4 Months Off Birth Control

It has been 4 Months since I had my Mirena IUD removed and was diagnosed with PCOS. Last month I started a low dose SSRI to help with my anxiety and it seems with everything going on in the world right now that it was great timing. As always I share my personal experince with getting off hormonal birth control and also update you on our Trying To Concieve journey.
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[@elsieblank6870]

I took out my implant back in October 2019. I just got a positive 6 months later! Don’t lose hope! 💛💛💛

[@jleighcaptures]

Just found out TODAY that I'm expecting twins (IVF, 2 years ttc) and I'm kind of freaking out. I feel like it's the absolute worst time to be pregnant with the virus spreading so quickly. Just praying it ends soon and my littles stay safe and healthy. Good luck, Mama!

[@VictoriaG02]

Congratulations. Yes praying as well this is over soon

[@sharonmagerl167]

I have generalized Anxiety Disorder plus Depression and lots of lung problems. You hit it on the head with fight or flight mode. When you get on tge right meds you are exhausted because your body is finally able.to rest. You are awesome. I just love watching you.

[@christieschmidt8960]

At the beginning of this epidemic I was a serious basketcase... I couldn't control my anxiety (I'm on meds too), I ate ALL my feelings, and I was really paranoid we'd get covid. But now after learning about it and doing what I CAN do to avoid it, I'm feeling sooo much better. Being in fight or flight mode wears you the f out!!! Love you guys!

[@kristenkelley8285]

I was on medication years ago for anxiety and went off it for about the past 4 years. As I mentioned in a post before, I ended up in the ER with a major panic attack about a month ago. So my doctor and I decided to put me back on a low dose SSRI as well and it's been a couple weeks and I already feel better. Thank goodness! Concerning having a 2nd child, I would love to be blessed with another, but at 44 years old now, as every month passes that I'm not pregnant, I feel like it may be too late for me, so I'm trying to accept that. I actually know a girl who just had a baby a couple days ago and I know she was very stressed about having to go into the hospital during this time. I hope your anxiety continues to remain better, as well as mine, in this trying time. We're all in this together ❤

[@msammerz5608]

I'm 8 months pregnant, and I get it. What started out as an exciting experience has turned into a terrifying one :(

[@smg.6685]

Hey Lauren!! I stopped taking BC in October (started taking it years ago for PCOS), but the PCOS seems to have corrected itself with keto as none of the symptoms have returned. My cycles sucked after going off BC, and they still do, but they thankfully do not last as long as they used to. It's irritating, but I didn't have regular cycles while I had PCOS, so i kind of consider the regular cycle to be a blessing. I just wish it weren't so painful! We've been actively trying to conceive since January, and it is a scary time to be doing so but it's something we've wanted for a long time. I am finally at a healthy weight for it and we're financially secure enough to do it (as much as a couple can be, i know they say we'll never feel like we have enough money for kids). It hasn't happened yet, but we're hopeful for this month. I am fortunate to be working from home during this scary time, and it is my sincere hope that once pregnancy happens, things will have calmed down infinitely by the time it is time for me to give birth. My heart also goes out to those mamas who will be delivering soon. Hang in there. You are looking gorgeous, by the way!!

[@kimmiegodes2309]

Man do I get the anxiety thing. I have depression and anxiety. Its crazy, my husband was diagnosed with a covid like illness and man did that set my anxiety thru the ceiling. Cried for an hour thinking about not being with him if things get worse. The joys of him being an essential worker. Gotta keep the farmers farming.

[@LavenderRae19]

I too have GAD and have been on a ton of meds over the years. I’m really overjoyed to learn you found the right med for you just in the nick of time because, Girlll, I know you know anxiety with “the rona” is a BEAST! Really glad you got what you need. Love u, frand! 💜

[@emilyraymond2772]

I’m scheduled for a C section in the morning! After 5 years of trying for a baby and in the end succeeding through IVF - I deliver a baby during a pandemic 🤣 xx

[@christieschmidt8960]

Congratulations!!! 💜🥳 How is everyone?!

[@ladyknifey4923]

I’m right there with you! Yesterday was a hard day! Thanks for sharing your story!!!

[@chriswhite3340]

Anxiety is a VERY real thing! I'm glad you are hanging tough! I fight anxiety & bad depression.

[@jamofmosttrades7711]

I've been off birth control for a month now. It was an insurance mixup but I've been contemplating it for a while and then I left home to go stay with my mom during all of this mess. So not really stressed about it but my period finally came back yesterday and its forcing me to reconnect with my emotions instead forgetting that I feel anything right now. It's nice to hear you acknowledged and sought after help which is something I'm not good at doing.

[@meme-ug1lq]

Hi Lauren, thanks for the update x meds are helping me to x keep strong n safe x

[@alex1850]

Oh, I so understand. I began having panic attacks at nine years old - I'm now 64. Anxiety and depression are so real and hurt. Have you read Ferociously Happy? Excellent read on life with mental health issues. And it's funny. Sending love.

[@debbielopez9944]

I am so glad you are sharing. It is going to help so many people.

[@shellymcdonough6876]

I'm very proud of you for getting on medication it has 100% help to me

[@Jadyn_Sage]

I had an IUD inserted in September 2019. I don't currently need it for birth control reasons, but my cycles have been out of control for years. I also have ovarian cysts (though I have not been diagnosed with PCOS). I'm still getting my period, but it's more predictable, and lighter than before. I have been on some form of birth control (oral pills, then the IUD), since I was 16. I am also taking several medications for my mental health. I have several diagnoses, and my body just needs help. It's nothing to be ashamed of. Just like with autism, there needs to be more awareness around mental health so the stigma can be lifted.

[@athenawolfe9951]

Your doing amazing girl! So proud of you!!! xoxo

[@megankingsland2962]

April 1st marked 5 years of infertility for my husband and I. We are still doing fertility treatments. I also have PCOS! And I’m on Letrozole and hydroxyzine for anxiety. 🤦🏻‍♀️ I know how hard this can be. I respect and love your decision on waiting. :) it’s is YOUR decision. 💜 I hope you are feeling well! 😍

[@charissam190]

I have had an iud for a little over a year. I was on Depo for 15 years and it completely shut down my hormones. I got off that and got slammed with hormones, now with the iud I’m having regular periods, all the normal stuff. I decided about 6 months ago to start a low dose Ssri for GAD as well. The overthinking and paranoia was too much. I did notice the first 2 months I had no appetite, so that could be the same for you before it settled out. Glad it’s helping you.

[@MissKatyAllison]

Girl, same! I’m a “feelings gal” too. It’s beyond healthy mind, body and soul to confront and share how you’re doing/feeling. Definitely weird and uncertain times. I’m taking it day by day-sometimes hour by hour. I’m trying to focus on the silver linings in all of this. And “look for the helpers”, like Mr. Rogers said. Trying my best to stay sane, but it’s definitely challenging! Love to y’all! ❤️

[@aligarner5690]

Well done Lauren this seemed like a tough one for you to do and I'm sure you helped many stay strong x

[@Momsdailyagenda]

I know how you feel...I was diagnosed with Anxiety, and depression a few years ago. My son who has Autism, was having aggression etc and it was a lot to deal with, along with other things in life I was dealing with and continue to. The medication my doctor prescribed has helped me, Thank god! I was having Panic Attacks every week, Lack of Sleep and getting deeper into depression, it was getting out of control. And, one day , I thought I was having a heart attack and was taken. by ambulance to the hospital, it was a panic attack. I think you are so brave for sharing something so personal! Especially, how people who live with Anxiety or depression can be judged by others. Also, I want to say, that from one Autism Parent to another, you and your hubby are doing an awesome job! 👍💕🙏🏻🤟🏻

[@amandaflege7981]

Thanks for sharing you got this girl keep your head up

[@brookes4148]

I hate how some people say “everybody has anxiety” and they downplay it. No not everyone has anxiety. Stress yes but true anxiety no. Anxiety is different from stress and can cause panic attacks. I know your not saying it. Lol. I wish you all the best.

[@norajung4513]

Having to deal with anxiety sucks. I hate it. Lately I have been up and down with emotions. For me it is because I am scared because of the stuff going on and I work in the craziness. I see the people not doing what they need to, to be safe. I know two people pregnant right now and another young lady had her baby today (April 6). I'm sure they are scared and have lots of anxiety right now.

[@sheritraenkenschuh7807]

I get the whole anxiety thing. And yes, we are living in crazy times. I'm glad you're doing better.

[@alishabagley9089]

I got my iud out last March and it took 8 months to convince! When with our first it took 3 months! I’m 24 weeks now and praying all this is over by the end of July haha

[@brittanysenechal4888]

I have so much anxiety about giving birth and bringing the baby into this world is scary. I am being induced in 2 weeks or less at this point and it's something i try to not worry about daily.

[@lacrystapayne3734]

Ugh yes! I am 3 weeks away from Csection and it is scary how things are going to work out

[@janaleonard4702]

You've got this girl!! I'm super happy meds are helping you feel better and cope with this crazy life. Proud of you for knowing it's okay to turn to medication and that makes you stronger! It's a very strange world! Nope, no more babies in this house!!!! My hubby just got snipped! :-) Ha ha! It will work out for the best hun!

[@shannonwelsh5830]

Proud of you Frand! #youdoyou

[@monicauyeno7368]

It is definitely strange times. I feel disconnected from everything as well. External forces that I have no control over are swirling around me and I can only control myself. That's a scary thought. Your anxiety makes perfect sense and I'm glad you are getting help with it. Unfortunately or fortunately, depending on how you look at it, life goes on at the same time as a pandemic. Lol. We do what we must and that's all we can do. Lol. Things will be okay. They may be a little different and you may be a little different from this experience but we will be okay.

[@jennyevans8160]

Lauren u guys do what’s best for u. It will happen if it’s ment be 💓💯

[@jodyburke8328]

Yes i have anxiety, cry alot. We are all in this together. Every lil thing is gonna be alright.

[@Chelle7174]

I suffered from PCOS since I was young. I always had irregular periods, until I started KETO. It helped me lose weight & regulate my period. I am currently 26 wks 2 days preggo. I am super scared to be bringing a baby into this world at this time. It has made my anxiety sky rocket but I keep telling myself, God knew what he was doing & everything will be ok. I'm trying to stay positive so I can enjoy this pregnancy. The key is not to watch the news & staying off social media for me, LOL! But seriously, wishing you & your family to stay safe & be well. 😘

[@amylage4054]

I have a 4 year old w sensory needs. Been trying for #2 for almost a year. Thought about stopping during this crisis period but again - been almost a year so I’m not ready to stop trying yet

[@janicelaurin7263]

Well said!

[@cattroot8496]

My husband and I have been trying to conceive since October and struggling. Now with everything going on we’re, like you, questioning if now is the right time. I’ll be 37 in September so my clock is ticking, so I’m torn. I just pray this will pass soon and we can learn from it and move forward.

[@courtneyw6378]

Lookin good Lauren!

[@jenniferrsmith2012]

Hope this isn’t strange, but I’ve thought it every time I see a video of yours. You are really beautiful. ❤️

[@robynjohnson3938]

I was pregnant with my third when my first two children were diagnosed with autism. I can say my youngest fills in the missing parts, she fills the room and her siblings react and respond to her even if they don’t to anyone else. Only you know what will work for your family and with things being crazy it’s a very responsible to wait. I can honestly say what you expect from a 2nd child will not even come close to what they bring to your life and family.

[@melissawoods7568]

I just gave birth to my daughter yesterday and I live in NY... Leading up to her birth I had a lot of anxiety with going to the hospital and what my birth experience would like look. There’s a couple hospitals in NYC where they’re not letting a support person in with the mom during birth. My husband was allowed during the birth but not postpartum recovery. 3 hours after I gave birth to her he had to leave the hospital. My heart feels so sad for him knowing he was forced to separated from his barley 3 hour old daughter. So glad that I have a healthy baby and I don’t have to worry about hospital policies because that was my biggest worry.

[@AddiTrials]

The world stinks right now. Last year in May, I lost my baby brother to suicide. Then, just yesterday, I found out that my Godbrother passed away from COVID19. He was in the army, tested positive, didn’t tell us, and passed away in self quarantine. He was found unresponsive. We are devastated 😭 not baby related but still crappy. #StaySafe!

[@JessicaSmith-oe1up]

I have anxiety. I totally get everything you’re saying. My wife and I were doing IVF. We waited so long and finally were able to start. My wife had to do shots for two weeks in preparation for egg retrieval. During that two week period, all the COVID stuff happened. We were told that they would do retrieval but we had to free all mature embryos. Frozen embryos have the same success rate as fresh. But we have no idea if it will be weeks or months before we can transfer and get pregnant. My anxiety is terrible. Thank god for meds but meds can only do so much. I totally get what you’re going through. Love you! Also, have you tried a period cup? A lot of people say it helps with period cramps. Plus it is so good for the environment!

[@eternal.prospect]

I had to stop my birth control last month due to a blood clot. The anxiety from stopping that + the anxiety about the state of the world in general is a trip. 😩 & suddenly having a period every 3 weeks again is no fun.

[@trishainluv2834]

On birth control to keep my endometriosis under control. Probably won't ever TTC, I'm already 35 and no inclination of trying anytime soon. Just enjoying being the fun auntie who spoils my 2 nieces

[@amandabrunn5681]

I've been actively trying more on then off the last 2.5 years. I have fertility issues and I'm 37. Im afraid if I wait until I lose the weight and until this craziness is over, that I'll run out of time.

[@tinamench4255]

I know alot of ppl lost weight on keto. You have time I'm over weight. I will be 40 in December with my first baby in August of this year. You got time :)

[@raisingautism8214]

It took me 3 year off birth control to get pregnant with my second child But it’s good your waiting till this whole virus is over to get pregnant it’s such a weird world now and days it’s so scary will send prayers

[@dawnbarth7305]

Things right now are just crazy. I feel like my eating has gotten out of control and I have fallen off my WW journey. I had lost 50 lbs and know I have gained. Haven't been able to weigh in at a meeting because of them being closed. I ordered a scale and I haven't gotten it yet. Hopefully soon I will get back on track it's just been so hard. I'm an emotional eater and working in a pharmacy right now is causing me to stress eat. At least when I watch your videos it helps me relax and puts a smile on my face. Hugs for you all.

[@annalynncabinbabiesnursery9984]

Lauren the sun is shining, just go look at that beautiful smile in the mirror 🥰

[@karenbradbury7375]

Need to get my loss journey going again xx

[@samanthayeaton624]

I just love you 💜

[@catloverKD]

When I started my SSRI for depression and anxiety, I noticed immediately that my periods were "easier." They were never horrible, but on meds they're less painful and many days shorter. I totally get what you mean about the anxiety. Before, I literally had adrenaline coursing though me 24/7 for my entire life, and once medication kicked in, I was like "This is what normal feels like." And "HOW did I manage to function like that before?!" No wonder I was always so tired!

[@lithottamera6089]

We are ok. I have anxiety also. Working through it

[@VictoriaG02]

I had a procedure done in the end of February. I was told I have to wait a year before I can even attempt to conceive. I think with everything going on I wouldn’t be trying at the moment anyways until everything was over with.

[@Tenamf]

When u were talking about racing thoughts Iv been having them bad like I’m crazy 😢😢😢

[@missoelkers123]

i have anxiety and this whole COVID-19 its been horrible i don't like going out

[@eileendoherty2836]

Jo Oelkers your not alone 😢🤗🙏❤️

[@amandastrause4574]

I will be glad when this is over. And now knowing I might have been exposed to the virus is freaking me out. I don’t have anxiety but it’s through the roof now.

[@sharonmagerl167]

Amanda you will be ok. Just don't worry yourself sick. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

[@wt0416]

I was thinking about putting birth control in. But now i know that taking it out is very painful journy. Thanks for sharing.

[@Andrea-dw7oo]

Im pregnant and i have anxiety too .. so this is hard .. but im trying my hardest to keep my thoughts in control and stay positive.. i feel like im the only one struggling but i guess im not

[@swimvain]

Honestly, you’ve always seemed unsure about a second baby. I’ve been here since the very beginning and it’s always a strong no and then months later it’s a yes we’re trying lol if you ever do decide, I hope your heart is truly set. I go back and forth since I only have one, but at the end of the day I know I don’t need more.

[@ConcreteCauldron]

Be strong! You must be so proud of yourself being able to still lose weight during this time.

[@adrienneathome474]

I am mentally struggling! I to have anxiety and take meds for it but my emotions are everywhere with this going on.

[@eileendoherty2836]

Adrienne Crumholt I’m same way wish I had a med that would work 💕🤗❤️

[@danarogers4338]

Literally me being pregnant is the main reason I have been staying positive in this mess

[@joannacouncil3875]

I enjoyed your vlog but could John do a vlog like yours lol not about having a baby but about his emotions on everything his feelings staying home an how he feels about where the world's at now an how he deals with anxiety or helps you deal with it all

[@annabowe3385]

I suffer with PCOS, I have a 6 year old little girl and last March we lost our son when I was 5 months pregnant with him after trying many years to even get pregnant. We were planning on trying this year again but with everything going on and currently being in a pandemic with an unknown foreseeable future. We have chosen to wait. It hurts, deeply. However, I want to be able to get through this rough patch without anymore stress. Being pregnant would put my anxiety into overkill right now.

[@mamashell2340]

I'm glad you got help and are having an easier time with your anxiety! I'm very open about my mental health and my meds. When people ask I tell them I take 6 pills a day to save my mind and life! (3 different meds but a total of 6 pills) I've gotten the OMG well what's wrong with you? I respond Nothing it not me it's my brain! 😂😂 Then I truthfully tell them general anxiety social anxiety clinical depression and PTSD. For me I've dealt with it since I was young and it's gotten worse of course as I've aged but it's more about what you do to take care of your mental health than anything. I've struggled to find what would help me so I encourage others to not just give up when something doesn't work. I'm glad you have found something that works and is helping so much!

[@steph6337]

We're you not feeling well (anxiety/depressed) with CBD? Or did you stop that? (Sorry if I missed you saying that.) Im considering CBD.

[@Carballoca]

I can’t imagine being pg right now I know of 4 You Tubers right now all due soon. 😳😳😳. I used to have panic attacks I know exactly what your talking about it can be a roller coaster ride to hell and back. Just lean on your breathing techniques be aware of your breathing how your breathing check yourself now and then and do the affirmations. There are TY videos that you can listen to in your sleep to train your brain to think differently. Search panic, anxiety and affirmations. All in all Lauren your doing great with all thats going on the in the world. The hormone changes that have to be going on since there is no more birth control hormone happening now.

[@peea207]

Lauren, why are we not friends yet? I feel like your my twin! Everything in this entire video is the same, also 4 months free of IUD. I found you originally for weight loss and realized you have a AUsome daughter too!

[@seriousblond007]

I also have an anxiety disorder and we're still in the process of finding something that can be more long term for my treatment than taking Xanax often. Hope I can find something because all the crap going on right now is making me need my Xanax WAY more than I like. #anxietysucks

[@Brokencyde65]

I’m not on BC and not trying for a baby. Our one child was also a “so that just happened/oops”. I’ve thought about having another, husband is not behind that idea, which is fine. Some days I definitely don’t want another one, and it’s also not the right time. Not just because of the pandemic, but I’m a stay at home mom and he works like 60 hours a week, we rent an expensive freaking 2 bedroom apartment, and have a special needs dog. Maybe if we can ever get a house, but still probably not. Anyway! I wish we could be real friends. That would be cool. You seem like my type of person. I love your family. Keep staying safe🥰

[@nikkilove7803]

Can I ask what you are taking? I have tried once and it freaked me out 🤦

[@eileendoherty2836]

Nicole Slavik wish I knew too nothing worked for me in the past 😳😢

[@nikkilove7803]

@@eileendoherty2836 all we can do is keep trying!🌈🥰

[@sharonludlow9614]

my niece is pregnant right now im so scared for her xxx

[@kellygirl8327]

Today has hit me like a ton of bricks but I wanted to send you a message to let you know I’m thinking about all of you. Thank you Lauren, John, Ella, Mom and Pop for sharing your family with us. Please stay save. Love y’all ❤️

[@TheRubinre]

Life is strange. Some women my age on here are trying to get pregnant. Meanwhile I'm going to be a 1st time Grandma this September. My anxiety for this babygirl is off the charts.

[@kathryncraigandthings7237]

I'm also an emotional one on my channel. Hugs to you.

[@linleigh8464]

My menstrual cycles have always been different. Having thynroidism affects things for me, but for the most part the hard part comes with my husband fertility wise. It is heart breaking, frustrating and over all overwhelming. The desire to be a mom is very strong and has been for several years now. Through the storm though God is getting me through. Hearing what your going through & perspective means a lot Lauren! Thank you for being transparent and sharing your journey it helps.

[@beckyjo8745]

Does that new med help with depression also???? I have anxiety and depression and anxiety and my medication isn't cutting it. It is sertraline. Just wondering because I would like to find one that works well. I also think you and John are being VERY VERY responsible to hold off on another baby right now. You two are young and when this stuff passes you can try then. Not coping to well because my meds aren't working to well. We are staying in and everything but I am stressing SO BAD! No income coming into this house to pay ANY bills or food or anything!!!! I really don't know if I am going to make it through this! I feel so WORTHLESS and like I don't deserve anything good. 😥💔😥

[@KRMorgan83]

Did you have the coil or implant

[@LaurenBrazee]

Implant

[@KRMorgan83]

I had complications with the removal of my second implant

[@austinwygal3177]

Worse case scenario Corona is growing and School has been canceled for the rest of the year So that means Extended Summer Vacation and High Schoolers graduate by Delivery

[@SaraaSunnshine]

I found out I was pregnant in February, right before all the shit hit the fan 😅

[@fitmamawife]

No more babies for me right now. I rather wait until all this crap is done & married. I just got engaged in February & I have a 3 yr old. I’m not in a rush. I love children just not ready & not in a rush

[@nancywilliams6777]

Bringing a baby into this world pregnant!? You actually said that. LOL