others! I also would like to say that you really look way much better (happier...) and are so much aware of the ED which is what has given you the tools to fight this ED and will lead to you success! I really like when you say that we need to be grateful and that we need to thanks our body! Please, make me a favour: do not ever harm yourself and listen to this bad voice anymore! You are a wonderful person and deserve more than nothing to live a beautiful life! Additionally, I would like to warn as many people as possible about the risk of osteoporosis. The longer we stay underweight and without period, the worse the bone density will be. Do not wait until it is too late please! You won't be able to go back! The bones are affected by the ED. And it will be difficult on a daily basis for many many years! I am now constantly worried to break anything... Take care! Marion PS: and no worries about your "weird video"! It was not weird at all but very good and describing perfectly what I have in my thoughts but cannot put words on it!. So Thanks a lot.

[@jodie6578]

I’m so proud of you! Your mum is such an inspiration she’s so supportive!

[@somedobbyssinger4965]

saw the notification and clicked immediately

[@thunder956]

when i saw the little caption "omg you havent said that yet x" i was laughing so hard your sarcasm is amazing i appreciate it so much ! i hope youre not too hard on yourself about the repetition thing. i love your little captions i see your sense of humor coming out more and more. i saw the sarcasm in that caption and just my mood was lifted i loved that. much love to you im so proud ❤️ x

[@aristahenriot7450]

Given back the control to yourself from the ED is hard but so worth it x

[@il2921]

Never have i ever been so happy to hear someone chew

[@liamodonovan3437]

Iam so happy watching you eat in every video iam so proud of you you are an incredible and strong beautiful woman love you elanzi your doing a great job in your recovery

[@karencanispeaktothemanager5340]

I was just watching ur old video, stay strong!

[@Justbirdperson]

u are SO strong! because of you ill try peanutbutter today, wish me luck

[@thomasarnaud1868]

Anouk Kadijk enjoy it :) it’s really good

[@felicitycarlson7263]

i love this video so much! i thought i was alone, but hearing that i share some of the same behaviours made me remember iTs okay! when you talked about not eating much and then each meal getting harder throughout the day compared to eating the right amount really opened my mind and made me realise just how right you were. thank you so much Elzani, keep fighting & get your life back to being AMAZING!

[@Ali-ct3xc]

You do know it's impossible to watch your snack chats without snacking along with you! Lol. Praying strength, healing, health and contentment over you lovely. You're doing so well xx

[@jesslacey4501]

Been watching you for a while now. You are looking so much better each video I watch. You are such an inspiration to me. Makes me so proud to see you challenging yourself so much and winning against your eating disorder. Keep up the good work girl! Your amazing

[@MrKarkkikepponen]

Hi Elzani! I often don't comment, but I just want to say how proud I am of you! I see the light in your eyes more day by day, it's amazing to see you and your personality blossom!! You are such a beautiful girl inside & out and I am so inspired of you!! Keep on going, you are my inspiration

[@jordanlindsay6218]

Your voice is so passive and you articulate so well. Love that you're sharing this journey with us. You are beautiful and deserving of happiness. 💜

[@rochellechism8011]

YOU. Smart, funny, lovely girl. I love watching your progress! You are doing beautifully! Keep it going. We are cheering for you ♥️

[@alannaxox1827]

I think these vids are so powerful and helpful ❤️ you’re looking so bright and happy these days 💫 x

[@jakiazhhabzgstaruiszjjzg3165]

My big sister had an eating disorder... at her lowest, she had a very low bmi and her heart was about to stop. Hopefully she choosed recorevery, and now 1 year later, she gained and is very healthy ! Even if Im still struggling myself, I thanks god for her recorvery. When I think that she may have been dead now if she didnt choosed to recover I want to cry.

[@Snickerdoods.x]

Jakiazhhabzg Staruiszjjzg I don’t think it’s a good idea to share specific numbers here.

[@megsbradley437]

Please don’t share numbers 😞

[@jakiazhhabzgstaruiszjjzg3165]

@@Snickerdoods.x Im sorry I didnt though of it as triggering

[@gudarstorst169]

@@jakiazhhabzgstaruiszjjzg3165 Thank you for editing!

[@jakiazhhabzgstaruiszjjzg3165]

@@gudarstorst169 that's normal ! I hope I didn't triggered anyone

[@thepeacechannel7083]

You are so lovely and incredible. I get emotional watching your videos because I think your honesty is going to be so helpful to those trying to recover. I think that showing yourself eating and enjoying food will also help give other people permission to do the same. And your dear mother is such a support, which is also so lovely. Well done!

[@saskiadanner4315]

Thank you so so much for these words. Your are such a wonderful person! 🙏🏻♥️

[@emmaline171]

I love you Elzani! Your genuine attitude towards everything, and how positive you are really shows and I love it! It also make me smile every time you or your mom say “divine”. You deserve everything positive that comes your way!! Keep fighting 💓

[@juliansgma]

Hi to your sweet mom! You’re doing awesome Elzani!

[@moonmother.]

I am a mum of 2 girls, and all I want to do is reach through the computer screen and give you a BIG hug. You are such a sweet girl, and I am so glad you have your mum beside you supporting you all the way ❤️

[@georgielacey3929]

What a genuinely beautiful person with more strength than most people can even hope for.

[@caseyleedunstan2581]

So proud of u elzani! I love seeing a smile and satisfaction on your face when enjoying food! Peanut butter and nutella is quite good... or peanut butter, honey and banana is really nice!!! Loving these snack chats too! 😊

[@halfofmyheart3167]

You are amazing! Your personality shines, and brightens up the whole room. You really are a strong women and you will fully recover❣️ I have more faith in you then myself💓

[@jadore23dior]

"thank you body" i absolutely love that!

[@matitabu]

My favourite youtuber 💕💕💕

[@violebianchetti1733]

You are shinning through!! Keep up with the glorious work you are doing, I promise it will only get better❤️

[@francesca2341]

I used to feel the same way about not eating in the morning, the hunger you feel reminds you of ed ways and they are in the foreground of your mind the whole day, I think it helped me to never be hungry to stop the ed ideas from creeping back

[@no1Animallover101JAB]

You are seriously glowing so proud of you! Peanut butter is LIFE

[@Cheeriocat7980]

Elzani this is your best video yet 😍 I’ve watched them all and this one inspired me the most by far!!!!

[@rosetree2624]

You are looking so much happier. You can see the glow in your eyes! 💗

[@pennymcdonald538]

It’s great to hear your thoughts out loud! Thanks for sharing. I really love your videos!

[@haylee859]

That editing is getting goooood

[@tenuousgrip6599]

22:50 - peanut butter ecstasy! Love it! You go Elzani!!

[@milenavoss2583]

you are such a cute person with a wonderful character💗💗💗 just wanna give you a hug💗✨

[@tialoaf2460]

I have to gain 11lbs and I've been so nervous about it, this video is helping me so much ❤️❤️ Elzani what u do is unbelievable and I'm so thankful to have found your channel. 😄

[@tia5505]

we have to stan !!!!

[@isak1917]

extra smooth skippy is my personal fave

[@leahbaer11]

Thanks to Elzani, I now find myself saying ‘ages’ all the time 😂

[@amandacueto739]

Really thank you for this video, you dont know how much you have influenced me and helped me in my recovery 💜 i think ill try peanut butter tomorrow. Thank you

[@LittoLispyLawl]

I’ve never had an eating disorder, but I think maybe celebrating when you go up a size or gain a stone would help. Like when you go up a size then have a party, do something you love, but yourself something you really want! Try to train your mind to think of gaining as a positive, happy experience! Your so open, and wise. I love your channel!

[@juliap2333]

While positive, it's very scary for an anorexic to go up a size. Celebrating it would be quite a scary thing to do and she would probably feel anxious/embarrassed... I would :(

[@edi165]

yesss everything you said in this is 37638388 times so true!! Also I for one am so pleased that you have gotten back on the peanut butter train hehe- life is better with thickly spread pb bagels!

[@bchemptyyeetttt]

You are looking so beautiful and much more pretty! Your skin looks more pink and your eyes are just full of life again 💛 Keep going. Also, your entire face has changed and looks more young! You look awesome

[@Pommes5023]

Girl I'm so proud of you!

[@CatherineIsDead]

Loving both vloggy videos and these chatty ones! Honestly, you're helping me so much - literally sitting watching your video, craving ice cream so do you know what I did? Got a magnum! ;) All because of you - thank you for being so motivational

[@__-Michelle-__]

I have a food challenge for you! Try peanut butter, nutella and banana in a toasted bagel. It's so so good, I eat them all the time 😋

[@lovehope5126]

Sounds tasty thanks for the idea

[@__-Michelle-__]

Jer Ram More than welcome, happy to share the warm gooey goodness! 😋 Just a tip, have a napkin to hand cause it can get messy, in the best possible way!

[@hippymama100]

She doesn't like bananas! It does sound delicious, though.

[@FroggyTWrite]

think this format was really helpful and it would be great for you to do a check in like this every few weeks!

[@obrzydliwki]

you are so smart, strong and beautiful :) love your content ! keep on fighting for freedom

[@rebeccaorourke7237]

There is Reece's peanut butter spread 😍 you're looking so good elanzi you have such a glow. X

[@AnoukMali7899]

There‘s never ever too much peanut butter😃really, that‘s not too much at all. I easily put three times the amount on my toast. You are becoming a very wise and glowing person!

[@tinawoods7655]

It’s a strange thing that the more you gain the less you care about the weight. I had body dysmorphia too, the way I look now at a restored weight I thought I looked like before. Xx

[@amberrlsmith6991]

You have brightened up SO much

[@shiftingrealities4213]

You are doing so well keep it up gorgeous 😃💪🙌😍

[@LucyandWilbur]

Your Mum rocks those tartan PJs! I've not had peanut butter in years and I've only ever had smooth. Next idea to try, Reeses peanut butter cups!

[@thingsthatneverwere]

crunchy peanut butter. yummy. I am so happy to see you so happy, you are amazing, so inspiring.

[@brisamendoza2888]

I’m so proud of you ❤️ love you so much

[@abbie7549]

Your doing amazing Elzani!!!❤️❤️

[@shelleyn2884]

The peanut butter bagel looks amazing. No such thing as too much. Don't worry. Just go for it. You look more radiant and pretty every day.

[@inespires4127]

try peanut butter and jelly sandwich :D

[@jiajcho]

Inês Pires omg yess

[@kecrn4132]

Or crunchy peanut butter and banana!!

[@burnedflowers141]

@@kecrn4132 eh that's too sickly and sweet for me haha. P and j all the way haha

[@mynameisralfbob2276]

Congrats on 20k subscribers!

[@lovehope5126]

MMM peanut butter 😋 Also, thank you for the wisdom and encouragement.

[@yukis634]

You are beautiful. Everyone is! No matter what,no matter how much we weight

[@KeoTheLeo]

I love YOU Elzani ! ❤️

[@clashfan83]

Meridian is my favourite peanut butter but I do like Pip and Nut! Crunchy is LIFE

[@pd6544]

You look beautiful girl! I am a total stranger but I'm so proud of you! Keep it up! :)

[@jayphoenix3266]

The worst thing for me when I was very underweight in my late teens, was when I started to gain and my periods returned, I found my periods the worst part of recovering from being at a very low weight. I've always had problems with that due to gynaecological issues so I found the return of periods really traumatic and difficult to cope with. I apologize if that's TMI for people but let's be honest periods are part of being female like it or not, and I don't think any female would say they love having a period!

[@virginiarossi4730]

yaaass girllll you're amazing!

[@parisb2440]

i love how your mum says everything is divine hahaha

[@joshealthycupboard9336]

Crunchy all the way!! I recently discovered Aldi’s own brand peanut butter, which is delicious and so cheap compared to many others. Also their almond butter is insane.

[@clanaaa]

Try making oatmeal and put a mashed banana and a tablespoon of peanutbutter in at the last minute. Great breakfast... it’s DIVINE as your mother would say

[@povnayeli]

Currently eating peanut butter out of the jar because I can! #recoverywin

[@szynkaparmenska]

Elzani i cant no more.I was trying so hard but this is like a dark whole thats spins around me and want to pull me inside.

[@Snickerdoods.x]

Proud of you! I love peanut butter so much. I like creamy the best, I buy Smucker’s natural. I used to only buy JIF but I like this one better because it tastes more peanut-y.

[@Marina-rt2oi]

Your hair is gorgeous